one of those lazy mornings when you really can't afford one? I can't seem to find the motivation to do much of anything.

i hate being stuck at work with nothing to do. It wouldn't be so bad if there was someone interesting to talk to but that is not the case here.

so yeah i was so happy to be sitting in my quiet room at my desk then it hit hard...like someone just reached into my brain and stole the idea right out of my head.

Just sitting here in the breakroom at work bored out of my mind

ok so me and my mate have been planning on a visit for next weekend for months now and i sent him the money for his trip and it was supposed to arrive today. But no such luck and this has got me so stressed more than I already am and i just needed to vent all of it out into the interwebs and hope that i feel better afterwards

 wolf-mutt show her some love people she does amazing stuff so stop by and show her the love she deserves!!!

had to go through my watch list again and clean it up. I was getting tired of my inbox looking like the spam folder on my email and wanted to see the updates of the people i actually know and a few of the more active artists i follow. There were also accounts on there that haven't been active for almost two or more years.

With that being said I'm gonna start uploading more of my stuff to here after a long dry spell of no drawing.

one of the downfalls of having a mindless job it gives you time to let your mind to wander to other things. So like any good furry left alone with his/her thoughts i thought about the fandom.

And with thinking about the fandom and how friendly it is I began to wonder about my own time in the fandom. If you could actually see my thoughts as i see them they wouldn't paint a pretty view on furries.

I've been to meets and I always feel out of place and uncomfortable. Maybe it's just my own hang ups and I just need to get over it. Who knows honestly but it's just something that has been bothering me for awhile and though that if I put it out into the internet I might get something close to an answer (doubt it) or just get out of my head.

anyone watching me have a twitter twitter account also. i could use more followers my link is in my contact info

cleaning up my watch list. its full of people that haven't been posting anything or i don't know so i'm just gonna stop watching sorry guys

i'm just moving my art from  nerdfur to this account xp

Why can't there just be a day I honestly feel good about when the day finally ends. It started great even though I didn't get nearly enough sleep but I'm used to that. I had a nice breakfast with my daughters. Then my mom entered the picture and started yelling and bitching saying I had a bad attitude when I hadn't said a word to her yet (like usual). This went on all day back and forth and its really fucking draining when the only thing ya wanna do is have a decent afternoon with your kids and enjoy a beautiful day of sun and swimming. On top of all this I got a letter from my lawyer and my (soon to be) ex wife saying a whole lot of horseshit. All I'm wondering is when will it ever get better.

I feel like I should be really happy right now. Both my little girls are home for the first time since me and their mother split a year and a half ago I should be happy and I am to a point. But like always I'm not satisfied with what i have. Now i want someone to hold and spend the night sharing my bed with just for the night. A lot of people say that's what a mate is for. Well I'm not looking for a mate (at least for right now). All I want is someone to cuddle with for a night so maybe I could stop feeling so damn lonely. *sighs* Oh well guess tomorrow will be better.

hells yeah i finally got my vacation started and so far so good. i got a little sleep so i can try and get back to my old sleep schedule. Beyond that a friend I hadn't seen since she graduated in 03 so it was really freaking awesome to see her again it was like we had seen each other every days since she graduated. hopefully the rest of my vacation is as awesome as today was.

god damn it i cant stand my brother's over achieving ass some times. It never seems to fail the second i find someone I'm interested in and I have to be the one to compromise my chance for a meeting for something he has going on and my parents just have to go to. So that means i have to spend the night at home with my daughter, which i don't mind ever, but thursday is the only day i really leave the house to do anything so I'm just a little pissed about it all.