That's right. I may be moving accounts over to  Tsukiiyume.

Why am I?

Because I hate this name. xD Well, not hate but for username wise, I've grown tired of it and Tsukiiyume has been my name for over a year now. So I think it's time to move. Not sure what will become of this account. Probably be a side account for sales and whatnot. Maybe. I'm not sure yet. Plus I'm not sure if I'm moving all my artwork over to the other account. We shall see. Bear with me I suppose. Idk.

- Rin

Life's been rather rough yet again on me. I've been here and there with art but.. I just don't have the passion like I used to. I feel like I'm horrible at it, no one cares, and that I should just.. stop. More or less. So it's unlikely to see a lot of it.

I've fallen back into the pit of where I believe I'm a burden and that I'm useless. That I can't do anything right in my life. Which is also contributing to the fact that I feel like anything I do isn't appreciated or recognized. I'm just.. so lost.

And things are looking grim with this guy I had been seeing.

I just don't get where I go wrong in life when I have all the right intentions.. I just want to run away to a new state, change my name, and state anew. Leave this life for a new one.

I'm just so damn lost..

- Rin

Ac Moore pissed me off to the point that I ended up quitting today. I feel great about it. I'm free of a place that didn't appreciate my work. And lazy managers. And managers that took out their frustrations on their employees.
For now, I'm just going to be working at FedEx and seeing what happens from there. It's all I got. So yeah. Who knows.

I might be doing buyable adoptables 'cause I'm going to need monies. =/ I really need a new phone and without the other job.. I can't afford much still. I've been trying to get a new phone for a while but yeah..

that's about it. I went through my stats today on here and it's sad.. I never reached passed 3 favourites on my works. What a bummer that is. It's a wonder why I continued with art on here. xD; I mean, DevArt is no better but yeah. I unno.

Off to work on stuff I guess. Or Black Ops. One or the other.

- Rin

I suck as a friend. Can't I do anything right in life?

Apparently, back to that whole fiasco with the group on dA, I'm crazy. All because I was defending myself on how they treated the users in their group. People need to go and really analyze themselves on how they run shit.

No wonder DeviantArt has turned into shit these days. Just like the rest of the art communities. Pathetic.

Makes me want to continue forward with this shit.

- Rin

I totally have given up. Just going to live a life where I don't exist.

 Ocesome  Ocesome  Ocesome

Do it. I adore her. She's a total sweetheart that needs more attention. So please, pay her a visit. I would appreciate it greatly. c:

I think I finally have given up. I'm just a disappointment completely. As I posted on DevArt..
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=/ I really wonder why I even bother trying anymore when none of my efforts are even noticed. Not here, not in life, not anywhere. Life, I give up on you. I'll go rot in a corner. "

It just goes to all the people that really don't deserve it. Art communities suck for the sheer reason that people just get popular because of stupid shit and the ones that get left unnoticed are the ones struggling a lot. I know a lot on here that aren't noticed. No, I'm not grouping myself into the category just because I'm upset.

I'm just really aggravated that a few people I know get recognition when they simply don't deserve it versus others that do.

Feh. I still don't understand WHY I'm still here.. when I cannot do anything right in life. I suck at everything so why bother existing?

Have you ever felt like you just didn't belong anywhere? That you were constantly hated, regardless that you've done nothing? Or that you really don't have a friend in the world?

Yep.. sums up my life. My life that's swimming in so much debt and misery and hatred that I believe i'm better off dead than alive, to suffer this torment. ._.

The first 10 people who comment on this journal will be featured here, along with three deviation chosen from their gallery by myself.

If you answer, you'll have to do the same in your journal, putting me on the first place, completing the list with 9 other people. The idea of this is not to get a free feature, it is to spread art around for everyone.

(ALSO, YOU HAVE TO ACTUALLY HAVE ART, EITHER DONE BY YOU OR COMMISSIONED IN YOUR GALLERY)

1.  Piia
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4700986/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4915942/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4812273/

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You all a merry christmas.

=/ Mine's not merry at all so. -shrugs- Can't even show anything more than that.

-Rin

Hope everyone has a good one. I will be doing two gifts for two artists on here so keep your eyes peeled~ Ocesome should know one is for her. xD I just need to ink it and colour~ |D

Do you think a lot of them are a bunch of assholes just because they are popular and their artwork is nice to look at? That they think they can treat the lower artists like shit about things? Seriously, I'm plainly getting tired of it. I've seen what popularity has done to people, especially friends.. Wtf is wrong with people? Get your heads out of your fucking ass and look around.
Ugh. e.e I'm starting to really regret being in the field of art.

=/ Why is life so damn difficult? Seriously..

Commission Information -

I accept Paypal and Snailmail.
When interested, note me. I'll give you the addresses for both Paypal or mailing address.
Please pay in advanced. Or after the sketch stage. I will not complete your work if you do not pay me.

All commissions should be either commented or noted. Noted would be wiser since I won't lose it. When commissioning, please, I beg you, give me ALL the information I will need to complete the designated task at hand. If you do not, I will probably fudge up the commission. So it's wiser to tell me exactly what you want. Or give me a reference picture of what you want. THAT is very, very helpful. Same with references to poses, etcetc.

Information about each category will be posted underneath the prices so you know what is included.

Paid commissions will be worked on first before unpaid. Makes more sense.

Please tell me which medium you want me to work in when I end up working on your commission.

The mediums -
Coloured pencils
Inking pens(for linearts)
Photoshop/Illustrator/Fireworks/Flash

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Headshots: http://heartlesspuppet.deviantart.c.....shot-109226297 http://heartlesspuppet.deviantart.c.....adge-141377617 http://heartlesspuppet.deviantart.c.....shot-172453643
Sketch - $1
Lineart - $1
Coloured - Flats(Traditional or CG) - $2
Coloured - Shaded(traditional or CG) - $2
Adding an extra character - $1 each character.

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Bustshots(from waist up): http://heartlesspuppet.deviantart.c.....l-go-160149454
Sketch - $2
Lineart - $2
Coloured - Flats(traditional or CG) - $3
Coloured - Shaded(traditional or CG) - $3
Adding an extra character - $1 each character.

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Kneeshots/Full Body shots:http://tsukiiyume.deviantart.com/ar.....Same-168180029 http://tsukiiyume.deviantart.com/ar.....erer-168172860 http://heartlesspuppet.deviantart.c.....r-BG-125936620 http://heartlesspuppet.deviantart.c.....n-sk-165777346
Sketch - $3
Lineart - $3
Coloured - Flats(traditional or CG) - $5
Coloured - Shaded(traditional or CG) - $6
Background - $2~3 added to any of the options.(Depends on complexity)
Adding an extra character - $2~4 each character.(Depends on complexity)

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Animal (headshots/Fullbody):http://heartlesspuppet.deviantart.c.....etch-180674225 http://heartlesspuppet.deviantart.c.....etch-180897085 http://heartlesspuppet.deviantart.c.....etch-180897213 http://heartlesspuppet.deviantart.c.....mp-1-180673928 http://tsukiiyume.deviantart.com/ar.....Shoe-180103207 http://tsukiiyume.deviantart.com/ar.....-Kio-179630111 http://tsukiiyume.deviantart.com/ar.....Sold-177224571 http://heartlesspuppet.deviantart.c.....etch-174991423
Sketch - $2
Lineart - $2
Coloured - flats(trad. or cg) - $4
Coloured - Shaded(trad. or CG) - $4
Background - $1~2 added to any of the options. (Depends on the complexity)
Adding an extra character - $1~2 each character. (Depends on the complexity)

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Chibis:http://tsukiiyume.deviantart.com/ar.....hade-171925420 http://tsukiiyume.deviantart.com/ar.....ours-168923074 http://tsukiiyume.deviantart.com/ar.....lats-171241413 http://heartlesspuppet.deviantart.c.....name-170739618 http://heartlesspuppet.deviantart.c.....in-2-137598918
Sketch - $2
Lineart - $2
Coloured - Flat(trad. or CG) - $3
Coloured - Shaded(trad. or CG) - $3
Background - $1~2 added to any of the options. (Depends on the complexity)
Adding an extra character - $1~2 each character. (Depends on the complexity)

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Kemonomimi Designs
Basically, if you want a character to be designed for you, I will create whatever you want with a description of the character to be created. All commissions are fully coloured.

Simplistic designs( very simple design such as this: http://heartlesspuppet.deviantart.c.....hibi-170739229) - $2

Basic designs( more complex, more design to it but not super complicated:http://tsukiiyume.deviantart.com/ar.....nako-171863946) - $4~5

Complicated Designs( much more detail put into the design with a lot of accessories, clothing details, overall character appearance: http://tsukiiyume.deviantart.com/ar.....tfit-177026618) - $6~10

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Quad Designs
All designs are fully coloured.

Simple design( Few markings and accessories: http://heartlesspuppet.deviantart.c.....Kitty-50817191 http://heartlesspuppet.deviantart.c.....Kitty-52239107 Excuse the old art. xD) - $1~2

Basic design( Fair amount of markings/accessories:http://heartlesspuppet.deviantart.c.....-Love-63462719) - $2~3

Complicated design(Much more detail and markings/accessories:http://heartlesspuppet.deviantart.c.....-Rin-180897341 http://heartlesspuppet.deviantart.c.....sona-176963011) - $3~4

My DO's and DON'T:
DO'S:
Original Characters
Animals
GaiaOnline stuff.
Fanart( to a degree)
Couples
Adult stuff. If you want this, note me because I might not do what you want. Bare bodies is fine. Male anatomy sucks so I give you warning.
Furries (still learning so bare with me on that if you order it.)


DON'T'S:
Sonic characters. (I don't like the style nor can I draw like that. Maybe in the future)
Mecha stuff. Too difficult.
Guns. Horribly bad at them.
Anything that's overly ornate/designed. If it has a really, really ridiculous amount of details, either i will cut it down a bit for my own ease or not do it at all. I apologize but I am still a learning artist. I will tell you immediately if I can/can't do it at the time.
Certain backgrounds.


PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! Give me references if you want an original character. Really, I NEED a picture to do artwork for you.

Remember this: I can decline ANY commission if I see fit. And my prices WILL change here and there so watch for it.


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Yeah. Bored. |: Livestreamin'.

http://www.livestream.com/tsukiyume

Happy 20th Birthday to meeeee~ lol

Yep. Oh boy. lool.

Mm. Obviously I am back-ish. lol. Just having a lot of issues atm with life. Hopefully more artwork will be added. Still need to finish an art-trade. Gotta colour and wutnot. Might be tonight's project or something. I unno. lol. We shall see. Plus  Piia got me wanting to draw stuffs I dun normally draw. O:<

Until I decide to ever come back to art communities. =/ I'm going through a lot of problems right now so I probably will not be updating my gallery here or on DevArt. Ocesome, all I have is your lineart for the art trade. I'm sorry that I haven't even coloured it yet.

- Rin

Would you guys watch? Curious actually. lol.

D: Seriously. My stomach hurts badly. Wahhhhhhhh. :<

Why yes. c: I wanted to just randomly spam you all. Teehee. <3~

- Rin

I'm lost and all I want to do is break down completely. The internet really proves that I don't belong. =/ Every friend I've gained has only backfired and hurt me in some degree that makes me what to disappear for a long time. I can't trust anyone. I can't do anything anymore. No one, basically, understands me unless they get to see me in person which.. I only hang out with two people anyways.. I lack real friends. So.. I feel like all I am is a burden. .-. I just.. don't know. I'm sorry for the rant. I'm just really upset and don't know where to go at this point.

Well, I decided that maybeeeee I'll give this place another shot. Considering... dA frowns nudes and whatnot a lot. -.- Would be my luck to get mine deleted. And HentaiFoundry can go suck a dick. I'm not fond of that place anymore. The shittest submission can get approved but when I submit something, I'm called out on quality and anatomy errors. Excuse me, I spot SEVERAL fucking mistakes in the art submitted. Whatever, the admin are horrible there.

Anyways, I'll be updating with my stuff that I've been posting to my deviantart accounts. Select things anyways. So.. yeah. lol.

- Laura/Rin/Tsukiyume