...I took too much time in updating things on here, but then again, it's kinda hard to when there's a huge hard drive failure. So...to business.

Since I didn't get to tell you guys on here, I have officially resolved Sprint. I'm back to having just two lines, one will be for my mother. The phone I've tried so desperately to take back, is finally back, so I have nothing to worry about for it. They've credited my account, so I got back the amount I paid for it, and it turns out the store in the mall did double-charge me, since I paid for it there and it showed up on my bill. So, I still technically lost that money...which is sad...but I was given a $50 credit from before, and then the activation fee on my Galaxy S3 has been waived. So, I still owe about $180. Which is sad...but I'll probably end up telling customer support that I can't afford that much this month.

Anyway, now that I have all of that cleared up...I can actually use my phone! And for tethering too! So, I believe I can actually get things done. Also, this directly leads into something new. I have an actual website for managing commissions now. I'm still adding the pricing and terms, but I figured this was a much better alternative. Plus, let's face it...FA isn't the most stable place on the internet (the last week proves it).

So, to anyone wishing to see my site, it's at http://ashanriuwriting.com
Yes, it is powered by Google Apps...and it's also cheap as hell to afford. So, I'm sticking with that. Much better than trying to do everything with source code, I've noticed...but oh well. I'll be updating things on here in the coming week to reflect this drastic change of commission hosting.

Anyway...I'm just happy that everything is getting better again. I've been a bit depressed, but I'm breaking through it! I hope everyone is doing wonderful.

I love you guys! <3333333333333333

Yes, I'm still apologizing for not being very active here. I've had a LOT of things I've been dealing with personally, to the point that it's scary. I don't talk much on here anymore because I've had to focus on work, commissions (where possible) and I've only talked to a few friends in the last few days. Not to mention my phone is not working out as well as I thought, but that's not the phone's fault.

The phone issues are directly related to Sprint. They STILL have not contacted me about the Optimus Elite they were supposed to accept back. I've gotten my monthly bill yesterday, and...I'm now livid. They're expecting me to pay for three activation fees (Optimus Elite, Phone Connect, and Galaxy S3) and they all total over $100 alone. It's $36 per line that is activated. They're also charging me again for the Elite, despite having already paid for it, and despite all efforts to return the damn thing, they've still not listened to my request.

I'll even break down the bill for you.

Previous Balance $80.38

Payment on Aug 20 -$20.00
Payment on Aug 20 -$65.59
Payment on Aug 26 -$80.38

New Charges

Aug 31-Sep 02-Prorated Charges
(317) 362-XXXX
Aug 31 - Sep 02 Credit: Everything Data - 450 Anytime Minutes Included -$5.74

Aug 31-Sep 02-Prorated Charges
Aug 31 - Sep 02 Everything Data - 1500 Shared Anytime Minutes Included $11.00
Aug 31 - Sep 02 Employee Discount Sprint 18% -$1.98

(317) 362-XXXX
Aug 31 - Sep 02 Top-Tier Total Equipment Protection - $8 InsurancePremium & $3 Service/Repair $1.10
Aug 31 - Sep 02 Premium Data add-on charge $1.00
Sep 01 - Sep 02 Credit: Premium Data add-on charge -$0.67

(317) 438-XXXX
Aug 31 - Sep 02 Everything Data - 1500 Shared Anytime Minutes Included $2.00
Aug 31 - Sep 02 Premium Data add-on charge $1.00

Aug 03-Sep 02-Non-Prorated Charges

(317) 362-XXXX
Google Play: Application - chompSMS license MAS -08/29 $1.03

(317) 438-XXXX
Activation Fee-Additional Line $36.00

Sep 03-Oct 02-New Shared Plan
Everything Data - 1500 Shared Anytime Minutes Included $110.00
Employee Discount Sprint 18% -$19.80

(317) 362-XXXX
Top-Tier Total Equipment Protection - $8 Insurance Premium & $3Service/Repair $11.00
Premium Data add-on charge $10.00

(317) 438-XXXX
Everything Data - 1500 Shared Anytime Minutes Included $19.99
Premium Data add-on charge $10.00

Aug 31-Sep 02-Single Plan - Prorated Charges
(317) 438-XXXX
Aug 31 - Sep 02 Sprint Phone Connect $2.00

Single Plan

(317) 438-XXXX
Sprint Phone Connect $19.99
Activation Fee-Additional Line $36.00

Aug 18-Sep 02-Single Plan - Prorated Charges
(317) 789-7XXX
Aug 18 - Sep 02 Talk Plan - 450 Anytime Minutes Included $20.00
Aug 20 - Sep 02 Credit: Talk Plan - 450 Anytime Minutes Included -$17.33
Aug 18 - Sep 02 Employee Discount Sprint 18% -$0.48

Aug 20-Sep 02-Single Plan - Prorated Charges
(317) 789-6XXX
Aug 20 - Sep 02 Everything Data - 450 Anytime Minutes Included $30.33
Sep 02 - Sep 02 Credit: Everything Data - 450 Anytime Minutes Included -$2.33
Aug 20 - Sep 02 Employee Discount Sprint 18% -$5.04
Aug 20 - Sep 02 Premium Data add-on charge $4.33
Sep 02 - Sep 02 Credit: Premium Data add-on charge -$0.33

Single Plan

(317) 789-6XXX
Activation Fee-Additional Line $36.00

Spending Limit Program Charge $4.99
LG LS696 HANDSET $85.59

Sprint Surcharges $17.85
Show Details And Explanation of Charges

Government Fees & Taxes $18.74
Show Details And Explanation of Charges


Total Due by September 26 $350.65




Anything in bold is disputed heavily. Even some of the things not in bold are not very thrilling. I'm going to the Sprint store today to get it straightened around. If things still aren't resolved today, I'm cancelling all services. Hell, even the ETFs wouldn't be as costly as paying this.

So, this is what I've been dealing with for the last week. I hope you all can see why I'm so thoroughly pissed. Even with my 18% discount, I'm being charged that much. That's unacceptable, and inexcusable. I'm not happy at all...and this will be resolved.

So, yeah...sorry for not talking, guys...I hope that clears the air as to why I've been unable to respond much. I love you guys...but until I get this straightened out, I can't even do much at home. Oh, if Sprint tries to say they can't accept the S3 when I cancel, because it's been rooted, I'll tell them that they've accepted phones for repair that were rooted without issue, so if they're going to do that to me, then they'll lose a lot of customers because of everything.

All of this just to upgrade a phone...it would've been cheaper to terminate my Sprint contract, save up for a phone, buy it outright, and pay $40 a month for a chip that gives me unlimited everything (including minutes).

Alrighty...this is going to be a long journal, so if you don't want to read everything, I encourage you to read anything in bold. I'm just warning you ahead of time, because that's how much has happened this weekend. It's very important.

First thing is, I have had a LOT of trouble with my Sprint contract this weekend, and it's not entirely Sprint's fault. I am going to tell you all, right now, to NEVER get a phone from any place except the store that is owned by said phone company. For example, if you see a kiosk saying "Sprint" in the mall, avoid it like the plague. Go to an actual Sprint store. I will explain by showing you the email I sent to Sprint. Just go here: https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....AkJ4OwONs/edit

Second, for anyone that is wondering how my weekend went after that horrible, horrible fiasco, it was ok, but not perfect. I was out of the house the entire weekend, thanks to a minidrake. This is someone I tend to hang around often, and he's always been kind to me. Well, he's the one that helped with the whole Sprint ordeal, ensuring that I wasn't going to get ripped off. I stayed at his apartment, Friday through Monday, just hanging out and whatnot. I'm really glad I had him around, though I was starting to get a bit antsy on Monday, because I wanted to work on my commissions, but at least I got to relax.

I also went to a baseball game, second one I've ever been to. My team won (Indianapolis Indians) with 8 points, yet we only had 6 hits. Let's just say the other team had so many errors, we kept walking and loading the plates ;3

I also went to an event that was specifically tailored to naughty, naughty conversations...I had coffee with a few unknowns, and I was one of three furries attending, and I only knew one of the others X3 it was still a fun event, and I'll probably go again, but long story short, some poor girl didn't know what an orgasm was X3

I didn't get to work on commissions much this weekend due to every single thing happening...but, I suppose I should just try to stop worrying about if I'll work on it and just work on it when possible. After all, it's more or less a hobby, even if I am getting money for it. I should enjoy it, not be stressed out, heh. The goal is for me to complete them while having fun, not try to rush them. I want to give quality work, not just write things, shove them aside, and run to the next thing in a hurry. I need time with this, quality work takes time. Hell, any artist knows that :3

Anyway...I now have a third pet. Yes, I'm becoming a total dom at this rate, yet...I've noticed that it's only specific ones I'm going after. Either I must already have an emotional connection, or it must be one that develops quickly and lasts for longer than a few days. I think I should definitely limit myself to these three pets at this rate...at least my mate can help in this, it makes things so much easier to know he's fine with this, so I think three pets is fine <3 if we get more, I may not mind it so much, but I don't want to be overwhelmed...I do show each of them great affection and love, though for at least two of them, it involves me saying things that are probably not exactly tactful. Which brings me to the last journal I made.

To anyone concerned about my last journal, about what I said about  tidalechoes, I wish to assure you that I'm not hurting him. He wants this, and even at that, he will always have the option of no longer being my pet. There's no "right" way of going about such a broad interest as master/pet relationships...there are plenty of wrong ways, but no one true way of doing it. He is my pet, yes...and I guide him, because I see him as an equal. I give advice when he wants it, and I show him kindness, always. I do everything in my power to make him happy, as he does for me. My words make him happy, when I sound possessive, so I do understand that it seems like I was getting carried away, and I'll admit that...but, this is what he likes as well, so please don't be too concerned. Keep in mind, not all master/pet relationships are as "passionate" as the ones I have with my pets. I just happen to somehow be this assertive...but I'm literally only like this when I know I can be. I'm not like this randomly, I can't do that...I only do this when I know it's fine ^.=.^

I think that's pretty much it...I'll try to respond to things when possible, but I've been so busy that it's scary. I'm at work right now...but I'll try to respond to things ^.=.^;;

Alright everyone...so, my week has had a lot of ups and downs. A couple big downs early in the week, and then a huge few ups. I'm not going to say all of them, because it doesn't really matter...but the big stuff is on my updated profile info. I need to alter that again as well...but ya.

Anyway, weekend plans. Firstly, I'm about to get out of work. I'm replacing my phone yet again because this one keeps randomly rebooting. It did this three times on Wednesday, and it was very irritating. However, this time, I plan to take the $80 credit on my Optimus Elite and apply money from my paycheck today to (hopefully) get a Samsung Galaxy S III. Yes, I'm getting "that" phone...I figured, if I'm going to get something that I will need to rely on, it better be good this time. Now, normally it's over $500, but since I'm trying to get it from the line that I added to my plan, I think I should be able to. Worst case scenario, I tell them the many flaws with this phone and how defective it is, and that I expect some sort of compensation for the amount of time wasted.

Now then...after I get my new phone, I'm going home to clean up, and then going with a friend I've been hanging around with the last month or so, to some sort of coffee place, and there's going to be a whole BDSM thing going on...I'm assuming it's just a meet-and-greet, unless it changes to meet-and-hump, but...no matter. Obviously I'm kinda new to that variation of things, but I have two pets that I own, and if through some strange miracle I get a third (Not actually expecting this, by the way), then that would be truly interesting. I suppose I'm very selective with my pets...which is a good thing ;3

So, I'm staying at my friend's apartment most of the weekend, if not Monday as well. Not sure on that though...I could use a whole day off just to work on commissions. I really need to get the first one done, but not because I'm in a hurry, but because I don't like keeping anyone waiting. It always adds an amount of pressure...and I don't want to slack off. So, I may take some time tomorrow and Sunday to work on it a little bit, and finish it Monday. At least, that's my intention. Worst case scenario, I finish it Monday. I've got three pages completed entirely, and I have four pages left. Then there's a separate thing I have to add, but I'm not sure if I'll work on it immediately after I'm done with the first, or if I'll work on the second commission in order to help transition and ease me through things. I'll figure it out in time.



Now...a major announcement. I wish to formally welcome  tidalechoes into my loving family. He is my pet, and I own him completely. He is mine...I've already ensured that. I share him with my mate, and this is all completely mutual. So, my little family is growing. And it's possible it may grow even more. Not sure yet though. It definitely seems like it will go that way though <3 but yes...Tidal is owned by me. When I move to where my mate is, I'll be able to get him a collar...I can't wait! <3

Tidal isn't active on here yet, he just made his account last night, but I'll be helping him when I can with his profile. I'm truly happy right now...My little family is growing! <3333333333333

Anyway, take care everyone! I love you guys!

To anyone wondering, I'm redoing my profile. Anything that may be extra, I'm putting here, and I'll hopefully organize neatly. Or at least, neater than just on the top of my profile X3

So, here we go.

Complex Information:
I currently live in Indianapolis, Indiana, though I plan to move somewhere else eventually. Not sure if I'll stay in state, but...oh well. I'm always interested in meeting people, so if you wish to meet me, just ask. I'm extremely kind and emotional, but I can't handle drama because it gets to me both mentally and physically. I just like to cling to others, honestly. Never be afraid to come up to me and give me a hug, it'll really cheer me up if I'm down, or just make my day even better! <3

I abstain from pretty much any and all topics of religion, but only because I wish not to cause drama. Plus, I am otherkin. I don't always talk too much on here, I mainly use this place for images and faves, but I'm really much more active on Google+ or Skype, when my connection works.

Just so people know, I talk to MANY people...I'm on five different communities: This one, Google+, Skype (through a spiritual community), deviantART and Facebook. I know a lot of people. Probably over 1000 people. I don't always remember them, however. A lot of these people I know, I've met in the last year, but there are some I've known for a longer time. If I forgot about you, please don't be sad...I've repressed many things, for so long, it's scary. I'm trying to work on this, it's not easy. In fact, it's very painful. So if I can't remember you, please just try to work with me. This is something very emotional for me, and I am trying to reconnect with at least some of the people I used to know. If you knew me from awhile back, drop me a line. I've gone by quite a few aliases, the most common one being Sammonaran. I've kinda dropped that one, however, because I've changed who I am, for a bit. If you're wondering the kind of change I had to do, for those that know of Naruto, I am much like Uchiha Itachi. I had to do something, that unspeakable, in order to save myself and my friends, mainly from myself. But...I've learned to endure. And soon, after I stop repressing, I'll be able to move on.

Brothers:  avilion justbored magnakoji shadowlupus secondguest unnameddragon rayjmaster killthetsar waqiathunderwolf epsynus

IF I'VE MISSED SOMEONE, PLEASE TELL ME IN A NOTE...I want to keep track of those that show me kindness <3 I may not always talk much, but you're still greatly appreciated...I just get very busy @.=.@

Requests I've made:
Who wants to see me eat a poptart? :3
If I've made a request and forgotten who you are, PLEASE make sure to tell me. Most of the time it's random and I can't remember, I also tend to repress things (something I'm working on currently) so please bear with me.

Commissions I have pending:
(Long term, won't be done until it is done, payment will be given when funds are available and commission is done)
(Paid, may take a bit of time. It's a ref of Ashanriu! Sketching has not started yet)
(Paid, digital lineart of Ashanriu, and it's naughty ;3) And it seems to be on hold, for now.
(Paid, I'M GETTING A TAIL! Fur is being bought now :3)

Somehow I lost the information for who is making my collar...I'll be retrieving that when she tells me she's started on it.
These are the only commissions I have active. If I have anything else pending, it's most likely not a commission, and if there is any confusion, please contact me in a note.

If you wish to draw something for me or have something of me drawn, PLEASE make sure to note me about it first! I like surprises, but I'd rather know something was on its way at least, so that I can make sure to be on the lookout for it. My reason for this is simple: There may be some things I'd rather not have done. If it's something that is 18+, it MUST be directly taken up with me first, regardless of who you are. I don't usually allow 18+ things drawn of me, and when I do, I don't usually post it. I tend to keep things like that private.

Priorities for where money is going: 1. Moving close to cithan; 2. Giving back to the artists' community through commissions and buying gifts for friends; 3. Attending cons with friends and helping them have a great time; 4. Paying off previous college debt (I'd have to ensure that too, heh). PLEASE HELP ME GET TO MY MATE...I really want to be with him physically <3

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3796707/

To those interested, enter here ;3 And yes, I'm planning on entering as well...but I'm using the only feral pic I have (that means Raiok ;3)

Stolen from  killthetsar

100 Truths

1. Last beverage: Water

2. Last phone call:  cithan <3 For our one-month anniversary ^.=.^

3. Last text message:  cithan (I'm not joking X3)

4. Last song you listened to: I honestly can't remember o.=.o;;

5. Last time you cried: Came close to last night, but more or less happy tears


HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Got back with someone you've broken up with: A couple times...and realized it just wouldn't ever work.

7. Been cheated on: Worse...been manipulated by someone who had at least me and my first mate under the influence of "love"

8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Not that I can recall

9. Lost someone special: A few friends, but not by death

10. Been depressed: Sadly, yes.

11. Been drunk and threw up: Nope.



LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. Blue

13. Purple

14. Teal



THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2012)

15. Made a new friend: Many ^.=.^

16. Fallen out of love: In and out

17. Laughed until you cried: Yesh :3

18. Met someone who changed you: If I had to put all the people who helped change me, this journal would be full of names.

19. Found out who your true friends were: That happens anyway

20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yes...good and bad, actually.

21. Kissed anyone on your Facebook friend's list: If Facebook, no...if Google+, yes X3

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Not many

23. How many kids do you want?: Don't think I want kids

24. Do you have any pets?: Two kitties <3

25. Do you want to change your name: Not really...unless I must.

26. Where did you last go?: Speedway, last night

27. What time did you wake up today?: 6 AM

28. What were you doing at midnight last night?: Talking, trying to sleep

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Meeting my mate in person <3

30. Last time you saw your Mother: Well, she's at work with me, so...:/

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life?: Where I live

32. What are you listening to right now: The sound of my mother eating pretzel sticks X.=.x

34. Who is getting on your nerves now?: My mother and grandmother

35. Most visited webpage: FA and Google+

36.Whats your real name: Dale

37. Nicknames: Check my profile page, towards the top ;3

39. Zodiac sign: Virgo/Libra cusp

40. Male or female? Male, with slight feminine tendencies (I will totally squeal if you show romance to me <3)

41. Primary School?: Yes

42. Secondary School?: Yes

43. High school/college?: Yes (Not graduated from college, however)

44. Hair color: Brown

45. Long or short: It reaches my shoulders...X3

47. Do you have a crush on someone? I tend to crush on everyone, but it's usually very short. I do tend to show love longer to those that get close to my heart <3

48: What do you like about yourself?: My creativity ^.=.^

49. Piercings: Two, one in each ear

50: Tattoos: None (currently)

51. Righty or lefty: Murr ;3 I mean, right hand X3



FIRST:

52. First surgery: Oral surgery...had to have four teeth removed when I was 11. No, not wisdom teeth. It was also a day before my birthday X3

53. First piercing: Left ear

54. First best friend: His name was Derek...haven't seen him since high school, sophomore year. He turned into a huge dick when I got into the sixth grade, so I don't regret not seeing him again.

55. First sport you joined: Flag football (shutup X3)

56. First vacation: Indiana Beach

57. First pair of trainers/running shoes: The fuck if I remember X3


RIGHT NOW:

58. Eating: Nothing

59. Drinking: Nothing

60. I'm about to: Work. X3

61. Listening to: My mother doing calculations

62. Waiting for: Tonight! (Oooooh!)
JK...I dunno, I suppose lunch time X3

63. I'm feeling: Sleepy


YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids?: Only if my mate wants them X3

65. Get married?: Only if my mate wants to...normally I'd say no, but I truly want a commitment with him

66. Career: Writer, Computer Support

67. Lips or eyes: Eyes (<3)

68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs(<333)

69. Shorter or taller: Taller (<33333333333)

70. Older or Younger: Younger (<33333333333333333)

71. Romantic or spontaneous: Both (In case you can't tell, my mate fits a lot of these, hence the hearts X3)

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Both/Either (<33333333333333333333)

73. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive (I can't keep putting so many hearts X3)

74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship (<3)



HAVE YOU:

75. Kissed a stranger: Define the amount of time someone is no longer a stranger and I can properly answer this X3

76. Drank hard Liquor: Rum...but I need something with it <3

77. Lost glasses/contacts: My poor monies X.=.x

78. Sex on first date: Don't think I've been that plastered X3

79. Broken someone's heart: Yes...;.=.;

80. Been arrested: NopeNopeNopeNopeNopeNopeNopeNopeNope!

81. Turned someone down: Yes...but that was based on their personality

82. Cried when someone died: My cat...does that count?

83. Fallen for a friend: Many...but I've found that, even when I do, I keep going back to my mate X3



MUSIC:

84. HIP HOP: Huh?

85. METAL: Uhh...?

86. ROCK: You don't have anything in my genre

87. POP: @.=.@

88. COUNTRY: NopeNopeNopeNopeNopeNopeNopeNopeNopeNopeNope

89. R & B: *confused*

90. ALTERNATIVE: Dafuq?



ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

91. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: I have, but I don't know if it was really love or if it was just lust

92. Did you sing today?: Not today...maybe recently...but not today.

93. Did something illegal?: Not that I can recall...oh wait, I torrent things, obviously that makes me a criminal ;3

94. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: I have no desire to interrupt the past

95. The moment you would choose to relive?: Can't think of any

96. Are you afraid of falling in love?: I am in love, so of course not X3

97. When was the last time you lied?: I don't remember...I try not to lie, because it's not something I like to do

98. Are you usually late, early or right on time?: I don't know, I don't keep track X3

99. Would you give your life to save someone else's?: Yes

100. Are you afraid of posting this as 100 truths?: I'd not have wasted my time if I wasn't going to post it x3

Alright everyone...normally I don't do this...but I've decided, in order to get more watchers and possibly some commissions, I'm going to hold a poetry raffle. The poem will be four stanzas, six lines each (that's 24 lines). The subject will be whatever someone wishes it to be within reason (I'll not be doing anything involving fetishes or sex in a poem, I'm sorry).

Rules:

I need from you:
A username
Subject
Reference(s) (if the subject includes a character)
And today's date (to make sure you read this).

What I also need you to do:
Watch me
Pimp the journal

What I will not put in the poem:
Sex
Anything related to sex
Fetishes
Disturbing or graphic details

I have it this way because I want to make some things that can show creativity without destroying the minds of young children. I also reserve the right to feature this in a book I'm making for my poetry. I will give reference to the person that gives me the idea for the poem, but the poem still remains my creation (as it should anyway). Basically, you get a free feature in my book, I make money from something I wrote from the inspiration of whatever subject you give me. It's a win-win.

I will give you a number when you post. When I get a decent number of people (10+) I'll start drawing numbers. I'll be drawing from this pool of people about five times before people have to sign up for a new raffle that I make. This keeps things consistent, but also gives a larger amount of people to get a poem.

Now...depending on which happens first (either I get 50 slots or it hits September 30th), I'll make a new raffle. Everything for this raffle must be completed first, however. Once there are ten people, I'll draw. For every ten people that sign up, I'll draw another number until I hit 50. That's when I'll make a new raffle.

Now, if you agree with the terms, go ahead and sign up. I hope this is reasonable...I think it is :3

_________________

Reserved for drawings

Drawings:
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4.
5.

Alright everyone...I'm so sorry for not talking much. I do check notes when possible, but I couldn't really respond to much. I do want to say that I'm hoping everyone had a good and restful weekend, and for those going back to school, I hope you all have a wonderful week! (I know, school sucks, but you'll pull through...I did, and I skipped over a month my sophomore year of high school!)

So, you know how I couldn't root my phone? Well, I still can't root it. However, I was able to install OpenGarden when I got my phone activated (last Wednesday). Well, up until now, I was trying desperately to make it work, because not even FoxFi would work under the Bluetooth DUN. Well, today, I'm at work and magically the damn thing started working! But it doesn't matter, now that I'm at work, since I can run the wireless off the routers we have here.

However, it does mean that I can test this when I get home and ensure the thing works. Once testing is done, I should be able to actually do things. If this holds true, my activity should increase. Hopefully. It just depends on what I can do. I don't want to say it's a definite, especially since I have no clue what will happen, but I'll try. Right now my connection is smooth, and stable.

To those I haven't responded to, I'll check through comments left and respond where necessary (I'm at work so don't expect quick responses to magically appear).

In the meantime, I'm debating on switching my pricing scheme prematurely to the Iron Writer prices I depicted in this journal. Would this make you guys actually buy? I only have one commission and I got that two nights ago, and I've had commissions open ever since I got back from IFC. I don't care what anyone says, that is pitiful...I didn't expect to have all my slots filled, but even two or three would've been nice. At least to get me started...I mean, what do I have to do? Post a lot of my older poems and works? I suppose I could, but I'd have to download them through my old deviantART accounts to show what I can do. I suppose I can start posting my poems now, the ones I was going to include in a project of mine (I'm going to write a poetry book). So...just let me know what is better: Standard prices or Iron Writer. I will not switch unless I have at least a couple people that will actually pay. I may change my terms of payment, but that's because it's easier to rip off a writer than it is to rip off a digital artist. All one needs is to see the words, and they can easily copy them...that's why I'm probably going to put it so half the commission must be paid for before I begin work. Just trying to make things better for everyone on this. I'm not saying anyone would actually do that, but I do know that there are some like that, so I want to ensure I'm not taken advantage of, in that regard.

But yeah...and if you need to, send me a note. I can easily accept commissions by note :3

Take care everyone! <3

Ok...so, everyone. You all know how I got my phone Tuesday? Well, I kinda had some issues with it...the biggest being activation. I couldn't get it activated Tuesday night. That was mainly my own fault, since I was hanging out with a few friends...and then I stayed at the apartment of one of them (I've hung around him before so it wasn't really that bad). So, after I woke up yesterday, I tried...and found out that you can't go to a Sprint store to activate a phone, you either have to go online or to the place you purchased from (which, for me, was a retailer in a mall near my house). So, I tried activating by phone, and as I did so, I was told the ESN was locked to another account.

Well, this resulted in a drive to the mall, and a 30 minute wait just to see what the hell went wrong. The phone was direct shipped from a Sprint warehouse, so unless someone activated it and repackaged everything neatly, I doubt it was locked. When they looked it up, it wasn't locked to anything, and it actually showed up on my account. So, by the end of it, the people at the store thought it was just the customer care technician goofing up.

So, phone is activated, and it works. There is only one HUGE problem now...and don't worry, it has nothing to do with my number (that was transferred over to the new phone). This phone has very little progress for being rooted. It's Sprint's version of the LG Optimus Elite. Almost every guide out there is for Virgin Mobile's version of the Elite. Noone has really messed with it, and in fact maybe four days ago, someone found a way to root it, but it's so much more involved than most phones. So...it will probably be months before I can root it.

Why is this a problem? Well, for those unfamiliar about Sprint's services, it is a violation of contract to tether (by USB or wirelessly) unless you pay $20 extra per month. I'm poor, unfortunately..so, when I root my phone, and allow tethering, it actually works and I don't have to pay that fee. But since this phone has just barely been explored in terms of hacking, I'm a bit SOL at the moment. I could try looking at this through my phone, but...let's face it. I can't type nearly as quickly on a phone than I can on a laptop. Especially when the phone is a touchscreen.

Tl;dr: My phone works, but I can't do tethering until I get it rooted, which is currently not possible and won't be for at least a month due to not many people working with it yet. Yeah...I'm not happy...but, at least my phone doesn't lag. And I get internal storage besides the firmware storage (I actually have about 2GB of internal memory, plus my 32GB SD card). So, it's ok...it's not the best phone, but I'll hopefully make some modifications soon...well, as soon as some programmers actually work with it, heh.

Also, because of this, I'll be more active on Google+ and by texting. I'm really sorry guys, I don't mean to do things like this, but...it's kinda how it is right now. I still have to talk to someone about a private stream, heh...oh well.

Love you guys...please take care <3

I have a new phone! I can't activate it online though, so I have to wait until I'm in a quiet place to actually call to get it done...because right now I'm at a Buffalo Wild Wings getting internet. Which won't last long, as my laptop is on battery. Oh joy.

In the meantime, I'm just checking some things...will probably get off of here soon to conserve battery power. Currently at 77% power, once it hits 50%, I disappear to conserve. So..ya...

Laterz everyone ^.=.^

Alright, so if any of you have been paying attention (I know some have, and others just haven't)...I'm getting a new phone. My current one has been driving me insane and it just doesn't really do much for what I need. However, there was a catch...I had to add a line to my current plan in order to get what I needed. I'm getting an LG Optimus Elite (which is better than my LG Optimus S, sadly), and it should arrive Thursday. During this time, I can't really get online much, as I have to use my old phone (and the signal fails too much anymore when I'm at home) so I'm just biding my time until I can actually tether again. I had to revert my old phone back to the default operating system and that rendered my wireless tether completely unusable. Once I get my new phone, I'll be able to hopefully do more.

That's the good news. The bad news, however, is that this is going to cost about $40 on my bill, extra, per month. Oh, and next month in particular, I have to have another $36 due to the activation. I'm going to get it worked out so that data and text are blocked on my old phone, but that's not going to cut the money by much. I'm giving my old phone to my mom, since she wanted a phone anyway. She'll not know much about Android, so I have to make it as simple as possible for her. I just hope I won't have to pay too much more on top of my current plan...hell, if I just add her phone as a non-smartphone, and make her have just 450 minutes, and then mine just stays on the individual plan, it'd still be cheaper than converting it to everything data on a family plan. So...yeah...heh.

The other thing (and I didn't find this out until after the fact) is...there's a possibility I'll lose my job working for my grandmother's asphalt company. As much as I hate to say it, I kinda need this job...unless I started making serious cash with my writing (which is hard unless you write erotica on a site like this). I need to figure out a way of making money with my writing. I suppose I could make a book and sell it, just fill it with a bunch of poems, but I'm not sure if even that would sell. So, I've really got to figure out a way to do this. It will be hard, but...I may have a solution, if I can actually get there. The reason why I may be losing my job is because my grandmother thinks that if I'm downstairs, that I'm doing absolutely nothing. Yes, I may be sitting on a couch, but I'm also remotely accessing the server with my laptop, and running maintenance. But of course, my mother defends her short temper, saying she has a lot of her plate...well, so does everyone else, and it's not an excuse to disrespect family, yet alone employees. So, there will be two things that can happen to get me to lose my job:

1. I'm fired for "being lazy" even though they kinda need me in order to have a network, or
2. I quit because my grandmother is taking out all of her frustrations on me.

Yes, I do realize I need a job, but I'm not going to swallow my pride just to keep one. If she's going to say I'm lazy and that I do nothing for her business, then when I do leave, we'll see how much she actually needs me after the fact. She needs an operating network in order to do proposals. There isn't anyone qualified to use Windows Server 2008 R2 that doesn't charge less than triple what I'm making (I make $10 an hour). She can threaten all she wants, but until she realizes just how critical my job is, it will prove that she doesn't even value me as an employee. If it wasn't for me, she couldn't get proposals to the customers.

Sorry for the rant, but this week hasn't been a good one already. I suppose I can take some of this quiet time (since I can't do much else) to write some poems...I still have commissions open, and donations are always welcome, especially now. At this rate, it does look like I'll have to write a few books with my poems just to get any money. Oh well...

Take care everyone. I love you guys...I really try to do what I can, it's just not the best situation I'm in now. I'll keep you all posted as much as possible.

EDIT2: Ok, after the freakout, I can use my phone again. I still have to trade it in, however...so, please bear with me on that. I won't be able to do that until Friday, most likely, unless money just magically appears before then, because I have to actually spend money for a new phone. I have some, but not enough for this, and I can't get a reasonable phone without shelling out serious cash. Unfortunately, I have to pull the remaining funds from my account to do this. So, I have to start from square one just to be able to pull this off.

So...I really, really need cash now. I'm sorry the most I can do is write poems and short stories, but if people donate, I'll write full-on erotica if it makes you happy...I just really need this because I can't even get internet from home now without something that actually works. I'm sorry...I didn't expect this to suddenly be the biggest deal in the world, but...oh well.

I'll try to do tethering tomorrow...if it fails, I have to wait until Monday to check anything. I can do text again, but I'd rather not have to text at this point in time because everything is slamming me at once. I really, REALLY need funds now, because my phone bill is also going to be due a week from now, so...it's literally destroying me. Ugh...should not have spent so much at the con. X.=.x

I'm sorry guys...I'm just going to try to get some sleep and see if I can somehow work something out tomorrow. X.=.x

Just letting you all know, I won't be able to text, starting now. I need to upgrade my phone and get things centered on that. This means, I'm getting a new phone. The way this is working is, I'm giving my mom my old phone and changing the number to it. This means, anything on my old phone is going to be gone completely, so you won't have to worry about changing numbers or anything. It will redirect to my new phone.

I haven't decided on what phone yet, but I'll do that as soon as I get to the store. I'm going to ensure everything works correctly before I leave that store...now, I must ask. DO NOT TEXT ME RIGHT NOW! I'm flashing the phone because I rooted it, and as such, it needs to go through a few cycles, plus I can't respond anyway. I'll alter this journal when everything is done with it. But don't text right now...I can't check it, and it will just cause more conflicts.

I'm sorry, but it's a necessary thing. I'll be paying for both her and me on the same plan, so my bill will be a bit higher, but I'm tired of waiting more than 30 seconds to send a text, and not being able to do much in my house. The antenna is old, the RAM on it is only 512 MB (maybe), internal storage is only 512 MB (I know that as fact) and if you want to look up specs, it's an LG Optimus S. It was made in 2010, I got it May 2011. This is why I desperately need a new phone...it can't even tether that well through a limestone house, which is where my biggest problems are.

So, with that in mind, I'm leaving it at that. I love you all...I'll try to be back as soon as I can. This is going to knock out internet for me as well, since that's how I get my internet. I'll be back as soon as I get everything done. Please take care, all of you. I'll be back before you know it! ^.=.^

Firstly, everyone check this picture that my mate drew: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8658280/


Yes, go now, I'll wait ;3






Alright, now that you did, I want to explain something. Last night, I posted something as a submission that was...probably not a good depiction of myself. It started off as how I can be, and how I tend to react to things, and suddenly it turned into...well, memories of my past. I don't know why...it just happened. Due to this, I spent most of the night talking to my mate and to  killthetsar, trying desperately to understand why others even give a damn about me...Yes, I know people care, and I know it sounds incredibly stupid, but it's hard for me to understand that emotionally when, most of my life, except four years, I meant pretty much nothing to anyone. So you can see very quickly why I feel that way.

The other side of that is, I'm a hypocrite. I try to get others to see that I care, and that I just want them to be happy, and yet here I am, not understanding why others care about me. I actually feel I might be a bit Autistic, and it's not just because of this...there are many factors that could contribute to that (always feeling like I'm different from everyone else, not understanding some people, my empathy is off the charts, I have learning disabilities but they're not severe enough to warrant anyone to actually address them, I lack coordination in my fingers when it comes to using something as simple as chopsticks, I had to take speech therapy when I was starting elementary school so ever since I tried learning Japanese it really didn't work out so well...and yes, I can keep going with this list)...but, honestly, I just can't understand why others care about me...I really can't...I've tried everything to understand this on my own, and even by listening to others...the pain always comes back. I suppose, after so long of others not giving a damn, I expect that more than a shred of kindness...which is probably why I try my hardest to be kind, to the point I can't even try to hurt anyone.

Oh well, enough ranting...the last thing I wanted to say is, I still have commissions open and not one slot has been taken. I actually wanted to do commissions, I'm actually inspired to do them, and not even one has been requested. That hurts too...I'm not asking for a pity commission, I just really want to do something nice for someone...maybe I'm just going about it all wrong...I don't know anymore.

Ten slots still open for anyone wanting to get a commission. My prices aren't that bad, hell, it's all pretty much under $10...oh well.

Firstly, before I begin yet another journal, I wish to apologize for the journal flood. In the last three days, I have made five (now six) journals. That's two a day. I'm really sorry about that...but each was needed, including this one.

So, why am I writing yet another journal? Simple...I wish to clarify where the money is actually going for my commissions. Well, to be honest, I burnt a lot of money at IFC. I started out with approximately $400, and $300 of that was in savings. Right now, I have about $100 in savings. That money in savings was for moving out of the house I'm living in currently...so I literally used up $300 for: commissions, food, registration, and anything else. All in three days.

Holy shit, that's not good...especially because $200 was donated to me awhile back by  avilion. Oh, I'm not happy with myself for running through that much money at a time, yet alone some that was donated for a different purpose. However, I did have a wonderful time, and it was the happiest weekend I've had, ever! So, now that I have all of this sorted, and I didn't actually hit $0, what am I going to do now?

Well, that answer is simple. I'm working very hard at work...I've actually gotten at least 15 hours this week out of the two days I've worked so far this week. That is $150 gross pay, but after taxes it'll be roughly $120. That's if I do nothing Friday (and believe me, I'll be doing many things Friday). The other part of that is, some of that ($80) is for my phone, so I'll be spending that next week. Most of the money I earn this week will be gone by the time I get it next week. My phone is priority 1, since I require it for internet access at home (as feeble as it is). Second is saving back for food (that's $30). So, $120 will basically by gone. The rest goes back into savings so that I can move out.

Where will I move, you might ask? I plan to move close to  cithan while he is in college. This means that I'll need a lot of funds in reserves before I move (at least $700). I don't know where I'm going to move to around him, but I'll figure it out. I'll also need a car, or at least some sort of transportation, but I don't have a license yet. I suppose I could get a taxi or something, but I'm not sure if that's the most cost-effective thing. Though, if I'm right in the same town as him, it won't be as bad.

So, I'm saving up funds to move to Cithan. Once I do that, I'll move around him and start saving up funds to help make others happy...doing similar things that  Tealeon has been doing. Supporting amazing artists and getting gifts for others that I feel deserve them...to me, it's not really about the money. It's about making others happy...and if something I do can make that a reality, then I'll do it!

After awhile, I may start saving up for a fursuit...and my reason behind that is, so that I can show the world who I am and show everyone how much I can show love and kindness...I'll admit flat-out, I want to be popular now...I used to not like how many people knew me. It was always such a strain on me, and everyone wanted my attention. It made me depressed and for bits of time even suicidal...trying to play "psychiatric councilor" didn't help either. But, I've changed from that time...in such a way that I embrace so many different things than I used to. I'm more at peace with myself, and I want to bring peace and happiness to everyone I encounter! I just want to show love to everyone...embrace them for who they are, not caring about why they think they don't deserve it...because, in the end, everyone deserves kindness and love. I want to prove that everyone deserves love...because others have proved that I deserve love.

Thanks for reading this...I know I keep submitting so many journals, but this will hopefully be the last one for awhile.

And with that...

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Pricing, Terms

Just let me know if you're interested in a commission! Slots are on a first-come, first-serve timer. If you don't get one in time, I may open up more slots so be patient :3

Take care everyone! <3 I love you all!

Here's how I'll do this. Since my commissions are going to be for literature only, I have some level of flexibility in what I can charge for certain things. So, here's a list of the things I'll do and with pricetags right next to what I have.

STANDARD PRICING:

Poems: $1 per stanza (average will be between 2-4 stanzas if you want a really good poem)

Short stories: Depending on the length, I will charge a minimum of $6 (three pages), up to a maximum of $20 (it'd have to be like 10 pages if I was going to charge that much). Average cost will most likely be around $10 for 5 pages. I don't count by characters, words, or paragraphs. One page is one page. So, basically, one page is $2. SPECIAL INTRODUCTORY OFFER: If you get more than 5 pages, I'll cut every page after the initial 5 by 50% (so, after $10, it's $1 per page after).

Character descriptions: This is a bit different. Basically, I can make a written reference from a picture, or design something by some of the likes that you have. For example, if you were to give me some guidelines of a creature that was red and liked to eat peppermints, I could give a description of a little gecko that was red and white, crawling around looking for candy canes to om nom. ;3 Depending on the amount of detail you want to have, I'll charge anywhere between 50¢ to $2, and possibly more if you want something completely unique. These will not go more than $5, guaranteed. This can count as a written reference, or just as someone looking at the character. A written reference is more structured, but a description has more of a story-like flow.

Character backstories: I have these separate from short stories because they're more unique. If you give me a few things to run off of, I'll write up an ideal backstory that has much more detail. Or, I can improve one that you already have written up. I'll only charge $2 for this, regardless of length, because everyone needs a backstory :3

Long stories (multiple submissions): This is a lot harder to gauge...I have not set prices on this, as it is very unpredictable. It's also very hard for me to work on stories longer than a few submissions. However, patience will be key in things like this, as these will most likely be on the backburner so that I can finish up smaller projects. As a result, I will not be accepting a great deal of these, unless I feel I can actually manage it and I can actually utilize what I need for it. There will never be one that has more than 10 submissions for it. A prologue and epilogue will cost extra. I will make a journal for when I wish to actually do something like this, and it will never be when I feel rushed.

Songs: These are a bit trickier than poems, because you must have a certain rhythm. I will charge $5 for these, as there is a lot of work that goes into them. It's much more than just a freeform (or even structured) poem.

Keep in mind that these prices can change at anytime, but it will not affect any charges that a commissioner already has with me. In other words, once you start asking for a commission, the price you are charged doesn't change from the base price. It will only change, at that point, depending on how much work I put into it. However, the prices may change depending on living situation changes or unforseen events. If something does happen, I will tell you what I will be doing about commissions when that time comes. So, please keep this in mind so that nothing is seen as negative in that respect.

IRON WRITER PRICING:

This goes into effect two months before I attend a con. These are special prices that, while I'll try to retain the quality of my works, will hopefully be reasonable for anyone. I believe these will be reasonable conditions for the Iron Writer Pricing scheme:

Poems: $1 (Up to six stanzas, up to eight lines each stanza.)
Short stories: $1 per page, no more than 5 pages
Songs: $3
Character Descriptions: $2
Backstories: $1
I will not be doing any long stories during Iron Writer events.

When Iron Writer is going on, I'll open 250 slots (very ambitious). For two months, I'll work on as many things as I obtain, in order. If I don't get the 250 slots filled before the convention, I'll be in Artists Alley trying to obtain more commissions. If I do, then I'll be able to enjoy myself ;3

Please note that these changes only apply to new commissioners. The only thing that was changed besides better wording, is the amount paid up front. If you already have made a commission offer with me, you're safe.

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Don't worry, despite what I normally write for things, this will be to the point. I have these simple rules that apply for commissions. Please keep them in mind when you go to commission from me.

Firstly, all sales are final. You do not pay the full price until I am done with the work. I expect at least half the payment up front in order to ensure I don't show you my work and then you run off with it. I can only do so much to prevent copyright infringement. When I'm finished, I will show a preview of the work. If you are satisfied, you may pay me the rest then, and it will be yours. If you are not satisfied, I'll work on it until you are, within reason. You are allowed three complete rewrites. If you are not satisfied after the third rewrite, I will let you pick from each version. If you are still not satisfied, then you keep the other half of the payment. Minor changes are pretty much unlimited, but also must be within reason (don't make me keep rewriting things just because it doesn't seem "good enough").

When you purchase work from me, I retain all copyrights. However, you will have the ability to redistribute. You are not allowed to claim the work as your own, ever. You cannot alter the work without an additional fee, to be determined by me, which is based on amount of time I spent on the work. I can't just let anyone alter something I have done.

Alterations to things I have written are only allowed by you if I have transferred full copyright ownership to you. If you want something altered, please ask me. I don't want someone messing with the things I make unless I say so...otherwise it kinda ruins the fact I made it.

Payments can be made via Paypal, Dwolla, or Square. Paypal and Dwolla are very similar. Square uses a credit or debit card number and a little bit of information about the card to charge on the card. Due to fees, I must ask that Square can only be used if more than $1 is being charged. Dwolla is perfectly fine, as they only charge a 25¢ fee for transferring over $10. Please make sure to mark any transaction through PayPal as a gift, or it will charge a fee. Also, please be careful how you label it in PayPal. Marking it as "Furry commission of naughty erotic writing" is bound to get my account banned, and I'd really not want to lose my PayPal account. If you have any questions about the payment process, please ask me in a note.

All prices are in US Dollars. For conversion rates, look around on Google, often times just typing "convert $1 to euros" or whatever currency of your choosing will tell you.

These are WRITTEN works only. I don't really draw, and my drawings are crap. My writing is much more beautiful, and I can paint a picture just with my words...so, please keep that in mind.

I can do clean or adult works, and some fetishes, but I'd rather focus on clean things first. Once I get more confident in my writing, I may do other things, but for now I prefer clean. I may tack on an extra charge for adult works, since I'm not completely comfortable with them at this time, but that may change in the future.

If you have any questions about anything at all, please feel free to ask! I want to ensure that everything is perfect for you, so please don't hesitate to contact me via note! I'm here for you ^.=.^

These terms may change at anytime, and once you start the commissions process, they won't change for the duration of the commission, even if I change them for new customers (unless something absolutely must be enforced).

Alright, this is a very special journal, as it's about something I never thought I'd start doing. I'm actually going to open up commissions soon. This really is something I never thought I'd do, as I just wanted to share my written works with the world, free of charge. So, what made me change my mind? Well, actually it's quite simple. And believe it or not, it's because of a man that I never met.

Firstly, I must thank Athus. I never knew him, and I've heard a lot of good about him...I never looked at anything about him, I never watched any videos about him or anything...everything I'm going on is by the experience of others. I heard a very slight negative about him, but I've heard so much more good about him...so I believe he did much more good than bad, and because of that, I have to say that I'm glad he was able to show such kindness to others. I know that the kindest of people do everything they can to show they care...they may make some mistakes, but everyone does that, and I cannot hold a negative to someone if they've done so much more positive. I try to stay away from the topic of Athus because I never knew him, and I didn't want to be caught up in the talk of him. When I think of someone, I don't want to feel the pain that others have because they may no longer be around...I'm too sensitive to that, and I mean no disrespect, but I like to think of the good that has been done by someone like Athus, and not think about how tragic his death was. Yes, I'm saying it...I can't handle everyone talking about Athus because I feel too much pain from the subject, despite it not being any of my own. That's why I don't ever talk about him. It's no disrespect towards him..but when everyone talks about how painful it was that he's no longer here, they ignore the memory he wished to create, which is, to simply enjoy life and be yourself. If you're too gripped on him not being here, then how are you living your own life?

Now...I don't know Athus, but I do know Tealeon. I know him very well, and because of IFC, it made it possible for me to get to know him very quickly, and very well. Despite me not knowing Athus, in his own way through Tealeon, inspired me to open up commissions. And here is the whole reason why: I don't really care about money.

That's right. I'm opening up commissions because I don't care about money. Let me guess, it makes absolutely no sense to you, does it? Well, here is where I go into explaining what I mean. I really hate money and how it controls many aspects of our lives...from education, to living, to health, and even just eating or drinking water. However...I want to do something with money for others. I want to do quite a few things...the biggest is, I want to move close to  cithan. He is the love of my life, and I don't really care who knows...I want to spend my life with him, and I'll do anything to make that a reality. The second thing is, I know I'll have to make some amount of money for living. I need to support myself somehow...but I'll be supplementing commissions with something else, probably computer repair. So, my prices for what I plan to charge will probably be lower than most people.

So...what am I going to be doing with the money after I move, and when I can sustain myself? That's even more simple...I'll be supporting the artists of this community and probably buy quite a few gifts for those I care about and love. At conventions, I'll try to share what wealth I have in order to make others happy...to cheer others up when they're down, to give them a reason to have a good time at whatever con I may attend. I actually want to be popular now...I used to be very popular in my own right, but I regretted it because I just couldn't handle much. I was in a lot of pain, and it corrupted me...but now, I want to be popular in order to show kindness to others. I used to be popular for the same reason, except I was suffering so much because I refused to open myself to much of anyone...I only wanted to help others, I didn't want to feel like a burden to anyone or ask for help. But that was a horrible thought...because, if I'm in pain, I can't help anyone. So, I'm more open than I used to be...and I'll always talk to anyone I can, and show them I care.

Tealeon has inspired this in me. Athus, despite me not even watching or looking at anything relating to him, still lives on in me...and in Tealeon, and in so many others...we all refuse to fit the thoughtform of a traditional "popfur" or "popufur" or "popular furry"...I may not be that popular on here yet, but I know over 1000 people from multiple places...I can use that in a constructive way, instead of a destructive manner. I can use that to help others. I can help people in many ways, and show kindness however I can...I'm not always the best at keeping in touch with so many people, but I try my hardest...so, be persistent if I don't get back with you that quickly. I care about everyone...I truly do...just keep trying...I'll eventually talk, I just don't always know how.

So, I'm opening commissions for this reason and these thoughts.  tealeon, you changed my life...I don't usually share much of my gift of writing, but...when you told me how Athus inspired you, how it was him that got you to try your hardest to carry on his legacy, despite not drawing or anything of that nature, then it was at that moment I asked myself...I looked into my heart and asked, "If this gentle soul can do everything in his power to show love and kindness on a grand scale, without anything more than just being there for others...Why can't I use my gifts to show my kindness to others, and also try to be there for them?" I want to open my heart and mind to showing what I can do with my life...I'm tired of holding myself back...I'm tired, and weary, of living in fear of what others will think of me, every step of the way. I'm done looking into the "what if's" in life, and I'm going to create my own reality. One where I can be free to be who I am, I can set myself free now and actually live my life for once. IFC gave me the chance to express myself without fear...I was more open there than I've ever been anywhere else, except online. I was able to stop worrying, and start "existing" as I am, as myself, and not hold back any part of myself. I was liberated from the fear of being in pain...completely.

I am free...I can be whoever I want to be...and who I want to be, is myself...I can stop hiding and running in fear...I can smile...and laugh...and just be in the moment, without a care in the world...It wasn't always the perfect experience all the time, but even when it wasn't, you and  talla were both there for me...I keep mentioning them both in my journals, and in some of my comments...I can't help it, they've both helped me so much...so truly...I just can't stop thinking about their kindness...it's so deep...it's so powerful...I really can't say much more because I am literally freezing when it comes to words.

Thank you, to everyone that has supported me. I'm not able to focus now...just writing all of that took everything out of me. I can't think of how to end this...this was from my heart...I love you all...please take care...you're all amazing in your own ways...never forget that, for I care about all of you!

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Now that I have that fanspasm (or fangasm) out of the way, I can truly say that this was the most amazing experience I've ever had! I honestly couldn't trade it for anything in the world, and I wouldn't...because everyone I met and talked to was truly amazing and loving! I've never been around so many furs in person before, and I had the time of my life!

I went to the con with Shira Frozenmoon and met up with  tealeon and  talla. I'm going to just say this, right now...had it not been for these two, loving, lovely people...my con experience would not have even been a fraction of the greatness that it has been. I EXTREMELY recommend that you take the time to at least talk to both of them, as they are two of the most kind and loving friends that I've had the privilege to get to know at the con. I only knew Tealeon for a week, and Talla I just met at the con, but they both embraced me as if they knew me for years...and that alone has made me so deeply happy! And the best part is, it wasn't just for the con...I know I'll always be friends with them, and I hold the highest respect and kindness for both, as well as  magnakoji and  volando1. Those four are such an amazing combination of people...and I'm so glad I know each of them, even though I didn't get to see Koji at the con, I know he's truly amazing, just by knowing Teal and Talla!

Some other amazing and wonderful furs I got to meet are:  waqiathunderwolf,  volando1,  ace1192,  animal16365,  thefuzzy1, and so many others...I can't even list them all, there's so many! However, if I did miss someone (I know I've missed a few), please tell me so I can add you to the list!

Now then...things I've purchased..and probably shouldn't have spent to much money on...oh my god, my finances...I didn't mean to dip into the "I need to move out of my current house" fund...but it was my first con, and I got so wrapped up in everything that I really could not resist...I'll have to work extra hard to get more funds, but I don't get paid this week since I was away from work during the week that led up to IFC. So, no more spending at all (except for food while at work, and my phone, since they are necessities). Now...to the things I actually bought:

Two badges (one complete, made by Bloodhound; one in the works, can't remember the name but I'll post it when I get it)
A ref of my new form (such a nice, sweet artist is making it, and he is  Tatto)
Gift for  cithan (already done)
A tail (Not started yet)
A collar (Will be started on Wednesday most likely)
Two sketches (one finished, can't remember who did it; one in the works, also can't remember who is working on it)
A lined drawing (and it's naughty, but in the works, and it's being made by  ritsuka)
Two buttons (can't remember who I bought them from)
Registration badges (Saturday and Sunday)
Three stuffed animals (I bought one and got two free :3)
Food (Oh god, that was at least $50 there)...but, that's different ;3

Oh god...so many things...ya...but at least some will make others happy. I especially can't wait to get my tail and collar! Then I can show them to the world! <33333333333333333333

Alrighty, now then...the things I did were numerous...I got to watch the fursuit parade (officially there were 110 fursuiters) and I got pics, and even recorded some of it! I took a lot of pictures, and I'll be uploading them tomorrow at work. I'll also be scanning the sketches I have and uploading them here, so that everyone can see their beauty!

I got to swim with quite a few furs, and I even got passed around to almost everyone while in the pool...That made me so happy, I know it seems like something silly, but...I actually wanted that...and I didn't ask, it just happened and it made me feel so good! My voice was so hoarse after swimming that I could pull off a very high voice somehow (still trying to recall how I did that) but...the biggest thing that got me, I'm about to tell you.

Teal and Talla (yes, I'm going back to them), did so many things for me that I did not expect. They invited me to their room, and I accepted. They invited me to stay the night, and I was shocked...it shocked me so much, I didn't understand the kindness...I understood it logically, but emotionally it just didn't register...and this caused a huge break in my thoughts, to the point that as I was trying to sleep, I started feeling bad...and it got worse...it got truly bad, because I didn't know if it was genuine or not...I didn't understand if they really cared or if it was all for show. It affected me so greatly, I got out of bed and curled up in the corner, hands over my head...and after a few minutes, someone came out of the bathroom and asked where I was...Teal found me, and asked if I was fine...I shook my head, and he asked what was wrong. It took over half an hour, and both Teal and Talla trying so hard to calm me down, to get me to stop crying (which is truly rare for me to let go of my pride, in person no less), and get me to go back into bed...After that, Talla was comforting me as Teal went to sleep...and I started sharing some things with her, about my past...I opened up to her...I talked for quite awhile, I don't recall how long...but, honestly, I didn't think I would have gotten along with her that well, because most women tend to end up getting on my nerves by talking about trivial things or focusing on things that just didn't seem like they should be focused on...but, Talla was one of the few women I actually felt drawn to, in such a way that I could feel safe around her. She helped me so much, that night...and I'll never forget such kindness.

If you ever talked to Tealeon or Talla, you wouldn't even think they were that well known...but it's because they are that down-to-Earth and just genuinely compassionate and loving, that it still shocks and overwhelms me. It is this reason, and so many other reasons, why I encourage anyone watching me to get to know them. I cannot say how much they truly made my first fur convention experience the best experience of my life...and I'll never forget their love and kindness, for they both truly affected me so deeply.

I'm sorry for such a long journal, but this is something I truly cannot stop thinking about...and this is why, the next time I go to a con, I will ensure my mate comes with me. I don't know how, but I'll make it happen...this changed my life in such a way that I cannot begin to describe. I don't know what my next con will be, and I know I'll have to probably quit my current job and work for something better if I am to succeed in saving money...but I want to go to as many cons as I can, not only for myself, but for those I love and respect. I'm inspired to do something...something I thought I never would do.

Hearing Teal's story, and how wonderful he is, and learning about why he is the way he is, I've come to my own realization...If someone can share their wealth and kindness, without judgment, without bias, and without any strings attached...why can't I? Of course, I've always been as kind as I can be, I can't think of causing harm...but, I'm already getting the message that I need to share everything that I am with the world...and it is because of this, that soon, I'll be opening up commissions. This is not just because of myself, and it's not just for my own benefit...but it is for those I want to help. I can't say I'll use that money exclusively for that, for I have to have money for my own things as well...but I can now say, with full confidence, that making money off of what I can do is not limited to just being selfish or greedy, or trying to take advantage of what some can't do, or anything like that...it's about bringing love and happiness to others, to see things they didn't think they could see before, and to share that with the world. I tried keeping myself from charging money for what I do, but that's the very thing that I feel I need to do now...If I can make money off of what I can create for others, I can use that money to share a good time with others, and make them happier as well. This is my new ambition...to become popular in the hopes of showing everyone that being popular isn't about being selfish. It's about showing respect in such a way that you can command respect of others, instead of demanding respect of others. I want respect, but I want to earn it...and I hope to earn the respect of so many!

So...thank you, to those that took the time to read my (more lengthy than even normal) journal...Everyone that I've met has been amazing and wonderful, and even though I know some things didn't go entirely as planned, I do know that everything happens for a reason...and I'm so glad I ran into so many furs! This changed my life, and I hope to change the lives of others in some fashion, hopefully even more than I have already! :3

I love everyone...all of you are so wonderful! I love the fandom, despite so many things that I endured because of it...it has shaped me into who I am now, and I'd not be the person I am without this. I owe so much to the furry fandom, and though it has a lot of downs, the ups more than make up for it! I love you! <3333333333333333333

Take care, everyone! ^.=.^ <3

I'm home from IFC finally! I planned on only staying Saturday, since I didn't have a room, but my plans changed and I stayed until this morning! Now, I'm not going to go into details just yet, but I'm going to sleep and then type out the entirety of my weekend at my first con! Two words: HOLY SHIT!

I've not had so much fun in one weekend! There were many unexpected things that happened, including hanging around a popfur (a very nice one, actually) and because of him, I had the time of my life! I can't summarize this any better than just by saying, "I never expected my first con would involve being surrounded by such loving and caring friends, most importantly didn't even know until this weekend!"

Thank you so much to everyone who showed me so much kindness and love... And please bear with me, I have a lot of catching up to do, on many things... Please be patient, I'll get to it when I can, I promise <3


Love you all! Thanks for helping to make this a con to remember! <333333333333333333333333333333

Alright everyone...tonight I'm heading back into Indianapolis from my current location, and I'll be spending the night with the one taking me to IFC! I'll probably get there before 11 AM, and then I'll be seeking out many furs, like  tealeon,  volando1, and possibly a few others. I can't wait to see everyone! Going to be such a blast, it'll be my first con! I just wanna see so much...I just wish I had more than one day, but oh well X3

I've got two poems to do, and noone has contacted me for the final slot that's still open for a poem...I decided to withhold the poems being posted until Sunday, since it would be easiest. So, if anyone wants that final slot, just let me know!

Slots:
1. - Writing
2. - Pending
3. (empty)

So, yeah...I still need a badge..I hope to get one at the con, since I know everyone else will beg for money if I try to get one now X.=.x Oh well...

Love you guys! Take care, ok? :3

Stolen from  vulpes

Looks
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[ ] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[ ] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[ ] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[/] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. (Depends on the kind...maybe get some scales, some wings...maybe some horns and a tail...;3
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger. (So much that we had some fun ;3)
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents
[x] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[ ] I'm in school. (Not anymore! X3)
[X] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school
[ ] I almost always do my homework. (AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...no.)
[x] I've missed a week or more of school. (I've skipped over a month of my sophomore year of high school X3)
[ ] I've been on the Honour Roll within the last 2 years
[X] I failed more than 1 class last year
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired

Embarrassment
[ ] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[X] I've snorted while laughing.
[X] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[X] I've glued my hand to something.
[X] I've had my pants rip in public. (Yes...had to use duck tape just to keep them from ripping more...and that was not very successful)

Health
[X] I was born with a disease/impairment (My eyes...yay visual impairments!)
[X] I've gotten stitches/staples. (Yes, my lip...granted, only two stitches, but still.)
[ ] I've broken a bone
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[X] I've sat in a doctor's office/emergency room with a friend (Yep...really hurt herself so much she was on Viccodin for a bit.)
[/] I've had my wisdom teeth removed. (Only one, but I plan to get at least two more removed eventually)
[/] I had a serious surgery. (Not exactly, just the removal of extra teeth...I suppose that comes with being a dragon. And no, I mean besides wisdom teeth)
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Experiences
[ ] I've gotten lost in my city. (Nope X3)
[x] I've seen a shooting star. (Somehow, yes X3)
[x] I've wished on a shooting star
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[/] I've gone out in public in my pyjamas. (I don't technically own a pair...however, whatever I sleep in, I tend to walk outside with, so...X3)
[X] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[X] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[X] I've played spin the bottle. (Yes, but it never ended in kisses X3
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car. (I don't even have a license...X3)
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[ ] I've been in a play. (I've been in a rehearsal...does that count? X3)
[ ] I've met someone in person from MySpace. (People still use that?)
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken. (I've played gay chicken...and won..and...murr ^.///////.~)
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[ ] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[ ] I'm single.
[X] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[X] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[X] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[X] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[X] I've kept something from a past relationship. (I have a movie I still have to give back to him...X3)

Sexuality
[X] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[X] I am a cuddler. <3
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain. (I want to...<3)
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[x] I have kissed a stranger. (Remember, you're only acquainted with someone if you split a cookie with them ;3)

Honesty/Crime
[X] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[X] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[X] I've snuck out of my house.
[X] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[/] I am keeping a secret from the world. (Not from everyone, just some people)
[X] I've cheated while playing a game. (Gameshark :3)
[X] I've cheated on a test. (Once...and I regretted it.)
[ ] I've run a red light. (My mom has...X3)
[X] I've been suspended from school. (Once...but it was some dumb bitch's fault)
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[X] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

Death and Suicide
[ ] I'm afraid of dying. (Not anymore :3)
[x] I hate funerals. (When you have empathy and you're at a funeral, you feel everything...and then you want to run as quickly out of the funeral home as you can.)
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[X] I've planned my own suicide. (A LOOOOOOOONG TIME AGO...like, seventh grade...almost 10 years ago X3)
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs. (EWW...no...)
[X] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece. (Uhh...I'm gay, but I'm not flaming)
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic. (I used to...until my cat peed on it...they were tripp pants X.=.x)
[X] I own something from Pac Sun. (A nice coat, cost $20...originally it was $100)
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[X] I own something I got on e-bay. (50 blue LEDs...there was something else but I can't recall what X3)
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[/] I can sing well. (I kinda can, but not as well as my friend who is a voice major in college X3)
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily. (It depends on who, but usually yes)
[ ] I watch the news.
[X] I don't kill bugs. (Saved a moth a few days ago)
[X] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[/] I curse regularly. (Only when angry)
[ ] I sing in the shower.
[/] I am a morning person. (If morning is actually when I'm about to sleep, yes!)
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone. (Pay? Screw the rules, I have Ringtone Maker)
[/] I'm a snob about grammar. (Only when it's obvious someone should know certain things, like correct punctuation and capitalization)
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[/] I twirl my hair. (I may run my fingers through my hair to get stray strands out....X3)
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[/] I love being neat. (It depends on what it is...X3)
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[/] I bake well. (I can cook...not sure about baking X3)
[X] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue. (I have a few favorite colors, really...X3)
[X] I've worn pajamas to school. (I forgot, I actually have...X3)
[ ] I like Martha Stewart
[X] I know how to shoot a gun. (Yes, thanks to a friend :3 X3)
[x] I am in love with love. (You could say that :3)
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS. (No...o.=.o;;)
[x] I laugh at my own jokes (Yes..yes I do)
[x] I eat fast food weekly. (Sadly, yes..X.=.x)
[x] I believe in ghosts. (Not only do I believe they exist, but I can sense them...one actually made me sway violently.)
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[X] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class. (I was a peer tutor for Information Technology...Easiest A ever :3)
[/] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room. (It depends on the kind to me)
[x] I am really ticklish. (It depends on where...sometimes, even down there...o./////////.o and I mean actually ticklish, not just arousal X3)
[x] I love dark chocolate.
[X] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games. (On occasion)
[/] I'm good at remembering faces. (Not always, but usually I can)
[X] I'm good at remembering names. (Yep :3)
[X] I'm good at remembering dates. (I've had a few of them, so it's hard to forget ;3...OH, dates as in calendar dates...well, I can do that too X3)
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. (Just spend my life around those that care...the rest doesn't really matter to me :3)

[x] All of those are answered honestly

Alright...I'm opening three slots for poem requests. This is because I need to get my mind off of some things, plus today is a day where I can relax and take things steady. I'm probably going to be gaming most of the day, but I'll make the poems relatively quick and upload tonight.

If you want to see the quality, look here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8077276/

It takes me no more than an hour to make truly meaningful poems (usually less than half an hour) so I can pump quite a few of these out at a time. So, depending on how much time I have, and my mood, I may open more slots. So, information I need from you (the one requesting) would be:

Title (unless you want me to give it one)
Central theme (unless you want me to come up with something)
Anything special (Optional, but it may tell me more of what you want)
Freeform or structured (Structured would be a fixed form, while freeform is basically however I feel like making it ;3)

That's basically it. I'll give full rights to the requester, to use however they see fit. I have no reason to keep the rights anyway...this is about expression ^.=.^

Slots:

1:  salthanath (He sent a note!) (Writing)
2:  unnameddragon (Pending)
3:

EDIT: I'll be working on these some today (Thursday) and tomorrow (Friday) so...please be patient :3 I've been playing too many games X3
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Story status...well, I haven't touched it in awhile. Considering everything going on at the moment, I need to give myself time to get through this week (not to mention IFC) so, don't expect me to work on it until next Sunday or Monday. I know some of you love it to death, so don't worry, I'll work on it more, I just need to get through IFC :3

Take care everyone! <3

Alright...normally I don't post two journals in a row, but this one is extremely important. To tell you much about it, I've written it up in my new submission located over here.

But to get the most of it, I must explain something in great detail. For four years, I've been changing. I've been trying to understand myself in various ways. I've been searching through myself in many aspects: through education, spiritually, as a fur, through friends, and even by being alone. Throughout each of these ways of looking through myself, I saw many various things that have changed my entire paradigm on everything. These huge paradigm shifts have altered me mentally, emotionally, socially, and even physically in some cases. It's through all of these shifts in thought, that I've bettered myself. I've become so much more strong than I used to be.

So, now...it only makes sense that things would change. However, the latest change that has happened to me, is a spiritual one. For a long time, Raiok has actually been a separate entity within me. He's been "another voice," if you will, that has helped me through many things. However, after seeing how much I've changed, I've realized...if he's this dark blue dragon with teal scutes, what am I? Even my mate brought up that very same question (and I thank him for that deeply!), and as I struggled for an answer, I realized...I didn't entirely have one. Mainly because, while Raiok is still separate, he is still me. But because he is me, and yet not me, it greatly conflicts in its own way. Especially when noone knows what to say or how to view ME (as myself, and not just Raiok).

Remember, I'm referring to Raiok as a separate entity of me at this point in time, even though he is technically me. I have reasons...some confusing, but please bear with me. He's more like a guide, or higher self, even though he is still me. I suppose it's almost like the blind leading the blind, yet he has helped me through so many things, it's almost unfathomable. He's ensured I'd be protected and safe...made sure I wouldn't do anything too rash or reckless *coughsuicidecoughcough* and made sure that, even though I didn't get the best of everything, that I still was able to get by. I thank him for this...and for helping me learn to be myself. But now, it's my turn to be me, and not him.

Some of you might wonder if I'm schizophrenic, in which I would say, that schizophrenia no longer applies to cases of multiple personality disorder. I would also promptly say that, while it could be possible on a psychological level, to me he is very real, and not just a personality, so if I truly am crazy, at least I've not done anything that was actually stupid. I fully acknowledge the possibility that many things could all just be mindless junk that is unneeded...but, for me, it helps me get through life. So, as long as I'm happy, I feel it shouldn't matter what may "seem" to be untrue or stupid to someone else. Truth be told, I can actually feel wings greatly. If anyone is curious, the term is Otherkin...so, it's not just that I could be psychotic or something stupid along those lines. Many people have this as well, and are in fact within the fandom, so...there you go.

Now...things have happened to me recently...and they are more along the lines of my aura/astral body. It has changed so drastically, within the last week, that it is no longer what reminds me of Raiok. The reference that I've made, is now what I actually feel. So...this is me now. Not Raiok, but actually me. It's still a bit hard to explain, and I hope I did do something to explain it a bit...but this is now how things are, heh.

I love you guys...take care <3

Alrighty...here's my plans for the next week or so (for those wondering):

SUnday: Talking to the one I'm possibly moving in with about actually moving in, going to my roommate's house for a few days (no, he's not a furry X3 but he used to be my roommate in college for two years, and he's awesome!)
Monday: Do many things with my friend, including watch a couple movies, probably play Minecraft, etc.
Tuesday: Possibly more movies, Attempting to play League of Legends with some friends on Google+ (they are furs, thanks ;3)
Wednesday: Not sure on details, but time will tell...most likely more games X3
Thursday: May be sporadic, but since it will be the last time I see my friend in awhile (at least for a full day lol)
Friday: Leave my friend's house, go back home, spend the night with a nice friend (and have some fun, of course ;3)
Saturday: IFC! WHICH MEANS HANGING OUT WITH SOOOOOOOOOOOOO MANY FURS! <333333333333333

So, yeah...now, for actual talk of what I plan to do at IFC, I plan to be around one of the game rooms. Since the ones I'm coming with are mainly gamer furs, I'll most likely be too shy to go around others without either Zordrak Shadowfang or Shira Frostmoon (I know both of them personally and they're both very kind to me). So, if you're trying to find me, I'll be wearing a green jacket (I don't care if it's indoors ;3), black fingerless gloves, probably a blue shirt, either my army green pants or just black pants, and my lovely black boots. I will have my laptop with me and my backpack, so if you see me without either, there's probably something wrong lol.

And now, a meme ^.=.^



IFC Meme!
Where are you staying?
With Shira Frostmoon (at his apartment, mind you, so not on site)

What day are you getting there?
Saturday (possibly mid-late Saturday morning)

Who will you be with?
Shira, Zordrak, hopefully I'll meet up with a few others and get to know them ^.=.^

Who will you hang out with during the convention?
See above

Are there any panels you might be attending?
This is my first con, so I'm not sure X3

Will you be suiting?
If I had a suit...X3

Which suit(s) will you be bringing?
See above

Do you do free art?
Most I do is free poems, which I might do if people are interested ^.=.^

Do you do trades?
At the con, I might just, if I get to know you.

Do you do badges?
Nope, I actually am in need of one X3

Do you do commissions?
Nope...I prefer not to take money for things like that, unless it's just a donation lol

What is your gender?
Male

How tall are you?
5'11"

Are you taken? Are you looking for a 'mate'?
Sorry, I am taken by  cithan and I love him alot <3

Can I talk to you?
YES! PLEASE, COME TALK! <3

Can I touch you?
I love hugs, snuggles, etc. ^.=.^

How can I find you?
Check my profile ID on here, and ignore the clothes in exchange for a green jacket (just read above X3)

Can I visit your room?
I don't have a room X3

Can I buy you drinks?
I'm a bit wary of just accepting a drink from someone, so unless I actually go with you for said drink, and whatnot, then I'm sorry lol

Can I give you stuff?
GIFTIES!? O.=.O

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
YESH! <3333333333333

Are you nice?
Everyone says I am, so I guess I am X3

How long are you going?
Just Saturday, unless I somehow magically get to go Sunday X3

Do you have an artist table?
No, I didn't even know if I was going until three days ago X3

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Say hi, snuggle me or something...just make sure I can tell you're nice or I may get a little fearful ^.=.^;;

Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
Probably the game rooms somewhere, unless I decide to start exploring X3

What/where will you be eating?
Actually, you know that place that serves "The Big Ugly?" Yeah, that's where I'm getting dinner at 5:15 PM, so if you want to meet up there, I have no problem with that (but I'm not getting that much food X3)

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
I don't see why not, just ask me ^.=.^

Can I look in your sketchbook?
I don't really have much of a sketchbook, most I have is a lot of things I've been writing X3

Can I draw in your sketchbook?
If I had one...but, if you want to draw me something, that would be awesome O.=.O

Can I take your picture?
I don't see why not ^.=.^

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Just having fun, meeting as many furs as I can <3