I dreamed that Andross had launched a new super weapon on Corneria. It took time to charge up, so while it waited in space, his forces attacked the city, including one powerful ground-based hovertank unit that was being empowered by the charging weapon via physical tubes.

This hovertank unit was being piloted by Wolf O'Donnell, while the rest of Star Wolf (pre-Panther) was plaguing the skies. So Fox took on the hover tank unit himself.
Eventually, he discovered that doing enough damage to its hardlight grinder wheels (don't ask) would cause one of the ports to open up, and it would lead through one of the tubes directly to the superweapon in space, though he'd have to leave his vehicle to jump in it himself.
So he did, and Wolf jumped in after him.

What followed was a stealth segment where Fox is sneaking through the place, trying to find a way to sabotage the super weapon while avoiding detection and also avoiding Wolf O'Donnell.
It was a lot of sidling on walls and hiding behind shelves and units and such. At one point, Fox managed to do something (unclear on what) and return back down to the planet via one of the same tubes he used to get up there in the first place.

While there, Slippy and Andrew have lost their ships and are trying to clobber each other with metal pipes (don't. ask. XD) and at some point, Slippy and Leon (don't ask) end up stuck in a carbage compactor. However, fortunately for them it's... a poorly made piece of shit. Slippy finds out that the security is, for some reason, attached to a Blizzard account, so he just... calls up Blizzard support, gets them to unlock the account (while disguising his voice to sound more like a stereotypical geek) and he and Leon manage to flee the garbage compactor.

And then shit hits the fan.

The super weapon wasn't sufficiently sabotaged, and it goes off. And it is a LOT more horrifying than either the Cornerian forces, nor Andross's forces, anticipated. It starts this vacuum/tractor beam like thing, aimed directly at the spot of the city where they're in, and it it starts sucking out people's souls as they fled in panic. And it did not distinguish between friend or foe. Cue Wolf going "screw this" and fleeing with Fox. At some point, there was a cameo appearance by Sam and Max who got their souls sucked out, but then their souls resuscitated their own bodies (yes, CPR style) and they resumed fleeing.

The battle had been lost, but not the war, and the Star Fox team was resolved to aid the Cornerian citizens and continue fighting back against Andross.
At one point, Fox was on a solo mission in space, and ends up infiltrating the core of one of Andross's ships. Well, unfortunately, Andross expected this, and he had direct control over the core, making it capable of fighting.

I should also mention that Fox was forced to get out of his arwing at one point, but he had Krystal's Staff (and while wielding it he was BUFF AS FUCK) so he was able to defend himself.

Anyways, the core summoned these weird mine-like things. If Fox attacked, they'd activate and start chasing after him, then they'd escape and cause havoc on Corneria. If he didn't attack, they'd eventually explode and take him out anyways.
So... he rather confidently attacked them, and when they became sluggish and unresponsive, he revealed that he knew they were all connected to the core's power source, and since the core was much weaker than the thing they were attached to when they were actually a threat (don't ask), he knew they'd be no threat. So he leaves, and Andross throws a tantrum and has the core attack one of the sluggish mine-bots, which explodes and presumably takes it out.

At this point, my dream self is no longer playing Star Fox and instead watching what's either a movie or an animated series of Star Fox. It makes my dream self's mind go back to a Star Fox Assault animated series that was so bad that it was panned by everyone. I decide that, as bad as it is, I'm still gonna watch it after this, because it's unconsumed Star Fox content and I'm craving it badly. I also think back to the "original" animated series, too.

This is just something I want to get off of my chest since it's been bothering me for awhile now.

I don't know if the controversies are even true. I also don't know if they're false. I can think of at least one of them I'm inclined to believe simply because it involves a known third party who was the victim of abuse and had their abuser defended.

I remember when certain things first "came to light". It was back when an anti-furry had hacked the website and "leaked" a bunch of stuff. Naive individual that I am, I took it at face value.

But here's the thing. There was absolutely no guarantee that even half the stuff leaked was real. Just like the Republican obsession with "Hunter's" Laptop.
This is the kind of stuff that was shared all around certain places like a "dramatic encyclopedia" and a farm for new zealand's flightless birds.

Both of these websites are notorious for faking stuff.

The other aspect about this is that the people most aggressively pushing all of this stuff now, in his wake, are alt-righters, MAGAts, and anti-furries. Yes, I know they're not the only ones, and that a lot of leftists are also complaining about it, but a lot of them are citing the aforementioned places - places that were notorious for harboring alt-righters and such.

There's also a lot of people who are saying "He can't have been a good person because of these horrible things he did."

And here's my response to that, with the *assumption* that the allegations are true.

"Two things can be true at once. A person can do horrible things. A person can also do great things for people. There is someone who will remember you for your worst, and some who will remember you for your best. And both will be right."

Dragoneer can have done horrible things. He can also have done amazing things. We're complex creatures and boiling things down to "good people" and "bad people" is often how a lot of our issues start in the first place. Your good deeds do not undo your bad deeds, and your bad deeds do not undo your good deeds. They both exist and will leave ripples to come.

Nevertheless, that doesn't mean believe every accusation. And if evidence can be falsified, you should be especially skeptical.

And the evidence against Dragoneer has been very falsifiable and came from some very suspicious sources. And often, the response to skepticism has been "lol you'd do anything to defend a zoo-loving pedo" without any actual substance.

If you think it's unreasonable to be skeptical of that... then you prize rhetoric over truth and therefore I have no reason to trust anything you have to say.

And if you're leftist, I especially wonder why you choose to trust the alt right so aggressively and insistently without even a mote of skepticism.

Been awhile since I posted a journal but this warrants it.

I found out about Dragoneer's death last night, probably within an hour of him actually dying in retrospect.

My feelings on him are complicated. He's done some bad shit in the past, and I don't think he's a saint.

But for any harm he caused, he has also done a lot of good for people in the fandom. Maintaining this site helped me express myself a lot, and for that, I do owe him some gratitude.

And so, I found myself mourning his death. Yet another furry with influence in my life that was lost to medical complications. That's the... fourth time I believe this has happened now. And I'm sure that's a small number compared to many who've been here.

And then I read how he died.

I'm livid.

He had so much debt piled on him for a diagnosis that he never managed to receive.
He was jerked around and stalled by a system that values his money more than his life.

I've long been a proponent for universal healthcare in the USA. Hell, right or left, the majority of America wants it.
Dragoneer's story isn't the first, and it isn't even the last time this has happened.

That there's even people celebrating his death, victim blaming, and justifying a corrupt system just because it killed one person they hate is... unconscionable.
It can easily be them next, put on the chopping block for the sake of a rich fuck's wallet. And I would still mourn their loss because nobody deserves to die like he did.

The answer is clear to me. Universal health care for everyone. Any less than that is a failure to the country.

So, inspired by a certain short video that unexpectedly fell into my recommended (*cough* shorts/L4DMleJVdSw *cough*)

I wanted to ask y'all a question.

Do you prefer Boshi with toeless boots, or totally bare feet with leather anklets?

And tbh, same question goes for Croco, since he's also had a similar change.

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10532308/

 spellflare is taking story commissions right now. If you're in the market for one, they do a pretty good job!

"Upload Policy 2.7 - Content Involving Minors
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Minors may not have detailed bulges or outlines of normal or hyper genitalia, clothed or otherwise. Minors may not be fetishized. Minors younger than 13 may not be depicted as pregnant. Minors are defined as real or fictional humanoids with a childlike body or younger than 18 years old, and any adolescent animals.

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Woo!! Finally some good changes around here, hopefully they enforce this well enough.

Also, hello y'all, been awhile since I posted a journal. I've been around, still alive, working on my mental health. I just haven't had much occasion to say something here until now.

I'm doing well, though, I'm healing and getting better at being myself!

"The Great Mighty Poo" song is to Conker's Bad Fur Day what "Pickle Rick" is to Rick and Morty

And your bedroom.
And your hospital.
And your status as a human being.

Fuck conservatives, and fuck the do-nothing democrats who are using this as an opportunity to grift.

And fuck the "States Rights" bullshit that only ever seems to come up when a law is passed to protect the rights of a minority.

And fuck everyone who said "They wouldn't overturn Roe v Wade, stop being hyperbolic" and is now saying "They won't overturn same sex marriage, stop being hyperbolic"

Y'all need to start actually realizing that people aren't panicking over nothing, they legitimately predicted the erosion of human rights and, much to their dismay, were proven right.

And unless we, as a people, do something, it will keep happening.

I hope we find peace, to make our fury tranquil and pointed.

You remember those journals I posted on my older account, ranting about various things in regards to dragons and kinks and stuff?

I kinda wanna try explaining why I did that (not justifying it)

There are many things I'm ill-equipped to handle because I never learned how to do that in a way that actually works for someone who is autistic and has ADHD. People like me experience emotions very, very, VERY loudly. But everything is usually aimed at people who experience emotions in the normal volume. Their negative emotions dissipate within a reasonable amount of time.

Mine don't. I feel them very strongly and things get blown up way out of proportion. That's not to say my feelings are invalid, but my reactions are disproportionate to the cause. Other people tend to react to this negatively, for obvious reasons, and so I get scolded.

And since I have nothing else I can do with these emotions, I bury them. Try to force myself to not feel them. And if I start feeling them again, that's a failing on my part, why am I still holding onto this, what's wrong with me, etc.

It also doesn't help that, like many other autistic people, I have a strong sense of "justice", for lack of a better word. Perceived wrongs MUST be redressed, in the proper way, and with the proper gravity, etc. Failure to do this is just unconscionable, yada yada. So I will get *very angry* over people who, for example, challenge things that are proven to be correct by providing wrong information. Whether it's misinformation about COVID, or the draconic status of wyverns, stuff like that gets me boiling over.

Because of course I'm boiling over. My cauldron is filled to the brim with all of the emotions I've buried. I never learned how to handle them, and no one around me knew to teach me. What else was I supposed to do? Get help? (Which I am now, by the way, but even then it's a struggle to remember that I *do* have to rely on other people, and that I shouldn't be tackling everything myself)

This attitude and this denial of my own emotions is why things that *shouldn't* have traumatized me did. And that lead to me lashing out at people, which I would've done even if someone someone hadn't goaded me on 'cause he hated a certain group of fetishists. (I still blame him for making it worse though.)

Venting in journals was somewhat of a healthier step than lashing out directly at people, but not by much. Even now I'm still struggling not to keep doing this.

I wish I could say that this is the part where I say I've figured it out and I'm beginning to heal, but all I've done is cease the toxic *behavior*. The cause is still there, and still present. Even now, when I opened up this journal, it was initially to vent about a certain triggering trope in the hypnosis/dronification kink sphere (not permanence this time, thank goodness, I've at least made progress on that).

I decided to just kind of verbalize my thought process about this, instead, and explain a bit of how I got here and the things I struggle with. Maybe this will resound with some of you, too. I don't know.

I have the responsibility to be a better person than I was. And I am trying my best to do that. And part of that is learning to forgive myself for not knowing how to handle any of my very loud, very persistent emotions. And sometimes I have to keep doing this.

I guess, in a way, I've decided to be my own Valentine's since the person I need to give the most love to right now is myself. (Don't worry, Rusty and I are still doing great, it's just that I love him every day of the year anyways - and focusing on loving myself will make my love for him more meaningful anyways <3)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y7a3_SHWWRk
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dfi2Pc5ArBk
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PDGi8LmC0VA
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0BYDmrrh8rA

One of those rare quality finds that ended up being a gift that kept on giving!