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Big Break!
Posted 3 weeks agohooooooly crap this might be the best day of my life. woundtech just got in touch with me, im finally going to be able to see a wound specialist!! hopefully this is the solution i need, because i dont know how much more i can take, if im honest. please keep me in your thoughts, guys. i've been suffering so much recently, im ready for it to end
Forward
Posted a month agoApologies for the delay in posting. I have been taking a break from commissions recently to allow myself not only time to heal, but to get back into my art mojo. Since I've been resting a lot due to fatigue, I've unfortunately run into burnout. Thankfully though, the past 2 days have seen a decrease in that, so hopefully I can keep this up and get back to posting! Thank you for your continued support and patience <3
Path Ahead
Posted 2 months agosaw a doctor on Monday. he confirmed my wound integrity is so fragile that even the slightest touch can worsen it. thankfully though, he gave me a direction to go- which is what i was hoping for more than anything. i'll be aiming to get referred to wound care in the near future, despite my insurance saying it could take months to receive treatment- bogus, but whatever. i've also been recommended to pursue seeing an infectious disease doctor to treat my infection. i have a course of antibiotics with me now for 2 weeks, so hopefully that can provide at least some temporary relief and my intestines don't implode like last time [eye roll]. just wanted to give an update as to why i've been so quite. its been real rough, but hopefully this is my light in the tunnel.
Health Update
Posted 2 months agoHi guys, apologies for being so slow lately. My infections have gotten really bad within the past two weeks. I've been seeing increased bleeding, pus build up, trauma, and fatigue as well. Thankfully though, my mother managed to secure me an appointment with a new doctor on Monday, so hopefully I can get some conclusive results then.
I'm going to try my best to pull myself up by my bootstraps to begin working again, but my fatigue has brought with it serious mental fog. I've been trying to take my happy pills more frequently (I struggle with that) so hopefully that'll change soon.
I'm going to try my best to pull myself up by my bootstraps to begin working again, but my fatigue has brought with it serious mental fog. I've been trying to take my happy pills more frequently (I struggle with that) so hopefully that'll change soon.
Serious New Issues
Posted 3 months agoLast month I went to urgent care to receive treatment for my infection. Long story short, they put me on meds that the bacterium is resistant to and refuse to give me any further treatment unless I get re-examined from the start.
I think my infection has gotten much worse in that time. I am now struggling with serious fatigue that has been only allowing me 2 hours of time between long rest periods. I'm not even sleepy, I feel genuinely exhausted deep within my body.
I have two WIPs i will be attempting to handle this week, but next week I will have to go on a break to get myself treated. I don't feel well at all
I think my infection has gotten much worse in that time. I am now struggling with serious fatigue that has been only allowing me 2 hours of time between long rest periods. I'm not even sleepy, I feel genuinely exhausted deep within my body.
I have two WIPs i will be attempting to handle this week, but next week I will have to go on a break to get myself treated. I don't feel well at all
Notice On Full Render Commissions!
Posted 3 months agoFrom here on, I will be adjusting my rendering style for full render commissions! I have made developments in my art style recently that I would like to finalize in my commission work, so adjustments will be made accordingly to every future purchase! At the moment, I don't have any examples worthy of posting, but to anyone who wants to purchase a full render commission, I will gladly send private examples!Health Update
Posted 4 months agoSo, update on my wounds and infection.
Got my results from the culture I did at urgent care; I'm infected with citrobacter freundii. Apparently this is antibiotic resistant, which makes it hard to kill.
The medication i was given is something this bacteria is actually immune to, so it wasn't doing jack shit LMAO. It also gave me an allergic reaction- most likely related to my immunodeficiency since I was tested and my levels were elevated. My foot is now swollen and has been for 2 weeks. JUST got dismissed from the er after being there for 3 hours.
I'm recommended to keep my foot iced and elevated, fun (':
Got my results from the culture I did at urgent care; I'm infected with citrobacter freundii. Apparently this is antibiotic resistant, which makes it hard to kill.
The medication i was given is something this bacteria is actually immune to, so it wasn't doing jack shit LMAO. It also gave me an allergic reaction- most likely related to my immunodeficiency since I was tested and my levels were elevated. My foot is now swollen and has been for 2 weeks. JUST got dismissed from the er after being there for 3 hours.
I'm recommended to keep my foot iced and elevated, fun (':
It's My Birthday!
Posted 4 months agoHappy Hatch Day to me, Noodle is 22 years old!
Thinking about my journey through struggling health and my birthday, I have some mixed feelings. I'm happy to say I have been strong enough to make it another year around the sun, because it shows my body is still fighting the good fight! But at the same time, I feel sad that I have to spend this birthday with issues that still persist.
Regardless of what may and may not be, I'll spend today with my head held high. For 24 hours, I vow to do what I want and how I want! Thank you all for supporting me on my journey; not just through my health, but my artistic career! c: You've all made this noodle very happy, and I wish to continue that!
Many hugs,
LanLan
Thinking about my journey through struggling health and my birthday, I have some mixed feelings. I'm happy to say I have been strong enough to make it another year around the sun, because it shows my body is still fighting the good fight! But at the same time, I feel sad that I have to spend this birthday with issues that still persist.
Regardless of what may and may not be, I'll spend today with my head held high. For 24 hours, I vow to do what I want and how I want! Thank you all for supporting me on my journey; not just through my health, but my artistic career! c: You've all made this noodle very happy, and I wish to continue that!
Many hugs,
LanLan
Final Push [cw]
Posted 4 months agoI have managed to locate the [1] urgent care in my network and will be going in next week. My wounds have begun to peel from the inside out it seems, with the innermost flesh pushing forward to the outside. I have no idea what is going on, but its getting worse. I can no longer properly use the toilet due to bleeding and agonizing pain. I'm in trouble. Hopefully the swab will identify what is living in my flesh and I can begin warding off pathogens while I work on getting corrective procedures.
Completely Giving Up
Posted 5 months agoI'm so... everything.
No matter what I do, I meet road blocks. I was diagnosed with 2 Girl Infections[tm] on top of my wound infection, and i just found out they gave me the ONE medication I am severely allergic to and explicitly told them not to give me. I've been feeling like hell and I can't get the care I need. I've even reached out to my insurance for telehealth calls, and those doctors said they cant help me. The one suggestion they had they told me could take anywhere from a week to months to even get into. I feel like I'm being resigned to just living with festering infections and pain every day.
I'm sorry I cant work on commissions like I need to. I feel like a failure no matter what I do. I've been crying so much. I feel desperate and lost.
I dont know what to do anymore
No matter what I do, I meet road blocks. I was diagnosed with 2 Girl Infections[tm] on top of my wound infection, and i just found out they gave me the ONE medication I am severely allergic to and explicitly told them not to give me. I've been feeling like hell and I can't get the care I need. I've even reached out to my insurance for telehealth calls, and those doctors said they cant help me. The one suggestion they had they told me could take anywhere from a week to months to even get into. I feel like I'm being resigned to just living with festering infections and pain every day.
I'm sorry I cant work on commissions like I need to. I feel like a failure no matter what I do. I've been crying so much. I feel desperate and lost.
I dont know what to do anymore
Where I've Been [Post Grief Update]
Posted 5 months agoHi guys, I wanted to give a little update as to my current status. 3 weeks ago, my dog Bella passed away after over a decade of many years together with my family. I took a small mourning hiatus after posting the journal about her death, but I stayed away a bit longer than I was anticipating due to other issues as well.
Shortly after I went on hiatus, I was diagnosed with a severe infection that I was prescribed antifungals and antibiotics for. I'm happy to say it appears that infection was killed, however, my surgical wounds have reopened and grown and have become increasingly infected as well. I have been trying to pursue treatment for this, because the pain is intense, and the purulent [infected] discharge has become thick and foul smelling. Unfortunately, I haven't been successful thus far. I am going to try to seek treatment as soon as I can because I am incredibly worried this will evolve into MRSA within short time if it gets any worse. I am looking into skin grafting procedures as well, and will be getting a consultation soon.
Because of this, my plan to return had been delayed. I am currently working on starting my art back up because I am in need of money once again, so expect me to post again soon. Additionally, I also want to add that I have been recently diagnosed with an autoimmune disease. I am currently waiting on a proper diagnosis, but its looking like it might be Lupus. So yeah, fun all around.
Shortly after I went on hiatus, I was diagnosed with a severe infection that I was prescribed antifungals and antibiotics for. I'm happy to say it appears that infection was killed, however, my surgical wounds have reopened and grown and have become increasingly infected as well. I have been trying to pursue treatment for this, because the pain is intense, and the purulent [infected] discharge has become thick and foul smelling. Unfortunately, I haven't been successful thus far. I am going to try to seek treatment as soon as I can because I am incredibly worried this will evolve into MRSA within short time if it gets any worse. I am looking into skin grafting procedures as well, and will be getting a consultation soon.
Because of this, my plan to return had been delayed. I am currently working on starting my art back up because I am in need of money once again, so expect me to post again soon. Additionally, I also want to add that I have been recently diagnosed with an autoimmune disease. I am currently waiting on a proper diagnosis, but its looking like it might be Lupus. So yeah, fun all around.
The Rainbow Bridge
Posted 6 months agoHi guys. Today my dog crossed the rainbow bridge after over a decade with us. She was born here in our backyard and her whole life was spent making fond memories and bringing love and laughter to our home. She has been put to rest and I know now that she is running happily throughout the fields of the afterlife with her mother and all her siblings. Bella was the puppy I chose to keep from the litter, and she was special to all of us. I can rest easy knowing that she isn't in pain anymore, but my heart hurts because she has gone where I cannot follow until the time is right.
I hate to do this, but I will need to extend my break to grieve. I will come back when I have a better handle on my emotions. I knew this day would come, but experiencing it is far different than just thinking about it. Bella was cherished, she was our sweet girl who touched the hearts of many.
https://imgur.com/a/ZQgPNetResuming Slowly
Posted 6 months agoHi guys! Thank you for your support while I took my break. I'm happy to report that I am no longer in critical condition, though I have unfortunately developed more wounds I will need to keep an eye on. The bleeding has mostly stopped, but some of the pain does remain depending on the day. I will be resuming commissions this week though slowly; since I will be continuing to see how my health develops. Just wanted to inform you all!
Temporary Pause On Progress
Posted 6 months agoI need to pause commission work for give or take a week and a half. I am dealing with surgical site issues once more and this round has been incredibly painful and draining. I don't want to burn myself out mid-draw, so I will be pausing temporarily until the majority of the pain subsides - will update.
More Sketch Comms!
Posted 6 months agoNeeding money, so I'm taking more of these! Haven't been able to post the comms I've finished- for obvious FA reasons.
Here's the link to the price sheet!
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60582419/
DM me here or on discord for a slot! We can chat about all needed details c:Where I've Been!
Posted 7 months agoI have been taking some time off these past couple days due to some medical frustrations draining the soul out of me. Setting up medical care is EXTREMELY DIFFICULT when the office loses your information :'D I should be returning to work Monday! Needing Some Money.. Adding Slots!
Posted 7 months agoHey guys! I'm needing some cash, so I'm opening up 4 more slots here! If you're interested pls let me know! <3
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59552813/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59552813/
Opening Up Slots
Posted 8 months agoHi! I'll be taking 3 more slots for these:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59552813/
I humbly request only slots with a max of 2 characters for these! I've been intensely sick, and while I continue to work, I would like to make sure I'm not struggling too much!
If you're interested please either note me or dm! <3
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59552813/
I humbly request only slots with a max of 2 characters for these! I've been intensely sick, and while I continue to work, I would like to make sure I'm not struggling too much!
If you're interested please either note me or dm! <3
Health Update: Stumbling
Posted 10 months agoWell I have more issues. I thought this final surgery would be the thing to fix it all, but turns out my skin is beginning to reopen slightly. I'm now having to deal with constant bleeding, pain, sensitivity, and viscous fluid all over again. Thankfully at this very moment it isn't as bad as it once was, but that wont stop me from treating it as seriously. Knowing my body, any inch could give this thing a mile so I will do everything in my power to attempt to fix this asap. Please understand if you have commissioned me, I might be taking extra long depending on how this plays out, since this issue impacts how I sit.
Thank you for understanding.I have 3 open slots!
Posted 10 months agoI opened 3 new slots, please see here:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59529091/Adding A Slot
Posted a year agoHi guys! I'm adding another slot to my comm list because for some reason, in the span of 7 days my paypal account managed to gain over 100 dollars in debt and all my transactions have been used to pay this thing off - meaning I'm not making any money. So I'm trying to earn the money thats owed to me. If you're interested, you can find the post and information here:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58470006/Update!
Posted a year agoEDIT: So.. I have to revise my plan here. Initially, I was expecting to be able to post this weekend, HOWEVER, due to my less-than-ideal sleep schedule and food intake, I have run into burnout. I am, however, in contact with and am currently working on orders that were WIP'd prior to this. I AM making progress, I just have to amend my posting schedule here.
Hopefully at max I'll need a week's worth of time to correct this
Hopefully at max I'll need a week's worth of time to correct this
Silver Lining
Posted a year agoHi guys! I wanted to let you know that I had my last appt with the doctor for some time, and while it wasn't good news, I wanted to let you know I was given the all clear to get back to working!
My wounds are in a pretty critical state, as they have completely separated from each other and have left me with a gaping hole ONCE AGAIN. The doctor told me firmly that there really isn't another course of action I can take, other than praying my body can close it on its own [doubtful], as more procedures might result in more failures. Sooo that means I'm back to the way I was before, at least until I find another solution. I'm okay! Don't worry! I'm honestly more just happy to finally get back to you all.
My wounds are in a pretty critical state, as they have completely separated from each other and have left me with a gaping hole ONCE AGAIN. The doctor told me firmly that there really isn't another course of action I can take, other than praying my body can close it on its own [doubtful], as more procedures might result in more failures. Sooo that means I'm back to the way I was before, at least until I find another solution. I'm okay! Don't worry! I'm honestly more just happy to finally get back to you all.
A Concerning Update
Posted a year agoHi guys, I'm here to update you all on my medical situation.
I got another round of stitches put in me last week due to one of my sutures tearing open. Today I got informed that those stitches are not doing well. They are leaking viscous fluid which isn't what we want, so the doctor is pushing to place me on permanent bed rest for the next two weeks until I see him again.
I wanted to make this announcement to those who commissioned me, as I understand I have an obligation to you and the art you requested of me. I completely intend to fulfill that promise, but it will take some time due to my slow healing process as a product of my disease. Please continue to be patient with me, I know it's not the best outcome, but I've been suffering with this for 3 years and I'm so mentally exhausted with having to deal with health complications that have basically turned me into a shut in.
Thank you all
I got another round of stitches put in me last week due to one of my sutures tearing open. Today I got informed that those stitches are not doing well. They are leaking viscous fluid which isn't what we want, so the doctor is pushing to place me on permanent bed rest for the next two weeks until I see him again.
I wanted to make this announcement to those who commissioned me, as I understand I have an obligation to you and the art you requested of me. I completely intend to fulfill that promise, but it will take some time due to my slow healing process as a product of my disease. Please continue to be patient with me, I know it's not the best outcome, but I've been suffering with this for 3 years and I'm so mentally exhausted with having to deal with health complications that have basically turned me into a shut in.
Thank you all
Medical Update: Home Stretch!
Posted a year agoWell it looks like I'll be completing this pretty soon! : D
I had my surgery on the 9th and it went smoothly! I went in around 3pm and finally got to go home around 7, so it was a long day for sure! I have been on a strict no-sitting regimen since then and oh boy has it been HELL. The human body is NOT meant to be laying on its side for 90% of the day [sobs].
Since starting, I have been dealing with horrible muscle pain and weakness due to my neck being lopsided when I lay on my side, and it has caused my whole traps section to just absolutely seize. Lost feeling in my arms there for a sec, and can't really look up BUT! It's coming to an end now! The original plan was 3 weeks, but doc said it can be reduced to 1 due to the outcome of the surgery [thank god], so I'll be finishing that up on Wednesday when I get my stitches removed!
My caretakers have been keeping good tabs on my healing process, and I'm pleased to report that I no longer have scabs and ALL threads are crisp! Hopefully this is promising and I can put an end to my 3 year curse! <3 