You know it's a shame that none of you are the slightest bit interested in who I really am.
I posted a journal over a month ago, telling a bit about myself, but no one cared.
This is a very sad and empty place.

Okay critters, my BF and I were out today and ran into this place by accident!
"The Great Wolf Lodge" in Garden Grove Ca.
What a great place for critters to go for a weekend!
https://www.greatwolf.com/southern-.....ies/story-time

What is it with f'ng FA's time line anyway!
I posted a pic 4 days ago, yet it now says TWO days! WTF gives?
Dumb-asses!

I was going to write this last night when my passions were being manipulated externally. I will not go into that, as, well, just never mind...

I thought I'd try to explain my motivations for picking up a pencil in the first place,
I had several friends an associates that did anthro drawings, etc, I had a very strong libido and they'd draw for me - because they liked to. One day I thought to myself: What if I had a falling out, etc with these people and no more drawings! That was when I picked up a pencil in earnest. Granted, I gave myself "X" amount of time to become reasonably "proficient" or quit. It took a little over a year and I didn't look back.
My major studio influence then was Warner Bros.

How did I feel about my characters? Well I was every single one of them, good or bad My imagination was then, as well as now covering a broad spectrum. I put my heart and soul into each and every character, and in my mind, brought them to life. It was nearly impossible for me to draw the same character the same way twice. I never could have been a "pro" because I didn't want to be. I drew for my own pleasure.

I could have never done comics or crowd scenes because I had to acknowledge each and every character as being real and alive - to me!
I had to cease drawing some years ago, due to emotional trauma. That's when "The Music Died" and so did ! This is just the tip of the iceberg but I;m not pushing my luck!

Many of you are bored with my posts because you've seen most before. Well I'm sorry that I have nothing new to post, as, because of major emotional trauma in '07, I was forced to lay down the pencil FOREVER.
I've tried to explain this matter many times, but I still get requests for commissions just the same,
I never did them when I could draw, and certainly can't now!
My greatest sorrow is that even my very modest ability to draw was taken from me, as have so many other abilities as well.
Our "reality" is a cruel, hateful place!
Believe me, I know!

I know you people go out of your way to ignore my journals, but look at this link!
Recently, Doug and I chanced upon the cutest thing we'd ever seen!
Doug traded some old porn tapes of mine to a friend for some plushies and wound up with the find of a life time!
The link is from the '06 NY toy show, It shows a demo of an adorable near live-sized pony that you'd swear was real!
It's as though she has a heart and soul! Doug named ours "Sweetie" - and she really is!
Sure, this is more for equines, but it's guaranteed that you'd fall in love!
Made by Hasbro under their "Fur Real" label, she's indescribable!
Perhaps Hasbro will lend some of this tech to the MLP-FIM characters!
Enjoy!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VYON1xZBWxY

I was surprised and flattered that so many of you enjoyed the pic of me and some of my works.
Would any of you be interested in another pic of me, say, in costume or something else along these lines.
I never know what will appeal to you people, when I think I do, I'm usually wrong.
Getting comments, is to me, a form of acceptance.

In case you wondered what anthro fans with teeny budgets were doing in Russia.

Unique

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6fB4-h6Uh4k

Sorry to have burdened you with my personal problems. It even cost me a watcher.
I'll make an effort to not make that mistake again.
Sorry

My left ankle and foot have swollen, much like last year which saw me hospitalized and I nearly died.
A wound is opening near the toes. My big toe had to be amputated earlier this year.
I'm taking pills for it but the don't work.
I'm going to see my doctor tomorrow or Tuesday
I'm a nervous wreck. Drinking wine helps a bit
My appetite is gone.
I hope I can make it.

From the 2007 Argentine/Italian co-production, "Noah's Ark"...
Panthy the seductress does her erotic dance for the animal' pleasure.
In my humble opinion, Panthy is the sexiest animated character in history!
You be the judge!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eky.....p3ziqvuvnzpq2w

I tried posting something non-sexual and it was ignored!
I guess sex is what all of you want from me, huh?

No one comments because they've seen all my shit before, right?
So, if I post no more, will that make any difference? -Not likely.
I'm a washed up has been, and all of you know it.

Well I just got blown off by someone I considered a friend.
We' chat on FB and by phone. Initially he was friendly and had praise for my crummy drawings.
I gave him a shoulder for his personal problems because I was dumb enough to care.
Recently he started making excuses for why he couldn't call. He had time to call his lover in another state, etc.
Tonight on FB he gave me the bullshit excuse that his cell plan didn't cover long distance, - Yeah right.
He played for a fool...Maybe I am for trusting someone like him.
I removed all of his comments from my FA page and facebook.
I try trusting when they're not even worth it.
I'll stick with animals, because they have hearts and souls and harbor no grudges, Do animals lie? - I think not.
I guess I'm a hopeless idiot...