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General | Posted 3 years agoOK, really really REALLY cannot decide what I want to do today. Feel free in the comments to send a suggestion but please I cannot promise it will be drawn. I really just want to get something done today, but I lack the motivation and creativity of course on my days off.
Just..like...Nothing I draw seems worth a shit anymore to me today.
Just..like...Nothing I draw seems worth a shit anymore to me today.
An Update on Life and Technology
General | Posted 3 years agoOK SO
Life has been going downhill ever since I turned 28. But I guess that's just life. Among other things happening to me/affecting me, I ordered a new dumbass BAMBOO stylus pen and IT is deciding not to work on my HP Spectre now or whatever. I was able to draw the last Birthday Fur Pile comic and sketch out the next page, but my NEW PEN that I blew $50 on is deciding not to pick up half my pen-strokes/even work on the touchscreen. If ANYONE is an artist, you would know that THAT is beyond aggravating.
THAT BEING SAID; maybe expect only Traditional for a while. I'm sorry guys, that's just how the cookie tends to crumble for me...
Life has been going downhill ever since I turned 28. But I guess that's just life. Among other things happening to me/affecting me, I ordered a new dumbass BAMBOO stylus pen and IT is deciding not to work on my HP Spectre now or whatever. I was able to draw the last Birthday Fur Pile comic and sketch out the next page, but my NEW PEN that I blew $50 on is deciding not to pick up half my pen-strokes/even work on the touchscreen. If ANYONE is an artist, you would know that THAT is beyond aggravating.
THAT BEING SAID; maybe expect only Traditional for a while. I'm sorry guys, that's just how the cookie tends to crumble for me...
Thanks For The Kind Words
General | Posted 3 years agoHey, I’m back home and doing a bit better now. My brain just really likes to get upset about shit like that all the time :) I really really appreciate you all and especially those who posted the kind and friendly comments. I promise right now IM OKAY.
As for art and commissions; the comms are on the way incoming first. Then, I will get back to sketching some stuff maybe posting some artwork a bit later. Might STILL take a small break from posting, but I figure my commissioners have waited long enough. Also maybe going back to Digital. Thank you all so much for understanding. I really have never been diagnosed with anything officially, just been told all sorts of stuff; I got ABCDEFGH…. But I digress. Deleting the old journal maybe
As for art and commissions; the comms are on the way incoming first. Then, I will get back to sketching some stuff maybe posting some artwork a bit later. Might STILL take a small break from posting, but I figure my commissioners have waited long enough. Also maybe going back to Digital. Thank you all so much for understanding. I really have never been diagnosed with anything officially, just been told all sorts of stuff; I got ABCDEFGH…. But I digress. Deleting the old journal maybe
EMERGENCY CHRISTMAS COMMISSIONS
General | Posted 4 years agoYeahhhh..recently found out I'm super short on money and I can't even really afford Christmas presents for my friends and family and I'm stressing the EFF out!
SO I"M OPENING/RE-OPENING COMMS AGAIN
If you are interested or wanted one in the past, please be sure to DM me in FA. I DO NOT USE DISCORD; I'm sorry to say.
Traditional B/W: $25
Traditional Colored Pencil: $27
Digital B/W: $35
Digital Colored: $37
PLEASE DM me if anyone is interested; help RockerGrayFox have a Christmas. Wanted one in the past?? Let's discuss again!
SO I"M OPENING/RE-OPENING COMMS AGAIN
If you are interested or wanted one in the past, please be sure to DM me in FA. I DO NOT USE DISCORD; I'm sorry to say.
Traditional B/W: $25
Traditional Colored Pencil: $27
Digital B/W: $35
Digital Colored: $37
PLEASE DM me if anyone is interested; help RockerGrayFox have a Christmas. Wanted one in the past?? Let's discuss again!
OK Then
General | Posted 4 years agoIt feels a little too embarrassing to actually GO SEE Space Jam 2 but...
They morph Wile E. Coyote all punked out in the Mad Max universe and ALSO he farts??
Who's been going thru my sketchbooks??
(Anyone want to see more Anthony, btw??)
They morph Wile E. Coyote all punked out in the Mad Max universe and ALSO he farts??
Who's been going thru my sketchbooks??
(Anyone want to see more Anthony, btw??)
Inspirational Situational Positive Movie Quotes
General | Posted 4 years agoFor some reason, if the right situation occurs, whether I'm muttering to myself in the multiple-person-hive-mind-whatever (saying "we" like ALL the fucking time), alone by myself playing video games, or actually communicating with an old high school friendo of mine thru Xbox Live...So many movie quotes pop in my head and just make me laugh; sometimes I do an impersonation of the quote! Anyway here's some of my personal favorites I always find myself subconsiously saying; like a Mocking Bird (my next bird-sona OC?? XD)
"Mr. Lightyear wants more tape~~" (tiny robot from Toy Story) (just in general)
"GIMME THE FUCKIN' KEYS YOU FUCKIN' COCK-SUCKIN' MOTHA-FUCKAAA-LA-LA-LA-LA( shakes his head like a werewolf-fox)" (lineup scene in The Usual Suspects) (also, unfortunately, just in general XD)
"RRRRRiiiiight..." (Dr. Evil) (pretty much everything every patient told me in the hospital last week)
"Tommy want wingy" *rolls up chin* (Tommy Boy)
[hazily muttering] "I want my phone call..I want it...I want my PHONE CALL" (Joke in The Dark Knight) (every time i'm waiting on a phone call or wanting my phone)
"NICE FUCKIN MODEL! *HONK HONK* (Beetlejuice) (Nuff said. Really want to do a sequence in which Werewolf-Fox (in his mind) is banished to a model of Myst Island and he's screaming "You bUNCHA LOSERS!!" as the party that fought him fade away.)
AND my personal favorite of my friend and I over Live
"Wrong kid died." (Walk Hard: The Dewey Cox Story) (it's horrible, but we fuckin' say this all the time)
We are all the time seriously like KNOCK KNOCK. Who's there?........Wrong Kid died. XD XD
Anyway, that's all I wanted to vomit today. Which Movie or TV quote brings you all joy??
My personal quote BTW is the bar lady flashing her boobies at the Psychedelic Monk in an episode of The Mighty Boosh.
"Mr. Lightyear wants more tape~~" (tiny robot from Toy Story) (just in general)
"GIMME THE FUCKIN' KEYS YOU FUCKIN' COCK-SUCKIN' MOTHA-FUCKAAA-LA-LA-LA-LA( shakes his head like a werewolf-fox)" (lineup scene in The Usual Suspects) (also, unfortunately, just in general XD)
"RRRRRiiiiight..." (Dr. Evil) (pretty much everything every patient told me in the hospital last week)
"Tommy want wingy" *rolls up chin* (Tommy Boy)
[hazily muttering] "I want my phone call..I want it...I want my PHONE CALL" (Joke in The Dark Knight) (every time i'm waiting on a phone call or wanting my phone)
"NICE FUCKIN MODEL! *HONK HONK* (Beetlejuice) (Nuff said. Really want to do a sequence in which Werewolf-Fox (in his mind) is banished to a model of Myst Island and he's screaming "You bUNCHA LOSERS!!" as the party that fought him fade away.)
AND my personal favorite of my friend and I over Live
"Wrong kid died." (Walk Hard: The Dewey Cox Story) (it's horrible, but we fuckin' say this all the time)
We are all the time seriously like KNOCK KNOCK. Who's there?........Wrong Kid died. XD XD
Anyway, that's all I wanted to vomit today. Which Movie or TV quote brings you all joy??
My personal quote BTW is the bar lady flashing her boobies at the Psychedelic Monk in an episode of The Mighty Boosh.
Biomutant is fucking awesome.
General | Posted 4 years agoLike it's very adorable and it's what I really really needed right now. Its not perfect by any means and there are SOME unskippable dialogues/cutscenes with a slow first 2-hour beginning, but, my goodness, I'm seriously enchanted. SPOILS FOR LIKE THE FIRST 3 HOURS!!!
*there are a lot of cute hybrizied prefixes and suffixes; such as "upcycle" (upgrade armor) or "re-stroyed" (destroyed and then built back over the land).
*every anthro in this game is a perfect (for starters) hybrid of like 3 animals and 2+ art styles at once.
*your personal device is a robotic grasshopper
*It's like Kung Fu Panda and Borderlands with an Ocarina of Time vibe. I shit you not the weapon system is sorta similar to what I've been drawing the past month of a half (but post only on my personal Facebook so my friends and family can see "nice things") with like junk attachments and metal pieces and shit...This is game is literally MOSTLY what I think about all the time.
*you PISS on every new map marker you find. >/////> Just sayin.
*It's not called your Mom and Dad, it's your Mooma and Popsi <3
So, yeah, I would just like to puke that out and almost wonder what the "experiment" of Experiment 101(The company who created the game + THQ Nordic) is supposed to be. I seriously believe this is still the dawn or almost the Silver Age of Furry/Anthro video games.
Even now, I'm doing a side-quest in the past and you keep coming back and forth and talking to your Mooma and I'm like almost weeping with joy, its so adorable. Every convo choice you make has a reflective insight or positive thing to say. It's honestly making me sorta cry just the tiny cub thing talking to its identical Mooma, you're literally makin' tears come outta my face, Rod.
OH GO BLOW YOUR NOSE GRAYFOX! XD XD
*there are a lot of cute hybrizied prefixes and suffixes; such as "upcycle" (upgrade armor) or "re-stroyed" (destroyed and then built back over the land).
*every anthro in this game is a perfect (for starters) hybrid of like 3 animals and 2+ art styles at once.
*your personal device is a robotic grasshopper
*It's like Kung Fu Panda and Borderlands with an Ocarina of Time vibe. I shit you not the weapon system is sorta similar to what I've been drawing the past month of a half (but post only on my personal Facebook so my friends and family can see "nice things") with like junk attachments and metal pieces and shit...This is game is literally MOSTLY what I think about all the time.
*you PISS on every new map marker you find. >/////> Just sayin.
*It's not called your Mom and Dad, it's your Mooma and Popsi <3
So, yeah, I would just like to puke that out and almost wonder what the "experiment" of Experiment 101(The company who created the game + THQ Nordic) is supposed to be. I seriously believe this is still the dawn or almost the Silver Age of Furry/Anthro video games.
Even now, I'm doing a side-quest in the past and you keep coming back and forth and talking to your Mooma and I'm like almost weeping with joy, its so adorable. Every convo choice you make has a reflective insight or positive thing to say. It's honestly making me sorta cry just the tiny cub thing talking to its identical Mooma, you're literally makin' tears come outta my face, Rod.
OH GO BLOW YOUR NOSE GRAYFOX! XD XD
OLD DUMP ART ART DUMP INCOMING
General | Posted 4 years agoYeah, a friend and I are discussing some old concepts to explore, and is bringing up old fart/dump/scat art I did on my BRIEF old secret tumblr for those concepts. A lot of it has never been posted on FA before and be warned its not my best work as it might be 2-3 years old at this point. Anyway, lots of horrifyingly gross demon-fuzzies defacating and whatnot INCOMING~
Reprehensible Kitchen Job/What Am I To Do?
General | Posted 5 years agoLet me tell you all about the night I had last night. The night I might've just walked out on my kitchen job, yet at the same time I was called in and said "yes" and it was at the very, very end?? Long story short, I got locked out at the end of the night trying to take care of all the garbage. The piece-of-shit guy they paired me with on dishes that just drinks in his car on the job and smoke Tucci or whatever-the-fuck out is fucking about somewhere else and I was ringing the buzzer and pounding on the door, trying to open all the doors, and calling the building. Outside in the cold. For twenty minutes, and it's already past 11 PM at this point. No one else is around to help me in.
EDIT: [honky, yet nicer manager called me to see what was happening and if I was OK as I'm typing this. Explained to him what I just typed out up there, that I was locked the fuck out and couldn't do anything about it. Told him I was about to crack like an egg being there]
But, yeah, SHITTY JOB, thats the gist of what I'm getting at, and for a night I was called in, I wasn't expecting like "special treatment" or whatever, but goddamn the entire night was a shit sundae and getting locked out of the building was the cherry on top. For what hard work I do there, it certainly doesn't equal out to the respect I get. I'm actually just sitting up in my bed now stressed the fuck out on my Friday off about TOMORROW'S SHIFT, in which they delegated me to the position i am WORST at and I always try to tell them this but: STOP. FUCKING. PUTTING. ME. THERE. IT. ALWAYS. GOES. WRONG. FUCKING. CLAP EMOJIS!!!!! But, seriously, I am the worst at the Fry-cooking at this place, something always. ALWAYS. goes wrong when I'm on it. Like, God almost wills it. And compared to everybody else, it seems if I fuck up, I'm a fuckin' scumbag to these fuckers, yet everybody else including the guy who came before me; who is far lazier and has no prior job experience, just fuckin' laughs it off. "NAAAH, YOU'RE GOOD BRO :3 :3" So, fuck this place, I hope it burns down so I technically don't have to be there.
That being said, I've been a fucking wreck recently. For a non-alcoholic person who voms half the time drinking; i've been slamming so much vodka this past month, to the point where I get tired and pass out. This has been transitioning into more controlled drinking at night, at the bar in desperate hopes for a guy again. Don't really know what else to do at this point?
If I owe you a Commission, don't worry! You will certainly get yours! I am very sorry I've kinda been a sloshed GrayFox these past 2 months, but every commission I owe has been on the back of my mind, so I certainly haven't forgotten, and I always pay my debts in return. Soonly, and hopefully...HOPEFULLY, I am going to have reduced hours soon (not as a punishment, but because I fuckin' asked for it), so I can untilize my days off to get those done for everybody, because, yes, it has been kind of a dry art time on this page.
Thanks for reading and understanding.
EDIT: [honky, yet nicer manager called me to see what was happening and if I was OK as I'm typing this. Explained to him what I just typed out up there, that I was locked the fuck out and couldn't do anything about it. Told him I was about to crack like an egg being there]
But, yeah, SHITTY JOB, thats the gist of what I'm getting at, and for a night I was called in, I wasn't expecting like "special treatment" or whatever, but goddamn the entire night was a shit sundae and getting locked out of the building was the cherry on top. For what hard work I do there, it certainly doesn't equal out to the respect I get. I'm actually just sitting up in my bed now stressed the fuck out on my Friday off about TOMORROW'S SHIFT, in which they delegated me to the position i am WORST at and I always try to tell them this but: STOP. FUCKING. PUTTING. ME. THERE. IT. ALWAYS. GOES. WRONG. FUCKING. CLAP EMOJIS!!!!! But, seriously, I am the worst at the Fry-cooking at this place, something always. ALWAYS. goes wrong when I'm on it. Like, God almost wills it. And compared to everybody else, it seems if I fuck up, I'm a fuckin' scumbag to these fuckers, yet everybody else including the guy who came before me; who is far lazier and has no prior job experience, just fuckin' laughs it off. "NAAAH, YOU'RE GOOD BRO :3 :3" So, fuck this place, I hope it burns down so I technically don't have to be there.
That being said, I've been a fucking wreck recently. For a non-alcoholic person who voms half the time drinking; i've been slamming so much vodka this past month, to the point where I get tired and pass out. This has been transitioning into more controlled drinking at night, at the bar in desperate hopes for a guy again. Don't really know what else to do at this point?
If I owe you a Commission, don't worry! You will certainly get yours! I am very sorry I've kinda been a sloshed GrayFox these past 2 months, but every commission I owe has been on the back of my mind, so I certainly haven't forgotten, and I always pay my debts in return. Soonly, and hopefully...HOPEFULLY, I am going to have reduced hours soon (not as a punishment, but because I fuckin' asked for it), so I can untilize my days off to get those done for everybody, because, yes, it has been kind of a dry art time on this page.
Thanks for reading and understanding.
Toxicity in the Fandom/Why I don’t Use Twitter
General | Posted 5 years agoYes! I have a Twitter floating around and NO not gonna use it anymore or ever probably! It is full of call-out culture and toxicity and I absolutely hate using it as a platform. Not only may I have enemies using it to shit on other artists, but I see FRIENDS even bring up shit about certain individuals that’s just not cool. SO YEAH NO GRAYFOX TWITTER! Don’t get me wrong, I have buddies who use it and make funny tweets/post their art first there; but don’t expect me to ever get involved with that site anymore, it’s hard to filter out that content through the drama, politics, and bullshit.
Colored Commissions?
General | Posted 5 years agoPLEASE NOTE: I HAVE A DAY JOB NOW AND I HAVE ATLEAST 4 USERS IN WAIT FOR THEIR COMMISSIONS AS OF 12/20/2020!!
Yes, I’m going to do colored commissions now, just adding $10 for color and simple shading of the character/butt :P SO, it’s like this:
Digital B/W Sketch: $20
Traditional B/W Sketch: $25
Stinky Fee? (Something that would belong in my Scraps) +$5
Colored Digital: +$10
Colored Traditional (It’s gonna be colored pencil, bro) +$12
Ok i hope that pricing is nice and simple to understand. I’m not the best colored penciler, so you really don’t have to get traditional if you don’t want to! XD
I would say I can handle FOUR MORE SLOTS before I close commissions for a minute to get shit done. Please understand I have a somewhat PART-TIME JOB somewhere up to 30 HOURS, 5 DAYS A WEEK RIGHT NOW, so take it easy on lil old RockerGrayFox. I am posting some traditionals again soon but that only means I’m without my “magic pen” for tonight! XD The reason I’m posting this is because APPARENTLY said job won’t pay me until New Years, and I do not have much to my name right now...
oh, and Please PLEASE pay money up front if you’re a new commissioner! Send me a NOTE on FA and we can DISCUSS FURTHER, please! :) Telegram info would be LOVELY, no Discord as of right now (Sorry) Never really sure how to respond on a “K THANX BYE” basis.
Yes, I’m going to do colored commissions now, just adding $10 for color and simple shading of the character/butt :P SO, it’s like this:
Digital B/W Sketch: $20
Traditional B/W Sketch: $25
Stinky Fee? (Something that would belong in my Scraps) +$5
Colored Digital: +$10
Colored Traditional (It’s gonna be colored pencil, bro) +$12
Ok i hope that pricing is nice and simple to understand. I’m not the best colored penciler, so you really don’t have to get traditional if you don’t want to! XD
I would say I can handle FOUR MORE SLOTS before I close commissions for a minute to get shit done. Please understand I have a somewhat PART-TIME JOB somewhere up to 30 HOURS, 5 DAYS A WEEK RIGHT NOW, so take it easy on lil old RockerGrayFox. I am posting some traditionals again soon but that only means I’m without my “magic pen” for tonight! XD The reason I’m posting this is because APPARENTLY said job won’t pay me until New Years, and I do not have much to my name right now...
oh, and Please PLEASE pay money up front if you’re a new commissioner! Send me a NOTE on FA and we can DISCUSS FURTHER, please! :) Telegram info would be LOVELY, no Discord as of right now (Sorry) Never really sure how to respond on a “K THANX BYE” basis.
I'm so sorry, Mysterio.
General | Posted 5 years agoI probably shouldn't make negative journals or sad stuff like this, but I'm sorry to report that Mysterio, my pet axoltol, has moved on. He was only a year and a half and just about when I was applying to a new job, he just stopped eating...I isolated him with just a tiny tank and food and still wouldn't eat...Like he gave up on me. I know he's kind of only a fish-tank creature but I can't stop crying right now. I will move on, I need to because I HAVE TO because I have to go to my "glorious new job" in less than an hour...I wish some creature would love me enough to live but maybe I shouldn't rely on animals or people or anything. Not to mention my family sent me axolotl gear and stuff for my recent birthday and I just feel horrible having it...
I've already made a common enemy in my little RPG universe that are basically Giant Axolotls (Giant Axie, Devilotl, etc.). They are smiley, frilly amphibians but imagine a GIANT ONE, how frightening that would be, probably seeing the player party as prey. Just a small contribution to remember him, I'm so sorry little guy...;___;
EDIT: and, NO THERE WILL NOT BE AN AXOLOTL CHARACTER AND PLEASE DONT DRAW HIM. I just always feel weird about Anthro-ing the type of creatures I’ve had as house pets.
I've already made a common enemy in my little RPG universe that are basically Giant Axolotls (Giant Axie, Devilotl, etc.). They are smiley, frilly amphibians but imagine a GIANT ONE, how frightening that would be, probably seeing the player party as prey. Just a small contribution to remember him, I'm so sorry little guy...;___;
EDIT: and, NO THERE WILL NOT BE AN AXOLOTL CHARACTER AND PLEASE DONT DRAW HIM. I just always feel weird about Anthro-ing the type of creatures I’ve had as house pets.
Small Update/Killer Birthday/More Art!
General | Posted 5 years agoHi, just wanted to give everyone an update saying I'm just doing alright, cold out here, and could maybe just use a karate kick to the lower back, there's just a knot back here that just won't go away...ANYWAY, thanks for almost 400 followers and the kind birthday messages/comments over the last couple weeks, ive been working on stuff in the meantime, but still need ink and finish other things. I am still OPEN for commissions btw, (seriously can't figure out how to switch the commissions tab to Open), but yeah more people are wanting commissions, so those as well as more artwork should come out soon. Just wanted to post something positive. I did have a rather decent birthday and some good things did happen over the time, I AM sorta glad you-know-who isn't in office anymore. It seriously just feels like a big shit has been taken or a stress-inducing tumor has been removed from the back of my brain, now that he's gone. Don't mean to talk poliltics at all, I'm very "green party" with a mix of both lifestyles and beliefs...
But anyway, I want to leave this as an OPEN FORUM for all my fur friends, what character/subject would you like to see more of? Anything from Stinktober or whatnot?? Also, yes I will finish that comic one day lol.
But anyway, I want to leave this as an OPEN FORUM for all my fur friends, what character/subject would you like to see more of? Anything from Stinktober or whatnot?? Also, yes I will finish that comic one day lol.
Fox as the Final Boss
General | Posted 5 years agoI always dreamed of making an RPG where Fox is the Gary Sue, main protagonist, yet became the Final Boss with many creative forms based on Rock Music/RPGs and you will have to fight him with your four other best characters and whatnot. You will face the pussy-ass "Main Antagonist" like in Final Fantasy 3 or something but then you will have to face Fox. It is just a perfect representation on what it is like to be Borderline/Bipolar. AND i also think it is an amazing twist for an RPG, SO DONT STEAL :3 :3
Then, in the final ending, the character that Fox befriends most will come back to him, they will talk it out and all is forgiven...And he comes back to his friends.
Then, in the final ending, the character that Fox befriends most will come back to him, they will talk it out and all is forgiven...And he comes back to his friends.
The Rib Of Adam
General | Posted 5 years agoI gave Them life so I could have friends. I created Them so I could have a hand to hold when I was hurt. They exist so He and I could experience love.
As long as I stay alive, They will exist. Just stay alive. You will be happy no matter what happens in the future.
I leave you with a Beatles song:
https://youtu.be/2lYudapfHlw
Here's a very candid memory I'm willing to share from my early 20 only to prove how pathetic and sad I am; I seriously broke down and cried when "With A Little Help From My Friends" came on when my high school buddy, his fiancee, and I played Beatles Rock Band...I think the same night the then fiancee (whom I knew from high school as well, just not as well) wanted to have a private convo in their room; probably about me being an instable mess...
I'm just a lonely mess right now, I've been one for years, and I don't know what to do.
As long as I stay alive, They will exist. Just stay alive. You will be happy no matter what happens in the future.
I leave you with a Beatles song:
https://youtu.be/2lYudapfHlw
Here's a very candid memory I'm willing to share from my early 20 only to prove how pathetic and sad I am; I seriously broke down and cried when "With A Little Help From My Friends" came on when my high school buddy, his fiancee, and I played Beatles Rock Band...I think the same night the then fiancee (whom I knew from high school as well, just not as well) wanted to have a private convo in their room; probably about me being an instable mess...
I'm just a lonely mess right now, I've been one for years, and I don't know what to do.
The Broken Toy On The Shelf
General | Posted 5 years agoI just feel the need to write a journal entry to explain the life and mind of RockerGrayFox right now and I just need to get it out there. I'm pretty inebriated right now; been drinking excessively lately (for someone who usually doesn't drink, let's say I'm on my 4th bottle of those 1.5 oz bottles of Smirnoff to give you a scale, since my birthday on NOV 6TH......I generally feel icky when I drink, usually even to the point of vomming) ever since my Dad sorta shot me down and doesn't expect an art career out of me...Not to mention waking up in the morning single and by myself...but I'm so inebriated right now, I just don't feel like bitching about that right now. Let's just say my local furry friends may or may not be excluding me from fur meets and cons and stuff or just generally opportunities to meet other furs or whatever. *GLUG* This is more of an opportunity to spill my guts out of current thoughts and future projects. I tend to call alcohol "truth serum" in conversation. I won't be spittin' harsh truths about any individuals, just no need, no reason, not good, not cool in the slightest, and even though I know some individuals on here might hate me, I have no qualms with ANYONE right now....This is just an entry of what I'm currently thinking right now and maybe some gut-spilling reveals of some future projects that may or may not happen.
Firstly, I've been binge-watching SNL sketches like mad and especially during recently/soon-to-be-posted drawings. (Saturday Night Live). Haven't really seen much of the "classic" ones on Youtube (Bill Murray, Eddie Murphy, etc.) but keep watching somewhat recent ones with Will Ferrell, Jimmy Fallon, Amy Poehler, etc. Watching these make me long for the days of high school theatre. I really want to dabble in theatre again, maybe. Although, it would obviously be a pipe dream to go straight to SNL, I've even been fantasizing about starring on there and even doing a furry sketch to break the barriers a little...I need to tell you about our High School Theatre shenanigans in a future post, but I'm somewhat afraid that the details will be too specific and someone will track me one day...But, anyway, SNL...Just watching past sketches and even some of the "memories" Youtube videos they've been posting and I just...long for that...so much. I want to be part of something bigger, yet compact, very unlike the "shitty jobs" I've been working where I feel like a trapped, soulless cog-in-the-machine. I may as well be the AVGN of basic employment at this point...But back to Theatre, I just really love the humor involved and feel the need to entertain others, but don't even know how. I just want to part of a stellar cast (not even referring to how famous they are, just different humor and personalities). Or maybe perhaps a team of individuals working on a game or something...God, I still do miss my high school days in the theater, there were even straight dudes getting naked in Men's dressing room...If that will hopefully even get you to keep reading. Shigeru Miyamoto (Mario, Donkey Kong, Legend of Zelda, you know him) even once said his characters are like a "theatre troupe" in his game worlds, and that is a weird layer of psychology I've takin account of my own characters; they're mercenaries and lovers, yet they are also "puppets" or "play-things", willing to entertain any, even perverted, imaginations as long as they are happy and the "Player", or sorts, is entertained...and happy...and like them... :____; But, yeah, long-story short; want to maybe try acting again, but I can say, with some arrogance, that I am a "Reneissance Man" of some sorts; meaning that I dabble in a long of different creatives processes. But, I just really don't know what to settle on. What would fuckin pay the bills? What will make my RL father happy with me??
I was going to draw more "depression porn" as I call it, but to drunk to care or even do so, and even then; no one really wants to see more of that, probably. I think this image stems more from the desire of companionship, but maybe I will draw in the future to get it off my chest. Basically, I picture a crying, plush-toy Fox on a shelf in a store. All the other children with their parents are grabbing other characters off the shelf, Rugert and Bo-Booso, and yet Fox is left on the toy shelf, broken and crying silently to himself. No one will choose him to take home and love forever.......But who am i kidding? Even REAL relationships don't even last that long and love is just a fleeting concept at this point. My parents couldn't stay together. The two artists I had watched didn't stay together. Why do I want companionship so bad when it is just a myth nowadays??
Okay, I'm getting tired of typing this and I promised I said something about future projects...But I only remember one thing to refer to. I swear I come up with fantastic descriptions/journals and can't even remember to write it all...I've tossed the idea around of doing Youtube with a puppet of Fox. I want to do a cool furry Youtube channel with just my thoughts and whatnot..Maybe lessons I have learnt so far in my 20s. But I have this deep-threaded fear some fuck-face will trace it back to this art account and find my piss-and-shit porn and then I will become a "lolcow" of sorts.
I don't know.... I was a tad inspired by Ulililila and some of his stuff. The dude thinks in RPG and that's basically what I've been trying to do my whole life, just even to get through the shitty parts. I also DO want to start a web archive and Deep Web archive page full of all the stuff I think about, all the notes, all the Notebook of 1000 Demons stuff, all the illustrations I have done that may or may not have to do with furries.
That's all I wanted to puke out right now. I hope you are all having a great day, I'm really sorry if I rained on your parade if you were having a good day and happened to click on this Journal.
Firstly, I've been binge-watching SNL sketches like mad and especially during recently/soon-to-be-posted drawings. (Saturday Night Live). Haven't really seen much of the "classic" ones on Youtube (Bill Murray, Eddie Murphy, etc.) but keep watching somewhat recent ones with Will Ferrell, Jimmy Fallon, Amy Poehler, etc. Watching these make me long for the days of high school theatre. I really want to dabble in theatre again, maybe. Although, it would obviously be a pipe dream to go straight to SNL, I've even been fantasizing about starring on there and even doing a furry sketch to break the barriers a little...I need to tell you about our High School Theatre shenanigans in a future post, but I'm somewhat afraid that the details will be too specific and someone will track me one day...But, anyway, SNL...Just watching past sketches and even some of the "memories" Youtube videos they've been posting and I just...long for that...so much. I want to be part of something bigger, yet compact, very unlike the "shitty jobs" I've been working where I feel like a trapped, soulless cog-in-the-machine. I may as well be the AVGN of basic employment at this point...But back to Theatre, I just really love the humor involved and feel the need to entertain others, but don't even know how. I just want to part of a stellar cast (not even referring to how famous they are, just different humor and personalities). Or maybe perhaps a team of individuals working on a game or something...God, I still do miss my high school days in the theater, there were even straight dudes getting naked in Men's dressing room...If that will hopefully even get you to keep reading. Shigeru Miyamoto (Mario, Donkey Kong, Legend of Zelda, you know him) even once said his characters are like a "theatre troupe" in his game worlds, and that is a weird layer of psychology I've takin account of my own characters; they're mercenaries and lovers, yet they are also "puppets" or "play-things", willing to entertain any, even perverted, imaginations as long as they are happy and the "Player", or sorts, is entertained...and happy...and like them... :____; But, yeah, long-story short; want to maybe try acting again, but I can say, with some arrogance, that I am a "Reneissance Man" of some sorts; meaning that I dabble in a long of different creatives processes. But, I just really don't know what to settle on. What would fuckin pay the bills? What will make my RL father happy with me??
I was going to draw more "depression porn" as I call it, but to drunk to care or even do so, and even then; no one really wants to see more of that, probably. I think this image stems more from the desire of companionship, but maybe I will draw in the future to get it off my chest. Basically, I picture a crying, plush-toy Fox on a shelf in a store. All the other children with their parents are grabbing other characters off the shelf, Rugert and Bo-Booso, and yet Fox is left on the toy shelf, broken and crying silently to himself. No one will choose him to take home and love forever.......But who am i kidding? Even REAL relationships don't even last that long and love is just a fleeting concept at this point. My parents couldn't stay together. The two artists I had watched didn't stay together. Why do I want companionship so bad when it is just a myth nowadays??
Okay, I'm getting tired of typing this and I promised I said something about future projects...But I only remember one thing to refer to. I swear I come up with fantastic descriptions/journals and can't even remember to write it all...I've tossed the idea around of doing Youtube with a puppet of Fox. I want to do a cool furry Youtube channel with just my thoughts and whatnot..Maybe lessons I have learnt so far in my 20s. But I have this deep-threaded fear some fuck-face will trace it back to this art account and find my piss-and-shit porn and then I will become a "lolcow" of sorts.
I don't know.... I was a tad inspired by Ulililila and some of his stuff. The dude thinks in RPG and that's basically what I've been trying to do my whole life, just even to get through the shitty parts. I also DO want to start a web archive and Deep Web archive page full of all the stuff I think about, all the notes, all the Notebook of 1000 Demons stuff, all the illustrations I have done that may or may not have to do with furries.
That's all I wanted to puke out right now. I hope you are all having a great day, I'm really sorry if I rained on your parade if you were having a good day and happened to click on this Journal.
A Perfect Day
General | Posted 5 years agoYou've heard Lou Reed's "A Perfect Day" before right? You either remember it throught "Trainspotting" or a PS3 commercial...It' s just won't stop playing through my mind right now....It's either me overdosing or dying and the song plays....
FUN MODE
General | Posted 5 years agoWanna get the feeling like you wanna control yourself THROUGH YOURSELF?? GET DRUNK! ! ! It'[s like another player is controlling you but it's you!!! [SORRRY, I just walked out on my new job 'cause it was driving me crazy, and i just want to become an artist. I don't care how poor I am, I want to just be happy doing what I'm doing and not sperg out on stupid shit like trying to do your new job but didnt receive the necessary training on what EXACLTY what to do, so whatever. I guesss I will stick to food jobs in the meantime and keep doing that.
My real life dad doesn't believe art will be a paying job, at all, so I guess I'm fucked. No way I will earn $1000-$2000 a month doing artwork, according to him just MAYBE want to prove him wrong, but face it I'M A MESS.
That's all I wanted to report. Looks like age 26 is going to be a goooooood year (sarcasm), but I will hopefully be okay in the meantime.
That's all I have to report. I'm so drunk that I can't even type. I guess I'm just posting this cause like.... THIS is what I've been going through the past few years. I'm trying to spill all the details without revealing too much... I just.....have a really low self-esteeem, asssume everybody talks shit about me, and I'm probably gonna kill myself at age 27 like all the other rockstars anyway.
Before you post responses/comments; just know: MY BRAIN IS CURRENTLY TRYING TO ROLL THE DICE AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS: and that's all I have to say....I'm just losing in a universe that relies on randomness and chance...
[EDIT]: my own dad didn't even know my own AAAAAGE. We had a discussion about quitting my job and he was like "Oh, and you're gonna be 27..." and I'm like "NOOOOO 26!" and he's like "Doesn't matter"
Know this as the RAW ROCKERGRAYFOX, as the true ROCKERGRAYFOX
I really really don't want to seem like an entitled millenal or whatever, but this is what I truly feel. I just want to be an artist. I don;t really care about money in this money-driven world.
My real life dad doesn't believe art will be a paying job, at all, so I guess I'm fucked. No way I will earn $1000-$2000 a month doing artwork, according to him just MAYBE want to prove him wrong, but face it I'M A MESS.
That's all I wanted to report. Looks like age 26 is going to be a goooooood year (sarcasm), but I will hopefully be okay in the meantime.
That's all I have to report. I'm so drunk that I can't even type. I guess I'm just posting this cause like.... THIS is what I've been going through the past few years. I'm trying to spill all the details without revealing too much... I just.....have a really low self-esteeem, asssume everybody talks shit about me, and I'm probably gonna kill myself at age 27 like all the other rockstars anyway.
Before you post responses/comments; just know: MY BRAIN IS CURRENTLY TRYING TO ROLL THE DICE AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS: and that's all I have to say....I'm just losing in a universe that relies on randomness and chance...
[EDIT]: my own dad didn't even know my own AAAAAGE. We had a discussion about quitting my job and he was like "Oh, and you're gonna be 27..." and I'm like "NOOOOO 26!" and he's like "Doesn't matter"
Know this as the RAW ROCKERGRAYFOX, as the true ROCKERGRAYFOX
I really really don't want to seem like an entitled millenal or whatever, but this is what I truly feel. I just want to be an artist. I don;t really care about money in this money-driven world.
Birthday In a Few Days (Update)
General | Posted 5 years agoHi! I'm just typing an update before I rest because I'm kind of a miserable Fox right now. Yeah, my birthday is always a week after Halloween, Nov. 6. I'm not really writing this for gift art or to remind people or anything, but just as a life update. Transitioning into 26 is weird. SPOILERS: You're going to have to get your own, independent health insurance at age 26, you can't be part of your family's plan or anything. Just thought I might drop that hint. Plus, I have a brand new, different job now, but, of course, it's nothing I want career-wise or to that effect.
Age 25 was just an emotional wreck. That's all I have to say.
For YEARS now, I've wanted a significant other. More than anything in the entire universe. I was going to blubber and bitch about it again, but really that's all I do and I feel weirdly sick, now, so finishing this journal and going to bed. Maybe I'm desperate or just desperate for actual love or...?...I don't know. Like, my relationship with my real life dad is so stale, I've kinda wanted to draw Fox hugging Garou (Peachfuzz) just to feel better.
Maybe if I try really hard...(It'll probably never happen.) Maybe if I just give up the ghost?...(It'll probably never happen.)
I don't know, just a sampling of what goes on in my brain, I guess.
Age 25 was just an emotional wreck. That's all I have to say.
For YEARS now, I've wanted a significant other. More than anything in the entire universe. I was going to blubber and bitch about it again, but really that's all I do and I feel weirdly sick, now, so finishing this journal and going to bed. Maybe I'm desperate or just desperate for actual love or...?...I don't know. Like, my relationship with my real life dad is so stale, I've kinda wanted to draw Fox hugging Garou (Peachfuzz) just to feel better.
Maybe if I try really hard...(It'll probably never happen.) Maybe if I just give up the ghost?...(It'll probably never happen.)
I don't know, just a sampling of what goes on in my brain, I guess.
"Oh, F*ck You, Luigi"
General | Posted 5 years agoJust a random journal here. I've become obsessed with this clip of the live action segments of Super Mario Bros. Super Show! where it sounds like Mario is saying "Oh, Fuck you, Luigi." It just makes me feel better (I've had a really irritating past 24 hours). Just to repeat it back like; "Awww, Fuck you, Luigi!" or "Well, Fuck you, Luigi!" and maybe they cut the scene right before Luigi says "Well, Fuck you, too, Mario!"
I don't know what else to say about it :3 Just enjoy the clip, too. There's also a really funny clip of OneyPlays talking about it; most likely after you watch the original clip.
https://youtu.be/XfG0-iW5o0Y
I would also love feedback or suggestions for the stuff I have posted recently. Stinktober and the comic will also continue, I still have some really cool ideas left to draw.
I don't know what else to say about it :3 Just enjoy the clip, too. There's also a really funny clip of OneyPlays talking about it; most likely after you watch the original clip.
https://youtu.be/XfG0-iW5o0Y
I would also love feedback or suggestions for the stuff I have posted recently. Stinktober and the comic will also continue, I still have some really cool ideas left to draw.
DOOM Guy in Smash Bros. ?
General | Posted 5 years agoI'm sorry but I'm calling it, DOOM Slayer/DOOM Guy will be in Smash Bros, he's just gotta and I hope he really is coming. I've been nerding out a lot over Smash Ultimate and I'm crafting it to really become the Ultimate game where I can play and perform combat with anybody I fucking want from most games ive played in my lifetime. This whole phase started after Steve/Alex's reveal, maybe it is a new personality. Anyway, here's what I can see for DOOM Guy coming to Smash:
-They are going to pull mainly from classic DOOM, namely DOOM 1 on PC. The game is still rated E10+ and they are going to have to tone down the graphic imagery and demonic influence, maybe even take any the skulls (for religious purposes), but that still leaves them plenty to work with. I can see a pixelated 16-bit stage that sorta changes imagery every time it loads. I feel like pulling from DOOM 93 rather than DOOM Eternal or a newer game would also just look better, as DOOM 93 is so influential; having also been mod-able and having multiplayer and coining the term "Deathmatch". I can just see a slightly bigger stage setup because DOOM Guy will obviously use guns.
-Classic DOOM Marine skin with recolors to match the old multiplayer, one skin from Eternal and another maybe with his skin being red and fire cracks and whatnot. Perhaps the pure white astro-skin from Eternal and a jet black opposite.
-"Intermission From DOOM" should be the victory music, looping instead of the annoying used-to-death Smash select screen thing; just like Cloud's victory music from FF7, just imagine DOOM Guy holding up his shotgun or a victory pose with that shit playing in the background. It's so DOOM but its still Super Smash Bros. Plus, i can't really see DOOM Guy in that character select remix anyway. (which they might do anyway)
-Forward Smash will be the Chainsaw, obviously. I can see him chopping down the Villager's Tree for Isabelle in a little gameplay snap in the trailer.
- a classic gun select with his down B, switching maybe a weapon he primarily deals damage with the A Button. (And also maybe having to damage others for ammo to charge these guns)
-classic midi tracks as well as their remakes; fast-paced ones. "At Doom's Gate", "I Sawed The Demons", "Kitchen Ace (And Taking Names)", etc.
- a joke love-pairing of Doom Guy and Samus; seriously. I can just see DOOM Guy smashing away Ridley out of nowhere, turning around to see Samus (armored too, of course.). Then, a Heart Container appears and floats down between them. If this sequence happens in the reveal trailer, somebody owes me a million dollars.
That's pretty much what my mind's eye has to puke out. That's most of the dumb stuff I could think of. It probably wont be as amazing but I'm sure Sakurai could make the DOOM series work in Smash Bros. I have no insider knowledge if I called any of that shit. I just love classic DOOM so much and would to see this in Smash. Just the pixelated twisting corridoors over a heavy metal soundtrack is maniacal and fun to me and I love it. Plus, Smash has done everything under the sun except the shooter-genre and if anybody were to represent that, it would be DOOM Guy. The experience and the game's legacy still holds up (DOOM 93) and its like having a rock hall-of-fame without heavy metal or something to that effect.
Predicting the Final Four (not in any order and based on bullshit I've watched and heard)
1. DOOM Guy
2. Ryu Hayabusa
2. Crash Bandicoot ( i mean, c'mon. Furry mascot biased)
4. Geno
CALLING IT NOW: Sora and Riku will be Mii Swordfighters and the day that happens I will laugh my ass off into oblivion.
-They are going to pull mainly from classic DOOM, namely DOOM 1 on PC. The game is still rated E10+ and they are going to have to tone down the graphic imagery and demonic influence, maybe even take any the skulls (for religious purposes), but that still leaves them plenty to work with. I can see a pixelated 16-bit stage that sorta changes imagery every time it loads. I feel like pulling from DOOM 93 rather than DOOM Eternal or a newer game would also just look better, as DOOM 93 is so influential; having also been mod-able and having multiplayer and coining the term "Deathmatch". I can just see a slightly bigger stage setup because DOOM Guy will obviously use guns.
-Classic DOOM Marine skin with recolors to match the old multiplayer, one skin from Eternal and another maybe with his skin being red and fire cracks and whatnot. Perhaps the pure white astro-skin from Eternal and a jet black opposite.
-"Intermission From DOOM" should be the victory music, looping instead of the annoying used-to-death Smash select screen thing; just like Cloud's victory music from FF7, just imagine DOOM Guy holding up his shotgun or a victory pose with that shit playing in the background. It's so DOOM but its still Super Smash Bros. Plus, i can't really see DOOM Guy in that character select remix anyway. (which they might do anyway)
-Forward Smash will be the Chainsaw, obviously. I can see him chopping down the Villager's Tree for Isabelle in a little gameplay snap in the trailer.
- a classic gun select with his down B, switching maybe a weapon he primarily deals damage with the A Button. (And also maybe having to damage others for ammo to charge these guns)
-classic midi tracks as well as their remakes; fast-paced ones. "At Doom's Gate", "I Sawed The Demons", "Kitchen Ace (And Taking Names)", etc.
- a joke love-pairing of Doom Guy and Samus; seriously. I can just see DOOM Guy smashing away Ridley out of nowhere, turning around to see Samus (armored too, of course.). Then, a Heart Container appears and floats down between them. If this sequence happens in the reveal trailer, somebody owes me a million dollars.
That's pretty much what my mind's eye has to puke out. That's most of the dumb stuff I could think of. It probably wont be as amazing but I'm sure Sakurai could make the DOOM series work in Smash Bros. I have no insider knowledge if I called any of that shit. I just love classic DOOM so much and would to see this in Smash. Just the pixelated twisting corridoors over a heavy metal soundtrack is maniacal and fun to me and I love it. Plus, Smash has done everything under the sun except the shooter-genre and if anybody were to represent that, it would be DOOM Guy. The experience and the game's legacy still holds up (DOOM 93) and its like having a rock hall-of-fame without heavy metal or something to that effect.
Predicting the Final Four (not in any order and based on bullshit I've watched and heard)
1. DOOM Guy
2. Ryu Hayabusa
2. Crash Bandicoot ( i mean, c'mon. Furry mascot biased)
4. Geno
CALLING IT NOW: Sora and Riku will be Mii Swordfighters and the day that happens I will laugh my ass off into oblivion.
What is Stinktober?
General | Posted 5 years agoWell, a buddy a mine showed me a challenge somebody posted here for this month: https://twitter.com/Existimatio3/st.....470199298?s=09
Honestly, reading the list at first; I didn't feel like doing some of these, being grossed out by some of the words. But then I thought I could maybe put a tame or funny spin on something if i cant come up with anything. SO YEAH, here's a 31- gross out drawing compilation for October. Strap in.
Stinktober List:
1. Belch
2. Contained
3. Greasy/Wet
4. Brass Instrument
5. Blast/Explosion
6. Underwater
7. Lazy Day
8. Groggy/Sleepy
9 .Bubble
10. Silent
11. Spirit
12. Shart
13. Hyper
14. Rumbler/Ground-Breaking
15. Sweet
16. Poison
17. Bloat/Full-Belly
18. Fire
19. Magic
20. Narcotic
21. Workout
22. FREE DAY (i guess they didnt list anything here or October 22nd doesnt officially exist anymore)
23. Facesitting
24. Prank
25. Concoction/Potion
26. Musk
27. Steamy
28. Embarrassment
29. Cropdust
30. Public
31. Dutch Oven
OK, so that's it. Have fun, everyone :3 I have some interesting ideas for some.
Honestly, reading the list at first; I didn't feel like doing some of these, being grossed out by some of the words. But then I thought I could maybe put a tame or funny spin on something if i cant come up with anything. SO YEAH, here's a 31- gross out drawing compilation for October. Strap in.
Stinktober List:
1. Belch
2. Contained
3. Greasy/Wet
4. Brass Instrument
5. Blast/Explosion
6. Underwater
7. Lazy Day
8. Groggy/Sleepy
9 .Bubble
10. Silent
11. Spirit
12. Shart
13. Hyper
14. Rumbler/Ground-Breaking
15. Sweet
16. Poison
17. Bloat/Full-Belly
18. Fire
19. Magic
20. Narcotic
21. Workout
22. FREE DAY (i guess they didnt list anything here or October 22nd doesnt officially exist anymore)
23. Facesitting
24. Prank
25. Concoction/Potion
26. Musk
27. Steamy
28. Embarrassment
29. Cropdust
30. Public
31. Dutch Oven
OK, so that's it. Have fun, everyone :3 I have some interesting ideas for some.
DELAY ON PAGE 14
General | Posted 5 years agoSorry, but there's going to be another delay again on Page 14. It got torn up. I have to redraw it and probably all the pages following. Seriously, I really don't see a fucking point to doing this comic.
INTERMISSION (No Comic Today)
General | Posted 5 years agohttps://youtu.be/DxtmQDCyLE8
Welcome to Intermission. Hope y'all have been enjoying the first 9 pages of this gross comic! I was zonked off my meds and literally slept until 4 PM today, so no good time to complete the next page and upload it, yet. I will tomorrow, and hopefully every day following until the comic is finished.
Leave comments below, how's the comic going so far??
Welcome to Intermission. Hope y'all have been enjoying the first 9 pages of this gross comic! I was zonked off my meds and literally slept until 4 PM today, so no good time to complete the next page and upload it, yet. I will tomorrow, and hopefully every day following until the comic is finished.
Leave comments below, how's the comic going so far??
RIM-CHAIR IDEAS/TEXT WANTED!
General | Posted 5 years agoI'm in that same mood again tonight, fellas and fellettes, I really want to do more rim-chair stuff on FA (cause it's kinda lacking in the community) and I'm looking for ideas! I just really want to expand. I think after the next two I'm posting, there will be atleast color to them, so you can see more detail on my toons' lovely rumps. I'm ALSO looking for messages on the bottom of the rim chair, something that looks good surrounding a butthole. BOMB DISPOSAL, FUDGE FACTORY, CHOCOLATE-FLAVOR, those are all kinda examples of what I wanna use lol.
