After last night, I'm only drinking goat or almond milk from now on. It was awful. Fucking cows.

I don't know why I waited so long to do this. Maybe I was scared. Maybe I just needed to get my head straight, but for whatever it's worth, I'm so sorry for everything I did and said. To be completely transparent, you're like...IDK, a furry idol to me. You got the zen, stay outta drama thing down pat and it's something I've always admired you for. I wish I could have followed your example instead of letting myself get dragged into some shit that really never had anything to with me because it was always between shard and the AZ furry community. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't have regret for the shit that went down between all of us because I wanted to be a white knight on some dumb crusade to make everyone like shard. I was 100% responsible for all that drama. I wanted to blame everyone else for the way I was being treated at home, because he insisted it was the way everyone treated him that made him do the things he did. I won't go into how he treated me because I know you're still friends with him and I have enough respect for you not to do that, but know that it was bad...like call the police bad sometimes. Anyway, I really wanted to make it Billy's fault, or Streak's fault, or Shavii and Rayne, and Mystic's fault. When the good riddance party happened, I just lost it and went off without all the facts. I even remember thinking that there was no way Kart would do something like that. I was totally crushed. I couldn't just say, "meh, fuck that guy," about a perceived betrayal of someone I had so much respect for. I left the fandom and pretty much never left the house after that except to go to work. But really, I kinda deserved it, whether it happened how I thought it did or not. Anyway, I'm fucking rambling now. I wanted to not only apologize but also thank you for things that you did to help me before I ran off to Washington thinking it would make everything better (it didn't, things actually got worse).

1.) When you gave me the dry wall piece to fix the holes shard punched in the walls at my place.

2.) When you drove all the way out to Chandler to put that fuel pump in my RV because I was too scared of the spiderwebs to crawl under there and do it myself.

3.) That time shard came knocking on your door at 2 am because he bashed the front end of my car into a pole and you just jumped up and nigger rigged that shit for him so he could get it home without doing anymore damage. (Those zip ties are still going strong btw)

4.) That time you let me use your tools to fix the power cable on my laptop because my soldering iron and stuff were at work.

5.) That time you covered my buy-in on poker night because I did't know we were playing for money.

6.) When you hooked it up with some stuffing so I could finish my rainbow tiger tail.

7.) When you came to the house to unclog the drain in the shower so my roommates would stop flooding the house.

I'm sure there's more stuff that I either didn't know about or don't remember, but I think I got the big stuff. Anyway, thank you, for everything. I hope that some day you will find it in your heart to forgive me and if you ever need something, a cheap plane ticket, help in the garage or whatever, I hope you will not hesitate to ask.

Love and Light,
Chibi

I killed 9 work orders today before 3am. Booyah! I am the SHIT!. This is a new record.

Someone has an unsecured internet connection XD Updating the software version on my PS3 and finally, FINALLY gonna get my DLC for buying the limited edition of Assassin's Creed 3. I was like...I'm gonna just take this thing to my dad's house and use his internet, but...now I don't have to. Also, next time  djblue comes over, we won't have to do the stupid software update to play LBP online.

Rainfurrest is officially out of the planner for this year. No rooms, and SeaTac is a shit hole, so I'm not about to be walking down the street at night in this place.

--UPDATE--

I'll be there after all.  Kooza has a spot in her room. ^__^;

I dreamt that this lady called me and said she was friends with a couple that used to mentor me when but we've had a falling out and now we don't speak to either. Anyway she said they told her not to talk to me but that she'd heard so much about me that she had to get in touch with me. She asked me to help her find a good church to go to in Las Vegas. I didn't want to tell her that I was a witch...idk why since I didn't want to help her pick out a church, not that I even know how to pick a church for someone else. Then I was somewhere else completely, at a restaurant with some friends from work. It was a barbecue place with a bar. I ordered barbecued venison shanks with bbq wings and fries. I was trying to order a drink from this fucking moron of an order taker. I was trying to order a cabernet sauvignon with Dr pepper and club soda and the dude kept trying to give me Chianti. I woke up totally pissed about how stupid this guy was. I've never heard of mixing wine with Dr. pepper and I don't even drink cabernet but I bet it would be tasty as fuck.

Why is no one talking about it? I don't even see AC being talked about.

I accidentally deleted my email confirmation for my hotel reservation for Califur. That sounds like too many "fors" for a sentence but I don't know a better way to phrase it. Anyway, I just wanted to double check to make sure everything was squared away, so I went to the hotel website and logged in with the email I used and the usual password and the website says NOPE. So I try the "forgot password" thing and it was still like, NOPE! So I'm like FUUUUUUUU!!!! My reservation is gone!!!! NOOOOOOO!! So I call the hotel and wait on hold forEVER! The nice lady asked for all my information and then she asks for the last 4 numbers of the card I used to reserve the room so I give her that. She says, NOPE. That's not right. What the actual fuck? Then I remember that I had to get a new card because I lost my old one. And of course I don't remember the last 4 numbers of the old one. Thankfully I'm lazy and never updated my paypal account. I got the card number off my paypal and it's all good. Updated my card info with the hotel and they emailed me another confirmation. Thank fuck. I thought I fucked up hard core. But it's all good. LMAO.

I got some shit I need to get off my chest. So here goes:


You posted journals about how you were a home owner. You were NEVER a home owner. You didn't pay ONE SINGLE DIME toward that RV. It was in MY name and you TRASHED it! Then when I signed it over to you because you were crying about having nowhere to live, you traded it that very same month for a laptop and a tablet...which you also destroyed and then blamed the guy that gave them to you.

You posted journals about how you could fly wherever you wanted to just go hang out. You're a prick. Those were MY flight benefits. Something I paid for every time you wanted to fly somewhere. Something I am privileged with as a condition of my employment at my awesome airline. It wasn't yours to use and abuse and I never should have put on on.

You wanted to give MY buddy passes to all YOUR friends and people you wanted to be friends with but if I agreed to give a pass to someone and you decided you didn't like that person, you threw a fit. As if you had any right to tell me who I can and can't give cheap/free airfare to. It was YOU who made a fuss about giving a pass to a certain husky cub, but I caught hell for it and lost friends over it.

When Shavii contacted me to see if was okay and to call a truce after the big blow out YOU caused over the buddy pass, you said that if he didn't make things right with you too, that I couldn't so much as talk to him. Fucking really?

You pissed off our roommates so bad that they threw us a good riddance party and I got dragged through the mud with you.

You asked me to do artwork for your friends who were "down in the dumps" because you thought it would make them feel better. But after I give you the finished artwork to send to them, you suddenly get a free badge from this person in the mail. How dare you use MY artwork to get free badges in an art exchange. Learn to draw for yourself fucker. I'm not mad at the person who traded with you because they didn't know, but you're the lowest form of dog shit for taking my artwork and trading it for your benefit.

You cheated on me repeatedly until I finally gave you what you wanted (an open relationship). Then you were all into this ridiculous "sex positive" culture. Shit like fetlife and swinger parties and angry that I refused to go because it wasn't my thing. And then when I agreed to try things with you (ie threesomes), you used them against me later in fights, saying that the only friends I had were the people who had sex with me (a very short list mind you) and they were only friends with me because I was a "whore" and they knew they could score with me. Totally untrue, but SERIOUSLY??? Fuck you. I hope you get raped after replying to one of those craigslist ads for "no strings attached sex" with men. I'm sure you've updated your profile on silver daddies by now.

After I left you, everything I was interested in, you suddenly had to take an interest in. Christopaganism, firearms, homesteading, it didn't matter, you were into it. You even went and got baptized even after insisting that Judaism was a "huge part of who you are." And you wonder why I was suspicious of your motives.

If I commented on a mutual friend's post, you had to comment too, even when the post was up for days.

If you saw me talking to someone on twitter, you had to start following them so you could see the whole conversation.


Just in case you were mistaken. I still do, and always will, find you and your lifestyle disgusting.

This is the letter I wrote to my representative.

Message Subject: CISPA
Message Text:
I was very displeased to learn that you voted in favor of CISPA last week. Are you aware that there are provisions in CISPA that allow companies to violate their privacy agreements without a warrant and without notifying the person whose personal information is being surrendered? And that they are immune from any legal action in response to damages incurred by the person as a result of said violation? I'm sure you were aware of that and that the ends justified the means in your opinion. I can't think of anyone in the State who wants you to vote yes on an act that would violate their constitutional rights, in this case the 4th Amendment. You betrayed your voters last week and you won't be getting my vote this coming election. But it doesn't stop there for me, because I'm just one person and you'll blow this email off and continue doing whatever you please without considering the best interests of the people you represent. So I'm going to tell all of my friends and family who live in districts with betrayers like you for representatives. And they won't vote for you or any of your shill compatriots either. And come election time, when you see my cheap white poster board and sharpie marker signs on the corner reminding the people of this great state how you betrayed them, you remember this email.

Just got two brand new jets here at the airline and one of them is likely going to need an engine change because some hack installed a blanking plate wrong and chewed up the gear box. The oil looks like glitter gel! Brand new engine and it's gonna have to be changed. DUMB!

I have room in my room at Califur. It's just me and Kooza at the moment since my other two roomies bailed on me. So if you need a room for Califur, let me know.

Comments Natural Hair Color:
[ ] Brown - $10.00
[x] Blonde - $7.50
[ ] Black - $1.50
[ ] Bald - $0.50
[ ] Other - $5.00

$7.50

Eye Color:
[ ] Brown - $5.00
[ ] Green - $10.00
[x] Blue - $15.00
[ ] Hazel - $7.50
[ ] Other - $1.50

$15.00

Height:
[ ] Over 7′ - $20.00
[ ] 6′8″ to 7′ - $17.50
[ ] 6′0″ to 6′7″ - $15.00
[x] 5′5″ to 5′11″ - $7.50
[ ] 5′4″ to 5′10″ - $8.50
[ ] Under 5′4 - $9.50

$7.50

Age:
[ ] 50 to 56 - $17.50
[ ] 46 to 50 - $15.00
[ ] 41 to 45 - $12.50
[ ] 31 to 40 - $10.00
[x] 26 to 30 - $7.50
[ ] 21 to 25 - $5.00
[ ] 19 to 20 - $2.50
[ ] 0 to 18 - $10.00

$7.50

Birth Order:
[ ] Twins or more than twins - $75.00
[X] First Born - $32.00
[ ] Only Child - $25.00
[ ] Second born - $15.00
[ ] Middle child - $10.00
[ ] Last Born - $10.00
[ ] third born - $55.00
[ ] fourth born - $30.00
[ ] fifth born - $40.00
[ ] sixth born -$21.50

$32.00

Drink?
[ ] I did like once - $40.00
[ ] Only Holidays or Occasions - $25.00
[ ] Sometimes - $21.50
[ ] YES - $20.00
[ ] only weekends - $30.00
[ ] Every other day - $5.00
[ ] Once a day - $1.50
[ ] I live from the bottle - $Bankrupt$ [[back to $ZERO]]
[x] No - $60.00

$60.00

Vision?
[ ] perfect vision $40.00
[ ] need/have glasses/contacts but don't wear them $20.00
[ ] No correction $10.00
[x] Glasses $5.00
[ ] contacts $2.50
[ ] Surgical correction -$10.00

$5.00

Shoe Size:
[ ] 13+ - $30.00
[ ] 12 and a half to 13 - $25.00
[ ] 11 to 12 - $40.00
[X] 7 to 10 - $50.00
[ ] Under 7- $45.00

$50.00

Favorite Colors (two):

[ ] Green-$75.00
[ ] Red - $60.00
[x] Black - $10.00
[ ] Yellow -$47.50
[ ] Brown - $30.00
[ ] Purple - $22.50
[ ] White - $40.00
[ ] Aqua - $35.00
[ ] Orange - $30.00
[ ] Blue - $30.00
[ ] Pink - $10.00
[x] Other - $50.00

$60.00

Letter your middle name(s) start with:

[ ] a-f - $5.00
[ ] g-k - $17.50
[x] l-p - $30.00
[ ] q-u - $35.00
[ ] v-z -$25.0

$30.00

Bedroom walls- select all that apply!
[ ] white - $11.00
[ ] green - $33.00
[ ] black - $11.00
[ ] purple - $22.00
[ ] orange/red/yellow - $33.00
[ ] blue - $22.00
[x] other - $35.00

Total: $35.00

First letter of the person you last talked to

[ ] a,b,c,d,e,f,g,h,i - $10.00
[ ] j,k,l,m,n,o,p,q,r - $5.00
[x] s,t,u,v,w,x,y, - $20.00
[ ] z - $25.00

Total : $20.00

Did you use a calculator to add it all up?
[ ] Yes $0
[x]Nope- $100.00
[ ] some- $75.00

Final Total: $439.50

I cost $439.50 a night!

It's that time of year again....

Today I started some marigolds and potted my parsley seedling. My potatoes, pineapples, and tomatoes are doing really well, despite the fact that the aphids are crazy this year. I'll probably transplant them into their final containers this weekend and start some corn, squash, lettuce, carrots, and amaranth. Oh and sunflowers, gotta have sunflowers. I'll post pics some time this weekend.

WOW! I never expected this many people to respond. Here's the list of folks in the cue. Order is based on first come first served with priority given to those who watched and pimped me. If you have a "W" by your name it means you watched me. Thank you BTW. If you have a "J" by your name, it means you pimped me out. Again, thanks a bunch. If you have nothing but dashes by your name, it means you're a slacker and you did neither of the things I asked you to do in return for your icon. Back of the line sir. When you see "Finshed" by your name, note me your email and I'll email the full size icon to you, or you can just copy/paste it from my gallery. Thanks again everyone. *hugs*

 partycat WJ Finished!
 claritywuff WJ Finished!
 Vessi WJ Finished!
 NightWolfRose WJ Finished!
 RelentlessUnbound WJ Finished!
 Kooza WJ Finished!
 katowarrior WJ Finished!
 Melee-Brawl WJ Finished!
 shynjy WJ Finished!
 ArcticBael WJ (wants red/maroon and black background) Finished!
 Sierra.Starpaw WJ Finished!
 Blaith WJ Finished!
 shy_tiger WJ Finished!
 cutefox44 WJ (wants rainbow with clouds background) Finished!
 xxSyenTheDevilxx WJ
 DarkEmberKitty WJ
 ReigTDreve WJ
 Toxic~Shadow WJ
 Artomis - J
 Durock W -
 ThANmsSW -
 KyokoRingtail W -

Here's an example of the icon: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/6668257/

You too can have a tofu-sona icon. Be a trend setter! It's F-R-E-E free...all you gotta do is post a link to this journal in a journal of your own, watch me, and then leave a comment on this journal with a link to both the journal you posted and your ref sheet, and voila! Tofu icon for you! *hugs*