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General | Posted 9 years agohttps://picarto.tv/FoxxJehArts
join us!!!! enjoy the smooth sounds of my sexy voice...and his amazing accent.
<3
join us!!!! enjoy the smooth sounds of my sexy voice...and his amazing accent.
<3
4 months, open wounds
General | Posted 9 years agoWe as people and living creatures are not perfect, but faltered by the creation and concept of “emotions” or “feelings.” And no matter what we do, we sometimes feel captured and imprisoned by those emotions that we have create within ourselves. They are bought out by the best, and worst of the encounters we have in everyday life. It just sucks to know that some of us are hit by them harder than others.
At first I would have these moments are work, or while in a room I use to know. I would grasp for some oxygen to fill my gasping lungs. I would find my chest burning with uncontrollable doubt, and my body shook with quacking fear. Uncontrollable thoughts of someone else in the bed where I use to lay my head, would cloud my judgment of reality…. because in my world, that was my new reality. The arms that would lovingly wrap around me, had a new gem to cling to. Within 2 days…..I became nothing and my body couldn’t handle it, all because I had emotions and feelings.
I remember the nightmares. I remember the lies. I remember taking the blame for everything ending, and never letting you understand the hurt I was going through. I remember crying and sobbing, while you were smiling and laughing, and even cooking with a new soul that had pushed me out. I remember watching as you held her and went to comfort her….. while I was alone. I remember every little darkness that would inch its way into my very being because I was thrown out like trash. I remember sitting on those tracks waiting for a feeling of release from an icy grip that held my heart…. And I remember standing up because giving up felt too easy a way.
4 months later and those emotions don’t bother me so much. Yet every now and then like crashing waves over the sand, confusion and resentment fill me to the brim. And it almost seems as if I am no closer to an understanding as to “why” everything happened the way it did. I have people who care about me, and a family that reminds me I’m going to be ok. But it’s hard to erase almost 3 years of your life. I still cry over us. I still worry you’re not ok and hurt. I still wonder if I ever cross your mind…or even the idea of us. But I sadly have to take all those thoughts and feelings and bury them deep into a grave that I will never allow myself to find again. And even though I put a smile on for those around me, and I am CRYING and SCREAMING on the inside….
I know I am the only one with open wounds…..
“Happy new year!” or even “happy birthday” can sometimes fill us with a false light with the hope of “change”. We stop and take a moment to think, “Just 1 more year…” Maybe it’s to encourage our minds to keep pushing, because the soul is starting to wear down from attempting to keep the spark ignited within. Maybe for me…..it was in hopes to not hear the words “It’s over, and I can’t be with you.” You see I’m one of those poor, unfortunate souls, who was trying to grasp onto something that wasn’t there. For me, I wanted to keep something going that wasn’t real, all because I too am faltered with feelings.
At first I would have these moments are work, or while in a room I use to know. I would grasp for some oxygen to fill my gasping lungs. I would find my chest burning with uncontrollable doubt, and my body shook with quacking fear. Uncontrollable thoughts of someone else in the bed where I use to lay my head, would cloud my judgment of reality…. because in my world, that was my new reality. The arms that would lovingly wrap around me, had a new gem to cling to. Within 2 days…..I became nothing and my body couldn’t handle it, all because I had emotions and feelings.
I remember the nightmares. I remember the lies. I remember taking the blame for everything ending, and never letting you understand the hurt I was going through. I remember crying and sobbing, while you were smiling and laughing, and even cooking with a new soul that had pushed me out. I remember watching as you held her and went to comfort her….. while I was alone. I remember every little darkness that would inch its way into my very being because I was thrown out like trash. I remember sitting on those tracks waiting for a feeling of release from an icy grip that held my heart…. And I remember standing up because giving up felt too easy a way.
4 months later and those emotions don’t bother me so much. Yet every now and then like crashing waves over the sand, confusion and resentment fill me to the brim. And it almost seems as if I am no closer to an understanding as to “why” everything happened the way it did. I have people who care about me, and a family that reminds me I’m going to be ok. But it’s hard to erase almost 3 years of your life. I still cry over us. I still worry you’re not ok and hurt. I still wonder if I ever cross your mind…or even the idea of us. But I sadly have to take all those thoughts and feelings and bury them deep into a grave that I will never allow myself to find again. And even though I put a smile on for those around me, and I am CRYING and SCREAMING on the inside….
I know I am the only one with open wounds…..
“Happy new year!” or even “happy birthday” can sometimes fill us with a false light with the hope of “change”. We stop and take a moment to think, “Just 1 more year…” Maybe it’s to encourage our minds to keep pushing, because the soul is starting to wear down from attempting to keep the spark ignited within. Maybe for me…..it was in hopes to not hear the words “It’s over, and I can’t be with you.” You see I’m one of those poor, unfortunate souls, who was trying to grasp onto something that wasn’t there. For me, I wanted to keep something going that wasn’t real, all because I too am faltered with feelings.
Meet my new character!
General | Posted 9 years agoHis name is zazzel. And he is the coolest most awesome OC i have ever come up with!
He's a Pineapple.
I don't have art of him yet, so if you want to draw him for free, I would love you forever....
I SHOULD START A PAGE FOR HIM!!! XD
Check out his first ever appearance!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19865229/
He's a Pineapple.
I don't have art of him yet, so if you want to draw him for free, I would love you forever....
I SHOULD START A PAGE FOR HIM!!! XD
Check out his first ever appearance!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19865229/
Looking to hire someone for art....finally
General | Posted 9 years agoLooking for vent art!
I can't draw, nor is it my passion, but I do love art. I am finally ready to get art of my fursona again, but there is a heads up....
It will be my vent art, and I need someone who is willing to read a story. I love art based on what people read and feel inspired by, so art of my fursona isn't a "draw this exact thing!" It's a "here is my short story based on actual feels I have, and I want you to draw what you feel from what you are reading" kind of deal.
I know it sounds dumb to some, and I feel it won't mean anything to those around me. But I really would like to try this project, and I'm willing to hear from. Those who are interested in trying this.
Yes: I will pay
Yes: I am a little picky one art style sometimes
Yes: I have a ref. Sheet
No: I am not interested in NSFW art
I mostly want to hear from people who, if not interested, know of people who would be interested. Or even if this is a good idea.
I can't draw, nor is it my passion, but I do love art. I am finally ready to get art of my fursona again, but there is a heads up....
It will be my vent art, and I need someone who is willing to read a story. I love art based on what people read and feel inspired by, so art of my fursona isn't a "draw this exact thing!" It's a "here is my short story based on actual feels I have, and I want you to draw what you feel from what you are reading" kind of deal.
I know it sounds dumb to some, and I feel it won't mean anything to those around me. But I really would like to try this project, and I'm willing to hear from. Those who are interested in trying this.
Yes: I will pay
Yes: I am a little picky one art style sometimes
Yes: I have a ref. Sheet
No: I am not interested in NSFW art
I mostly want to hear from people who, if not interested, know of people who would be interested. Or even if this is a good idea.
Fuck your love!
General | Posted 10 years ago.........mmmmm....nope, title says it all =D
ANIME FOR ALL!!
General | Posted 10 years agohttps://rabb.it/Roflkitten
Just click the button! lets watch animu together! =D
Just click the button! lets watch animu together! =D
I think I fucked up.....
General | Posted 10 years agoI made an F-list.......but no like many of you will see it. Most of you forgot I even have an FA xD
https://www.f-list.net/c/roflkitten/
here.......cause WHY THE FUCK NOT!!!
https://www.f-list.net/c/roflkitten/
here.......cause WHY THE FUCK NOT!!!
Furlandia!
General | Posted 10 years agoSooo just as a heads up, I might be hosting 2 panels for it.
1 of which will be a hip hop work out class, where we dance for an hour, and I teach you a routine, and then maybe be in am up and coming project.
If you want in on this, come to furlandia in Portland, Oregon. And please.....idk....share this message around. That would be really cool. Thanks everyone.
1 of which will be a hip hop work out class, where we dance for an hour, and I teach you a routine, and then maybe be in am up and coming project.
If you want in on this, come to furlandia in Portland, Oregon. And please.....idk....share this message around. That would be really cool. Thanks everyone.
No Subject
General | Posted 11 years agoLost
Drunk
General | Posted 11 years agoSome times I just want to dance
forget I had any feeling at all
and smile with friends
at the bottom of a bottle
Some times I wish I could just leave
Run away and find my corner
where I can hide away
at the bottom of a bottle
Some times I just want to remember
all the good times we had
and never stop smiling
at the bottle of a bottle
Some times I just want to forget
and cry up at the moon
leaning against a wall
at the bottom of a bottle
Now here I am
feeling more alone than ever
writing my confessions
at the bottom of this bottle
forget I had any feeling at all
and smile with friends
at the bottom of a bottle
Some times I wish I could just leave
Run away and find my corner
where I can hide away
at the bottom of a bottle
Some times I just want to remember
all the good times we had
and never stop smiling
at the bottle of a bottle
Some times I just want to forget
and cry up at the moon
leaning against a wall
at the bottom of a bottle
Now here I am
feeling more alone than ever
writing my confessions
at the bottom of this bottle
RainFurrest
General | Posted 11 years agoI will be there....that is all....not like anyone here cares since i lost all my friends here and my life on this site.
Still...i'll be there
Still...i'll be there
Another night
General | Posted 11 years agoMystery man, I'm writing to you
I need some comfort....a smile a laugh
I want to know I'm not over thinking this
And to be reminded that I'm not totally alone
I know I'm with him and I say I'm happy
But I don't even get respect from him.
I am treated like shit and just keep my head down.
I hate knowing that he doesn't treat me like I have feelings
When I'm more human than most.
It sucks being yelled at.
I know he helps to take care of me...
But at this point is being homeless really all that bad?
Heh, yea I wouldn't even last a day.
*sigh* I don't know.
I know better than to ever get angry over things.
I know better than to take his actions to heart.
He's a dumbass...
*hehehe*
oh well.....
I think my real issue is my grandmother has cancer.
In 2 weeks she had to have 2 surgeries....and still has to go through kemo
or however you spell it.
It hurts.
It sucks
I guess I never was good at dealing with death around me.
This will be her biggest struggle ever.
Even more than losing one of her sons at a young age.
Even more than losing her only daughter.
I don't want to see her suffer anymore.
I can't stand it and it's driving me crazy!
*sigh*
I also found out I can't go to school again still.
If I did, I would be over $170,000 in the hole after words.
I wanted to go back.
I am so tired of feeling like I'm failing in life.
I can't help the person I care fore.
I can't help my family.
I can't help myself.
But I can't kill myself.
There are people that have it much worse than me.
I have no reason to take the easy way out.
But I wish....I just wish......I had someone that would hold me for a night.
I want to be told everything will be fine.
Even if it isn't.
Even though I know it wont be....
I just want....to be lied to about life.
I need some comfort....a smile a laugh
I want to know I'm not over thinking this
And to be reminded that I'm not totally alone
I know I'm with him and I say I'm happy
But I don't even get respect from him.
I am treated like shit and just keep my head down.
I hate knowing that he doesn't treat me like I have feelings
When I'm more human than most.
It sucks being yelled at.
I know he helps to take care of me...
But at this point is being homeless really all that bad?
Heh, yea I wouldn't even last a day.
*sigh* I don't know.
I know better than to ever get angry over things.
I know better than to take his actions to heart.
He's a dumbass...
*hehehe*
oh well.....
I think my real issue is my grandmother has cancer.
In 2 weeks she had to have 2 surgeries....and still has to go through kemo
or however you spell it.
It hurts.
It sucks
I guess I never was good at dealing with death around me.
This will be her biggest struggle ever.
Even more than losing one of her sons at a young age.
Even more than losing her only daughter.
I don't want to see her suffer anymore.
I can't stand it and it's driving me crazy!
*sigh*
I also found out I can't go to school again still.
If I did, I would be over $170,000 in the hole after words.
I wanted to go back.
I am so tired of feeling like I'm failing in life.
I can't help the person I care fore.
I can't help my family.
I can't help myself.
But I can't kill myself.
There are people that have it much worse than me.
I have no reason to take the easy way out.
But I wish....I just wish......I had someone that would hold me for a night.
I want to be told everything will be fine.
Even if it isn't.
Even though I know it wont be....
I just want....to be lied to about life.
Confession
General | Posted 11 years agoI will always have the biggest lady boner for you, but I will never make a move on you, and for many reasons.
You are hansom and smart.
You are funny and real.
You are talented and good hearted.
You are also well known.
You have your heart on someone else.
You are to far away to ever love.
You will never notice me, in a crowd of faces.
I'm ok with being here though.
I don't mind just seeing you happy.
I don't mind just being another face
I am loved here.
I am welcomed by many people.
I am stronger than you think.
I am....Roflkitten.
It sucks knowing I will never get a chance.
It's life, not always fair.
But it's ok. I got to write you this....
Even if you never know.
Even if you never even read this.
I still got to tell someone.
You are hansom and smart.
You are funny and real.
You are talented and good hearted.
You are also well known.
You have your heart on someone else.
You are to far away to ever love.
You will never notice me, in a crowd of faces.
I'm ok with being here though.
I don't mind just seeing you happy.
I don't mind just being another face
I am loved here.
I am welcomed by many people.
I am stronger than you think.
I am....Roflkitten.
It sucks knowing I will never get a chance.
It's life, not always fair.
But it's ok. I got to write you this....
Even if you never know.
Even if you never even read this.
I still got to tell someone.
Another raffle =o
General | Posted 12 years ago$1111 thing is still happening
General | Posted 12 years agoJust happens to be on a new page.
rawr xD
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5266668/
have fun and good luck
(not like anyone reads my journals anyway
rawr xD
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5266668/
have fun and good luck
(not like anyone reads my journals anyway
Win $1111 moneys for things!
General | Posted 12 years agoFREE ART BY SEXY PERSON!
General | Posted 12 years agodude...HUMAN ART!!!
General | Posted 12 years agoNEED MONEY FOR RF TICKET!! (so live stream)
General | Posted 12 years agoI NEED YOUR HELP!!!!
Soo I have been trying to get money for RF just for my ticket. I am $45 short....aka I can't get it at all right now.
BUT I HAVE THE ROOM AND EVERYTHING!!!
So I will be streaming art for a while. You can make donations if you want (because i love you and you love me right?) Or you can just come and hang out!
I WILL BE MAKING AND SELLING THESE LATER TODAY OR TOMORROW!!!
so if you want one just you can note me for one (just give me the colors you want) and be ready for I am selling these about $3 each.
So come and help me out. I will love you for ever.
http://www.twitch.tv/rofl_kitten
http://www.twitch.tv/rofl_kitten
http://www.twitch.tv/rofl_kitten
I take paypal donations: jeschnitter[at]gmail.com
kind of awesomeness
General | Posted 12 years agoBE IN A HORROR GAME!!
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5014356/
DOOOOOO IIIITTTTT!!!!Want to be in a comic?
General | Posted 12 years agoWell now is your chance!
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5054173/
make a camio for 
Strive right there!
StriveTIME FOR RAFFLES!!
General | Posted 12 years agoRF meme (cause why not, no one will read anyway)
General | Posted 12 years ago- Staying at:
Holiday Inn
- Arrival and Departure?
Arriving 26th......that's all I know
- Mode of transportation
Driving all the way there x.x I think we will leave early.
- Rooming with:
Cy the shark
lobythepirate
- Who Will I likely see you with?
loby...maybe zane...umm...maybe some other Oregon furs because I don't know anyone else.
- Con Plans:
♥ Walk around looking like a head hunter and giving out hugs
♥ Drinking at the hotel bar because I will feel out of place and awkward!
♥ Dance like a derp
♥ Record a video for a contest held by
sparklekreations
- How can I find you?
Look for the halloween/scary looking person with the guy with really scary blacked out eyes.
or text me, facebook me, tweet me, litterly if you contact me in anyway even online my phone will go off.
YOU CAN ALSO JUST SIT IN THE MAIN HALLWAY!!! I will walk by it so many times! Dx
- Do you do free art?
ummm does origami count?
- Do you have prints/Cds?
Not even a little =D
- Will you be fursuiting? if so: What suit(s)?
yes....kind of....it's a zombie bat faun head hunter! =D
Hard to miss it....trust me >.>
- Will you be going to parties?
ALWAYS!! x3
- Will you be performing?
..............I might for the talent show...idk
- Smoke?
lovely cigars from time to time.
- Drink
YES PLEASE!! x3
- Gender
FEMALE!!!
- Can I hug you?
YES!! I love hugs! almost as much as I love pictures being taken x3
- Can I talk to you?
Yes. Will you? No
- Will you be at any panels?
You know it's funny. After 10 years of conventions you would think I would go to those by now.
- Can I touch you?
In....what....way? <.<
- Can I buy you drinks?
Totally! but not sure Cy would be happy with that xD
- How old are you?
old enough x3
- Can I snuggle with you?
umm....well... to be honest, I don't snuggle x.x
- If you're pissed off, should I approach you?
Yea totally fine! It might calm me down to have someone just say hi to me =3
- Are you nice?
NOPE!! Biggest darn bitch you EVER done see xD
- Single or Taken?
I'm sure no matter what I tell you, I'm going to be hit on either way. >.>
- Cliquey?
Nope, not a single one.
- How tall?
5'3" to 5'4"
- Can I Take pictures of you?
YES!! Just remember to ask first.
- Will you get anything commissioned?
Are you kidding?! I'm a poor mother f-er!
- How can I get your attention?
Just walk up and say something. I'm sure if you yell for "Rofl Kitten" as well it would work.
But just in case make sure you wave your arm in the air while yelling, then hold up a banner saying "hey listen!"
- Can I ask you to dance at the raves?
wait....people actually ask at furry conventions?!
I'm use to people just trying to Grind on me anyway xD
ANY OTHER QUESTIONS?
ASK AWAY FRIENDS.
Holiday Inn
- Arrival and Departure?
Arriving 26th......that's all I know
- Mode of transportation
Driving all the way there x.x I think we will leave early.
- Rooming with:
Cy the shark
lobythepirate- Who Will I likely see you with?
loby...maybe zane...umm...maybe some other Oregon furs because I don't know anyone else.
- Con Plans:
♥ Walk around looking like a head hunter and giving out hugs
♥ Drinking at the hotel bar because I will feel out of place and awkward!
♥ Dance like a derp
♥ Record a video for a contest held by
sparklekreations- How can I find you?
Look for the halloween/scary looking person with the guy with really scary blacked out eyes.
or text me, facebook me, tweet me, litterly if you contact me in anyway even online my phone will go off.
YOU CAN ALSO JUST SIT IN THE MAIN HALLWAY!!! I will walk by it so many times! Dx
- Do you do free art?
ummm does origami count?
- Do you have prints/Cds?
Not even a little =D
- Will you be fursuiting? if so: What suit(s)?
yes....kind of....it's a zombie bat faun head hunter! =D
Hard to miss it....trust me >.>
- Will you be going to parties?
ALWAYS!! x3
- Will you be performing?
..............I might for the talent show...idk
- Smoke?
lovely cigars from time to time.
- Drink
YES PLEASE!! x3
- Gender
FEMALE!!!
- Can I hug you?
YES!! I love hugs! almost as much as I love pictures being taken x3
- Can I talk to you?
Yes. Will you? No
- Will you be at any panels?
You know it's funny. After 10 years of conventions you would think I would go to those by now.
- Can I touch you?
In....what....way? <.<
- Can I buy you drinks?
Totally! but not sure Cy would be happy with that xD
- How old are you?
old enough x3
- Can I snuggle with you?
umm....well... to be honest, I don't snuggle x.x
- If you're pissed off, should I approach you?
Yea totally fine! It might calm me down to have someone just say hi to me =3
- Are you nice?
NOPE!! Biggest darn bitch you EVER done see xD
- Single or Taken?
I'm sure no matter what I tell you, I'm going to be hit on either way. >.>
- Cliquey?
Nope, not a single one.
- How tall?
5'3" to 5'4"
- Can I Take pictures of you?
YES!! Just remember to ask first.
- Will you get anything commissioned?
Are you kidding?! I'm a poor mother f-er!
- How can I get your attention?
Just walk up and say something. I'm sure if you yell for "Rofl Kitten" as well it would work.
But just in case make sure you wave your arm in the air while yelling, then hold up a banner saying "hey listen!"
- Can I ask you to dance at the raves?
wait....people actually ask at furry conventions?!
I'm use to people just trying to Grind on me anyway xD
ANY OTHER QUESTIONS?
ASK AWAY FRIENDS.
CALENDER ART!!
General | Posted 12 years agoSokiTwopaw needs help with RF
General | Posted 12 years ago
SokiTwopaw Is looking for 2 room mates for RF! I would take him up on the offer, but I have a room already with lobythepirate
SO!! If you are looking for a room for RF just head to RIGHT HERE!! for details =3
SokiTwopaw