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My Final Day in the Community
Posted 5 months agoWelp, here it is. today will be the final day of my furry career. Or at least the final day I identify as a furry. As most of you know I will be leaving the community to work on myself and explore my options outside the community where hopefully it leads to me having children. I've tried for 14 years to find someone within the community to start a family with but to put it blunty as I can there is a severe lack of available cis-women in the community. Most are already taken and very few want to have kids. and with Donald Trump running this ces pool of a country furries are even less likely to want to have kids. Now there are some lucky few who won the furry lottery and found the love of their lives or whatever and actually do have kids, but for the 99% of everyone else they either want kids and don't have em or are actively choosing to be childless.
Now look I've played the nice guy for 14 years and did everything in my power to try to find someone to relate to me where hopefully it lead to a relationship and eventually a familly. I've done everything right to the best of my ability so I can not explain to you why I don't have any children or am not in a relationship with someone of my opposite sex. I am in a relationship but it's with another guy, but don't take anything away from that as a bad thing as I truly do love my bunny very much. but two guys can not make a child. Thru out my entire furry career I've only ever attracted guys but I am bi-sexual so I have interest in women too. It's just you can't find them to put it bluntly again, I don't wanna beat around the bush and put sprinkles and flowers on and around it, women are in the fandom but the availability of them are extremely low.
I don't want anyone thinking this is a sex thing. Sex is great an a beautiful thing but I'd trade not getting pussy for the next 99 years over having a child any day. I want to start the next generation and the furry community doesn't give me that opportunity. I'm not an artist or an animator or a fursuit maker, but I do have a job. Do I like my job no but it's been keeping me stable for the last decade so something must be working. I have all the tools a man could need to assist in raising a child I just want a fair shake. Am I ready no, no one is ever truly ready to raise a child but within that I truly believe once you realize this you're ready enough to start to raise a child, the only thing left to do is have one. Unfortunately I do not see an avenue within the furry community that can help me with this. So that said I bid you one final good bye, I will probably be at FWA and/or London UK as I've pre-planned those events but outside of that I will not have much of a presence in the furry community for the next few months to few years to come. Not at least until I become a father, only then will I truly return to the fandom but until then you've given me 14 years of happiness and 14 years of heart ache but it's time I take back my life and I'm doing it in the best/only way I know how. Thank you all for everything I wish each and every one of you well in your future endeavors
Now look I've played the nice guy for 14 years and did everything in my power to try to find someone to relate to me where hopefully it lead to a relationship and eventually a familly. I've done everything right to the best of my ability so I can not explain to you why I don't have any children or am not in a relationship with someone of my opposite sex. I am in a relationship but it's with another guy, but don't take anything away from that as a bad thing as I truly do love my bunny very much. but two guys can not make a child. Thru out my entire furry career I've only ever attracted guys but I am bi-sexual so I have interest in women too. It's just you can't find them to put it bluntly again, I don't wanna beat around the bush and put sprinkles and flowers on and around it, women are in the fandom but the availability of them are extremely low.
I don't want anyone thinking this is a sex thing. Sex is great an a beautiful thing but I'd trade not getting pussy for the next 99 years over having a child any day. I want to start the next generation and the furry community doesn't give me that opportunity. I'm not an artist or an animator or a fursuit maker, but I do have a job. Do I like my job no but it's been keeping me stable for the last decade so something must be working. I have all the tools a man could need to assist in raising a child I just want a fair shake. Am I ready no, no one is ever truly ready to raise a child but within that I truly believe once you realize this you're ready enough to start to raise a child, the only thing left to do is have one. Unfortunately I do not see an avenue within the furry community that can help me with this. So that said I bid you one final good bye, I will probably be at FWA and/or London UK as I've pre-planned those events but outside of that I will not have much of a presence in the furry community for the next few months to few years to come. Not at least until I become a father, only then will I truly return to the fandom but until then you've given me 14 years of happiness and 14 years of heart ache but it's time I take back my life and I'm doing it in the best/only way I know how. Thank you all for everything I wish each and every one of you well in your future endeavors
Bastion Wins Court Case
Posted 5 months agoThis is what the Furry community should be about:
The judge has just ruled in favor for asylum! They are still wrapping up in the courtroom, and there will be some paperwork before they are released, but we WON!
Bless you all for supporting us and keeping us in your thoughts. There is still so much to do, but we are going home. We are going to be okay...
I would like to give a sincere, heartfelt thanks from the entire community to our lawyer, Merina Shakya. She has a very small firm but she is tremendously skilled at what she does.
https://www.silawpllc.com/
https://maps.app.goo.gl/quqTdVAxGKa64eYb8
If at all possible, please leave her a five-star review on Google so that other immigrants can find her and her service. Right now she only has 10 reviews and that is just not good enough. Let's show her and her team some love from the entire fandom.
Thank you, all! 🙏
Long story short, friend was set to be deported for no reasons given. But thru our efforts and over $50k raised it looks like BastionShadowPaw will remain a U.S. Citizen. I know I have my issues with the furry community. mainly the lack of available cis-women or that no one wants to have children, but my problems to the side, this this right here proves what can happen when the community comes together for the right cause. good show. Congratulation Bastion we won the good fight
The judge has just ruled in favor for asylum! They are still wrapping up in the courtroom, and there will be some paperwork before they are released, but we WON!
Bless you all for supporting us and keeping us in your thoughts. There is still so much to do, but we are going home. We are going to be okay...
I would like to give a sincere, heartfelt thanks from the entire community to our lawyer, Merina Shakya. She has a very small firm but she is tremendously skilled at what she does.
https://www.silawpllc.com/
https://maps.app.goo.gl/quqTdVAxGKa64eYb8
If at all possible, please leave her a five-star review on Google so that other immigrants can find her and her service. Right now she only has 10 reviews and that is just not good enough. Let's show her and her team some love from the entire fandom.
Thank you, all! 🙏
Long story short, friend was set to be deported for no reasons given. But thru our efforts and over $50k raised it looks like BastionShadowPaw will remain a U.S. Citizen. I know I have my issues with the furry community. mainly the lack of available cis-women or that no one wants to have children, but my problems to the side, this this right here proves what can happen when the community comes together for the right cause. good show. Congratulation Bastion we won the good fight
Free Art opportunity (900)
Posted 6 months agoI will never hit 1k follows on here, and even if I do I'm probably not gonna be around to see it most likely... but 900 is close enough. As one of my final acts on FA I'm gonna be giving away a free art opportunity to my 900th follower. Currently visibly it sits at 817 however I'm already in the 890's in my notifications. This give-a-way will be based on my notifications. I will not reveal how many left until I hit 900. But I'll let yall know if and when I do hit 900. Just like I did with Twixxer there will be an art piece for the winner and a raffle for all current watchers. That said good luck to all, this will expire Mar 31st. After that if I don't hit 900 I'll just do a 24 hour raffle for all current watchers b4 I enter sabbatical... good luck to all
This needs to be addressed ABDL community
Posted 6 months agoIf you're an asshole unwatch my account. Everyone still here? OK good, I'm simply here to state that I am a member of the AB DL community, more specifically the Diaper Lover or DL section. That said if you don't like ABDL stuff that's completely fine, block the tag. Don't be an asshole, don't harass people don't be mean don't dox people etc etc. It's perfectly fine and A-Ok not to like something weather it's kink or a fetish etc but it is NOT ok to harass people who like stuff you don't like. And that's all I'm gonna say about that
Leaving the Furry Community
Posted 7 months agoI'm gonna keep this as breif as possible, but I've come to the conclusion that I must step away and take sabbatical form the Furry Community. I'd go into all the reasons why but I believe I aired all my grievances out via Telegram. The main reason for this is I came out mid-last year and wanted to be a father/have children and instead of receive support from my from friends I got shat on. I was told that I don't get girls and have no path to fatherhood. That I'd be happier if I just stayed gay and sucked dick and be happy. What you don't know is that I'm bi-sexual and even though you might be right and my luck hasn't been great with the ladies at the bare minimum it would've been nice to have some support, but nope. Keep in mind I'm in an open relationship with my bunny (a guy) and I love him very much, but still I feel fucked over. Now I'm aware that adoption is an option but I prefer a natural born child, all I wanted was to make my mother a grand mother b4 she leaves this earth. She's a 5 time heart attack survivor and the next could be her last, but no one cares about that. "Maybe it's not meant to be" they say, like you're not helping me or my situation by saying this but oh fuckin kay :(
On top of that thanks to the last election apparently it's legal now to tell people to kill themselves if they have an opinion you don't like. for more information on that see Garden State (GSFTW) you can argue fuss fight whatever, but when we cross over into off yourself territory... like a decade ago people would be all over you "no you can't say that" but now a days as long as you're a popufur I guess you can say whatever you want as long as it's the right opinion.
But that's about it, the main reason is so I can find a path to being a father, I don't see myself doing that in the furry community. If it was meant to be me and her would've cross paths along time ago but nope. Ive only ever attracted guys and I'm not saying that's a bad thing but as previously stated I'm bi-sexual I like girls too, they just don't seem to like me back at least not in that way and being in an lgbtq+ community like furry I don't ever see that happening. Don't get me wrong, it's not a sexual thing, I could go my entire life without "getting some" I just want to bring new life into the world; but considering who our president is right now good fuckin luck because very very few people are trying with this nut job in office. So I may have to look outside the fandom. So as a result after March 31 2025 I'll be taking a leave of absence. I will state that I'll be doing a few pre-planned events like FWA and a trip to Birminham/London UK to meet old friends,but outside of that I will have very little activity in this community. I've also decided to upload some old art work yall may have missed out on and will be doing that over time until or after March. So I hope yall enjoy it because I won't be uploading anything else after wards. That is all for now, I hope yall are having a great day
On top of that thanks to the last election apparently it's legal now to tell people to kill themselves if they have an opinion you don't like. for more information on that see Garden State (GSFTW) you can argue fuss fight whatever, but when we cross over into off yourself territory... like a decade ago people would be all over you "no you can't say that" but now a days as long as you're a popufur I guess you can say whatever you want as long as it's the right opinion.
But that's about it, the main reason is so I can find a path to being a father, I don't see myself doing that in the furry community. If it was meant to be me and her would've cross paths along time ago but nope. Ive only ever attracted guys and I'm not saying that's a bad thing but as previously stated I'm bi-sexual I like girls too, they just don't seem to like me back at least not in that way and being in an lgbtq+ community like furry I don't ever see that happening. Don't get me wrong, it's not a sexual thing, I could go my entire life without "getting some" I just want to bring new life into the world; but considering who our president is right now good fuckin luck because very very few people are trying with this nut job in office. So I may have to look outside the fandom. So as a result after March 31 2025 I'll be taking a leave of absence. I will state that I'll be doing a few pre-planned events like FWA and a trip to Birminham/London UK to meet old friends,but outside of that I will have very little activity in this community. I've also decided to upload some old art work yall may have missed out on and will be doing that over time until or after March. So I hope yall enjoy it because I won't be uploading anything else after wards. That is all for now, I hope yall are having a great day
Maxamilion vs E621 [Has ENDed]
Posted 8 months agoStarting today I'm making Max and his content -Free Use- This means any content I commissioned that you like and have an e621 account you can now repost. [I am not returning to FA, just giving an update. For more content go to weasyl.com/~rollercoasterviper59 or https://inkbunny.net/RollerCoasterViper59 ]
Approximately a decade or so I was suspended from E621 for getting into an argument with an admin which is a big no no, but for good reason. I as character owner feel that I should have the right to upload my own character's content and other people uploading my commissions and other arts was against my policy especially since i was younger and Max wasn't really well known back then. I wanted my name on everything ESPECIALLY since I own Maxamilion the Fox. [I was allowed back but banned 1 year later because E621 rules are cray cray to the second power, or maybe it was a wayward admin I dunno] and haven't touch the site in 8 years, at least as a member, but that doesn't stop other people from uploading my shit without permission, but since I'm a character owner and not an artist fuck me I guess lol
Obviously I touch the site form time to time but for the last 8 years I haven't been able to interact as one would if they have an account there. I would like to see more content uploaded to E621 with my characters names on it, either Max, Rico or Koko. So at this point I guess you can say I change a face. I no longer disallow content I commission to go on E621. So feel free to upload whatever you like, I never had the power to stop people from uploading my content anyhow but now I'm saying I don't mind. so if there is an art or a gif or animation you like form this account you can now upload it just make sure you credit all original artists. Thanks for the support and have a nice day
Approximately a decade or so I was suspended from E621 for getting into an argument with an admin which is a big no no, but for good reason. I as character owner feel that I should have the right to upload my own character's content and other people uploading my commissions and other arts was against my policy especially since i was younger and Max wasn't really well known back then. I wanted my name on everything ESPECIALLY since I own Maxamilion the Fox. [I was allowed back but banned 1 year later because E621 rules are cray cray to the second power, or maybe it was a wayward admin I dunno] and haven't touch the site in 8 years, at least as a member, but that doesn't stop other people from uploading my shit without permission, but since I'm a character owner and not an artist fuck me I guess lol
Obviously I touch the site form time to time but for the last 8 years I haven't been able to interact as one would if they have an account there. I would like to see more content uploaded to E621 with my characters names on it, either Max, Rico or Koko. So at this point I guess you can say I change a face. I no longer disallow content I commission to go on E621. So feel free to upload whatever you like, I never had the power to stop people from uploading my content anyhow but now I'm saying I don't mind. so if there is an art or a gif or animation you like form this account you can now upload it just make sure you credit all original artists. Thanks for the support and have a nice day
Moving to Weasyl - Sayonara Buzzkill Affinity
Posted 2 years agoAnd now the final journal I actually wanted to make. Ok so I remember first joining FA back in the day. FA was like the main furry website... but does it deserve the title anymore? Especially with the way shit has gone recently? The pokemon and digimon ban especially? But no one wants to stand up, no one has the balls or the team with balls to knock FA off it's thrown and actually good websites are cast aside or comparable to the worst possible thing when they are indeed NOT. A good example of this is InkBunny. If you're a dumbass and you know it raise your hand *looks at 50% of the users on FA* because alot of furs are under the notion that anyone who uses Ink Bunny is an instant pedophile. Why is this? Because Ink Bunny allows cub art and FA does not. Now you are free 99 to not like cub art, hell I dont even like cub art... but cub art does not equal being an actual pedophile, just like how feral art doesn't make you a zoophile...however this is how some people choose to think.
InkBunny is a far better run website then FA is and has a way nicer less toxic community. And you can BLOCK TAGS to avoid content you don't like. Cant do that on FA and it blows my mind how people are unaware of this... but whatever. Since most of yall wont follow my inkbunny that's why I'm giving you my Weasyl https://www.weasyl.com/~rollercoasterviper59
Now why am I so upset with FA? What has resulted in my departure from the site? Welp to put it bluntly the admins of this website are fucking dumb. And a good 33%+ of you would probably agree with me on this. If you noticed I spent the last 7 days in suspension, why? Because I don't support covid conspiracy theorists. This is not a joke that's literally why I was suspended. To make matters worse, this wasn't anything immediate. This journal was posted 8 months ago.
For context in the NFL Damar Hamlin went down after a hit to the chest and suffered near fatal cardiac arrest. As tragic as this was it normally wouldn't result in a journal. BUT thanks to twitter *or X I guess which I'll also talk about in a moment* I discovered some very under the earth scum who tried to say Damar went down because of the covid 19 vaccine. This is when I decided to have some choice words for these so called people and made a journal about it. I always make journals about stupid shit like this that's just beyond offensive both to Damar himself and to the community of vaccinated brethren. But for some reason FA didn't like that, so they deleted the journal and suspended me in return siding with those jack-offs on twitter who said he went down because of the covid shot :/ Now I'm not saying FA is pro-covid conspiracy theorists but still WTF
So yeah it was at this moment I said fuck FA, I'm so done with this website. every other site I posted the journal on resulted in no discipline what so ever. This was an only on FA moment and this has resulted in my departure. They don't even read appeals, and when they do 9/9 times out of 10 they're gonna feel they we're in the right, so If you are looking for me I'll be on Ink Bunny https://inkbunny.net/RollerCoasterViper59 don't like Ink bunny I'll be on Weasyl https://www.weasyl.com/~rollercoasterviper59 and for socials I'm moving to Blue Sky. because fuck Twitter/X and their toxic ass community and people who want to pay to use the site going forward is a hard pass. So if you want my Blue Sky that'll be here https://bsky.app/profile/maxamilion.....ox.bsky.social I wish I could say I'll miss this place, but I won't I'll only miss the artists who for whatever reason still choose to operate on this dumpster fire and my friends to stubborn to use any other website. but if you need me I'll be on Weasyl and BlueSky... with that I'll bid you a final good bye
InkBunny is a far better run website then FA is and has a way nicer less toxic community. And you can BLOCK TAGS to avoid content you don't like. Cant do that on FA and it blows my mind how people are unaware of this... but whatever. Since most of yall wont follow my inkbunny that's why I'm giving you my Weasyl https://www.weasyl.com/~rollercoasterviper59
Now why am I so upset with FA? What has resulted in my departure from the site? Welp to put it bluntly the admins of this website are fucking dumb. And a good 33%+ of you would probably agree with me on this. If you noticed I spent the last 7 days in suspension, why? Because I don't support covid conspiracy theorists. This is not a joke that's literally why I was suspended. To make matters worse, this wasn't anything immediate. This journal was posted 8 months ago.
For context in the NFL Damar Hamlin went down after a hit to the chest and suffered near fatal cardiac arrest. As tragic as this was it normally wouldn't result in a journal. BUT thanks to twitter *or X I guess which I'll also talk about in a moment* I discovered some very under the earth scum who tried to say Damar went down because of the covid 19 vaccine. This is when I decided to have some choice words for these so called people and made a journal about it. I always make journals about stupid shit like this that's just beyond offensive both to Damar himself and to the community of vaccinated brethren. But for some reason FA didn't like that, so they deleted the journal and suspended me in return siding with those jack-offs on twitter who said he went down because of the covid shot :/ Now I'm not saying FA is pro-covid conspiracy theorists but still WTF
So yeah it was at this moment I said fuck FA, I'm so done with this website. every other site I posted the journal on resulted in no discipline what so ever. This was an only on FA moment and this has resulted in my departure. They don't even read appeals, and when they do 9/9 times out of 10 they're gonna feel they we're in the right, so If you are looking for me I'll be on Ink Bunny https://inkbunny.net/RollerCoasterViper59 don't like Ink bunny I'll be on Weasyl https://www.weasyl.com/~rollercoasterviper59 and for socials I'm moving to Blue Sky. because fuck Twitter/X and their toxic ass community and people who want to pay to use the site going forward is a hard pass. So if you want my Blue Sky that'll be here https://bsky.app/profile/maxamilion.....ox.bsky.social I wish I could say I'll miss this place, but I won't I'll only miss the artists who for whatever reason still choose to operate on this dumpster fire and my friends to stubborn to use any other website. but if you need me I'll be on Weasyl and BlueSky... with that I'll bid you a final good bye
Fursuit Maker House Fire
Posted 2 years agoFor those who are unaware my fursuit maker 
ccsmascots https://twitter.com/CCSMascots?t=ze.....QqEww&s=35 was involved in a house fire. According to reports all the brand new suits they created both for customers and for sale at FurPoc are all gone. Everyone is fine though. I dunno if they're asking for support yet, but if anyone wants to assist them financially in anyway donations are welcome. A go fund me or something should hopefully be set up eventually. Please help them out in anyway you can
ccsmascots https://twitter.com/CCSMascots?t=ze.....QqEww&s=35 was involved in a house fire. According to reports all the brand new suits they created both for customers and for sale at FurPoc are all gone. Everyone is fine though. I dunno if they're asking for support yet, but if anyone wants to assist them financially in anyway donations are welcome. A go fund me or something should hopefully be set up eventually. Please help them out in anyway you canI am not ok, but I am still alive
Posted 2 years agoOk so I promised a statement and well to the best of my ability here it is. What happened yesterday was probably if not one of the worst days of my life. I came really close to ending it all and upsetting alot of people. My intention was never to upset anyone but there's only so much a person can take b4 they go over the edge. For that I do apologize, now what shocked and saddened me however is the fact that some people saw this as a stunt and that's highly disrespectful. You don't know what I been thru to label it as a stunt is just disgusting. You know it's bad when you get the cops called on you twice. Once right b4 I was about to do it and again at my house because a friend called them. Mental health and/suicidal thoughts is not funny and I denounce anyone who thinks what happened yesterday was in anyways a staged act or anything like that.
Why it happened? It might not make logical sense to you but what happened yesterday basically was the result of my boyfriend sending someone a nude without concent. Now as bad as it was that's not what sent me over. What sent me over was the zoo allegations. Because all it takes is for you to say someone is a zoo then bam. They took 2 screen shots and said the chat was defunct and yet boom everyone thought he was a zoo and by association because I am dating him that makes me a zoo too. All of which of course are not true, but knowing how some furries are taking stuff at face value I figure the best course of action was to take myself out.
How am I feeling now? I'm not ok and am unsure how long it'll take for me to be ok again, but I do wanna offer this apology. So first off I dunno who was sent the dick pic because the person who posted it said they weren't the person who received it, they just posted it on twitter which makes little sense why do you need two people to call out one guy, but the apology is for misgendering them. I dunno if y'all noticed but I've had a problem for years even if it's in your bio I'll sometimes get genders wrong. Not saying it's ok it's not but I've tried working on it and I've not had one non cis friend where I've gotten there gender correct but I am trying.
In closing I hope everyone is doing ok and I hope to God we don't have another day like yesterday ever again weather it's me or someone else. And to anyone I upset yesterday and were worried about me I apologize for everything that happened special shoutouts to Kevin, Rodney and holiday Pup for caring for me in my time of crisis as well as many other friends I'm sorry yall had to go thru what happened yesterday. As for the initial dick pic allegations I denounce them and accountability should be upheld, but I think he should talk to the person in question in private. I will be taking time off and will not be making a statement on twitter, all it's gonna do is attract more mob and I have 0% energy for any of them right now but for all of my friends and everyone else I apologise
Why it happened? It might not make logical sense to you but what happened yesterday basically was the result of my boyfriend sending someone a nude without concent. Now as bad as it was that's not what sent me over. What sent me over was the zoo allegations. Because all it takes is for you to say someone is a zoo then bam. They took 2 screen shots and said the chat was defunct and yet boom everyone thought he was a zoo and by association because I am dating him that makes me a zoo too. All of which of course are not true, but knowing how some furries are taking stuff at face value I figure the best course of action was to take myself out.
How am I feeling now? I'm not ok and am unsure how long it'll take for me to be ok again, but I do wanna offer this apology. So first off I dunno who was sent the dick pic because the person who posted it said they weren't the person who received it, they just posted it on twitter which makes little sense why do you need two people to call out one guy, but the apology is for misgendering them. I dunno if y'all noticed but I've had a problem for years even if it's in your bio I'll sometimes get genders wrong. Not saying it's ok it's not but I've tried working on it and I've not had one non cis friend where I've gotten there gender correct but I am trying.
In closing I hope everyone is doing ok and I hope to God we don't have another day like yesterday ever again weather it's me or someone else. And to anyone I upset yesterday and were worried about me I apologize for everything that happened special shoutouts to Kevin, Rodney and holiday Pup for caring for me in my time of crisis as well as many other friends I'm sorry yall had to go thru what happened yesterday. As for the initial dick pic allegations I denounce them and accountability should be upheld, but I think he should talk to the person in question in private. I will be taking time off and will not be making a statement on twitter, all it's gonna do is attract more mob and I have 0% energy for any of them right now but for all of my friends and everyone else I apologise
The world would be better off if I just off myself
Posted 2 years agoHi everyone, this is Maxamilion here with some... well.... not so happy news. I've decided that I want to end my life. I wish I could say recent events sparked this decision, but it's only a symptom. A symptom of a virus I been dealing with for the last 6 years and honestly I'm at the point where nothing I say or do will matter anymore, I don't matter anymore and I'm sick of people holding me back and forcing me to live a life of misery and depression. And it all stated in 2016/17. when my ex-ex-boyfriend cheated on me with another guy who I thought was my friend. Then had the audacity to dictate how I show my body because to him me being nude in fursuit is fine but if i have my head on and all my clothes off/show my body that's a no no and it's like who gave you the right to dictate how I show my body to my fans/followers. so after 51 weeks being together we officially broke up August 1st and it broke me a bit but I picked my self back up.
Then my second boyfriend or my ex-boyfriend we lasted some 20 months together and honestly he was great but I also felt the relationship was one sided and alot of stuff that happened in our relationship while it wasn't too bad one thing sticks in my craw and that was when he went to AC 2018 and had sex with this one woman. Now we we're in an open relationship, so that wouldn't be bad if she didn't legit laugh in my face after words like the situation was funny. While consent was given she gave me the vibe as if she did cheat on me with him ie or cucked me etc. So that actively plays a role in what happen in my current relationship which I'll explain in a moment.
Then Covid-19 hit in March 2020 AFTER me and my ex broke up in December 31 2019... yep New Years fucking eve. But anyways we did remain friends and even had one or two hook ups since that was considered safe in a "no contact/touchy" society. but he fuck up when he dissed my mom when he found out she was gonna room with us at Furrydelphia 2021.
Speaking of Covid-19 around the time the vaccines came out my dad who was an anti-vaxxer didn't believe in covid ended up in the hospital from, you guess it covid-19... and after 10 days he died December 27 2020... So yeah @_@ and then my mom , aunt and step dad... basically my whole household got it. but it most likely came from my dad's funeral. We cleared the virus mid-February 2021 which was perfect because 2 weeks after that I wanted to have a birthday party with some close vaccinated friends, and this is where the first controversy comes in. Now the link was posted publicly but it clearly said only those vaccinated and close to me should sign up and only had 10 slots. you all know this story, person by the name of Nuibella and Kabewolf took this posts and said "fuck these people" and I was cancelled. Now I been cancelled b4 but this hit different because I wanted to celebrate my birthday with friends and I got cancelled despite the fact that everyone in attendance was supposed to be vaccinated. Even more so it was dubbed a super spreader event despite the fact that it was >10 unlike the fucking night club scenes with 3000 and 5000 non mask wearing mother fuckers in new york and Connecticut at the time. So yeah that was... fun :/ but it's about to get way worse.
So the moment you all been waiting for, and why I want to end my life... So what I'm about to tell you isn't really about me directly, but it does effect me and why I've come to this decision. In September 2021 I hosted the very first FurLooza. For those who don't know and haven't seen every post FurLooza is a Furbowl that I'm proud to have been running for 2 years now along side Icarus, Aritimo, Zac Dog and my boyfriend Sly. FurLooza 1 is actually where we met and me, Sly and Icarus would be friends for quite some time. So much so we went to both ANE and Furpoc 2022 together, but it was at FWA 2022 that Icarus pushed us together saying we'd be perfect for each other. And I kinda liked him and he kinda liked me and we decided then and there we'd be a couple, this makes FWA our anniversary con. As great as our relationship became there was a hiccup and it happened earlier this year. Now my boyfriend is over sexual and I like that in a person. I don't wanna date someone who'se vanilla or boring, if I'm horny and you're horny let's be horny together. I understand people not being up for it all the time, but that would be a great hinderance in our relationship. Why am I mentioning this? because the following information is being made public and it's important to the main subject of this journal. I apologize I know you wants this kept private but the world needs to know about this and how it made me feel. In late January 2023 My boyfriend admitted to me that one of his flings that he had at the time was a woman. Remember when I said my ex cheated on my with a woman? Welp it happened again, only this was an open relationship. Unlike my previous relationship where I was uncomfortable with my ex being with anyone but me or my friends, I tried to be more open and understanding with this situation, that was until he revealed that she gave him C-word. So he got tested and he ended up with C-word so he asked me to go get tested. and ladies and gentlemen I ended up having fucking C-word, so yeah him and some girl gave me c-word and I had to get treatment for it and cleared the virus in 10-14 days.
Now I wasn't upset I had C-word it was a huge inconvenience and I had to tell a bunch of friends to get tested that I been with, this happened b4 in 2018 when me and my ex had a fling with this guy, but that guy ended up graduating to HIV and has been trying to spread it to everyone in the NYC area... so fuck that guy. we don't talk about Bruno. So I wasn't upset because of that, the real reason I was upset was for the second time my boyfriend current ex or otherwise ended up in be with a female. And I dunno if it was jealousy or whatever the fuck is going on but I haven't been with a woman at that point for 10 to 11 years, around about when I was in High school. So to see this happen twice honestly just pissed me off. but we survived we got thru that, but coming up next is the biggest shocker that I've had to deal with in this situation.
Thread: https://twitter.com/bruisebunnies/s.....285405484?s=35
So last week I'm minding my own business, I'm bout to splat some fest (Splatoon 3) and the next thing you know I get a notification on Telegram to of all people remove my boyfriend from the chat my immediate reaction is very bias, like no fuck that why am I removing a loved one from the chat without reason. welp there kinda was a reason. In enters Bruise Bunny, so from what I gather *at least from what he told me* he and her talked alot and the twitter post about him had a pic of his goat character he wanted a fursuit head of because we're fursuit enthusiasts and like commissioning suits etc. etc. BUT this post had a legit picture of his dick in it. So basically he sent her a dick pic, that's not a big deal... right? well how about she received it without prior consent; and that's how this episode starts. So I said something about it, but I was Anti-Bruise.and the reason why I stood against her is because although I don't condone her receiving dick pics, I feel like if this was a first offense it should stay behind closed doors. At least that's what I thought initially, because yall talk to each other so common sense should be not to report every little thing someone does on twitter where you know the levels of venom people spew out over the smallest shit so I felt that until more evidence came out it's not that big a deal. I again don't condone it but it's not something that should've at least initially what I thought been blown up the way it was. But slowly that opinion has started to change, because he's being #MeToo'd and I'll be honest when people Me Too I don't believe you at least not right away. I'm a guy that like proof and evidence. You don't just jump on Twitter and say "me too" and I just automatically believe you because victims rights. I'm not saying don't take the allegations seriously, but don't believe them automatically either, a person's entire life could be at stake over stuff like this... but it's is 2023 so people could care less about your life as long as the victim is heard. And I don't have a problem with that but also if someone is accused of this stuff and found innocent, you just ruined someone's entire life and for what :/ but I'm just speaking my opinion, there is evidence here so he's clearly not innocent. but until others accusing him of touching groping sending nudes etc come forth with evidence the only credible person in this entire situations is Bruise Bunny. Now as bad as this is, you'd think that's it just a dick pic then we'd move on after he's been pretty much cancelled right? Brace your anus, because someone posted him being in a Zoophile's explicit chat o.o [At this moment I want to just take a drill to my eye balls one by one until my brain is leaking juices]
So someone by the Titter handle RicketRacc posted some "daming" allegations that my boyfriend is a zoophile because he's in a zoophile chat :/ This is the same level of "If you have an inkbunny you're a pedophile" or "If you're into feral art you're a zoophile" two mentalities I'll never understand because just because you're in something doesn't mean you are something. The 'Walks like a duck talks like a duck' metaphor doesn't wash with me, because accusing someone of being a zoophile is literally the worst thing you can acuse someone of, worse then being accused of a pedo... nope being a pedophile is still worse sorry bout that, but yeah remember Kero the wolf? So anywho, I started getting comments about how I hit the jackpot with this one any not in a good way. So here's why I'm calling bullshit on this post, I reveiwed it a bit an a couple things stood out to me. The name of the chat is "Where The Wild Things Are" yeah that was a movie once, but also no chat description? the list of members are repetitive or bot/alt accounts. On top of that you know that cute Z that most zoophiles are known for only one person in the chat has it and if you're admin's name is "CanineFucker" Flat out you're mental R word no apologies that is what you are... but I don't think anyone is that fucking stupid. But assuming this chat does exist 3 things must've happened. Either this is staged, a real good edit job, he was added without consent to look bad *because that is a thing you can do on telegram add people without consent* I was in an anti-ukrain and a bitcoin chat once and fuck both those chats, or least likely this chat did exist and he was in it which considering Icarus and Sly would be in jail if a zoophile was standing next to them because they'd kill a bitch in 2.5 seconds I severely doubt that he joined on his own volition. Again I'm just listing the possibilities. he's neither guilt or innocent but if you want to prove him guilty Ricket you might need to drop more evidence my friend because I'm not buying what you posted. And that's my non-biased opinion, if you bought those same screenshots to a court room a judge would throw your case out no joke. twitter might believe everything in 2.5 second but I'm not everyone on twitter.
Final thoughts: If you got this far down the journal praise be on to you for reading this wall of text. I was gonna do a video about it *something people would pay more attention to since they can't read* but I choose not to because this entire situation has made me upset I wish there was something I could do to make what my boyfriend did right, but what is not an option *at least not yet* is to quote "drop him like hot rocks" you don't get to dictate how I start or end my relationships and this is a tactic the fandom has done alot with someone they hate. You gotta drop em like hot rock and if you stand against us you're the problem too. But I will say this, this situation has not helped my depression. You know what I really wanted in my life I wanted a wife and some kids and a house and a happy life, but ever since i joined the fandom it's been nothing but drama, and even though the situation doesn't involve me directly it does effect me. It's hilarious how many people like Ellie realized whom he was dating and just immediately started attacking me for no reasons given. I may never be happy and my boyfriend doing stupid shit like this just solidifies as much. the best course of action in this situation sis just ending my life.
At this point I'm cancelling all fur meets until further notice or indefinitely and if I'm found at the bottom of the Hudson River no one will care because my life isn't worth living, because everytime I try a modicum of happiness it's striken down by furry twitter So I think a ticker tape parade is in order for my death. I'll be at Cotton's funeral home if you need to find me and that's if my body is found in the Hudson. I wanna see my dad again anyways because I can't take one more second of people with not much else better to do then harass people thanks to twitter weather those allegations have merit or not. Thought I will say this I've requested Sly not to apologies to Bruise because people will say he's "sorry he got caught" so I'll do it instead. I'm sorry he sent those disturbing images to you it was wrong of him to do that and I hope he learns his lesson. If you can ever find the time to talk to him again I hope he can say that himself, but I don't think the internet is owed an apology just YOU. but that's all the energy I can muster as I no longer feel I belong on this plain of existence. I'm never gonna have a wife or even a girlfriend, I'm never gonna have kids and I'm never gonna have my own home because my life is just one gigantic disappointment after another an dI just want this nightmare to end
Then my second boyfriend or my ex-boyfriend we lasted some 20 months together and honestly he was great but I also felt the relationship was one sided and alot of stuff that happened in our relationship while it wasn't too bad one thing sticks in my craw and that was when he went to AC 2018 and had sex with this one woman. Now we we're in an open relationship, so that wouldn't be bad if she didn't legit laugh in my face after words like the situation was funny. While consent was given she gave me the vibe as if she did cheat on me with him ie or cucked me etc. So that actively plays a role in what happen in my current relationship which I'll explain in a moment.
Then Covid-19 hit in March 2020 AFTER me and my ex broke up in December 31 2019... yep New Years fucking eve. But anyways we did remain friends and even had one or two hook ups since that was considered safe in a "no contact/touchy" society. but he fuck up when he dissed my mom when he found out she was gonna room with us at Furrydelphia 2021.
Speaking of Covid-19 around the time the vaccines came out my dad who was an anti-vaxxer didn't believe in covid ended up in the hospital from, you guess it covid-19... and after 10 days he died December 27 2020... So yeah @_@ and then my mom , aunt and step dad... basically my whole household got it. but it most likely came from my dad's funeral. We cleared the virus mid-February 2021 which was perfect because 2 weeks after that I wanted to have a birthday party with some close vaccinated friends, and this is where the first controversy comes in. Now the link was posted publicly but it clearly said only those vaccinated and close to me should sign up and only had 10 slots. you all know this story, person by the name of Nuibella and Kabewolf took this posts and said "fuck these people" and I was cancelled. Now I been cancelled b4 but this hit different because I wanted to celebrate my birthday with friends and I got cancelled despite the fact that everyone in attendance was supposed to be vaccinated. Even more so it was dubbed a super spreader event despite the fact that it was >10 unlike the fucking night club scenes with 3000 and 5000 non mask wearing mother fuckers in new york and Connecticut at the time. So yeah that was... fun :/ but it's about to get way worse.
So the moment you all been waiting for, and why I want to end my life... So what I'm about to tell you isn't really about me directly, but it does effect me and why I've come to this decision. In September 2021 I hosted the very first FurLooza. For those who don't know and haven't seen every post FurLooza is a Furbowl that I'm proud to have been running for 2 years now along side Icarus, Aritimo, Zac Dog and my boyfriend Sly. FurLooza 1 is actually where we met and me, Sly and Icarus would be friends for quite some time. So much so we went to both ANE and Furpoc 2022 together, but it was at FWA 2022 that Icarus pushed us together saying we'd be perfect for each other. And I kinda liked him and he kinda liked me and we decided then and there we'd be a couple, this makes FWA our anniversary con. As great as our relationship became there was a hiccup and it happened earlier this year. Now my boyfriend is over sexual and I like that in a person. I don't wanna date someone who'se vanilla or boring, if I'm horny and you're horny let's be horny together. I understand people not being up for it all the time, but that would be a great hinderance in our relationship. Why am I mentioning this? because the following information is being made public and it's important to the main subject of this journal. I apologize I know you wants this kept private but the world needs to know about this and how it made me feel. In late January 2023 My boyfriend admitted to me that one of his flings that he had at the time was a woman. Remember when I said my ex cheated on my with a woman? Welp it happened again, only this was an open relationship. Unlike my previous relationship where I was uncomfortable with my ex being with anyone but me or my friends, I tried to be more open and understanding with this situation, that was until he revealed that she gave him C-word. So he got tested and he ended up with C-word so he asked me to go get tested. and ladies and gentlemen I ended up having fucking C-word, so yeah him and some girl gave me c-word and I had to get treatment for it and cleared the virus in 10-14 days.
Now I wasn't upset I had C-word it was a huge inconvenience and I had to tell a bunch of friends to get tested that I been with, this happened b4 in 2018 when me and my ex had a fling with this guy, but that guy ended up graduating to HIV and has been trying to spread it to everyone in the NYC area... so fuck that guy. we don't talk about Bruno. So I wasn't upset because of that, the real reason I was upset was for the second time my boyfriend current ex or otherwise ended up in be with a female. And I dunno if it was jealousy or whatever the fuck is going on but I haven't been with a woman at that point for 10 to 11 years, around about when I was in High school. So to see this happen twice honestly just pissed me off. but we survived we got thru that, but coming up next is the biggest shocker that I've had to deal with in this situation.
Thread: https://twitter.com/bruisebunnies/s.....285405484?s=35
So last week I'm minding my own business, I'm bout to splat some fest (Splatoon 3) and the next thing you know I get a notification on Telegram to of all people remove my boyfriend from the chat my immediate reaction is very bias, like no fuck that why am I removing a loved one from the chat without reason. welp there kinda was a reason. In enters Bruise Bunny, so from what I gather *at least from what he told me* he and her talked alot and the twitter post about him had a pic of his goat character he wanted a fursuit head of because we're fursuit enthusiasts and like commissioning suits etc. etc. BUT this post had a legit picture of his dick in it. So basically he sent her a dick pic, that's not a big deal... right? well how about she received it without prior consent; and that's how this episode starts. So I said something about it, but I was Anti-Bruise.and the reason why I stood against her is because although I don't condone her receiving dick pics, I feel like if this was a first offense it should stay behind closed doors. At least that's what I thought initially, because yall talk to each other so common sense should be not to report every little thing someone does on twitter where you know the levels of venom people spew out over the smallest shit so I felt that until more evidence came out it's not that big a deal. I again don't condone it but it's not something that should've at least initially what I thought been blown up the way it was. But slowly that opinion has started to change, because he's being #MeToo'd and I'll be honest when people Me Too I don't believe you at least not right away. I'm a guy that like proof and evidence. You don't just jump on Twitter and say "me too" and I just automatically believe you because victims rights. I'm not saying don't take the allegations seriously, but don't believe them automatically either, a person's entire life could be at stake over stuff like this... but it's is 2023 so people could care less about your life as long as the victim is heard. And I don't have a problem with that but also if someone is accused of this stuff and found innocent, you just ruined someone's entire life and for what :/ but I'm just speaking my opinion, there is evidence here so he's clearly not innocent. but until others accusing him of touching groping sending nudes etc come forth with evidence the only credible person in this entire situations is Bruise Bunny. Now as bad as this is, you'd think that's it just a dick pic then we'd move on after he's been pretty much cancelled right? Brace your anus, because someone posted him being in a Zoophile's explicit chat o.o [At this moment I want to just take a drill to my eye balls one by one until my brain is leaking juices]
So someone by the Titter handle RicketRacc posted some "daming" allegations that my boyfriend is a zoophile because he's in a zoophile chat :/ This is the same level of "If you have an inkbunny you're a pedophile" or "If you're into feral art you're a zoophile" two mentalities I'll never understand because just because you're in something doesn't mean you are something. The 'Walks like a duck talks like a duck' metaphor doesn't wash with me, because accusing someone of being a zoophile is literally the worst thing you can acuse someone of, worse then being accused of a pedo... nope being a pedophile is still worse sorry bout that, but yeah remember Kero the wolf? So anywho, I started getting comments about how I hit the jackpot with this one any not in a good way. So here's why I'm calling bullshit on this post, I reveiwed it a bit an a couple things stood out to me. The name of the chat is "Where The Wild Things Are" yeah that was a movie once, but also no chat description? the list of members are repetitive or bot/alt accounts. On top of that you know that cute Z that most zoophiles are known for only one person in the chat has it and if you're admin's name is "CanineFucker" Flat out you're mental R word no apologies that is what you are... but I don't think anyone is that fucking stupid. But assuming this chat does exist 3 things must've happened. Either this is staged, a real good edit job, he was added without consent to look bad *because that is a thing you can do on telegram add people without consent* I was in an anti-ukrain and a bitcoin chat once and fuck both those chats, or least likely this chat did exist and he was in it which considering Icarus and Sly would be in jail if a zoophile was standing next to them because they'd kill a bitch in 2.5 seconds I severely doubt that he joined on his own volition. Again I'm just listing the possibilities. he's neither guilt or innocent but if you want to prove him guilty Ricket you might need to drop more evidence my friend because I'm not buying what you posted. And that's my non-biased opinion, if you bought those same screenshots to a court room a judge would throw your case out no joke. twitter might believe everything in 2.5 second but I'm not everyone on twitter.
Final thoughts: If you got this far down the journal praise be on to you for reading this wall of text. I was gonna do a video about it *something people would pay more attention to since they can't read* but I choose not to because this entire situation has made me upset I wish there was something I could do to make what my boyfriend did right, but what is not an option *at least not yet* is to quote "drop him like hot rocks" you don't get to dictate how I start or end my relationships and this is a tactic the fandom has done alot with someone they hate. You gotta drop em like hot rock and if you stand against us you're the problem too. But I will say this, this situation has not helped my depression. You know what I really wanted in my life I wanted a wife and some kids and a house and a happy life, but ever since i joined the fandom it's been nothing but drama, and even though the situation doesn't involve me directly it does effect me. It's hilarious how many people like Ellie realized whom he was dating and just immediately started attacking me for no reasons given. I may never be happy and my boyfriend doing stupid shit like this just solidifies as much. the best course of action in this situation sis just ending my life.
At this point I'm cancelling all fur meets until further notice or indefinitely and if I'm found at the bottom of the Hudson River no one will care because my life isn't worth living, because everytime I try a modicum of happiness it's striken down by furry twitter So I think a ticker tape parade is in order for my death. I'll be at Cotton's funeral home if you need to find me and that's if my body is found in the Hudson. I wanna see my dad again anyways because I can't take one more second of people with not much else better to do then harass people thanks to twitter weather those allegations have merit or not. Thought I will say this I've requested Sly not to apologies to Bruise because people will say he's "sorry he got caught" so I'll do it instead. I'm sorry he sent those disturbing images to you it was wrong of him to do that and I hope he learns his lesson. If you can ever find the time to talk to him again I hope he can say that himself, but I don't think the internet is owed an apology just YOU. but that's all the energy I can muster as I no longer feel I belong on this plain of existence. I'm never gonna have a wife or even a girlfriend, I'm never gonna have kids and I'm never gonna have my own home because my life is just one gigantic disappointment after another an dI just want this nightmare to end
No More Streams
Posted 2 years agoIt was at this moment that I throw in the towel. I know I'm not Markiplier or PewDiePie or who ever famous streamer, but I at minimum would like some friends to show up to my streams. Grand total of people who showed up tonight? 2 people... and one was a spam bot :/ so if all I'm good enough for is a spam bot I need not advertise this stuff anymore. I will continue to stream record and post and positive moment from my games in the future, I just wont advertise them live for yall to watch. And if your response is "what's in it for me" is why yall don't show up, then I must really be missing something since people throw thousands of dollars at twitch streamers and youtubers without batting an eye but at least I don't ask for money. At least not any more, I quite over a year ago when the highest donation I got was $5. So that's all I'm good for $5 and spam bots... so yeah I aint doin this no more because I feel as though I'm wasting my time doing this stuff
One Year Ago Today...
Posted 2 years agoThe Queen Died ;-; and while we morn the loss of Queen Elizabeth II one year later, I'd also like to inform you Splatoon 3 also came out last year. Later tonight will be the one year anniversary special splatfest of Shiver v Frye v Big Man who would make the best Team Leader
I've subscribed to Team Frye, so please join us and take down Big man and Shiver during this special splatfest. I will be live streaming https://www.twitch.tv/maxamilionthefox 7:00 est to 11:00 est from now until Sunday, so please be on the look out thru out the weekend and Go Team Frye!!!
I've subscribed to Team Frye, so please join us and take down Big man and Shiver during this special splatfest. I will be live streaming https://www.twitch.tv/maxamilionthefox 7:00 est to 11:00 est from now until Sunday, so please be on the look out thru out the weekend and Go Team Frye!!!
It's been a hard week
Posted 2 years agoIn the world of entertainment and sports we lost 3 of the most precious lives to ever grace our hearts in this world. On Wednesday August 23 we lost Terry Funk (ECW) then on Thursday August 24th after planning a soon to be return Bray Wyatt founder of the Fire Fly Fun house and inspiration for https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52664577/ leader of the Wyatt Family in 2014-17 has passed away from cardiac arrest. not sure if I'm going to WrestleMania 40 anymore as a result of this. That's how much of an impact he's left on us in his near 10 year career in (WWE) AND THEN I went to Furrydelphia to attend the Wrestling Panel and they said 3 people died b4 doing the 10 bell tribute salute as early in the morning Saturday August 26 of all the people we could've lost Bob Barker host of American game show Price is right for 35+ years passed away at age 99 Like what the fuck bro Bob Barker seriously? first Betty White now Bob so can no one make it to 100? I dunno but anyways yeah we lost 3 right back to back to back this weekend and I'm still in shock. But is what it is I guess life goes on. Just remember these legends in your hearts and prayers and I hope you all stay well and comment as you see fit
Blue Skye
Posted 2 years agohttps://bsky.app/profile/maxamilion.....ox.bsky.social
I do not have an invite code, so only those with accounts can see for now. I also do not have any codes to give rn since I'm too new
I do not have an invite code, so only those with accounts can see for now. I also do not have any codes to give rn since I'm too new
Who wants a set of Paws
Posted 2 years agoThat time I was friends with...
Posted 2 years agoSo as everyone knows it's no secret that Bantwolf509 is co leader of the Furry Raiders. BUT did you know me and this rat bastard used to be friends. Yeah I used to be a associated with this garbage. And I honestly feel betrayed because all the shit he did I defended *well not all* to a point but that was until something ground breaking happened that changed our relationship forever
So let's dial back the clock to 2017. It's the LI Fur BBQ, and me and my unnamed wolf friend would be preparing to go to Furrydelphia 1. Now he suggested this would be his final con b4 moving out of the state of NY so why not come out to FurBQ and meet some other furries. So I accepted, and that's how I met Aeve, Fenris and Adal who was the lead of the LI Furs at the time.
Sometimes after this point Adal discovered Aeve was associated with the Furry Raiders and banned him from all LI chats. Now I know we all just met, but I was honestly taken a back by this. So I questioned and prayed for answers only to find out that Aeve was just a spy for the organization *or so he told me* and for some reason I bought this lie. So I continued to associate with him but while also trying not to cause drama between the groups now that most people knew what he was into, but others myself included gave him benefit of the doubt as a person still in good standings. Because he wouldn't actually associate with people that dirty? Right?
This went on for 3 years, then Covid-19 happened and the world shut down. Also George Floyd was choke to death and Black Lives movement begins. Now we're friends, I'm black... So surely he'd be on our side right? Unfortunately after hoping on Twitter he said and I quote "And this is what happens when you don't listen to the orders of law enforcement, they can never do wrong and as a result this criminal lost his life. Play stupid games win stupid prizes" ...So yeah after this quick read I went radio silent. It was at this moment that I finally choose to distance myself from this broken and clearly misguided individual It was at this moment our friendship died
I've gained and lost a lot of friends over the years, none as a result of my relationship with this guy. But after reading that tweet my eyes were wide open. It hurt a lot but honestly my life has been all the better with him not in it. So good riddance you Nazi fur piece of trash and I hope you had fun *not* at Fashcon, I mean Fash Fur All this year
So let's dial back the clock to 2017. It's the LI Fur BBQ, and me and my unnamed wolf friend would be preparing to go to Furrydelphia 1. Now he suggested this would be his final con b4 moving out of the state of NY so why not come out to FurBQ and meet some other furries. So I accepted, and that's how I met Aeve, Fenris and Adal who was the lead of the LI Furs at the time.
Sometimes after this point Adal discovered Aeve was associated with the Furry Raiders and banned him from all LI chats. Now I know we all just met, but I was honestly taken a back by this. So I questioned and prayed for answers only to find out that Aeve was just a spy for the organization *or so he told me* and for some reason I bought this lie. So I continued to associate with him but while also trying not to cause drama between the groups now that most people knew what he was into, but others myself included gave him benefit of the doubt as a person still in good standings. Because he wouldn't actually associate with people that dirty? Right?
This went on for 3 years, then Covid-19 happened and the world shut down. Also George Floyd was choke to death and Black Lives movement begins. Now we're friends, I'm black... So surely he'd be on our side right? Unfortunately after hoping on Twitter he said and I quote "And this is what happens when you don't listen to the orders of law enforcement, they can never do wrong and as a result this criminal lost his life. Play stupid games win stupid prizes" ...So yeah after this quick read I went radio silent. It was at this moment that I finally choose to distance myself from this broken and clearly misguided individual It was at this moment our friendship died
I've gained and lost a lot of friends over the years, none as a result of my relationship with this guy. But after reading that tweet my eyes were wide open. It hurt a lot but honestly my life has been all the better with him not in it. So good riddance you Nazi fur piece of trash and I hope you had fun *not* at Fashcon, I mean Fash Fur All this year
Furrydelphia Fill-Out Sheet 2023
Posted 2 years agoAug 24-Aug 27 2023
Where are you staying?
Sheraton Marriot (Main Hotel)
When will you be arriving?
Thursday Aug 24th
Who will you be rooming with?
Flare, Juvu, Deer, Hwhisper, Wolfblood, Bunny, Moon, Alistair, Big Lion and Haru (2 rooms)
Where will you be most of the time during the day(s)?
Opening Cer, Furry Price is Right, Furry Cruise, Hosting a Paw Party at the Embassy, Mario Party, Wrestling, Year of the Rabbit group photo, Beast Bloc, Fursuit Parade and the Ultimate Were Wolf
What/where will you be eating?
Wawa or Pizza Place etc
Will you be having a room party?
Fuck yes, Saturday night Underwear
Will you be drinking and/or getting drunk?
Nope,"Straight Edge Society Furry" No drinking No smoking No drugs
What is your gender?
Identification: Male (cis-gender)
Classification: Non-binary
How tall are you?
5'5 135lbs I smol :(
If I approach you, will you chat with me?
I don't mind
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Say Hi or shout my name etc I also accept hugs
How many furry conventions have you attended?
Anthrocon 2017-18-19-23 FurryDelphia 2017-18-19-21-22-23 FurPocalypse 2017-19-22 Mid West FurFest 2018-21 Anthro New England 2018-19-20-22 Furnal Equinox 2018-19-22-23 DerpyCon 2021 Comicon 2016-17-18-22 and breifly at FurTheMore 2018
Do you own a fursuit?
Maxamilion the Fox fullsuit
Koizumi Kobold Fullsuits
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
*opens arms*
How can I find you?
Telegram me maxamilionthefox Twitter @ MaxamilionTeFox or look for me I'll be around
Can I buy you drinks?
Prefereably non-alcoholic
Can I take your picture?
Only in suit plz and thank you
What's your goal for the con this year?
This will be my six straight FD in person (7th straight including VR FD con) so I hope to enjoy myself and my roommates while keeping my record intact
Where are you staying?
Sheraton Marriot (Main Hotel)
When will you be arriving?
Thursday Aug 24th
Who will you be rooming with?
Flare, Juvu, Deer, Hwhisper, Wolfblood, Bunny, Moon, Alistair, Big Lion and Haru (2 rooms)
Where will you be most of the time during the day(s)?
Opening Cer, Furry Price is Right, Furry Cruise, Hosting a Paw Party at the Embassy, Mario Party, Wrestling, Year of the Rabbit group photo, Beast Bloc, Fursuit Parade and the Ultimate Were Wolf
What/where will you be eating?
Wawa or Pizza Place etc
Will you be having a room party?
Fuck yes, Saturday night Underwear
Will you be drinking and/or getting drunk?
Nope,"Straight Edge Society Furry" No drinking No smoking No drugs
What is your gender?
Identification: Male (cis-gender)
Classification: Non-binary
How tall are you?
5'5 135lbs I smol :(
If I approach you, will you chat with me?
I don't mind
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Say Hi or shout my name etc I also accept hugs
How many furry conventions have you attended?
Anthrocon 2017-18-19-23 FurryDelphia 2017-18-19-21-22-23 FurPocalypse 2017-19-22 Mid West FurFest 2018-21 Anthro New England 2018-19-20-22 Furnal Equinox 2018-19-22-23 DerpyCon 2021 Comicon 2016-17-18-22 and breifly at FurTheMore 2018
Do you own a fursuit?
Maxamilion the Fox fullsuit
Koizumi Kobold Fullsuits
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
*opens arms*
How can I find you?
Telegram me maxamilionthefox Twitter @ MaxamilionTeFox or look for me I'll be around
Can I buy you drinks?
Prefereably non-alcoholic
Can I take your picture?
Only in suit plz and thank you
What's your goal for the con this year?
This will be my six straight FD in person (7th straight including VR FD con) so I hope to enjoy myself and my roommates while keeping my record intact
My Life is Meaningless...
Posted 2 years agoSo in order for y'all to understand everything I'm about to say I'm gonna give yall a small excerpt of my life up to this point. see my dad passed away from Covid and My mom has suffered 5 different heart attacked and she's only 67 or so years old and while I love my dad don't get me wrong, he accomplished grand father and even great grandfather status b4 he passed away in 2020. My mom however hasn't crossed the bridge from motherhood to grand-motherhood because both of her sons are large disappointments. My straight brother has landed 30 different women over the course of his life *exaggeration but that's how it feels* and hasn't had one single child. His younger brother *me* has only ever had guys in his life. I was with a girl once in like High School when I was like 15 or 16 years old, but after that nothing but sausage fest. Don't get me wrong I like most the men in my life, I even am mated with a bun bun whom I love very much. Dispite all that no women, and it's not like I'm anti-doughnut or anything it's just no women have been attracted to me as far as I know. If someone came my way and wanted to chill *not in a sexual way/not everything is about sex* I wouldn't mind that, but it's just never happened. And that's why the following actually upsets me deeply
The real reason why I dislike Jasonafex isn't because he's a neo-nazi racist or whatever rumors are being spread about him. The real reason is Kabier and PeaceWolf. now you must be asking "what did Kabier and PeaceWolf do?" Well for start according to rumor Kabier was groom by Jason at age 15. This claim holds little weight imo and the reason why is because even thought the "internet doesn't forget" Kabier A is an adult now and B has not admitted she was groomed. So in the eyes of the law she was not groomed sorry to say. unless she renigs and says she was groomed and Jason could face criminal charges, then yeah... but until that day comes, probably never will plus she's married to the guy it's just not gonna happen. So the internet may never forget but this claim holds no weight or merrit sad to say.
So he has a wife and that should be enough right? Nope... This man broke up the marriage between Foxglove and PeaceWolf and now he's fuckin peacewolf. The story is longer than that BUT long story short in a fandom of 81% male identifying 19% female identifying members *according to a recent most likely inaccurate poll* This garbage human being has two women on his waist. This living piece of shit is also living the dream and it's kinda sickening. how the fuck does someone who acts the way he does have 2 women on him while alot of single straight and bi-sexual guys can barely if ever can find a girl in the fandom and have to settle for other guys. Now Im not undermining anyone's relationships I'm just saying the universe is a fucked up human being to allow someone like him to have 2 women, but anyways...
But the reason it bothers me is larger than "oh he has two women and you're jealous bawww" The reason is a bit more personal than that. See I love my mom very much, but I'm starting to lose faith in my own life. I don't understand why in my late 20's I still haven't made her a grand-mother yet. But I'm surrounded by friends who give all this negative and deterring advice to me. Their saying everything under the sun except what they really mean. That I'm not an individual worthy of having children and that by extention and a worthless human being. Last night I got a text from my cousin I haven't heard from in 2 years just for him to tell me he has a son now. That's the 3 cousin younger than me who has advanced to fatherhood. And while I should be happy for him, this news actively contributed to my depression even worse But muh-fuckas wanna tell me "you're too young for kids" and they been telling me this for years.
Honestly and I'm being brutally honest. I've been thinking about suicide alot lately, and none of this not one damn piece is helping me or helpful. I'm of the mentality that if my mom passed away tomorrow I'm walking right along with her, why? because all I ever wanted was to be a father, but in a world where abortion reigns supreme *and yes I'm pro-abortion but still* and women are actively choosing not to become mothers. What fucking options do I have? Adoption yes, cool but not to belittle adopted children but I would really appreciate a natural birth weather it's thru sex or invitro fertilization i prefer that to have my child. But none of this matters if my mom died. If she doesn't get to see at least one grand baby I lose my purpose in this life. And I know I know yall gonna mention how expensive kids are or food, and clothing etc. school... I don't care about any of that wanna know why? because I been planning to be a father since I was 16 year old. Far over a decade+ ago. But yeah that's where my head is at right now. I dunno how when or where but I hope I'm next in line to be a father because I'm telling you watching everyone around me becoming parents actively hurts me to the core. so if my mom dies then I'm out. I think my best bet is jumping off the Brooklyn Bridge because that's how little value my life holds. Otherwise I would've been a father by now and living a much much happier life
The real reason why I dislike Jasonafex isn't because he's a neo-nazi racist or whatever rumors are being spread about him. The real reason is Kabier and PeaceWolf. now you must be asking "what did Kabier and PeaceWolf do?" Well for start according to rumor Kabier was groom by Jason at age 15. This claim holds little weight imo and the reason why is because even thought the "internet doesn't forget" Kabier A is an adult now and B has not admitted she was groomed. So in the eyes of the law she was not groomed sorry to say. unless she renigs and says she was groomed and Jason could face criminal charges, then yeah... but until that day comes, probably never will plus she's married to the guy it's just not gonna happen. So the internet may never forget but this claim holds no weight or merrit sad to say.
So he has a wife and that should be enough right? Nope... This man broke up the marriage between Foxglove and PeaceWolf and now he's fuckin peacewolf. The story is longer than that BUT long story short in a fandom of 81% male identifying 19% female identifying members *according to a recent most likely inaccurate poll* This garbage human being has two women on his waist. This living piece of shit is also living the dream and it's kinda sickening. how the fuck does someone who acts the way he does have 2 women on him while alot of single straight and bi-sexual guys can barely if ever can find a girl in the fandom and have to settle for other guys. Now Im not undermining anyone's relationships I'm just saying the universe is a fucked up human being to allow someone like him to have 2 women, but anyways...
But the reason it bothers me is larger than "oh he has two women and you're jealous bawww" The reason is a bit more personal than that. See I love my mom very much, but I'm starting to lose faith in my own life. I don't understand why in my late 20's I still haven't made her a grand-mother yet. But I'm surrounded by friends who give all this negative and deterring advice to me. Their saying everything under the sun except what they really mean. That I'm not an individual worthy of having children and that by extention and a worthless human being. Last night I got a text from my cousin I haven't heard from in 2 years just for him to tell me he has a son now. That's the 3 cousin younger than me who has advanced to fatherhood. And while I should be happy for him, this news actively contributed to my depression even worse But muh-fuckas wanna tell me "you're too young for kids" and they been telling me this for years.
Honestly and I'm being brutally honest. I've been thinking about suicide alot lately, and none of this not one damn piece is helping me or helpful. I'm of the mentality that if my mom passed away tomorrow I'm walking right along with her, why? because all I ever wanted was to be a father, but in a world where abortion reigns supreme *and yes I'm pro-abortion but still* and women are actively choosing not to become mothers. What fucking options do I have? Adoption yes, cool but not to belittle adopted children but I would really appreciate a natural birth weather it's thru sex or invitro fertilization i prefer that to have my child. But none of this matters if my mom died. If she doesn't get to see at least one grand baby I lose my purpose in this life. And I know I know yall gonna mention how expensive kids are or food, and clothing etc. school... I don't care about any of that wanna know why? because I been planning to be a father since I was 16 year old. Far over a decade+ ago. But yeah that's where my head is at right now. I dunno how when or where but I hope I'm next in line to be a father because I'm telling you watching everyone around me becoming parents actively hurts me to the core. so if my mom dies then I'm out. I think my best bet is jumping off the Brooklyn Bridge because that's how little value my life holds. Otherwise I would've been a father by now and living a much much happier life
The True Anthro Convention is Back on Top
Posted 2 years agoNo we're not talking about "Fuck Fur All" because fuck that con... today we're talking about Anthrocon who by a score of 3 attendance members have retaken the top slot of all time attended furcons. For the first time since MFF official took the title in 2018 and 5 years after; AnthroCon has now claimed top slot and only by 3 attendees. and I played a role in that technically. I originally wasn't gonna go and only had eyes for Furrydelphia after FWa... but I haven't done an AnthroCon in some 4 years so I figure it was time to go back. That influenced my friend Zac to go and by extension Fane and a few others. Had I choosen not to go who knows what could've happened. Maybe AnthroCon wouldn't have been in first place... who knows, but that's just my corner of the fandom. So many of you influended your friends for one reason or the other to go to AnthroCon this year. And now at 13644 here we stand with AC in a position they haven't been in since 2017-18 back on top. MFF 2023 is still 5 months away and they still could be in first place again but only time will tell.
As Kage said this isn't a foot race about witch con is better, all cons are awesome in their own respective ways BUT for those keeping score. AnthroCon has officially for now taken the lead but 3 attendees isn't strong enough of a hold so MFF may take it back in December, but for the first time in 5 years take your spot in the sunshine AC you are once again the World's Largest Anthropomorphic Furry Conventions
As Kage said this isn't a foot race about witch con is better, all cons are awesome in their own respective ways BUT for those keeping score. AnthroCon has officially for now taken the lead but 3 attendees isn't strong enough of a hold so MFF may take it back in December, but for the first time in 5 years take your spot in the sunshine AC you are once again the World's Largest Anthropomorphic Furry Conventions
Anthrocon Fill Out sheet 2023
Posted 2 years agoJune 29-July 2 2023
Where are you staying?
Embassy Suites
When will you be arriving?
Thursday June 29th
Who will you be rooming with?
Fane (host), Ozlo, Zac, Krys
Where will you be most of the time during the day(s)?
Opening Cer, Furry Price is Right, Furry Cruise, Hosting a Paw Party at the Embassy, Mario Party, Wrestling, Year of the Rabbit group photo, Beast Bloc, Fursuit Parade and the Ultimate Were Wolf
What/where will you be eating?
Furryland Pizzaria Fernandos
Will you be having a room party?
Fuck yes, Thursday night Paw Party
Will you be drinking and/or getting drunk?
Nope,"Straight Edge Society Furry" No drinking No smoking No drugs
What is your gender?
Identification: Male (cis-gender)
Classification: Non-binary
How tall are you?
5'5 135lbs I smol :(
If I approach you, will you chat with me?
I don't mind
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Say Hi or shout my name etc I also accept hugs
How many furry conventions have you attended?
Anthrocon 2017-18-19-23 FurryDelphia 2017-18-19-21-22 FurPocalypse 2017-19-22 Mid West FurFest 2018-21 Anthro New England 2018-19-20-22 Furnal Equinox 2018-19-22-23 DerpyCon 2021 Comicon 2016-17-18-22 and breifly at FurTheMore 2018
Do you own a fursuit?
Maxamilion the Fox fullsuit
Rico Ro-Ni Partial
Koizumi Kobold Fullsuits
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
*opens arms*
How can I find you?
Telegram me maxamilionthefox Twitter @ MaxamilionTeFox or look for me I'll be around
Can I buy you drinks?
Prefereably non-alcoholic
Can I take your picture?
Only in suit plz and thank you
What's your goal for the con this year?
This will be my first AnthroCon since 2019 (4 years) and also my 4th ever AnthroCon... So I dunno but I hope I can make the most of this year's con going experience
Where are you staying?
Embassy Suites
When will you be arriving?
Thursday June 29th
Who will you be rooming with?
Fane (host), Ozlo, Zac, Krys
Where will you be most of the time during the day(s)?
Opening Cer, Furry Price is Right, Furry Cruise, Hosting a Paw Party at the Embassy, Mario Party, Wrestling, Year of the Rabbit group photo, Beast Bloc, Fursuit Parade and the Ultimate Were Wolf
What/where will you be eating?
Furryland Pizzaria Fernandos
Will you be having a room party?
Fuck yes, Thursday night Paw Party
Will you be drinking and/or getting drunk?
Nope,"Straight Edge Society Furry" No drinking No smoking No drugs
What is your gender?
Identification: Male (cis-gender)
Classification: Non-binary
How tall are you?
5'5 135lbs I smol :(
If I approach you, will you chat with me?
I don't mind
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Say Hi or shout my name etc I also accept hugs
How many furry conventions have you attended?
Anthrocon 2017-18-19-23 FurryDelphia 2017-18-19-21-22 FurPocalypse 2017-19-22 Mid West FurFest 2018-21 Anthro New England 2018-19-20-22 Furnal Equinox 2018-19-22-23 DerpyCon 2021 Comicon 2016-17-18-22 and breifly at FurTheMore 2018
Do you own a fursuit?
Maxamilion the Fox fullsuit
Rico Ro-Ni Partial
Koizumi Kobold Fullsuits
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
*opens arms*
How can I find you?
Telegram me maxamilionthefox Twitter @ MaxamilionTeFox or look for me I'll be around
Can I buy you drinks?
Prefereably non-alcoholic
Can I take your picture?
Only in suit plz and thank you
What's your goal for the con this year?
This will be my first AnthroCon since 2019 (4 years) and also my 4th ever AnthroCon... So I dunno but I hope I can make the most of this year's con going experience
The worst dating advice anyone can ever give
Posted 2 years agoSo first off this is my personal opinion and second I didn't feel like responding to https://inkbunny.net/j/485521 because I wanted more input... but I feel I should at least say this
The journal links to a video of chikin from Chikin Nugget and Friends asking how people get into relationships. and of course everyone in the comment section single or not gives their advice on how they got together or think they know how to get together with someone else albeit gay or straight or pan. And honestly the worst thing one can say, like literally the worst advice you can give is this "why don't you give it sometime and love will come your way, don't worry you will find someone" now with the way the dating market is today that's the least helpful advice you can ever give, but it's not the worst thing that was said. the absolute worst thing said *again my opinion* was this "Take some time to improve yourself and soon one day you'll attract someone" I mean mo fucka wut!??
Ok I'll be honest, yes self improvement is important. People self improve themselves each and everyday, even people consider "incapable of change" but even if you improve yourself weather mentally or physically all the way to the ends of the earth I'd hate to break it to you but it attracts 0 people your way. Self improvement doesn't automatically land you a girlfriend or a boyfriend of even a friend with benefits. "So expert how did you get a boyfriend" First off I'm no expert either, everything here is opinion based, however literally all I did was just be myself, leave the house every so often for a furmeet or a con or an excursion like to the mall or movies.. simple stuff like that. Then most important actually talking to others and seeing what their interests in. Literally met my boyfriend during a furbowl I hosted and my friend pushed us together and we just clicked and by the time FWA 2022 came around we became official. So it's just up to chance but you gotta talk to people and you shouldn't have to change the way you are. change should be a choice not mandatory at least that's what I believe if you wanna date someone. So yeah it's a little bit of "special someone crossing your way" but most important is just being yourself... Comment as You see fit
The journal links to a video of chikin from Chikin Nugget and Friends asking how people get into relationships. and of course everyone in the comment section single or not gives their advice on how they got together or think they know how to get together with someone else albeit gay or straight or pan. And honestly the worst thing one can say, like literally the worst advice you can give is this "why don't you give it sometime and love will come your way, don't worry you will find someone" now with the way the dating market is today that's the least helpful advice you can ever give, but it's not the worst thing that was said. the absolute worst thing said *again my opinion* was this "Take some time to improve yourself and soon one day you'll attract someone" I mean mo fucka wut!??
Ok I'll be honest, yes self improvement is important. People self improve themselves each and everyday, even people consider "incapable of change" but even if you improve yourself weather mentally or physically all the way to the ends of the earth I'd hate to break it to you but it attracts 0 people your way. Self improvement doesn't automatically land you a girlfriend or a boyfriend of even a friend with benefits. "So expert how did you get a boyfriend" First off I'm no expert either, everything here is opinion based, however literally all I did was just be myself, leave the house every so often for a furmeet or a con or an excursion like to the mall or movies.. simple stuff like that. Then most important actually talking to others and seeing what their interests in. Literally met my boyfriend during a furbowl I hosted and my friend pushed us together and we just clicked and by the time FWA 2022 came around we became official. So it's just up to chance but you gotta talk to people and you shouldn't have to change the way you are. change should be a choice not mandatory at least that's what I believe if you wanna date someone. So yeah it's a little bit of "special someone crossing your way" but most important is just being yourself... Comment as You see fit
If you thought my last journal was bad
Posted 2 years agoIf you thought "if I forget you paid me" was bad, I just re-discovered old dms from an account who claim to be my best friend but in reality stole $450 from me.
How'd this happen? Well they wanted to sell me a fursuit a Mursuit actually and it was supposed to be of my character koko and equip with balls and everything. This would be Koko 1.0 and they talked me into getting this suit mid 2020. 2 years later I questioned them about the suit after time had past and all I got is excuse after excuse. long story short they jacked my money. So if you wanna see those dms send me a private message because I don't wanna get someone cancelled by posting here in the open but I'll either send them to your pms or on telegram at @ maxamilionthefox if you wanna see
But yeah another case of let me take your money and do 0 work *wink*
How'd this happen? Well they wanted to sell me a fursuit a Mursuit actually and it was supposed to be of my character koko and equip with balls and everything. This would be Koko 1.0 and they talked me into getting this suit mid 2020. 2 years later I questioned them about the suit after time had past and all I got is excuse after excuse. long story short they jacked my money. So if you wanna see those dms send me a private message because I don't wanna get someone cancelled by posting here in the open but I'll either send them to your pms or on telegram at @ maxamilionthefox if you wanna see
But yeah another case of let me take your money and do 0 work *wink*
The Worst Policy I've ever Heard
Posted 2 years agoSo you know how there's artist who try to get over on you? and keep your money so they don't have to draw your art OR make you pay extra to get an art drawn etc. Welp I'm bout to reveal one of the worst policies an artist has ever had and I honestly hope one day they change their policy to be more commissioner friendly but I doubt it will ever be.
So here goes "If you lose contact with me or if I forget you commissioned me... you're still responsible for paying for a new art piece" So basically it's just like it sounds. If you stop communicating with said artist for what ever reason or if they forget you gave them money you have to give them more money just to get art done. I've been a very gullible person in my days BUT this is probably one of the worst things I've ever let an artist do to me, and yes I actually gave up more money i.e. double the price I paid for one art piece. So a pic that should've been $50 was actually $100 for example and all because and I quote "I forgot you commissioned me" like wtf
So someone explain to me why because the artist made a mistake the commissioner is responsible for the fix? That shouldn't be my job, I did the work I gave up payment already, you should check your records or have a record period and keep track of all this. you ever heard of Trello or whatever other commissioner listing sites, they do wounders for your business. Because forgetting someone paid you or losing contact with them is just not ok and even worse if it becomes "I don't remember you paid me/forgot you paid me so you now owe me more money. Don't get me wrong alot of us love supporting the artists in the fandom big or small, but this isn't it this is just not an ok policy to have. So yeah just wanted to vent that real quick. I hope no one else in the fandom has this policy because if it's more than one person doing this that's a super big problem
So here goes "If you lose contact with me or if I forget you commissioned me... you're still responsible for paying for a new art piece" So basically it's just like it sounds. If you stop communicating with said artist for what ever reason or if they forget you gave them money you have to give them more money just to get art done. I've been a very gullible person in my days BUT this is probably one of the worst things I've ever let an artist do to me, and yes I actually gave up more money i.e. double the price I paid for one art piece. So a pic that should've been $50 was actually $100 for example and all because and I quote "I forgot you commissioned me" like wtf
So someone explain to me why because the artist made a mistake the commissioner is responsible for the fix? That shouldn't be my job, I did the work I gave up payment already, you should check your records or have a record period and keep track of all this. you ever heard of Trello or whatever other commissioner listing sites, they do wounders for your business. Because forgetting someone paid you or losing contact with them is just not ok and even worse if it becomes "I don't remember you paid me/forgot you paid me so you now owe me more money. Don't get me wrong alot of us love supporting the artists in the fandom big or small, but this isn't it this is just not an ok policy to have. So yeah just wanted to vent that real quick. I hope no one else in the fandom has this policy because if it's more than one person doing this that's a super big problem
Validation (nsfw)
Posted 2 years agoSo I'm gonna go a bit more in depth about the previous journal I wrote, but before I do I'd like to thank those who left feed back weather inside or outside the journal and the fact that it was mostly positive this time actually makes me and my thoughts on the matter valid. Like seriously yall have no idea how mentally frustrating it's been holding in these types of thoughts for all these years and to finally come out and for people to actually acknowledge them in a positive light really makes a person feel valid and not like crap. So I thank yall for that BUT however there are some thing I feel I need to address so yall know where I was coming from and why everything that I said needed to.
First off the reason for the journal outside of self-expression that I made the previous journal was also because of validation. It's normally a taboo subject for a guy to talk about a girls feeling as if he knows her or in this case them, but I'm glad people saw that this time that I genuinely care about equality in the mursuiting community rather than a male dominated society in that spectrum. But also concent and comfortability being the biggest thing that would help in such situations. I remember admitting I've given up on attempting this myself with making content with a women but at one point I actually almost did. but a friend *or lack there of I should say, you choose* convinced me not to and used agism as a crux. Just because someone is 35 doesn't mean their not worthy, I literally just saw something similar a few days ago on twitter where some snot nose 20 year old cut ties with a friend of mine because he's in his 30's and while I don't know if they we're male or female it's still fucked up. Don't use agism to justify not communicating with someone and because of this I honestly felt like shit. Because thanks to this so called friend I actually legitimately felt bad about the situation. Had I not listen to them me and that person may have actually made content together maybe, but we'll never know.
On the flip side consent is also key, this is the most important thing literally ever in world history and it's also why this one person is permanently banned from my room parties. At NYFB this year I hosted a mursuit party and this guy shows up and he's looking for someone to play around with and in the bedroom it's me two girls and a guy and him. Now I understand not getting any attention as much as the next guy but this shit... this shit ridiculous. So in the middle of foreplay I notice one girl at my party servicing another guy that part is fine, but can someone tell me why this other guy is trying to get her attention where she's already playing with someone else. Now you think it stops there, but it gets worse.so so much worse. This same guy to cool him down I try to service him because ya know it's my party and I want everyone relaxed and comfortable because everyone here is trying to get their thang on b4 the new year. he tells me THE HOST to back off because he's not interested.
And I'm like know what ok cool that's fine concent is keys and everything and I value as much so I move to the other side of the room to service one of my other friends. Why did I do that, because not even 5 minutes or so later the same women that was giving him 0 attention because she was busy with another guy caused him to for whatever reason violently bang his head against the wall in I guess rage or jealousy or something I dunno but it bought my party to a stand still full stop. At this point I have every right to kick the guy out because the girl was too busy for him so basically that's a nope lol and "No" should be respected is how I felt at the time but also this psycho just bashed his skull multiple times against my wall. A wall that I might have to pay for if it got damaged which luckily it didn't. but in the end the other attendees just walked him to the living room and tried to make sure he was ok before we continued with what ever murry purry stuff we we're doing b4 whatever that was. So yeah concent, that's important and if someone says no move on to someone else, you don't bash your skull in the wall because now he's banned and I don't wanna see him at any future party I throw like at all.
So why did I tell you these two stories? because agism, sexism and concent play a big role in women wanting to make mursuit content and what you just read is all the wrong ways to get it done. just show respect and maybe luck will come your way yet one day. Ya gotta remember and I shouldn't tell grown ass cis men this but it seems like I have to. The cis women community of the furry fandom are people, not objects treat the like people. cis gay men you can kinda do whatever. It's pretty much accepted that cis gay men are chew toys in the furry fandom so treat them however you want, but women aren't about that life and deserve more tlc than that so that one day if comfortable enough they'll make mursuit content and all in the mursuit side of the fandom will be balanced because as I said in the previous journal the mursuit scene is basically dominated at leas 95% to 5% male and gay content to women content in the mursuiting community and it's time for a change of some sort. Anywho thank yall for reading this journal I hope it sheds light on why these needed to be created and hopefully we can speak on a better topic in the next journal
First off the reason for the journal outside of self-expression that I made the previous journal was also because of validation. It's normally a taboo subject for a guy to talk about a girls feeling as if he knows her or in this case them, but I'm glad people saw that this time that I genuinely care about equality in the mursuiting community rather than a male dominated society in that spectrum. But also concent and comfortability being the biggest thing that would help in such situations. I remember admitting I've given up on attempting this myself with making content with a women but at one point I actually almost did. but a friend *or lack there of I should say, you choose* convinced me not to and used agism as a crux. Just because someone is 35 doesn't mean their not worthy, I literally just saw something similar a few days ago on twitter where some snot nose 20 year old cut ties with a friend of mine because he's in his 30's and while I don't know if they we're male or female it's still fucked up. Don't use agism to justify not communicating with someone and because of this I honestly felt like shit. Because thanks to this so called friend I actually legitimately felt bad about the situation. Had I not listen to them me and that person may have actually made content together maybe, but we'll never know.
On the flip side consent is also key, this is the most important thing literally ever in world history and it's also why this one person is permanently banned from my room parties. At NYFB this year I hosted a mursuit party and this guy shows up and he's looking for someone to play around with and in the bedroom it's me two girls and a guy and him. Now I understand not getting any attention as much as the next guy but this shit... this shit ridiculous. So in the middle of foreplay I notice one girl at my party servicing another guy that part is fine, but can someone tell me why this other guy is trying to get her attention where she's already playing with someone else. Now you think it stops there, but it gets worse.so so much worse. This same guy to cool him down I try to service him because ya know it's my party and I want everyone relaxed and comfortable because everyone here is trying to get their thang on b4 the new year. he tells me THE HOST to back off because he's not interested.
And I'm like know what ok cool that's fine concent is keys and everything and I value as much so I move to the other side of the room to service one of my other friends. Why did I do that, because not even 5 minutes or so later the same women that was giving him 0 attention because she was busy with another guy caused him to for whatever reason violently bang his head against the wall in I guess rage or jealousy or something I dunno but it bought my party to a stand still full stop. At this point I have every right to kick the guy out because the girl was too busy for him so basically that's a nope lol and "No" should be respected is how I felt at the time but also this psycho just bashed his skull multiple times against my wall. A wall that I might have to pay for if it got damaged which luckily it didn't. but in the end the other attendees just walked him to the living room and tried to make sure he was ok before we continued with what ever murry purry stuff we we're doing b4 whatever that was. So yeah concent, that's important and if someone says no move on to someone else, you don't bash your skull in the wall because now he's banned and I don't wanna see him at any future party I throw like at all.
So why did I tell you these two stories? because agism, sexism and concent play a big role in women wanting to make mursuit content and what you just read is all the wrong ways to get it done. just show respect and maybe luck will come your way yet one day. Ya gotta remember and I shouldn't tell grown ass cis men this but it seems like I have to. The cis women community of the furry fandom are people, not objects treat the like people. cis gay men you can kinda do whatever. It's pretty much accepted that cis gay men are chew toys in the furry fandom so treat them however you want, but women aren't about that life and deserve more tlc than that so that one day if comfortable enough they'll make mursuit content and all in the mursuit side of the fandom will be balanced because as I said in the previous journal the mursuit scene is basically dominated at leas 95% to 5% male and gay content to women content in the mursuiting community and it's time for a change of some sort. Anywho thank yall for reading this journal I hope it sheds light on why these needed to be created and hopefully we can speak on a better topic in the next journal
(nsfw) The Furry Fandom is Kinda Sad
Posted 2 years agoI've been in the fandom some over 12 years now and after what I just discovered today proves how sad the fandom is. Now b4 I continue this is an nsfw journal also the subjects in this journal are used with respect and are not seen as objects so please don't look at it any other way. That said I just joined the nsfw AnthroCon chat right, and we're all here posting our gay content right and planning to make newer content at AnthroCon possibly. I already know some friends of mine wanna make content with me so hopefully I'm able to link up with them and it's not a wash like the last few times I went. However all I did was ask a simple question " Do you guys think there's a straight AnthroCon or Straight Furs chat?" Of course with no other purpose but to make content. At first all I hear is crickets, then people began to respond "good luck", "Not that I know of" and my all time favorite "There's straight furs in the fandom?"
Ok so let's begin where things really got off the rails. I'm under the impression there is a 50/50 cis male cis female algorithm with the trans community in there somewhere because respectfully they count too. However after being shown a map of all the identifing cis male, cis female, trans males and trans females in the fandom I learned there's a lower amount of cis women in the fandom than I thought. Worse off one person told me "And this is why women don't make nsfw content, why would you throw yourselves like a fish to the sharks knowing full well their gonna bite" So basically we're better off with only gay men doing nsfw content right?
I have stayed quiet about this specific for a long time in fear of being cancelled but my gloves are off with this journal. Never was able to come up with the right things to say and I probably never wiil. but here's my opinion on cis women, the furry fandom and the nsfw mursuit content or lack there of. I honestly think there are women who make or want to make content in the fandom. but outside the fandom it's heterosexual dominated and in side the fandom it's gay male/trans dominated. So if you're cis women you're a minority and if you're lesbian double minority in a fandom... lets face it... run by men unfortunately or fortunately however you slice it.
Now there are cis women in the fandom. Out side of sex/mursuting there's women everywhere 70% of the women in the community are artists. So if this is the case why so little mursuit content? "Women are afraid of being seen as unclean or sluts in the fandom" that's valid point, but how bout y'all not judge people... "but girls be icky in general" Well then how bout you shut the fuck up. Look if you're gay cool, you like what you like, but don't berate people of the opposite sex. A part of me feels *and I'm being brutally honest* A bunch of people looking for pussy can't get pussy because they dont know how to talk to women, hell I don't even know how to talk to women if my intention is to get in bed "well maybe if you stop objectifying" Aint no body here objectifying, we're just keepin it real, don't use heterosexual monogamous stereotypes to invalidate peopel's feelings, because this shit is too real. It's what lead me to depression, so shut the hell up and listen. I love and respect women even if some people out in the universe think otherwise, but if you wanna make content it's call ask, talk about wanting to do things with said cis women and if she's down for it then there you go.
This fandom may be male dominated but just keep the faith. Unfortunately it's too late for me I've given up, I haven't have any luck trying to score with a women since high school junior year and honestly I've given up. If someone out there approached me and asked to make content of cis female decent Or wanna to play around in general without a camera I'd proudly say yes, but also we live in a climate where #metoo is running rampant and women can lie about concent, take that shit back and say you did things to them and get you cancelled which is one of my biggest fears and is why I have been ever so hesitant on wanting to be with another women in that way. This is a valid fear, but unlike me I hope you all can do better. to my cis males of the fandom if you're bisexual or straight please by all means try to actually talk to women especially if it's about that, and don't be shy. If she's not interested then find someone else because concent is key in these situations. To the cis women of the fandom don't let people judge you. Be yourself and if you're a mursuiter by all means do that stuff and ignore what people think about what your do. I can't stress this enough how important women are to our fandom ie trans, cis or otherwise. This is not a means to getting someones rocks off, this is about self-expression and we need more of that especially from our female members. So that said please take care of yourselves and please support the women of the furry fandom as they've done alot for us so we should support them
Ok so let's begin where things really got off the rails. I'm under the impression there is a 50/50 cis male cis female algorithm with the trans community in there somewhere because respectfully they count too. However after being shown a map of all the identifing cis male, cis female, trans males and trans females in the fandom I learned there's a lower amount of cis women in the fandom than I thought. Worse off one person told me "And this is why women don't make nsfw content, why would you throw yourselves like a fish to the sharks knowing full well their gonna bite" So basically we're better off with only gay men doing nsfw content right?
I have stayed quiet about this specific for a long time in fear of being cancelled but my gloves are off with this journal. Never was able to come up with the right things to say and I probably never wiil. but here's my opinion on cis women, the furry fandom and the nsfw mursuit content or lack there of. I honestly think there are women who make or want to make content in the fandom. but outside the fandom it's heterosexual dominated and in side the fandom it's gay male/trans dominated. So if you're cis women you're a minority and if you're lesbian double minority in a fandom... lets face it... run by men unfortunately or fortunately however you slice it.
Now there are cis women in the fandom. Out side of sex/mursuting there's women everywhere 70% of the women in the community are artists. So if this is the case why so little mursuit content? "Women are afraid of being seen as unclean or sluts in the fandom" that's valid point, but how bout y'all not judge people... "but girls be icky in general" Well then how bout you shut the fuck up. Look if you're gay cool, you like what you like, but don't berate people of the opposite sex. A part of me feels *and I'm being brutally honest* A bunch of people looking for pussy can't get pussy because they dont know how to talk to women, hell I don't even know how to talk to women if my intention is to get in bed "well maybe if you stop objectifying" Aint no body here objectifying, we're just keepin it real, don't use heterosexual monogamous stereotypes to invalidate peopel's feelings, because this shit is too real. It's what lead me to depression, so shut the hell up and listen. I love and respect women even if some people out in the universe think otherwise, but if you wanna make content it's call ask, talk about wanting to do things with said cis women and if she's down for it then there you go.
This fandom may be male dominated but just keep the faith. Unfortunately it's too late for me I've given up, I haven't have any luck trying to score with a women since high school junior year and honestly I've given up. If someone out there approached me and asked to make content of cis female decent Or wanna to play around in general without a camera I'd proudly say yes, but also we live in a climate where #metoo is running rampant and women can lie about concent, take that shit back and say you did things to them and get you cancelled which is one of my biggest fears and is why I have been ever so hesitant on wanting to be with another women in that way. This is a valid fear, but unlike me I hope you all can do better. to my cis males of the fandom if you're bisexual or straight please by all means try to actually talk to women especially if it's about that, and don't be shy. If she's not interested then find someone else because concent is key in these situations. To the cis women of the fandom don't let people judge you. Be yourself and if you're a mursuiter by all means do that stuff and ignore what people think about what your do. I can't stress this enough how important women are to our fandom ie trans, cis or otherwise. This is not a means to getting someones rocks off, this is about self-expression and we need more of that especially from our female members. So that said please take care of yourselves and please support the women of the furry fandom as they've done alot for us so we should support them
