I was looking over some old journals reading them and inspired myshelf to lose weight agian. I tried 2 other times last year, but didn't have the movation. This time around, I'm feeling the loneliness agian which got me motivated last time, 2 years ago. This time around I'm using non furry dating sites to find someone, I think I'll have a better chance this time. Also I think I'm out of a job agian, havn't heard from my boss in a week, not to big of a deal since I hated it. I'll play it by hear this week! If I hear nothing back, I'll see about a Part time job I heard about and maybe do those comissions I talked about back then. Anyway since it was kind of fun reading my Jounrnal from back then, maybe I'll post my progress agian. ironically I'm starting out at the same as last time 217-218 at my worst, but lost that weight at work so I'm starting at 213 agian...what are the odds of the same weights? I was 183 around july 2012, I want to beat that so bad, I know I couldn't stay at it, but still would be cool.

Yep its been a year again since I been here, nothing exiting to report. I have a job for the moment, still working on the self employment (if hobby farming counts then I'm self employed already XD). Seems when ever I'm a tad sad I end up here for some reason, first time in a long time, no mate blues I guess. Anyways I may or may not do some art, I can't make promises.

Not much to update on, just trying to get back into drawing again and working on my Summer exercise routine. I have to beat my weight from last year of 183lb.

I will now be taking commissions mostly cause I'm desperate, I was wrongfully fired because I refused to do something illegal. Me and a friend are going to try and go into business for ourselves, but now we wont have the money to work on the Truck I bought for the business. I hope commissions (and a few odd jobs) will get some income to help fix up the truck and to live off till I either get another job or till this truck is operational. If anyone could help spread the word I'd greatly appreciate it. I'll give someone a chance of winning free art by adding this request to there journals. I'll pick a random winner Monday just post a link in this journal to your journal submission.



Prices?
I have no clue what to charge, I've always just done Trades and request. I'll draw nearly anything, but here are a few I prob wont or just not skilled enough for it (keep in mind I have nothing against any of the stuff I list, just prefer not to draw).

:Inflation
:Extreme gore (I'll draw gore just some exceptions, just message me for more info)
:Vore
:cubs
:diaper
:over proportionated characters

Yep likely me and my friend are going to get fired tomorrow...because we refuse to do something that is illegal, we've been doing it (in protest) but at the time we only knew it wasn't suppose to be done, but now we know its actually illegal and refuse completely. Were afraid if they get caught they will blame it on us..which they already did once by saying it was the new guys. They were warned that theywould have their licenses striped the 2nd time it happen. We have some evidence, but not sure if its enough, if we get fired were not sure if we should do something about it or just leave it. It makes our plans tougher because if you saw my last Journal we were planing to go into business for ourselves...well I bought the truck we need a week ago, but it will take $2000 or more to fix up so no clue how we will do that if we get fired. If I get fired I reckon I'm going to try to do commissions to raise some money since I'll have a lot of Free time, jobs around here are near non existence.

My Vacation is here, so I want to try doing some art and finishing some. Keep in mind I'll prob have to do things around the house first :P

List
Needs Finishing:
Black German Shepherd Fursona (lines/color)
Sergal: Wait just a little longer: (color 20% done)
Pirate Shiva: (color lower on the list)
Yanna: update the lines/color very low on the list)
I Still have art I haven't done for 3 people as well.

Art I wish to do:
A female Deer (been wanting to draw a dear anthro for so long)
colleen from Road Rovers (something else I've wanted to draw for so long, loved that show)
My new Fursona as a Arrancar from Bleach
Draw some more Swat Dogz
a Different breeds of dogs (I keep drawing the same breeds over and over German Shepherds, wolves and huskies.
A horse anthro maybe

WOW Ok I nearly forgot about this...a repressed memory! It happened back during the summer I thought for sure we were going to get fired for this. We got the Work truck Buried...not stuck but buried it was just on the edge of flipping over which wouldn't be good with the contents that the truck holds. I was looking for trucks to buy or convert to start our own business and I came across a pic the home owner took...luckily they understood shit happens and didn't get mad. Anyway I found the picture of the truck and me and my best Friend/coworker in the background in shock thinking we were caned. The boss was so mad he didn't come out to look, which was good cause really we'd no doubt be fired, he knew we got it stuck but didn't know the truck was buried 4 feet. I'll share the pic with good friends..I don't want it posted anywhere else. Now that I look back on it I have a good laugh.

Since My last journal I've been working on art in my spare time. Me and my best friend are actually thinking about going into business for ourselves, were tired of working for others when we could be making the money for us instead of going from paycheck to paycheck and having bosses. It will be hard (not to mention if the boss found out he'd prob fire us) it will take even more time then just working full time, where already looking into equipment. However if we succeed... who knows maybe I'll be in the middle-class bracket making my own hours allowing me to have all the time to do art that I want...one can dream! I wont say what our plans are atm since I don't wont to jump ahead of myself, maybe once and if it happens I'll update it here.

I guess its been a While since I've been here, how I miss drawing furry art. Lets see I still have my job, though winter is slow and the boss is complaining about cost, but I'm not as worried as I use to be. I succeeded my Goal for weight loss, but unfortunately some events happened and I gained the weight back. These events didn't really get me depressed just made me lose focus/stop caring, I was at 183lbs the lowest I've ever been even in high school, 193lbs being my previous record 09. 185lbs was my ultimate goal so I beat that, However I'm ashamed to say I'm back up to 200 lbs...at least I beat my goal and that I know I can do it.

I'm trying to get a weekend job and planing on maybe working all holidays cause of my new goal, there is some land I want 23 acres in the country with a large creek running through it (sounds like Paradise to me). I've been trying to volunteer for a local police volunteer unit, (contacted them twice now with no return call.. bastards) I'm hoping this will open some doors to a police job. Truth be told I prob wont be around much at all, I know working all the time is no life but the thing is I've slacked off 8 years of my life which has gotten me know where. I do really miss drawing though, when I'm doing art my perfectness comes out and it always has a flaw or inst good enough. Now that I've been away from it and I come back to look at it.. I can see how much I've improved over the years and I'm impressed. Just wish I had the unlimited time to keep doing it, I feel I could be one of the best years down the road. I'm split between the real life and the furry life :P I don't feel I have the time or energy to focus on both.

Yep I'm still alive ^^ just working so not much time to do art :(

Woot 2 checks today $915, off all next week and tomorrow is an easy half day...love my job, other then some stupid stuff like today still gotta love it though. Plan on trying to have the most fun I can this vacation, plan to have grill party the 4th and try to keep myself on the go the rest maybe fishing, hiking and what not, just wish I had someone to go out of state with to somewhere.

Off Note Rant: this is why I'm losing a lot of patients for the US, yesterday we wrere at a job and we measured a cement slab top so we can get the company to make them a new one. We asked them for some plywood to cover it, but they didn't have any so we left it uncovered cause it was broke and confirmed if it was alright because covering it back is dangerous. Well they called today and wanted us to cover the broken top up, lets see this pisses me off cause 1. We have a full work load. 2. Covering it back up is stupid, because we have to uncover it again and most of all it being dangerous, if someone steps on it there going to fall 5 feet into a tank. 3. finally and what mostly pisses me off, the hole is only 4 inches deep and 26x26 inches wide seriously your too ******* lazy to cover it yourself and want us to drive out there on a busy schedule to do something that only took 2 mins, the guy even said he didn't have a job so he should have plenty of free time to cover a hole.......

Lets see time for an update, I try not to let work get me down any more, the boss was yelling at us the other day for something we didn't do and some soda cans I left in the work truck, but I kind of just laughed about it and went about my work. I'll be getting a tattoo soon, half sleeve tribal wolf and my artist logo, I'll post a pic of the design I came up with tomorrow.

Still working on losing weight I'm around 195-197 (varies each day between those numbers) 193 Is still my goal, since back in 2009 that was my lowest. 185 is my ultimate goal before next year (was my new years resolution). Planing on starting to paintball again just not sure if I want to wait till cooler whether (had a mild heatstroke playing once this time of year). I need to quit sodas again, ahh the one thing I'm addicted too (well that and the computer apparently :P).

I have the 30th-8th off of work, paid vacation too Yay and hooray! Maybe just maybe I'll get some art done, well unless my little nephew comes over then I'll hang out with him fishing, video games and what not.

Sigh.. as much as I'm glad to have a job I can't seem to get free time/relaxation. We've been so busy lately and its different now ever since the guy I was working with died, I'm pretty much the one in charge of our job. This means I have to take flak/make decisions (work was once pretty relaxing believe it or not) and they've been making us do some unsavory/disagreeable things. They give us a full list of things to do, but put time limits on us so we've been having to cut corners. I really don't like doing that, but I need the job..... I also don't seem to get peace at home anymore, family bug/drive me crazy after work and especially on weekends, I like having a little alone time. Anyways this is not completely a vent its just in case you wondered why I haven't been on and haven't worked on art lately. I needs a weeks vaction to somewhere not here. Over and out!

I ordered my Art Tablet, ETA is the 15th and I'm super excited!!!!.. having one that you can draw directly on is awesome, can't wait!

Other stuff~
Going to try and get paypal..keep forgetting to ask about it when I go to the bank. lately I also been wanting to do some couples art so..bad! hmmm what else..ahh yes my comp has a virus so I've been dealing with that lately (actually using an old hard drive now since my other is corrupted) so that has slowed down my art a lot.

Getting me a new Art Tablet, its the kind you can draw directly on screen. Been wanting one for so long, but their not cheap! 3 more pay checks... I could buy it now, but I need to be patient as I'm saving up a 5k emergency fund separate to my savings, I like to be prepared. Can't wait, doubt it will make me a better artist (should speed things up though) but...drools...

Yay Good luck for a change. Things picked up a little at work so I'm working again, if I work the next 3 working days I should get a hell of a lot of over time =...lots of ca-ching. I was told I should get most of my tax money back, which is worth quite a bit. I got a $5 dollar tip (ok $5 inst much but its 5 more then I had :P) being tired as hell from very little sleep and working long hours...I spontaneously decided to go fishing, only caught 1 fish, I noticed some litter on the ground and thought to myself damn littler bugs...looked closer and it was a $20 bill I was like hell yeah..picked it up and it was 2 $20 bills! (I love this kind of litter!) Just hope my luck holds out!

Working on all the art I owe, prob wont be accepting anymore request. May try to get another checking account then start doing commissions and have some free art contest as promotions.

A friend and coworker died this week, it has really stressed me out I've teared up all week but held it back. Finally broke down today at the graveside balled out crying on the my barber/preacher kind of embarrassing, but least I wasn't the only one the boss, half the coworkers, very few dry eyes there I think that tells a lot about the guy, he was a really good guy and made friends every where he went. I've been pretty happy for a while now working with him was fun and stress free (says something considering the job we do) the new guy doesn't help cause he stresses me out a little. Now I'm back down there where I was before depressed about all the previous stuff and the ever looming threat of losing my job.. my usefulness is about at its end.



Going to maybe be working on art a little, takes so much concentration that hopefully it will keep my mind busy.

Can't wait for spring I'm just so bored on the weekends now no clue why, I was doing some art... it held my interest for a few hours but It just takes to long for me to finish a piece. Need to find a part time job on the weekends, 2 jobs seems like a lot of work, but least I'll be doing something productive instead of staring at my comp.

Had lots of bad luck and mishaps/mistakes today, this morning I told the guy I work with I'm having a bad day and he said its all in my head..as the day went on he said damn you really are having a bad day. Shit just kept happing, it ended with a me nearly getting hurt and my leg covered in sewage. Tried to keep positive but its really hard when it just keeps happing and I had been in such a relativity good mood as of late.

Yep bored, not enough time to do art cause I'm working Full time/over time but I love my job (well the pay/other employees anyway ^^) tiring though it be. Only thing I want to do is rest, tv or internet when I get home (weekends too) but it gets boring and then the only thing I want to do is work more to keep my mind going. Money is spoiling me not sure if its good or bad, seems like I don't want to do anything else cause I'm not making money doing it. Least I haven't been depressed..still I'm messing one more thing to be even happier. Anyways hope everyone had a good Holiday (late I know :P)

Came back from work today where I, the other employees and boss were drinking, straight vodka and beer. I got quite buzzed (rare for me to get drunk last time was like 3-4 years ago) I'm a happy drunk, we have another party Thursday (I love my job XD) then I'm off 23-1 of Jan so...hopefully just maybe ...I dunno but I may do some art ^^ or not we will see :P

That be all nothing interesting as of late that I can recall, I still have a hint of alcohol in my system so my memory is a tad fuzzy atm.

I'm still alive, haven't posted any new journals, can't believe its been a month already!...not long after my last Journal (the next working day after that weekend) I started working with the person I was originally sent to help, things have been a lot better and I don't mind working there now. The guy is nice/crazy, doesn't rush me and good enough type person (half the time he tells me to half ass it, kind of hate doing that but he is my boss...), he also will actually park somewhere and stay there for 20-40 mins and take a nap (twice in 1 day some times lol), which it actually kind of gets on my nerves cause I'd like to get the stuff down... but hey I get paid by the hour lol :P. Down side of course being I still come home sore/tired and little too no time to do art. Upside is the money I've made in this short while is great, loads more then my old job, also I'm getting pretty damn buff XD. Every day I have to lift/dig stuff, some days I have a bit lighter stuff and little digging while other days I have to dig my ass off or work with multiple things that are about as heavy as me or heaver.


Overall I had a pretty good month, its nice having a job even though I don't know for how long. I bought a boat and a PS3/games with some of the money and put the rest in my savings. I caught a 23 1/2 inch bass Sunday (pics in scraps) all other things are still the same unfortunately so heres hoping for some more good luck! I'll have 4 days off next week so I hope to maybe get some art done.

3rd day at work and their killing me, each day is worst then the last, tomorrow wont be an exception since I have just as much work if not more. Honesty wouldn't be quite that bad, but I have to work with the boss and he is nothing but rush, rush time is money. I come home sore as hell, lifting lots of heavy concrete slabs/tops (any where between 80-180 pounds) among other stuff, I don't even want to think of the germs and diseases I'm encountering on this job. I'd quit but I don't want to make my uncle look bad since he put a word in for me and I need the money... but I'll damn well be glad when its over!

Today was my first day of work, Hard/dangerous work. I'm crazy tired/sore, but on the bright side I'm making $12.50 an hour which is pretty good for this area and considering I'm just a temp :P

Status on art is unknown atm, but I have Fri (less they need me), Sat and Sunday off this week so I'll try to get some done (if I'm in the mood).