http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5259913/

this is nuts, go look at it, it's seriously for real!

My master got me a shiny new engagement ring today! It's about two years overdue lol. We finally decided that it was long past due, money or no money and scraped enough together. I'm soooo happy! Oh and he has a matching one which makes an even happier kitty. *purrs*

Dear Zoloft: I hope that you start doing something to relieve my anxiety and stress soon, because this making me constantly groggy, and making me sleep for 11 hours and STILL not be able to drag my fuzzy tail out of bed without serious effort is simply unacceptable. I'm taking you for anxiety, not in order to be too tired and sleepy to accomplish anything. Please to stop this shit and start making me feel more normal K Thnx

Dear Xanax: You have no complaints with. In fact, you are amazing. I took you for the first time last night, and for a blissful 4 or 5 hours NOTHING could go wrong. I flat forgot why I was panicking, in fact all the things that were worrying me somehow magical became totally inaccessible to my conscious brain. Thank you for being so awesome. In fact the only way you could be more awesome is if you weren't addictive and a controlled substance and limited to 10 of you a month.

Dear Flexeril: You also are awesome, not only do you stop the constant evil pain in my back, but since you are somewhat sedating you have the side effect of making me feel less stressed. Thank you for existing, I only wish I'd found out about you years and years ago.

I met the man that would become my Master, my fiancee, and one of my best friends. it's been a long road, up and down, but I love him with all my heart. I never belived in love at first sight, but thinking back to two years ago, that's exactly what it was. From the moment I met him I didn't want to be away from him, he was all I could think about, and in a very short time he became my life and my world. He's autistic, and it's not always easy being with him, sometimes his temper gets the better of him, sometimes he doesn't understand why I'm crying or depressed, but I wouldn't trade him for anyone in the world. Love isn't always a easy road, but when it's real love, it's worth it all. I hope we spend many more years together, and I hope our love only gets stronger. I've been looking for him for lifetimes upon lifetimes, and I'm not about to lose him again.

I love you, Master, fiancee, lover, my everything.

I thought you'd need me"

I updated the journal I posted about our kitty Ginger, but I'm not sure that anyone is seeing it, so if you want to know what's going on, go back here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3246060/ and look at the bottom.

he's doing much better but we're now in a really tight spot financially because of what I had to do to save the poor little guy.... details at the aforementioned journal.

I hate asking for help, but here's the situation... one of my beloved cats, Ginger, somehow found and swallowed some thread. We spent our last 300 dollars last night to take him to an emergency vet, only to find out that all they could do was cut it loose where it was wrapped around his tongue, give him fluids and recommend surgery. As it stands the thread is going through his entire digestive system, it was wrapped around his tongue, and it's sticking out of his butt too.... His intestines are bunched up, and the vet said he only has a tiny chance without surgery....The vet we went to wanted up to 2,000 dollars to do the surgery, but we've been calling every vet within a days drive. we started at 8 AM when they started opening, and we're still calling. so far all we can get is that we should apply for Care Credit, which of course everyone in the house is denied for, and one clinic about 70 miles away that will do the surgery for a amazingly low cost of 400 dollars. Problem is, we don't have 400 dollars...we can make the drive to get him to the clinic, but that's about it. So please...if anyone has a soft spot for a kitty...he's only about a year old..he doesn't deserve this....and I can't get help from anyone..my mom disowned me, and every other relative we have is as broke as we are and/or simply doesn't care about animals. Please help Ginger... if I can just raise the 400 we can get him in surgery and save his life....

my paypal is qisha.s.entarae[at]gmail.com though if anyone wants to donate and has a better idea how to get it to me that would be good too, because paypal takes ages to get the money out....

the short of that all is, I need 400 dollars to save my cat's life...will anyone help? please?...

*goes off to sit with him and hold him and pray while Blue makes more calls*


UPDATE 3-8 11 PM

ok, so we got him in, we managed to convince the vet that wanted 400 dollars for the operation to do it for 200 upfront and 200 later. the trouble here is that we had to take take the 200 out of our rent fund, leaving us to somehow recoup that in time for next month's (april) rent and have no idea where we're gonna get the other 200, which the vet wants to have in about 2 weeks. but at least Ginger is safe now, as far as I can tell. He's been eating a small amount, took his antibiotic drops, and hasn't thrown up. he's also acting more like his old self, walking around a bit, and rubbing against us when we pet him.

now we have to figure out how to recoup the 200 that we took from the rent fund and pay off the other half.. Anything helps, but I wanted to be honest about the situation, let you all know he's not in danger anymore. if anyone still wants to help that would be amazing, because I do have to find the 200 in time for april's rent, and another 200 to pay off the vet, so that we won't be on bad terms with him should another emergency ever arrive, as I'm pretty sure he's the only one in the area with decent prices and willing to work with people.

Thank you to everyone that reposted, and wished my little Ginger well, thank you to  aurianfae for helping out, and thank you in advance to anyone that helps out with getting us back on our financial feet after this crisis. I couldn't watch a sweet loveing innocent kitten sit and die....so when I found a way, I took it, now I just gotta fix the problems I caused by doing that.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3232619/


is a contest for a free collar :D

because they are booooreing tonight! I'm bored witless and the internets are not helping me. *blahs*

Also I really need to do a 2011 in review post...but it's depressing to think about so I shan't just yet.

*flops over and pokes her Master with her tail boredly*

that's all I need to say. *shakes head*

ok, so this is a desperate cry for help for my wonderful friend  scarskitsune. He has massively horrible migraines, or some sort of headache that emulates migraines. He has been in the ER so many times, and every time the Dr's send him away. Once he was told that his migraine was due to nausea and sent home to take pepto bismol. that is a utter load of crap. But he can't afford to pay for proper treatment, and no Dr will see him without the money, and even if they did, they certainly wouldn't give him the right treatment. Dr's are cheapskates when it comes to anyone that is poor.

these headaches are so crippling that he hasn't been able to work in, I think it's 2 years now. He can't keep a job, because he gets a migraine that lasts a week solid, and then they fire him for not being at work. He's tried everything to get any kind of help, and no one seems to care. I know for a fact he's not just making this up...I've talked to him when he's had one, and I can tell the difference... He's really honestly in deep trouble, and needs help.

he gets so scared...sometimes he'll contact me babbling near nonsense because the pain is so bad, and he can't think of anything but crazy ideas on how to stop it. He needs help so bad, and I can't help him.... I'm so poor right now myself, and dealing with a lot of real life problems as well. I'd do anything for him, but my paws are tied. And that's why I'm putting out this plea, anyone...if you can do ANYTHING to help this wonderful person  scarskitsune please, please do. I'm begging everyone here...if you can help him with any money, I know he'll save it for treatment... if you can talk to anyone, post a journal for him, if you can think of some crazy scheme to find him a way to get free treatment, some government plan that he hasn't found yet...please tell me, or tell him directly.

You can comment here, comment on this journal: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2404236/ note me, note him, anything you like.

Please..someone help Scars....I've watched these migraines take their toll on him...it's damaging his ability to think, his ability to type, his quality of life, everything... he needs help...and it's help I have no ability to give to him myself which is why I'm posting this...it's all I can do..... my very last and only option to get him the help he needs.....

If you've gotten this far, thank you for reading... Bear in mind, he needs to see more than just "oh it'll be ok" everyone says that, and no one does anything.... Condolences are all well and good, but he needs actions, something to help him beat this horrible thing that's happened to him.

I care deeply for him....and if you know him, or got to know him, you know what a wonderful person he is...he gives to everyone around him, without ever getting anything back. it's damn time that the universe finally gives something to him....

If you can't do anything else..please post a journal, and pray, or light a candle, or send out a call to the universe for him to get help...whatever your faith system dictates. if enough people start pulling for him to get help, Karma WILL come around....enough minds all thinking the same thing gets results.

Thank you for reading, and thank you in advance for any and everything you can do to help him...

I don't want a migraine...really I don't....go away migraine....go away... *curls up*

Master is home!!! *runs around happily and laughs* got in a bit late, but safe and sound, so this kitty will be feeling much better very soon! *dances happily*

There's someone in my past, someone that hurt me badly and several times...and recently, I've learned to forgive. I've come to a point in my life, where I'm experiencing things similar to what caused this person to hurt me, and now I understand what happened with this person, and I just wanted to say, publicly though anonymously... You know who you are, and I forgive you. I truly do. *smiles gently*

I hate asking for charity...I've done it a couple times, this will be the third one, and I don't like it one tiny bit... but me and my Master are in a pretty bad predicament. I'm in AZ where I've been living, and he's stuck in PA... There's a long story behind this, and I won't bore you with the details. Suffice it to say that a job out there fell through due to complete and total idiocy of a random human, my Master has a broken arm/hand, no money, and no way to come home to me. I'm broke as well, everything that's coming in here is going out to gas for work, food and bills. We need to raise around 400 dollars to get him home... I haven't been able to find a solution and neither has he. I'm going outright nuts without him...I can barely eat or sleep, I'm a ball of worry and stress all the time, and he's not much better...only a little oweing to him being the Master in all of this... I've been close to turning myself into a mental ward at least a dozen times already, and I'm getting really scared... I love him dearly....and I need him in my life, and we're struggling to find a way to get the money to get him home to me.

So I guess what I'm trying to say is...*looks down* I'm in a bad spot, and I could really use some help....I would offer art for money, but I can't draw to save my own life, which this situation is quickly coming to.  lostbutterfly13 is taking commisions to help me out, she's a great artist in my humble opinion, and the profits go to help me. I guess I'm just...asking for help. I don't know what else to do, I have nothing of value to sell, and no skills to market, and the job market in this town is shit. so please...if you can find it in your heart to help a kitty and her Master....I'll be forever in your debt. If you can't...please post a journal linking back to mine to spread the word....maybe there's some furs out there that can and are willing to help.... Thank you for even reading this...and thank you more if you're able to help us out....

Please note me if you can help, so we can figure out how to get the money to me in the most efficent way possible. Thank you again for even reading this.


(update) we managed to get the money, all that remains is for him to get on a bus and get out here, so if anyone was concerned, it's mostly all ok now, and I'll probly post a OMG HAPPY journal when he gets here :)

My computer has been broken for about 2 months now, and about a week ago I confirmed that it's not going to get fixed... I'm posting this from a friends' computer... I need about 220 to get a netbook, since my sanity is closely tied to my computer, and I can feel it slipping away. I haven't been able to chat much with anyone, or do much of anything, because my ONLY consistant acces to the internet at all is through my ipod.... If anyone can help out a bit...I'm trying to save up the 220 for a netbook, but it's not going so well since we just moved and my mate is just geting started at her new job... Anything helps...if you can spare a few dollars to help out a computer-less kitty... I can't draw to save my life, but I'll try to think of some way to reciprocate any and all kindness.... I just really really need to have a computer.....

any donations can go to my paypal: qisha.s.entarae[at]gmail.com Thanks in advance for any help....

so...since last I posted anything of note, a lot has happened....I don't even know where to begin anymore... I got both Aoui and Kyo moved down from CO, and got us all, mostly settled in at our new place of residence. But a lot happened in the 3 or so months since I said anything important....and I don't know how to explain it all. so I guess a list is as good as anything.


1: went to AZ to visit  lostbutterfly13 (hereafter refered to as T)
2: spent about a month with T, had lots of fun
3: Met D
4: Decided I really liked D
5: Became temporary pet of D
6: Left Master M's collar and took Master D's collar
7: Fetched Kyo from CO
8: Broke up with T for various and sundry reasons
9: Fetched Aoui from CO
10: Realized I missed being M's pet but didn't want to leave D, so broke own rule and accepted thier offer to share me as pet to them both.
11: Found out my computer is most likely broken so am stuck borrowing Master's for the forseeable future
12: wrote this journal post :P


I think I got that all in order, various amounts of time passed between each event....yeah, my life has been a little nuts lately. I hope to update more regularly...but I'm not holding my breath.....


Hope all out there in the great wide world of FA are doing well, talk to you all later.

so, if the buses will ever stop being paranoid about last night's snow storm, I'll be on the road home to CO with my Master (long story, post about THAT later) by 4 tomorrow morning. Going back to fetch Aoui and Kyo, and bring them back to AZ. Wish me all the luck in the world, so far it hasn't been going well...and I'll need more luck to get everything in order financially for the move.... anyway, I'll update later on, ttyl all

of me and  lostbutterfly13


me: (refering to the electric blanket) I turned on the bed..it'll be hot and ready for us!
her: *laughing hystericly* Hot moist bed....PUSSY BED!
me: O_O no....I'll sleep on the futon I swear :P


the things we get up to...*laughs uncontrolably and tries to go to bed...again*

for the record,  lostbutterfly13 is ADORABLE especially when she blushes from being told how adorable she is! *grins and kisses her*

[Edit] she's also incredibly cute!

in AZ. *dances happily* I'm here, and in one peice, but I had a massive bus driver fail on the way....

The first bus was ok, some mexican driver, but he did a great job and got us to the transfer station safetly. The next guy seemed great at first...made a nice announcement and all that stuff that they're supposed to do, but then about halfway there, he stopped at a bus stop thingy, and didn't say either way weather we could get off the bus or not, so a lot of people did, to have a smoke and such, and he ended up leaving 9 people behind. One guy was litteraly banging on the bus, and the driver still wouldn't stop. Then he went down the interstate a ways, and pulled a u-turn right in the middle, went right through the ditch in the middle... then he stopped at a weigh station for no apparent reason, went back adn got the 9 people he left behind, and then canceled our dinner stop...I was PISSED... Then he was all driving like a crazy person, nearly ran a stop sign, slammed on the brakes, and I swear he was speeding the rest of the way here... I was honesly scared for a while..but I got here in one peice, so that's good...

I've got internet for the time being, but I'm not sure how much I'll be on, or when, so if I go missing for a bit, that's why lol

anyway...that's my crazy adventure...yay greyhound -_-

I got bumped up to tomorrow, so I'll be heading out in about 7 hours. so if I'm missingish for a while, that's why. I'll be back though :D

it's after me again...I WAS sleeping, but then my dog made me lett him out, then back in 5 minutes later, and now i'm awake...I hate insomnia...I really really do *puffs on electronic cigarette and sighs* also have heartburn, for like the umpteenth time this week...

also, I'll be out of town for about 3 weeks, starting on Wed, so depending on if I have interent and what mood I'm in, i'll either be updateing like a maniac, or I'll be vanishing from FA compleatly for a while...either way, now you know! I'll be visiting  lostbutterfly13 and I'm sooooooo excited! *dances around* It's gonna be awesome and epic and fun and all sorts of other descriptive words!

Also...need to upload some arts I've gotten...if you drew something for me, and I haven't uploaded it, it's not cause I don't like it, promise, it's cause I've been distracted and lazy lately...I will get to it...