*Laying on my back* Wipe your feet!

Stop pretending to be my friend just to shut me out and never talk to me again. Everybody does this and I'm better off being alone than opening up fresh wounds because of you people. I'm not doing this anymore

And the entire world will know my name.

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Some of you need a real Ego Check and to respect your customers. I'm not saying you need to bend to their every will, but if these people are Paying you, you need to communicate with them in a respectful manner. You are not better than them, just because you can do art. You are a paid worker in these situations. If you want to deny a customer, that's your right, but once you agree to what they ask for, and they have paid you, do not go trying to hustle them into getting any less than what they pay for. Do not get bitchy with them when they are asking for updates. Do not take all year for something they paid you for. Once you're paid, it should be priority to get it done as soon as you're able to. (We all understand life happens, but communication is still very important) Don't bullshit them. Quit taking more orders than you can handle in a reasonable time. It is not your customer's fault that you're taking too many orders than you can handle. It is Your job to limit yourself and know what you can and cannot handle. Quit thinking about how much money you can get off of these people and learn to accept only limited slots at a time. Do Not Ignore Them And Wait Until You're Already Finished Months Later To Finally Contact Them! (Way too many do this and it's pretty close to criminal and wrong on so many levels) Also.. Quit trying to guilt trip people into giving you money. All of these "Emergencies" I see a bunch of you coming up with is beyond ridiculous. Get a real job and do this art on the side if you're not getting paid enough. Everyone else has to work for their living and you're no different. We're not cash cows. We are people who are willing to support you and should be treated with respect. I understand some customers need a reality check, but I'm not talking about them right now. I'm talking about those that agree to your terms and do everything by the book and some of you still treat them like a cash cow. I'm sick of seeing it and I damn sure wont allow it to happen to me. Besides all of that, a lot of you are outstanding people and I love you for it <3 Keep up the good work and I wish the best for you all

Okay so lets say you know of a chatroom where all of your friends are going, except for one. Male or Female, doesn't matter. This one friend, you don't hang out with them as often as the friends that visit this chatroom, but you still care about them. Now lets say the only reason this one friend doesn't go to this chatroom is because they were harassed for nudes constantly and basically ran out. You find out later the reason why they were asked for nudes is because they had breast cancer or testicular cancer. Due to this cancer, they had to have whatever body part removed and they were so insecure about it, they never showed or told anyone. The owners of this chatroom found out about it and both in personal messages and in the chatroom they have been constantly harassing for nudes, cracking jokes at them and causing them to feel ran out of that chatroom. You now have been shown proof of this information, but what do you do? Do you continue going to the chatroom? Keep in mind all of your friends are going and this one friend isn't someone you hang out with as much as the others

So this isn't set in stone, but it's basically an idea of what my character Rook's background is.

Rook was born a human and ran away from home as a child. When running away, he gets himself lost and runs into a lady who claims she'd help him. She tricks him and instead turns him into a feral wolf pup where he's forced to be her slave/pet. Being a feral wolf now, he can still talk like a person can, but he's stuck in this wolf form of his.
He eventually escapes and finds his way back home, only to find that his family doesn't recognize him at all and is now scared of him, refusing to even try to listen his pleas. He's immediately threatened with death and forced to run away again and having to live on his own as a wolf, struggling for survival. Having to learn how to hunt as a lone wolf and such.
Years down the road in his travels, he finds another mysterious figure (I kind of want to make this one into their own character, but don't know of his looks just yet), who promises they can give him a more normal life and a chance to see his family again, promising that he can have his human form once again. I haven't yet figured out how to make it happen, but he's tricked again and made so that he now has to share his body with that figure, a demon who later admits he can't survive long on his own without a host. Since Rook unknowingly agreed to becoming his host, he can somewhat shift back to human, but not fully. He can either be feral wolf. Anthro wolf or "Human" But still manages to have his wolf ears and tail as the curse from the witch still has a strong hold on him. It was never truly lifted. Another thing, the demon's blood now flowing through rook's veins can also grant him a much longer life span than before. He hardly ages a bit, seemingly staying the same age no matter how old he has gotten.
The drawback however is that the demon can fight to have full control of his body and it always seems to be a constant struggle to who is control. The demon or Rook. Once the demon is in control, the whites of his eyes change black, the color red, as well as his skin and fur growing darker. Having the demon's blood in him, Rook finds himself having darker thoughts constantly, even when he is in control of his body.
While the demon is in control, the demon isn't nearly as evil as he would be on his own, though he is still far from being a good guy. being bonded with Rook makes him have an unwanted sense of morality, making him feel he is now weak.
Rook's main mission is to find the witch, lift the curse so he can become human again and find a way to separate himself from the demon so he can finally return to his family after all these years.

Again this is all rough draft and if anyone has any suggestions or changes you feel would be better, then feel free to give ideas. All are welcome

So.. Yeah. I like being masochist sometimes, but it also kinda sucks.
I don't like that I get really turned on while at the same time being extremely jealous of the situation. And I get jealous easily. And it's not the fun cuckold thing. I don't enjoy seeing a crush of mine getting fucked or playing around with another, but it turns me on when it happens and it's so bad that I feel like if I don't masturbate that bone will never go away. It's like.. Angry masturbation ._. Weird. And I don't like it. Basically an example would be seeing my crush rub her foot on another guy's crotch (Yes. I have a foot fetish, in case you didn't know) and then I am overly jealous and more aroused than I'd normally get and then I need to masturbate somewhere else later. The thought will run in my head until I do. And then it's like "Why wont she do that kinda thing with me?" While masturbating hard. I usually end up orgasm quicker than I normally would too. Way quicker. Like Damn. Record breaking. It's borderline cuckolding fetish and I hate that trait more than anything. Mainly because I hate being jealous.
I don't like that I can be in an argument with someone I like and then get turned on during it. They are being completely hateful and it hurts me, yet I'm turned on. I can be mad as hell and at the same time, think "I wanna fuck you."
I don't like that regular sex does literally nothing for me. It's like I need pain in my life to even wanna fuck. But if I'm offered sex, then it's "Meh. We can try,I guess" And I end up bored as hell and usually finding it difficult to even keep a hard on unless they take up being dominant with me.
I don't like that I could be turned on by someone who hates me. Like... they could insult me all the time and I can even get mad about it, but for some reason, it also attracts me. (Not always, but a good majority of the time)
Basically, being a masochist can be really fun for me, but these things here make me not so much like being one. But to explain each paragraph more simply.
1. I do not have a cuckold fetish. Even if I do, I don't enjoy it. Even if I'm enjoying it sexually, I am not enjoying it mentally. I will get mad. I will get upset. I will hold it against you if you try to do this with me on purpose. (And yes. People have tried)
2. No. I do not try to get into arguments just so I can get off to it.
3. Nothing really so say for this one. Sorry n shit. Sex just doesn't turn me on like that.
4. If you hate me, be careful when you insult me. You could be turning me on and I just wont show it. Lol. This doesn't always happen, but it does happen often. And I just.. Don't mention it.

If I told a rough draft background story of my character, would anyone want to read it?