I'm 'calmer' now but I'm no less furious, anyway...

For details, see my previous journal, but if the news is anything to go by, Orange Face Dictator has announced a 100% tariff on imported drugs. Given how many are made overseas, this can and will cause problems.

So I'm going to say if any one reading this can, please, for fucks sake...

Get what you can before October 1st

Maybe it's bullshit, maybe not. A part of me dosen't want to take the chance but honestly, I don't even know if it's an option for anyone here. But I feels wrong for me to not say this, or at least try to.

Maybe it's over-reacting, I fucking hope so but given what the Nazi party has been up to...

We'll see where this sinking ship will fucking go this time...

Also, once again...

If anyone reading this voted for Trump and is (somehow) still watching...there are two of several options...

If you legit regret it for reasons besides whatever you wanted, and are trying to atone...keep going.

If you voted for him and you regret nothing, or still think he was the right decision...

GET

OUT

Or not...do whatever the fuck you want

I had been wondering if I would write anything regarding Charlie Kirk but I wasn't entirely what to say. Other than he was a terrible person. I can't say he deserved to die, or that his demise was karmic, but he was far from innocent or blameless.

But now we have this shit...

https://bsky.app/profile/paleofutur...../3lzp3yoyfuc22

https://www.reuters.com/sustainabil.....-1-2025-09-25/

There's a lot I could say...I doubt it'll be anything clear and calm.

So I'm going to fucking repeat what I've been saying for a while.

So, if you voted for Trump, but you regret it.

Fucking prove it. Try and do things to show you're regret and remorse. Otherwise...if you voted for him and you're watching me.

GET

THE

FUCK

OUT

OF

HERE

There's the

FUCKING DOOR!!

Or just stay...do whatever the fuck you want.

If anyone here is sick and fucking tired of me just screaming...

SO AM I

But until things change... IF THEY FUCKING DO...

If you're very sick and tired of me telling anyone who follow me, who voted for Trump... to

GET THE FUCK OUT

...as stated before. So I am.

I wish I could rant about something else and maybe I will.

Not today.

I'd show some art but life has been...not ideal. I'd go into details but no, not today.

For now no words can put across well just how much contempt I have for those who voted for Trump for any reason. Be it them somehow thinking things will be better compared to say, the Democrats. Or those who voted out the Democrats for the Nazi party to punish them, either not realizing or not caring that doing so rolls out the red carpet for the Nazi party.

Also those who decided to not vote because 'B0th S1d3s' or I'm n0T V0T1nG F0R T3H l3sS3r of Two Evils!"...you've played a part, even if you insist you didn't.

Maybe I'll speak about something else...

Not fucking today.

I never had much 'pride' in this country but this regime is going to leave damage that will take at best decades to even TRY to address.

I wanna fucking throw up..

So...anyone here who voted for Trump who's watching me?...once again...and for a long time...

GET THE FUCK OUT

Fuck Trump

Fuck the Regime

Fuck the people who voted for him and such

and dare I say FUCK Conservatism, namely that of the American kind

It's 'funny' how the current regime is doing the very things they claimed another party would do. But I guess every accusation and claim is a confession.

I don't even know where to start with those who refused to vote for all kinds of reasons, especially those who didn't vote or voted against the democrats to 'punish' them.

Except doing that rolled the red carpet for the Nazis.

If you think I'm out of line to call them Nazi's...have you've seen what they've been up to?

I could keep going but besides how I have zero fucking spoons left, I'll just ramble more.

Also once again, if you voted for the current regime, I politely ask you to

GET THE FUCK OUT

Don't make me regret leaving comments open. A lot of yelling, a lot of complains, and also

Fuck Donald Trump.

I'm still breathing, I'm still here (barely), and I'm still mad as hell.

If anyone here is sick and tired of me saying among other things, that any one here who voted for Trump, is to fucking leave now?

So am I.

A lot of us may...WILL... lose our health care coverage, and I ‘thank’ all those who voted for Trump. You can complain to me all day about how the Democrats were not good enough or far worse…

I’m not a fan of the Democrats but you all fucking saw how that piece of shit and his regime ran things, and you thought 4 years would be enough to UNFUCK what that regime did? (that being the GOP...at this point I'm calling them the Nazi party because a spade is a fucking spade)

Those who voted for the GOP or 3rd party as a means to punish the Democrats? All you did was roll the out red carpet to the Nazi party.

To those who say your vote doesn't matter, you’re wrong, it did matter, and it still might do IF we get a fucking chance some 2026 and 2028.

If voting meant fuck all, why are there efforts to render it null and void?

And for those who didn’t vote?

There's a few lines from the Youtube Channel Dark Brandon, specifically the video 'Hard Truths: When You Have to Eat Your Friend’s Face'.

I have some doubts about the channel, namely if they're using AI for anything or not...but there's a part from there...

“Funny you could spend your entire life fighting for the little guy standing up to bullies and believing in fairness only to throw it away by sitting out the one thing that actually gives a little guy a voice, voting.

Steve Wozniak a guy who gets it on so many levels, decided decades that democracy wasn't real, so he just stopped participating and hey I get it, when you see how corrupt dysfunctional and downright stupid politics can be it's tempting to check out.

But here's the thing; the bullies? they never check out. The people with money, power, and the worst intentions? They never sit on the sidelines, and when good people refuse to play the game, the bad ones win by default.

Not voting as some noble stand against the system? It’s just handing power to the people who will absolutely use it against you.

So yeah. Wozinak might have built the personal computer, but in the fight to keep democracy functional, he basically unplugged.

Well? The moral of the story? If you don’t vote, don’t be surprised when the world gets run by the worst people imaginable. Because while you were waiting for the perfect system, they were busy rigging the broken one in their favor.”

I’d love to debate and discuss things but besides how I’m out of fucking spoons, I also question if what I’m ranting into the void, will actually even give someone a spark to maybe sway away from Maga myself. And to those who felt like punishing people they saw lower than them?

This from ‘Walking in the snow’ by Run the Jewels…

Funny fact about a cage,
they're never built for just one group
So when that cage is done with them
and you're still poor, it come for you
The newest lowest on the totem,
well golly gee, you have been used
You helped to fuel the death machine
that down the line will kill you too (oops)

So I close out by saying this again;

If you voted for Trump or did any of the above, you legit regret it and you want to change.

prove it

At the absolute fucking least, to vote for someone other than the Nazi party.

For those you voted for Trump, and you’re not sorry.

GET THE FUCK OUT

Edit: There are too many people I feel sorry for that I'll fail to cover here, so for now I'll name one.

It's those stuck in deep red states who didn't vote for the Nazi party, who may be on their way to suffer the worst out of all this shit, and I wish I could fucking send money to every one to help them.

They didn't deserve this, among too many others.

As I said a few months ago, if anyone who's been watching me voted for Donald Trump..

GET OUT.

I'm still furious about this and I'm not going to be not furious for 20 years at a minimal.. Are you happy with what's been going on?

Are you okay with any and all of it?

Have the leopards eaten your face yet?

Do you even care?

I'm sorry if I can't write anything more upbeat but as of November 6th 2024 I've found little reason to not be angry.

Once more, if you did, Go away.

Fuck off.

For anyone who thinks we'll 'just' get through this nightmarish 4 years as if it's no worse than the 1st Term...I mean besides the countless people who needlessly died, for some, they could care less about...

"When People say, 'we have made it through worse before.' by Clint Smith

"all I hear is the wind slapping against the gravestones
of those who did not make it, those who did not
survive to see the confetti fall from the sky, those who

did not live to watch the parade roll down the street.
I have grown accustomed to a lifetime of aphorisms
meant to assuage my fears, pithy sayings meant to

convey that everything ends up fine in the end. There is no
solace in rearranging language to make a different word
tell the same lie. Sometimes the moral arc of the universe

does not bend in a direction that will comfort us.
Sometimes it bends in ways we don’t expect & there are
people who fall off in the process. Please, dear reader,

do not say I am hopeless, I believe there is a better future
to fight for, I simply accept the possibility that I may not
live to see it. I have grown weary of telling myself lies

that I might one day begin to believe. We are not all left
standing after the war has ended. Some of us have
become ghosts by the time the dust has settled."

https://readwildness.com/19/smith-people

For anyone who voted for Trump, whom may regret that thing and Regime's actions now, if you actually regret your actions, then don't vote for the Nazi party or even a 3rd party or Abstain from voting.

If you however do any of the above, far as I'm concerned, you don't mean what you say.

You only got upset when you realized the leopard was going to eat your fucking face.

My mood with few exceptions for the last few days

STOP WATCHING ME.

GET OUT.

LEAVE.

Come back when your viewpoint changes and maybe IF you vote of someone else.

Otherwise, kindly FUCK OFF.

I should have said this months ago. I was too upset, I'm still upset. I'm doing it now.

CW: a lot of ranting and swearing, probably by a person who dosen't know the fuck he's/she/they're/shi's talking about

Even if there has and will be times I was past tense.

I've not given up hope entirely, but I am legit fucking terrified. I'm frustrated, I' m angry.

I hope the worst that pile of shit and his regime is curtailed but, I can't say I'm optimistic.

I've not been speaking too much on some things, not because I'm afraid to express them, so much as I'm too fucking burned out to even have a reasonable discussion. Not to mention I'm old enough to have lived through several Republican regimes so, I'm not exactly one to give the GOP the benefit of the doubt.

I'm not saying the Democratic party is perfect, fuck no. But not voting for them is letting the fuckers on the other major side win. You want a 3rd party? Maybe have one of the not-fascists parties be allowed to be in enough power to maybe get a fucking chance at actual change and after a long enough time, then fucking vote 3rd party.

But then again, maybe I really know fuck all about politics.

I might regret this journal later.

Right now I don't fucking care.

I just fucking hope there's a country worth fighting for by 2026 and 2028, I fucking hope people will come to their senses. I fucking hope the Democratic party will get their shit more together so this isn't a clusterfuck.

I hope those who voted for that shit stain will come to regret their decision and maybe vote anything other than the GOP.

I want to fucking hope. I'm very pessimistic, but I want to be FUCKING WRONG.

2020 gave me and Others hope, so did 2022. I never got complacent, But even then, I was terrified. It got vindicated and I want to throw up.

I'm going to do my fucking best to endure this shit...I want to live long enough for a prayer of a chance to change things.

But I'm also fearful for those who might not make it. I want them to. I fucking hope they do, I fucking hope I'm wrong in my fear they'll not make it.

But what in the fuck would I know? I'm American, by default, that makes me a fucking moron. Even if I voted for the Non-fascist party.

I was hoping next time I posted a journal, it would be at least neutral.

But I can't really stay quiet with a ruling by SCOTUS.

Just... Fuck the Supreme court.

I'm still ...breathing.

I know I've not been exactly active on updates, and I don't know if that'll ever change. But I felt at the least I should let others know I'm still breathing...for the time being.

I can't say I've been in a good spot, and I have no idea if that'll change.

So...yeah, still around...

I know I've not said much as of late, I can't say I've been in a great mental spot, I don't know if that'll change, but at the least, I'm still breathing, so there's that.

I don't know what else to say that hasn't already been said.

I'm not exactly known for being very upbeat, then again, to quote George Carlin, "inside every cynical person is a disappointed idealist", but I felt at the least, I should at least say I'm still breathing.

There isn't much else to say other than that.

All I will say is, I'm sick and tired of things going wrong.

That's it.

For now I'm only going to say, it'll take a while to figure how to use it.

...yay.

I'm not known for being a frequent poster as of late, but I'm updating to say, I'm still around. If I'll get to art is another story.

That's it. Till I either post something or another journal, which ever one comes first. And I'm aware it's a bit of grim humor for me to keep saying something like 'I haven't died yet', but it's how I sometimes deal with things.

If that's a good or bad thing has yet to be seen. I want to say this is a comeback but don't count on it. I'm simply posting to say I'm still drawing breath. Anything other than that...time will tell.

And there isn't much else to report for the time being.

Sometimes I wonder if I should even bother bringing this up...does anyone even come by here?

Then again this isn't pleasant, I don't like talking about stuff like this, and sometimes I feel like no amount of backlash, and people speaking up will change this.

Or maybe I'm being too cynical.

If you have no idea what I'm even remotely on about, long story short, the FCC, or specific Ajit Pai plans to have Title II Net Neutrality killed off just before thanksgiving this week.

Why is that even important?

I hate resorting to links to speak up for me but I feel like the link below will cover this better than I can.

https://www.battleforthenet.com/

That being said, I should warn you that there's some heavy crap incoming.

...I don't know what else to say right now ...I wanna be a positive person but ...it's hard with shit like this.

and ...not much else.

I want to talk or elaborate on things but for the time being, I feel like no body wants to hear it and fewer would even care. I simply want to state I still exist, and I'm sure that in itself is a problem (speaking yet having fuck all to actually say).

Whatever, sometimes I wonder why I even care to begin with. But I'm still here, and sincerely, to anyone who actually gives a fuck about this tallentless half-assed hack, thanks...because that's at least something while I try to build some kind of faith that isn't crushed in an instant.

I wish I could say more about some recent events, including the Earthquake(s) in Mexico, but I don't know what to really say or do that hasn't already been done to a million. *sighs*

For now I'm simply going to say, I'm still breathing. ...I want to say more but, maybe another time. Or not...time will tell.

Yesterday's journal was mentioned on less than sane terms but then again I wonder if I'm ever sane. But don't take that as me trying to shift the blame from anyone but myself, I fucked up, I'll admit that, I'll try not to repeat mistakes but, I'm human.

Chances are I'll do it again, and again.

Anyhoot, anyone who's even wondering or asking why Net Neutrality is so god-damn important, this link may clear up some things (and may be also unsettling).

https://netneutrality.internetassoc.....on.org/action/

But the long story short is that if Net Neutrality is taken away, it woun't stop major companies, that already have a major stake in things, to more or fuck the internet to their own ends.

I feel pessimistic sometimes because I wonder if there's enough people to know and understand and to speak up about it. Sometimes I feel like trying to fight about this in my own way feels pointless. It surely felt that way given what went down May 18th, then again...

I'd rather go down swinging than with a whimper.

 marbles is hosting a stream in regards to net Neutrality, it's winding down but give it a watch maybe.

https://www.twitch.tv/twitchtail

And well...that's it out of me for now.

I'm still breathing, barely. I can't say May and June were fun months, More so with May.

I can't say I've recovered much if at all from either one and other crap, but at least I'm still breathing. Far as art goes, I'm not sure what to really promise, since it seems like far as my family goes, I'm more useful for labor than anything I can offer artwise far as the what has to be done.

But one thing that has been hanging over my head, has been the whole issue with net Neutrality in peril and how ...I wonder if anything will be done about it. To be frank, much as I'd want to cover what's been going on, I'm sadly in a state where I should be trying to focus more on what's in front of me and get somewhere before I can really worry about other crap.

I want to hope that those who can, are able to do something about it, and try to fight for it in what ways they can. I've already sent a few letters and phone calls to my local politicians, among other things. But I feel like until things can somehow be secured far as Net Neutrality goes, I'm feeling rather pessimistic about things.

I want to be optimistic but I feel like I'm setting myself up for dissapointment and heartache, to say nothing how it feels like things may get even more fucked, but ...lets see.

And maybe lets take some action. I'd elaborate and rant more but I wonder if anyone would even bother reading my wall of text.