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Icon commissions are OPEN!
Posted 7 years agoAccepting all kinds of animated icons!
I've even updated the OMG icon!
Prices range from $15 - $60+, I do all species, and there's unlimited slots!
If you'd like to commission me, fill out this form HERE
I've even updated the OMG icon!
Prices range from $15 - $60+, I do all species, and there's unlimited slots!
If you'd like to commission me, fill out this form HERE
Accepting new Hatchling/Youngling commissions!
Posted 7 years agoEXAMPLES: http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....ngs-Younglings
For those of you that are new, I'll explain what these are: Each commission is made with the intention of being as close to the DutchAD lore as possible! Since I am an archangel afterall, you can be rest assured I know what's up (which includes stuff that is not released yet too) ;).
OFFICIAL INFO: All DutchAD "eggs" are actually a sort of geode or gem on a rock that doesn't look much like an egg at all but really moreso a more rocky structure to blend in with the environment around them! These crystals are a source of energy for the DutchAD to grow, glowing softly like a plant photosynthesizing to feed itself.
DutchAD's are either born from the energy around them (like strong weather patterns, light, etc.) or from two Dutch "parents" combining their energy to create a new being then lay to "rest/regenerate" for 50 years. Twin DutchAD's are possible with the egg/energy in the early stages of creation split into two separate but similar beings, of which creates a very special 'sibling' bond between the two new beings.
(If you have any further questions, please message me not comment!)
I will be opening for 8-10 slots! Each slot has been and always will be a custom portrait of your Dutch! Please be aware that these will take a little time, so expect up to two months for everyone to be completed in this batch, I will always update here in the comments if for some reason I am not able to make this deadline. To keep track of your commission, check my trello: https://trello.com/b/MYQSE8th/queue
Prices (vary depending on complexity of character[s]/background):
Youngling - $120+
Hatchling - $160+
Twin Younglings - $180+
Twin Hatchlings - $200+
!!! Complaining about price/wishing for money will make your comment disappear, please don't !!!
If you'd like one, please send me a form through this link: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....b9rzw/viewform
Disclaimer: DutchAD's are only allowed to depict a muzzle ring marking if they are canonically from Paradise and/or when they were still allowed into Paradise. The youngling/hatchling artworks depicted are to show what a Dutch Angel Dragon used to look like before the loss of the muzzle ring marking.
These artworks were created under permissions from the Archangels (including myself) and Telephone.
For those of you that are new, I'll explain what these are: Each commission is made with the intention of being as close to the DutchAD lore as possible! Since I am an archangel afterall, you can be rest assured I know what's up (which includes stuff that is not released yet too) ;).
OFFICIAL INFO: All DutchAD "eggs" are actually a sort of geode or gem on a rock that doesn't look much like an egg at all but really moreso a more rocky structure to blend in with the environment around them! These crystals are a source of energy for the DutchAD to grow, glowing softly like a plant photosynthesizing to feed itself.
DutchAD's are either born from the energy around them (like strong weather patterns, light, etc.) or from two Dutch "parents" combining their energy to create a new being then lay to "rest/regenerate" for 50 years. Twin DutchAD's are possible with the egg/energy in the early stages of creation split into two separate but similar beings, of which creates a very special 'sibling' bond between the two new beings.
(If you have any further questions, please message me not comment!)
I will be opening for 8-10 slots! Each slot has been and always will be a custom portrait of your Dutch! Please be aware that these will take a little time, so expect up to two months for everyone to be completed in this batch, I will always update here in the comments if for some reason I am not able to make this deadline. To keep track of your commission, check my trello: https://trello.com/b/MYQSE8th/queue
Prices (vary depending on complexity of character[s]/background):
Youngling - $120+
Hatchling - $160+
Twin Younglings - $180+
Twin Hatchlings - $200+
!!! Complaining about price/wishing for money will make your comment disappear, please don't !!!
If you'd like one, please send me a form through this link: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....b9rzw/viewform
Disclaimer: DutchAD's are only allowed to depict a muzzle ring marking if they are canonically from Paradise and/or when they were still allowed into Paradise. The youngling/hatchling artworks depicted are to show what a Dutch Angel Dragon used to look like before the loss of the muzzle ring marking.
These artworks were created under permissions from the Archangels (including myself) and Telephone.
COMMISSIONS ARE OPEN!
Posted 7 years agoHi everyone! I'm officially open for commissions (6-8 slots available)! I do a bunch of species and I'm offering a bunch of options! Check out this link and you will be directed to what you're looking for :)
https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....rjixA/viewform
I'm only accepting up to two slots of reference sheets (both options), and up to three slots of telegram stickers! Everything else is free game! I will close commissions when all slots are filled!
*BOTH REF SHEETS FILLED* (5 SLOTS FILLED ; 1 - 3 AVAILABLE)
https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....rjixA/viewform
I'm only accepting up to two slots of reference sheets (both options), and up to three slots of telegram stickers! Everything else is free game! I will close commissions when all slots are filled!
*BOTH REF SHEETS FILLED* (5 SLOTS FILLED ; 1 - 3 AVAILABLE)
Sorry for the silence!
Posted 8 years agoIt’s been a crazy few months, and I have to apologize for being so quiet.
I’m currently working hard on finishing this much overdue fursuit before I do any more commissioned art. Once this fursuit is out of the way, I’ll be focusing on my queue again and clearing it out. As well as working. Once I clear it out, I’ll be doing a little bit of an overhaul on how I’d like to handle future commissions. Mostly just minor TOS changes, as well as looking if I can handle my next project on top of trying fursuit things again. Don’t quote me on it just yet, but I’m thinking long and hard about my overall workflow while being able to stay sane and focused at the same time, and in this entire thought process includes my future in fursuit making. I’ve been really really bad about it in the past, so I’ve been hesitant about opening up any new slots.
With that said, I do want to thank you all for your patience and understanding, my life has been a never ending spiral and I’m finally getting a hold onto it again and moving forward. Hope you guys have a wonderful holiday and new year! I’ll get back soon, promise :)
I’m currently working hard on finishing this much overdue fursuit before I do any more commissioned art. Once this fursuit is out of the way, I’ll be focusing on my queue again and clearing it out. As well as working. Once I clear it out, I’ll be doing a little bit of an overhaul on how I’d like to handle future commissions. Mostly just minor TOS changes, as well as looking if I can handle my next project on top of trying fursuit things again. Don’t quote me on it just yet, but I’m thinking long and hard about my overall workflow while being able to stay sane and focused at the same time, and in this entire thought process includes my future in fursuit making. I’ve been really really bad about it in the past, so I’ve been hesitant about opening up any new slots.
With that said, I do want to thank you all for your patience and understanding, my life has been a never ending spiral and I’m finally getting a hold onto it again and moving forward. Hope you guys have a wonderful holiday and new year! I’ll get back soon, promise :)
Update for commissioners!
Posted 8 years agoI've had a really crazy couple months, but now that things are finally settling, I can finally update you all after being pretty silent!
First and foremost, I have officially moved into my new place! My cats are so much happier here and I'm most definitely feeling great here too.
I lost my waitressing job, but I'm not at all surprised in the slightest since the management was incredibly poor and they did not care to train me better to be a better waitress and essentially set me up to fail after the first time they called me to the office, giving me only one more chance to fuck up for them to cut me out. So yeah, no more restaurant job, but no worries because I just got a new car and I've been driving Lyft for a couple weeks now! My finances are finally stabilizing with the help of Lyft giving me a much better paycheck than the restaurant gave me in the last three months I worked there. The restaurant literally cut my hours down (with no way to ask them for more) to just six hours a WEEK. The pay was $12/hr so all I would ever receive every pay period was $132 solid. With moving and having rent to worry about, I was really struggling and they didn't 'trust' me enough as a 'good enough' waitress to be "awarded" with more hours. It got really stressful and I was not excited to go to work after being told I didn't deserve more hours. So I'm glad they just fired me =\
With that in mind, I have been working really hard to catch up, pay everyone back, refund a customer who needed it (still working on the last part of the refund), on top of getting brand new washer and dryer, and still pay bills. Lyft has been so good and lucrative for me that I neglected my artwork for a while so I could catch up my finances. So if you're wondering where your commission is at, please realize I'm working really hard catching up financially so I can spend my time on the art again, so I can focus and produce in a much clearer and stress free mindspace. I'm almost there, my Lyft bonus is almost in my grasp! Just have to do 30 more rides (which is not hard to do) by end of next week! Also will be taking off this weekend to see the eclipse on Monday and I'm really excited to see it
Just a little more patience and I'll be right back for all of you :) Thank you so much for believing in me!
-Ruka
First and foremost, I have officially moved into my new place! My cats are so much happier here and I'm most definitely feeling great here too.
I lost my waitressing job, but I'm not at all surprised in the slightest since the management was incredibly poor and they did not care to train me better to be a better waitress and essentially set me up to fail after the first time they called me to the office, giving me only one more chance to fuck up for them to cut me out. So yeah, no more restaurant job, but no worries because I just got a new car and I've been driving Lyft for a couple weeks now! My finances are finally stabilizing with the help of Lyft giving me a much better paycheck than the restaurant gave me in the last three months I worked there. The restaurant literally cut my hours down (with no way to ask them for more) to just six hours a WEEK. The pay was $12/hr so all I would ever receive every pay period was $132 solid. With moving and having rent to worry about, I was really struggling and they didn't 'trust' me enough as a 'good enough' waitress to be "awarded" with more hours. It got really stressful and I was not excited to go to work after being told I didn't deserve more hours. So I'm glad they just fired me =\
With that in mind, I have been working really hard to catch up, pay everyone back, refund a customer who needed it (still working on the last part of the refund), on top of getting brand new washer and dryer, and still pay bills. Lyft has been so good and lucrative for me that I neglected my artwork for a while so I could catch up my finances. So if you're wondering where your commission is at, please realize I'm working really hard catching up financially so I can spend my time on the art again, so I can focus and produce in a much clearer and stress free mindspace. I'm almost there, my Lyft bonus is almost in my grasp! Just have to do 30 more rides (which is not hard to do) by end of next week! Also will be taking off this weekend to see the eclipse on Monday and I'm really excited to see it
Just a little more patience and I'll be right back for all of you :) Thank you so much for believing in me!
-Ruka
IM BACK (sorta)
Posted 8 years agoCame back from AC a couple days ago and it was pretty fun, though I'm still on the fence on whether I'll come back next year.
However~ I am currently looking for a new place to live (waiting to be fully applied right now!) and then I'll be moving in with
, 
, and one other to a really nice house! Only thing is I have to scramble to make my first months rent and I'm trying to figure out what I should do to make the rent by the time we move in (if we are eligible). I've got pretty good credit, and I'm nervous about my 'proof of income' per se even though I'm technically working two jobs... This is literally the final step I need to make before I basically move everything all month!
Any ideas? I'm more than happy to take more commissions even if it means my queue to grow a lot larger for now, I just need money asap to get over this final hurdle. Please help!
However~ I am currently looking for a new place to live (waiting to be fully applied right now!) and then I'll be moving in with
, 
, and one other to a really nice house! Only thing is I have to scramble to make my first months rent and I'm trying to figure out what I should do to make the rent by the time we move in (if we are eligible). I've got pretty good credit, and I'm nervous about my 'proof of income' per se even though I'm technically working two jobs... This is literally the final step I need to make before I basically move everything all month! Any ideas? I'm more than happy to take more commissions even if it means my queue to grow a lot larger for now, I just need money asap to get over this final hurdle. Please help!
AC Meme~
Posted 8 years agoWhere are you staying?-
Westin!!!!!!!!
What day are you getting there?-
Thursday, around noonish or something. Early morning flight lol
How are you traveling?-
PLANE
Who will you be rooming with?-
and like... 8 others XD
How is the best way to find you?-
You better find me, cause I'm everywhere!
Are there any panels you might be attending?-
Just the DutchAD panel at 8pm on Saturday, and whatever strikes my fancy :3
What do you look like?-
If you just look at my profile pic you'd know haha
Will you be suiting?-
Yes! Click is coming with me again!
What is your gender?-
Female~
How tall are you?-
5'1.5"
Can I talk to you?-
Duh! Of course!
Can I touch you?-
Depends on who you are, just a poke to the shoulder is alright if you need me!
Can I visit your room?-
Depends if I know you, or ya know, my roomies have a party XD I have no idea
Can I buy you drinks?-
UH YEAH, I LOVE ANYTHING SWEET
Can I give you stuff?-
Sure?
Can I hug or snuggle with you?-
Hugs are fine if you ask and you're a stranger, snuggles are for special people only ^^
Are you nice?-
I am until you cross some lines >:(
How long are you going?-
until Monday!
Will you be going to parties?-
Depends, I'd rather either be with friends or not at all when it comes to parties XD I'd rather be safe
Will you be performing?-
Yes yes yes yes, find me in Click!
If I see you, how should I get your attention?-
Either yell Ru or Click! Depends on if I'm in suit or not!
Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
The hallways or dealers den
What/where will you be eating?
Dunno, I go where others go!
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?-
Please ask me, I really hate stragglers that I don't know just following me around like a lost puppy.
Can I take your picture?-
Of course while I'm in suit! I love videos too
Do you do free art?-
NOPE
Do you do trades?-
NOPE
Do you do commissions?-
I do! I don't have my new business cards, but I'll be willing to share some info with ya!
What's your goal(s) for the con this year?-
Have a freakin blast for my last AC I'll be attending!!
Westin!!!!!!!!
What day are you getting there?-
Thursday, around noonish or something. Early morning flight lol
How are you traveling?-
PLANE
Who will you be rooming with?-
and like... 8 others XDHow is the best way to find you?-
You better find me, cause I'm everywhere!
Are there any panels you might be attending?-
Just the DutchAD panel at 8pm on Saturday, and whatever strikes my fancy :3
What do you look like?-
If you just look at my profile pic you'd know haha
Will you be suiting?-
Yes! Click is coming with me again!
What is your gender?-
Female~
How tall are you?-
5'1.5"
Can I talk to you?-
Duh! Of course!
Can I touch you?-
Depends on who you are, just a poke to the shoulder is alright if you need me!
Can I visit your room?-
Depends if I know you, or ya know, my roomies have a party XD I have no idea
Can I buy you drinks?-
UH YEAH, I LOVE ANYTHING SWEET
Can I give you stuff?-
Sure?
Can I hug or snuggle with you?-
Hugs are fine if you ask and you're a stranger, snuggles are for special people only ^^
Are you nice?-
I am until you cross some lines >:(
How long are you going?-
until Monday!
Will you be going to parties?-
Depends, I'd rather either be with friends or not at all when it comes to parties XD I'd rather be safe
Will you be performing?-
Yes yes yes yes, find me in Click!
If I see you, how should I get your attention?-
Either yell Ru or Click! Depends on if I'm in suit or not!
Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
The hallways or dealers den
What/where will you be eating?
Dunno, I go where others go!
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?-
Please ask me, I really hate stragglers that I don't know just following me around like a lost puppy.
Can I take your picture?-
Of course while I'm in suit! I love videos too
Do you do free art?-
NOPE
Do you do trades?-
NOPE
Do you do commissions?-
I do! I don't have my new business cards, but I'll be willing to share some info with ya!
What's your goal(s) for the con this year?-
Have a freakin blast for my last AC I'll be attending!!
Hatchlings/Younglings OPEN
Posted 8 years agoHey Angels! I'll be opening up for more hatchlings/younglings! However, I would like to announce that after this batch and the ones already in queue, will be the last for a while! I'm taking a small hiatus from doing these hatchlings/younglings in particular (I'll still be doing other types of commissions don't fret!) I feel after doing about 35 of these it's gotten a tad overbearing so I really need a break to explore more things artistically. That said, I'll be offering a total of 10-15 slots (give or take) for mostly "pre-order" in a sense, since I will not be able to get started on these until a bit after AC. I absolutely cannot promise they will get done quickly, but they will get done as I get through my queue and doing special stuff along the way.
I am also going to announce that I am slightly changing prices one more time. For how much quality and love I put into each one to make Dutch unique in their own way. (New Hatchlings will look like my unfinished commission).
Younglings are now just $65
Hatchlings are now $85
Twin Younglings are now $100
Twin Hatchlings (meaning two Dutch, one egg) are now $120
If you would like to order one, please inquire through this form: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....start=openform
One person can purchase several slots! Just send individual forms for each slot and I will invoice you for all in one :)
I am willing to wait ONE WEEK for payment to your slot, if you do not pay without communicating to me why you may need a longer time to pay, you will forfeit your spot and will be blacklisted.
If you are a customer wondering where you are in queue or if I am working on your commission, check out my Trello! I always update it! https://trello.com/b/MYQSE8th/queue
Happy hatching :3
I am also going to announce that I am slightly changing prices one more time. For how much quality and love I put into each one to make Dutch unique in their own way. (New Hatchlings will look like my unfinished commission).
Younglings are now just $65
Hatchlings are now $85
Twin Younglings are now $100
Twin Hatchlings (meaning two Dutch, one egg) are now $120
If you would like to order one, please inquire through this form: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....start=openform
One person can purchase several slots! Just send individual forms for each slot and I will invoice you for all in one :)
I am willing to wait ONE WEEK for payment to your slot, if you do not pay without communicating to me why you may need a longer time to pay, you will forfeit your spot and will be blacklisted.
If you are a customer wondering where you are in queue or if I am working on your commission, check out my Trello! I always update it! https://trello.com/b/MYQSE8th/queue
Happy hatching :3
EMERGENCY COMMISSIONS & UPDATES
Posted 8 years agoI'm really sorry if I've suddenly slowed down on commissions, however over a month ago I started a brand new job as a waitress at a restaurant called Sera's Ramen Enclave. Thing is though, I have yet to receive my paycheck last week because the owners of the restaurant are away on vacation and I have not signed up for the direct deposit yet, so I receive it in actual envelope. Being that I'm leaving TOMORROW, and the owners will not return until I'm already on my vacation, I'm basically screwed for having my cats prepared, and more importantly I'm not prepared financially either.
I'm opening up some animated icon commissions. Any species accepted. ORDER HERE
Prices and examples in the form.
If you'd like to tip instead, please TIP HERE
Please help me. My cats really need food and litter, and I need to survive this vacation by not starving to death. Please.
I'm opening up some animated icon commissions. Any species accepted. ORDER HERE
Prices and examples in the form.
If you'd like to tip instead, please TIP HERE
Please help me. My cats really need food and litter, and I need to survive this vacation by not starving to death. Please.
Telegram Stickers {OPEN} & Info!
Posted 8 years agoSince I'm trucking along with commissions, I felt it was time to open for some telegram stickers! Please be aware before you submit a form that the stickers will not be touched until a little later so I can catch up on the outstanding commissions waiting patiently in queue :) As well as I have started a part-time job, so work on everything is definitely slowed.
Prices have slightly changed, all prices are listed in the form as well as more than 60 different choices to choose from! Any species is welcome, however more complex characters=higher cost.
I will only accept 5 slots at this time!
TELEGRAM STICKER COMMISSION FORM
SLOTS:
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3.
4.
5.
Prices have slightly changed, all prices are listed in the form as well as more than 60 different choices to choose from! Any species is welcome, however more complex characters=higher cost.
I will only accept 5 slots at this time!
TELEGRAM STICKER COMMISSION FORM
SLOTS:
1.
2.
3.
4.
5.
My {NEW} Schedule
Posted 8 years agoThis schedule will be updated periodically
ALL TIMES ARE IN 24 HR (Military Time) MOUNTAIN
Everyday I work from 930 to 1630. Monday-Friday, Saturday and Sunday I take off. Random occasions I work weekends as well, depending on demand.
I do stream at random intervals during the weekdays, check by if you're interested in watching!
https://picarto.tv/Rukamae
ALL TIMES ARE IN 24 HR (Military Time) MOUNTAIN
Everyday I work from 930 to 1630. Monday-Friday, Saturday and Sunday I take off. Random occasions I work weekends as well, depending on demand.
I do stream at random intervals during the weekdays, check by if you're interested in watching!
https://picarto.tv/Rukamae
DutchAD Hatchling / Youngling Commissions {OPEN}
Posted 8 years agoOffering slots for DutchAD hatchling/younglings! I have 4 slots I'm still working on, but I'm opening for 6 more!
NEW INFO: All DutchAD "eggs" are now a sort of geode or gem in a motif of an egg type shape in a rock! These crystals are a source of energy for the DutchAD to grow, glowing softly like a plant photosynthesizing to feed itself.
Info about the concept is on the form. Please use this form to apply for a slot: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....b9rzw/viewform
NEW PRICES: $65 for one, $100 for twins!
I will ONLY accept 6 slots!
Slots from previous batch :
1.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22636215/ {2/16/17}
2.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22684034/ {2/21/17}
3.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22769107/ {3/1/17}
4.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22845986/ {3/9/2017}
Slots:
1.
2.
3.
4. Luna Fur (FB)
5.
6.
NEW INFO: All DutchAD "eggs" are now a sort of geode or gem in a motif of an egg type shape in a rock! These crystals are a source of energy for the DutchAD to grow, glowing softly like a plant photosynthesizing to feed itself.
Info about the concept is on the form. Please use this form to apply for a slot: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....b9rzw/viewform
NEW PRICES: $65 for one, $100 for twins!
I will ONLY accept 6 slots!
Slots from previous batch :
1.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22636215/ {2/16/17}2.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22684034/ {2/21/17}3.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22769107/ {3/1/17}4.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22845986/ {3/9/2017}Slots:
1.
2.
3.
4. Luna Fur (FB)
5.
6.
Sketch Commissions {OPEN}
Posted 9 years agoAlmost completely caught up on my whole queue! But I'd prefer some more stimulation to keep going by some sketching! All species welcome!
Here's the form: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....OD6WA/viewform
I will work on these between commissions starting TOMORROW, and I will be streaming them mostly, though there will be off-stream sketches done too!
Taking about 10 of these (or until I have enough workload I can deal with), we'll see how it goes!
1.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22403907/ (1/25/17)
2.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22541941/ (2/7/17)
3.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22551693/ (2/8/17)
4.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22684707/ (2/21/17)
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.
Here's the form: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....OD6WA/viewform
I will work on these between commissions starting TOMORROW, and I will be streaming them mostly, though there will be off-stream sketches done too!
Taking about 10 of these (or until I have enough workload I can deal with), we'll see how it goes!
1.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22403907/ (1/25/17)2.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22541941/ (2/7/17)3.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22551693/ (2/8/17)4.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22684707/ (2/21/17)5.
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9.
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Blinky Icon Commissions {CLOSED}
Posted 9 years agoBlinky Icons are now available for commission! I will be taking 8 slots, so get them while they're hot! I will offer more in the future, but 8 slots is a good number for now :)
To get an icon, PLEASE fill out this FORM. I have disabled comments in this journal so it can deter those from trying to get a slot through comments.
Slots:
1.
{PAID} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22342434/ (1/19/17)
2. {PAID} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22383093/ (1/23/17)
3. Victoria Gray (FB) {PAID} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22384223/ (1/23/17)
4. {PAID} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22387756/ (1/23/17)
5.
{PAID} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22387168/ (1/23/17)
6.
{PAID} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22388321/ (1/23/17)
7.
{PAID} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22388776/ (1/24/17)
8.
{PAID} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22389226/ (1/24/17)
To get an icon, PLEASE fill out this FORM. I have disabled comments in this journal so it can deter those from trying to get a slot through comments.
Quick Overview (Q & A)
When will these get finished?
Depends. I am planning on working on these for the rest of the month while I catch up my queue. I MAY open for more at the end of the month depending if I finish the current ones and enough commissions in the current queue.
Any species?
Yes, any species! There is a wingless version as well as a winged version, so you are not required to have a winged character to get an icon!
Change in expression? (Like Hakku HERE)
I will animate between two expressions of your choosing, so please be sure to let me know in the form if you'd like that! I'm only limiting to two so the animation doesn't take me too long x.x PLEASE be simple!
Ok, so what about a different expression than just 'happy'?
Again, you are more than welcome to ask for something else! Just let me know!
How much?!
Wingless Blinkies are $28
Wings + Blinkies are $38
Wingless Couples w/ heartbeat are $48
Wings + Blinky Couples w/ heartbeat are $62
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Posted 9 years agoFirst off, happy new year!
2016 was pretty good until the ending months.... then it all seemed to be alright in the end up to the countdown to 2017. I'm honestly glad it's over. In fact, I feel I can breathe a little easier without the looming darkness that 2016 became. I feel a little freer, calmer, more at peace. I just need to push forward and keep up with the improvements I'll be making for myself. One of which I will mention here, since it is most important for the future of my art, the business, my life...
I can't believe it's taken me all year, a whole year of errors and mistakes I have made to realize what I should really do to continue to remain happy with myself, my art, my customers, my fans, and my overall well-being. I have gone through a lot of heartache, but I think I finally figured out what I should do.
I will be raising my prices again, but not by too much. These prices are basically going to be based on my time spent on pieces (loosely based on pay by the hour basis). I've noticed over the past couple years that I kept my prices the same, and based on how much improvement I have made, I feel it's time to up things a notch. It's like giving myself a promotion I guess, because I've worked so hard... My prices have been based on around $10/hr, and it was great because I know exactly how much time each piece takes; plus, I've gotten increasingly faster with my art, which has always been a goal of mine. I want to continue to improve on that speed without hurting my quality.
Which comes to my next point: my quality. My quality I have noticed fluctuates based upon how rushed I feel that day to get something pumped out within the timeframe I know I will get a certain piece done. Say, for example, I finish a hatchling/youngling between 4-6 hours, depending on complexity. However, sometimes, I feel I rush the sketch too quickly and it really shows in the final product. Some pictures I'm not happy with, even if they all have the same quality, it's the sheer details and form of some of them that bother me the most. Looking deeper into this, I also noticed my pieces came out a lot better when I had the artistic freedom to do what I was feeling most excited about. My quality suffers significantly when I am told what to do, and I much rather do things as a theme basis. Such as things like YCH's, icon themes, special sketch streams or batches of hatchling/younglings. Things of this nature gets me more pumped to do more, and be more creative! I get so much more done than sitting around having to think what the customer really wants from a picture. Don't get me wrong, some pieces I have done by commission have been pretty good! But I feel I get way more done when I can work with a theme, an idea, and work with it if I get a lot of bites. It's been proven to be pretty successful so far! So I feel it's the best approach for me.
In the meantime, there will be a new pricesheet underway in the next couple days, as a way to have a starting point of what I would charge. This pricesheet would basically be a reminder for me about how much I charge for pieces, whether it would be for chibis, icons, YCHs, whatever it would be of my choosing to accurately pinpoint how to price my themes and ideas. This is so I don't accidentally undercharge myself, or overcharge without doing the proper math. (Hopefully that makes sense). With that in mind, I will be phasing out my commission form, and will be making a different type of commission form based on what is going on (albeit icons, sketches, themes like hatchling/younglings, etc.). These separate commission forms will help me organize and pinpoint more accurately who wants what in each category. It sounds pretty crazy, but I've been able to work much better in batches than the way I've been doing it. Openings will be by journal, Facebook (basically the DutchAD group), and submission (which will link to the journal). I am loosely planning making a Rukamae page on Facebook since I am very much active on the DutchAD page, but don't hold me to that plan just yet since Facebook isn't exactly secure in how art is shared either. I'm pretty picky about crediting art and making sure my watermark makes it and such, but I don't really appreciate people stealing my art or claiming it as theirs (you know how it is).
What does that mean for the current commissions?
Absolutely nothing has changed! However, everything up to this point will be completed as I am able! I will be beginning to implement this pretty much immediately though, to keep cash flowing, so for the next couple months, I will be working on my old queue to completely wipe it clean and eventually it will turn into a much more manageable queue in the end. This is also including fursuits! The fursuit commissions are taking an incredible amount of time, but as I've mentioned before, they are greatly slowed at the moment because of the hole I dug myself financially while having bills to keep up with, coupled with also needing to make sure my cats are fed and I have a place to live. I am still working on them, at an incredibly slow pace. I'm currently working out a better work schedule right now so I can get the fursuits out and gone while still working on my art queue. Which now gets to my next point....
Time Management & Money
Before I completely dive in, I want to officially announce that I am planning on making a couple comics soon. These comics will only be possible if I can get a little help with each page however, and I as well need major writing help. I will look for writers when I am ready, but I want to be happy enough with being able to compensate the writer/s somehow when I get to it. The comics I'm hoping will only be possible once I free up more of my queues and have more time to do personal animation study and overall art study to better myself and show potential future employers my stuff later on down the line.
I cannot do all this without being a little bit more stable first financially, which means I HAVE to find a part time job somewhere. I've been fighting with a lot of people about this before, but I SIMPLY. CANNOT. HAVE. A FULL TIME JOB. Not right now. Most likely in the future, but right now is the worst time to find a full time job. The reasons behind my decision strictly for part time and not full time is because my art is what keeps me sane. I also like being able to have a mostly flexible schedule so I can be there for people I care about. You don't really have much idea how happy I've been just because I force myself to get out of the house to combat my depression. I know my art posting has been lacking, and I've been working on making art much more frequently and keeping up with my queue. I've seriously come a very long way compared to the trainwreck 2015 was for me. Having the flexible schedule is essential as well to me because I crave friendship and being around people that matter to me the most. It absolutely KILLS me having to miss something because I'm stuck at work. The part time job is simply just a step I need to take to be more financially stable so I don't have to heavily rely on my art to sustain my habits and my life as a whole. It won't be as much as one would like, but I just need something to sustain my bills and most importantly rent. However, I still need the time away from that job to finish the more time consuming projects (like fursuits especially), until things are completed and over with, as well as art helps me relax significantly. The less I art, the more... aggressive I become. I would know after the whole McDonalds escapade... I don't want to repeat that cycle again.
My living situation
As some might know or notice, I've been moving around a lot recently. Currently, I'm at my dads house (again) and I'm really not wanting to stay here for much longer than I have to. Which, if you've been following along, this is also the reason why I need a part time job. I'm planning on moving again the 1st of February with a good friend of mine. That place will only be temporary for a few months until we both stabilize and find a new better place CHANGE OF PLANS LOL. Dad has been very adamant about his disapproval of my cats and consistent whining about being allergic to them, doing next to nothing about it other than complain and be dramatic. It's sickening. I can't give up my cats, so the only solution is for me to move out asap. With all this happening, I'll still be doing my very best to keep working hard to make the goals to be able to sustain myself more, be more independent. Thankfully, my workspace is pretty easily transported, so I can literally work anywhere at anytime. Just need to keep up with a good work schedule and have a good part time job (that I can handle) and remain happy. I just don't want this moving thing to be a forever thing.. because it really puts my work on hold significantly.
Alright, I'll stop rambling now. I'll probably edit this journal if I think of anything else, but I think this covers it. Hopefully, this plan works out... we'll see when the time comes. Thanks for reading.
-Ruka
2016 was pretty good until the ending months.... then it all seemed to be alright in the end up to the countdown to 2017. I'm honestly glad it's over. In fact, I feel I can breathe a little easier without the looming darkness that 2016 became. I feel a little freer, calmer, more at peace. I just need to push forward and keep up with the improvements I'll be making for myself. One of which I will mention here, since it is most important for the future of my art, the business, my life...
I can't believe it's taken me all year, a whole year of errors and mistakes I have made to realize what I should really do to continue to remain happy with myself, my art, my customers, my fans, and my overall well-being. I have gone through a lot of heartache, but I think I finally figured out what I should do.
I will be raising my prices again, but not by too much. These prices are basically going to be based on my time spent on pieces (loosely based on pay by the hour basis). I've noticed over the past couple years that I kept my prices the same, and based on how much improvement I have made, I feel it's time to up things a notch. It's like giving myself a promotion I guess, because I've worked so hard... My prices have been based on around $10/hr, and it was great because I know exactly how much time each piece takes; plus, I've gotten increasingly faster with my art, which has always been a goal of mine. I want to continue to improve on that speed without hurting my quality.
Which comes to my next point: my quality. My quality I have noticed fluctuates based upon how rushed I feel that day to get something pumped out within the timeframe I know I will get a certain piece done. Say, for example, I finish a hatchling/youngling between 4-6 hours, depending on complexity. However, sometimes, I feel I rush the sketch too quickly and it really shows in the final product. Some pictures I'm not happy with, even if they all have the same quality, it's the sheer details and form of some of them that bother me the most. Looking deeper into this, I also noticed my pieces came out a lot better when I had the artistic freedom to do what I was feeling most excited about. My quality suffers significantly when I am told what to do, and I much rather do things as a theme basis. Such as things like YCH's, icon themes, special sketch streams or batches of hatchling/younglings. Things of this nature gets me more pumped to do more, and be more creative! I get so much more done than sitting around having to think what the customer really wants from a picture. Don't get me wrong, some pieces I have done by commission have been pretty good! But I feel I get way more done when I can work with a theme, an idea, and work with it if I get a lot of bites. It's been proven to be pretty successful so far! So I feel it's the best approach for me.
In the meantime, there will be a new pricesheet underway in the next couple days, as a way to have a starting point of what I would charge. This pricesheet would basically be a reminder for me about how much I charge for pieces, whether it would be for chibis, icons, YCHs, whatever it would be of my choosing to accurately pinpoint how to price my themes and ideas. This is so I don't accidentally undercharge myself, or overcharge without doing the proper math. (Hopefully that makes sense). With that in mind, I will be phasing out my commission form, and will be making a different type of commission form based on what is going on (albeit icons, sketches, themes like hatchling/younglings, etc.). These separate commission forms will help me organize and pinpoint more accurately who wants what in each category. It sounds pretty crazy, but I've been able to work much better in batches than the way I've been doing it. Openings will be by journal, Facebook (basically the DutchAD group), and submission (which will link to the journal). I am loosely planning making a Rukamae page on Facebook since I am very much active on the DutchAD page, but don't hold me to that plan just yet since Facebook isn't exactly secure in how art is shared either. I'm pretty picky about crediting art and making sure my watermark makes it and such, but I don't really appreciate people stealing my art or claiming it as theirs (you know how it is).
What does that mean for the current commissions?
Absolutely nothing has changed! However, everything up to this point will be completed as I am able! I will be beginning to implement this pretty much immediately though, to keep cash flowing, so for the next couple months, I will be working on my old queue to completely wipe it clean and eventually it will turn into a much more manageable queue in the end. This is also including fursuits! The fursuit commissions are taking an incredible amount of time, but as I've mentioned before, they are greatly slowed at the moment because of the hole I dug myself financially while having bills to keep up with, coupled with also needing to make sure my cats are fed and I have a place to live. I am still working on them, at an incredibly slow pace. I'm currently working out a better work schedule right now so I can get the fursuits out and gone while still working on my art queue. Which now gets to my next point....
Time Management & Money
Before I completely dive in, I want to officially announce that I am planning on making a couple comics soon. These comics will only be possible if I can get a little help with each page however, and I as well need major writing help. I will look for writers when I am ready, but I want to be happy enough with being able to compensate the writer/s somehow when I get to it. The comics I'm hoping will only be possible once I free up more of my queues and have more time to do personal animation study and overall art study to better myself and show potential future employers my stuff later on down the line.
I cannot do all this without being a little bit more stable first financially, which means I HAVE to find a part time job somewhere. I've been fighting with a lot of people about this before, but I SIMPLY. CANNOT. HAVE. A FULL TIME JOB. Not right now. Most likely in the future, but right now is the worst time to find a full time job. The reasons behind my decision strictly for part time and not full time is because my art is what keeps me sane. I also like being able to have a mostly flexible schedule so I can be there for people I care about. You don't really have much idea how happy I've been just because I force myself to get out of the house to combat my depression. I know my art posting has been lacking, and I've been working on making art much more frequently and keeping up with my queue. I've seriously come a very long way compared to the trainwreck 2015 was for me. Having the flexible schedule is essential as well to me because I crave friendship and being around people that matter to me the most. It absolutely KILLS me having to miss something because I'm stuck at work. The part time job is simply just a step I need to take to be more financially stable so I don't have to heavily rely on my art to sustain my habits and my life as a whole. It won't be as much as one would like, but I just need something to sustain my bills and most importantly rent. However, I still need the time away from that job to finish the more time consuming projects (like fursuits especially), until things are completed and over with, as well as art helps me relax significantly. The less I art, the more... aggressive I become. I would know after the whole McDonalds escapade... I don't want to repeat that cycle again.
My living situation
As some might know or notice, I've been moving around a lot recently. Currently, I'm at my dads house (again) and I'm really not wanting to stay here for much longer than I have to. Which, if you've been following along, this is also the reason why I need a part time job.
Alright, I'll stop rambling now. I'll probably edit this journal if I think of anything else, but I think this covers it. Hopefully, this plan works out... we'll see when the time comes. Thanks for reading.
-Ruka
Updates.
Posted 9 years agoI've been avoiding writing this for a while, I just feel I keep writing these because I fail to keep my promises I guess... I dunno how else to describe it...
A couple months ago (I would say a few, but it was pretty late in the month a few months ago so...), the one I've been rooming with gave me some news that he was worried about Amendment 69 passing (I won't get into politics, but it's relevant for this segment), and he would have to move out of the state IF it passes. I was put into a state of panic and incredible stress, and it really strained my emotions the past few months. JUST when I thought things were going to be ok after my stupid kidney stone episode...Month later I figure out that he just can't continue to live in Colorado any longer. So it's not just about the Amendment anymore, now it's just he can't continue to live in the state anymore. I've been really stressed out, I've been searching for places to go, and I'm pretty much almost out of time...
I was getting so close to being completely caught up. I wanted my entire art queue empty, at least one or two fursuits completed, and my final one at least started...But my place of living was basically swept right underneath me and put me in a state of panic, trying to figure out what would be my next place to live. I didn't have a second plan, and this place I was in was my only plan. I basically fucked up by thinking I had this in the bag, that I had nothing to worry about, and I would be able to get onto my feet as expected by January. But everything came at me like a train. I tried so hard to be optimistic about finally being independent, being the adult everybody expected me to be, and I just... I broke. I shattered.
I lost myself within my art, I became depressed trying to even finish these fursuits, and I've been essentially drifting along, trying to find my purpose within all of this commotion, that I stagnated to a halt. I'm trying so hard to rev myself back up again, I'm trying so hard to keep going. I have a plan for change, but that change could only happen if I just. finish.
So many other things I can't discuss at all, has also greatly affected my mood. As always, I've tried so hard to be optimistic and did my best to think things are ok. But I feel so boxed in, and I can't be free. It has completely broken me, and my only solace is the tiny tastes of freedom I can have... I've gotten addicted to ideas, but dreams seem unattainable and nonexistent at this point. All I CAN do is watch from the sidelines and try not to lose my sanity. I've shed a lot of tears, and I've been continuously shut down. Being patient for so long wears you very thin the longer you wait, and I've been worn incredibly thin...
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I'm moving back into my dads house. Since it seems all other options I tried to come up with have been exhausted or unattainable. I'm really sorry I can't pay for rent... I just really need to catch up and fix the mess I built for myself. I just need time... I'm incredibly sorry I didn't finish a fursuit on time. I know it's been two years, and there's no excuse for finishing Click first... I don't need it rubbed in my face... I feel so terrible about everything and I can only trust so few people in my life at this point. I can only be comforted by so many until I feel I get too much sympathy. I feel terrible about everything. I just want to pay my bills and buy gas for my car... I just need a stable income by finding a job... I'm sorry I fail as an adult. I'm really trying...
I just need time... I'm so sorry.... for everything....
A couple months ago (I would say a few, but it was pretty late in the month a few months ago so...), the one I've been rooming with gave me some news that he was worried about Amendment 69 passing (I won't get into politics, but it's relevant for this segment), and he would have to move out of the state IF it passes. I was put into a state of panic and incredible stress, and it really strained my emotions the past few months. JUST when I thought things were going to be ok after my stupid kidney stone episode...Month later I figure out that he just can't continue to live in Colorado any longer. So it's not just about the Amendment anymore, now it's just he can't continue to live in the state anymore. I've been really stressed out, I've been searching for places to go, and I'm pretty much almost out of time...
I was getting so close to being completely caught up. I wanted my entire art queue empty, at least one or two fursuits completed, and my final one at least started...But my place of living was basically swept right underneath me and put me in a state of panic, trying to figure out what would be my next place to live. I didn't have a second plan, and this place I was in was my only plan. I basically fucked up by thinking I had this in the bag, that I had nothing to worry about, and I would be able to get onto my feet as expected by January. But everything came at me like a train. I tried so hard to be optimistic about finally being independent, being the adult everybody expected me to be, and I just... I broke. I shattered.
I lost myself within my art, I became depressed trying to even finish these fursuits, and I've been essentially drifting along, trying to find my purpose within all of this commotion, that I stagnated to a halt. I'm trying so hard to rev myself back up again, I'm trying so hard to keep going. I have a plan for change, but that change could only happen if I just. finish.
So many other things I can't discuss at all, has also greatly affected my mood. As always, I've tried so hard to be optimistic and did my best to think things are ok. But I feel so boxed in, and I can't be free. It has completely broken me, and my only solace is the tiny tastes of freedom I can have... I've gotten addicted to ideas, but dreams seem unattainable and nonexistent at this point. All I CAN do is watch from the sidelines and try not to lose my sanity. I've shed a lot of tears, and I've been continuously shut down. Being patient for so long wears you very thin the longer you wait, and I've been worn incredibly thin...
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I'm moving back into my dads house. Since it seems all other options I tried to come up with have been exhausted or unattainable. I'm really sorry I can't pay for rent... I just really need to catch up and fix the mess I built for myself. I just need time... I'm incredibly sorry I didn't finish a fursuit on time. I know it's been two years, and there's no excuse for finishing Click first... I don't need it rubbed in my face... I feel so terrible about everything and I can only trust so few people in my life at this point. I can only be comforted by so many until I feel I get too much sympathy. I feel terrible about everything. I just want to pay my bills and buy gas for my car... I just need a stable income by finding a job... I'm sorry I fail as an adult. I'm really trying...
I just need time... I'm so sorry.... for everything....
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Posted 9 years agoKidney stone finally passed, and I'm ready to get back to work. Three weeks of not being able to work has really put a toll on me...
I'll be spending today doing some planning and maybe some fursuit work. At this rate, there is no possible way I'll finish everything in a timely manner as I'd hoped when it comes to fursuits. Which means I'll most likely get a huge stink from dad very soon for not working when I was in horrendous pain, mentally sick, and extremely stressed out. I'll be seeing him tomorrow for dinner because "he misses me", but I'm preparing for the worst. I'm not sure how to feel about the dinner, I know I should be excited to have ramen with my dad, but I can just sense what's coming to me.
I know I shouldn't feel this way towards my own dad, but I've been through enough of these lunches and dinners alone with him to not think otherwise. Which really sucks because no one should be afraid to sit down and have a meal with your parents. Let alone shake the fact that almost every meal I've had with him turns into a business gesture. It's not really relaxing at all... Hopefully it's all just about catching up rather than him trying to tip me off on doing more things for him while I'm just trying to live my life. *shrug*
Anyways, I'll be back on schedule, I'll keep working at my own pace. RMFC is in a couple weeks and I'm gonna do some things to prepare for it. For those going to RMFC, I'll see ya there! For those who just watch me, I hope to see you soon in my plethora of streams I like to run when I get super focused XD.
Over and out.
I'll be spending today doing some planning and maybe some fursuit work. At this rate, there is no possible way I'll finish everything in a timely manner as I'd hoped when it comes to fursuits. Which means I'll most likely get a huge stink from dad very soon for not working when I was in horrendous pain, mentally sick, and extremely stressed out. I'll be seeing him tomorrow for dinner because "he misses me", but I'm preparing for the worst. I'm not sure how to feel about the dinner, I know I should be excited to have ramen with my dad, but I can just sense what's coming to me.
I know I shouldn't feel this way towards my own dad, but I've been through enough of these lunches and dinners alone with him to not think otherwise. Which really sucks because no one should be afraid to sit down and have a meal with your parents. Let alone shake the fact that almost every meal I've had with him turns into a business gesture. It's not really relaxing at all... Hopefully it's all just about catching up rather than him trying to tip me off on doing more things for him while I'm just trying to live my life. *shrug*
Anyways, I'll be back on schedule, I'll keep working at my own pace. RMFC is in a couple weeks and I'm gonna do some things to prepare for it. For those going to RMFC, I'll see ya there! For those who just watch me, I hope to see you soon in my plethora of streams I like to run when I get super focused XD.
Over and out.
I'm alive. Barely.
Posted 9 years agoLol, so, I apparently can't catch a break this month.
NOTE: I'm sorry I get into the nitty gritty details, but... this experience was the absolute worst. If you're a bit squeamish from the graphics or what have you, I'll put a short and sweet version in the bottom labeled "TL;DR"
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Here I was, revving myself back up to gear from this huge slump, when about 15 minutes from waking up and feeling really good, I immediately felt incredibly horrible.
I mean. On the floor in the fetal position whimpering in the worst pain I've ever felt horrible. I had extreme nausea, I had a completely empty stomach so all that could come up was whatever my body could find in my stomach. I was shaking like a leaf, I couldn't move an inch without making the pain worse. Thankfully, I was just conscious enough to bring my phone with me and immediately call and 
to help me out. The 15 minutes felt like hours as I lay there in complete misery and suffering.
My pain got increasingly worse, I knew this was a kidney stone, but it was never this bad.
Normally, I would have some sort of heating element to put it where it hurt and apply pressure. Pox did everything he absolutely could to help calm me, to ease the pain, telling me to think of something else so I didn't give in to my nausea symptoms from all the pain and adrenaline. Even took some over the counter pain medication, the stuff was gone from my system in about 30 minutes. Nothing worked. The very last resort was to go to the ER.
heard my plea, immediately got off his work, grabbed my car keys, and Pox literally carried me into the car to get to the hospital. I REFUSE to have an ambulance if the hospital was so closeby.
Apparently an hour goes by, I'm sitting in the chair shaking, clearly in so much pain, losing my cookies (I love that term now) in a bucket in front of so many people in the waiting room. It was absolutely embarrassing, but they couldn't find me a room fast enough. I really hated how it seemed like I was making a scene, but I legitimately could not handle ANYTHING my body was doing. I was in full shut down, I could barely talk, I couldn't walk, the pain was all I could think about. It was absolutely the WORST sitting there in the waiting room of the ER.
Finally a room was found, I was immediately taken back, IV stuck into me about an hour after sitting there in the room just trying to wish the pain away. The doctor didn't want to put me through CT scan because of higher risk of cancer. She writes me some prescriptions after the pain is managed, and she sends me home.
I'm feeling pretty good, I'm hungry, I get dinner, everything is cool. Pox goes home.
15 minutes later, pain flares up AGAIN.
1 AM in the morning, I lose my cookies AGAIN, my entire dinner is gone. At this point, I'm convinced I've lost about 10 pounds throughout this whole day. I try to take some Ibuprofen, I try the heat compress, everything. Nothing worked. I'm in agony. The pain is legitimately like someone stabbing you with a large kitchen knife, keeping it there, and twisting every 10 seconds. The pain doesn't go away. Poor Wolf starts the trek to the hospital again, luckily this time I could walk a little, so I could get to the car by myself. Pox didn't like the idea and told Wolf to take me to his place instead to see if the pain management works this time. Things still weren't working, and poor Riley had to convince Pox to let me go to the hospital. A second time. Pox and Wolf go to take me to the hospital... again... the wait time was definitely a lot shorter... I get a room. Two shots of morphine and CT scan later, they tell me the kidney stone is 4 mm. FOUR MILLIMETERS. I've never had a stone that big in my entire life, NO WONDER it's been hurting so much!
6 AM, I'm finally released, body has finally calmed down, and I'm heavily medicated with prescriptions. Finally pass out.
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TL;DR
This kidney stone is literally the bane of my existence.
I'm on DAY FOUR, DAY TWO since my hospital visits. I have yet to pass the stupid thing, I can feel it. I know where along my body it is. It's mocking me every time I shift only slightly. I'm rested, but my body is absolutely exhausted of all energy expended on this event. I'm trying really hard to get back into gear, but right now I'm way too focused on this thing. This stupid fucker called a kidney stone that is 4 MM!!! I'm so done with it, I want it gone. I've been sucking water like crazy. I've been laying on one side hoping it shifts further. I'm doing everything. If you've never had a kidney stone before, just realize, it is absolutely the worst. I'm definitely not 100%, I'm medicated and at about 40% right now. I'm incredibly drained. I want this stupid kidney stone out of my body, I'm so uncomfortable right now. Not in pain, just really uncomfortable.
If any of you want proof of my visits to the ER, I'll gladly show you. Otherwise, I'm going to stare into the twilight zone and just wish this kidney stone goes away. Bare with me.
Pox, Wolf, and a touch of Riley were the superstars. Pox and Wolf though get a a big gold star for being there every step of the way. My body was expending absolute nightmares, and they were there in my absolute time of need. Those 24 hours were absolute hell, and the last 3 days have been peaceful with pain mixed in. I've been spending my days sleeping, laying, and recuperating my energy. I'm just not having a good month so far. =/
NOTE: I'm sorry I get into the nitty gritty details, but... this experience was the absolute worst. If you're a bit squeamish from the graphics or what have you, I'll put a short and sweet version in the bottom labeled "TL;DR"
________
Here I was, revving myself back up to gear from this huge slump, when about 15 minutes from waking up and feeling really good, I immediately felt incredibly horrible.
I mean. On the floor in the fetal position whimpering in the worst pain I've ever felt horrible. I had extreme nausea, I had a completely empty stomach so all that could come up was whatever my body could find in my stomach. I was shaking like a leaf, I couldn't move an inch without making the pain worse. Thankfully, I was just conscious enough to bring my phone with me and immediately call
and 
to help me out. The 15 minutes felt like hours as I lay there in complete misery and suffering. My pain got increasingly worse, I knew this was a kidney stone, but it was never this bad.
Normally, I would have some sort of heating element to put it where it hurt and apply pressure. Pox did everything he absolutely could to help calm me, to ease the pain, telling me to think of something else so I didn't give in to my nausea symptoms from all the pain and adrenaline. Even took some over the counter pain medication, the stuff was gone from my system in about 30 minutes. Nothing worked. The very last resort was to go to the ER.
heard my plea, immediately got off his work, grabbed my car keys, and Pox literally carried me into the car to get to the hospital. I REFUSE to have an ambulance if the hospital was so closeby. Apparently an hour goes by, I'm sitting in the chair shaking, clearly in so much pain, losing my cookies (I love that term now) in a bucket in front of so many people in the waiting room. It was absolutely embarrassing, but they couldn't find me a room fast enough. I really hated how it seemed like I was making a scene, but I legitimately could not handle ANYTHING my body was doing. I was in full shut down, I could barely talk, I couldn't walk, the pain was all I could think about. It was absolutely the WORST sitting there in the waiting room of the ER.
Finally a room was found, I was immediately taken back, IV stuck into me about an hour after sitting there in the room just trying to wish the pain away. The doctor didn't want to put me through CT scan because of higher risk of cancer. She writes me some prescriptions after the pain is managed, and she sends me home.
I'm feeling pretty good, I'm hungry, I get dinner, everything is cool. Pox goes home.
15 minutes later, pain flares up AGAIN.
1 AM in the morning, I lose my cookies AGAIN, my entire dinner is gone. At this point, I'm convinced I've lost about 10 pounds throughout this whole day. I try to take some Ibuprofen, I try the heat compress, everything. Nothing worked. I'm in agony. The pain is legitimately like someone stabbing you with a large kitchen knife, keeping it there, and twisting every 10 seconds. The pain doesn't go away. Poor Wolf starts the trek to the hospital again, luckily this time I could walk a little, so I could get to the car by myself. Pox didn't like the idea and told Wolf to take me to his place instead to see if the pain management works this time. Things still weren't working, and poor Riley had to convince Pox to let me go to the hospital. A second time. Pox and Wolf go to take me to the hospital... again... the wait time was definitely a lot shorter... I get a room. Two shots of morphine and CT scan later, they tell me the kidney stone is 4 mm. FOUR MILLIMETERS. I've never had a stone that big in my entire life, NO WONDER it's been hurting so much!
6 AM, I'm finally released, body has finally calmed down, and I'm heavily medicated with prescriptions. Finally pass out.
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TL;DR
This kidney stone is literally the bane of my existence.
I'm on DAY FOUR, DAY TWO since my hospital visits. I have yet to pass the stupid thing, I can feel it. I know where along my body it is. It's mocking me every time I shift only slightly. I'm rested, but my body is absolutely exhausted of all energy expended on this event. I'm trying really hard to get back into gear, but right now I'm way too focused on this thing. This stupid fucker called a kidney stone that is 4 MM!!! I'm so done with it, I want it gone. I've been sucking water like crazy. I've been laying on one side hoping it shifts further. I'm doing everything. If you've never had a kidney stone before, just realize, it is absolutely the worst. I'm definitely not 100%, I'm medicated and at about 40% right now. I'm incredibly drained. I want this stupid kidney stone out of my body, I'm so uncomfortable right now. Not in pain, just really uncomfortable.
If any of you want proof of my visits to the ER, I'll gladly show you. Otherwise, I'm going to stare into the twilight zone and just wish this kidney stone goes away. Bare with me.
Pox, Wolf, and a touch of Riley were the superstars. Pox and Wolf though get a a big gold star for being there every step of the way. My body was expending absolute nightmares, and they were there in my absolute time of need. Those 24 hours were absolute hell, and the last 3 days have been peaceful with pain mixed in. I've been spending my days sleeping, laying, and recuperating my energy. I'm just not having a good month so far. =/
I really have to apologize
Posted 9 years agoAC and last week, I felt like total crap and just... I lost all my motivation to do anything at all. I snapped. I shut down and went into a state of drifting along, unable to feel anything.
So I really apologize for not doing any fursuit work, no commission work, nothing. I'm beyond stressed out. I felt like I haven't done anything with my life, I felt like a total failure, I felt like my existence was completely stagnant and static. Just a one off connection that could easily be cut away if I didn't exist. I felt like I haven't done enough, I couldn't do enough, I simply couldn't feel productive and didn't feel I've produced or helped with anything.
I'm still really struggling. I'm doing my best to push past this. I've just never felt this broken before.
Please bare with me. I'm really sorry that my personal issues have impacted me so much I've just dropped all of my inspiration, my passion, everything. I've lost sight of it. I'm doing so much, I gave myself so much to try to make people happy, to keep them happy, that I've forgotten how degraded I've truly gotten. I gave so many pieces of myself, that I've forgotten how much was too much. I've lost it. I've lost myself. I absolutely hate that I've done this to myself.
I'm doing my best to come back. I'm really sorry for sounding like a broken record (if I seem so), but I'm absolutely broken up right now. I'll do my best to fullfill what I promised with my commissions. Once I finish what I've accumulated. There's going to be some changes around here. I can't keep doing this to myself. I need a change so I can be happier with where I'm going and where I want to be. I just need so much support so I can get there.
I hope you understand. I'm really sorry. I'm so sorry I haven't gotten commissions done as fast as I want them to. I'm so incredibly sorry. I don't want to be that kind of artist that takes peoples money and runs without doing the work. It's not me. I can't do that. I'm trying really hard to do them, but I need myself back too. I'm tired of crying.
Forgive me. I'm so sorry.
So I really apologize for not doing any fursuit work, no commission work, nothing. I'm beyond stressed out. I felt like I haven't done anything with my life, I felt like a total failure, I felt like my existence was completely stagnant and static. Just a one off connection that could easily be cut away if I didn't exist. I felt like I haven't done enough, I couldn't do enough, I simply couldn't feel productive and didn't feel I've produced or helped with anything.
I'm still really struggling. I'm doing my best to push past this. I've just never felt this broken before.
Please bare with me. I'm really sorry that my personal issues have impacted me so much I've just dropped all of my inspiration, my passion, everything. I've lost sight of it. I'm doing so much, I gave myself so much to try to make people happy, to keep them happy, that I've forgotten how degraded I've truly gotten. I gave so many pieces of myself, that I've forgotten how much was too much. I've lost it. I've lost myself. I absolutely hate that I've done this to myself.
I'm doing my best to come back. I'm really sorry for sounding like a broken record (if I seem so), but I'm absolutely broken up right now. I'll do my best to fullfill what I promised with my commissions. Once I finish what I've accumulated. There's going to be some changes around here. I can't keep doing this to myself. I need a change so I can be happier with where I'm going and where I want to be. I just need so much support so I can get there.
I hope you understand. I'm really sorry. I'm so sorry I haven't gotten commissions done as fast as I want them to. I'm so incredibly sorry. I don't want to be that kind of artist that takes peoples money and runs without doing the work. It's not me. I can't do that. I'm trying really hard to do them, but I need myself back too. I'm tired of crying.
Forgive me. I'm so sorry.
Furvilla <3
Posted 9 years agohttp://www.furvilla.com/profile/58342
If you haven't signed up yet, you're more than welcome to use my user ID as referral ( http://www.furvilla.com/register/58342 ) !
You're welcome to friend me too!
Do be fast! Registration for Furvilla goes until the 8th, so if you would like to be part of the Beta, make sure you register now before it closes for a couple months.
If you haven't signed up yet, you're more than welcome to use my user ID as referral ( http://www.furvilla.com/register/58342 ) !
You're welcome to friend me too!
Do be fast! Registration for Furvilla goes until the 8th, so if you would like to be part of the Beta, make sure you register now before it closes for a couple months.
AC Meme!
Posted 9 years agoStolen from 
Where are you staying?
Westin~
What day are you getting there?
Thursday morning, the 30th!
When are you leaving?
Tuesday morning, the 5th!
Who will you be staying with?
And given additional shelter at
's house <3
Are there any panels you might be attending?
Here's my full Sched: https://anthrocon2016.sched.org/rukamae
I am part of the team hosting Telephone's Dutch Angel Dragon Meet/Panel on Friday from 10pm-Midnight in DLCC 413-415
annnnd I'm taking part of two music videos on Friday @ 11 AM, Thursday @ 8 PM, and Sunday 8 PM
Will you be suiting?
A BUNCH
What is your gender?
Female
How old are you?
22
How tall are you?
5'3"
Can I talk to you?
Sure, I'll get distracted easily though XD
Can I touch you?
Ask me
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
I love hugs! Snuggles are for close peoples only ^^;
How can I find you?
Find me with the other DutchAD's, check out my twitter _Rukamae as well!
Can I visit your room?
Nope
Can I buy you drinks?
Sure, I like sweet/fruity things
Can I give you stuff?
Sure!
Do you have a dealers or artist alley table?
Nope
Will you have art in the Art Show? General or Adult sections?
Nope
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Call out Ruru or Click if I'm in suit!
Where will you be most of the time during the days?
EVERYWHERE! CATCH ME IF YOU CAN!!!
What/where will you be eating?
Whatever I find XD
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Asking is always appreciated; dinner plans are reserved for close friends first
Can I take a picture of you?
Of course!
Where are you staying?
Westin~
What day are you getting there?
Thursday morning, the 30th!
When are you leaving?
Tuesday morning, the 5th!
Who will you be staying with?
And given additional shelter at
's house <3Are there any panels you might be attending?
Here's my full Sched: https://anthrocon2016.sched.org/rukamae
I am part of the team hosting Telephone's Dutch Angel Dragon Meet/Panel on Friday from 10pm-Midnight in DLCC 413-415
annnnd I'm taking part of two music videos on Friday @ 11 AM, Thursday @ 8 PM, and Sunday 8 PM
Will you be suiting?
A BUNCH
What is your gender?
Female
How old are you?
22
How tall are you?
5'3"
Can I talk to you?
Sure, I'll get distracted easily though XD
Can I touch you?
Ask me
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
I love hugs! Snuggles are for close peoples only ^^;
How can I find you?
Find me with the other DutchAD's, check out my twitter _Rukamae as well!
Can I visit your room?
Nope
Can I buy you drinks?
Sure, I like sweet/fruity things
Can I give you stuff?
Sure!
Do you have a dealers or artist alley table?
Nope
Will you have art in the Art Show? General or Adult sections?
Nope
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Call out Ruru or Click if I'm in suit!
Where will you be most of the time during the days?
EVERYWHERE! CATCH ME IF YOU CAN!!!
What/where will you be eating?
Whatever I find XD
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Asking is always appreciated; dinner plans are reserved for close friends first
Can I take a picture of you?
Of course!
Furry Network!
Posted 9 years agoI'm not planning on leaving FA any time soon, this is my home here... but I just wanted to let everyone know I'm starting to dabble into Furry Network :)
https://beta.furrynetwork.com/rukamae/
If and when the feature is fixed, I'll have my gallery mirrored to this one here and I'll continue to keep up with both galleries.
I'm not sure about keeping up with other accounts at the moment (they're so cob webby and dusty I know) but I'm definitely taking an interest into FN! Feel free to follow me there!
https://beta.furrynetwork.com/rukamae/
If and when the feature is fixed, I'll have my gallery mirrored to this one here and I'll continue to keep up with both galleries.
I'm not sure about keeping up with other accounts at the moment (they're so cob webby and dusty I know) but I'm definitely taking an interest into FN! Feel free to follow me there!
Badges for AC Completion OPEN
Posted 9 years agoHey everyone! It's been a really long time since I've accepted any kind of badges, but now they're finally back!
To submit for a badge, please fill out this form so I can keep everyone in order: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/1Jp.....KJFHk/viewform
Note: You do NOT have to attend AC to get a badge, I can ship them out to you after the con! If you are outside the USA, please be aware that the shipping cost will be on you!
Any species is welcome!
Chibi: $20
Headshot: $25
Bust: $30
Full: $40
I can do feral or anthro!
I no longer offer shaded badges!
{Edit} I'll have these open for about a week, then slots will close! You're welcome to submit a form and pay later if you must. Payment must be made either immediately or within this week.
To submit for a badge, please fill out this form so I can keep everyone in order: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/1Jp.....KJFHk/viewform
Note: You do NOT have to attend AC to get a badge, I can ship them out to you after the con! If you are outside the USA, please be aware that the shipping cost will be on you!
Any species is welcome!
Chibi: $20
Headshot: $25
Bust: $30
Full: $40
I can do feral or anthro!
I no longer offer shaded badges!
{Edit} I'll have these open for about a week, then slots will close! You're welcome to submit a form and pay later if you must. Payment must be made either immediately or within this week.
Telegram Stickers {OPEN} & Info!
Posted 9 years agoAfter working so hard on my Telegram stickers and from the constant attention I've gotten from the ones I was working on, I've decided to open up for Telegram stickers commissions!
Here's the catch though, and I know it's going to be a bit difficult for some of you, but the one thing I would need from all who are going to commission these from me is patience. Not only because the stickers DO take me a while, but I also have fursuit commissions that I will be working on,
DISCLAIMER: The Telegram stickers WILL be worked on, but at a very slow pace along with other commissions I have in my queue while I work on fursuits. Once all the fursuits in my queue are done and shipped, things will return to normal! So if you're willing to wait a few months for your commission, then you're awesome! It would really help me out, thank you!
If you are not interested in purchasing some stickers, but are interested in helping me out in other ways, please support me on Patreon (link in my profile), fursuit WIP's and doodles will be posted there while I'm slowing the art commissions. You may also tip me at paypal.me/rukamae !
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NOW ONTO THE STICKERS!
There are two categories you may choose from: Regular or 'custom' stickers. They are STRICTLY SFW, I will not do any NSFW under any circumstances. Sorry.
THERE ARE 5 SLOTS AVAILABLE
-Regular stickers are stickers that I have already created with Era (Here annnd here). You DO have the option to "customize" the expression to something else you have in mind. There are 39 expressions available to choose from!
-Custom stickers are ones that I haven't created yet.
Regular stickers are at a rate of $15 per sticker
Custom ones are at $20 per sticker
Payment will be upfront (USD; Paypal) or within 48 hours.
You are allowed a minimum of 5 stickers and go all the way up to a crazy amount of 50 stickers (seriously... if you're crazy enough...)
When stickers are completed, I will note you the link and submit your batch of icons in a collage to FA.
I would prefer to have a two character limit in a pack of stickers. Couples in one sticker is permitted as well with +$8 added to the price of each individual sticker.
All stickers will be drawn as chibi, just like Era.
Any species is welcome!
To apply for a slot, please comment below with this template:
Ref(s) of character(s) -
How many stickers? (5 minimum/50 max) -
What expression numbers would you like (for regular) and/or What expressions would you like? -
If you would like to 'customize' a regular sticker, please specify here with expression number -
Slots:
1.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/20741912/
2.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/20759257/
3.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/21211049/
4. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21227970/
5.
6.
7,
8.
9.
10.
Here's the catch though, and I know it's going to be a bit difficult for some of you, but the one thing I would need from all who are going to commission these from me is patience. Not only because the stickers DO take me a while, but I also have fursuit commissions that I will be working on,
DISCLAIMER: The Telegram stickers WILL be worked on, but at a very slow pace along with other commissions I have in my queue while I work on fursuits. Once all the fursuits in my queue are done and shipped, things will return to normal! So if you're willing to wait a few months for your commission, then you're awesome! It would really help me out, thank you!
If you are not interested in purchasing some stickers, but are interested in helping me out in other ways, please support me on Patreon (link in my profile), fursuit WIP's and doodles will be posted there while I'm slowing the art commissions. You may also tip me at paypal.me/rukamae !
_____________
NOW ONTO THE STICKERS!
There are two categories you may choose from: Regular or 'custom' stickers. They are STRICTLY SFW, I will not do any NSFW under any circumstances. Sorry.
THERE ARE 5 SLOTS AVAILABLE
-Regular stickers are stickers that I have already created with Era (Here annnd here). You DO have the option to "customize" the expression to something else you have in mind. There are 39 expressions available to choose from!
-Custom stickers are ones that I haven't created yet.
Regular stickers are at a rate of $15 per sticker
Custom ones are at $20 per sticker
Payment will be upfront (USD; Paypal) or within 48 hours.
You are allowed a minimum of 5 stickers and go all the way up to a crazy amount of 50 stickers (seriously... if you're crazy enough...)
When stickers are completed, I will note you the link and submit your batch of icons in a collage to FA.
I would prefer to have a two character limit in a pack of stickers. Couples in one sticker is permitted as well with +$8 added to the price of each individual sticker.
All stickers will be drawn as chibi, just like Era.
Any species is welcome!
To apply for a slot, please comment below with this template:
Ref(s) of character(s) -
How many stickers? (5 minimum/50 max) -
What expression numbers would you like (for regular) and/or What expressions would you like? -
If you would like to 'customize' a regular sticker, please specify here with expression number -
Slots:
1.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/20741912/2.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/20759257/3.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/21211049/4.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21227970/5.
6.
7,
8.
9.
10.
