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Yet another update! (because update to previous post XD)
Posted 9 years ago----{UPDATE to http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7550918/}----I'm willing to take up my dads offer, but I'm going to do it my way. The way I know will keep me happy, sane, and overall getting shit done.
1) I will art on my downtimes, whether it's working a little bit on my commission work or doing a quick personal work. There's a pretty good possibility that I'll get commissions done during the three months.
With that in mind (and it's a really big stretch), I'm hoping to keep with a 12 hour schedule, 5 days a week. If it's too much some days, I'll be willing to cut down to 10 hours, but nothing less. This is to ensure I get stuff done faster and more efficiently and still be able to do other important things after fursuit work. I'll be able to focus, stream almost every day, and finish in a timely matter. I find I get things done faster when I'm streaming, chatting with friends, and/or listening to music.
Before that overhaul though, I'm thinking of doing two things. I have a huge really cool project coming up that I'm willing to take multiple slots for (they will be limited), but it'll be essentially a good place holder for those that are willing to pay right now and willing to wait for it. I will announce officially what exactly it is (and some of you already know what it is), I just need to finish the examples x.x . Another thing is I'm planning on also doing adopts as well. It's a bit difficult for me to figure out designs, but it was definitely a boost to my mood seeing how well my previous design went!
If you are willing, I'll be posting a bunch of WIP's to my Patreon of the fursuits I'm working on. If you'd like to support me that way, please do so! It'll help me out without you needing to purchase a huge commission from me, but you're still supporting my work as well :)
Here's my Patreon if you don't want to go to my profile to click the link XD https://www.patreon.com/rukamae?ty=h (My sorta secret project WIP is in there as well ;) )
2) I'm still going to AC, I'm not going to let anybody tell me otherwise. I have.... DETERMINATION.
3) If what I say in section 1 works out, the time shouldn't be too bad at all.
4) I'm still going to see my friends, whether it's at the local furmeet or multistreaming with them next to me or from afar. I work better with friends around (maybe even helping me out), but overall it'll help keep the beast down more importantly. If the beast is silenced, I'm the happiest. :)
Update on moving out
Posted 9 years agoI've hit some snags along the way so my moving has been slowed significantly, half of my stuff is over there while the other half is over here basically x.x
(Below may be a bit TMI but it's important)
One of the biggest snags is my dad got upset because I was a little too late on a payment and he got phonecalls left and right about 'debt relief' (he's cosigned on a lot of my stuff). So he asked me about why I was late. Basically, yes, I did pay my bills, just not at a decent time that people would've liked. I've told him that I've been struggling for a few months, been trying to make it, I do make it just not at the right time, so on so forth. He yelled at me saying I need a job so I can be stable, but like... I already know I need to, but I need to actually MOVE OUT AND SETTLE before I would be comfortable to find a job. The main problem here is time and stress.
After many roundabouts in the conversation, he finally realized the main stressor that's been weighing on me is my fursuit commissions. I will flat out say, I have been EXTREMELY neglectful of my fursuit commissions because I've been so stressed about being able to make the next $300 to pay all my bills for the month and next month. It's been a very vicious cycle, and I've legitimately burnt out to the point I can't even art, I have fursuit commissions that are becoming WAY overdue, and I'm absolutely upset with myself that I've put myself in this neverending loop of trying to keep up my reputation while also being able to have good credit for my future well being so I HAVE to pay things on time...
With that in mind, I basically broke down. I absolutely hate myself for letting things turn out this way but I literally can't get out of it unless someone, ANYONE could step up to help, and I absolutely hate asking people for help at all just so I can relax, finish the fursuits, and never have to take anymore again.
So he struck me a deal.
In short, for the next three months, he pays my bills and I cease art commissions and drawing all together, finish all three suits, no conventions, and no friends.
Problems with those are (of which I told him):
1) I cannot just stop drawing all together. Last time I stopped drawing all together, it lead me to literal madness and I almost took it out on customers when I worked at McDonalds. Seriously. It's not a good idea at all.
2) Conventions are how I can promote my business. AnthroCon is WAY too important to me to just throw away. I've promised way too many people and there's way too many factors that come into play where I literally cannot just NOT go to AnthroCon.
3) Finishing three suits in three months shouldn't be toooooo bad, but I have no negotiation of which I literally have no wiggle room to make any accommodation in case something goes south (like a customer needing a drastic change, machine breaks, etc. etc.).
4) Me not being able to have any kind of social life is like a ticking time bomb. Cabin fever is one thing, but my depression is my very dangerous factor. Many of you don't know, but after two weeks of no human contact literally drives me into a really dark place. I slide into an oblivion that is all around not a very good person to know. The horrible beast likes to claw at my mind and put really terrible ideas in my head, and I'm not ok with visiting that beast at all. I need my people, I can't just disappear for three months without human contact, more or less have someone else to art with. In retrospect, I'm not letting my fursuits get in the way of my friends. My friends are part of my list of high priorities, and I'm keeping it that way.
So I'm kinda in internal turmoil =/ I'm not exactly sure what to do.
I'm willing to take up my dads offer, but I'm going to do it my way. The way I know will keep me happy, sane, and overall getting shit done.
1) I will art on my downtimes, whether it's working a little bit on my commission work or doing a quick personal work. There's a pretty good possibility that I'll get commissions done during the three months.
With that in mind (and it's a really big stretch), I'm hoping to keep with a 12 hour schedule, 5 days a week. If it's too much some days, I'll be willing to cut down to 10 hours, but nothing less. This is to ensure I get stuff done faster and more efficiently and still be able to do other important things after fursuit work. I'll be able to focus, stream almost every day, and finish in a timely matter. I find I get things done faster when I'm streaming, chatting with friends, and/or listening to music.
Before that overhaul though, I'm thinking of doing two things. I have a huge really cool project coming up that I'm willing to take multiple slots for (they will be limited), but it'll be essentially a good place holder for those that are willing to pay right now and willing to wait for it. I will announce officially what exactly it is (and some of you already know what it is), I just need to finish the examples x.x . Another thing is I'm planning on also doing adopts as well. It's a bit difficult for me to figure out designs, but it was definitely a boost to my mood seeing how well my previous design went!
If you are willing, I'll be posting a bunch of WIP's to my Patreon of the fursuits I'm working on. If you'd like to support me that way, please do so! It'll help me out without you needing to purchase a huge commission from me, but you're still supporting my work as well :)
Here's my Patreon if you don't want to go to my profile to click the link XD https://www.patreon.com/rukamae?ty=h (My sorta secret project WIP is in there as well ;) )
2) I'm still going to AC, I'm not going to let anybody tell me otherwise. I have.... DETERMINATION.
3) If what I say in section 1 works out, the time shouldn't be too bad at all.
4) I'm still going to see my friends, whether it's at the local furmeet or multistreaming with them next to me or from afar. I work better with friends around (maybe even helping me out), but overall it'll help keep the beast down more importantly. If the beast is silenced, I'm the happiest. :)
(Below may be a bit TMI but it's important)
One of the biggest snags is my dad got upset because I was a little too late on a payment and he got phonecalls left and right about 'debt relief' (he's cosigned on a lot of my stuff). So he asked me about why I was late. Basically, yes, I did pay my bills, just not at a decent time that people would've liked. I've told him that I've been struggling for a few months, been trying to make it, I do make it just not at the right time, so on so forth. He yelled at me saying I need a job so I can be stable, but like... I already know I need to, but I need to actually MOVE OUT AND SETTLE before I would be comfortable to find a job. The main problem here is time and stress.
After many roundabouts in the conversation, he finally realized the main stressor that's been weighing on me is my fursuit commissions. I will flat out say, I have been EXTREMELY neglectful of my fursuit commissions because I've been so stressed about being able to make the next $300 to pay all my bills for the month and next month. It's been a very vicious cycle, and I've legitimately burnt out to the point I can't even art, I have fursuit commissions that are becoming WAY overdue, and I'm absolutely upset with myself that I've put myself in this neverending loop of trying to keep up my reputation while also being able to have good credit for my future well being so I HAVE to pay things on time...
With that in mind, I basically broke down. I absolutely hate myself for letting things turn out this way but I literally can't get out of it unless someone, ANYONE could step up to help, and I absolutely hate asking people for help at all just so I can relax, finish the fursuits, and never have to take anymore again.
So he struck me a deal.
In short, for the next three months, he pays my bills and I cease art commissions and drawing all together, finish all three suits, no conventions, and no friends.
Problems with those are (of which I told him):
1) I cannot just stop drawing all together. Last time I stopped drawing all together, it lead me to literal madness and I almost took it out on customers when I worked at McDonalds. Seriously. It's not a good idea at all.
2) Conventions are how I can promote my business. AnthroCon is WAY too important to me to just throw away. I've promised way too many people and there's way too many factors that come into play where I literally cannot just NOT go to AnthroCon.
3) Finishing three suits in three months shouldn't be toooooo bad, but I have no negotiation of which I literally have no wiggle room to make any accommodation in case something goes south (like a customer needing a drastic change, machine breaks, etc. etc.).
4) Me not being able to have any kind of social life is like a ticking time bomb. Cabin fever is one thing, but my depression is my very dangerous factor. Many of you don't know, but after two weeks of no human contact literally drives me into a really dark place. I slide into an oblivion that is all around not a very good person to know. The horrible beast likes to claw at my mind and put really terrible ideas in my head, and I'm not ok with visiting that beast at all. I need my people, I can't just disappear for three months without human contact, more or less have someone else to art with. In retrospect, I'm not letting my fursuits get in the way of my friends. My friends are part of my list of high priorities, and I'm keeping it that way.
So I'm kinda in internal turmoil =/ I'm not exactly sure what to do.
----{UPDATE}----I'm willing to take up my dads offer, but I'm going to do it my way. The way I know will keep me happy, sane, and overall getting shit done.
1) I will art on my downtimes, whether it's working a little bit on my commission work or doing a quick personal work. There's a pretty good possibility that I'll get commissions done during the three months.
With that in mind (and it's a really big stretch), I'm hoping to keep with a 12 hour schedule, 5 days a week. If it's too much some days, I'll be willing to cut down to 10 hours, but nothing less. This is to ensure I get stuff done faster and more efficiently and still be able to do other important things after fursuit work. I'll be able to focus, stream almost every day, and finish in a timely matter. I find I get things done faster when I'm streaming, chatting with friends, and/or listening to music.
Before that overhaul though, I'm thinking of doing two things. I have a huge really cool project coming up that I'm willing to take multiple slots for (they will be limited), but it'll be essentially a good place holder for those that are willing to pay right now and willing to wait for it. I will announce officially what exactly it is (and some of you already know what it is), I just need to finish the examples x.x . Another thing is I'm planning on also doing adopts as well. It's a bit difficult for me to figure out designs, but it was definitely a boost to my mood seeing how well my previous design went!
If you are willing, I'll be posting a bunch of WIP's to my Patreon of the fursuits I'm working on. If you'd like to support me that way, please do so! It'll help me out without you needing to purchase a huge commission from me, but you're still supporting my work as well :)
Here's my Patreon if you don't want to go to my profile to click the link XD https://www.patreon.com/rukamae?ty=h (My sorta secret project WIP is in there as well ;) )
2) I'm still going to AC, I'm not going to let anybody tell me otherwise. I have.... DETERMINATION.
3) If what I say in section 1 works out, the time shouldn't be too bad at all.
4) I'm still going to see my friends, whether it's at the local furmeet or multistreaming with them next to me or from afar. I work better with friends around (maybe even helping me out), but overall it'll help keep the beast down more importantly. If the beast is silenced, I'm the happiest. :)
*VERY IMPORTANT* MOVING OUT
Posted 9 years agoSo, not many of you know, but I've been struggling here at home. The final straw was yet one complaint after another about my dad refusing to want to take care of my cats (which means, he complains about feeding them all the time, complains about their meowing, etc. etc. etc.) and I basically had enough. Not only were the cats becoming an absolute pain, while I have to take time out of work to make sure they're quiet while dad works (he works from home), I've been feeling extremely unmotivated to do absolutely anything when it comes to working on my art commissions. I've been struggling to feel inspired, I don't even have a desk and chair to sit at to really feel like a working artist; I've had to live with working, sleeping, eating, and relaxing on a bed. Don't get me wrong, the bed is comfortable to sleep on, but it gets really debilitating real quick when you wake up in it, sit up and start working. It just absolutely sucks. It's uninspiring here in this house, let alone it's difficult to interact with dad much at this point that I'm just not willing to touch on right now.
Anyways, my dad told me a couple days ago that he wants to pull up a lease form and have me sign it by the end of the week. I'm simply not willing to do that at all. I'm not ok with staying here much longer.
So, for the next few days, I'm going to be packing up everything I need, all my possessions, everything, and moving out. I already have a place set up and ready to go for me, and I'll be signing the lease for it tomorrow. In the meantime, I'm going to be really quiet for the next few days until around Sunday. I can't guarantee if I'll do commissions this week, but I'm hoping to stream on Sunday for some sketches or something to make up for all that time I've spent moving and not working. (You should check out this journal though for an icon like mine :3 It'll be worth it~)
I'll see ya soon!
Anyways, my dad told me a couple days ago that he wants to pull up a lease form and have me sign it by the end of the week. I'm simply not willing to do that at all. I'm not ok with staying here much longer.
So, for the next few days, I'm going to be packing up everything I need, all my possessions, everything, and moving out. I already have a place set up and ready to go for me, and I'll be signing the lease for it tomorrow. In the meantime, I'm going to be really quiet for the next few days until around Sunday. I can't guarantee if I'll do commissions this week, but I'm hoping to stream on Sunday for some sketches or something to make up for all that time I've spent moving and not working. (You should check out this journal though for an icon like mine :3 It'll be worth it~)
I'll see ya soon!
YCH Ending soon!
Posted 9 years agoWHY Icons {OPEN}
Posted 9 years agoNOTE: I will not start on the icons straight away, but I will work on them over the next few days or so
Open for these silly icons XD
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19526873/
-Any species is totally welcome!
-Purchasing multiple icons are welcome, it counts as one slot for each person :)
-$20 USD (Animation included!)
-Not much wiggle room for different expressions, but I'm willing to give it a try XD
If you'd like a slot, please fill out this template with the super special secret password 'why you do dis' in the comments below:
Ref(s) -
Phrase ( _____ WHY?!) -
Other Info (Mouth expression?) -
I will reply to you with my paypal.me so you can pay :) If paypal.me won't work for you, please reply to your comment with your paypal email so I can invoice you instead!
Please be ready to pay either immediately or as soon as you can, I do want to get started on these as soon as possible!
Don't know how many slots to open up for, so it'll be loosely unlimited until I feel I have enough workload!
1.
2.
3.
etc.
Open for these silly icons XD
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19526873/
-Any species is totally welcome!
-Purchasing multiple icons are welcome, it counts as one slot for each person :)
-$20 USD (Animation included!)
-Not much wiggle room for different expressions, but I'm willing to give it a try XD
If you'd like a slot, please fill out this template with the super special secret password 'why you do dis' in the comments below:
Ref(s) -
Phrase ( _____ WHY?!) -
Other Info (Mouth expression?) -
I will reply to you with my paypal.me so you can pay :) If paypal.me won't work for you, please reply to your comment with your paypal email so I can invoice you instead!
Please be ready to pay either immediately or as soon as you can, I do want to get started on these as soon as possible!
Don't know how many slots to open up for, so it'll be loosely unlimited until I feel I have enough workload!
1.
2.
3.
etc.
Tumblr and Patreon GO!
Posted 9 years agoSo I've finally revived my patreon, and now decided to start posting some of my work on tumblr!
To support my Patreon, click HERE!
I'm striving to move forward and create animations and comics for characters that I've been dying to share their story with you! Please help make my dream come true
Here's my personal tumblr to see silly posts and antics, and here's my art blog where I'll post a bunch of art and you will be able to share it far and wide into the deep dark void of tumblr... I know, the art blog is a little barren right now, but I'll be building it up shortly, so don't panic! Since I don't understand any other way to do it, I'll be using my personal tumblr to reblog my art from the art blog.
So excited X3
To support my Patreon, click HERE!
I'm striving to move forward and create animations and comics for characters that I've been dying to share their story with you! Please help make my dream come true
Here's my personal tumblr to see silly posts and antics, and here's my art blog where I'll post a bunch of art and you will be able to share it far and wide into the deep dark void of tumblr... I know, the art blog is a little barren right now, but I'll be building it up shortly, so don't panic! Since I don't understand any other way to do it, I'll be using my personal tumblr to reblog my art from the art blog.
So excited X3
Need to sell a lot of stuff, interest?
Posted 9 years agoSo I've been hesitating on wanting to use places like Ebay or any other site because I'm kinda wanting to just send stuff out in bulk than one at a time sort of deal. (It's complicated sorry, I don't know how to explain it better right now).
I'm planning on completely revamping my room to make room for my studio plus my bed, and organizing everything, getting rid of things, etc. There's a lot of stuff I have that's laying around and I know people would enjoy some of the stuff I have than it literally collecting dust. There's also some things I really need to get rid of because it's a really bad part of my life I need out so I can move on.
Everything listed has been kept in a clean area, non-smoking. I've had a cat for a while around this stuff, so there's a little cat on them, but it can be cleaned off.
Here are the things I have that I'm willing to sell:
My Little Ponies - I have a few Generation I and A LOT of Generation III. All are in fantastic condition (they are a bit dusty, but that will be wiped away before shipping) and all of my Gen 3's have their accessories and I have a few MINT still in their box. The only times the boxless ones have been handled were to fix their manes and tails once they came out of their boxes and have been set on display. THEY ARE ALL DISPLAY ONLY MLP's, and I much rather them to be used as such. I'd hate to see them be played with by kids since they have been handled so nicely for so long... I'll have to look through my collection to see which have higher values and such, and there are a couple I do want to keep because I love some features. Otherwise, I need a smaller collection.
Negima Manga Book 29 & 30 - These two are of accidental excess from my almost complete collection of Negima manga. They are perfect condition, no tears or folded corners.
Build-A-Bears - I have a fuzzy tan teddybear with a pink shirt, red skirt, and light up shoes (yes they still work ; can all be removed when arrived at new owners); a tan lop earred rabbit wearing pink bows on her ears, pink skirt, and a white shirt with pink cardigan; a golden retriever I named Ginger, she has a leash and collar and a matching puppy (whom I named Amber), and pink bows on her ears; and a black lab I named Ashley, she has a leash, collar, and a matching puppy. Both dogs do have a kennel that I sharpied with their names, carriers, and I know there are dog bowls somewhere as well. All build-a-bears were handled greatly with care, no rips or tears, are clean just a bit dusty, and just need love. All accessories and clothing can be removed as you wish. Pretty sure I left their "birth" certificates somewhere as well, and pretty sure I saved all of their boxes (don't count on that though).
Porcelain Dolls - I have two of these. Both have hats and brown hair with blue eyes and the other brown eyes. Their hair is a bit messed up after just being stuffed in corners, but they have all the accessories since they were given to me. Minus the hair all crazy, they're in really amazing condition. Nothing is broken or chipped, no rubbed off paint. They're pretty large, about a foot at least. One has a blue dress and a bonnet, the other has a pink dress with a straw hat. Still have their shoes and socks.
Webkins Pink Dinosaur - Given by my cousins, but I'm not a fan of pink or webkins. Their really nice gesture was really flattering, but I think I'll just stick with the really nice letters they gave me and let someone else have the dinosaur (they gave me permission long ago to give it to someone else if I really don't want it, so don't worry XD). The dinosaur has never been registered and still has it's tag, so if you have someone that wants to use it, they still can.
Plushies - I'm just going to compile all the other plushies into one category simply because I don't want to dig through my pile. Essentially, they're all clean, no weird things like goo or anything. Handled with care. A bit dusty, but that's not a huge issue. No tears, no missing eyes or broken ones. Just need some love :) There would probably be a couple plushies than a whole bunch I want to give up, lots of sentimental value in a good chunk of them. (Though it might involve some beanie babies)
Dress - I have a black dress with silver markings and sequins on the corset of the dress. Size 2 (has a little wiggle room to fit a size bigger though), hemmed slightly poorly because of the material to fit my stature of 5' 2". It has a princess ruffles on the bottom and has only been worn once for a wedding dinner in Hawaii (might still smell of Hawaii too). It's otherwise clean and tucked away in storage right now since I've lost interest in it. I would charge around $200 for it since it's a very well made dress. (This is the only one I mostly know a price for at the moment).
There may be some other things I have laying around I want to get rid of, but for now that's the main gist of it. I just want to gauge interest here before I go to see about selling on Ebay instead (which I'm not fond of the idea, but I might have to). There may be some old video games I might find lying around too, but I'll have to do some searching around the house for sure. Comment below if you've got some interest in the stuff I have. After all these years of keeping this stuff around, I've seen the value in all of them and kept them in as good of condition as possible, so I hope the care I took in my stuff would bode well in this situation :)
I'm planning on completely revamping my room to make room for my studio plus my bed, and organizing everything, getting rid of things, etc. There's a lot of stuff I have that's laying around and I know people would enjoy some of the stuff I have than it literally collecting dust. There's also some things I really need to get rid of because it's a really bad part of my life I need out so I can move on.
Everything listed has been kept in a clean area, non-smoking. I've had a cat for a while around this stuff, so there's a little cat on them, but it can be cleaned off.
Here are the things I have that I'm willing to sell:
My Little Ponies - I have a few Generation I and A LOT of Generation III. All are in fantastic condition (they are a bit dusty, but that will be wiped away before shipping) and all of my Gen 3's have their accessories and I have a few MINT still in their box. The only times the boxless ones have been handled were to fix their manes and tails once they came out of their boxes and have been set on display. THEY ARE ALL DISPLAY ONLY MLP's, and I much rather them to be used as such. I'd hate to see them be played with by kids since they have been handled so nicely for so long... I'll have to look through my collection to see which have higher values and such, and there are a couple I do want to keep because I love some features. Otherwise, I need a smaller collection.
Negima Manga Book 29 & 30 - These two are of accidental excess from my almost complete collection of Negima manga. They are perfect condition, no tears or folded corners.
Build-A-Bears - I have a fuzzy tan teddybear with a pink shirt, red skirt, and light up shoes (yes they still work ; can all be removed when arrived at new owners); a tan lop earred rabbit wearing pink bows on her ears, pink skirt, and a white shirt with pink cardigan; a golden retriever I named Ginger, she has a leash and collar and a matching puppy (whom I named Amber), and pink bows on her ears; and a black lab I named Ashley, she has a leash, collar, and a matching puppy. Both dogs do have a kennel that I sharpied with their names, carriers, and I know there are dog bowls somewhere as well. All build-a-bears were handled greatly with care, no rips or tears, are clean just a bit dusty, and just need love. All accessories and clothing can be removed as you wish. Pretty sure I left their "birth" certificates somewhere as well, and pretty sure I saved all of their boxes (don't count on that though).
Porcelain Dolls - I have two of these. Both have hats and brown hair with blue eyes and the other brown eyes. Their hair is a bit messed up after just being stuffed in corners, but they have all the accessories since they were given to me. Minus the hair all crazy, they're in really amazing condition. Nothing is broken or chipped, no rubbed off paint. They're pretty large, about a foot at least. One has a blue dress and a bonnet, the other has a pink dress with a straw hat. Still have their shoes and socks.
Webkins Pink Dinosaur - Given by my cousins, but I'm not a fan of pink or webkins. Their really nice gesture was really flattering, but I think I'll just stick with the really nice letters they gave me and let someone else have the dinosaur (they gave me permission long ago to give it to someone else if I really don't want it, so don't worry XD). The dinosaur has never been registered and still has it's tag, so if you have someone that wants to use it, they still can.
Plushies - I'm just going to compile all the other plushies into one category simply because I don't want to dig through my pile. Essentially, they're all clean, no weird things like goo or anything. Handled with care. A bit dusty, but that's not a huge issue. No tears, no missing eyes or broken ones. Just need some love :) There would probably be a couple plushies than a whole bunch I want to give up, lots of sentimental value in a good chunk of them. (Though it might involve some beanie babies)
Dress - I have a black dress with silver markings and sequins on the corset of the dress. Size 2 (has a little wiggle room to fit a size bigger though), hemmed slightly poorly because of the material to fit my stature of 5' 2". It has a princess ruffles on the bottom and has only been worn once for a wedding dinner in Hawaii (might still smell of Hawaii too). It's otherwise clean and tucked away in storage right now since I've lost interest in it. I would charge around $200 for it since it's a very well made dress. (This is the only one I mostly know a price for at the moment).
There may be some other things I have laying around I want to get rid of, but for now that's the main gist of it. I just want to gauge interest here before I go to see about selling on Ebay instead (which I'm not fond of the idea, but I might have to). There may be some old video games I might find lying around too, but I'll have to do some searching around the house for sure. Comment below if you've got some interest in the stuff I have. After all these years of keeping this stuff around, I've seen the value in all of them and kept them in as good of condition as possible, so I hope the care I took in my stuff would bode well in this situation :)
*Highly Important* The future of my fursuit commissions
Posted 10 years agoI've been holding off on this announcement for a while since I was so hesitant based on some things I've run into over the span of a few months.
TL ; DR I am no longer going to be accepting any further fursuit commissions after the completion of the current ones in my queue.
Essentially, I've grown more accustomed and comfortable with the progress in my art that I've decided I just won't have the time to spare to focus on a fursuit. People would ask me why shouldn't I invest in a sewing machine or have some assistants to help with the fursuits, etc. The complete answer is: I much rather handsew everything...by myself...with little assistance. I feel I have more control with my handsewing than trying to run it through a machine. In fact, I have little to no experience with machines and have a slight fear of them (I really don't want a needle through my finger, thank you). I'm confident with my handsewing and it's actually a lot nicer looking than if I tried to use the machine. Making a suit look seamless is more important to me than running it through the machine and it look like crap. With that, handsewing takes a LOT of time, time I honestly would rather spend with people I care about and time I would rather spend on my own personal well-being, doing personal projects I know I'd enjoy, and overall living how I'd like to. Time I'd rather spend making and selling art so I can essentially pay my bills without having to scrape for change all the time like last year.
I don't hate making fursuits at all, in fact I love seeing my improvement when I actually do finish. But I've decided I care more about my personal projects too much and my dreams, that making fursuits for others just won't cut it for me. I know it's selfish, but I like making things for myself (especially when it's a fursuit), I like to spend money on myself every once in a while and still support my close friends with what I've earned. I love creating artwork for others and myself, but fursuits is something I'd rather enjoy on my own terms without fearing what would come next if I mess up on something or if someone asks for refunds and me having to scramble for money to refund them. It's a mess I won't deal with anymore.
If you have a fursuit commission with me, consider yourself lucky :) . I'm not entirely sure if or when I ever decide to open up for a fursuit or two in the future, but I've decided from now on the fursuit commissions will be most likely a once in a while thing. But what I can promise is that your fursuit will be done, and I really appreciate your incredible patience with me while I work on my art queue and deal with some life issues over the year. I know every artist has problems, people have problems in general. But what has happened over this year was absolutely essential for me to grow as a person so I could be happier. I've learned to be stronger, more independent, and even found my happiness again along the way. I was an ABSOLUTE mess earlier this year, but this year was full of change and I'm actually pretty happy with the adventure I have faced. I've endured so much, and I can happily say I've conquered so much. But I couldn't do any of it without the support of all of my friends, my family, and especially all of my watchers. You all are absolutely incredible for just being you. I really appreciate everything that everyone has done. I really don't know what I would do without all this support.
Despite me not planning on doing any or only doing a few fursuits once in a while, I do want to continue to grow my faux fur collection. I've learned that a lot of furs that are absolutely gorgeous right now, may not be around in the future. I want some of those furs in case I actually want to make something myself or make a premade suit and use the unique furs (especially if they're discontinued). So the unique colours that some fursona's have can actually be achieved when my fur collection grows a bit.
To reiterate, I will be finishing the current queue fursuits sometime during 2016, but I will not be accepting any further fursuit commissions unless I absolutely feel ok with keeping up with it.
Thank you for understanding, and hope you have happy holidays!
TL ; DR I am no longer going to be accepting any further fursuit commissions after the completion of the current ones in my queue.
Essentially, I've grown more accustomed and comfortable with the progress in my art that I've decided I just won't have the time to spare to focus on a fursuit. People would ask me why shouldn't I invest in a sewing machine or have some assistants to help with the fursuits, etc. The complete answer is: I much rather handsew everything...by myself...with little assistance. I feel I have more control with my handsewing than trying to run it through a machine. In fact, I have little to no experience with machines and have a slight fear of them (I really don't want a needle through my finger, thank you). I'm confident with my handsewing and it's actually a lot nicer looking than if I tried to use the machine. Making a suit look seamless is more important to me than running it through the machine and it look like crap. With that, handsewing takes a LOT of time, time I honestly would rather spend with people I care about and time I would rather spend on my own personal well-being, doing personal projects I know I'd enjoy, and overall living how I'd like to. Time I'd rather spend making and selling art so I can essentially pay my bills without having to scrape for change all the time like last year.
I don't hate making fursuits at all, in fact I love seeing my improvement when I actually do finish. But I've decided I care more about my personal projects too much and my dreams, that making fursuits for others just won't cut it for me. I know it's selfish, but I like making things for myself (especially when it's a fursuit), I like to spend money on myself every once in a while and still support my close friends with what I've earned. I love creating artwork for others and myself, but fursuits is something I'd rather enjoy on my own terms without fearing what would come next if I mess up on something or if someone asks for refunds and me having to scramble for money to refund them. It's a mess I won't deal with anymore.
If you have a fursuit commission with me, consider yourself lucky :) . I'm not entirely sure if or when I ever decide to open up for a fursuit or two in the future, but I've decided from now on the fursuit commissions will be most likely a once in a while thing. But what I can promise is that your fursuit will be done, and I really appreciate your incredible patience with me while I work on my art queue and deal with some life issues over the year. I know every artist has problems, people have problems in general. But what has happened over this year was absolutely essential for me to grow as a person so I could be happier. I've learned to be stronger, more independent, and even found my happiness again along the way. I was an ABSOLUTE mess earlier this year, but this year was full of change and I'm actually pretty happy with the adventure I have faced. I've endured so much, and I can happily say I've conquered so much. But I couldn't do any of it without the support of all of my friends, my family, and especially all of my watchers. You all are absolutely incredible for just being you. I really appreciate everything that everyone has done. I really don't know what I would do without all this support.
Despite me not planning on doing any or only doing a few fursuits once in a while, I do want to continue to grow my faux fur collection. I've learned that a lot of furs that are absolutely gorgeous right now, may not be around in the future. I want some of those furs in case I actually want to make something myself or make a premade suit and use the unique furs (especially if they're discontinued). So the unique colours that some fursona's have can actually be achieved when my fur collection grows a bit.
To reiterate, I will be finishing the current queue fursuits sometime during 2016, but I will not be accepting any further fursuit commissions unless I absolutely feel ok with keeping up with it.
Thank you for understanding, and hope you have happy holidays!
MFF Recap and Updates!
Posted 10 years agoHey everyone!
Back from MFF and I had a blast (mostly). For most of the weekend I met a lot of new people and have been to a lot of room parties with the archangels and several others. At the same time, I was around so many new people I kinda had a hard time interacting with everyone since they all mostly were closer to each other with their friends than I was with everyone else that I did know ;-;. From all that I've been honestly extremely emotionally and socially drained since I kinda felt more comfortable being with people I knew about than being around those that were friends of friends, if you catch my drift. Not that I hate meeting new people, but it's moreso that I've met SO MANY all at once that I kinda turned into a tiny ball of shyness. Basically, Thursday was mostly all sleeping (since Riley, Pox, and I essentially stayed up from Wednesday to Thursday morning to catch our super early flight); Friday was mostly a suiting and catch up day and an amazing dinner at a steakhouse with major suit maker friends of Riley and Telephone; Saturday was all about Dutch Angel Dragons and hanging out with everyone plus archangels and Telephone.
Sunday was a pretty emotional day for me, I was feeling very low since I woke up that morning (plus I had to wake up a bit early to go to a pretty special photo shoot; no worries, I got a nap afterwards). Some events happened and I basically went into a very silent mode for a good chunk of the day until in the evening we went out for sushi. I brightened up a little from there. We get back into the hotel, we're still stupid high energy so we go to Ino's room and suit up. (Note: Yes, I became Telephone). From then on, I started enjoying my con again.
We left Monday afternoon, and we had an airport con with a few friends and proceeded to pass out the moment we got home.
Essentially, I had a really relaxing con, can't wait for next year for sure.
---
Update of what has happened during my three weeks of silence:
I'm not one to share much about my personal reasons of why I do things unless you're a close friend, but I'll start like this:
I'm not at home right now. I have not been there for about three and half weeks. I've essentially taken my cats, my work supplies, and some clothes with me to a different location to get away from my dads house. It started out as just a house sitting escapade, but it then turned into a much longer stay the longer I stayed away from my dads house. I did not realize how much safer and clearer minded I have felt while being away from my dads house, that I have started thinking about perhaps moving out a bit sooner than I expected. Just so you're all aware, so you don't think it's why I'm not home: No, I am not being abused by my dad in any way. In fact, I still like my dad, but we do not see eye to eye when it comes to how things are run or even talking about personal issues. I have wasted too much patience, too much kindness, and too much forgiveness on this man that I can no longer feel safe. This meaning I feel exceptionally trapped and unsafe sharing any personal feelings with my own father about anything I am going through in my life. We never speak about anything, and when we do my dad just loves to just bury it under the rug and disproving anything I want to say or share. I constantly feel alone while being at that house, and have shed too many tears than I can count. He doesn't understand, and he doesn't want to understand because he always has to be right. He hates my cats and has been very loud and adamant about his displeasure with them. I can never relax in that house, and I constantly bury myself into seclusion or work because I feel so trapped. I stopped eating regularly, I stay awake later because I'm so afraid of going downstairs (his office is right down the stairs) until he goes to bed. I just can't interact with him any longer. He is foreboding, overly authoritative, and too old school for me to feel safe. It even got to the point I don't even feel my cats are safe to be there while I'm even out for an hour. So, I told my dad I was going to be gone, and left the premises with my cats. I have been jumping between two separate residences where my closest friends are (they have been so amazing with helping me live elsewhere and even provide a place for my cats). I've been soaring as much as I can with the little money I have accrued from my work, paid for my bills when they come, and essentially have been living as independently as possible (with some help along the way).
With that in mind, I have done my best to heal mentally and emotionally while also doing some suit work (as promised). I've done a lot of patterning work as well as started work on a head.
Planning on returning to the house on Saturday, but I definitely have needed to take a step back and look at my situation without being in it. My conclusion from all this, I need to get out of that house. But I may need to leave a lot sooner than I've been planning (which is around late March-May). I REALLY don't want to move out so soon, but if it means that I can feel free from my dad and can actually feel like myself again, I just might HAVE to...
Along with that, for a week before MFF I essentially helped save a life with Pox. Ever since, I have been making sure that this person is still ok and is in good hands with him. I won't share anymore info about that, but if I do disappear for a few days again, just know it's most likely because of that.
I'll be returning to work tomorrow, but I'll be focusing on suits again until I go home (with some drawing thrown in there too...). We'll see how it goes~
Thank you all so much for your patience!
-Ruka
Back from MFF and I had a blast (mostly). For most of the weekend I met a lot of new people and have been to a lot of room parties with the archangels and several others. At the same time, I was around so many new people I kinda had a hard time interacting with everyone since they all mostly were closer to each other with their friends than I was with everyone else that I did know ;-;. From all that I've been honestly extremely emotionally and socially drained since I kinda felt more comfortable being with people I knew about than being around those that were friends of friends, if you catch my drift. Not that I hate meeting new people, but it's moreso that I've met SO MANY all at once that I kinda turned into a tiny ball of shyness. Basically, Thursday was mostly all sleeping (since Riley, Pox, and I essentially stayed up from Wednesday to Thursday morning to catch our super early flight); Friday was mostly a suiting and catch up day and an amazing dinner at a steakhouse with major suit maker friends of Riley and Telephone; Saturday was all about Dutch Angel Dragons and hanging out with everyone plus archangels and Telephone.
Sunday was a pretty emotional day for me, I was feeling very low since I woke up that morning (plus I had to wake up a bit early to go to a pretty special photo shoot; no worries, I got a nap afterwards). Some events happened and I basically went into a very silent mode for a good chunk of the day until in the evening we went out for sushi. I brightened up a little from there. We get back into the hotel, we're still stupid high energy so we go to Ino's room and suit up. (Note: Yes, I became Telephone). From then on, I started enjoying my con again.
We left Monday afternoon, and we had an airport con with a few friends and proceeded to pass out the moment we got home.
Essentially, I had a really relaxing con, can't wait for next year for sure.
---
Update of what has happened during my three weeks of silence:
I'm not one to share much about my personal reasons of why I do things unless you're a close friend, but I'll start like this:
I'm not at home right now. I have not been there for about three and half weeks. I've essentially taken my cats, my work supplies, and some clothes with me to a different location to get away from my dads house. It started out as just a house sitting escapade, but it then turned into a much longer stay the longer I stayed away from my dads house. I did not realize how much safer and clearer minded I have felt while being away from my dads house, that I have started thinking about perhaps moving out a bit sooner than I expected. Just so you're all aware, so you don't think it's why I'm not home: No, I am not being abused by my dad in any way. In fact, I still like my dad, but we do not see eye to eye when it comes to how things are run or even talking about personal issues. I have wasted too much patience, too much kindness, and too much forgiveness on this man that I can no longer feel safe. This meaning I feel exceptionally trapped and unsafe sharing any personal feelings with my own father about anything I am going through in my life. We never speak about anything, and when we do my dad just loves to just bury it under the rug and disproving anything I want to say or share. I constantly feel alone while being at that house, and have shed too many tears than I can count. He doesn't understand, and he doesn't want to understand because he always has to be right. He hates my cats and has been very loud and adamant about his displeasure with them. I can never relax in that house, and I constantly bury myself into seclusion or work because I feel so trapped. I stopped eating regularly, I stay awake later because I'm so afraid of going downstairs (his office is right down the stairs) until he goes to bed. I just can't interact with him any longer. He is foreboding, overly authoritative, and too old school for me to feel safe. It even got to the point I don't even feel my cats are safe to be there while I'm even out for an hour. So, I told my dad I was going to be gone, and left the premises with my cats. I have been jumping between two separate residences where my closest friends are (they have been so amazing with helping me live elsewhere and even provide a place for my cats). I've been soaring as much as I can with the little money I have accrued from my work, paid for my bills when they come, and essentially have been living as independently as possible (with some help along the way).
With that in mind, I have done my best to heal mentally and emotionally while also doing some suit work (as promised). I've done a lot of patterning work as well as started work on a head.
Planning on returning to the house on Saturday, but I definitely have needed to take a step back and look at my situation without being in it. My conclusion from all this, I need to get out of that house. But I may need to leave a lot sooner than I've been planning (which is around late March-May). I REALLY don't want to move out so soon, but if it means that I can feel free from my dad and can actually feel like myself again, I just might HAVE to...
Along with that, for a week before MFF I essentially helped save a life with Pox. Ever since, I have been making sure that this person is still ok and is in good hands with him. I won't share anymore info about that, but if I do disappear for a few days again, just know it's most likely because of that.
I'll be returning to work tomorrow, but I'll be focusing on suits again until I go home (with some drawing thrown in there too...). We'll see how it goes~
Thank you all so much for your patience!
-Ruka
OMG Icons ROUND 4 *SPECIAL* {CLOSED (for now...)}
Posted 10 years agoNOTE: I WILL NOT START ON ANY ICONS UNTIL AT LEAST 10 SLOTS HAVE PAID! THIS WILL STAY OPEN UNTIL ALL SLOTS ARE FILLED!
Examples of the icons:
Regular: Era, Pox, Riley, Clio, Telephone, Mon, Remix, Squeeze, Karadur, Marvol, Clair, Protocol, Chels, Rina, Fritz, Zig Zag, Mizu, Misty, Midnight,Retro, Jinxy, Littilwood, Damascus, Lemon, Tea, Vedana, Napoleon, Radience, Nigiri, Sunshine, Voodoo, Eerie, Whispur, Nova
Evil: Xivk
Angry: Dagga, Twig-Lee
Sly: Helix, Fenway, Lynxy, Ezekiael, Oliver, Wendigo
Sad: Digi-Tale
Silly: Toast, Token, Nameless
Tongue Out: Yuudoku, Tatsumai, Polygon, Seoul
Happy: (Excited) Akira, (Sassy) Rykio
Entranced: Treble
Grumpy: Aisu
Crazy: Ise
----
-Any species is totally welcome!
-If you want multiple icons, you're more than welcome to have as many as your heart desires, it still counts as one slot!
-THEY ARE $20, ANIMATION IS PART OF THE COST!
If you'd like an icon, the magic password is 'turkeys are awesome', and please fill out this form in the comments below:
Ref(s):
Blush or no blush:
Angry, Sad,Sly or Default (surprised) Eyes?:
Other info (such as different mouth expression, etc.):
Please reply to your comment with your paypal email so I can invoice you! (it will be hidden once it's sent!)
Small inspiration bump
There are 50 slots for icons! (not anymore, it's closed)
annnnnnnnnnd GO!
1. wolfwings {P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18484224/
2. dj-losty {P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18675779/
3. nightwolfcostumes {P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18932381/ , http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19042692/
4. littleworldscollide {P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19043342/ , http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19043360/
5. levamplove {P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19043559/
6. jitterbeancoffee {P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19043753/
7. keiju {P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19043902/
8. flamesvoices {P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19044085/
Examples of the icons:
Regular: Era, Pox, Riley, Clio, Telephone, Mon, Remix, Squeeze, Karadur, Marvol, Clair, Protocol, Chels, Rina, Fritz, Zig Zag, Mizu, Misty, Midnight,Retro, Jinxy, Littilwood, Damascus, Lemon, Tea, Vedana, Napoleon, Radience, Nigiri, Sunshine, Voodoo, Eerie, Whispur, Nova
Evil: Xivk
Angry: Dagga, Twig-Lee
Sly: Helix, Fenway, Lynxy, Ezekiael, Oliver, Wendigo
Sad: Digi-Tale
Silly: Toast, Token, Nameless
Tongue Out: Yuudoku, Tatsumai, Polygon, Seoul
Happy: (Excited) Akira, (Sassy) Rykio
Entranced: Treble
Grumpy: Aisu
Crazy: Ise
----
-Any species is totally welcome!
-If you want multiple icons, you're more than welcome to have as many as your heart desires, it still counts as one slot!
-THEY ARE $20, ANIMATION IS PART OF THE COST!
If you'd like an icon, the magic password is 'turkeys are awesome', and please fill out this form in the comments below:
Ref(s):
Blush or no blush:
Angry, Sad,Sly or Default (surprised) Eyes?:
Other info (such as different mouth expression, etc.):
Please reply to your comment with your paypal email so I can invoice you! (it will be hidden once it's sent!)
Small inspiration bump
There are 50 slots for icons! (not anymore, it's closed)
annnnnnnnnnd GO!
1. wolfwings {P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18484224/
2. dj-losty {P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18675779/
3. nightwolfcostumes {P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18932381/ , http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19042692/
4. littleworldscollide {P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19043342/ , http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19043360/
5. levamplove {P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19043559/
6. jitterbeancoffee {P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19043753/
7. keiju {P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19043902/
8. flamesvoices {P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19044085/
MFF Meme
Posted 10 years ago
Where are you staying?
The Hilton across the street from main hotel~
What day are you getting there?
Thursday
What day are you leaving?
Monday
How are you traveling?
Plaaaaaane
Who will you be rooming with?
<--- these two awesomes and 
and one other I don't remember XDWhere will you be most of the time during the convention?
EVERYWHERE, try to catch me!
Who will you be with?
Mostly all my friends and DutchAD's
How is the best way to find you?
Look for Era or Click! (I also always wear my blue harness on the con floor :3 )
Are there any panels you might be attending?
The DutchAD one for sure! Others not sure XD
Do you do free art?
No
Do you do trade?
Nope
Do you do commissions?
Yes OwO
Do you have prints/CDs?
No
Will you be suiting?
Yus~
What is your gender?
Female
How old are you?
21
How tall are you?
5' 2" (tiny Ruru is tiny)
Are you taken? Are you looking for a 'mate'?
I'm taken! I'm certainly quite happy thank you.
Can I touch you?
I like hugs! But please be respectful and don't poke me >:(
Can I talk to you?
Sure! Though I might run off to do other things after XD
Can I buy you lots of drinks?
Hate the taste of alcohol, but I like juice and soda :)
Can I give you lots of money?
Erm, sure! I'd love a commission :D
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Yes hugs! Snuggles are for my specials like really good friends
Are you nice?
Yes :3
Will you be going to parties?
Only party I'm going to is the DutchAD party XD
Do you do drugs/drink/smoke?
No, no, and no. I don't mind if you choose to do it, just don't involve me.
What/where will you be eating?
Dunno XD I do whatever.
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc.
As long as my friends are cool with it! The more the merrier!
Can I take your picture?
For sure! I especially love it when I get suit pictures
Important Updates on Commissions!!
Posted 10 years agoI'm currently working on a few more art commissions before I make a switch to the fursuits I owe. I have two fullsuits (one is a personal suit), and a partial to finish by around MFF. So if you have already submitted a form for a commission, be aware I will be getting to it soon!
From this point until end of MFF: If you submit a commission form, PLEASE be aware that I will not get to your art commission until a week after MFF!
This plan is to ensure that I get my fursuits complete as well as have a really good start on them.
Thanks for understanding!
From this point until end of MFF: If you submit a commission form, PLEASE be aware that I will not get to your art commission until a week after MFF!
This plan is to ensure that I get my fursuits complete as well as have a really good start on them.
Thanks for understanding!
About my OMG icons or just anything else...
Posted 10 years agoPlease remember that ALL icon commissions are ONLY taken through journals!
I've been getting several inquiries about making an OMG icon for someone, but I simply cannot accept them until I open for more.
I'll repeat: I AM NOT TAKING ICON COMMISSIONS AT THIS TIME. PLEASE DON'T NOTE ME TO ASK ABOUT ONE.
I do need a major cooldown period between each batch of OMG icons. At this point, it doesn't typically take too much effort to finish them and they've become quick and easy. But I can't do icons day in and day out. I have a couple outstanding commissions at the moment, as well as fursuits I'm really wanting to get started on. So, as much as I'd love to do more, I need to look at what my workload looks like before I can tackle more icons on top of other things as well.
Thank you so much for all the interest though! I truly enjoy doing each icon, I just need some time :3
I've been getting several inquiries about making an OMG icon for someone, but I simply cannot accept them until I open for more.
I'll repeat: I AM NOT TAKING ICON COMMISSIONS AT THIS TIME. PLEASE DON'T NOTE ME TO ASK ABOUT ONE.
I do need a major cooldown period between each batch of OMG icons. At this point, it doesn't typically take too much effort to finish them and they've become quick and easy. But I can't do icons day in and day out. I have a couple outstanding commissions at the moment, as well as fursuits I'm really wanting to get started on. So, as much as I'd love to do more, I need to look at what my workload looks like before I can tackle more icons on top of other things as well.
Thank you so much for all the interest though! I truly enjoy doing each icon, I just need some time :3
ABC Meme!
Posted 10 years agoBecause I'm bored and I can XD
A - Age
21
B - Biggest fear
Roller coasters, Volcanoes, and being alone for a bit too long. They all are pretty equal.
C - Cold or warm weather?
I like warm weather :3
D - Drink you last had
Sprite / Water
E - Extraterrestrials, do they exist?
I don't think we're the only ones in the universe, so yes~
F - First thing you did when you woke up
Day dream, check facebook and messages
G - Ghosts, are they real?
Yessssssssss
H - How tall are you?
5' 3"
I - In love with someone?
Yus yes yep uhuh mhm!
J - Jealous of someone?
Hm... I don't really think so.
K - Killed anyone?
Uh, no XD
L - Last time you ever cried
I think a week ago?
M - Music genre you dislike the most
Country and rap
N - Newest acquisition
Uhhh... I learned how to lineart better?
O - One wish
It wouldn't come true if I told you XP
P - Pie flavour, which is your favourite?
I don't like pie, so my favourite custard is cheesecake and my favourite cake is red velvet
Q - Question you often ask
Why?
R - Reason to smile
I have too many to list
S - Song you like the most
Right now? Honey I'm good by Andy Grammer
T - Time you woke up
Around 11 am
U - Underwear color
Blue
V - Videogame you like the most
Portal 2 always has a special place in my heart
W - Worst habits
I chew on my fingernails when I'm nervous
X - X-rays taken
My wrist, my stomach, and my kidneys
Y - Your favorite food
Blood Oranges!!!!
Z - Zodiac sign
Aries~
A - Age
21
B - Biggest fear
Roller coasters, Volcanoes, and being alone for a bit too long. They all are pretty equal.
C - Cold or warm weather?
I like warm weather :3
D - Drink you last had
Sprite / Water
E - Extraterrestrials, do they exist?
I don't think we're the only ones in the universe, so yes~
F - First thing you did when you woke up
Day dream, check facebook and messages
G - Ghosts, are they real?
Yessssssssss
H - How tall are you?
5' 3"
I - In love with someone?
Yus yes yep uhuh mhm!
J - Jealous of someone?
Hm... I don't really think so.
K - Killed anyone?
Uh, no XD
L - Last time you ever cried
I think a week ago?
M - Music genre you dislike the most
Country and rap
N - Newest acquisition
Uhhh... I learned how to lineart better?
O - One wish
It wouldn't come true if I told you XP
P - Pie flavour, which is your favourite?
I don't like pie, so my favourite custard is cheesecake and my favourite cake is red velvet
Q - Question you often ask
Why?
R - Reason to smile
I have too many to list
S - Song you like the most
Right now? Honey I'm good by Andy Grammer
T - Time you woke up
Around 11 am
U - Underwear color
Blue
V - Videogame you like the most
Portal 2 always has a special place in my heart
W - Worst habits
I chew on my fingernails when I'm nervous
X - X-rays taken
My wrist, my stomach, and my kidneys
Y - Your favorite food
Blood Oranges!!!!
Z - Zodiac sign
Aries~
COMMISSIONS ARE OPEN!
Posted 10 years agoI took a longer break than I probably should've, but I needed to get some commissions over with before I felt comfortable enough to accept new ones :)
So yay!
Here's my PRICESHEET
Here's my COMMISSION FORM
Happy commissioning :)
So yay!
Here's my PRICESHEET
Here's my COMMISSION FORM
Happy commissioning :)
OMG Icons ROUND 3 [CLOSED]
Posted 10 years agoSorry about not opening these when I said I would XD, I got caught up with hanging out with my friends! (*pokes 
* >:3 )
But with that aside; I am officially opening for another round of OMG Icons!
NOTE: I WILL NOT START ON ANY ICONS UNTIL EVERYONE HAS PAID FOR THEIR SLOT! THIS WILL STAY OPEN UNTIL ALL SLOTS ARE FILLED!
Examples of the icons:
Regular: Era, Pox, Riley, Clio, Telephone, Mon, Remix, Squeeze, Karadur, Marvol, Clair, Protocol, Chels, Rina, Fritz, Zig Zag, Mizu, Misty, Midnight,Retro, Jinxy, Littilwood, Damascus
Evil: Xivk
Angry: Dagga, Twig-Lee
Sly: Helix
Sad: Digi-Tale
Silly: Toast
Tongue Out: Yuudoku
Happy: (Excited) Akira, (Sassy) Rykio
----
-Any species is totally welcome!
-If you want multiple icons, you're more than welcome to have as many as your heart desires, it still counts as one slot!
-THEY ARE $15, ANIMATION IS PART OF THE COST!
If you'd like an icon, the magic password is roses, and please fill out this form in the comments below:
Ref(s):
Blush or no blush:
Angry, Sad,Sly or Default (surprised) Eyes?:
Other info (such as different mouth expression, etc.):
Please reply to your comment with your paypal email so I can invoice you! (it will be hidden once it's sent!)
Small inspiration bump
There are 20 slots!
annnnnnnnnnd GO!
1.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17411304/
2.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17447171/
3.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17447785/
4.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17448450/
5.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17448826/
6.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17449670/
7.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17544168/
8.
{2} {P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17544453/ , http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17544462/
9.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17571312/
10.
{3} {P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17740495/ , http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17740531/ , http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17740574/
11.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17860762/
12.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17861051/
13.
{2} {P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17868160/ , http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17868184/
14.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17868672/
15.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17869017/
16.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17899186/
17.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17899785/
18.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17899967/
19.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17913477/
20.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17913779/
* >:3 )But with that aside; I am officially opening for another round of OMG Icons!
NOTE: I WILL NOT START ON ANY ICONS UNTIL EVERYONE HAS PAID FOR THEIR SLOT! THIS WILL STAY OPEN UNTIL ALL SLOTS ARE FILLED!
Examples of the icons:
Regular: Era, Pox, Riley, Clio, Telephone, Mon, Remix, Squeeze, Karadur, Marvol, Clair, Protocol, Chels, Rina, Fritz, Zig Zag, Mizu, Misty, Midnight,Retro, Jinxy, Littilwood, Damascus
Evil: Xivk
Angry: Dagga, Twig-Lee
Sly: Helix
Sad: Digi-Tale
Silly: Toast
Tongue Out: Yuudoku
Happy: (Excited) Akira, (Sassy) Rykio
----
-Any species is totally welcome!
-If you want multiple icons, you're more than welcome to have as many as your heart desires, it still counts as one slot!
-THEY ARE $15, ANIMATION IS PART OF THE COST!
If you'd like an icon, the magic password is roses, and please fill out this form in the comments below:
Ref(s):
Blush or no blush:
Angry, Sad,Sly or Default (surprised) Eyes?:
Other info (such as different mouth expression, etc.):
Please reply to your comment with your paypal email so I can invoice you! (it will be hidden once it's sent!)
Small inspiration bump
There are 20 slots!
annnnnnnnnnd GO!
1.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17411304/2.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17447171/3.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17447785/4.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17448450/5.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17448826/6.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17449670/7.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17544168/8.
{2} {P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17544453/ , http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17544462/9.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17571312/10.
{3} {P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17740495/ , http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17740531/ , http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17740574/11.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17860762/12.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17861051/13.
{2} {P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17868160/ , http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17868184/14.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17868672/15.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17869017/16.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17899186/17.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17899785/18.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17899967/19.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17913477/20.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17913779/OMG Icons ROUND 2 {CLOSED;Will open a new batch eventually!}
Posted 10 years agoAlright! So I'll be opening for these, and I'll be working on them after I finish a couple commissions on my end, so I'll be working on all of them from now til around Sunday most likely :)
{Edit} Can't believe to not have this written XD I won't start work until payment is made!
Any species is totally welcome! All examples are all over my gallery!
All icons are $15 and will be animated like all the others!
If you'd like an icon, the magic password is chocolate dinosaurs, and fill out this form:
Ref:
Blush or no blush:
Angry, Sad,Sly or Default (surprised) Eyes?:
Other info (such as different mouth expression, etc.):
Please reply to your comment with your paypal email so I can invoice you! (it will be hidden once it's sent!) If you'd like mutiples (such as couple icons) it counts as one slot!
I'll have 15 slots open, annnnnnnnnnnnnnnd....
GO!
Small inspiration bump
Slots:
1.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16372454/
2.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16421414/
3.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16372838/
4.
{P} https://www.furaffinity.net/view/16422061/
5. {P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16438262/
6.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16373404/
7.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16525655/
8.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16439169/
9.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16457133/
10.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16526235/
11.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16457670/
12.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16597255/
13.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16598380/
14.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16598922/
15.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16600960/
{Edit} Can't believe to not have this written XD I won't start work until payment is made!
Any species is totally welcome! All examples are all over my gallery!
All icons are $15 and will be animated like all the others!
If you'd like an icon, the magic password is chocolate dinosaurs, and fill out this form:
Ref:
Blush or no blush:
Angry, Sad,Sly or Default (surprised) Eyes?:
Other info (such as different mouth expression, etc.):
Please reply to your comment with your paypal email so I can invoice you! (it will be hidden once it's sent!) If you'd like mutiples (such as couple icons) it counts as one slot!
I'll have 15 slots open, annnnnnnnnnnnnnnd....
GO!
Small inspiration bump
Slots:
1.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16372454/2.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16421414/3.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16372838/4.
{P} https://www.furaffinity.net/view/16422061/5.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16438262/6.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16373404/7.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16525655/8.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16439169/9.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16457133/10.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16526235/11.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16457670/12.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16597255/13.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16598380/14.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16598922/15.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16600960/OMG Icons CLOSED {For now}!!
Posted 10 years ago{EDIT} Since I've been incredibly stupid, the icons have been renamed 'OMG' Icons, and I'd like to mention that the animation idea was sorta inspired by an artist I just recently discovered (literally like 2 days ago). But I'd also like to mention I've also had this idea before I even knew she existed, but to be fair, I'd like to give her some credit. I've made a pretty big effort to apologize and compromise, so please don't be alarmed!
Alright you crazies, I'm opening some icon slots for you guys!
They will be $15! Which DOES include the animation (because it's just not the same without it). I can take ANY species, and if there are wings, they will be super simplified! I would prefer to keep the same expression, but I'm willing to change the mouth and eyes slightly. PAYPAL ONLY PLEASE! Note: I will not start work until it's paid!
Also, if you want multiples, it will count as ONE slot for you!
Here are all the examples (and I'm sorry if FA is horrendously stupid right now because it hasn't switched some of the tiny icons to my icons yet -.-):
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16157088/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16159148/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16158196/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16159743/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16160547/
If you want to snag one, the magic password is puppies. Also here's your little form to comment below with:
Ref:
Blush or No Blush:
Expression (same or custom? If custom, tell me what you want changed):
Comment in reply to your reply with your paypal email so I can invoice you!
There are about 10 slots open for now, I will see if I can take more later! (This list will be updated)
Slots:
1. {P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16164953/
2.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16165672/
3.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16166717/
4.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16167371/
5. X2
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16173372/ , http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16173400/
6.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16322687/
7.
{P} https://www.furaffinity.net/view/16173639/
8.
{P} https://www.furaffinity.net/view/16174188/
9.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16175184/
10. {P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16182782/
Go ahead and comment if you're interested! I'm gonna take a small lunch break before I get started!
(literally like 2 days ago). But I'd also like to mention I've also had this idea before I even knew she existed, but to be fair, I'd like to give her some credit. I've made a pretty big effort to apologize and compromise, so please don't be alarmed!Alright you crazies, I'm opening some icon slots for you guys!
They will be $15! Which DOES include the animation (because it's just not the same without it). I can take ANY species, and if there are wings, they will be super simplified! I would prefer to keep the same expression, but I'm willing to change the mouth and eyes slightly. PAYPAL ONLY PLEASE! Note: I will not start work until it's paid!
Also, if you want multiples, it will count as ONE slot for you!
Here are all the examples (and I'm sorry if FA is horrendously stupid right now because it hasn't switched some of the tiny icons to my icons yet -.-):
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16157088/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16159148/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16158196/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16159743/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16160547/If you want to snag one, the magic password is puppies. Also here's your little form to comment below with:
Ref:
Blush or No Blush:
Expression (same or custom? If custom, tell me what you want changed):
Comment in reply to your reply with your paypal email so I can invoice you!
There are about 10 slots open for now, I will see if I can take more later! (This list will be updated)
Slots:
1.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16164953/2.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16165672/3.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16166717/4.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16167371/5. X2
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16173372/ , http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16173400/6.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16322687/7.
{P} https://www.furaffinity.net/view/16173639/8.
{P} https://www.furaffinity.net/view/16174188/9.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16175184/10.
{P} http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16182782/Go ahead and comment if you're interested! I'm gonna take a small lunch break before I get started!
IMVU
Posted 10 years agoSo, a friend told me about this: http://www.imvu.com/shop/product.ph.....ts_id=23527785
Now, first off, I know it's my character, but it's commissioned art I PAID FOR from
.
I want to let you guys know, I don't condone to this crap. I have already let the artist know about this and am waiting for a response. I'm really not happy about this whatsoever and don't want to seem butthurt about it either. I do know however, the artist is extremely not ok with her stuff being taken without permission and being used for other things other than myself. I don't have an IMVU account and don't ever plan on getting one, but if any of you are so kind to please help me out if you find anymore of my characters or my art to PLEASE report it to me.
IMVU buying out FA was I think one of those worst moves FA could've made, but I seriously cannot leave this place. I can't AFFORD to leave this place. My fanbase is all here, my commissioners are here, this is my home. I would move over to better websites but I simply can't guarantee my fanbase will follow. There's way too much on the line for me to just up and leave this place. So as much as I'm extremely upset about this IMVU crap, I can't and won't go anywhere.
At this point, if any of you are so kind to help me keep my stuff off IMVU I would seriously appreciate it. Report everything you see (in a nice manner please) and please help keep everything for me only on FA or other sites I post on.
I hereby state right now:
I Michaela Mesias, under the username of Rukamae on FA, Weasyl, Inkbunny, and SoFurry, hereby declare for all my artwork, commissioned artwork from other artists, and my personal characters of Era, Click, Fear, and Hakku, and any other characters in the future I own to NOT be used on any other sites for monetary gain, or are copied/edited/referenced in any way WITHOUT my expressed written permission!
Now, first off, I know it's my character, but it's commissioned art I PAID FOR from
.I want to let you guys know, I don't condone to this crap. I have already let the artist know about this and am waiting for a response. I'm really not happy about this whatsoever and don't want to seem butthurt about it either. I do know however, the artist is extremely not ok with her stuff being taken without permission and being used for other things other than myself. I don't have an IMVU account and don't ever plan on getting one, but if any of you are so kind to please help me out if you find anymore of my characters or my art to PLEASE report it to me.
IMVU buying out FA was I think one of those worst moves FA could've made, but I seriously cannot leave this place. I can't AFFORD to leave this place. My fanbase is all here, my commissioners are here, this is my home. I would move over to better websites but I simply can't guarantee my fanbase will follow. There's way too much on the line for me to just up and leave this place. So as much as I'm extremely upset about this IMVU crap, I can't and won't go anywhere.
At this point, if any of you are so kind to help me keep my stuff off IMVU I would seriously appreciate it. Report everything you see (in a nice manner please) and please help keep everything for me only on FA or other sites I post on.
I hereby state right now:
I Michaela Mesias, under the username of Rukamae on FA, Weasyl, Inkbunny, and SoFurry, hereby declare for all my artwork, commissioned artwork from other artists, and my personal characters of Era, Click, Fear, and Hakku, and any other characters in the future I own to NOT be used on any other sites for monetary gain, or are copied/edited/referenced in any way WITHOUT my expressed written permission!
New Angel Dragon RP Account!
Posted 10 years ago
Small commission update!
Posted 11 years agoPlease please PLEASE tell me if you sent me a commission form. Google has a stupid way on telling me when I do receive something, so please message or note me to tell me you sent something or else I won't see it until possibly a couple weeks later ;-; (and I'm so sorry if that happens). Thanks!
Updaaaaaaaates- Life and auctions
Posted 11 years agoFirst, I want to pimp this out real quick: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15592762/
It's my first Angel Dragon design adoptable, it ends at 5 pm MST, and the bid is currently at $50. Go check it out :)
Second, I have become viciously ill since Monday. It went from a very dry nasal cavity with a little bit of blood in my mucus from the cracks from the dry air here, to me coughing up my lungs full of gross green-brownish thick mucus and a congested nose. Let's just say I'm absolutely miserable and have no motivation to do basically anything around my house or any kind of work. I'm literally just playing video games all day and sleeping. I'm hoping to get back into groove soon, I just don't know when ;-; it hasn't gotten better. Plus I lost my voice completely :D so that's the other thing.
Thanks for understanding x.x
See ya soon, fuzzies!
It's my first Angel Dragon design adoptable, it ends at 5 pm MST, and the bid is currently at $50. Go check it out :)
Second, I have become viciously ill since Monday. It went from a very dry nasal cavity with a little bit of blood in my mucus from the cracks from the dry air here, to me coughing up my lungs full of gross green-brownish thick mucus and a congested nose. Let's just say I'm absolutely miserable and have no motivation to do basically anything around my house or any kind of work. I'm literally just playing video games all day and sleeping. I'm hoping to get back into groove soon, I just don't know when ;-; it hasn't gotten better. Plus I lost my voice completely :D so that's the other thing.
Thanks for understanding x.x
See ya soon, fuzzies!
Angel Dragons
Posted 11 years agoAlright alright alright. So, I'm probably going to get a HUUUUUUGE influx of people about this subject but I really needed to say this before people decide to basically be like FHNSKSBGKSGESIHSFHSGBDGRKBESKEGSGKNFKSJFLJ;EIGH;HG;HGE;HEGSKBGKBGSIINDS.
As some of you know, there is an angel dragon fanpage on FB that is run by Telephone and 8 other admins (one of them is me).
I love the community, I really love helping admin the page and being able help others out. The community has opened me up a lot more, and has even been one of or the only brightest thing in my days when I have those slums of depression episodes. I came into the Angel Dragon community when it was still small and there were only a good handful of us. I joined the Angel Dragons because I wanted to support Telephone, and she has been a huge inspiration as far as fursuiting goes. I created my two Angel Dragons with every intention to be creative and figure out a way to be unique too, I want to be a good fursuiter like Telephone. I want to smile, I want others to smile, etc.
I didn't join the Angel Dragons because I thought they were cute or because of Telephone's popularity just to clarify. In fact, I didn't even KNOW Telephone was popular until several months later when the community suddenly exploded.
I joined the Angel Dragons because it was a small part of my life that seemed like SOMETHING was going right compared to all other things that has been going on. Click's eyes are literally like the sunshine in the darkness, it's why I created them like it. Fear is the impersonation of my inner struggles. I can go on. But I won't.
You see, the surge of the Angel Dragon community has been a struggle, but it has also blossomed in several ways while there are definitely the thorns in others. I don't care about the huge wall of rules, I don't care about the trolls, I don't care about all that. I care about the community. Yes, because it's a species that is under the watchful eye of all of us, there must be some set of rules.
The rules do have a purpose though, and I can talk all day the reasons why certain rules are set, but what I will say is that despite all the rules, there will always be that one person that can create a lot of drama. We are a freakin furries for pete's sake, there will always be drama, we're good at that. But as an admin, I can say that we are the better spectrum compared to other angel dragons that like to make things worse. We're there to help you not destroy you. Unlike others, who are slightly over protective and give the Angel Dragons a bad name....or several trolls outside the page...yeah... But sometimes, even us admins can't control what happens outside the community, and we do what we can to make sure people are happy and not ganging up on each other. It's a HUGE job, and some may not understand how difficult it can be sometimes to break up a huge fight in the comments on our page.
Think of it this way, there are 9 of us...and thousands upon thousands of you. We do what we can, and we're there to answer questions and basically be the authority of our own page. We have little to no power on what happens outside of it. We can try to help out, but whatever happens, all we can do is basically just be a regular furry telling you 'rings aren't allowed', 'your angel dragons name is similar', 'hybrid angel dragons aren't part of the species', 'your design looks like this one', 'porn of AD's is forbidden', 'that suit looks very close to PhoenixWolfs'. It's just a big mess that we can't always clean up. People are independent, and can do whatever the hell they damn please. But we keep tabs on those that are causing trouble, we know everything, people talk. We (including Telephone) all know about those 'fake Telephones', we know all the pages, we know the scammers, we know the AD's outside the community with rings, we know a lot.
Even though people can tell us about them, Telephone can't do everything either. All we can do is keep our walls up in our little fort and know about the thorns on our sides, and continue on with our internal plans to have a happy community.
I'm actually very happy with community, despite all the negative things that like to surround us all the time. We learn to live with it, and sometimes it really freaking sucks, but we keep our heads up and continue to move forward. We do obviously hate it when someone doesn't read, or when someone decides to make that porn of an Angel Dragon everybody is snickering at. But you know what, we've learned to not care. We can't do anything about it, and once it's drawn and out in the internet, what CAN you do?
So as much as the Angel Dragon community is the butt of the joke or the laughing stock, we're constantly made fun of, we get the occasional roll of the eyes whenever the name pops up; In all honesty, we can take it, no matter how much it truly hurts.
We are a strong community, we (mostly) love each other, and know when to keep each other in line. It doesn't matter if we're made fun of all the time, what really matters is that we're just another family of furries together within the community that so happens to be an Angel Dragon. I really appreciate seeing those people out there that see an Angel Dragon and shrug it off without needing to say an explanation on why you don't like us. We don't need people to like us all the time. What really matters is the people that do, because we are still furries afterall, we just have the tag 'Angel Dragon' on us. I'm sure that a big chunk of us are there to actively support Telephone in all of her endevours, because she is a very sweet, wonderful, and inspiring person who just so happens to become widely popular. I see Telephone as just another furry who loves what she does. I don't care that she's popular, I care that she continues to be herself despite all the negativity that swirls around her. I care about all of the Angel Dragons, I care about the admins, I care about basically making sure the Angel Dragon community continues to be happy within our little group.
I didn't want to sugarcoat anything, because this is literally all from personal experience. I don't want to seem like a white knight of any kind, I don't want to be that advocate of "ANGEL DRAGONS ARE AWESOME FHJKFJKJBWKLBIHOPQKEPQWJOHF:HF!!!!!", I wanted to tell you guys how it truly looks to me and how I truly feel about being part of the Angel Dragon community. You can say what you'd like, but I've said what I wanted to. I don't want to speak for Telephone in any way, but I can speak of her as a friend. There are things that people don't know, or people that like to spread rumours, but honestly, it's really something I don't want to speak about. It's not my place, and it's not my duty to white knight anybody. I've just written this as some kind of 'paying respects' to the community that has grown exponentially throughout the year.
Stay awesome, my friends.
As some of you know, there is an angel dragon fanpage on FB that is run by Telephone and 8 other admins (one of them is me).
I love the community, I really love helping admin the page and being able help others out. The community has opened me up a lot more, and has even been one of or the only brightest thing in my days when I have those slums of depression episodes. I came into the Angel Dragon community when it was still small and there were only a good handful of us. I joined the Angel Dragons because I wanted to support Telephone, and she has been a huge inspiration as far as fursuiting goes. I created my two Angel Dragons with every intention to be creative and figure out a way to be unique too, I want to be a good fursuiter like Telephone. I want to smile, I want others to smile, etc.
I didn't join the Angel Dragons because I thought they were cute or because of Telephone's popularity just to clarify. In fact, I didn't even KNOW Telephone was popular until several months later when the community suddenly exploded.
I joined the Angel Dragons because it was a small part of my life that seemed like SOMETHING was going right compared to all other things that has been going on. Click's eyes are literally like the sunshine in the darkness, it's why I created them like it. Fear is the impersonation of my inner struggles. I can go on. But I won't.
You see, the surge of the Angel Dragon community has been a struggle, but it has also blossomed in several ways while there are definitely the thorns in others. I don't care about the huge wall of rules, I don't care about the trolls, I don't care about all that. I care about the community. Yes, because it's a species that is under the watchful eye of all of us, there must be some set of rules.
The rules do have a purpose though, and I can talk all day the reasons why certain rules are set, but what I will say is that despite all the rules, there will always be that one person that can create a lot of drama. We are a freakin furries for pete's sake, there will always be drama, we're good at that. But as an admin, I can say that we are the better spectrum compared to other angel dragons that like to make things worse. We're there to help you not destroy you. Unlike others, who are slightly over protective and give the Angel Dragons a bad name....or several trolls outside the page...yeah... But sometimes, even us admins can't control what happens outside the community, and we do what we can to make sure people are happy and not ganging up on each other. It's a HUGE job, and some may not understand how difficult it can be sometimes to break up a huge fight in the comments on our page.
Think of it this way, there are 9 of us...and thousands upon thousands of you. We do what we can, and we're there to answer questions and basically be the authority of our own page. We have little to no power on what happens outside of it. We can try to help out, but whatever happens, all we can do is basically just be a regular furry telling you 'rings aren't allowed', 'your angel dragons name is similar', 'hybrid angel dragons aren't part of the species', 'your design looks like this one', 'porn of AD's is forbidden', 'that suit looks very close to PhoenixWolfs'. It's just a big mess that we can't always clean up. People are independent, and can do whatever the hell they damn please. But we keep tabs on those that are causing trouble, we know everything, people talk. We (including Telephone) all know about those 'fake Telephones', we know all the pages, we know the scammers, we know the AD's outside the community with rings, we know a lot.
Even though people can tell us about them, Telephone can't do everything either. All we can do is keep our walls up in our little fort and know about the thorns on our sides, and continue on with our internal plans to have a happy community.
I'm actually very happy with community, despite all the negative things that like to surround us all the time. We learn to live with it, and sometimes it really freaking sucks, but we keep our heads up and continue to move forward. We do obviously hate it when someone doesn't read, or when someone decides to make that porn of an Angel Dragon everybody is snickering at. But you know what, we've learned to not care. We can't do anything about it, and once it's drawn and out in the internet, what CAN you do?
So as much as the Angel Dragon community is the butt of the joke or the laughing stock, we're constantly made fun of, we get the occasional roll of the eyes whenever the name pops up; In all honesty, we can take it, no matter how much it truly hurts.
We are a strong community, we (mostly) love each other, and know when to keep each other in line. It doesn't matter if we're made fun of all the time, what really matters is that we're just another family of furries together within the community that so happens to be an Angel Dragon. I really appreciate seeing those people out there that see an Angel Dragon and shrug it off without needing to say an explanation on why you don't like us. We don't need people to like us all the time. What really matters is the people that do, because we are still furries afterall, we just have the tag 'Angel Dragon' on us. I'm sure that a big chunk of us are there to actively support Telephone in all of her endevours, because she is a very sweet, wonderful, and inspiring person who just so happens to become widely popular. I see Telephone as just another furry who loves what she does. I don't care that she's popular, I care that she continues to be herself despite all the negativity that swirls around her. I care about all of the Angel Dragons, I care about the admins, I care about basically making sure the Angel Dragon community continues to be happy within our little group.
I didn't want to sugarcoat anything, because this is literally all from personal experience. I don't want to seem like a white knight of any kind, I don't want to be that advocate of "ANGEL DRAGONS ARE AWESOME FHJKFJKJBWKLBIHOPQKEPQWJOHF:HF!!!!!", I wanted to tell you guys how it truly looks to me and how I truly feel about being part of the Angel Dragon community. You can say what you'd like, but I've said what I wanted to. I don't want to speak for Telephone in any way, but I can speak of her as a friend. There are things that people don't know, or people that like to spread rumours, but honestly, it's really something I don't want to speak about. It's not my place, and it's not my duty to white knight anybody. I've just written this as some kind of 'paying respects' to the community that has grown exponentially throughout the year.
Stay awesome, my friends.
So I was in a car accident
Posted 11 years agoIt was pretty terrifying to be perfectly honest. We were going home after a furmeet that happens every Thursday, we had the green arrow to turn into the highway, and out of nowhere a white car hit us and drove us into a pole. They hit the passenger side, which I was on that side. We weren't going very fast and neither was the other car, but it was enough to feel like I was punched in the shoulder pretty good. After the impact, my phone literally dies and everyone asks if I was ok in the car. For a few moments I thought I had enough control over myself to keep myself collected after this happened (putting my PTSD to the ultimate test), and then after a couple minutes of silence, it all just washed over me and I started to panic. I never panicked this hard, and I just continued to panic until the paramedics got me out of the car. My entire world was rocked really hard last night, and I felt extremely small in it. It's only been a night since it happened, and I'm still extremely terrified. I'm extremely grateful that everybody in both parties were both ok. But the emotional scarring that were ripped back open last night just made me realize just how easy it is for your life to be snuffed out or even changed forever. I'm doing 'ok' for now, and keeping an eye on my entire right arm today (thankfully I draw with my left lol), but I think I need a couple days to celebrate some happiness and joy. I need a little more emotional help from friends and family to remind me I'm still alive and that I'm perfectly fine, and I just need some ice cream and good movies to watch while I recover from this. This was an extremely unexpected delay, and I'm truly sorry, I'll continue to try to work a little bit at a time since I have some deadlines to fulfill. Just remember I'm extremely emotionally unstable and sensitive.
Please hug your friends and family super tight the next time you see them, tell them how much you care and how much you love them to pieces or however you want to tell them. Please drive safe, and be careful out there everybody. I love all of you.
Please hug your friends and family super tight the next time you see them, tell them how much you care and how much you love them to pieces or however you want to tell them. Please drive safe, and be careful out there everybody. I love all of you.
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Posted 11 years agoCreative title is creative haha!
But seriously, it's literally pertaining to EVERYTHING right now. I've worked myself down to the bone these past couple weeks (I would say a couple months, but I'll touch on that laterrrrrr) and let me tell you a hit a very creative wall a little while ago as far as art goes. I lost inspiration and drive and it's KILLED me.
The last couple weeks I've been working almost nonstop for Sparkle Kreations handsewing like mad to make some money so I can make it through MFF. Then when I get home, the moment I go to my room to relax from a long day, I find myself passing out almost immediately. I thought I was doing fine until I remembered that I also had 8 OTHER things I have to worry about plus 2 bills (which I have still been able to religiously pay each passing month; with one of them basically getting waaaaay past the line as far as urgency. FOR $20?! Really? Leave me alone man, chill.) AND people and events that I promised to be at (and I've yet to go back on those kinds of things).
Honestly, I can't believe I'm saying this but I've accidentally and unintentionally burnt myself out extremely hardcore this time. I've done nothing but work for Sparkle, go hang with people that I've made plans for, making a suit commission that has a MFF deadline, queue is piling up and I basically just stopped functioning. I'm seriously KICKING myself for it and it's driven me absolutely insane because the one thing that means the most to me (you awesome watchers and my commissioners) were swept under the rug and I SINCERELY apologize for doing that to you. I know all you wonderful commissioners are continuing to keep contact with me or patiently waiting for your art, but a couple of the commissions are a few months backlogged and I'm so upset at myself for not finishing them as fast as I anticipated for them to be. I'm hating myself, I'm hating myself, I'm hating myself. I know every single one of you say it's fine and to take my time, but I honestly feel so bad for taking so long when it shouldn't be. So again, I so very much SINCERELY apologize.
Now that that is out of my system, here's the afterthought of that
I don't want to break more promises to you guys, but I will say this: I'm doing a lot better, I've officially taken a week off from Sparkle Kreations work to catch up on my real work here and catch up the fursuit commission that I currently have that has a MFF deadline (and please, for future reference this is the ONLY time I'll have a deadline for a fursuit, after this I will be strongly implementing my NO DEADLINE rule on all future fursuit commissions!).
My inspiration came pouring back to me after seeing this lovely video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YlEb3L1PIco
and I'm almost to the point (most likely later tonight or tomorrow) that I'll be back on my normal pace. I sincerely thank every one of you that has commissioned or is waiting for artwork from me for being so graciously patient. I hate feeling like I'm coming up with excuses for everything when I'm truly trying to juggle so much especially when it's coming up on the holiday season (why do the stores have Christmas stuff before Halloween ever even happens is waaaaaay beyond me, calm down stores lol). But do know I have full intention to finish everything before I go to MFF or (god forbid) by the end of this year. Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart, thank you ;-;
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P.S. to the person that has noted me a couple days back (you know who you are), I read your note and yes I know it's been a while since we talked ;-; Your commission is the utmost highest god-like priority right now. I'm sorry I didn't get back to you about that though ;-;
But seriously, it's literally pertaining to EVERYTHING right now. I've worked myself down to the bone these past couple weeks (I would say a couple months, but I'll touch on that laterrrrrr) and let me tell you a hit a very creative wall a little while ago as far as art goes. I lost inspiration and drive and it's KILLED me.
The last couple weeks I've been working almost nonstop for Sparkle Kreations handsewing like mad to make some money so I can make it through MFF. Then when I get home, the moment I go to my room to relax from a long day, I find myself passing out almost immediately. I thought I was doing fine until I remembered that I also had 8 OTHER things I have to worry about plus 2 bills (which I have still been able to religiously pay each passing month; with one of them basically getting waaaaay past the line as far as urgency. FOR $20?! Really? Leave me alone man, chill.) AND people and events that I promised to be at (and I've yet to go back on those kinds of things).
Honestly, I can't believe I'm saying this but I've accidentally and unintentionally burnt myself out extremely hardcore this time. I've done nothing but work for Sparkle, go hang with people that I've made plans for, making a suit commission that has a MFF deadline, queue is piling up and I basically just stopped functioning. I'm seriously KICKING myself for it and it's driven me absolutely insane because the one thing that means the most to me (you awesome watchers and my commissioners) were swept under the rug and I SINCERELY apologize for doing that to you. I know all you wonderful commissioners are continuing to keep contact with me or patiently waiting for your art, but a couple of the commissions are a few months backlogged and I'm so upset at myself for not finishing them as fast as I anticipated for them to be. I'm hating myself, I'm hating myself, I'm hating myself. I know every single one of you say it's fine and to take my time, but I honestly feel so bad for taking so long when it shouldn't be. So again, I so very much SINCERELY apologize.
Now that that is out of my system, here's the afterthought of that
I don't want to break more promises to you guys, but I will say this: I'm doing a lot better, I've officially taken a week off from Sparkle Kreations work to catch up on my real work here and catch up the fursuit commission that I currently have that has a MFF deadline (and please, for future reference this is the ONLY time I'll have a deadline for a fursuit, after this I will be strongly implementing my NO DEADLINE rule on all future fursuit commissions!).
My inspiration came pouring back to me after seeing this lovely video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YlEb3L1PIco
and I'm almost to the point (most likely later tonight or tomorrow) that I'll be back on my normal pace. I sincerely thank every one of you that has commissioned or is waiting for artwork from me for being so graciously patient. I hate feeling like I'm coming up with excuses for everything when I'm truly trying to juggle so much especially when it's coming up on the holiday season (why do the stores have Christmas stuff before Halloween ever even happens is waaaaaay beyond me, calm down stores lol). But do know I have full intention to finish everything before I go to MFF or (god forbid) by the end of this year. Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart, thank you ;-;
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P.S. to the person that has noted me a couple days back (you know who you are), I read your note and yes I know it's been a while since we talked ;-; Your commission is the utmost highest god-like priority right now. I'm sorry I didn't get back to you about that though ;-;
