So my years has gone to hell. Find out my dads got cancer.Its treatable and curable.With chemo and other treatments. And cause of his treatment.We had to cancel our yearly trip to Talladega.A trip we both soo badly look forward to every year. My dads devastated that he on doctor's orders can't go. It fucked up.I have this feeling of sadness cause we cant go. Kinda like I'm missing the chance to see a good friend,or a beloved family member. Talladega Superspeedway has became a big part of my life.I feel home when Im there.And when I leave I feel like part of my heart is left at the camp site. I'm really scared for my dads health and really heartbroken that I wont be seeing my favorite 2.66 mile oval of asphalt this October. Thats going to be a very sad and depressing weekend for me. But I do hope my dad can get over this so we can go next year.

I'm so fucking sick of god damn ponies.I'm so sick of being forced to watch video every fucking time there's a computer or TV with net flicks. And when I ask if I could watch a video,I just get ignored. I guess when ponies are involved,whatever I'm into doesn't fucking matter. I don't constantly sit there and obsess over NASCAR,music or even Transformers. So why do I have to constantly have fucking ponies crammed down my throat all the fucking time....There are two people this message goes out to. I'm getting to the fucking point where I don't want you two around cause all you fucking care about it ponies. You guys are seriously making me feel like I don't matter.Like you don't really give a shit about my friendship because I'm not a fucking retarded bronie. So if you two can't respect me enough to NOT force ponies on me like you constantly do.Then I don't think I want you guys around..............

As of about 11:30 am. Matt Katt has passed away.He went peacefully with me holding him.It was probably one of the hardest things I have ever had to do.He was just too weak.And had soo many other things wrong with him.I'm going to miss him soo fucking much.But I know hes not suffering any longer. Where ever hes at hes with Raven and Midnight. RIP My fuzzy buddy,my little shit head. You will be missed very much.

Rycher Maxx Kougra will be there







































That is all BITCHES!!!!!!!!!

My puppy died today.Out of all the pets we've own,losing her is the hardest.I loved my puppy more than I love some of my family members.

You will be missed by every one that came over.Least you're not in anymore pain. Love ya puppy

R.I.P. RAVEN

Y U SO BORING TODAY!!!!

I got a question here......(little back story here) I have a friend that for that for the past few years has found it amusing to come up behind me at a con,meet,or whatever and snatch my cap off my head then run away.Specially when shes in suit.I have repeatedly asked her to stop.I mean every time she has done it I have politely asked her to stop.Cause hell I spent good money on these caps.Seriously this has been going on since like 08 at the first FCN(Furry Connection North). So I as you this people of FA...Was I wrong for getting pissed off at her and blowing up at her when she snatched it off my head Saturday night at FCN???? She tried to apologize but I wasn't having any part of it since its been going on for like 5 damn years. So what I wrong for getting pissed and blowing up at her? .....Keep in mind this has been a constant thing for many years.....Thanks for any input ...Later Rycher.

And I aint got shit to do!!!!

What is with all the retarded furries that don't know how to fucking spell correctly.Trying to read a post from some of them is like reading something from a freaking preschooler.And furs wonder why we are the joke of the internet and people think we're all retards.................Learn to spell you fucking morons.That's what spell check is for ya lazy fucks!!!!

Where are you staying?
At the main hotel!

Who will you be with?
Razor,Tigerpaws,Silver Wolf(Rocco),and Stitch The Tiger

Do you do art trades?
If you like stick figures then SURE!!!

Will you be suiting?
Yeah...I'll bring Maxx out

Do you talk in suit?
Hell yeah

What is your gender?
Male

How old are you?
Will be 38 the time of FCN....But I sure as fuck dont act like it

Can I touch you?
Hugs are always welcomed......Just dont be a creeper

Can I talk to you?
YUP YUP

Can I buy you lots of drinks?
Maybe depends on my mood and how I feel

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
HELLLZ Yeah!!!!

How tall are you?
6' 1"

Can I give you stuff?
Umm Yeah ...Free shit rulez!!!!

Can I take your picture?
PLEAZE DOOOOO...And post all over the interwebz!!!

How long are you going?
Thursday-Monday

Do you have an artist table?
I R DON DO ARTZ

Do you like parties?
FUCK YEAH!!!

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Shout RYCHER or MAXX....Or come tap me on the shoulder if Im in suit.

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Have fun..Dont stress,try not to have drama..And see about sleeping more..And not eating out alot.

Come on!!!!!....Are you kidding me? Flags at half staff in New Jersey for Whitney Houston? What a joke. She didn't die for this country .She's not a vet.She doesn't deserve flags at half staff.....What a dishonor and slap in the face of all the service men that have died serving this country. Damn I'm soo damn sick of hearing about this freaking drug addict.

I just dont understand why Im treated like a bad guy on a couple gay dating social type sites just because Im in no way into girly/femmy guys,or guys old enough to be my dad or worse my grandpa.And why is it anyone's business that Im ONLY into white guys.I get messages all the time bitching me out for not liking this kind of guys.......My thoughts are the fallowing. Girly/femmy guys........Ok If I wanted someone that dressed,acted like,and was built like a girl.I would fucking be with a god damn girl.I like my guys to be that....Guys...And stop shaving yer junk and butt guys.....The razor bumps are a fucking turn off. Now old guys.....It seems like the guys on these sites that are 50 or older are the most desperate disgusting and pathetic human beings I have ever seen.They will send you count less messages and friend request to the point you have to send them rather rude messages in return.Then they have the nerve to get pissed off when you dont accept their friend requests.It got sooooo fucking bad that I have blocked about 23 guy that are 50 or older this year alone. Now Im not into black men...Or men of color..They just dont do it for me.I dont understand why Im branded a racist when Im only sexually or physically attracted to mostly white guys.Umm theres a certain G-Shep that gets me hard LOL..Come on people.We all have out things that get us going...That get out rocks off.So why am I treated like a bad guy when I tell someone that they are too girly,or too old,or not the right color?????...Im also not into the steiotypical gay guy.........Dont think I need to explain that on ferther.
Arnt we supposed to be the "Gay Community"? I thought we were supposed to support one another and support out differences....Guess I was wrong on that one.

Anyway Im just bitching cause Ive been up all night and cant sleep due to a damn headache..So the rambling sheppy will bid you a fair well.

PS......EVERY DAY IM SHUFFLIN!!!! LOL

Ryhcer MAXX Kourgra.

If you have 00-10 ... write [I'm a goody-goody]
If you have 11-20 ... write [I'm still a goody-goody]
If you have 21-30 ... write [I'm average]
If you have 31-40 ... write [I'm a bad kid]
If you have 41-50 ... write [I'm a very bad influence]
If you have 51-60 ... write [I'm a horrible person]
If you have 61-70 ... write [I should be in jail]
If you have 71-80 ... write [I should be dead]
If you have 81-90 ... write [I got a ticket to Hell]

HAVE YOU...

[x] smoked
[x] consumed alcohol
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
[x] kissed someone of the same sex
[x] had sex
[x] had someone in your room other than family
[x] watched porn
[x] bought porn
[x] tried drugs

TOTAL SO FAR: 10

[x] taken painkillers
[x] taken someone else's prescription medicine
[x] lied to your parents
[x] lied to a friend
[x] snuck out of the house
[x] done something illegal
[x] felt hurt
[x] hurt someone
[x] wished someone to die
[ ] seen someone die

TOTAL SO FAR: 19

[] missed curfew
[x] stayed out all night
[x] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
[x] been to a therapist
[x] received a ticket
[ ] been to rehab
[x] dyed your hair
[x] been in an accident
[x] been to a club
[x] been to a bar

TOTAL SO FAR: 27

[x] been to a wild party
[ ] been to a Mardi Gras parade
[x] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night
[ ] had a spring break in Florida
[x] sniffed anything
[x] wore black nail polish
[x] wore arm bands
[x] wore t-shirts with band names
[x] listened to rap
[ ] owned a 50 Cent CD

TOTAL SO FAR: 34

[x] dressed gothic
[] dressed girly
[x] dressed punk
[x ] dressed grunge
[x] stole something
[x] been too drunk to remember anything
[x] blacked out
[x] fainted
[x] had a crush on a neighbor

TOTAL SO FAR: 42

[X] had a crush on a friend
[x] been to a concert
[x] dry-humped someone; been dry humped
[x] been called a slut
[x] called someone a slut
[x] installed speakers in a car
[x] broken a mirror
[x] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
[x] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush

TOTAL SO FAR: 51

[ ] considered Ludicrous your favorite rapper
[x] seen an R-rated movie
[x] cruised the mall
[x] skipped school
[x] had surgery
[X] had an injury
[x] gone to court
[x] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping
[x] caught something on fire
[x] lied about your age

TOTAL SO FAR: 60

[ ] owned/rented an apartment/house
[ ] broke the law in the police's presence
[x] made out with someone who had a GF/BF
[x] got in trouble with the police
[x] talked to a stranger
[x] hugged a stranger
[ ] kissed a stranger
[x] rode in the car with a stranger
[x] been harassed
[x] been verbally harassed

TOTAL SO FAR: 67

[x] met face-to-face with someone you met online
[X] stayed online for 5+ hours straight
[x] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight
[x] watched TV for 5 hours straight
[X] been to a fair
[x] been called a bad influence
[x] drank and drove
[x] prank-called someone
[] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex
[x] cheated on a test

TOTAL: 75

I hate allergies......Specially when I feel like shit,I get horny for some damn reason :(

About Me Meme

[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[X] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[X] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[X] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[X] I have a tattoo.
[X] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[X] I wear glasses.
[X] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[X] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[X] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[X] I have freckles.


FAMILY/HOME LIFE

[X] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[X] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I have a child.
[ ] I've lost a child.

SCHOOL/WORK

[ ] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job.
[X] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[X] I've stolen something from my job.
[ X I've been fired.

EMBARRASSMENT

[X] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[X] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[X] I've snorted while laughing.
[X] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[X] I've glued my hand to something.
[X] I've had my pants rip in public.


HEALTH

[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[X] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[X] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[X] I've sat in a doctor's office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I've had a serious surgery.
[X] I've had chicken pox.

TRAVEL

[X] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[X] I've been on a plane.
[X] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

EXPERIENCES

[X] I've gotten lost in my city.
[X] I've seen a shooting star.
[X] I've wished on a shooting star
[X] I've seen a meteor shower.
[X] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[X] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[X] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[X] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[X] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[X] I've been in a play.
[X] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[X] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[X] I've played chicken.
[X] I've played a prank on someone.
[ ] I've ridden in a taxi.
[X] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[X] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

RELATIONSHIPS

[ ] I'm single.
[X] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[X] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[X] I miss someone right now.
[X] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[X] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[X] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[X] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[X] I've kept something from a past relationship.

SEXUALITY

[X] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[X] I am a cuddler.
[X] I've been kissed in the rain.
[X] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

HONESTY

[X] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[X] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[X] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[X] I've cheated while playing a game.
[X] I've cheated on a test.
[X] I've run a red light.
[X] I've been suspended from school.
[X] I've witnessed a crime.
[X] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

DRUGS/ALCOHOL

[X] I've consumed alcohol.
[X] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[X] I've smoked weed
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[X] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[X] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[X] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[X] I've woken up crying.

DEATH

[X] I'm afraid of dying.
[X] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[X] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[X] I've planned my own suicide.
[X] I've attempted suicide.
[X] I've written a eulogy for myself.

MATERIALISM

[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[X] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[X] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[X] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

RANDOM

[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[X] I open up to others easily.
[X] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[X] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[X] I curse regularly.
[ ] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair.
[ X] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam
[X] I've copied over 30 CDs in a day
[X] I bake well.
[X] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[ ] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[X] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[X] I laugh at my own jokes.
[X] I eat fast food weekly.
[X] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[X] I am really ticklish.
[X] I love white chocolate
[X] I bite my nails.
[ ] I play video games.
[X] I'm good at remembering faces.
[X] I'm good at remembering names.
[X] I'm good at remembering dates.
[X] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

1. Is there anyone on your friends list you would ever consider having sex with?
I have a mate.But theres some on my list that Im allowed to have sex with.

2. Sex in the morning, afternoon or night?
Whenever the mood arises and depending whos willing to play.

3. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
Left

4. Do you masturbate?
Yup

5. How often? Lately?
Not as ofter as I used to.Maybe every other day or more.

6. Have you ever taken your clothes off for money?
Fuck no!!!!

7. Do you prefer showers or baths?
showers mostly

8. Have you ever had sex in the shower or bath tub?
Yes. and it was amazing.

9. Do you watch/read pornography?
Yeah....But I usually watch it more.

10. Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed?
A little bit of both....I dont always like to be the one that has to do everything.

11. Do you love someone on your friends list?
That I do.


12. Do you know all the people on your friends list?
Mostly.

13. Would you choose love or money?
Could I choose love mostly and then a little bit of money??

14. Your top three favorite kinks in bed?
Cuddling,kissing and for the love of god BUTTS!!!!!!!

15. Has anyone ever gone beyond your personal line of respect sexually?
A couple times.I just got up,got dressed and left.Never to talk to them again.

16. Where is the most romantic place you have had sex?
In my bedroom

17. Where is the weirdest place you have had sex?
The hood of my car in a dark undeveloped part of a neighborhood where a buddy used to like in West Bloomfeild.

18. Have you ever been caught having sex?
Nope...Im usually really cautious.

19. Have you ever been to a strip club?
Hell no!!! I have NO interest in them

20. Ever been to a bar just to get sex?
No.,..Thats gross

21. Ever been kicked out of a bar or a club for sexual reasons?
Nope

22. Ever been picked up in a bar?
Yup...A couple times

23. Have you ever kissed or had sex with someone of the same sex?
Umm yeah...My mates a dude...and The friends I play with are dudes.

24. What's your sexuality?
I's a gay boy

25. Had sex in a movie theater?
Does giving a handy count?

26. Had sex in a bathroom?
Yup,,that I have!!!

27. Have you ever had sex at work?
Nope...I jerked off once LOL

28. Have you ever been in an "adult" store?
Yup,a couple times

29. Bought something from an adult store?
Nope

30. Do you own any sex toys?
I have a dildo that a ex Pup forgot I had

31. If yes, how many and what are they?
One...A dildo

32. Does anyone have naughty pics of you or are you on film?
Yes...I have a XTube profile

33. Have you ever had sex with someone and called them the wrong name?
Nope

34. Have you ever had phone sex?
Yup...hundreds of times LOL

35. Have you ever had cyber sex?
No..Not really

36. Do you think oral sex constitutes as a form of intercourse?
Yeah..Kinda.....I have to be in a mood to give oral

37. What's your favorite sexual position?
Doggy,Or with the guy laying over the side of my bed

38. What's your favorite sex act?
I liked to cuddle and rub...And stroke.

39. Have you ever had sex with more than one person at a time?
Yeah....I've had a few 3somes.

40. Who do you think has the guts to re-post this?
Hell,I bet several on my friends list will.

Feeling like a complete piece of shit.

Escape the Fate: World Around Me

I'm not trying to bring you down
But you're lost in the clouds
I've never been one to complain
But your world around me kills me softly

I don't wanna be demanding
I just wanna know the reasons why
We live and die in a world of lies
Addicted to the way we crash and burn
I gave it all away now it's your turn
Watching me watching you
Don't wanna see the worst in you
So don't let it come true
Coming true, coming true, coming true, coming true
Coming true, coming true, coming true, coming true

Tore me down and made it clear
As I sunk to the bottom
I stare at space from the ocean floor
It all surrounds me, kills me softly

I don't wanna be demanding
I just wanna know the reasons why
We live and die in a world of lies
Addicted to the way we crash and burn
I gave it all away now it's your turn
Watching me watching you
Don't wanna see the worst in you
So don't let this come true
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/e/escap.....me-lyrics.html ]
Cause I don't wanna see the worst in you

This woman tore me through shadows
In a presence of light
I'm reaching out my hands
With my fingers to the sky
So tell me what I have to do
I don't wanna tell you to
I just wanna be with you
I just wanna make it through

I just wanna make it through this life
Yeah, yeah

Just wanna, just wanna, just wanna, I just wanna
Just wanna, just wanna, just wanna, I just wanna
Just wanna, just wanna, just wanna, I just wanna
Just wanna, just wanna, just wanna, make it through this life

I don't wanna be demanding
I just wanna know the reasons why
We live and die in a world of lies
Addicted to the way we crash and burn
I gave it all away now it's your turn
Watching me watching you
Don't wanna see the worst in you
So don't let this come true
Cause I don't wanna see the worst in you.

"Zzyzx Rd." Stone Sour

I don't know how else to put this
It's taken me so long to do this
I'm falling asleep and I can't see straight
My muscles feel like a melee
My body's curled in a U-shape
I put on my best but I'm still afraid

Propped up by lies and promises
Saving my place as life forgets
Maybe its time I saw the world

I'm only here for a while
But patience is not my style
And I'm so tired that I gotta go

What am I supposed to hide now?
What am I suppose to do?
Did you really think I wouldn't see this through

Tell me I should stick around for you
Tell me I could have it all
I'm still too tired to care and I gotta go

I get to go home in one week
But I leaving home in three weeks
They throw me a bone just to pick me dry

I'm following suit and directions
I crawl up inside for protection
I'm told what to do and I don't know why

I'm over existing in limbo
I'm over the myths and placebos
I don't really mind if I just fade away

I'm ready to live with my family
I'm ready to die in obscurity
'Cause I'm so tired that I gotta go

Where am I supposed to hide now?
What am I suppose to do?
You still don't think I'm going see this through

Tell me I'm a part of history
Tell me I can have it all
I'm still to tired to care and I gotta go

Oh yeah
Oh yeah yeah yeah yeah.

Still too tired to care and I gotta go
Still too tired to care and I gotta go
Still too tired to care and I gotta go

Yeah, yeah

Still to tired to care and I gotta go

Go home

Still to tired to care and I gotta go

Yeah yeah

Still to tired to care and I gotta go

I want whiskey and speed

FUCKING SUCKS!!!!!!!!

Today has become one of the happiest days of my life.My beloved wolfie has come home after 4 and a half weeks in Navy basic.He got a medical discharge.The hole in my heart is now filled......Love you wolfie.

Well,its going on the 6th day since my beloved mate Grey left for the Navy.It still hurts and I miss him every day.I think about it a lot during the day.But I have calmed down a little.Im not crying my head off at the drop of a hat.Last night I seen the last of my city's fireworks.It made me a little emo cause Grey was with me when I seen the last year.But that moment past.Cause the way Im feeling is ...That Gery would be pissed if he knew I was carrying on like a whinny baby.I mean I miss him terribly still.But what is it going to solve If Im not strong and crying all the time.A few days ago I have started putting my thought down.Basically its a journal of what I have been doing and how Im getting along while Grey has been gone.I must say,it has helped me in a great way.Its almost like Im still talking to him.Once I get a letter from him with the address.I will print up all I have typed thus far and mail it all to him.Its the no contact and not knowing if hes ok thats killing me.I guess all this shows just how much I love him and miss him.I cant wait till hes back for a leave.Cause for the first day,I will not let him out of my arms.I want to thank all of you for your kind and loving words.If anyone want to send Grey a little note to show support.Just Note me and I'll be sure to print it up and send it to him with my letters. Thanks again everyone *BIG SHEPPY HUGS*

Well,its been 4 days.The pain in my heart has lessened.But its still there.I dont feel like crying every minute.I had a slight breakdown last night due to seeing some pics of Grey that his friend Kida sent me.There was a couple that were awesome.A couple that were hot,and one that was extremely adorable.I do miss him greatly.And it still hurts.I just want to thank everyone for their words of support.They mean a great deal to me.