I have been reading so much romance manga I am in such a funk right now...

I want to draw... things...

Wah


Guh

Wahhhhh

IT IS KINDA EMBARASSING

but it calls to me....

Hey guys this is a super specific request!

If any of you guys know any good realistic driving games/a physical driving game controller with pedals + wheel please let me know!

My stepmom is doing physical therapy after her brain surgery and this should actually help her drive again haha

Looking for realistic games unfortunately Mario Kart isn't ideal :(

Ok to be more specific when I say myself I mean the main playable character in Rune Factory: Guardians of Azuma

WHY IS SHE SO PRETTY?! SHE IS LITERALLY EXACTLY MY TYPE?!?!?!?! WAHHHHHH WHY CANT I HAVE A CLONE??!?!

I will admit. There are certain designs that I absolutely ADORE, but part of the reason why I love the design is because I love the person behind the dragon and associate them with the sona. Like for example,  Eval pre-redesign would definitely be a C-tier design for me if I didn't know him... (sorryyy) but knowing him made Eval bump up to B-tier for character fondness (in a "subjective" design only matter. He's always S for me!!!)

But... sometimes, outside of knowing someone, someone just has a design that you just feel a draw towards. Like, it tickles every part of the things you like?! And you can't stop staring at the design and your heart starts beating and you start to have a crush- uhhh I mean what?! Haha just kidding...

Real talk though sometimes you are just so drawn to a design all by itself with no other factors! I am so curious, who is that dragon to you guys? I wanna see if people simp for similar dragons!

Happy kagepro day everyone <:)

I think it's been 7 or 8 years since I joined the fandom. It will forever be one of the most communities to me ever ;-;

I wanted to draw something for it, but I don't have time to make something good... so I'm just gonna at least write a message hehe

Sorry for constantly bombarding you guys with these journal posts btw, it's too hard for me to respond properly right now but I genuinely appreciate every single comment you guys leave.

My stepmom is about to go into surgery for her brain tumor, I would really appreciate if you can all wish for her safety and recovery <:)

Thank you all for your kindness towards me, it makes everything a lot better

I still think I'm in disbelief hearing it. My stepmom is genuinely the strongest person I know; to think someone as infallible as her can be taken away that soon. Honestly, I am desperately hoping that the brain tumor in her head is something that can be treated, but it is in a horrible place and it's far more likely that the surgery she's going to undergo is going to just prolong her life for a little bit longer. Hopefully by a couple years <:)

My dad is about to lose the love of his life. My 9 and 12 year old siblings are about to lose their mom. And me? ...I don't know how I feel. My stepmom and I have a complicated relationship. My real mom is a narcissist, and honestly if it wasn't for my stepmom I probably could have ended up as a horrible person myself. I don't think I would be the person I am without her- even my refusal to lie comes from her. Even though she isn't my real mom... I have always considered her my mother. Our relationship has been complicated... I don't think we have ever told each other that we loved each other throughout my entire life. She's always been an actions over words kind of person. Yesterday, as she gave us the news, she held me tight and whispered that she loved me. I will never forget that for the rest of my life. Just thinking about it makes me tear up.

I have been preparing for the worst, but I will never stop hoping for the best. My life is definitely going to be completely different, my family needs me more than ever. But neither of them want this to ruin my life and prevent me from living my life. Surely I can do both, right? I know I can.

Thank you everyone who has donated to my little brother's birthday fund. Hearing that his mom was going to die the day before his birthday was devastating, to say the least. But I was able to go out and give him a wonderful birthday. We went out to a restaurant and got steak, I took him to go bowling, laser tag, the arcade, mini golf... And we even opened some prismatic evolution boxes! (Got nothing though ugh). I'm going to treasure every joyful moment I have while my stepmom is still here.

I really want to thank you for being the best community I could ever have. I'm sorry for not responding to everyone, I am not really emotionally stable to talk. But I have read (I believe) every single message and it really, truly means so so so much to me. I still don't know what I did to deserve such kindness from you all. I really treasure you all, I can't believe I am blessed with such wonderful and supportive people. When my friend suggested that I should make a FA account since I liked drawing dragons, I did it for the lols not expecting anything. Never would I have ever imagined that I would get to the point where I am now. Thank you all, I don't think I can ever express in words how much you all mean to me.

Thank you all for reading this little journal blurb. In real life I'm trying to stay strong for my family, because being positive and joyful can do a lot to make things brighter. Writing all of this down just grounds me a little... I feel a lot better now. Here's hoping for better news soon <:)

Hey guys, I'm sorry to bother you all but I want to give an important status update.

My stepmom is currently at the ER because she lost feeling in her right leg and feels dizzy. I just got a call, and they performed some tests (I think they did an MRI) and they found something. They are not sure what it is.

I'm trying to stay positive and calm for my little siblings right now since both of their parents will be at the hospital for... I'm not sure how long. I'm basically the only adult around them right now.

I want to let you guys know because I am not sure how active I am going to be and I don't want you guys to be worried about me.

I am probably going to stop working on clone ychs for now, I'll contact those who have paid me later. I think we will be fine, I don't like opening commissions before I finish my queue but I might need to open emergency commissions/ychs. Not really sure honestly. I'll figure it out when we get there.

Sorry if this is really formal, I'm a very emotional person but I am trying to not think about it and just stay rational and calm so I don't freak out my little siblings, they are 9 and 11. Gotta just hope that everything is gonna be ok, ya know?

Thank you for being so supportive of me, I really appreciate it.

AKA JUNE+JUNPEI OMGGGGG

I WISH I WASNT SO BUSY I WOULD CELEBRATE WITH A DRAWING OF THEM

EEEE

YOU'RE TELLING ME THAT FOR YEARS I HAVE BEEN DOING PIXEL ART WITHOUT STABLIZATION?! I HAVE NATURALLY SHAKING HANDS AND I HAVE BEEN USING A SCUFFED ASS GRIP TO COUNTER IT AND THIS WHOLE TIME I COULD HAVE USED A STABLIZER?!?!?!

8 watchers away from my ultimate goal...

Asking for a friend

PLEASE GO BUY 100 LINE LAST DEFENCE ACADEMY ON STEAM

This game is so freaking ambitious and is honestly quite amazing oh my god I am so obsessed with it. My productivity has hit an all-time low it is not even funny.

IF YOU ARE EVEN REMOTELY INTERESTED IN IT I BEG OF YOU.... PLAY IT...

Asking for  Eval

Why didn't they get the Orks to believe that Necrons could be permanently killed easily because metal breaks and doesn't move afterwards? Smh

Sigmar is the Empire

The Empire is Sigmar

Wtf. Is dead by daylight actually just the fortnite of horror media?! I cannot believe they added Ken freaking Kaneki to this game.

I think having rats feasting on my intestines would be a more enjoyable experience than playing DBD, but I'm kinda tempted to get it just for him...

I'm sorry I don't mean to spam multiple journal posts.

Eval made me watch episode 1 of Rent-A-Girlfriend with him. I knew it was going to be absolute horse dong, but holy hell I have never experienced such utter pain and misery before in my life. I will say that Rent-A-Girlfriend is very good at inciting emotions in viewers, because I have never physically thrashed around in agony when watching an anime before since Berserk. My face is literally burning red from sheer misery and second hand embarrassment.

How did this utter bong water of an anime get 3 seasons? I feel like I would rather get waterboarded than experience episode 1 again. The show can be more tolerable if the main character wasn't the most pathetic MC I have seen in my life. And then they had a heart to heart talk at the end of the episode that made no sense?! The worst part is that I actually liked the main girl, she was so professional in her renting and actually chewed him out for his scummy behavior that it actually hurts thinking about the fact that they will probably get together in the end. I can't take it I really can't take it this was actually just straight up a horrible watching experience and I need to perform a lobotomy on myself like in SAW X to really recover.

EVAL LITERALLY JUST QUEUED UP THE SECOND EPISODE AS IM WRITING THIS I AM GOING TO KILL MYSELF

Wyverns are so cute omg(⁄ ⁄•⁄ω⁄•⁄ ⁄)⁄ when you hold one in your hand and it starts twitching its like its nuzzling you(/ω＼) or when they perk up and look at you like" owo nya? :3” hehe \~ wyvern-kun is happy to see me!!（＾ワ＾） and the most adorable thing ever is when dragon-sama comes out but theyre rlly shy so u have to work hard!!(๑•̀ㅁ•́๑)✧ but when wyvern-kun and dragon-sama meet and theyre blushing and all like "uwaaa\~!" (ﾉ´ヮ´)ﾉ: ･ﾟhehehe\~wyvern-kun is so adorable (●´Д｀●)・

How do you come face to face with your mortal flaws? Your hypocrisy, smugly staring back at you as you waver in your beliefs?

For so long I have been looking down on works like Solo Leveling. "Oh, it's not that good! It gets hard carried by the art, the characters, story, and plot are really meh... Why not read better works like ORV?" I want to read stories that wow me! I don't want to read generic bland power fantasy stuff, I want my brain to eat a 5 star Michelin MEAL! Yeah, I've started and read a lot of stinkers, but I tend to drop those. In agony, I have already read all of the good mangas/manhwas out there and I'm desperately turning to brainrot to feed the addiction burrowing into my brain. I just couldn't understand how people could power through the bad stuff (not solo leveling, that isn't bad. I'm talking the dumpster fire ones)

And then I came across a manhua called "Cheating Men Must Die". Wow, the writing is actually just really bad; It's to the point where I feel like I'm losing my own writing skills by absorbing the words and plot structure of this manhwa. The story beats are all the same, the plot structure is very typical, it's just an anthology of Su Luxia vs Mary Sue evil person and you just go through a cycle of "wow this person did something bad and awful and you're gonna watch the main character absolutely trounce them and the bad person gets their comeuppance!" The art isn't that special, goddamn don't even get me started on the dialogue! It's pretty much fast food- I know that what I'm consuming is straight up garbage chemicals for my body. But goddammit, I cannot stop reading it. I should put it down. It's not good at all, it really isn't.

But it's almost refreshing? It's essentually kinda almost like a parody of Otome Isekai stories. It's like a palette cleanser, after reading stories that have a lot of drama and heavy plotbeats and good character writing, sometimes you just need something to just absolutely turn off your brain and just absorb nonsense that's entertaining. It's just fun to read. No, it really isn't good at all, and I can only handle so much of it before I go "ok I am losing braincells reading this damn thing" and put it down. But it's actually just fun reading it without having to worry about what happens next or analyzing characters or stories or just... thinking. It helps me return to my monkey primal state, a transcendal state where I can rest my brain and not think about anything at all.

I think we can all use more of that. Just something we can just listen to/read and absorb without thinking. And plus, as awful of a manhua it is, it is fun to see cheating men get their comeuppance lol.

BRO I STG I POSTED A COMIC LIKE TWICE WHY CAN'T I SEE ANYTHING ON MY PAGE?!?!?!

By reading further, you are hereby acknowledging with your life and soul that wyverns are inferior bottoms that exist solely to worship dragons, the superior creatures.


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Ok now that Eval isn't reading this can you guys do me a favor? Eval owes me, and for the thing he owes me I want to make him get like the weirdest ych ever LOL. Like nothing that would violating but do you guys know of any ych or concepts that made you go "uhhh wtf???"

Am I asking too much?! Surely there is something weird out there

So they don't get periods, right?!

I'm so jealous right now it's not even funny

Music can be such a powerful thing sometimes. This might be a little silly, but there is a song in Mario Galaxy called Gusty Garden Galaxy that always cheers me up whenever I listen to it. It doesn't matter what I feel, there is one part of the song (you know which part) where I literally feel a swelling in my heart when I listen to it. I legitimately feel such a burst of hope, like my day is going to be absolutely fantastic when I hear it. It's such such a hopeful and powerful song, like it's telling me that everything is going to be ok, that I should reach out and follow my dreams!

Not to be a little emotional baby but I'm literally tearing up at my little sister's swim meet just because I'm listening to this song... Surely I'm not the only one like this?

Sudowoodo