Which sounds like a lot, but since I missed some weeks in June, it sounds like more than it is xd
June so far hasn't been the kindest, but things have been looking better this past week, and I was able
to sketch a good amount of pics again.

Anyway, lots of pics gonna go up on my patreon in July, plus higher resolution versions of pics I did this half
of the year, so if you're interested in seeing what's mostly a lot of noms and big paws, come check em out.

Here on FA I'll either be quiet or schedule some older patreon pics to go up in the meantime.
Since July is usually the month I take time off, I'm just gonna finish all the sketches I got left now as best
as I can and then just try to enjoy the summer, without anything getting in the way hopefully.

Check out my  patreon here --> www.patreon.com/S2_Freak


Hope y'all have a nice summer ahead of you as well~

Slots are here~
Honestly, if I do open commissions again in the future, I'll have to find a better system than the current one,
maybe something like themed commissions, friends / regulars only or simply being permanently open and accepting
whatever appeals to me in the moment, because the way it is currently going feels somewhat outdated and rather
unpleasant to go through at times.
My "Rules and Information" bit isn't that long, it's like 5 lines of text, and if a majority of people contacting me can't
be bothered to read through them, it's somewhat disheartening. What's worse is when people send me characters
that are so far outside of my bubble, aka what is expected to be seen in my gallery, that I have to wonder if they've
ever even seen my pictures. It's a trend that's gotten worse the last few times comms were open, so changes need to be made.


Anyway, here's the list.

1.  DazzlingRaz
2.  eeveechu
3.  mr-rowboat
4.  ermine
5.  atrocityatwork



The list is shorter than usual because I don't wanna go overboard with colored stuff after offering those comms for
the first time in a long time. Also afraid of both not meeting expectations and possible burnout a little.
Sorry for everyone who almost got chosen but didn't make the final cut, there will be more chances in the future.

I really hope this is the last time I have to make commissions-related excuses and tell people I'm sorry, next time the
system will be better. Cus I do mean it when I say I'm sorry, to the folks who worded their ideas nicely and thoroughly
and have fun characters to work with and were willing and kind enough to give me the chance to work on a commission with
them. I still try to mix new faces and regulars as well, but it's getting tougher, and I'm not gonna deny that working with
people I've had great experiences with feels more relaxed and safe, so I gravitate towards them more these days. After
doing this stuff for roughly 15 years, having that reccuring clientele is nice. Again, cozy bubble.

Anyway, enough ranting.
Will contact you guys soon.
As always, thank you a lot for you interest~

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It's been, like, more than a year, but this month I have the time for some comms again~


Rules and Information

- Manga Style Art - $90
- Colored Art - $120

- Max. 2 major characters, simple background
- Send me a note or leave a comment here with a brief description of your picture.
- SFW ref sheets only!!
- No humans in 99% of all cases.

- Check out my gallery for examples and to get an idea of what kind of characters / scenarios I usually draw and what not.
- No first come, first served. I'll always be biased towards personal favorites while trying to mix old+new commissioners and some variety of ideas.

- My TOS --> https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5578653/

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Not too sure about the amount of slots. Should there be more than 5, those might take until March to be adressed,
so there may be a one month waiting time for you, please be aware of that possibility. Slots will be open for roughly 24 hours.

Aaand that's it, let me know if I forgot anything.
Hope you are interested~


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Happy New Year, everyone~

Doggo had a decently relaxing time, and I'll be starting to draw again soon. Probably gonna continue with Schwarzi first
and whatever happens beside that, we'll see. Hope you had nice holidays as well~

Have a fun christmas and new year's, everyone. This dawg is taking a break from drawing other dawgs, here
and on patreon, for 2-3 weeks and I'll be back in January. With what exactly, that remains to be seen.

So, happy holiday season, see you in 2025~

First of all, thank you everyone for your comments and encouraging words on the last journal. I cannot reply to each one individually, but I've read them all a couple times, and I wanna thank you for taking the time out of your day to help me out emotionally. Things have gotten, I wanna say, moderately better, but in terms of professional help I'm still on my own for now, since apparently psychiatrists tend to have very long waiting lists. Unfortunately it's clear that some things need to change now and not later, and despite wanting to draw again, I need to change my mindset and approach a bit first. I wanna work and create, but also need to let that take a backseat to mental and physical health.
Before all of this absolute bull happened, I had a workout routine, a semi-strict dietary plan and was also nearing my preferred weight. Needless to say that's all out of the window currently since I've been stress eating a lot, and being sick for a month has reset a lot of workout progress, too. Which is one of the things I hope a professional can teach me, how to deal with stressful situations in a more healthy manner. For now I just want to slowly better my physical state again, which will also affect the mental state eventually. I know it does, I've been in these positive feedback loops before, I just need to learn how to not fall out of them.

So, tl; dr I guess. I'll be drawing again, but health is now more of a priority and I'll dedicate more time towards becoming properly healthy.

Thanks everyone who stayed on my patreon during that entire quiet month, and thanks everyone for still looking forward to new pics over here after those quiet two months.
Since nothing of this involved any kind of burnout, I have hopes that I'll be posting pics regularily again soon, but yeah, still gonna take it somewhat slow for now.

Thanks for reading~

So, I've been away longer than I planned to be, and I'm still not able to actually make a return due to mental problems.
I wanna have this written down here so people are aware, but also just to express myself and honestly, I just need any amount of positive words right now. I don't like it, it feels like fishing for attention and sympathy, but somehow I've found mysef at this point and I'm gonna be honest about my feelings here.

I started off July by becoming sick almost immediately, and it lasted until almost the end of the month. Whatever it was, it affected my throat so much, I found myself spitting up blood two times and had to spend some time in the hospital. In the end, they never found out what exactly was wrong with me and they even gave me the wrong medication the first time, something to make me cough MORE so that the throat could become even more sore and damaged so I spat out more blood the second time. I don' think I can properly convey how many times during this, I came close to choking on my own mucus., it was that intense. It eventually faded at the start of August, but by that point I had absolutely no energy to return to drawing right away, so I wanted to go for another week while it was still sunny. Now, I'm one who really, really needs sunny, extremely hot days. From folks on discord I learned that that's not everyone's cup of tea, but for me that's a key element to be able to deeply relax. Unfortunately this entire summer so far was filled with MAYBE five hot days, some of which I missed entirely due to just lying in bed being sick. So that didn't help anything, either.
During all of this, I tried to order a new laptop so I have one in case my current one breaks. Now I'm very meticulous about the specs, but of course the one that matched my preferences arrived broken. Like the simple act of installing windows and stuff already gave me two bluescreens, the display just entirely glitched out at times, so I had to send it back, which came with its own troubles with the seller and sending process until I finally had my money back. After my laptop broke last summer I think I've developed a fear of appliances just being able to break at any time, so I'm constantly checking temperatures and whether every program works properly and everytime there's just a tiny hickup, I feel this, like, gutpunch, especially when I cannot immediatelly fix the problem on my own.
And all this time, more tiny things came together and it legit felt like, whatever I'm touching, there will be a problem with it, it will not work out the first time and it may not work out at all. Now that's all just still in July, and now halfway through August, I noticed that I'm in a constant state of anxiety, where I'm just waiting for the next thing to break on me, trying to enjoy the moments that are just neutral, but constantly dreading the next gutpunch, cause I know they're coming, and everytime they do, it reinforces my opinion. Like just last night, I was on my laptop and all I did was try to delete one folder. Just one regular, normal folder, and my laptop ended up in a state that now requires me to set back the whole thing and reinstall everything from the ground up, hoping I won't have lost any important data.
And I just can't deal with this anymore. I've noticed in the last 1-2 weeks that my heartbeat has become very irregular, it feels unhealthy, despite the hospital visits in July having confirmed that there's nothing wrong with it. But what does it help me when my body is apparently ok when my head is locked in a permanent state of anxiety, even in the moments in which nothing bad is happening. The fact that I'm unable to return to draw and just have to continue being silent is just adding more pressure and I may not be able to handle any of this anymore without professional help. Like, I cannot properly convey just how... unstable I feel currently. Yesterday I tried to rip a tiny strip of duct tape from a roll and I just couldn't manage. Something that insignificant had to make me leave the room and breathe into a paper bag to counteract the hyperventilating, because even this meaningless little thing that just wouldn't work gave me this gutpunch-sensation, the feeling of whatever I touch, I can't make work out anymore. And it's just.. so many little things like that sprinkled in between the bigger ones, it's legit driving me mad. For the first time in my life I've even had the thought of "maybe some alcohol can make me happy again for a little bit" and when it's gone that far, I know I'm about to go down a very bad path.

Now for transparency, there were a couple great days and moments, too, especially thanks to my friends on Discord, who have unknowingly kept me sane throughout this hell of a month and a half. I wish I could draw pics with their characters and stuff, but I legit cannot figure out how to do that, cause I can neither concentrate nor have fun with my mind its current state. I've had some highs, but everytime they were immediatelly followed up with some really low lows and this constant emotional up and down is just so, so unbearable.



So, I cannot yet tell how to proceed. I hate the idea of being so weak at this point that a psychiatrist or something like that is my only chance. But it may be the only solution right now.
I'm sorry for not having anything to show for now, especially on patreon, but it's legit not a possibility for me right now to be productive. I'm trying what I can to become better, but for now, I may just need a little more time.

Thank you all for reading~

Hello, everyone.
Woof will once again take his break from doodling during the hot summer month. It's been
a super fun half year so far, been coloring pics and comics more than ever, but obviously that
became rather exhausting in the end x3

This time around I'm not entirely gone, tho. Posts on my patreon will keep going up every sunday
as per usual, with some full res pics in between. Taking a break on patreon always feels pretty bad,
so at least this time I won't have to worry about that x3

Either way, hope y'all have a very enjoyable summer. Blue woof will try to tank as much heat as possible~
See you again in August


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 patreon --> www.patreon.com/S2_Freak

 eeveechu is an up-and-coming artist who started their art journey last year and has
already made a ton of really nice progress in the short time he's been drawing.

He's also doing an event for Macro March currently and still looking for some character
suggestions. Go check out his pics and journal so far and give him some love

Thank you~

Happy 2024 everyone. Hope you have a great year, whether you made some resolutions or not.
Actually my 2023 resolution went pretty well towards the end since I was able to do more social stuff like streaming and
meeting new people and friends on Twitch and Discord, sooo that was a big win for me.
Now I just wanna doodle stuff again for the next months, just whatever comes to my mind, and do 1-2 special patreon months
throughout the year for all of you who keep supporting me even during the times when I'm in need of breaks.

Gonna take a few days now to just sketch a few things and then I'll be back to posting~

Woof gonna take a few weeks off and do stuff other than drawing for once, super drained right now xd
Y'all have a nice holiday season. Me, Schwarzi and more random stuff will be back in January.
Thanks a lot to everyone who's still enjoying my stuff and being patient with me and my breaks, was quite
the year again~
Anyway, see you soon~

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Time for some commissions again.
For transparency, due to ongoing inflation and to combat being flooded with too many commission ideas, I've gone from 80 to 90 dollars for the time being.
Hope you understand, and we'll just see how this impacts the queues for now.


Rules and Information

- Manga Style Comm. - $90

- Max. 2 major characters, simple background
- Send me a note or leave a comment with a brief description of your picture.
- SFW ref sheets only!!
- No humans in 99% of all cases.

- For examples, check out my gallery, also to get an idea of what kind of characters and scenarios I usually draw and what not.
- No first come, first served. I'll always be biased towards personal favorites while trying to mix old+new commissioners and some variety of ideas.

- My TOS --> https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5578653/

______________________________________


Trying to go for 5-10 slots if possible, depending on how many people are interested.
Any slots after the 5th might get delayed till October, so please keep that in mind.

Aaand that's it, let me know if I forgot anything.
Thanks for your interest~

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In all my time on this site, I've only drawn and posted pictures that are as "clean" as they can get, as far as content involving Vore and other fetishes
like Macro/Micro or Paws go. I've only ever had a couple pictures that I've given the mature tag, mostly for breasts, still clothed each and every time mind
you, and a couple more sensual Vore pieces, but that's it, nothing that could even closely warrant the "adult" tag, because I'm just not interested in that
kinda stuff. Nor am I ever making any comments that go in that sort of direction.

So lately I just had to wonder, why is it that I attract a lot of the kind of comments that seem so out of place that it's just really creepy? I have received a lot
of comments, many of them on my Schwarzpelz pages, which just blows my mind, talking about deeply sexual stuff, about genitals, a few of them about scat
and piss (to which honestly I can just say, get some help), buttholes, or people just randomly starting roleplaying with themselves and my characters in the
oddest of ways. Sometimes these comments make their way into my PMs and I sit there wondering, what the heck are you smoking man?

And the most fascinating part about this, these comments sometimes come from people I've been interacting with for years, they KNOW I'm not into that
kinda stuff and yet sometimes they go "I know you're not into this, BUT" and then they post the weirdest, creepiest shit anyway. It's so mind-boggling
to me how I attract these comments or why people feel the need to make them.
So, uh... please stop? I don't wanna ban people outright, but if I delete the comments and they keep popping up again, even in cases where I made myself
very clear to a few certain individuals over the years, I might just not have another choice.

Sooooo, yeah just a short weird rant.
Thanks for reading~

Alright, uhm, pretty much I'm feeling like writing down a bunch of thoughts I've had so far this year.

So, as a starting point to all of this, it's important to understand how much I've become dependent on my posting-schedule the last 3 years.
I post every monday, wednesday and friday on FA and every sunday on patreon. And it's this consistency that made me very happy for a long
time. And by "dependent" I mean, like, not breaking the schedule has become a very important mission in my head, because otherwise I'd feel
lazy or unproductive and in the worst case I could spiral into "Well I missed one post, what's another missed post gonna matter now?" and really
start slacking.

Now, what's great and bad about this schedule is that it's literally a perfect sweet spot. It's the exact amount of work where I feel very productive,
but don't run into burnout territory. If you've followed me for some time, you know I've had severe burnout issues multiple times throughout this
artistic career, especially last year around this time, where just for a few days, it got so bad that I despised the idea of drawing anymore and I had
to take a month off.

And I think this is where I developed some fear, or where it started manifesting more firmly. No idea if that's just very normal for most people, it
sounds like it would be...
but I'm sometimes just afraid of burning out if I try a little harder.

What I mean is, why not spend more time with pictures again to flesh them out more, or why not post 4 pics on FA once in a while instead of 3?
There is currently a folder on my PC titled "Ready To Go" and it consists of roughly 20 pictures I have drawn this year that I have not posted yet,
and I am afraid to post them. Because if I do, maybe I will not have anything ready to go out anymore if I ever need a break and can't draw,
thus breaking my schedule. Or maybe people will get used to 4 pictures a week and find it disappointing if I returned to 3. What if one sunday I
don't have any doodles left for patreon and feel forced to sketch some random garbage just to meet a quota?

When I started drawing more than 13 years ago I wanted to become really, really good one day and I've practiced for thousands and thousands
of hours to get to where I am today, but I'm still far from where I want to be. And I can't get there if I'm afraid to bite off more than I can chew.
But I don't know, that last burnout hit me harder than anything before and just recklessly drawing through the nights again has become a
very scary thought. I never want to end up hating drawing again.

I've had this thought that the Ready-To-Go folder can become a cushion of some sort, something to fall back on if times get tough, but now sometimes
it feels like I'm drawing stuff just to grow the cushion and not for the sake of having fun drawing anymore. At some point the idea that "Maybe once
the cushion becomes big enough, the fear of a few all-nighters here and there again will dissipate" has popped into my head and I've latched onto that,
but that's also not ideal. Feels like I'm becoming stagnant in a safe place while other people draw all this amazing stuff and leave me behind. On that note,
I really wanted to make a journal about jealousy at some point, maybe I'll do that next.

Despite all that, I still do have fun with my doodles, but this underlying fear dampens the joy now and again and I guess I've become aware of that in
the last couple days and just wanted to put into words how I felt.


Aaaanyway, that's all from the woof.
Thanks for reading~

Because it's definitely summer now, it certainly didn't randomly start snowing this morning <-<
But I wanna mentally move out of the winter-weather now and into spring and summer, so I doodled a new banner for the future occasion!
Now I can switch them around as the seasons change ouo

I'll post the summer and winter banners at some point as well. Just kinda feels weird to post a picture with hese dimensions,
but I don't want to cut them in half either <-<

Anyway, go go summer~

Uuuh just a quick heads up for something I keep getting reminded of here and there.

I only have this FurAffinity account here and my Patreon which is also called S2_Freak.
If you see me actively posting pictures anywhere else on the internet, THAT IS NOT ME!

Years ago I posted two or three pictures on... can't remember, it was either SoFurry or... Weasel or whatever, maybe both,
but I never once revisited those, so these are technically mine but completely dead and inactive.

I sometimes get told by people that they know me from other sites, so if you do, that's not me. That's especially worrysome
if people get baited into donating to someone only pretending to be me, so don't fall for that.
I'm only ever on FA or on Patreon, no Twitter or DeviantArt or e621 or anything else.

Thanks for reading~

Happy New Year y'all floofy people.

Woof had a good time relaxing, can't wait to draw a whole lot of stuff again, mostly big floofs, some of which have either maws or paws~
Uuuh in a tiny bit more detail, first I just wanna sketch a whole lot and go from there. First post will be on patreon next sunday (8th) and
then it's regular pics over here again, every monday-wednesday-friday.

This year I'll also get a better internet connection, meaning I can stream more properly with less issues. Just don't know exactly when it will
happen yet. Uuuh in terms of commissions, none in January, wanna probably continue Schwarzpelz first and complete the current chapter.

And that's it, see you in a week~
*doodles away*

I started doodling one as soon as the announcement came in like yesterday.
Don't really know if I should post it, so just check it out as it is and tell me how big and floofy the Snowwoof is~

Are you gonna get a banner of your own?

Simply, I was wondering about your thoughts on this topic when it comes to commissions.

Way back in the day, I used to run first come, first served type of comms, like around the time where even finding 5 people
interested in my pictures was a huge deal and I sold pics for $20 max. So there was often not really a "choice" to be made.
Over the years that has led to many problems though, where people would ask me to draw scenarios I didn't like, characters
I wasn't comfortable with or even just stuff way above my skillcap. Also saying "no" to people's faces about ideas they may
be very pationate about always felt rude and I didn't like that feeling at all.

So at some point, with more people being interested, I started going for the ideas I was most comfortable with instead. That
also dealt with the argument "I was sleeping when you opened slots so I couldn't get one", which just felt bad as well x3

What's your experience commissioning people or getting commissioned yourself?

--> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IvE3RX1JJfQ

It's literally my exact same experience everytime I've done commissions (or YCHs) so far.
I get extremely nervous, hoping people will think their pictures are good enough once they are done, and
people always (99%) turn out to really enjoy the results and are very responsive and patient throughout
the whole process, even if it their picture may take a week or two.

The comments on the vid are also very wholesome, usually when I come across furry related videos,
the comments are rather toxic, but people are so nice here. Actually gave me a moment to think how
lucky I am to be surrounded by mostly very supportive folks and people who buy from me at all, even
if my stuff is just "self-taught-quality", you know. And that I should show more appreciation as well, I
could have easily ended up in a worse place.

Really, if only the thought of opening new commission rows wouldn't give me these.. mini panic attacks,
I would open them more often. Right now I'm super lucky to have such a huge amount of support on patreon
that I don't have to open commissions, which gives me a lot of time and confidence needed to improve my
mental state.

Let me know about your experiences, as artist or commissioner~

Hi there *paws at*

Uhm, just wanted to tell you how thankful I am to all of you who read and follow the little comic. Lately there has
been so much interaction with every single page, lots of theorizing, empathising with the characters and just in
general so much positivity, always makes me wanna start the next page right away. Which is nice because I don't
feel like drawing a lot of rando pics right now, Schwarzi gives me something easy to concentrate on while trying
to get back into more workouts as well. Even makes me happy again to put a lot of detail into the pages, not
excessively, just what I'm comfortable with. And building up Schwarzi from the ground and his relationship
with Calie is also very fun.

So, thanks a lot for following each page as it comes out, I'm trying to answer all the comments when I can, but
sometimes I need to leave out a page or two, very sorry about that. But I'm reading all your opinions, thoughts
and theories and they are all very nice, it's just, I don't know, really weird to have so many people interact with
something that I've put out in the world and honestly without anyone reading I probably would have stopped
the comic a long time ago, so thanks a lot for keeping Schwarzpelz alive

And that's it, wolf gonna doodle another very big panel now, not much more than, once again, showing off
Schwarzi's size and, as always I guess, hopefully you'll like it

Check out this trailer and tell me you're not getting real hyped up
--> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PcybNpsc3-E

I've actually not been this hyped for a game in a really long time, not even actual Nintendo Pokemon games,
because, to me, they're just not even trying anymore.

Now this on the other hand looks really bonkers, it kinda looks like what could be done with a Pokemon-esque
formula if you just added more mature/adult elements and really breathed some life into a concept that has otherwise
become pretty stale over the years. And this is coming from someone who has 0 interest in shooters! Also love how
they are hinting at an actual food-chain, for obvious reasons x3

I don't get my hopes up a lot anymore or get hyped for any games really. The last two were the Dragon's Dogma
DLC "Dark Arisen" way back on the PS3(?) I believe, cause DD is one of my favorite games and then Biomutant a while
back which was unfortunately utterly disappointing. But something about Palworld makes me hope it's gonna be a banger,
it already looks like a lot of passion and just crazy ideas are going into it and it also seems to be coming out this year already~
Also if it does land and gain some popularity I'd reeaally love to see a lot of artwork popping up and doodle some of the
characters myself. ...Nah I'll probably doodle some regardless.

Let me know what you think about the game!

Alright so, this is a bit of a special subject I feel.

In the last 3-5 days I've had such a big disinterest in drawing like I've never felt before. Like nothing but really strong "Ugh"s whenever I sat down
to even think of something. I thought about some macro/micro/vore stuff I usually enjoy doodling and was so... unbelievably done with that, can't
really put it into words properly.
Now here's the thing, last month I've had a really great time with Schwarzpelz and put a lot of work into the new pages and I'd actually like to
continue that, get the chapter finished and start a new one, no problem. BUT I'm also doing my weekly patreon posts, which I was hoping to put
out a bit more of this month cause your support has been amazing for such a long time now and I wanted to thank you with some more doodles,
but I've run so dry that I wonder if I can even put out the bare minimum anymore.
So basically, I usually always have some amount of little doodles lying around that I decide to spend a bit more time with and then put em on patreon,
aaalways. But after all the work on Schwarzpelz AND the reward sketch tiers, I've not had time for little doodles anymore, so the little bonus pics for
patreon, they just don't exist right now, my sketch folder is nonexistant at this point.

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How did we get here?
Last year was absolutely sublime, had the perfect balance between my own doodles, some commissions, some Schwarzpelz, just the right amount of
work and time to dedicate to my own pieces so that I was still able to view drawing as the hobby it started out as while also being proud of the quality
and quantity of the pictures I doodled.

This year's dilemma started on the 1st of January. Forgive me if I don't go into great detail, but during a family get-together, which we always do on the
first of each year, I found out that if my parents were to ever pass away (they're like close to 70 at this point), I'd basically be homeless cause I wouldn't
have the money to pay out my older sister and brother if I wanted to keep the place I moved into, which is my late grandma's, just one story beneath (still same house).
Tldr, gotta divide the heritage by 3, means I'd keep the place but have to pay out two thirds of its value to my siblings, which is in the lower six figures.
I went through all 5 stages of grief on that day. Wanted to start the year great, just like the last ended and was hit with the news that at any point in the
maybe near future I might just be literally homeless. The panic attack I had that night dwarfed anything I felt back in the day when I was still on medication
from my depressions. Cause, throughout the day, I really tried to do the math on it, like maybe I could sell a few more commissions, gather a few more people
on patreon and then I'd make that kind of money one day, but no matter what numbers I dreamt of, they wouldn't amount to the sum I'd need to pay off my siblings
even in 10 years from now. It was really like.. reality just crashed in that night.

So, luckily, I have a sister I do not deserve at all. She pulled some strings and by now ( since roughly 2 weeks ), it's actually official that, even after my parents deaths, I'm fully, officially,
allowed to keep living in this house no matter what, in exchange for my hereditary rights. So, that is luckily not something I will have to worry about again.

This is basically the backstory to why I even added the new patreon tiers in January, I panicked, wanted to tell myself it's ok, look, people are interested, numbers are
going up already, I can surely shoulder some extra workload for some time, it's gonna be ok. It's also why I blasted through the 10 commission slots in January in only
2 weeks, needed to prove to myself that I can handle the work. Unfortunately, by now, I can in fact not do it anymore, it's become too much. A few days ago I decided
to unpublish the extra tiers again, though a few sketches from pledges in March are still carrying over to April. Gonna doodle those in hopefully fine quality and then
step on the brakes, try to find my old pace again. I wanna be happy with my pictures and want you guys to enjoy them too, not having to force them out because
of finances anymore.

Uhm.. think this is all I had to say.
Thanks for reading, and for always allowing me to take my time with these things, even though I'm usually too harsh on myself to actually do that.

Just a heads up of what's to come in April.

I wanna do a bit more for my body again, especially now that the wheather's getting better, so I'll make that a priority over drawing right now.
What I will doodle is a few more Schwarzi pages and a tiny bonus sketch here and there for patreon as a thank you for all your support~
Not too much gonna change here on FA though, just that I'll repost a few more very old patreon pictures when I have nothing else finished.
Basically what I want is having the freedom of concentrating on workouts, or just... working in the garden, walking my dog for longer periods, etc..
without having the thought of "well but after all this I still have to doodle something or I can't fill a certain quota". Cause otherwise I can't concentrate
on workouts and will just feel miserable, like.. feeling like I'm not doing enough in both categories.

Again, for you guys, not too much will change anyway~
Thanks for reading~

I'm just feeling uncomfortable right now.
I'm a friendly guy, can make friendly conversations and stuff, but irl I am extremely introverted and
in all honesty, I don't make friends easily. In 12 years the friends, like real close friends, I made on the internet are in the single digits.

And right now I'm scared people are trying to pledge just to get uncomfortably close to me without caring how I feel about that.
But I can't get mad at it because "well they are supporters after all"
How do I deal with this? I honestly dont know.
Don't think I can get a lot of sleep tonight.