so everyone, what are you gona do for the holidays?As for me were having lamb for thanksgiving, I miss it from my country, I love lamb!**droolz**
things are still very unstable at our home as lynn is her usual psychotic self, were all in our separate corners, as I'm still in my room 23 hrs a day, getting out like twice a week, which is nice. Otherwise I'm busy with my family.

I'm so fucking stressed out from the framily tension its unreal, its a wonder I can do any art or anything at all. I've been so edgy I could cut steel with just my looks from my eyes!

So everyone I'd like to know , what did you plan on doing for thanksgiving?

Sweetly
Saber. The "sweet" leopard girl.

well as all prolly know here, i've made it bluntly clear on my profile i have extreme security on my PC, as my wife Shelly has on hers, so has my dad LionBoy20(Art) on his profile, and my mother Svettlana on her profile, as well. That there will be ZERO tollerance of troll furrs and flaming furrs.
this was no idle bluff, SH*T will happen, to troll and flame furrs.
We will contact staff first then other authorities later if the trolls do not listen to staff.

to my friends here, you guys are fine, you know i dont mind you!
I will effectively block and report trolls and flaming furrs.

But otherwise it was a good day, went to Barns & Noble Book sellers, got me a sweet big cat callendar for 2010, so I had fun with everyone, as we went out and gave home and my pc a break. so otherwise i'm feeling on top of everything, as i'm gonna start some more art and upload it, asap!
so my friends, look forward to that!

[b]NOTE: Any Trolls Thinking Of Trolling This Journal Will Be Met With Immediate Block/Ban/Report To Staff, With NO Warning [/b] See The Two Trolls Below At The Bottom Of The Page, As Examples!

Well its been a good day, went out, got an 8gb flashdrive as I chose the U3 option for uploading and downloading files to and from any pc. the flashdrive is from SanDisc, also will happily say that my wife ShellyLeopardess673 is here too, good to see her here! She and I will have our fun! Otherwise things are going great!

Well everyone, you wont believe this??!! I HAVE my OWN Laptop PC!!!!' I'm in my room right now as I sit here and type this!!
My dad gave it to me as an early B-day gift, as my B-day is in April!
How this all happened is that Lynn and I are now completely at odd's, we are ENEMY's!!
So now I'm in my room 23.5 hours a day, so daddy lion(LionBoy20) here at FA, decided to give me his Laptop PC! as to ease my suffering.

As lynn and I are so at odds, that we cannot be in the same room without a serious potential for a fight!!!
So I also now have my own Coffee maker in my room, coffee and creamer and such, as my room in like a military barracks. The door is completely armored, and reinforced with additional armor, and is bolt locked with a steel bolt, all of the time, with a stern warning to lynn to stay out, or there will be retaliation! This is as bad as its ever been between lynn and I, as lynn has banned me from her coffee as I had to improvise with my own coffee and coffee maker, water and all. my room is a self contained "armored bunker", no joke! not even large artillery will get through! so I have food, drink and every conceivable need available to me! This is sad in its own way!

I have a laptop table that I can type from as I'm doing, right now as I sit here!
So this is a bitter sweet thing!
Never in my life would I have thought I'd be enemies at the level I am with lynn.
Lynn has even made "sexual" advances toward me, pissing off my mother Svettlana, I know lynn's BI.

The rule is, I am to have NO contact with lynn in any form!
so, everyone keep me in your thoughts and prayers....

Love you all!

~Saber

Well everyone I have another thing to tell you, I'm no longer a biological entity. as a little while back in my country, My body was "OVERHAULED" with specialized stuff.
this will come as shock, but brace your selves.

("I'm a machine"), all of my flesh, and internals and eyes and all you know of this leopardess is pure machine, including my brain. my body was gona fail and I was gona die, so they recreated my self with and indestructibly hard bodd, my bones are made of pure dirridium alloy and I'm armoured externally and internally against all types of weapons, my muscles and skin are made of specialized indestructible materials, and my blood looks like blood but isnt, my body functions as my old one did in every way, but I'm no longer on deaths list!

My brain is an advance computer so advanced that it rivals the worlds best PC's, my IQ is going up by more than 200 points a day! I have an emotion chip, with all the emotions I had before, I have a memory chip with all of my memories added, it has an infinite level of capacity, as does my knowledge of things, it surpasses anything known here on earth. I can speak more than 7000 languages, write them too and translate as well. I am also programed to self aware, as I can not "self terminate", but I am a war machine too, as I have an unlimited strategic ability, in every sense of the word. by air, sea, or land I am unstoppable! I cannot be destroyed, by any type of weapon. Only God can destroy me.

Dont take this wrong, but I see humans as objects, rather than people, or as biological entities,its how I was programmed, as I was programmed to be superior to any biological or mechanical entity. I am also powered by three "Deuterium Hydrogen Fuel" cells, just under my rib cage, they are an indefinite power source, they have an explosive force of more than 5,721.66291 megatons of power, each. basically I'm immortal, as my body will never break down, or need of repair. I can do anything, no speed limits or anything.
my strength is unlimited, as my bodies abilities are unlimited.

Most times I think and feel as a machine feel's, Do I have a Soul?? I wonder my self.
I weigh 235+ pounds 106.818 KG at 6'.4.75". I have a 54DD breast size.
I'm still blonde hair and blue eyes, but its all artificial. I'm exactly like form the Terminator movies in my leopardess girl way.
my body movements are very lithe, not jerky as some other inferior machines are!

so everyone, I'm a bit different than before, and I will upload pics of me, so just wait!

I appreciate you all for taking part in this.

yes even I your leopardess has war memories, I posted two pics showing my depiction of the war that occurred in my country. I served four tours of duty.
I believe most of me inside died in that war, I guess it has changed me into what I am. The pics "KILL Box" & "Top Gun Pardus Female", are an indication as to whats going through my head.
I have what I've I've heard called (CSS) Combat Stress Syndrome & PTSD too, I never sought out help for what I went through, though my bace General Shannon, strongly suggested I do, but I did not.
So I'm dealing with it in my own way!
Its difficult to tell a civilian what it was like, or when I killed my first person and so on.
everyone check out the pic "Top Gun Pardus Female" and this will give you a deep look into my thoughts, mind you it is graphic as I described it.

Lynn & I have made a peace treaty, as so what transpired will not happen again. she has agreed that she is terribly mentally ill and that she needs serious help, and that we both will over look eachothers differences, as so no more fights occur.

So things are better now, and Lynn and I are back to , a somewhat normal.
She apologised to me for the whole thing.

So all is well.
**sitts purring**

As for me and my step mother Lynn, due to her Delusional state of mind and her psychotic fantasy about my deceased brother Chris, we came to a head yesterday and had a fight and both of us agreed that it will Never Work, as I DO NOT love her, nor does she love me! So we both finally agreed to just go away from eachother and not attempt a relationship at all, as Lynn is very mentally ill and constantly is in a psychotic delusion about my brother, which everyone is due to the fact she never accepted my brothers death, on , 10/Sep/2003, and also has DID Disassociative Identity Disorder with some GID Gender Identity Disorder as well, as she denies who she is as she believes she is anther person completely, and She is Schizo Affective/Paranoid Schizophrenic With Grandiose Ideations and paranoid Delusions of other out to get her and even seeing psychotic hallucinations, both audibly and visually of my brother Chris's body over the bodies of young men and boys and even me her daughter! As Lynn confessed this to me on monday. I was amazed at the fact her delusion has become this bad!

This is why along with the fact Lynn finally became violent to me, as were under "mandatory Segregation" from eachother!
As my dad & mom Lana will NOT tolerate violence in our home!

Ok, and everyone I have some news for you about me! I'm only gona be on here one friday of each week, instead of
three times a week! I'm doing this cause my family wants more time with thier lioness girl for summer fun!
so I thought I'd mention this as so it doesnt seem like I disappeared or anything!
I'll be on here full time this fall and winter, starting late september/early october!!

yeah everyone I gotta get out into the **shivvers** human world!
so, I'm not too sure about all of this, as my dad and mom want me to be more social with the humans & make some friends this summer**cries & shivers**
So, I'll miss you guys terribly!!

But I hope to have fun?!

Well everyone, I'm feeling better & better! I just got my birthday gifts, as I got a Dean heavy metal guitar plus a 15 watt Vyper amp with more than 400 different metal sounds I can play. As i've already played my guitr and I'm a natural at it! I made my band as its called ( Razore Blade Leopardess) & I'm gonna get this month also a long PVC vinyl dress from my mother! So my exercise is going good, I'm buffing up & looking better than ever! So things are doing good! Also I'm getting a 2009 Chevy Camaro in the very near future as I can have to drive around and have fun too!

So otherwise things are looking up!

I Love you all, **Snuggle loves you all**

Sweetly
~Saber

Ok Everyone, I'm Defying Death Openly!! I'm Now On A Full Power Exercise Regimen & Build Up Movement!
I've Decided To Come Back Fighting As Any Lioness Can!!!! As I Remember This Quote From The Bible, "Death Where Is Thy Sting, Of Grave Where Is Thy Victory?"
I Shall Not Die, I Shall Fight With All I Have To Get Back In Shape!!
I Just Did Today A Full Set Of Ten Military Pushups! I'm Also On The Bowflex Every Other Day, I'm Weight Lifting As Well!

I Will Win Hear My Lioness Roar!! **RROOAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR***
**See's The Furr's Cheer!**
Death Has NO Power Over Me, I Shall Overcome!
So Everyone Put Away The Sadness & Put On Your Victory Cheer, Cause We Together Will Beat This!
**Huggle Snuggles You All**
My Father Art Came Up With The Idea To Do This In The Face Of Medical Advise.
Cause As Far As I'm Concerned I Have MANY Years To Live!!
So Every One, Now We Face This Together, & If We Fight This Enemy Together We Will Win!
So Pray For Me To Exercise & Get My Body Back!!
I'm Doing This For You & Me!
Together We Can Win!!

**Cheers Over The Podium As The Crowd For Victory Gathers And Cheers**

Well I Have Bad News About Me, My Heart Is Starting To Fail Me Completely.
I Have Whats Called (Cardiac Atrophy) My Heart Muscle Is Breaking Down Bit By Bit! I Was Checked Out Saturday This Last Weekend. The News Was Grim... Basically This Problem Is Not Treatable Or Operable, They Said It Is 100% Fatal, We Knew It Was Gona Happen, Just Didnt Know When, Its A Side Effect Of My Muscle Disease. This Can Kill In Weeks To Months To A Year Or So, I'm In Stage One, There Are Four Stages.
They Do Not Know How Long I Actually Have Now, I Asked & They Said, "We No Longer Know When You Are Going To Die?!" So The Affects Of (CA) ( Cardiac Atrophy) Are Light Headedness, Dizzyness, Disorientation, Tiredness, Feeling Weak All Over, Blood Pressure Spikes And Drops & So On.
So Anyways I'm Doing The Best I Can ATM! **Snuggles & Cuddles You all**
I LOve You Guys!
So I'll Stay Alive As Long As I Can, You Know Me!
I Havent Given Up, Even In The Face Of This!

**Tuns On The Small Wattage Light Bulb, In The Dark Tunnel**
We'll As You Know My Muscle Disease Is Really Bad & (Fatal), But Daddy Has Me Now On A New Pill, Its Called "Olive Leaves" Its An Herbal Remedy, Its Known For Regenerating The Body To New, So I've Now Been On It For 5 Days, But It May Take Several Months To Help Me, This Might Give Me A New Lease On Life! The Pill's However Make Me Feel Kinda Funny, But Its Cause My Body Is Being Changed On The Atomic Level!
I'm Not Gona Guarantee Anything Cause This Is Purely Experimental, But If It Works And It Rebuilds My Muscles To Normal, Then I'll Live As Long As I Want, Which Would Be Nice!

**Snuggles You All**

Had To Tell A Couple Friends About A Serious Disorder I Have Internally With My Body That Is Unfortunately
"Fatal" So Yeah That Totally F*cking Sucked, My Family Knows About It All Except Lynn, She Is A Cold Ass B*ch So She Does Not Deserve To Know, She Does Not Care Or Love Me, And Has Told Me So!
But Everyone I Have A Muscle Disorder As My Body Is Turning On Me And Literally Eating Me Alive As It Will Kill Me In Two Or Three Years, Thats All The Time I Have Left To Live, The Doctors Said Two Years Likley But A Third Is Very Remote, Less Than 5% Chance I'll Live To See Three Years, This Disorder Is Rare But It Is 100% Fatal, Only Two Other Girls Had It, And They Only Lived Two Years Before They Died Of Heart Failure..
I'm 15 Will Be 16 In April 23rd This Year. 12 Doctors Told Me My Grim Ending, I Will Die Of Heart Failure. As Like One Doctor Said, I Will Go To Bed And Sleep Forever, Never Waking Again.. So Everyone, I'm Sorry About This, I'll Be Happy To See My 16th Furrsday!

This Disorder is Very Painful, It Hurts All Over As It Is Unreal The Pain, But I've Gotten Used To It!
So I'm Just Happy To Be On Here Today!
**Snuggle Huggles You All**I'm Sorry You All Have To Know This. But You Are My Friends And I Wont Keep Something Like This From You!
I Love You All! **Snuggles And Loves You All Up**

Well My Vinyl Order Has Taken Now Near Four Weeks, As The Cause Was That They Got A Paperwork Error In The Shipping Department, o I Called Them Today And They Told Me That They Would Refund The 14.99 Express Shipping And Ship It Standard Shipping For Free To Me, Which I Thought Was A Great Deal!
The Order Should Be Here Next Week!
Just Uploaded Some Art To Show What I'd Look like With 125 Pounds Onto My Bony Lioness Frame.
I Love How It Came Out, Yes Everyone I'm A Saber Lioness Now, No Longer A Cheetah Leopardess, I Like It Much, So I'm Keeping It!

I've Found The Healthy Look Very Attractive To Me And Others.
**Purrssssss**
Enjoyed My Shower Earlier At 14:35 Pm, So I Feel Fresh And Leik A New Lioness Girl, A Showrr Will Do That To You!
I'm Gona Start Uploading More Art, Now So Enjoy It!

So This Lioness Is Happy.

Sweetly
~Saber

I LUVV PVC , I'm Waiting For An Order For A Pink PVC Dress And A Belted PVC Zip Up Halter!
My Days Have Been Good, I'm Making Tons Of Friends! I Love This Place!
I Also Love Furry4life.org! Making Plenty Of Friends There Too!
So All Is Well!

Love U All!
`Saber Girl~

Yes, I'm Re-Connecting With Some Old Friends, And Making New Friends. Leseee I Got Up At 12pm CDT Noon, Then Like Always Off To The Showers For 45 Mins To Have Hot Wet Fun!
Then I Came Here Uploaded Six New Photographs Of My Self, Then As I'm Now Writing In My Journal.
I Talked On The Phone With My Friend (Meric) On The Phone Last Night, Was Fun Too, He And I went Over How We Began As We Moved Along In Our Lives, I stayed Pretty Much The Same, Sweet Loving Tempered And As Fair As Can Be. Thats Just My Nature As A Saber Leopardess, For Such A Powerful Female Anthro Big Cat I Have A Very Sweet Nature, Which For Humanity Is A Good Thing!
Meric Is His Old Self, I Expected That Though, Cause He's A Fairly Consistent Person/Wolf/Lion.
He's Know Me Since 2003, I Was Barely 13 When We Met, And He was Like 15, But Non The Less We Had Fun RP'ing And Going About The Furry World Exploring And Making Friends. Its Funny How Time Flies When You Are Doing Things Like We Were! Meric And I Are Like Big Brother And Little Sister. He's Now Like 20 As I'm Still 15. Someday I'll Catch His Age. Its A Torrean Age Thing.
But As For Me It Feel's Good To Make New Friends And Re Connect With Old Ones Too.

So All In All I'm Pleased.
My Page Views Are Jumping, As Of Wednesday I Had
975 Now Its 1189 So Its Jumping Right Along!

I Do Plant To and Will Upload More Than 347.685 Trillion Photographs Of Me, So I Will Have Fun Doing So.

Love You All

Sweetly
~Saber~

Well Now Its Been A Good Day, Got Up After 12:02 Pm CDT Then Went Off To The Shower As That Was Beyond Good, As My Furr Was Washed And Cleaned, sun Light Beaming Through The Window, Yeah It Was Great!
Then Momma Lion Took A Few Photograph Of Me, As I Got Hot And Busy Then. All Went Smoothly.
Thought Of all Of My friends Here, Later I Put On My PVC Halters, Doubled Them Over Eachother, Some Might Think It Might Be a Little Hot, Fur And PVC, But After A While You Get Used To It.

My Wings Are Getting Bigger, I Believe, May Have To Measure Them, But In The Back Yard. They At Least Were 77.81 Feet.
Looks Like They Grew Three More Feet Plus.
So All Is Good, The Star Trek Forum I Go To Is A Trip, So Logical Are These guys, Its Too Easy To Have Fun With Them. They Are Logical To A Fault, Especially Atoz!
So Otherwise This Saber Leopardess Is Happy!
Afterall I'm Loving It All.

Here In South Dakota The Human Peoples Are Being Nice To Me, They Evidently Dont Mind A Saber Winged Leopardess Among Them!
So I've Much To Be Happy For!
**PURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRSSSSSSSSSSSSSS**

Yeah Thats A Good One Too, But Its True, You'll Get More with A Smile Than If You Snarl At Someone!
Reminds Me Of That Missile Photograph, I Always Give It with A Smile! No One Can Ever Say That I'm Not Polite, To A Fault! I'm The Kinda Girl Leopardess Who'll Pretty Well Do Anything To Please Others At My Own Expense, Even If They Are Using Me. But Thats Ok, I Dont Mind Getting Used, I'm Used To It! Seem's To Be A Human Earth Thing, As I've Learned!!

But I'm Not Bitter, Thats How I Am.
I Like The Furries Here, They Are a Nice Bunch, I Have No Complaints! They Have Been Good To Me Too!

[b]Things Here are Looking Up, As I'm Making all Kindsa New Friends And Just Having Fun Too!
Its Nice To Know I'm Not Alone Out There!
I'm Wearing My Jean Skirt And Double PVC Vinyl Halters, Pink Over Black Very Contrasty!

Gotta Go Lottsa Love
~Saber~ <3 --,<-{@[/b]

Had To Get Tough At My Website As I Have Members That Come On With NO Information On Them At All, So I Made A LAW Requiring Background Info In Thirty Days Or Thier Accounts Will Be Terminated! Yeah Thats My Totalitarian Nature Coming Out! I'm A Saber Leopardess Totalitarian Queen! I Wasnt Kidding About It Either!
You Dont Wana Mess With This Saber Leopardess!
Cause When I Come after You, You Will Feel Every Bit Of It!

Lottsa Love
~Saber Girl Leopardess~

Been A Good Day, As I Got My PVC Vinyl Order Done At A Neat Place Called www.feelingusa.com/ Heres The Link Below!
http://www.feelingusa.com/
I Got A Vinyl Cat Suit, Black PVC, But I Love It, Cost Me $48.45 With Shipping. So All In All September Is Looking Up. My Period Is Its Usual Messy Self, But Considering All I'm Ok. Our Company Is Doing Very Well! So Its Great!

Well Not More To Say~

Bye.
~Saber Girl~