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If you hate the sandwich meme.....

WHY DO YOU PARTICIPATE?







I don't understand all these people who are like "Well I fucking hate these fucking meme things that are fucking stupid as fucking **** (expletive deleted). BUT I'm gonna participate.




I can tell you right now I would participate. But I suck at anything artistic on the computer so I can't make an avatar. And there's my reason.

But srsly, don't do it if you don't find it amusing!!!!!


[Oh and btw..... who started it?]

say "baa".


And I only say this to introduce and question what other languages think of the "baa" sound a sheep makes. Or any others.

IE: Rooster - Cock-a-doodle-doo. Right?

I heard in Spanish it's something along the lines of Qui-qui-ri-qui (KEE_KEE_REE_KEE)

Please don't punish me for not spelin them spanis werds more gud.

This seems like a poor place to post this.

I don't know anyone here.

But I don't trust my friends with this.

And I'm having some serious trouble.

"Sad" is the best way to put it. Because it's a simple word, and there's no way to dodge around it. You understand what it means, and that is that. No questions. Easy to understand.

It's the circumstances that are complicating.

I hate the details, and it makes me hate... me. Because I do my best to be there for people, but they don't get me. I don't get me.









This isn't emo. But it's vague because my mind won't let me write down the details because I don't care for them. And because I don't know you, whoever you are, and if I did, what about it?

If I did, then I doubt you would hear this much. It's easy to be anonymous because there is no fear of letting others down or being targeted. I guess I'm most afraid of becoming a product of the latter.

Thus begins a very long 3 weeks. Oh dear.

Gonna be in Auburn this weekend. Have fun kiddos.

(And those above the title of "Kid"...)

This is long and slightly uninteresting. I know you won't read it.



[ NOW ]
Current mood: Awkward. Can't get comfortable.
Current music: Brand New - Limousine (MS Rebridge)
Current taste: Dry Mouth
Current hair: Very little of it.
Current clothes: IU shirt. (EDIT:Just took off the shirt) CofC Shorts. Columbia Boxers.
Current annoyance: I can't play CS: Source. (I'MLAME)
Current smell: None
Current thing I should be doing: Spanish. (IHAVESUMMERWERK)
Current windows open: FA
Current desktop picture: >.> Not telling.
Current favorite band: TOOL
Current book: Lord Of The Flies
Current cd in stereo: None
Current crush: None
Current favorite celeb: Your mom. (I'MSUPERLAME)

[ DO YOU.. ]
Smoke?: I have. Nothing special and no habit.
Do drugs?: Drug-Free
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: Nope, but I can think of a few I want to come back. >.>
Remember your first love?: I've had girlfriends. No first Love.
Still love him/her?: N/A
Read the newspaper?: No
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: No. I don't think so.
Consider love a mistake?: No
Like the taste of alcohol?: Depends.
Have a favorite candy?: M&Ms
Believe in astrology?: No
Believe in magic?: No
Believe in god?: Yes
Have any pets: 3 Cats, 1 Dog.
Go to or plan to go to college: Yes
Have any piercings?: No
Have any tattoos?: Not yet. It will be subtle.
Hate yourself: OMFGemoMOMENT
Have an obsession?: Nope
Have a secret crush?: NU
Have a best friend?: ...if you have to think about this one are you allowed to answer it?
Wish on stars?: When I was younger.

[ LOVE LIFE ]
Ever been in love?: Not really, No
When did you lose your virginity?: I'm a virgin. (oy)
Do you believe in love at first sight?: No I don't
Do you believe in "the one?": Keanu Reeves. Duh.

[ETC]
Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing?: Nope. (LAMELAZERS)
Has a member of the opposite gender seen you nude?: Not stark naked. but yes.
Have you ever been intoxicated?: Nope.
Have you ever been caught "doing something?": Nope.
Are you a tease?: I've been told I am.
Shy to make the first move?: Yes.

[ APPEARANCE ]
Hair: Light brown.
Eyes: Green/Brown
Height: 6'

[ LAST THING.. ]
Bought: Transformers tickets.
Ate & Drank: Chicken Parmesan and Water.
Read: Lord Of The Flies.
Watched on TV: Something on E! about fashion. >.> I'm not gay.

[ EITHER OR.. ]
beer or cider: Cider I guess.
drinks or shots: Drinks.
cats or dogs: Dogs.
single or taken: Single
pen or pencil: Pen
gloves or mittens: Gloves
food or candy: Food
cassette or cd: CD
coke or pepsi: REGULAR: Pepsi . DIET: Coke

[ WHO DO YOU WANT TO.. ]
kill: I can count the number of people on one hand. >.>
get really wasted with: Cody
look like: Me. With a six-pack.
avoid: Amy (Boss)

[ LAST PERSON YOU.. ]
saw: Mom
talked to on the phone: Corie
hugged: Kim
instant messaged: Leigh Anne
kissed: :[

[ HAVE YOU EVER.. ]
Drank alcohol?: Yes
Done drugs?: No.
Broken the law?: Yes.
Run away from home?: No.
Broken a bone?: Yes.
Played Truth Or Dare?: Yes.
Kissed someone you didn't know?: I'm not like that.
Been in a fight?: Fist Fight? Kind-Of
Come close to dying?: Nope. My brother has, though.

[ WHAT IS.. ]
Your bedroom like?: Organized but Junky
Your favorite thing for breakfast?: Food. >.> I'm not picky.
Your favorite restaurant?: Best steak I've ever had was Morton's
What's on your bedside table?: Empty water glass, stereo, pencil, book, trash.
What do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night?: Cheese.
What is your biggest fear?: Spiders and not succeeding. Seriously. I'm bad about that.
Describe your bed: Green and white. (BORINGPLZ)
Spontaneous or plain?: Spontaneous.
Do you know how to play poker?: Yes
What do you carry with you at all times?: Cell phone maybe a little money
How do you drive?: Very well thankyou.
What do you miss most about being little?: I still know everything, but people don't like it now.
Are you happy with your given name?: Marston Boyd Jones. NO
What color is your bedroom?: Brown. Wood.
Have you ever been in a play?: Backstage crew. REPRESENT
Do poor, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you?: If so, that is a very self-righteous asshole.
Do you consider yourself to be a nice person?: Sure!

I have quite a funny (or rather noticable) tan line above my ass!

Is it lame that I've seen Transformers 3 times already?

It sure is a fun movie.

DOCTOR WE'RE GONNA LOSE HIM.

CLEAR! *zhzzzzzzzhTT*

-BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...-

CLEAR! *zhzzzzzzzhTT*

-BEEEEEEEEEEEE-EEP.. BEEP.. BEEP.. BEEP*



I'm not dead, just really really tired. I swear. :)

Gonna be gone this weekend to see TOOL in Orlando, then heading to Hawaii for a week.

Hot damn I need this!

Since I've been lacking in the inspiration department recently, I'm gonna try and force myself to draw some this week.

It may not be worthy to scan on here, but for god's sake I haven't done it in so long I don't know if I remember how.

So I don't think I can make it through this next week, but if I do I have nothing but good things on the way.

TO DO:
House of Leaves. Finish.
Find awesome foreign music.
Draw.
Buy Pan's Labyrinth when it comes out.
Go see 28 Weeks Later

TO SURVIVE:
This next week.
Practices
Mental BREAKDOWN

(Oh and the TO DO list is also suggestions. Check that stuff out.)

I beat Psychobilly Freakout and Laid To Rest on hard.

I feel accomplished. 8]

Oh man...


I need some rest... and maybe a little less to do.
I'm so overdoing it right now.



And I have NEVER ever told someone I dislike (or in this case, despise) them. I just don't do it. I get along with everyone and if I don't like someone, they don't know and neither does anyone else.[for the most part] It's just who I am.

I fucking exploded today. That's just not me.

Cut that riff-raff!

Dear Friends

Well I'm booked. Sorry I can't do anything for the 23450923485^58 days.

Sincerely,
Me

</bittersarcasm>

Carlos Varela - Una Palabra

A beautiful song, one you should check out.

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And in other news, I can't do much right now because I stabbed myself with a butterfly knife. Or rather, dropped it and it inserted itself into my flesh. Awesome. No pain, not even when they stitched me up but it's sore as hell now.

That'll teach me not to drop it next time . ;)

That's all folks.

(Oh and I pulled that sucker outa my leg real fast, but apparently it was about in inch deep looking at the blood on the knife.)

Now I can say I've been stabbed!!

Ha. I came back to 111 submissions.

What a pleasant surprise :)

What an awful day.

And I realize I don't say much on here, but I'm going to be gone for a week.

This is what I felt like today. Oddly depressed, this isn't me and I don't like it.

I don't care if you don't like the song or band, if that changes your opinion of me then I'm glad I never knew you.

Brand New - Millstone

I used to be such a burning example
I used to be so original
I used to care I was being cared for
And made sure I showed it to those that I love
I used to sleep without a single stir
Cause I was about my father's work

Take me out tonight
This ship of fools I’m on will sink
I’m my own stone around my neck
If you’d be my breathe
There is nothing I wouldn't give

I used to pray like God was listening
I used to make my parents proud
I was the glue that kept my friends together
Now they don't talk and we don't go out
I used to know the name of every person I’d kissed
Now I’ve made this bed and I can't fall asleep in it

Take me out tonight
This ship of fools I’m on will sink
I'm my own stone around my neck
If you’d be my breathe
There is nothing I wouldn't give

Things that were heard at the scene of the accident:
"They never hit their brakes..."
"There was no time to see..."
"He just ran out in the street..."
"Does anybody know his name?"
"I think I recognize him..."
"He sure as hell paid for that mistake..."

Been a very busy person.

I haven't drawn anything in months. I'm really wanting to get something done but it isn't happening.

And the coming weeks are gonna be terrible.





I do watch everyone though. I'm just a quiet stalker I guess.

Well I haven't exactly been noticable on here recently, and I haven't actually drawn anything in months.


I really do enjoy this place, but one things that really bothers me is the porn. [GASP... you're on FurAffinity and porn bothers you? WhyTheFuckBeYouHere?!] Well not the porn in general, but the copious amounts of just terrible terrible art people post on here hoping someone will find it interesting or funny. (But hey anything sells nowadays doesn't it?) What I'm trying to say is why do I have to get blindsided everytime I get on here by macro-chipmunk-anal-vore?

I really wish I could filter out all the outrageous things on here and simply keep the artistic stuff? And no, that doesn't mean clothes are mandatory so all the kiddos can have good clean artistic furry fun, but I do wish I could personally keep away from the disgusting (disturbing) stuff and still be able to see some artistic.... nudity?

Maybe I haven't looked through this enough, maybe I shouldn't be here, (And I have a feeling my point I wanted to make wasn't quite made... just too vague)but it's fairly ridiculous the kind of stuff people find good to wack off too here.

I might post something in the near future, I might not. I just haven't felt like it or had any inspiration to do so.


NEXT POINT. I enjoy this...fandom. I don't consider myself a furry. I don't have any "RL" friends with whom I share art, ask for opinion, yadda yadda. That isn't gonna happen. 1.This is something I simply enjoy alone. (That makes it sound like I'm a freakish porno-addict who sits in the dark and looks at porn and faps his life away) I'm not. I just don't share it with anyone. 2. I wouldn't have any friends if they knew I liked the fandom. Which goes back ot the previous part of the journal if you have actually taken the time to read it all.

Most of my time spent on here is being a ghost, findin art I enjoy, faving, maybe watching, and letting that be that, so art is not going to pop up in abundant amounts. Maybe never. If I start drawing it again it might but by the looks of it that a far-cry from where I am now. I do watch though, I do enjoy this, and for those that be-friended me and watch me I thank you.

This has lost any meaning or sense it was inteded for so I'm off.