I haven't ever had the best or most consistent record of drawing, writing or posting here without going on long breaks rather than developing my skills or ideas-

I'm resolved to change that- and for the past few weeks i've been opening Clip Studio Paint to work on something on most days- even if it's just to make little tweaks. Same goes with OC and story ideas on my private discord group with just me in it (Probably not the best way to take notes lol).

For the past 3-4 years i've been dealing with struggling to make in-case-of-emergency funds, or helping my older/disabled room-mate get healthier or to the point where they can work a job along-side me- (fingers crossed they can finally get approved for a disability check increase this year) And that whole situation has been really wearing on the time I've had available to work on things- or the energy i had when i came home from work.

I've been yearning to have the disposable income to regularly commission and support artists and writers for some time now- But while I still have no idea when that'll be- I suppose I may as well try to further develop my own ideas and skills.

If I can get good or feel confident enough to do art-trades or even open commissions by the end of the year- that would be awesome. So I'll try to work towards that.

I can't say I feel like I'm an "Artist" quite yet. But I'm feeling really satisfied with being able to communicate the concepts I have in mind through making little simplistic demonstrations and I even got outlines for original stories developed enough to commission writers!

IDK if or when I'll be making things on a regular weekly or even monthly basis. But I'm gonna do my best to avoid going half a year without doing anything!

At any rate, the wheels are turning! Turning slowly, but turning nonetheless!~

This year's been kinda rough in terms of having funds that I can spend without breaking into emergency savings. (which themselves kept needing to be every few months.)

Though all the while I've poked around and tried to think of ideas for me to write for stories or try to draw. I don't really anticipate finishing anything. But now that I've been slowly and steadily writing premises/outlines, drawing conceptual sketches, and setting aside artwork that particularly inspires me. Now I'm starting to feel like I have ideas about what kind of things I would like to commission other artists and writers to make!

Of course, my current financial situation makes it very unwise to do so. And I'm not sure when I can break out of that.

But hey, I'm hopping in and out of doing creative stuff even if it's just a little bit at a time. And y'know what, I think having a backlog of stuff that I've not finished, even if it's mostly near-empty templates is a lot better than nothing!

And that aspect of it actually feels pretty nice, I feel like I spent *way* too long making nothing due to self-set unrealistic standards, and if I don't someday start churning out completed works or develop an art style, at the very least I'll have enough to start commissioning artists. And honestly? I think that'll be good enough for me.

And hey, maybe this'll be one of those "commissioner to artist" pipelines. Who knows!

Right now I think i'm gonna try to create a 'sona or two... or ten. I'll decide on a character to be the mascot/avatar of my lewd accounts eventually. Problem with having so many different kinds of wild kinks is that I feel kinda weird trying to dump them *all* into a single character vs splitting them up.

I can't believe I've spent this long on the site without settling on a Fursona, or even a Human-Sona who gets into Furry Shenanigans.

-w-

Living Underpants/panties that have 2 holes in the backside to hold your wrists in.