gij

after the fucked up events a couple months ago, i stopped using this account. i don't know if i'll ever come back. the following is why but you can skip ahead to the bottom if you want to read it summed up quicker


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things have been really fucked up ever since FC, and it honestly got exponentially more fucked up since. got numerous people harassing me, several of which for absolutely no reason, and the person that threw me into this situation is once again trying to manipulate me into believing things that didn't happen... again...

i've kinda left IG since a lot of people i looked up to blocked me and hate me, and i've been losing a lot of people i thought i could consider friends, some of which who would even begin to birth new and even more incompatible rumors amongst the bullshit i've already been dealing with and was already forced to explain just so i wasn't being harassed for what happened.

about two months ago, i almost ended my life, and luckily it failed but god... it really hurt, both physically and mentally. there really are some people in this world that are truly grotesque. i just hope that people can stop parading the behaviors i've been forced to passively accept over the past year, and i truly hope the people eventually get what's coming to them, or at the very least stop harassing me. it is because of this that i am abandoning this identity, and temporarily staying under another alias until i cut ties with that eventually and resume my life online in secret.


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it was hurtful enough with the base situation in which i was immensely hurt, used, and then used again at the cost of my well being and any self esteem i ever had left, but now that I've got people harassing me every fucking day, spreading around now several whacky stories about how I deserve to die and go to hell even though all I've actually done was explaining what I needed to answer how all these god damn offensive stories about what i went through are complete dogshit, all because someone i genuinely cared about felt it would be beneficial to betray my trust repeatedly, even after risking my life once before.




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sorry about that rant, but i felt it was necessary to explain it here. recently someone hacked into my accounts, had me feeling utterly terrified and paranoid and almost ruined even more important friendships of mine, and even more recently, i found out who it was, and that they honestly believe i owe it to them to believe them that they didn't do it (even though i found the hard evidence linking him, understood the motive and had suspicions since early on, and he's never told the truth to me in any of our conversations in the past year). hoping he quits trying to be manipulative to the people who matter to me.



ANYWAYS,


lately i've been active on  gij and posting new art and stuff there. i'm producing a lot of new content again, and will be posting all new work on there, but i really can't come back here. not after what happened.

(idk i thought i'd put that as the title cause it's the year of the sheep and i am a sheep so)

Hey guys! I thought i'd make a new journal cause it's been a while. Plus I don't want to see my last journal up right now, but I don't quite want to delete it. That trip led to something really horrible that happened so I'd rather not think about it, but I do like archiving my life too much to get rid of it so yeah.

Anyways, I've got some awesome news to talk about: I AM GETTING AN ELLIOT FURSUIT MADE!! It's being made by pepper. and I'm really damn excited! I really need to work on my sheep mannerisms and I am so ready to oh man. Also it's the year of the sheep (or rather just anything caprine) so I'm really excited and proud of my character even though I don't have much of a reason to be proud; I just am! I'm planning on being Elliot during Califur, if I end up going to it (at this point I can and really want to, but it might be a really bad idea because of things), but regardless, this is gonna be awesome and I'm gonna do a lot of things in public if I find any friends who don't care to be seen in public with a neurotic sheep man.

I'm very excited for that. Also, I'm working on finishing a demo of Stetik Saves Friend, a pixel art game project I'm designing for. We plan on submitting that for Indiecade which is in Culver City, California, in October, so if you go to that, there's a chance you'll be able to play it (as well as see me for certain!). Here's a link to the devlog I haven't updated in a while. http://forums.tigsource.com/index.p.....?topic=33966.0

I'm sure there's a ton I'm forgetting, but I hope that's a pretty nice update for now! I'll be working and posting a lot more art on here soon, as I'm finally getting around to drawing more things and drawing things that I actually like, which is great! I'll see you guys around.

BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAI!!!! (killme)

APPARENTLY I LIKE FURRY CONVENTIONS AND NOW I'M A FURRY DOING FURRY STUFF

COOL!

Days staying:
Friday - Sunday

Staying at:
The Hilton

How are you traveling?
gasoline

Who are you rooming with?
WITH THAT COOL DRAGON BUDDY OF MINE  kaweki

Who will you be with?
Mainly with Kaweki, but I hope to be meeting and hanging out with a variety of people!

Where will you be?
USA

How is the best way to find you?
Kik or Instagram I'm pretty quick to respond! (names are all Sajextryus)

What do you look like?
http://instagram.com/p/waOB5WwOJ_
that

What is your gender?
sam

How old are you?
19

Are you mated/in a relationship?
naah

How tall are you?
5'6"

Can I talk to you?
YES PLEASE

Can I hug and/or snuggle you?
YES THE HUGGING THE SNUGGLING I DUNNO

Are you nice?
no i'm sam ouo

Are you cliquey?
i'm sam

Are you fursuiting?
I HAVE ARMS BUT NO HEAD

Which suit(s) will you be bringing?
ELLIOT ARMS

Can I try on your suit?
ARMS

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
yell SAM or ELLIOT, but I'll probably react to SAM faster. if you're afraid to say my name, just wave and I'll try to come on over if I see you!

Stage Performance?:
none

Can I draw in your sketchbook?
IDK MAYBE IF I HAVE IT ON ME

Can we hang out?
YES I NEED FURRIENDS

Can I talk to you?
how many times are you going to ask me this

Where will you be eating?
numerous delicious food joints in the local area

Can I come to dinner with you?
uhhh maybe but only if i know you/get to know you well enough for that!

Can I buy breakfast, lunch, or dinner sometime?
no buying breakfast lunch and dinner is strictly illegal in the US (jk yes you can)

Can I ask ya to dance with me during the dances?
GET READY FOR THE SHITTIEST MOVES YOU'VE EVER SEEN IN YOUR LIFE CAUSE no

Can I buy you drinks?
COLA

Do you attend parties?
i'm a bad partier but i wanna be good so i'll go if invited

Can I take your picture?
I DARE YOU (yes)

May I kidnap you to my room?
NO

Attending any events?
I don't know which ones but I certainly will be around at them!

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Make new friends and try to be socially outgoing and entertaining for once! I'm honestly really excited.

So I'm doing commissions since I like money so much. Money and the pressures of responsibility.
I'm doing traditional commissions that are inked and colored for about $5-7.
I'm also willing to do color pixel art commissions but I'm still not too sure on pricing, but they'll probably be animated and small.

Buy the traditional ones I need money!





also califur was pretty rad so I might go again with the friends I went with next year.

Taken from  matoakit

Arrival and Departure?
Still not sure. Hopefully the answer to this is a good one

Where are you staying?
I live nearby so I guess my house?

Mode of Transportation?
Proxy driver(s).

Who will you be with?
Kaweki and somebody else who doesn't go here (YET)

What are your major plans?
Kinda want to go around and see what it's like at these kinda conventions, and maybe get to meet cool people and artists, and a few people I hardly know online through Kaweki, cause I'm not very social most of the time and it would probably be fun to socialize with people who are also into making crazy characters and junk! Also I wanna hang out with my friends who I'm going with.

What fursuits do you have?
I have a box I can draw on and put on my head but anything above that is asking too much from me right now. I'll probably go without anything but we'll see what last minute enginuity can cook up!

Attending parties?
No. :c

What is your gender?
Blatantly male.

How old are you?
18

Can I talk to you?
I hope you can! That would be great!

Can I hug you?
Probably, I'm not one to refuse hugs in public.

Can I buy you a drink?
I'd prefer not but I won't stop you as long as it's water.

Can I commission you?
YES YES YOU CAN OH MY GOD PLEASE

What events will you be attending?
I will be attending whatever events Kaweki and other party feel like. Refer to them I guess.

How tall are you?
5'6" and sad looking

Are you nice?
Kinda

Are you friendly?
Yes

Can I touch you?
As with most everything in the universe, I am made up of matter, so this is a very real possibility. (no funny business though, there are rules at this convention as well as in my fists)

Are you Cliquey?
Not at all!

Can I stalk you?
fuck you

Can I dance with you at the dances?
You will be dancing alongside a stationary man (I won't be dancing this year) so probably not.

Can I buy breakfast, lunch, or dinner?
If I know you well, you can buy me anything.

Can I get a picture with you?
If you wanna, sure! Though I don't know if I'd be worth your time this year.

Can I steal you away for *censored*?
no means no

You wanna cuddle at the con?
I'm a social mess, so even if I knew you, probably not.

Can I give you a gift?
Yes if you really wanna aim your priorities that direction! Just don't do something malicious with that gift. No time bombs again.

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
You could say Sajex or Sajextryus if you know how to pronounce it, though it's probably easier to say Sam or Sam Blye (my full name, I don't mind if you called my by it cause at least I can make that out and be aware of it enough to look).

Going to the Cabaret?
No for I am a prude.

Going to the Ice Cream Social?
Kaweki can't and I guess that means I probably can't either. Not this time, anyways.

So if you follow me on Instagram, you've probably already seen all the funny stuff revolving around me having an NSFW alias. And for those who don't, I have an NSFW alias.

I thought I'd share it around here, since I actually started it on here actually but I never actually shared it, and there's probably a couple of you who might want to check it out. I haven't really gotten it out there, so it's been pretty lonely under that alias, but now that that's out that I draw that kinda junk sometimes, I thought I might as well share it here.

http://www.furaffinity.net/user/gij

Feel free to share it or whatever, just don't directly say it's me just yet. :P


Also, here's the instagram account for that alias, if you wanna see doodles for it:
http://instagram.com/thisisgij

So about 2 weeks ago, I ordered a tablet pen since I lost mine a long time ago.
It came in a couple days after I ordered it and I can't get over how much better I can use it now! I used to try using it a long time ago, long before I began the journey to actually figure out drawing and how to make stuff that I would actually like. Now, I can actually make stuff worth sharing around and wasting time with, and it's fantastic!

I've been working a lot with Paint Tool SAI (which I'm really considering maybe paying the $50 it costs to buy, cause I'M LOVING IT!) and I really want to start figuring out how to use the brushes and stuff better and learn techniques with it. I used to use Autodesk Sketchbook, but this program won me over with it's legacy pen function, which let's me do both paintings and pixel art in the same program if I ever cared to! So far, I've been messing a lot with the legacy pen, which is pretty much just a brush without any antialiasing (which is strangely something I dig too much as an aesthetic because of all that pixel art I do, and I need to stop this guilty pleasure of mine). I might hold a stream every now and then, since it could probably be fun to chat with people while figuring out this junk, and wouldn't mind getting some advice on things I should probably know about.

I also started a new tumblr blog to post digital doodles on. Feel free to follow it!
http://sajexdoodles.tumblr.com/

I've also started an account on Weasyl:
https://www.weasyl.com/~sajextryus

Feel free to follow those if you want.





Also, I'm starting to get back to work on Stetik Saves Friend. that game project of mine where I was designing all that binary pixel art. If you don't know much about it, or want to see more about it, check these links!
https://www.facebook.com/stetiksavesfriend
http://forums.tigsource.com/index.p.....?topic=33966.0
I don't know about getting too close to a release date any time soon, but we're starting to get things going again, and we've got a lot of ideas to put to work, and I got a ton of junk to work on animating that I finally started getting back to work on, so I'm sure I'll share a tidbit or two every now and then.

Welp, see you guys around!

So, it's been an interesting few months here so far I guess. I haven't really done much, but quite a few new people are following me here, so that's neat, and people seem to like my work, so that's good.

During the past few weeks, I've been drawing a ton, and a lot of new people have started following me on Instagram (where I post drawings regularly) and it's ridiculous now! I've also made some good friends over there with friends of friends, and I've been taking on a lot of new things, including going outside my comfort zone and doing trades.
So far, I've only finished one, but I'm putting a lot more effort into these than my usual doodles: http://instagram.com/p/jIUSVswOBc/

I might do trades here soon, but keep in mind that unless it's pixel art you're wanting, I'm kinda restricted to traditional means for most everything, so you'll probably just get something by that medium, though still decent. I could do digital work, but without a tablet right now, it's ridiculously tedious to get things right.


I also started illustrating and posting parts of a comic I've had in my head for a while, titled "TIN". It be neat, so I suggest checking out some of the related art that I've posted.



This is a bit of a poorly done, messy entry, but I just wanted to post to let you guys know I haven't abandoned this place socially yet. I'm sure there's a lot I should talk about but forgot, but I'll get to that later I guess.
Bye for now.

Thought I might as well introduce myself here. I'm Sajextryus (or Sam). Ever since my friend :iconkaweki got an account here, I decided to finally make the plunge and join. At first, I was pretty unsure about joining, since I felt a bit out of place whenever checking out this site (particularly because of the ads that always cycle around here), but I felt I might as well join now that I know some people on here, and there might be more people that dig my work. To be honest, I didn't expect this many followers, but thanks for showing so much interest! I really appreciate it.

For those who probably don't know too much about me, I've been drawing for only about one and a half years, and take a huge interest in graphic design for some reason. I've been teaching myself most everything I know by using trial and error, and every now and then, from suggestions and stuff from friends. I've also made quite a bit of pixel art and animations as a hobby starting about a year ago. Drawing and stuff isn't exactly my main hobby, but I definitely like it a lot!

You can find me on these sites/social networks if you want to see more stuff than you see here.

Instagram: http://instagram.com/sajextryus (lots of doodles posted here)
Tumblr: http://samblye.tumblr.com/
deviantART: http://samblye1.deviantart.com/


Sorry to cut it short here, I gotta get going.