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Posted 11 years ago1: Hi! What's your real name and nickname?
Real: Sara (in this life). Raenalynalya (in my elven life). (And I had Anna in another previous life and who knows what other names in other lives I've had since I have not recalled them all yet.)
Nickname: Sakico (this life--mixing Kieran, Cole, and my name for this life). Raekaiza (mixing Azarian (Kieran), Kaias (Cole), and Raenalynalya (my) elven names). Nalya (my shortened elven name). Sometimes Lya (also elven nickname). Rayvn or Twilight as well (this life).
2: What's your gender?
Female (in this life and my elven life and pretty much all my past lives that I know of--though I have a feeling I might have had a male life somewhere I haven't uncovered yet).
3: Interesting... what's your current age?
This one? Twenty five.
Elven one? Fifty six (which is about equivalent of the twenties in human terms and quite young for us).
4: Uh huh. What's your favorite food?
Italian. *drools* And Japanese. *double drools* And Greek (what stuff I can have that doesn't have cream cheese, sour cream, or any other kind of dairy I can't have). *more drooling*
5: And your favorite drink?
Water. Juice. Almond milk.
6: Confession time! Who's your crush/lover?
My mai'sina'o (life mates).
7: Aww! Have you two kissed yet?
Well back home with our elven lives we're married. Here, it's kind of complicated to do so as we share the same body.
8: Classic question! What's your favorite color?
Black, blood red, dark blue, dark green, dark purple, emerald, silver, gold, white. Kind of all wrapped together in one for me.
9: Who's your favorite author?
Sherrilyn Kenyon hands down.
10: Now what's your biggest fear?
Heights, small spaces, crowded places, and deep water (in like rivers and lakes but not really pools).
11: *stifles a giggle* I'm not laughing *bursts out laughing* Sorry. Have an embarrassing experience in your past?
Um....probably a lot but I can't recall my childhood, or pretty much most of my life in this one for that matter. At least not here now. Returning home to my elven life I do but crossing back to here fogs up memories of all my past lives.
12: Any Siblings?
My younger brother in this life. In the three lives I recalled from my past lives here I didn't have any though. Not sure of any other lives if I had siblings. And my elven life I did not have any siblings.
13: Almost, it's only twenty questions. Who's your hero?
I don't really have one I guess. Unless it's someone you look up to greatly which I guess my mother in this life is one. My mother back home as well as my High Priestess for my elven life are others.
14: Okay, who is your worst enemy?
I really don't have any that I know of. If I do, I don't know about it. I mean, I don't have anyone I particularly hate or think of as an enemy really.
15: What would you do if your hero and your worst enemy got together?
Seeing as I have no enemies, I really can't answer this. But given my heroes with my mother here and then my mother and High Priestess at home were to meet, I think they'd get along. I mean my mother and High Priestess at home know each other obviously but my mother here doesn't know them.
16: Interesting... what would you do if you met your creator?
I have met Astaira, the goddess of the moon and night back home and one of our deities. She and I spoke with each other (in a dream) over a few things when I was doubting myself about becoming High Priestess and that she chose me and had my High Priestess seek me out.
For here in my human body, I have met Nyx. Well I have not seen her in person (via contacted by dream) but she was there with me and we spoke of why she helped me and my mai'sina'o out a long while ago. And also why she has always been looking out for us, being that Astaira asked her to when we three were sent here to begin with.
17: Okay, I'll contact them right now. Done! WHAT Now, what do you want to be when you grow up?
In this life? *shrugs* I really don't know anymore. I still want to be a writer but that will always have to be on the side of whatever job I can find to hold unless I can no longer work due to my health problems.
At home: I'm a High Priestess in training.
18: What's your worst nightmare?
*shrugs* Probably losing everyone I love dearly.
19: What's your lifelong dream?
Being a writer in this life.
Being a great High Priestess back home.
20: What would you do if your lifelong dream came true?
I'd be happy that people could read my stories here.
At home, it already is on its way to being true. I'm a High Priestess in training. I just hope I'll be good like my High Priestess now and won't fail her.
21: Okay, where's your favorite place to relax?
Here: At the park near my house or a park across town. Hell any park is nice that I like around here. It's in nature.
Home: The gardens and under the willow tree in Talii'ra. On the seaside in my hometown of Var All'iima.
22: Favorite music?
Here: Variety of whatever mood I'm in.
Home: We have Celtic and instrumental styled with harps, flutes, tambourines, ocarinas, drums, and similar instruments to lyres. Kaias is introducing violins and similar stringed instruments while Azarian is introducing piano and acoustic guitar types as we don't have those. And also some instruments like tubular bells, xylophones, and marimbas. So bringing a little culture home from here.
23: Do you have any friends?
Here: I have my pack mates and quite a few other really good friends.
Home: I have quite a lot of friends there as well.
24: Last question! What do you spend most of your time doing?
Here: Reading, writing, drawing, surfing the net, working, enjoying time with my friends I can see, learning things.
Home: Learning to become a High Priestess, teaching others about some of the things learned here, reading, writing, drawing, and my Wind Priestess duties as well.
Real: Sara (in this life). Raenalynalya (in my elven life). (And I had Anna in another previous life and who knows what other names in other lives I've had since I have not recalled them all yet.)
Nickname: Sakico (this life--mixing Kieran, Cole, and my name for this life). Raekaiza (mixing Azarian (Kieran), Kaias (Cole), and Raenalynalya (my) elven names). Nalya (my shortened elven name). Sometimes Lya (also elven nickname). Rayvn or Twilight as well (this life).
2: What's your gender?
Female (in this life and my elven life and pretty much all my past lives that I know of--though I have a feeling I might have had a male life somewhere I haven't uncovered yet).
3: Interesting... what's your current age?
This one? Twenty five.
Elven one? Fifty six (which is about equivalent of the twenties in human terms and quite young for us).
4: Uh huh. What's your favorite food?
Italian. *drools* And Japanese. *double drools* And Greek (what stuff I can have that doesn't have cream cheese, sour cream, or any other kind of dairy I can't have). *more drooling*
5: And your favorite drink?
Water. Juice. Almond milk.
6: Confession time! Who's your crush/lover?
My mai'sina'o (life mates).
7: Aww! Have you two kissed yet?
Well back home with our elven lives we're married. Here, it's kind of complicated to do so as we share the same body.
8: Classic question! What's your favorite color?
Black, blood red, dark blue, dark green, dark purple, emerald, silver, gold, white. Kind of all wrapped together in one for me.
9: Who's your favorite author?
Sherrilyn Kenyon hands down.
10: Now what's your biggest fear?
Heights, small spaces, crowded places, and deep water (in like rivers and lakes but not really pools).
11: *stifles a giggle* I'm not laughing *bursts out laughing* Sorry. Have an embarrassing experience in your past?
Um....probably a lot but I can't recall my childhood, or pretty much most of my life in this one for that matter. At least not here now. Returning home to my elven life I do but crossing back to here fogs up memories of all my past lives.
12: Any Siblings?
My younger brother in this life. In the three lives I recalled from my past lives here I didn't have any though. Not sure of any other lives if I had siblings. And my elven life I did not have any siblings.
13: Almost, it's only twenty questions. Who's your hero?
I don't really have one I guess. Unless it's someone you look up to greatly which I guess my mother in this life is one. My mother back home as well as my High Priestess for my elven life are others.
14: Okay, who is your worst enemy?
I really don't have any that I know of. If I do, I don't know about it. I mean, I don't have anyone I particularly hate or think of as an enemy really.
15: What would you do if your hero and your worst enemy got together?
Seeing as I have no enemies, I really can't answer this. But given my heroes with my mother here and then my mother and High Priestess at home were to meet, I think they'd get along. I mean my mother and High Priestess at home know each other obviously but my mother here doesn't know them.
16: Interesting... what would you do if you met your creator?
I have met Astaira, the goddess of the moon and night back home and one of our deities. She and I spoke with each other (in a dream) over a few things when I was doubting myself about becoming High Priestess and that she chose me and had my High Priestess seek me out.
For here in my human body, I have met Nyx. Well I have not seen her in person (via contacted by dream) but she was there with me and we spoke of why she helped me and my mai'sina'o out a long while ago. And also why she has always been looking out for us, being that Astaira asked her to when we three were sent here to begin with.
17: Okay, I'll contact them right now. Done! WHAT Now, what do you want to be when you grow up?
In this life? *shrugs* I really don't know anymore. I still want to be a writer but that will always have to be on the side of whatever job I can find to hold unless I can no longer work due to my health problems.
At home: I'm a High Priestess in training.
18: What's your worst nightmare?
*shrugs* Probably losing everyone I love dearly.
19: What's your lifelong dream?
Being a writer in this life.
Being a great High Priestess back home.
20: What would you do if your lifelong dream came true?
I'd be happy that people could read my stories here.
At home, it already is on its way to being true. I'm a High Priestess in training. I just hope I'll be good like my High Priestess now and won't fail her.
21: Okay, where's your favorite place to relax?
Here: At the park near my house or a park across town. Hell any park is nice that I like around here. It's in nature.
Home: The gardens and under the willow tree in Talii'ra. On the seaside in my hometown of Var All'iima.
22: Favorite music?
Here: Variety of whatever mood I'm in.
Home: We have Celtic and instrumental styled with harps, flutes, tambourines, ocarinas, drums, and similar instruments to lyres. Kaias is introducing violins and similar stringed instruments while Azarian is introducing piano and acoustic guitar types as we don't have those. And also some instruments like tubular bells, xylophones, and marimbas. So bringing a little culture home from here.
23: Do you have any friends?
Here: I have my pack mates and quite a few other really good friends.
Home: I have quite a lot of friends there as well.
24: Last question! What do you spend most of your time doing?
Here: Reading, writing, drawing, surfing the net, working, enjoying time with my friends I can see, learning things.
Home: Learning to become a High Priestess, teaching others about some of the things learned here, reading, writing, drawing, and my Wind Priestess duties as well.
Sixty five questions
Posted 11 years ago1. First thing you wash in the shower?
Hair.
2. What colour is your favourite hoodie?
Black.
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Uh...I don't do kisses with humans. Though I will kiss my cat.
4. Do you plan outfits?
Not really. I just throw on whatever.
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Excited for tomorrow.
6. What's the closest thing to you that's red?
My water bottle has red on it.
7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
Um....
8. Did you meet anybody new today?
Nope. I was in the house all day.
9. What are you craving right now?
Spicy chips.
10. Do you floss?
I've tried but even with the extra slender floss, it doesn't go between my teeth so well because they're so close together.
11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
Corned beef and cabbage. Yum. Irish food! Hey! St. Patrick's Day is....in two minutes (from when I typed
this).
12. Are you emotional?
Very.
13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
Nope.
14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
Both.
15. Do you like your hair?
Yes though I wish it was longer and more white like it normally is as my elven self.
16. Do you like yourself?
Some days.
17. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
-____- No.
18. What are you listening to right now?
My Celtic Mystique CD by Howard Baer to drown out my father talking to his older sister really, really loudly on the phone because he can't ever have a conversation quietly. And if you ask for him to keep it down, he'll turn and yell at you at the top of his lungs to shut up.
19. Are your parents strict?
My mother, no. My father well he likes to think so but since I'm over eighteen, I can't be told certain things like I had to follow as a child. But as an adult living in 'his' house, I still have to follow some rules that are stupid if I wish to stay there.
20. Would you go sky diving?
Hell no.
21. Do you like cottage cheese?
Mmmm. Dammit now I want some!
22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
Yeah.
23. Do you rent movies often?
Uh...*points at her laptop* Internet. Enough said.
24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
*holds up her Loki helmet and Thor hammer key chain* This is shiny enough.
25. How many countries have you visited?
Canada is the only other country I've been to. In this life at least.
26. Have you made a prank phone call?
Nope.
27. Ever been on a train?
Once when I was little on an actual train. Otherwise, if you count a subway as a train, I have been on one of those too when on a family vacation to Washington D.C.
28. Brown or white eggs?
Either or. Don't matter to me. I don't taste a difference really.
29. Do you have a cell-phone?
Yes.
30. Do you use chap stick?
Not really.
31. Do you own a gun?
Pah! Nope. But I have a few swords, knives, and some daggers. *grins*
32. Can you use chop sticks?
Hell yeah. The question is, can you use chopsticks to eat Jello with? 'Cause I can! Those little Jello squares they have in restaurants. Believe me, patience is needed with those.
33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
My mai'sina'o back home on my world since it's the full moon and I can visit home tonight. Then with the morning's light I'll be back here for another month before my next visit.
34. Are you too forgiving?
Depends. I can be though.
35. Ever been in love?
With my mai'sina'o, yes.
36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow (or the next soonest week day)?
Well I am hanging with my bestie tomorrow! Movie day!
37. Ever have cream puffs?
Nope.
38. Last time you cried?
>__>' The other day.
39. What was the last question you asked?
Um....oh yeah I was talking with my mother and mouthed 'really?' in my sarcastic way while rolling my eyes at something my father was doing that was annoying us both.
40. Favourite time of the year?
Samhain in the autumn. But I also like Ostara in spring.
41. Do you have any tattoos?
Four and still want more.
42. Are you sarcastic?
I can be when needed.
43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
Yes.
44. Ever walked into a wall?
Sadly yes.
45. Favourite colour?
Black, blood red, dark blue, dark purple, dark green, emerald, silver, gold, white. Kind of all go together for me.
46. Have you ever slapped someone?
Yes but in a playful way. Never because I was mad.
47. Is your hair curly?
Yes! Well in this human life. As my elven self sadly it is straight. I want my curly hair!
48. What was the last CD you bought?
Uh....O___O I don't remember. I just rip the songs I want off YouTube! Because yes I am that poor.
49. Do looks matter?
Not to me as a friend.
50. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
Depends. If they did it once out of curiosity but regrets it, then maybe. But if continually doing so, nope.
51. Is your phone bill sky high?
Nope. I pay my father the $45 it costs for my phone a month since I'm on his family plan.
52. Do you like your life right now?
Not really honestly. It could be better and I'm working towards that.
53. Do you sleep with the TV on?
Nope. I have no television in my room. Just my mp3 player I listen to at night with soft piano music and my added iPad with nature sounds of crickets chirping like is sounded at night by a creek and such.
54. Can you handle the truth?
I would prefer the truth than a lie, yes.
55. Do you have good vision?
Honestly if I take my glasses off right now, everything is a bunch of colors blurred together. I might be lucky to read something across the room if it is big enough. But amazingly I have great night vision. Weird I know.
56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
Hate is a strong word so I opt more to say dislike. And yes, I can say I dislike one person for sure. There are a few others that I can say I dislike as well.
57. How often do you talk on the phone?
Not often. I text my friends that have my number and only really call my mother (or she calls me). But since we live together, I don't have to call her all the time.
58. The last person you held hands with?
Well I did with my bestie before.
59. What are you wearing?
Pajamas.
60. What is your favourite animal?
Cats in general (especially tigers). And wolves. *grins*
61. Where was your favourite picture taken at?
Uh...I don't have a favorite picture....
62. Can you hula hoop?
Haven't done so in years and probably can't anymore.
63. Do you have a job?
Yes, though I am looking for a new one. Love the one I'm at and love my coworkers but my position never will qualify for a raise and I can't live off of 23 hours a week at $7.50/hour the rest of my life. Plus I need a job that can offer health insurance if possible since I need it for my health issues. And preferably something that can potentially give me more hours if I can handle it but also lower key since even the 23 hours I get a week are a lot for me with my health issues and wears me out a lot. So a desk job might be ideal for me since I won't be on my feet all the time like I am now and with a potential heel spur forming, that hurts too.
64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
Um...food?
65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Yes.
Hair.
2. What colour is your favourite hoodie?
Black.
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Uh...I don't do kisses with humans. Though I will kiss my cat.
4. Do you plan outfits?
Not really. I just throw on whatever.
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Excited for tomorrow.
6. What's the closest thing to you that's red?
My water bottle has red on it.
7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
Um....
8. Did you meet anybody new today?
Nope. I was in the house all day.
9. What are you craving right now?
Spicy chips.
10. Do you floss?
I've tried but even with the extra slender floss, it doesn't go between my teeth so well because they're so close together.
11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
Corned beef and cabbage. Yum. Irish food! Hey! St. Patrick's Day is....in two minutes (from when I typed
this).
12. Are you emotional?
Very.
13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
Nope.
14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
Both.
15. Do you like your hair?
Yes though I wish it was longer and more white like it normally is as my elven self.
16. Do you like yourself?
Some days.
17. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
-____- No.
18. What are you listening to right now?
My Celtic Mystique CD by Howard Baer to drown out my father talking to his older sister really, really loudly on the phone because he can't ever have a conversation quietly. And if you ask for him to keep it down, he'll turn and yell at you at the top of his lungs to shut up.
19. Are your parents strict?
My mother, no. My father well he likes to think so but since I'm over eighteen, I can't be told certain things like I had to follow as a child. But as an adult living in 'his' house, I still have to follow some rules that are stupid if I wish to stay there.
20. Would you go sky diving?
Hell no.
21. Do you like cottage cheese?
Mmmm. Dammit now I want some!
22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
Yeah.
23. Do you rent movies often?
Uh...*points at her laptop* Internet. Enough said.
24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
*holds up her Loki helmet and Thor hammer key chain* This is shiny enough.
25. How many countries have you visited?
Canada is the only other country I've been to. In this life at least.
26. Have you made a prank phone call?
Nope.
27. Ever been on a train?
Once when I was little on an actual train. Otherwise, if you count a subway as a train, I have been on one of those too when on a family vacation to Washington D.C.
28. Brown or white eggs?
Either or. Don't matter to me. I don't taste a difference really.
29. Do you have a cell-phone?
Yes.
30. Do you use chap stick?
Not really.
31. Do you own a gun?
Pah! Nope. But I have a few swords, knives, and some daggers. *grins*
32. Can you use chop sticks?
Hell yeah. The question is, can you use chopsticks to eat Jello with? 'Cause I can! Those little Jello squares they have in restaurants. Believe me, patience is needed with those.
33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
My mai'sina'o back home on my world since it's the full moon and I can visit home tonight. Then with the morning's light I'll be back here for another month before my next visit.
34. Are you too forgiving?
Depends. I can be though.
35. Ever been in love?
With my mai'sina'o, yes.
36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow (or the next soonest week day)?
Well I am hanging with my bestie tomorrow! Movie day!
37. Ever have cream puffs?
Nope.
38. Last time you cried?
>__>' The other day.
39. What was the last question you asked?
Um....oh yeah I was talking with my mother and mouthed 'really?' in my sarcastic way while rolling my eyes at something my father was doing that was annoying us both.
40. Favourite time of the year?
Samhain in the autumn. But I also like Ostara in spring.
41. Do you have any tattoos?
Four and still want more.
42. Are you sarcastic?
I can be when needed.
43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
Yes.
44. Ever walked into a wall?
Sadly yes.
45. Favourite colour?
Black, blood red, dark blue, dark purple, dark green, emerald, silver, gold, white. Kind of all go together for me.
46. Have you ever slapped someone?
Yes but in a playful way. Never because I was mad.
47. Is your hair curly?
Yes! Well in this human life. As my elven self sadly it is straight. I want my curly hair!
48. What was the last CD you bought?
Uh....O___O I don't remember. I just rip the songs I want off YouTube! Because yes I am that poor.
49. Do looks matter?
Not to me as a friend.
50. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
Depends. If they did it once out of curiosity but regrets it, then maybe. But if continually doing so, nope.
51. Is your phone bill sky high?
Nope. I pay my father the $45 it costs for my phone a month since I'm on his family plan.
52. Do you like your life right now?
Not really honestly. It could be better and I'm working towards that.
53. Do you sleep with the TV on?
Nope. I have no television in my room. Just my mp3 player I listen to at night with soft piano music and my added iPad with nature sounds of crickets chirping like is sounded at night by a creek and such.
54. Can you handle the truth?
I would prefer the truth than a lie, yes.
55. Do you have good vision?
Honestly if I take my glasses off right now, everything is a bunch of colors blurred together. I might be lucky to read something across the room if it is big enough. But amazingly I have great night vision. Weird I know.
56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
Hate is a strong word so I opt more to say dislike. And yes, I can say I dislike one person for sure. There are a few others that I can say I dislike as well.
57. How often do you talk on the phone?
Not often. I text my friends that have my number and only really call my mother (or she calls me). But since we live together, I don't have to call her all the time.
58. The last person you held hands with?
Well I did with my bestie before.
59. What are you wearing?
Pajamas.
60. What is your favourite animal?
Cats in general (especially tigers). And wolves. *grins*
61. Where was your favourite picture taken at?
Uh...I don't have a favorite picture....
62. Can you hula hoop?
Haven't done so in years and probably can't anymore.
63. Do you have a job?
Yes, though I am looking for a new one. Love the one I'm at and love my coworkers but my position never will qualify for a raise and I can't live off of 23 hours a week at $7.50/hour the rest of my life. Plus I need a job that can offer health insurance if possible since I need it for my health issues. And preferably something that can potentially give me more hours if I can handle it but also lower key since even the 23 hours I get a week are a lot for me with my health issues and wears me out a lot. So a desk job might be ideal for me since I won't be on my feet all the time like I am now and with a potential heel spur forming, that hurts too.
64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
Um...food?
65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Yes.
Personality Test
Posted 11 years agoRandom personality test taken. Yep it fits me.
(Found here if you'd like to take it too: https://www.41q.com/ )
Your personality type: "Dreamy Idealist"
Quiet, reflective and idealistic. Interested in serving humanity. Well-developed value system, which they strive to live in accordance with. Extremely loyal. Adaptable and laid-back unless a strongly-held value is threatened. Usually talented writers. Mentally quick and able to see possibilities. Interested in understanding and helping people.
Careers that could fit you include:
Writers, artists, counselors, social workers, English teachers, fine arts teachers, child care workers, clergy, missionaries, psychologists, psychiatrists, scientists, political activists, editors, education consultants, journalists, religious educators, social scientists.
Renowned persons with similar personality types:
Albert Schweitzer, theologian, musician and physician
George Orwell, author and journalist
J.R.R. Tolkien, writer
James Taylor, singer-songwriter and guitarist
John F. Kennedy Jr., lawyer, journalist and publisher
Lisa Kudrow, actress
Mary, mother of Jesus
Peter Jackson, filmmaker
Diana Frances Spencer, princess of Wales
William Shakespeare, English poet and dramatist
(Found here if you'd like to take it too: https://www.41q.com/ )
Your personality type: "Dreamy Idealist"
Quiet, reflective and idealistic. Interested in serving humanity. Well-developed value system, which they strive to live in accordance with. Extremely loyal. Adaptable and laid-back unless a strongly-held value is threatened. Usually talented writers. Mentally quick and able to see possibilities. Interested in understanding and helping people.
Careers that could fit you include:
Writers, artists, counselors, social workers, English teachers, fine arts teachers, child care workers, clergy, missionaries, psychologists, psychiatrists, scientists, political activists, editors, education consultants, journalists, religious educators, social scientists.
Renowned persons with similar personality types:
Albert Schweitzer, theologian, musician and physician
George Orwell, author and journalist
J.R.R. Tolkien, writer
James Taylor, singer-songwriter and guitarist
John F. Kennedy Jr., lawyer, journalist and publisher
Lisa Kudrow, actress
Mary, mother of Jesus
Peter Jackson, filmmaker
Diana Frances Spencer, princess of Wales
William Shakespeare, English poet and dramatist
~~Don't Ever Give Up~~
Posted 11 years agoI wrote this a long while back in high school for a friend that was going through a hard time.
But I wrote it not just for them but for all my friends that are having a hard time.
And I just wanted to let them know that I love them to death and I'll always be there for them no matter what.
~~Don’t Ever Give Up~~
I sense your sadness and loneliness;
despair and grief.
Life is hard that I know
for I’ve gone through similar feelings as well.
The snow has fallen for me
as it is for you now,
but don’t give in and allow it to bring you to eternal sleep.
Stand and fight
and show them your strength.
Let that spark of hope never fade away
no matter how small it may seem.
But there’s one thing I can offer of myself:
I’ll always be there for you when you need me,
when you need someone to talk to,
when you need someone’s shoulder to cry on,
when you need someone to comfort you.
I won’t tire of hearing your voice
for its calling out to be heard.
It calls out needing comfort,
needing someone to say that everything will be alright,
even though it feels like it never will be alright.
Whenever you need someone just call me and I’ll listen.
I’ll listen until every star in the sky fades away.
I’ll listen until the sun never rises and the moon never shines.
I’ll listen until every tear seems to flow until it seems you can’t cry anymore.
Please don’t hate yourself for what seems uncontrollable
since it’ll only seem worse.
Don’t give up for that’s not like you.
Life is cruel sometimes with its twists and turns
and it seems that we can’t ever go on.
Days where it hurts so bad that you wish you could die or disappear.
But whatever you do, don’t give in and don’t give up.
Don’t let the darkness of life’s worst get to you too much.
Hope is still there watching out.
Watching out to find someone or something that will make it worthwhile.
Never give up because for that you can and will be strong and continue to get stronger.
But I wrote it not just for them but for all my friends that are having a hard time.
And I just wanted to let them know that I love them to death and I'll always be there for them no matter what.
~~Don’t Ever Give Up~~
I sense your sadness and loneliness;
despair and grief.
Life is hard that I know
for I’ve gone through similar feelings as well.
The snow has fallen for me
as it is for you now,
but don’t give in and allow it to bring you to eternal sleep.
Stand and fight
and show them your strength.
Let that spark of hope never fade away
no matter how small it may seem.
But there’s one thing I can offer of myself:
I’ll always be there for you when you need me,
when you need someone to talk to,
when you need someone’s shoulder to cry on,
when you need someone to comfort you.
I won’t tire of hearing your voice
for its calling out to be heard.
It calls out needing comfort,
needing someone to say that everything will be alright,
even though it feels like it never will be alright.
Whenever you need someone just call me and I’ll listen.
I’ll listen until every star in the sky fades away.
I’ll listen until the sun never rises and the moon never shines.
I’ll listen until every tear seems to flow until it seems you can’t cry anymore.
Please don’t hate yourself for what seems uncontrollable
since it’ll only seem worse.
Don’t give up for that’s not like you.
Life is cruel sometimes with its twists and turns
and it seems that we can’t ever go on.
Days where it hurts so bad that you wish you could die or disappear.
But whatever you do, don’t give in and don’t give up.
Don’t let the darkness of life’s worst get to you too much.
Hope is still there watching out.
Watching out to find someone or something that will make it worthwhile.
Never give up because for that you can and will be strong and continue to get stronger.
Valentine's Meme
Posted 11 years ago1:Do you have a crush at the moment?
Only on my mai'sina'o (my lifemates).
Towards anyone else, no.
2:Have you ever been deeply in love?
With my mai'sina'o and only my mai'sina.
3:Longest relationship you've ever been in?
With my mai'sina'o for thousands of years being reincarnated into new human lives over and over again. But back home I've been with them for a couple of years though I grew up with them in the Capital where we were taught our duties as a priestess (me), Seer (Kieran/Azarian) and a Warrior/Protector (Cole/Kaias).
4:Have you ever changed for someone?
Nope. I've never needed to change for them. They love me for me.
5:How is your relationship with your ex?
Never had an ex since they are my first and only mai'sina'o.
6:Have you ever been cheated on?
Nope. They are devoted to me and I am to them.
7:Have you ever cheated?
Nope. Again, I am solely devoted to them.
8:Would you date someone who's well known for cheating?
Nope. I would only date my mai'sina'o.
9:What's the most important part of a relationship?
Being able to be oneself around my mai'sina'o and they accepting me for me and I accepting them for them.
Being trustworthy and honest and loyal as well.
10:Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?
I only do a serious relationship with my mai'sina'o.
11:When you are dating someone do you believe in going on "breaks"?
Nope. We don't have such things back home and I've never really believed in them either here.
12:How many people have you ever hooked up with?
Just my mai'sina'o. That's it.
13:What's one thing you regret saying/doing in a previous relationship?
Again, never had a previous one.
14:What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex?
Well back home, only when one is ready. Here, the media pushes it on all kids I swear!
But seeing as we're Asexuals towards everyone else and don't care about sex, we can't exactly answer.
15:Do you believe in the phrase "age is just a number"?
Yes and no I suppose. Maturity levels are a huge factor. You can be thirty and still act like a child or
you can be eighteen and act like someone middle-aged.
16:Do you believe in "love at first sight"?
Nope. Never have in any of my previous human lives nor back home. Even with someone's mai'sina, it still takes time
to learn to love another.
17:Do you believe it's possible to fall in love on the internet?
*shrugs* For some yes. For me, no.
18:What do you consider a deal breaker?
Someone who is very close-minded.
19:How do you know it's time to end a relationship?
Whenever one feels that it's no longer going anywhere?
20:Are you currently in a relationship?
With my mai'sina'o, yes.
To others that don't know about them, no.
21:Do you think people who have dated can stay friends?
I think so depending on how the relationship ended. For some, yes. Others, no.
22:Do you think people should date their friends?
If they feel they can make it work, go for it.
If not, no I guess not.
23:How many relationships have you had?
Only one with my mai'sina'o. But if you count all the past lives we've had, many.
But only with each other in each life.
24:Do you think love can last forever?
Seeing as our people tend to live forever back home and we're with our mai'sina for our whole lives, yes.
For here as humans, it's iffy. Some can make it last. Some can't.
25:Do you believe love can conquer all things?
I think so.
26:Would you break up with someone your parents didn't approve of?
Nope. If I loved them, I'm staying with them.
27:If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of advice about dating what would it be?
I don't know. This life, I've always had my mai'sina'o with me. And in the past lives I've always had them.
So I'm not certain at times how some things work because of how things are back home.
28:Do you think long distance relationships can work?
Some can, some can't. Depends how it works out for the people.
29:What do you notice first about another person?
Their personality.
30:Are you straight, bi, gay or pansexual?
Well I'm actually an Asexual (as are my mai'sina'o) towards everyone.
But we'd be panromantics towards each other. Towards others, we're Aromantics.
Back home, we'd still be pan but we are sexual there. Just pansexual demisexual.
31:Would it bother you if your partner suffered from any mental illness?
Seeing as I have lupus and everything (as do they with sharing a body together), they
know how hard it is suffering in pain. And the mental illness that comes with it can be depression
as well as others. And we still love each other.
32:Have you ever been in an abusive relationship?
Nope.
33:Do you want to get married one day?
Technically I'm married to them already back home (and here though no one knows besides
those that know about them).
34:What do you think about getting your partner's name tattooed?
Nope. We know that that is the worst idea ever. It always ends in disaster.
35:Could you be in a relationship without sex?
Seeing as we're Asexual (in this life), yes.
36:Are you still a virgin?
Yes we still are (from this life).
(Previous lives, no.)
37:What's more important: Looks or personality?
Personality always.
38:Do you enjoy love films?
Depends. We're picky.
39:Have you ever given anyone/received roses?
They've gotten me moon flowers. They know I love those more than anything.
40:Have you ever had a valentine?
Just my mai'sina'o.
41:What's your imagination of a "perfect date"?
Sitting and watching a movie together.
42:Have you ever read "Romeo & Juliet"?
We had to read it in high school for class. It's not one of our favorite books though.
43:What's more important: Your partner or your friends?
Both are important because my mai'sina'o are friends as well as my mai'sina'o.
They are all my family and family always are important.
44:Would you consider yourself "romantic"?
Not really. Towards others anyways. To my mai'sina'o, I suppose maybe a little.
45:Could you imagine to date one of your current friends?
Nope.
46:Have you ever been "friendzoned"?
Nope. But I friendzone everyone that tries to ask me on a date since I'm not interested
in them. I'm only interested in my mai'sina'o.
47:Which "famous couple" is your favorite?
Don't have one. Don't pay attention.
48:What's your favorite love song?
Um...Shania Twain's "From This Moment" is one. Don't know about any more at the moment.
49:Have you ever broken someone's heart?
Probably. But not my mai'sina'o.
50:If you're single, why do you think you are?
Towards others (who don't know about my mai'sina'o), I'm an Aromantic Asexual. That's why.
51:Would you rather date someone who's rich but a douchebag or someone who's poor but a nice guy?
I don't need money to make me happy. I just need the person to accept me as me and I will accept them as their selves.
Money should never be involved in what and whom to love.
52:Are you good at giving other people advices regarding dating/ relationships?
Strangely sometimes I am despite being an Asexual (towards others).
53:Are you jealous of couples when you're single?
Nope. Because of the Aromantic Asexual thing, I don't care. I'm happy being single.
(Given no one knows about my mai'sina'o.)
54:How important is it to make a relationship official (p.e. on Facebook)?
Not really important in my mind. But that's just me.
55:Would you consider yourself "clingy", "overly attached" or "jealous"?
None of those.
56:Have you ever "destroyed" a relationship?
Nope. That's the worst thing to ever think about in my opinion.
57:Do you think it's silly to consider suicide because of a broken heart?
Silly? Yeah I suppose. It's not worth dying over someone who broke your heart.
58:Are you the "dominant" or the "submissive" part in a relationship?
Eh. Between my mai'sina'o and I, we're pretty even with each other. Neither of us are overly dominant or submissive.
59:Have you ever forgotten important dates like your partner's birthday or your anniversary?
Nope.
60:What's your opinion on open relationships?
Well technically I having two mai'sina'o would be considered an 'open relationship'. But back home
it's not uncommon for us to have two mai'sina. A little rare but not uncommon. Having one with four mai'sina, more rare though.
61:Who's more important: Your partner or your family?
Both since they are my family.
62:How do you define "cheating"?
Um...well that depends on the type of person: whether they are Sexual or Asexual.
Sexuals, I guess seeing someone else and possibly sleeping with them.
Asexuals, um...well....I don't know how that works since we don't have sex with others.
63:Is watching porn while being in a relationship inappropriate?
I don't know. I've never watched any. Don't want to either.
64:Do you think Valentine's Day is overrated?
Yep.
65:Would you consider yourself a "cuddler"?
Towards my mai'sina'o, yes.
And a very few select friends. Everyone else, nope.
Only on my mai'sina'o (my lifemates).
Towards anyone else, no.
2:Have you ever been deeply in love?
With my mai'sina'o and only my mai'sina.
3:Longest relationship you've ever been in?
With my mai'sina'o for thousands of years being reincarnated into new human lives over and over again. But back home I've been with them for a couple of years though I grew up with them in the Capital where we were taught our duties as a priestess (me), Seer (Kieran/Azarian) and a Warrior/Protector (Cole/Kaias).
4:Have you ever changed for someone?
Nope. I've never needed to change for them. They love me for me.
5:How is your relationship with your ex?
Never had an ex since they are my first and only mai'sina'o.
6:Have you ever been cheated on?
Nope. They are devoted to me and I am to them.
7:Have you ever cheated?
Nope. Again, I am solely devoted to them.
8:Would you date someone who's well known for cheating?
Nope. I would only date my mai'sina'o.
9:What's the most important part of a relationship?
Being able to be oneself around my mai'sina'o and they accepting me for me and I accepting them for them.
Being trustworthy and honest and loyal as well.
10:Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?
I only do a serious relationship with my mai'sina'o.
11:When you are dating someone do you believe in going on "breaks"?
Nope. We don't have such things back home and I've never really believed in them either here.
12:How many people have you ever hooked up with?
Just my mai'sina'o. That's it.
13:What's one thing you regret saying/doing in a previous relationship?
Again, never had a previous one.
14:What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex?
Well back home, only when one is ready. Here, the media pushes it on all kids I swear!
But seeing as we're Asexuals towards everyone else and don't care about sex, we can't exactly answer.
15:Do you believe in the phrase "age is just a number"?
Yes and no I suppose. Maturity levels are a huge factor. You can be thirty and still act like a child or
you can be eighteen and act like someone middle-aged.
16:Do you believe in "love at first sight"?
Nope. Never have in any of my previous human lives nor back home. Even with someone's mai'sina, it still takes time
to learn to love another.
17:Do you believe it's possible to fall in love on the internet?
*shrugs* For some yes. For me, no.
18:What do you consider a deal breaker?
Someone who is very close-minded.
19:How do you know it's time to end a relationship?
Whenever one feels that it's no longer going anywhere?
20:Are you currently in a relationship?
With my mai'sina'o, yes.
To others that don't know about them, no.
21:Do you think people who have dated can stay friends?
I think so depending on how the relationship ended. For some, yes. Others, no.
22:Do you think people should date their friends?
If they feel they can make it work, go for it.
If not, no I guess not.
23:How many relationships have you had?
Only one with my mai'sina'o. But if you count all the past lives we've had, many.
But only with each other in each life.
24:Do you think love can last forever?
Seeing as our people tend to live forever back home and we're with our mai'sina for our whole lives, yes.
For here as humans, it's iffy. Some can make it last. Some can't.
25:Do you believe love can conquer all things?
I think so.
26:Would you break up with someone your parents didn't approve of?
Nope. If I loved them, I'm staying with them.
27:If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of advice about dating what would it be?
I don't know. This life, I've always had my mai'sina'o with me. And in the past lives I've always had them.
So I'm not certain at times how some things work because of how things are back home.
28:Do you think long distance relationships can work?
Some can, some can't. Depends how it works out for the people.
29:What do you notice first about another person?
Their personality.
30:Are you straight, bi, gay or pansexual?
Well I'm actually an Asexual (as are my mai'sina'o) towards everyone.
But we'd be panromantics towards each other. Towards others, we're Aromantics.
Back home, we'd still be pan but we are sexual there. Just pansexual demisexual.
31:Would it bother you if your partner suffered from any mental illness?
Seeing as I have lupus and everything (as do they with sharing a body together), they
know how hard it is suffering in pain. And the mental illness that comes with it can be depression
as well as others. And we still love each other.
32:Have you ever been in an abusive relationship?
Nope.
33:Do you want to get married one day?
Technically I'm married to them already back home (and here though no one knows besides
those that know about them).
34:What do you think about getting your partner's name tattooed?
Nope. We know that that is the worst idea ever. It always ends in disaster.
35:Could you be in a relationship without sex?
Seeing as we're Asexual (in this life), yes.
36:Are you still a virgin?
Yes we still are (from this life).
(Previous lives, no.)
37:What's more important: Looks or personality?
Personality always.
38:Do you enjoy love films?
Depends. We're picky.
39:Have you ever given anyone/received roses?
They've gotten me moon flowers. They know I love those more than anything.
40:Have you ever had a valentine?
Just my mai'sina'o.
41:What's your imagination of a "perfect date"?
Sitting and watching a movie together.
42:Have you ever read "Romeo & Juliet"?
We had to read it in high school for class. It's not one of our favorite books though.
43:What's more important: Your partner or your friends?
Both are important because my mai'sina'o are friends as well as my mai'sina'o.
They are all my family and family always are important.
44:Would you consider yourself "romantic"?
Not really. Towards others anyways. To my mai'sina'o, I suppose maybe a little.
45:Could you imagine to date one of your current friends?
Nope.
46:Have you ever been "friendzoned"?
Nope. But I friendzone everyone that tries to ask me on a date since I'm not interested
in them. I'm only interested in my mai'sina'o.
47:Which "famous couple" is your favorite?
Don't have one. Don't pay attention.
48:What's your favorite love song?
Um...Shania Twain's "From This Moment" is one. Don't know about any more at the moment.
49:Have you ever broken someone's heart?
Probably. But not my mai'sina'o.
50:If you're single, why do you think you are?
Towards others (who don't know about my mai'sina'o), I'm an Aromantic Asexual. That's why.
51:Would you rather date someone who's rich but a douchebag or someone who's poor but a nice guy?
I don't need money to make me happy. I just need the person to accept me as me and I will accept them as their selves.
Money should never be involved in what and whom to love.
52:Are you good at giving other people advices regarding dating/ relationships?
Strangely sometimes I am despite being an Asexual (towards others).
53:Are you jealous of couples when you're single?
Nope. Because of the Aromantic Asexual thing, I don't care. I'm happy being single.
(Given no one knows about my mai'sina'o.)
54:How important is it to make a relationship official (p.e. on Facebook)?
Not really important in my mind. But that's just me.
55:Would you consider yourself "clingy", "overly attached" or "jealous"?
None of those.
56:Have you ever "destroyed" a relationship?
Nope. That's the worst thing to ever think about in my opinion.
57:Do you think it's silly to consider suicide because of a broken heart?
Silly? Yeah I suppose. It's not worth dying over someone who broke your heart.
58:Are you the "dominant" or the "submissive" part in a relationship?
Eh. Between my mai'sina'o and I, we're pretty even with each other. Neither of us are overly dominant or submissive.
59:Have you ever forgotten important dates like your partner's birthday or your anniversary?
Nope.
60:What's your opinion on open relationships?
Well technically I having two mai'sina'o would be considered an 'open relationship'. But back home
it's not uncommon for us to have two mai'sina. A little rare but not uncommon. Having one with four mai'sina, more rare though.
61:Who's more important: Your partner or your family?
Both since they are my family.
62:How do you define "cheating"?
Um...well that depends on the type of person: whether they are Sexual or Asexual.
Sexuals, I guess seeing someone else and possibly sleeping with them.
Asexuals, um...well....I don't know how that works since we don't have sex with others.
63:Is watching porn while being in a relationship inappropriate?
I don't know. I've never watched any. Don't want to either.
64:Do you think Valentine's Day is overrated?
Yep.
65:Would you consider yourself a "cuddler"?
Towards my mai'sina'o, yes.
And a very few select friends. Everyone else, nope.
"Fursona" Questions
Posted 11 years agoWhat made you choose the species of your main Character?
Well it wasn't so much as me choosing him, it was more he chose me. Kaelis is my kalo'sina, or in terms a 'soul mate' roughly translated in English. But this isn't like a lover soul mate (that would be mai'sina or life mate). It's more just bound together by bonds that bind our souls together since he is my kalo'sina.
Is your character just like you, or how you want to be?
He is a lot like me in similarities but also he has his own differences. He is his own person as I am my own.
Does your character have the same personality you have?
Yes for the most part. It is why we compliment each other.
Does your character have the same dislikes and likes as you do?
Some yes and some no there. Again, he is his own person and I am my own.
Does your character look like you at all?
He has white hair like my elven self, yes. And blue eyes, though mine are a few shades lighter than his. Mine's more sky blue while his is a little more sapphire blue. We both are pale skinned but not super pale. Otherwise he's quite a bit taller than myself.
Is your character the same gender as you, if not why?
No he's male and I am female. That's how it goes with our kalo'sina. They're usually opposite gendered to provide a balance between male and female. Though there are some Aeshtae'iiri that have same gendered kalo'sina.
Do you have more then one main character?
I do not have more than one. Just Kaelis.
Do you have a back story for your character, if so does it have anything to do with your own history?
Not really. He has his own life he grew up with and when it came time to find the Aeshtae'iiri that called to him, he found me (this usually happens when we're usually young, around five or six years old).
Is your character mated, if so is it to your real life significant other?
It so happens that yes, his mai'sina are also my mai'sina'o kalo'sina. It's how it usually works with the bonds like that. Otherwise it would make it hard to have a family when you're bound to your kalo'sina.
If not are they looking for a mate, or are they a swinger so to speak?
Nope. They have their mai'sina'o.
Is there something special about your character that you think sets them apart from others?
*shrugs* Well he is very intuitive and protective.
Do you have much art of your main character?
Actually I sadly do not. I've only been reunited with knowing Kaelis again a couple of years ago but I guess I never thought of drawing him. Now I really do want to draw him and my mai'sina'o and their kalo'sina.
Would you ever consider parting with your main character, if so why?
Well it is possible to sever the kalo'sina bond but it is hard and leaves each feeling empty not being bonded to the other. And I couldn't dream of ever severing the bond we have. We will stick by each others' sides for as long as we are alive.
If you suit, do you have a suit of your main character?
No I do not suit. But it sounds interesting.
Have you ever roleplayed with your main character, or do you prefer not to?
No I have never roleplayed as Kaelis.
Do you consider your main character to be a part of you in any way?
Yes. We are together as one but separate as ourselves. We complete the other like kalo'sina do.
Well it wasn't so much as me choosing him, it was more he chose me. Kaelis is my kalo'sina, or in terms a 'soul mate' roughly translated in English. But this isn't like a lover soul mate (that would be mai'sina or life mate). It's more just bound together by bonds that bind our souls together since he is my kalo'sina.
Is your character just like you, or how you want to be?
He is a lot like me in similarities but also he has his own differences. He is his own person as I am my own.
Does your character have the same personality you have?
Yes for the most part. It is why we compliment each other.
Does your character have the same dislikes and likes as you do?
Some yes and some no there. Again, he is his own person and I am my own.
Does your character look like you at all?
He has white hair like my elven self, yes. And blue eyes, though mine are a few shades lighter than his. Mine's more sky blue while his is a little more sapphire blue. We both are pale skinned but not super pale. Otherwise he's quite a bit taller than myself.
Is your character the same gender as you, if not why?
No he's male and I am female. That's how it goes with our kalo'sina. They're usually opposite gendered to provide a balance between male and female. Though there are some Aeshtae'iiri that have same gendered kalo'sina.
Do you have more then one main character?
I do not have more than one. Just Kaelis.
Do you have a back story for your character, if so does it have anything to do with your own history?
Not really. He has his own life he grew up with and when it came time to find the Aeshtae'iiri that called to him, he found me (this usually happens when we're usually young, around five or six years old).
Is your character mated, if so is it to your real life significant other?
It so happens that yes, his mai'sina are also my mai'sina'o kalo'sina. It's how it usually works with the bonds like that. Otherwise it would make it hard to have a family when you're bound to your kalo'sina.
If not are they looking for a mate, or are they a swinger so to speak?
Nope. They have their mai'sina'o.
Is there something special about your character that you think sets them apart from others?
*shrugs* Well he is very intuitive and protective.
Do you have much art of your main character?
Actually I sadly do not. I've only been reunited with knowing Kaelis again a couple of years ago but I guess I never thought of drawing him. Now I really do want to draw him and my mai'sina'o and their kalo'sina.
Would you ever consider parting with your main character, if so why?
Well it is possible to sever the kalo'sina bond but it is hard and leaves each feeling empty not being bonded to the other. And I couldn't dream of ever severing the bond we have. We will stick by each others' sides for as long as we are alive.
If you suit, do you have a suit of your main character?
No I do not suit. But it sounds interesting.
Have you ever roleplayed with your main character, or do you prefer not to?
No I have never roleplayed as Kaelis.
Do you consider your main character to be a part of you in any way?
Yes. We are together as one but separate as ourselves. We complete the other like kalo'sina do.
Feeling Better
Posted 11 years agoWell feeling WAYYYY better now from being sick (okay I was by Wednesday the eighth but I haven't been able to get on to make an update).
And it has stopped being so FREAKING cold outside. It's actually around 4C/40F and slightly rainy. Good note: some of the snow will be able to melt. Bad note: when it decides to drop in temperature in a couple days, all that water is going to freeze and turn to ice. Fuuuccckkkk....
And I'm going to go pass out now in bed. Can't hardly keep my eyes open. Parents are conked out already in their chairs. Better get them to bed. Aelii'na (goodnight)!
-Nalya
And it has stopped being so FREAKING cold outside. It's actually around 4C/40F and slightly rainy. Good note: some of the snow will be able to melt. Bad note: when it decides to drop in temperature in a couple days, all that water is going to freeze and turn to ice. Fuuuccckkkk....
And I'm going to go pass out now in bed. Can't hardly keep my eyes open. Parents are conked out already in their chairs. Better get them to bed. Aelii'na (goodnight)!
-Nalya
Sick
Posted 11 years agoUrgh. Been sick all day with running fevers throughout the day between 101F-103.3F. Migraines and coughing up a lung and everything. So not fun being sick. I haven't been this sick since my junior year of prom (2006) when I got strep throat. O.o And it really doesn't help the parents are just as sick too. So it's a fend for yourself atmosphere. Fml. At least I got my boys to talk with despite being sick themselves. They're currently sleeping like I should be doing (couldn't help I woke up).
-Nalya
-Nalya
Nostalgia
Posted 11 years ago*sighs* Lost in memories of my home far away again. I do miss it but I chose to stay here for the remainder of this life. After all, I've been here for a long time now and I've come to have some really great friends and family in this life. I just wish I could take them back with me to home. They would certainly love my homeland. No wars or fighting. And certainly they could be free to do much more than here. Though they'd have to be reborn into a body of their own there, I'd certainly seek them out from the bonds I have with their souls. *sighs again and smiles softly*
http://youtu.be/YyEdq1hIFaI
("An Gille Ban" -Capercaillie)
(One of the songs that reminded me of home with the flute especially--something I play back home.)
And just a few other songs I like that reminded me somewhat of home:
http://youtu.be/bOOOfK_heU4
("Now We Are Free" -Lisa Gerrard)
http://youtu.be/UX__4aHwYzM
("Adiemus" -Karl Jenkins)
http://youtu.be/p_cdXNWD1VY
("Sleepsong" -Secret Garden)
(This I'm certainly taking home with me to sing to the young ones as is. I'll have to translate it for them as we don't speak English though I will definitely keep the song as is sung in English since it sounds lovely.)
http://youtu.be/YyEdq1hIFaI
("An Gille Ban" -Capercaillie)
(One of the songs that reminded me of home with the flute especially--something I play back home.)
And just a few other songs I like that reminded me somewhat of home:
http://youtu.be/bOOOfK_heU4
("Now We Are Free" -Lisa Gerrard)
http://youtu.be/UX__4aHwYzM
("Adiemus" -Karl Jenkins)
http://youtu.be/p_cdXNWD1VY
("Sleepsong" -Secret Garden)
(This I'm certainly taking home with me to sing to the young ones as is. I'll have to translate it for them as we don't speak English though I will definitely keep the song as is sung in English since it sounds lovely.)
Fifty Questions
Posted 11 years ago1. Your name spelled backwards:
Which one? I have many.
Ocikas, Aras, and Aylanylanear.
As for my soulmates/lifemates: Nareik/Nairaza and Eloc/Saiak
2. Where were your parents born?
State of Confusion where we live now.
3. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
Um either a song or more Loki (and Thor) pics.
4. What's your favorite restaurant?
The Japanese restaurant in town.
5. Last time you swam in a pool?
Gods it's been forever. I don't even think I did this year. O.o
6. Have you ever been in a school play?
I've worked on three in high school as tech crew.
7. How many kids do you want?
This life? None.
My elven life I'll return to once this one is done? Um...well I know I'll have a son and my lifemate, Azarian has forseen a daughter as well.
8. Type of music you dislike most?
Rap (except Eminem and a select few other songs) mostly. There's other kinds of music I prefer not to listen to since it's just not my cup of tea but if I have to for noise I will.
9. Are you registered to vote?
Yes.
10. Do you have a car?
Yes.
11. Have you ever ridden on a moped?
No.
12. Ever prank call anybody?
No.
13. Ever get a parking ticket?
No.
14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
Oh hell no to both!
15. Do you have a favorite music decade?
70's to present rock (classic to alternative). 90's techno/boy and girl bands.
16. Do you have a garden?
My mother has a garden.
17. What's the size of your bed?
Twin bunk bed.
18. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?
Yes.
9. Bath or Shower, morning or night?
Since I only have a stand in shower I have to choose shower (though I would love a relaxing bath). Doesn't matter morning or night.
20. Best Movie you've seen in the Last 4 months?
Thor 2 (and Thor and Avengers that I watched for like the millionth time---what? I'm on a Thor and Loki tangent lol).
21. What's the next movie you want to see?
Thor 2 again. Okay The Hobbit, Frozen, and Anchorman 2.
22. Chips or popcorn?
Chips.
23. Have you ever broken any hearts?
*shrugs* Probably. Had plenty of people ask me out and I have declined them all.
24. Premarital sex?
If that's the choice of the people that want to do it.
25. Are you a good cook?
I know enough recipes to cook.
26. Orange or Apple juice?
I like both in small amounts.
27. Who was the last person you went out to dinner with and where did you go?
Um...well I had lunch/dinner with my pack mates ate the mall today.
28. Are you competitive and goal orientated?
Goal oriented yes. Competitive...sometimes depending on the thing competing on.
29. Best thing in the world?
My soulmates/lifemates, friends, pack mates, and family.
30. Have you ever broken a bone?
Fractured my ankle but not a full break.
31. Have you ever won a trophy?
Um....not an actual trophy but I have won awards.
32. What is your favorite board game?
Scrabble.
33. What is your dream car?
Hmmm honestly I don't really have a dream car. I do like the expensive looking sports cars but I'd never want to own one. The insurance on those...o.o. Though I like motorcycles. Now I could dream of having one of those.
34. Ever order an article from an infomercial?
Nope.
35. Coke or Pepsi?
Neither. I haven't drank soda since 2007.
36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to work?
Yep. Got to for my current job. It's freaking hot in summer too. T__T
37. Last thing you bought at a chemist?
Uh...I have never met a chemist.
38. Who are you going to marry?
I'm married to my lifemates Kieran/Azarian and Cole/Kaias already.
39. Who would you like to meet?
Sherrilyn Kenyon.
40. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Not really.
41. What features do you find most attractive in the opposite sex?
On my lifemates, their eyes and hair. On any other regular person, I really don't pay attention. Though I do like long hair on anyone.
42. Where would you go for a romantic evening?
Um...with my lifemates just sitting together under the stars would be nice.
43. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
Only a few: work shoes, winter boots, goth boots, slip ons, and Greco-Roman sandals.
44. Last song stuck in your head?
"Sleepsong" -Secret Garden
45. Any pets?
My baby boy, Yusuke.
46. What's your all time favorite Saturday Night Live Character?
I've never seen Saturday Night Live.
47. What is one thing you would like to learn to do?
Crochet better.
48. What do you do when you are bored?
Read, write, draw
49. What is one thing you would want someone to really know honestly?
I'm of an elven people and together with my two lifemates, we've been here for quite a while; being reborn over and over again here as part of a faithfulness test that we have passed and allowed to return home but have decided to stay the remainder of this life after asking our High Priestess and High Priest to do so.
50. What is one thing you are grateful for today?
Being here and being alive with my lifemates and my friends and family in the here and now.
Which one? I have many.
Ocikas, Aras, and Aylanylanear.
As for my soulmates/lifemates: Nareik/Nairaza and Eloc/Saiak
2. Where were your parents born?
State of Confusion where we live now.
3. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
Um either a song or more Loki (and Thor) pics.
4. What's your favorite restaurant?
The Japanese restaurant in town.
5. Last time you swam in a pool?
Gods it's been forever. I don't even think I did this year. O.o
6. Have you ever been in a school play?
I've worked on three in high school as tech crew.
7. How many kids do you want?
This life? None.
My elven life I'll return to once this one is done? Um...well I know I'll have a son and my lifemate, Azarian has forseen a daughter as well.
8. Type of music you dislike most?
Rap (except Eminem and a select few other songs) mostly. There's other kinds of music I prefer not to listen to since it's just not my cup of tea but if I have to for noise I will.
9. Are you registered to vote?
Yes.
10. Do you have a car?
Yes.
11. Have you ever ridden on a moped?
No.
12. Ever prank call anybody?
No.
13. Ever get a parking ticket?
No.
14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
Oh hell no to both!
15. Do you have a favorite music decade?
70's to present rock (classic to alternative). 90's techno/boy and girl bands.
16. Do you have a garden?
My mother has a garden.
17. What's the size of your bed?
Twin bunk bed.
18. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?
Yes.
9. Bath or Shower, morning or night?
Since I only have a stand in shower I have to choose shower (though I would love a relaxing bath). Doesn't matter morning or night.
20. Best Movie you've seen in the Last 4 months?
Thor 2 (and Thor and Avengers that I watched for like the millionth time---what? I'm on a Thor and Loki tangent lol).
21. What's the next movie you want to see?
Thor 2 again. Okay The Hobbit, Frozen, and Anchorman 2.
22. Chips or popcorn?
Chips.
23. Have you ever broken any hearts?
*shrugs* Probably. Had plenty of people ask me out and I have declined them all.
24. Premarital sex?
If that's the choice of the people that want to do it.
25. Are you a good cook?
I know enough recipes to cook.
26. Orange or Apple juice?
I like both in small amounts.
27. Who was the last person you went out to dinner with and where did you go?
Um...well I had lunch/dinner with my pack mates ate the mall today.
28. Are you competitive and goal orientated?
Goal oriented yes. Competitive...sometimes depending on the thing competing on.
29. Best thing in the world?
My soulmates/lifemates, friends, pack mates, and family.
30. Have you ever broken a bone?
Fractured my ankle but not a full break.
31. Have you ever won a trophy?
Um....not an actual trophy but I have won awards.
32. What is your favorite board game?
Scrabble.
33. What is your dream car?
Hmmm honestly I don't really have a dream car. I do like the expensive looking sports cars but I'd never want to own one. The insurance on those...o.o. Though I like motorcycles. Now I could dream of having one of those.
34. Ever order an article from an infomercial?
Nope.
35. Coke or Pepsi?
Neither. I haven't drank soda since 2007.
36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to work?
Yep. Got to for my current job. It's freaking hot in summer too. T__T
37. Last thing you bought at a chemist?
Uh...I have never met a chemist.
38. Who are you going to marry?
I'm married to my lifemates Kieran/Azarian and Cole/Kaias already.
39. Who would you like to meet?
Sherrilyn Kenyon.
40. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Not really.
41. What features do you find most attractive in the opposite sex?
On my lifemates, their eyes and hair. On any other regular person, I really don't pay attention. Though I do like long hair on anyone.
42. Where would you go for a romantic evening?
Um...with my lifemates just sitting together under the stars would be nice.
43. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
Only a few: work shoes, winter boots, goth boots, slip ons, and Greco-Roman sandals.
44. Last song stuck in your head?
"Sleepsong" -Secret Garden
45. Any pets?
My baby boy, Yusuke.
46. What's your all time favorite Saturday Night Live Character?
I've never seen Saturday Night Live.
47. What is one thing you would like to learn to do?
Crochet better.
48. What do you do when you are bored?
Read, write, draw
49. What is one thing you would want someone to really know honestly?
I'm of an elven people and together with my two lifemates, we've been here for quite a while; being reborn over and over again here as part of a faithfulness test that we have passed and allowed to return home but have decided to stay the remainder of this life after asking our High Priestess and High Priest to do so.
50. What is one thing you are grateful for today?
Being here and being alive with my lifemates and my friends and family in the here and now.
Name Banners
Posted 12 years agoSo I've been thinking of potentially making some artwork for others since my bestie 
aidenwolfe showed me how to do different things on my sketch app on my iPad. I'm pretty good with making name banners (or whatever you want to call them). So I was thinking if anyone wanted me to make something like that for them, all they had to do was let me know what name they'd like me to use and what colors they like and I could try my best to make something they'd like. And I've thought of doing them for like $0.50 or $1.00 (I am so not familiar with how to sell art honestly since I've never done so). But I thought since it was just something simple, I wouldn't ask too much for it. And maybe as my art improves more and I get more into other artwork submissions, maybe I can do more. ^__^
So if anyone's interested let me know! I'd really like to do something!
aidenwolfeHappy birthday to me!
Posted 12 years agoYAY! I'm 25!!! *dances and twirls*
(Okay it was on Sunday but still....)
And I have to say that I absolutely LOVE my friends for taking me to the movies for a birthday gift!!
I LOVE YOU GUYS!! *huggles them to death* Honestly, just getting to see them was the best thing ever. ^____^
(Okay it was on Sunday but still....)
And I have to say that I absolutely LOVE my friends for taking me to the movies for a birthday gift!!
I LOVE YOU GUYS!! *huggles them to death* Honestly, just getting to see them was the best thing ever. ^____^
Sixty Nine Questions
Posted 12 years agoFound this on someone's journal. Can't remember who now. T___T
1: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
Yes since I've never smoked a single cigarette and don't ever plan on it.
(I have asthma so smoking in general I don't like anyways.)
2: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused?
Well to those that don't know about my soulmates/lifemates, I'm single.
To the others that do, I'm taken by them always (we're technically married too).
3: What if I told you that you were pretty?
Aww. I'd like that. I love the words pretty, beautiful, and handsome to describe someone.
Not sexy or hot/hawt. It annoys me when those are used.
4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”?
Nope.
5: Are you interested in anyone right now?
Just my lifemates/soulmates.
6: What are you looking forward to in the next week?
Paying off more bills. Yay....not.
7: Do you want to be single?
Towards others, yes.
Towards my lifemates/soulmates, nope.
8: Did you go out or stay in last night?
I was in the hospital all night.
9: How late did you stay up last night?
Around 12:45a was the last time I saw the clock before I fell asleep then got woken up at 2a for an MRI in the hospital.
Then again around 4a for vitals, 6:30a for vitals, then 8:45a for vitals and have been up since.
10: Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot?
Uh yeah. My lifemates/soulmates always.
11: Last three things you had to drink?
Water, hot tea, soy milk.
12: Have you ever pretended to like someone?
Nope. I would never pretend such things. To me that's like leading on, which means lying,
and I don't particularly like to lie. I prefer to be truthful, even if people hate me for it.
13: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it?
Nope. Again, goes back to like I said in #12 about lying.
14: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months?
My mother and the nurses last night.
15: Is it hard for you to get over someone?
Romantically? Well since I've never been with anyone but my lifemates, I have no idea.
As friends (like really good friends who decide to walk away from a friendship), sometimes it is pretty hard for me.
16: Think back five months ago, were you single?
Outwardly to people that don't know about my lifemates/soulmates: yes.
To those that know about them, nope.
17: What were you doing at 12:30 this week?
AM or PM? Cause at PM yesterday I was in the hospital. At AM...*looks at clock*...it's almost 12:30a now.
And I'm home and ready for bed.
18: Hold hands with anyone this week?
Well the nurses helped hold my hand a couple of times to steady me while walking at the hospital.
19: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
Yep since I have no alcohol tolerance and just a sip will send me into a sugar spike and make me pass out for a few hours.
So I'm good without alcohol.
20: What would you name your future daughter?
O_O I don't know since I'm not having kids in this life. At least human kids. I have my cat.
His name's Yusuke. Though he's the reincarnation of my soulmate's/lifemate's and my previous life in ancient Greece.
Our son's name then was Demetrios. And funny thing is, if Yusuke hadn't been named Yusuke, it was going to be Dimitri
(and this was before I knew about my ancient Greek life).
21: Do you miss anyone?
I miss seeing a few of my friends right now.
22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night?
Nope. Don't like kisses. Yeck.
23: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed?
Read #22.
24: Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Sometimes to some people. To others, they just know.
25: Have you ever cried from being so mad?
Yes.
26: Who did you last see in person?
*looks over at her dad sleeping in the chair*
27: Are you listening to music right now?
Nope. Just the television.
28: What is something you currently want right now?
To have all my bills paid off so I don't have to deal with them anymore.
29: What is the last thing you said out loud?
Ugh.
30: How is your heart lately?
It's fine. Just missing a few friends right now.
31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?
Yep.
32: Are you wearing socks?
At the moment? No.
33: What do people call you?
Lots of names, depending on who it is. XD
34: Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
I talk to them all the time. They're here with me always. It's a long story.
35: Are there any stressful situations in your life?
Always, every day.
36: Who did you last share a bed with?
Myself and my lifemates/soulmates (but again, that's a long story there too).
37: Did you do something bad today?
Nope.
38: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you?
Uh...I think the other day?
39: Do you get stressed out easily?
Sometimes yes, sometimes no. Depends on what is stressing me out.
40: Will you sing today?
I'd like to if I feel like it.
41: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t?
Yep. Quite a few times.
42: Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone?
Depends on what I need to talk about. Either my mother, my lifemates/soulmates, or my friends.
43: Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance?
Never been in an ambulance yet. But I was in the emergency room yesterday.
44: What are you listening to right now?
The television.
45: What is wrong with you right now?
I'm tired and just want to sleep.
46: What is on your wrists right now?
My tattoos (heehee) and my rainbow bracelet.
47: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing?
Uh...I don't recall which store. It's a few years old.
48: What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider?
Hot chocolate since I've never had hot apple cider. And I have to be careful with apple cider
due to the amount of sugar in it and that too much apple type juice goes right through me.
49: Do you make wishes at 11:11?
Nope.
50: Are you a good artist?
I'm okay at some things. Working on being better.
51: Love really is a beautiful thing huh?
Yeah it can be.
52: Do you miss the way things were six months ago?
Uh...yes and no I suppose.
53: Ever been on a golf course?
Nope. Not unless putt putt is counted.
54: Do you have trust issues?
Yes and no. Depends.
55: Ever stayed up all night on the phone, with who?
Nope.
56: Do you own something from Hot Topic?
Oh hell yeah! Lots of stuff I have is from there!
57: Do you use chap stick?
Nope.
58: Have you ever slapped someone in the face?
Not on purpose in a hard slap. But playfully a few times. Or accidentally.
59: Do you have a little sister?
Not biologically. But I have my sister-friends.
60: Have you ever been to New York?
New York state. Buffalo and Niagara Falls, New York. Not NYC.
61: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
Yeah my mother does.
62: Have you hugged someone within the last week?
My mother. My bestie.
63: What were you doing at midnight last night?
In the hospital awaiting to get an MRI.
64: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?
Again, I don't like kisses. So no.
65: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
Yes. There are a few that can do that.
66: Were your last three kisses from the same person?
I don't like kisses.
67: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days?
No.
68: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?
I prefer alone in my bed but I have slept in the same bed with a few friends before when sharing a bed
(and no, not in that way either! We slept and rested, not had sex.)
69: Will next Friday be a good one?
I hope so.
1: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
Yes since I've never smoked a single cigarette and don't ever plan on it.
(I have asthma so smoking in general I don't like anyways.)
2: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused?
Well to those that don't know about my soulmates/lifemates, I'm single.
To the others that do, I'm taken by them always (we're technically married too).
3: What if I told you that you were pretty?
Aww. I'd like that. I love the words pretty, beautiful, and handsome to describe someone.
Not sexy or hot/hawt. It annoys me when those are used.
4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”?
Nope.
5: Are you interested in anyone right now?
Just my lifemates/soulmates.
6: What are you looking forward to in the next week?
Paying off more bills. Yay....not.
7: Do you want to be single?
Towards others, yes.
Towards my lifemates/soulmates, nope.
8: Did you go out or stay in last night?
I was in the hospital all night.
9: How late did you stay up last night?
Around 12:45a was the last time I saw the clock before I fell asleep then got woken up at 2a for an MRI in the hospital.
Then again around 4a for vitals, 6:30a for vitals, then 8:45a for vitals and have been up since.
10: Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot?
Uh yeah. My lifemates/soulmates always.
11: Last three things you had to drink?
Water, hot tea, soy milk.
12: Have you ever pretended to like someone?
Nope. I would never pretend such things. To me that's like leading on, which means lying,
and I don't particularly like to lie. I prefer to be truthful, even if people hate me for it.
13: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it?
Nope. Again, goes back to like I said in #12 about lying.
14: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months?
My mother and the nurses last night.
15: Is it hard for you to get over someone?
Romantically? Well since I've never been with anyone but my lifemates, I have no idea.
As friends (like really good friends who decide to walk away from a friendship), sometimes it is pretty hard for me.
16: Think back five months ago, were you single?
Outwardly to people that don't know about my lifemates/soulmates: yes.
To those that know about them, nope.
17: What were you doing at 12:30 this week?
AM or PM? Cause at PM yesterday I was in the hospital. At AM...*looks at clock*...it's almost 12:30a now.
And I'm home and ready for bed.
18: Hold hands with anyone this week?
Well the nurses helped hold my hand a couple of times to steady me while walking at the hospital.
19: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
Yep since I have no alcohol tolerance and just a sip will send me into a sugar spike and make me pass out for a few hours.
So I'm good without alcohol.
20: What would you name your future daughter?
O_O I don't know since I'm not having kids in this life. At least human kids. I have my cat.
His name's Yusuke. Though he's the reincarnation of my soulmate's/lifemate's and my previous life in ancient Greece.
Our son's name then was Demetrios. And funny thing is, if Yusuke hadn't been named Yusuke, it was going to be Dimitri
(and this was before I knew about my ancient Greek life).
21: Do you miss anyone?
I miss seeing a few of my friends right now.
22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night?
Nope. Don't like kisses. Yeck.
23: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed?
Read #22.
24: Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Sometimes to some people. To others, they just know.
25: Have you ever cried from being so mad?
Yes.
26: Who did you last see in person?
*looks over at her dad sleeping in the chair*
27: Are you listening to music right now?
Nope. Just the television.
28: What is something you currently want right now?
To have all my bills paid off so I don't have to deal with them anymore.
29: What is the last thing you said out loud?
Ugh.
30: How is your heart lately?
It's fine. Just missing a few friends right now.
31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?
Yep.
32: Are you wearing socks?
At the moment? No.
33: What do people call you?
Lots of names, depending on who it is. XD
34: Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
I talk to them all the time. They're here with me always. It's a long story.
35: Are there any stressful situations in your life?
Always, every day.
36: Who did you last share a bed with?
Myself and my lifemates/soulmates (but again, that's a long story there too).
37: Did you do something bad today?
Nope.
38: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you?
Uh...I think the other day?
39: Do you get stressed out easily?
Sometimes yes, sometimes no. Depends on what is stressing me out.
40: Will you sing today?
I'd like to if I feel like it.
41: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t?
Yep. Quite a few times.
42: Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone?
Depends on what I need to talk about. Either my mother, my lifemates/soulmates, or my friends.
43: Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance?
Never been in an ambulance yet. But I was in the emergency room yesterday.
44: What are you listening to right now?
The television.
45: What is wrong with you right now?
I'm tired and just want to sleep.
46: What is on your wrists right now?
My tattoos (heehee) and my rainbow bracelet.
47: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing?
Uh...I don't recall which store. It's a few years old.
48: What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider?
Hot chocolate since I've never had hot apple cider. And I have to be careful with apple cider
due to the amount of sugar in it and that too much apple type juice goes right through me.
49: Do you make wishes at 11:11?
Nope.
50: Are you a good artist?
I'm okay at some things. Working on being better.
51: Love really is a beautiful thing huh?
Yeah it can be.
52: Do you miss the way things were six months ago?
Uh...yes and no I suppose.
53: Ever been on a golf course?
Nope. Not unless putt putt is counted.
54: Do you have trust issues?
Yes and no. Depends.
55: Ever stayed up all night on the phone, with who?
Nope.
56: Do you own something from Hot Topic?
Oh hell yeah! Lots of stuff I have is from there!
57: Do you use chap stick?
Nope.
58: Have you ever slapped someone in the face?
Not on purpose in a hard slap. But playfully a few times. Or accidentally.
59: Do you have a little sister?
Not biologically. But I have my sister-friends.
60: Have you ever been to New York?
New York state. Buffalo and Niagara Falls, New York. Not NYC.
61: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
Yeah my mother does.
62: Have you hugged someone within the last week?
My mother. My bestie.
63: What were you doing at midnight last night?
In the hospital awaiting to get an MRI.
64: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?
Again, I don't like kisses. So no.
65: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
Yes. There are a few that can do that.
66: Were your last three kisses from the same person?
I don't like kisses.
67: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days?
No.
68: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?
I prefer alone in my bed but I have slept in the same bed with a few friends before when sharing a bed
(and no, not in that way either! We slept and rested, not had sex.)
69: Will next Friday be a good one?
I hope so.
Inescapable Death
Posted 12 years agoGot bored and decided to put up another poem I wrote.
~~Inescapable Death~~
Tick, tock. Tick, tock.
Tick, tock. Tick, tock.
The sound seems ominous
filling my ears.
Echoing in the silence of my thoughts
loudly; deafening.
Tick, tock. Tick, tock.
I feel the weight of it never seeming to cease.
Time so precious to some
and thrown away by others.
Tick, tock. Tick, tock.
Time that will end for everyone some day;
their clock giving its final tick.
Inescapable death.
Tick, tock. Tick, tock.
Time that comes abruptly to a halt without warning
for no one can predict their last breath.
Tick, tock. Tick, tock.
Tick, tock. Tick....
Youma-con 2013
Posted 12 years agoSooooooo.....my friend from Wisconsin is taking me to Youma-con 2013 this year! EEEEE!!!
*super excited*
This was my first anime convention I ever went to back in 2010 by her (it was my birthday present back then).
This will be my third convention I've ever been to (second one was Ikasucon last year in 2012). KYAHHHH!!
And the best thing? It falls on Halloween again like the first time we went! Heheheh!!!!
*spins in a circle from being so excited* I can't wait!!!
I just hope I'll have the energy to keep up with her and what we want to do and not get to exhausted.
Damn my health some days.....
Edit: I never did get to go sadly. T__T My friend got her own place (I know she's been wanting to get one again) and didn't have enough for rent and to go to Youma-con. I told her that was fine because it's more important to get bills paid and such. Besides, I didn't have money to go either. So we'll figure something out for the future.
*super excited*
This was my first anime convention I ever went to back in 2010 by her (it was my birthday present back then).
This will be my third convention I've ever been to (second one was Ikasucon last year in 2012). KYAHHHH!!
And the best thing? It falls on Halloween again like the first time we went! Heheheh!!!!
*spins in a circle from being so excited* I can't wait!!!
I just hope I'll have the energy to keep up with her and what we want to do and not get to exhausted.
Damn my health some days.....
Edit: I never did get to go sadly. T__T My friend got her own place (I know she's been wanting to get one again) and didn't have enough for rent and to go to Youma-con. I told her that was fine because it's more important to get bills paid and such. Besides, I didn't have money to go either. So we'll figure something out for the future.
Jealous
Posted 12 years agoSo I'm normally not a jealous person. I'm pretty content
with what I have in life (despite some hardships and such but that's to be expected).
But yesterday while I was at work, my mother came to bring me some lunch
(hell yeah for goulash!) and she told me that my brother had walked all the way over to
their house from this park I love in town. This park is also about a good eight to ten miles away.
HE WALKED THAT WHOLE WAY!
SERIOUSLY!
Plus another couple of miles from his apartment before that.
And that's when I realized I was kind of jealous of him that he could do that
since I certainly can't do something like that. It'd totally kill me (not literally--I'd be extremely exhausted).
Granted he was pretty exhausted I guess by time he got here and passed out on the couch sleeping for a while
but for me to try doing that.....I wouldn't even get down the street before I was exhausted.
I don't have the energy and stamina to do something like that. It's because of my health issues sadly
(for those that don't know, I have lupus which amongst other things gives me bad arthritis and
energy issues that one day I could have all sorts of energy and the next no energy to get out of bed).
I'm honestly am truly jealous of others who can go out and just sit in the sunlight and relax without getting
sick (since that's another thing I can't do anymore with just sitting and relaxing in the sun since it can cause flares).
I can't just hop on my bike and ride around the neighborhood like I used to do as a kid.
To run around and play in the sunshine. Or to just idly walk around and enjoy a nice afternoon walk.
I wish I could do that still but I can't anymore because of my health. *sighs* Though I can still get out
and still do stuff, I just have a smaller energy reserve and have to limit my exposure to being out in the sun
and such.
But on a positive note, my friends and family that do understand and still plan on doing outings and whatnot
with me, also keep an eye on me and whatnot to make sure I'm doing okay. And I love you guys for it!! ^____^
*huggles them*
with what I have in life (despite some hardships and such but that's to be expected).
But yesterday while I was at work, my mother came to bring me some lunch
(hell yeah for goulash!) and she told me that my brother had walked all the way over to
their house from this park I love in town. This park is also about a good eight to ten miles away.
HE WALKED THAT WHOLE WAY!
SERIOUSLY!
Plus another couple of miles from his apartment before that.
And that's when I realized I was kind of jealous of him that he could do that
since I certainly can't do something like that. It'd totally kill me (not literally--I'd be extremely exhausted).
Granted he was pretty exhausted I guess by time he got here and passed out on the couch sleeping for a while
but for me to try doing that.....I wouldn't even get down the street before I was exhausted.
I don't have the energy and stamina to do something like that. It's because of my health issues sadly
(for those that don't know, I have lupus which amongst other things gives me bad arthritis and
energy issues that one day I could have all sorts of energy and the next no energy to get out of bed).
I'm honestly am truly jealous of others who can go out and just sit in the sunlight and relax without getting
sick (since that's another thing I can't do anymore with just sitting and relaxing in the sun since it can cause flares).
I can't just hop on my bike and ride around the neighborhood like I used to do as a kid.
To run around and play in the sunshine. Or to just idly walk around and enjoy a nice afternoon walk.
I wish I could do that still but I can't anymore because of my health. *sighs* Though I can still get out
and still do stuff, I just have a smaller energy reserve and have to limit my exposure to being out in the sun
and such.
But on a positive note, my friends and family that do understand and still plan on doing outings and whatnot
with me, also keep an eye on me and whatnot to make sure I'm doing okay. And I love you guys for it!! ^____^
*huggles them*
Urgh!
Posted 12 years agoSo I went to go pull off pictures from my iPad mini to transfer onto my laptop so I had more free space on my iPad. But my cord wasn't connecting. And then I took a look at my cord and found bite marks in it. My cat chewed my cord. Urgh. He's been known to chew small cords from when he was younger (and my clothes, pillows, and anything else he can get his teeth on). But I got that bitter apple stuff to make the smell of it deter him from doing so. And in the past year and a half he's been good with not chewing stuff because I'd get after him all the time for it. So why he suddenly started now would only be that he's pissed at me for something. He'd chew stuff when he was mad at me in the past (I have parts of my pillows and stuffed animals--but only like four of them but none of the others I had out sitting that he could've chewed, and he's chewed my clothes and even a couple of my old bras once). Must be he wants more attention or something. I try giving him a lot of attention when I can but it could also be because my brother came over and held him. He doesn't seem to like my brother (he did in the past but then my brother awakened his wolf side and since then my cat has extremely hated him and his boyfriend (both wolves) as my cat is I guess a tiger spirit and they clash together--though it doesn't make sense either since he's been around my pack mates Aiden and Maeniel who are both wolves and he has no qualms with them).
So I guess it's a trip up to Best Buy tomorrow to go find a new charger cord, otherwise I can't upload my pictures I draw since I have no scanner. I actually tape the picture up to the wall in my dining room where the lighting is best and move my iPad to the best spot to capture the picture and take it from there. Things I do to get around the no scanner problem. (I used to have a scanner on my printer but the printers we got have the software made for Windows XP and below, not Windows 7. And I have not the money to either buy a new printer or get the software to upgrade.)
So I guess it's a trip up to Best Buy tomorrow to go find a new charger cord, otherwise I can't upload my pictures I draw since I have no scanner. I actually tape the picture up to the wall in my dining room where the lighting is best and move my iPad to the best spot to capture the picture and take it from there. Things I do to get around the no scanner problem. (I used to have a scanner on my printer but the printers we got have the software made for Windows XP and below, not Windows 7. And I have not the money to either buy a new printer or get the software to upgrade.)
Free Icons
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Friendship Meme
Posted 12 years ago1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you love me?
5. Give me a nickname and explain why.
6. Describe me in 1 word.
7. What was your first impression of me?
8. Would you hug me?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything, what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. Are you gonna put this in your journal and see what I say about you?
13. Would you meet up with me?
14. Do you enjoy having me as a friend?
15. Would you spend some quality time with me?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you love me?
5. Give me a nickname and explain why.
6. Describe me in 1 word.
7. What was your first impression of me?
8. Would you hug me?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything, what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. Are you gonna put this in your journal and see what I say about you?
13. Would you meet up with me?
14. Do you enjoy having me as a friend?
15. Would you spend some quality time with me?
More Past Life Memories
Posted 12 years agoWell, Cole and Kieran finally remembered their names. *dances* I guess Kieran's was Azarian and Cole's was Kaias. Gods now I want to draw them so badly!!! ^_____^ And of course myself from that life. Hmmm...I have some time before work. I could attempt to get something done......
First Past Life Memories (again)
Posted 12 years agoSo while at work today, I think I uncovered more glimpses and memories of that possible first past life again. I was just doing my dishes and it was like 'bam!' and more memories and images started going through my thoughts. But they weren't necessarily my own. They were also from Cole and Kieran's perspectives (since they are my soulmates). I still don't know the names of my soulmate back then (but hopefully it'll eventually come to us soon). But this time I got more.
My soulmate (Kieran's past life) seems to have had an identical twin brother (just like in this life) and that's Cole. I guess that from what we three got was that they both loved me and I loved both of them too (each in their own way) though I spent more time with Kieran (again don't know his name from back then yet). I mean....I guess it's hard to explain almost. Like Kieran and I had met before I had met Cole. Cole had seen me from afar and had asked Kieran who I was since I guess I was singing outside and Cole was meeting with his brother. He'd kind of fallen in love with me at first sight pretty much.
Can you say freaking love triangle?? Damn....
But like...what they got was Kieran went to be a type of priest or Seer since he was gifted with that gift though Cole didn't have that despite being identical twins. And Cole was upset about it (they got when they were younger with bits and pieces) and Kieran said that even though Cole didn't have that gift, that he was strong in other areas and was good at defending himself so he told him to go train for being what's considered a warrior type since a Seer usually had someone to protect them and said that Cole could be his protector. So Cole did that. It was in the first year of each of their training to be each that they'd met me I guess. Though I'd met Kieran earlier since I guess I was training to be a priestess type of the wind/air since I had that gift to listen to the wind.
This is all sorts of confusing a bit to us. We're just like 'damn'. So hopefully we'll see more as time goes. I'd really like to know their names especially. I mean, I have mine. I want theirs!! Now...I really wish I could draw them (but my dad's over in the chair sleeping and all the lights are off--even my mother went to bed and all before midnight...*sighs*).
(Forgot to mention that it seems that whatever life we lived in after this 'first life' that the Cole one bound his soul to Kieran's because of their promise to each other long before meeting me that they'd do everything together. So it would make sense that in all our other previous lives that when there was only 'one' soulmate I saw, it was actually the both of their souls bound together. But they were not aware of each other as 'separate' because of being bound together for so long. It was only in this life that they were 'split' back apart again. But it's possible in future lives they'll be bound back together to keep with this promise they made with each other back then. Unless of course they were reborn into probably twin lives like back then (and this one too)).
My soulmate (Kieran's past life) seems to have had an identical twin brother (just like in this life) and that's Cole. I guess that from what we three got was that they both loved me and I loved both of them too (each in their own way) though I spent more time with Kieran (again don't know his name from back then yet). I mean....I guess it's hard to explain almost. Like Kieran and I had met before I had met Cole. Cole had seen me from afar and had asked Kieran who I was since I guess I was singing outside and Cole was meeting with his brother. He'd kind of fallen in love with me at first sight pretty much.
Can you say freaking love triangle?? Damn....
But like...what they got was Kieran went to be a type of priest or Seer since he was gifted with that gift though Cole didn't have that despite being identical twins. And Cole was upset about it (they got when they were younger with bits and pieces) and Kieran said that even though Cole didn't have that gift, that he was strong in other areas and was good at defending himself so he told him to go train for being what's considered a warrior type since a Seer usually had someone to protect them and said that Cole could be his protector. So Cole did that. It was in the first year of each of their training to be each that they'd met me I guess. Though I'd met Kieran earlier since I guess I was training to be a priestess type of the wind/air since I had that gift to listen to the wind.
This is all sorts of confusing a bit to us. We're just like 'damn'. So hopefully we'll see more as time goes. I'd really like to know their names especially. I mean, I have mine. I want theirs!! Now...I really wish I could draw them (but my dad's over in the chair sleeping and all the lights are off--even my mother went to bed and all before midnight...*sighs*).
(Forgot to mention that it seems that whatever life we lived in after this 'first life' that the Cole one bound his soul to Kieran's because of their promise to each other long before meeting me that they'd do everything together. So it would make sense that in all our other previous lives that when there was only 'one' soulmate I saw, it was actually the both of their souls bound together. But they were not aware of each other as 'separate' because of being bound together for so long. It was only in this life that they were 'split' back apart again. But it's possible in future lives they'll be bound back together to keep with this promise they made with each other back then. Unless of course they were reborn into probably twin lives like back then (and this one too)).
Free Fursuit Head Raffle!
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Free Plushie Giveaway
Posted 12 years agoRenaissance Faire! (Afterwards)
Posted 12 years agoOMG! The Ren Faire was awesome!! Loved it sooooo much!
Got to see my brother fight (he's part of this sword fighting group).
Got to see jousting.
Checked out lots of awesome stuff.
Blew all $80 I took with me (oops).
Got lots of pictures too.
It was a good day. *nods*
*sniffles* But I sadly didn't get my fox tail I wanted to get. T__T
Found it and was like 'oooo' but decided I'd keep looking and come back to it.
Spent the rest of my money before coming back to it. Dammit.
Ah well. T__T I suppose there's always next year.
(It's actually real fox fur too. The real tail. But the foxes are not killed just because.
They're raised in good homes and such and when they die of natural causes, they take the
tail I guess.)
Oh and they had a skunk fur bag my mother saw. HAHA! It was awesome! Dammit wish I took a picture of it.
Got to see my brother fight (he's part of this sword fighting group).
Got to see jousting.
Checked out lots of awesome stuff.
Blew all $80 I took with me (oops).
Got lots of pictures too.
It was a good day. *nods*
*sniffles* But I sadly didn't get my fox tail I wanted to get. T__T
Found it and was like 'oooo' but decided I'd keep looking and come back to it.
Spent the rest of my money before coming back to it. Dammit.
Ah well. T__T I suppose there's always next year.
(It's actually real fox fur too. The real tail. But the foxes are not killed just because.
They're raised in good homes and such and when they die of natural causes, they take the
tail I guess.)
Oh and they had a skunk fur bag my mother saw. HAHA! It was awesome! Dammit wish I took a picture of it.
Renaissance Faire!
Posted 12 years ago*runs around super excited for later today*
Get to have breakfast with Aiden. ^____^
Then get to go to Blackrock Ren Fest and get all dressed up and such.
And I get to go with another friend and her boyfriend and my mother. YAY!
Because I just love Renaissance Faires.
(Yes I'm hyper.)
RAWR!
(Yes...that was random. XD)
Okay I'm going to go now and settle down so I can get some sleep for tomorrow......
*grabs her cat and hauls him off to bed with her*
Get to have breakfast with Aiden. ^____^
Then get to go to Blackrock Ren Fest and get all dressed up and such.
And I get to go with another friend and her boyfriend and my mother. YAY!
Because I just love Renaissance Faires.
(Yes I'm hyper.)
RAWR!
(Yes...that was random. XD)
Okay I'm going to go now and settle down so I can get some sleep for tomorrow......
*grabs her cat and hauls him off to bed with her*
