Hey, it's been a while since I've posted. I will try to post something each day, but I have no internet at home. From what I've had to deal with in the last year, I've been lucky. I had been laid off work, illegally evicted from my home, and had large bills placed upon me by my friends that I was trying to help out. It's been really stressful. but I will survive. I have been moved into a house of one of my friends that I have know since I was 12 yrs old. That has been a big help to me, and helps me get back on my feet. I finally feel better with my confidence rising to do artwork. i have been fighting this monster of a problem for years, but I am determined to not let it get e down. I hope that ll of my watchers are not mad at me for not producing any artwork within the last 6years... it's been really tough. I will be posting some artwork by the end of Halloween. Well, I can't think of anything else to talk about. You all have a good day! = ^__^ =

Hi everyone!! I must say that I've been putting off things to do for some time now. Mostly because I've been depressed. And, I know I've promised to do artwork, but things have just bee too hectic to continue sometimes. A lot of things have changed within the last two years that has kept me from drawing what I love best. It's been a difficult time for me. It's only been in the last few weeks that I think that I finally have some strength back in my bones to try artwork again. I have started college again, and this time for what I really wanted to be trained in. I am in AI of Pittsburgh with the Online college courses. I have chosen the Media Arts and Animation for my course. I'm really excited and has already passed one class with flying colors. I am currently in another class which focuses on Computer programs. I am currently learning the Adobe Suite 4, which includes Photoshop, Illustrator, InDesign, and Dreamweaver. I must say I'm pretty impressed with the CS4 program, and will be using it in conjunction with my Open Canvas program. To get into the course that I wished to take I had to take at least 3 art classes classes: Perspective, plus two others I can't remember, have a portfolio and have English and Math taken. Fortunately due to my previous credits I have all three art classes, plus English that have already been accepted from my previous college credit. I spent the last two months preparing my portfolio and now I only need to take the Math class, and I am good to go. = ^__^ = Yay!! The portfolio really got me pumped up when I finished it. I was amazed at the work I could do. I didn't think I could do it. And I procrastinated a lot on this portfolio, so I am glad I did the work. I will post the Url to it when I have it up and online. I will be posting it on three sites: dA, ArtBistro, and LinkedIn. I will ultimately have three portfolios up on each site, plus a sort of extras portfolio to show those that did not make the cut. Even thought they did not make it, they are still quite good. Some I need to redo because they were damaged from moving. Heck I still need to get a new portfolio case for my work. Heh... I have a lot of artwork sites that I have acquired through these two years. I will be posting them up on the dA site only. I know I am stretching myself thin, but you can be sure that these sites won't repeat anything from the others unless it's a concept idea. Well, I'm glad you have continued to follow me even though nothing new has come out yet for quite some time. I do intend to post at least 2 items per site per month. All different artwork, some will be specific to that site, some won't. I do have two comic sites...which I'm trying to decide which one to use for my manga which is ready for me to start drawing. I will be selling it for a affordable price to my viewers. Well, with that said. I say thanks again for viewing my sites and have a nice day!

Hi guys, this post will be the same for all of my major art sites... I am officially in college for Media Arts and Animation at the AI Pittsburgh ONline. Due to certain details, I need to do twenty pieces total. (Ten within two months, and ten within four months.) So for now all of my extra projects are on hold for a while until the end of June, at least. It's mainly because ten of the twenty are for a portfolio to get into Media Arts and Animation. So I will try to work on the extra projects around these specific pieces that need to be done. I am personally ecstatic to be back in college. I've been waiting too long to go back. =^__^=

*sighs* Well, it's already a new year...with work still to do. Let's see the last few months has been hectic...due to jobs... Grrrr.... *sighs* I have several jobs applied for... I should have not stopped looking... that was my big mistake. Well, I will have to wait to work on my projects that have still be on hold due to crazy work hours. I WILL be working on them after I go to Ohayocon which is this coming weekend. I will be selling magnets (Hopefully), and key chains. I have to spend this week planning for pieces to sell there...so that is the reason why. Though good news, I am making the time to do my projects instead of just hoping I can do my projects. I think I should also make time for when I just want to just doodle nothing special as well. I've been reading a book called The Vigorous Mind by Ingrid E Cummings which has opened my eyes to what I've been possibly doing to sabotage myself...unintentionally.

Well, Gencon is over!! I will be working on previous projects before I begin new work. I was able to figure out how I'm going to color from now one, so I'm excited to show what I can do. Though, I think by agonizing over it, I've lost some of my talent... *sighs* Well, it's not like I can't learn it again. =^__^= Hmm, I got to meet old friends and made new ones!! I also got to get new contacts for stuffs I need to create. So all in all, it was great!!

Also on the money end, I've got my bills more up to date, which is good. So things are moving more smoothly...though my jobs are now trying to screw me over.... *sighs* ...with shorter hours.... Oh, god...will it ever end? Curse you, recession!!!!!!!!!!

I will be continuing on my projects that I had before the con, namely my winner for viewing the 1002 hit on this site. Since I didn't get any message from anyone who saw the 1,000 hit. =^__^=

I dont' really have anything else to say. =^__^=

Kyaaa.. Look at how long it's been since I last posted. *sighs* It's been a long time. Though, I've been through a lot. The end of the year is always difficult when you are in retail... Then half way through January, my main job laid me off due to trying to cut costs. WHICH REALLY SUCKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had to increase hours at my second job while I looked for a second job, and go to Ohayocon, which turned out to be a bust...but I did have a lot of fun. I wasn't prepared for what cons are like these days. Conventions are nothing like they used to be...which is really sad. People sold their artwork for fun...not for profit. It was really saddening. It made me really think about whether or not I want to be at a con anymore... It was a serious blow. I guess, the times have really changed people....no more dreams...just money... I was really bummed. But, I think I'm ready to give it another try, though my expectations will never be satisfied at cons ever again.... It's truly sad.

But anyway on a lighter side, I am working at my new job since the middle of February. I am currently working for CVS/Pharmacy. It's quite fun, and I'm making new friends and new co-workers. I've been working on a new manga this whole time off, and finalizing my artwork so that my art style is more stable. It's been very unstable through the years. Though, I think I've finally found out what I need to do. I'm invigorated to show you all what I can do. Though, I might be a bit clumsy at first. I hope you all enjoy what I'm ready to produce with what I've learned.

Hi everyone... I have bad news... My house was broken into yesterday and my laptop with ALL of my work on it was stolen, along with my Wacom tablet. Though, they forgot to take the stylus for it, it still has hit home hard. They also took all of my check stubs for my two jobs...which means they mean to hurt me financially as well. I have already called the fraud protection line and put my soc and everything on alert. It's really sad people like this live, and to what purpose that they mean only to take what other have. It's really sad. I am currently going to have to look for a new place to live, since I know that if they break in once, they'll do it again. This comes at desperate times since I was planning to go to Ohayocon. In fact, I was supposed to be calling the hotel this Monday... But I cannot overlook these evil people plotting to steal away my hard earned money and time. So most of my art pieces that were being worked on are back to square one... *sighs* Thankfully, my fiance still has his tablet, but we'll have to share once again, till we're able to get a new tablet. I'm sorry for any inconvenience that this has caused.

Hmmm, well, I've hit 1001 now, though I wondering who saw the 1000 page view??? Whomever saw it is guaranteed a free pic from me. It was not cool since the server went down for a while and I was soo busy, I haven't checked back in a while. I have good news, that will hopefully will be good for a while. *crosses fingers* I'll be working on finishing the hit pic for this site. I have kiribans coming up for my other two sites. And I've opened a new site that is totally in Japanese though. It was soo cool to start up, I could read some of the links, cause I know a bit of Japanese myself. =^__^= Hopefully, the rest of this year will be fortuitous for me.

Hey, everyone!! I'm sorry I've not been able to post much online. I've been so swamped with working the two jobs that I really don't have time even when I'm off work to post and keep in touch. My sites have been grossly neglected and that has been bothering me. I'm almost out of debit. I have a large electric bill and one last bill to take care of and I'll be debit free. I've been working soo hard to move on and I've even been able to save money...and spend it as well since I'm still strapped for cash, but not as bad. I hope to this year to find a new job and start relaxing more now that I've axed most of my bills.

So I'm sure you're wondering what I've been doing? I've been getting ready for Gencon and Inconjunction!!! I had a nice tax return and I'm using it to pimp myself this year!! The year of the rat is my year, and it's time to stop waiting anymore, and reach out and grab before it flys away. I have several project lined up for completion. I've also settled on an eye style. For those of you that have known me through the years, it's always been a big problem of mine. I've never been satisfied with them and I've changed my eyes like I change my clothes. so I'm ecstatic about that as well. I hope you like them. =@__@= Nyah!!

Well, I also want to take this time to thank you all for watching me..even when I've been under the weather and not being able to post. I've been through a very stressful time and it is getting better. I wish you all the best and thank you for everything! =^__^=

Well it's a new year...and things are looking great so far. I'm sick with a chest cold, and about to go to work in a few hours. It's been tiring but I've been able to pay off bills and get moving towards independence. It's also my Chinese new year!! It's quite surprising that the year I've decided to make a lot of changes happens to be my Chinese zodiac sign. *chuckles* Mmm, I can't think of anything else to say so laters!!

Merry Christmas, Feliz Navidad, and Meri Kurisumasu to all!! *cheers* I've, of course, had no time to do any pictures for today...so I'm pictureless.... BUT I am still hyped for the day. I've been working at least 70 hours + a week...so it's been difficult to sneak in a pic or two while in this workaholic state... *Catches her breathe* Good news!! Two debts paid and 1900$ to go....and I'll be debt free!!! I possibly won't be updating for awhile still a bit longer simply because I need to get ready for Indy GENCON next year, and I have a lot of things planned for it, etc, posters, t-shirts, booklets, and possibly other things... I also need to get business cards a personal t-shirt to pimp me, and More cat ears (Might make my own....mm = -__^=)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just need time to produce it all before the con starts next August! I also need to get a dependable person to watch the table cause I also help out in the anime section for running the shows. Heh heh!! But other than that....I'm ANXIOUS to get drawing for my sites again.... I HATE not be able to draw and post on my sites.... *serious pout* But, I know I've got to get my bills under control...or I'll never be able to do anything... *pouts some more*

Well, things have take a turn for the better, my bills are almost paid off excluding two other bills which don't take effect until February 2008, so that is good. Other than those bills I have one other bill which I'll have to deal with.... So I'm not sure about how to deal with that.. I also wasn't able to move... So that was the only bad part of it. *sighs* I also have to find a different second job...cause my current job is not allowing my Sundays off. I work as an independent teacher teaching Japanese anime drawing on that day. So I'll have to find a new job... I'm considering working for Kroger as the gas attendant...but I did put in a new application with Walmart. *sighs* It's not that I don't like my second job. It's very relaxing even though there's a lot of work to do. I feel good with this job...though I must keep to my schedule. I feel really bad about leaving too.... *sighs*

Well, with all that aside, I am doing well and I feel full of energy!! I'm an intending to updat for Christmas. I"m excited and happy about it. It's been too long since I've updated. Mmmm, maybe I'll update at all of my sites that I have....which are nine of them...hmmmm.... Well, I must head off to work on those pieces!! Nyah!!

I have great news!! Though, I'm a bit giddy from the news.... I'm crossing my fingers that it will work!!! I will be moving soon and will be able to quit my second job and be able to draw once again. I though will have to move quite far from my state of birth, but it will be all worth it.

Mmmm, other than that.... I'm quite stressed out from my first job...due to a fellow employee causing more trouble than should be allowed. She puts away things...but in the wrong places...which is causing trouble for me. It's annoying and very uncool. The bad thing is that she is allowed to continue and cause trouble to the point of taking breaks while I am taking a break.... I'm thoroughly pissed....but what can I do? I even been having crying fits due to the stress of trying to fix up the department. I really care for my department...but I'm just too stressed out to due anything meaningful. I'm to the point of just not caring at all...which bothers me... *sighs*

Other than that, I'm quite thrilled for the move and nervous as well. =^__^=

Well, everyone, I will probably be on a very long hiatus. Due to my situation, I won't be able to post much now that I will be working two jobs. I will be focusing most of my time on my work and my fiance. I'm going to be too tired to do anything other than that...and final pieces will be hard coming and may take quite a while. I won't be responding to any journals....won't have the time. So I guess this is my final journal, until things get better. I"ll be posting this up on all my sites, except for the world Animorph sites simply because I can't change anything on the site at all. Well, wish me luck, and if I don't kill myself doing this, I"ll be back. Tat, it was really fun!!! =^___^= Nyah!! Hopefully this will only be for a year...hopefully...

Hee hee!! I am ecstatic! Fangsnowpaws did a request for me. I usually don't ask for requests, because I know how busy one's life can be. I'd just thought I'd put the link to it so everyone could see. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/704130/ I am still in and out of my sited..so I'm not, but I am here...sort of...yeah...night...

Well, I will be getting ready for my biggest con, I CAN go to nearby... *sighs* Indy Gencon!! They have a mini Anime-con there. I work with the people that run the 'anime' part of the con. So I'm excited what this year will entail. I've decided to do a 15 piece artbook for the con. Though things are still sketchy right now. It may be difficult to produce something this fast within a few days. I have until August 14th to get everything done. So I'll be offline for quite a while. Though I will reveal this, My theme for the artbook is Butterflies, and Fairies. Since they are my favorite, I thought it would be a good idea to use that. So I hope I don't kill myself trying to get this produced. *sweatdrop* Well, tata till August 20th! Nyah!!

Well, I thought that I'd post the url to another contest pic I did on dA. It's furry in nature so I'd though people would enjoy it. I had to finish it before taking on a commission for a transformation comic. So I had to finish any contests that were ending within the next few weeks. I have two other ones I am doing on dA, but they are not due till august. One is vampires and werewolves and the other is superhero characters. =^_^= Well, I'll be changing the url in an hour to here so you can see it.

Oops!! Oh god, I totally forgot... Sophia is underage...so I have to modify the pic, just in case someone is a @#$% tard. The site I'm doing the pic for is a bit more restrict. So I 'll be posting the nude pic here and the cleaned up pic there. =;^_^;=

Hmmm it was very interesting reading the 100 things about a few people, but I've decided to do something different. *is tempted do actually answer that 100 things about me* I resisted but I did come up with this:

10 things that are bad about me:

1 I pick off scabs...yes I so hate them...ggrrr...
2 I eat way too many Smarties, by Brach's
3 I drink milk. I'm allergic to it... *sighs*
4 I don't blow my nose correctly.... This one is weird, due to allergies I have...
5 I'm allergic to corn syrup....high fructose corn syrup is the worst though for me... *sighs*
6 I procrastinate....
7 I'm a coward.... I hate this part about me... *pouts*
8 I can be annoying. I've got much better...in high school I was...terrible....
9 I'm a bit spoiled
10 I so have blond moments...and I'm not blond...*sighs*

10 things that are good about me:

1 I'm generous
2 I"m helpful without being critical
3 Optimistic as hell!!
4 Long suffering..... Some people tell me I'm way too nice...
5 I'm patient
6 I'm a hopeless romantic....
7 Self Starter
8 Secret keeper
9 I'm caring
10 I'm thoughtful, though sometimes...I speak without thinking..and I regret it. =-_-=

10 other things about me:

1 I'm shy
2 I quiet around upset people...
3 Solution finder
4 Bashful around too much attention....I get this way too much.. *sweatdrop* Thus the reason I usually dress a bit grungy... The moment I dress up...I get too much attention...
5 People seem to think I'm beautiful.... I"m so not beautiful, maybe cute...but not more than that.
6 Keeps herself humble
7 Thinks of others before herself
8 Has an inferiority complex...though this is getting better. =^_^= I usually batter myself, not the person with "I'm not good enough."
9 I'm a crybaby... *sniffle*
10 I hate to argue, unless there is injustice involved.

Well, that is more about me. I'm not really worried if people know more about me. I feel it's a good idea. You should embrace your problems and your good points too, because it's what makes you. =^_^= Nyah!!

Oh, I changed my icon... It was getting boring. I think I'll change all of the ones I have online. Kyaaahhh!!! I accidentally used a mature pic.... *sweatdrop* I'm soo soo sorry... *bows many times....* Though, if you wanted to see a better shot of the icon. Here it is. But it is mature, because it shows nip =*^_^*=:
http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/58437093/

Whoo the contest is over, but I'd like to say congratulations to all who won!! I didn't win, but that was not why I took part in it. =^_^= I'm not really concerned with who wins or not, just that I had a good time participating. Oh, the one that won first place was one of my favorites!!! Nyah!! So Kudos to my favorite! Hmmm, well what to do next, I have a project or two to post here when they are finished. I'm still learning to work with the tablet, so I have plenty to learn.

Hmm, though I had a disturbing experience today. It was quite disheartening. Someone who I THOUGHT was my friend...gave me seriously bad vibes today. It's upsetting, but I guess there is not much I can do about it... My intuitions are usually not wrong, but there is a margin for error, so I guess all I can do is see what happens. She's a really nice person...but something just seems to not quite be right about the relationship. *sighs* I personally hate this kind of problem, cause I try to look on the bright side of things. So I hope that the problem will be rectified by further interactions with her. Wish me luck... And another thing, I truly hope that it is not me that is the possible problem? or not? I know I can be quite annoying at times...but I don't do it to irritate people.... It's been a problem that I've been trying to fix. Mind you, I've been much worse. In high school, I was terrible.

Well, enough of that, I was wondering what people want me to do next, so I am going to post a poll to see what should be my next work, well, besides the project I already have planned to show here. I have a couple of old artwork I am intending to post here and color. These pieces are from a large book that I originally was not able to show anyone...except at a convention, of course. =^_^=

*breathes deeply* Oh, my goodness!! I finished my contest pic for  arctic-sekai 's Ice cream contest!!!!!! It was soo much fun to do. I think my only regret was that I didn't get really really detailed about the ice cream. Heh, I was sssoo tired, so I decided to leave it. It might count against me...but I just couldn't do anymore. Heh, I'm sure someone has had that one pic that is just.....needed to be done really soon. It was so much work to squeeze into 4 days!! *giggles* Well, I now have 3 other contests that I"m doing but they are on dA. I'll post the links to them, if anyone is curious to see them. But, mind you, only one of them is furry, the rest are not.

I also will say that I will be starting a furry comic that was originally was supposed to be on dA. But, I decided to put it on a separate site. It's an action, love story, adult too, which includes my old characters and another artist's characters, named Spacefurry on dA. I've been agonizing over the details for a while and I think I'm about ready to start setting up the pages. I'm pretty excited about it. I'm thinking of posting the comic not only on a web comic page but also here. But for now, I am just in the early stages of getting it ready. I am planning the type used for the cover, desktop backgrounds, posters, character pages.....etc.

Heh, well I have progressed pretty well today. I have finally rekindled my artistic muse. It has been greatly missed. My art keeps me optimistic. I really don't know what I'd do, if I couldn't...but I'm sure I'd find something to do. =^_^= I'm progressing pretty well on my contest pics! I have 6 I'm doing, most on dA, one on here. :P Yeah, I'm crazy, but this is what has restarted my fire. And I want to thank those who do contests. Maybe one day I'll do one. =^_^= Well, if you really want to see how I am doing on my piece for  arctic-sekai 's contest it's here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/598474/
I just don't like putting WIP's in my main gallery. *shrugs* Hmm, currently, I am open for commissions, but I'm so new here. I"m not sure, if anyone is interested. so umm, other than that, bleh. =^_^= Oh, I did a get well pic for a friend of mine who has a kitten that is a brother to mine. I'm gonna post it soon. Well, it's get well, because he...got snipped. So he's a eunuch. LOL...*ahem* Anyway. I'll post it later. =^_^=

hmm, I've been reflecting on my life as it is right now, and I guess it's alright. Most of my old friends that do know me only one is on this site and one newer friend is on here too. So I'll have to ask that you two (you know who you are) Please keep this a secret. I HATE to bother my friends with my problems. And I always smile, but it's been getting harder and harder to smile. I've always been determined to make things work out, somehow...but I am having reservations. I feel that this is the last time I can make something of my relationship and not bail out, like a spoiled child. I've been in bad relationships ever since I split up with my first boyfriend. My second boyfriend became my husband and he just emotionally and mentally abused me. He also, hmmm, I guess the best way to say it is...he 'beat some of his beliefs' into me without me realizing it. And, I don't mean religion either. Most of these habits have carried onto my next relationship, which has caused friction between us. So this one is not as bad as the last one...but not necessarily good either. Still abusive mentally, but not emotionally... And, I'm left to wonder...will I ever find the right one? I am depressed, mostly out of not being able to get along with him. I have a very carefree outlook towards life. And he has seen and been to many places, and not all the experiences have been good either. It has made him very rigid and calm. He's very serious, which I'm not... He's overly sensitive about things... that... *sighs* It's just that I care for him so much, but he...pushes me away by his actions...and other things... He blames these problems from the previous relationship for the rift between us. He says that if I clear up these problems, every thing would be fine...but isn't that unfair? or not? I've become fed up with 'fixing my problems' when he supposedly has none...or doesn't want to admit to any. And, when I bring it up, it gets justified every time. Am I being too childish? Or am I being naive? I know...I've barely had any relationships, three total. But, I'm sort of a very devoted person...so I find it hard to just date on a whim.... I am just unsure what to do... I know what I should do...but I'm afraid to do it. I've also become tired of 'Looking for the next one". I've totally decided to become lesbian after this one just to avoid another heartache. I'm sorry, I just need to get this out...

Hmmm, I so need to get another tablet. With me not having a workable scanner....I don't feel comfortable drawing traditionally because when I take pictures....with the digital camera... It doesn't turn out right, and I have to do some fixings to get it right. And, I'm so hypt about drawing on my tablet. You see there are two artists in my house...and we both use the computer and tablet a lot!!! *sighs* He's using it now, but I had to stave off a serious temper tantrum this morning. Heh, goes with growing up hun? I was soo angry for no reason, other than I couldn't use it. I felt really bad after I finally got ahold of myself. I don't usually get angry but I REALLY wanted to use it this morning... *whines* ah well, I guess I'll just ink in the pic I drew of Karinka, my mascot forhere. I'm going to be spicing up my journal later on.

Oh, I just HAVE to say this... Arctic - Sekai and Faint draw some awesomely hot pics!!!!! Sorry, I just had to rave about that!!! *giggles*

Oh, I'm also going to enter into the Ice cream contes being held by Arctic-Sekai too!!! Yum I love icecream!!!!!!!!

Oh I have a question... How do you get pictures to show in the Production Cue area for the webpage? I'd like to show some commisions I've done in the past. I've looked through 4 pages of Support pages...and none have covered that topic yet. If someone could either point me to the right forum question or just tell me. I'd be in your debit. =;^_^;=

Okay, I got the pictures of these pieces. The lighting was not good today. So when I can, I will repost them in better format, ie better lighting. =^_^= They are very old, but at least they will be seen finally online. This is the shortest...journal so far...

Live Your Life.
1. What is your favorite anime?
Fruits Basket

2. What is your second one?
Akira

3. If you could change your username without losing your stuff would you?
No.

4. What is your favorite japanese song?
Re-Sublimity by KOTOKO

5. Who was the reason you came to FA?
To post my furry artwork and to see other artwork too!

6. Who was your first watcher?
I think, FilutRasiak

7. Who was the first person to do a commission for you?
Ben Dunn

8. How many people are currently watching you?
9

9. Do you currently* have any problems with FA?
Nope!

10. What is that problem?
n/A

11. What is your favorite furre related online game?
I don't have one...though I am interested.

12. What is your favorite non-furre related online game?
Pso

13. What online game do you wish you could play?
Guildwars, WOW, City of Heros or Villians, Fainal Fantasy 11!!!

14. Do you wish you could draw?
I can draw. :) And you can too!

15. If you could somehow be able to draw by trading your writing abilities?
Hmmm, I'd be up a creek, I have moderate writing levels, and I wouldn't trade my talent for anything.

16. Do you wish you had more people watching you artwork sometimes?
Not really, I've been online for a while. I also have a big following. So I make sure to stay humble. If someone likes your artwork, they'll say so!!

17. What do you hate most in the world?
Injustice, crime, high costs, global problems, and that's is about it, besides I can't have chocolate... *pouties*

18. Would you leave FA anytime soon?
Nope, I'm here to stay.

19. Do you wish you had as many people watching you as you watching other people?*shrugs* Not sure about that.

20. What is one of your fantasies?
Hmmm, I have...in the closet...lesbian tendencies, and penus envy. I wanna be a hermaphrodite~~!!!!

I saw this on  phantomblade1 's site and decided to answer them, because it's fun to do!!!!