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Posted 2 years agoYeah, I'm still lurking around. I just don't really have the energy to be social outside of work these days.
I more or less almost completely gave up on both streaming and writing. I still dabble in both, but I've pretty much lost any motivation I once had to do them with any sort of regularity. Mostly I just don't have the energy to commit to either. But, I've also gotten to a 'why bother' point emotionally. They're both things I enjoy doing, but neither really pay the bills. Streaming in particular just doesn't really seem worthwhile to grind out. It would likely take streaming for the equivalent of taking on an additional full time job just to get to a point where I can actually start making money. Oh, and it would probably be helpful if I was more entertaining than watching paint dry. Having something more interesting to look at than gameplay probably wouldn't hurt either. As for writing, it's purely down to the fact that it's been harder than usual to have the motivation to just write.
On top of all of that, my job feels a bit soul crushing. Mostly because I don't really want to be in food service, but can't afford to take a day off a month, let alone every week in order to get the training necessary to get into a different field of work. Bills to pay, food to eat, and all that. All in all, I'm tired, frustrated and starting to physically and mentally feel the fact that I'm almost 40.
Now that I've aired all the gloom from my mind, I'm gonna start lurking around a looking up some of the folks I vaguely remember from back in the days when the Fox Tales Times and it's associated forums were still somewhat active. I recently revisited the forums and started to get all nostalgic. After all, that was the site and forum that really gave me the push to get into the fandom almost 2 decades ago now. It's hard to believe that I've been in the fandom almost as long as I haven't.
I more or less almost completely gave up on both streaming and writing. I still dabble in both, but I've pretty much lost any motivation I once had to do them with any sort of regularity. Mostly I just don't have the energy to commit to either. But, I've also gotten to a 'why bother' point emotionally. They're both things I enjoy doing, but neither really pay the bills. Streaming in particular just doesn't really seem worthwhile to grind out. It would likely take streaming for the equivalent of taking on an additional full time job just to get to a point where I can actually start making money. Oh, and it would probably be helpful if I was more entertaining than watching paint dry. Having something more interesting to look at than gameplay probably wouldn't hurt either. As for writing, it's purely down to the fact that it's been harder than usual to have the motivation to just write.
On top of all of that, my job feels a bit soul crushing. Mostly because I don't really want to be in food service, but can't afford to take a day off a month, let alone every week in order to get the training necessary to get into a different field of work. Bills to pay, food to eat, and all that. All in all, I'm tired, frustrated and starting to physically and mentally feel the fact that I'm almost 40.
Now that I've aired all the gloom from my mind, I'm gonna start lurking around a looking up some of the folks I vaguely remember from back in the days when the Fox Tales Times and it's associated forums were still somewhat active. I recently revisited the forums and started to get all nostalgic. After all, that was the site and forum that really gave me the push to get into the fandom almost 2 decades ago now. It's hard to believe that I've been in the fandom almost as long as I haven't.
Feeling tired but hopeful.
Posted 4 years agoIt's been a while since I've given an update. I'll try to keep things a brief as I can.
As for a work update, the restaurant I've been working at, has ben very exhausting. 8 hour shifts 4 days a week with no real time for any breaks will do that to you. It's so stressful, I've gone back to smoking and drinking every day. Not nearly to the extent as before, but still.
I've been loosing interest in streaming with every passing stream. I've been on the 3 days a week I have off from my day job, for at least 3 hours at a time for about as long as I've had my current job. So about 5 months give or take. To be streaming that many hours, and to only really have a a few dozen people pop in, only 3 of which give a follow, and only 2 of those people engaged for one stream each. I'm just hitting that wall of, "What's the point? I might as well just not even turn on the stream, and just play the games on my own." The stresses of that, being compounded by the stresses of my day job are making the stress from both feel that much worse. I have ideas on how to improve the look and feel of my streams and my channel, but every single on of them is going to cost at minimum $150, and if I'm being honest, and really make the strides I want, the figure balloons the ballpark of $500 to $750. That's a lot of coin to commit to something, that I have no idea is even going to work out.
As for writing, I'm going to bluntly honest. It's not going to happen. Between work and streaming, I'm so exhausted in every way that I barely have the energy to read, let alone have the creative energy needed to write a story. Much like every single story I've ever written, the ones I've posted and talked about in my journals, are just going to have to go unfinished. Don't worry though, if people want to throw out there how they see the stories going, I wouldn't mind seeing them. Just don't expect to see much in terms of creative endeavors from me for the foreseeable future.
I'm sorry if this comes across as boring or worrying, but that's just the state of things right now. I'll get through it, but I'm just so tired and drained right now.
As for a work update, the restaurant I've been working at, has ben very exhausting. 8 hour shifts 4 days a week with no real time for any breaks will do that to you. It's so stressful, I've gone back to smoking and drinking every day. Not nearly to the extent as before, but still.
I've been loosing interest in streaming with every passing stream. I've been on the 3 days a week I have off from my day job, for at least 3 hours at a time for about as long as I've had my current job. So about 5 months give or take. To be streaming that many hours, and to only really have a a few dozen people pop in, only 3 of which give a follow, and only 2 of those people engaged for one stream each. I'm just hitting that wall of, "What's the point? I might as well just not even turn on the stream, and just play the games on my own." The stresses of that, being compounded by the stresses of my day job are making the stress from both feel that much worse. I have ideas on how to improve the look and feel of my streams and my channel, but every single on of them is going to cost at minimum $150, and if I'm being honest, and really make the strides I want, the figure balloons the ballpark of $500 to $750. That's a lot of coin to commit to something, that I have no idea is even going to work out.
As for writing, I'm going to bluntly honest. It's not going to happen. Between work and streaming, I'm so exhausted in every way that I barely have the energy to read, let alone have the creative energy needed to write a story. Much like every single story I've ever written, the ones I've posted and talked about in my journals, are just going to have to go unfinished. Don't worry though, if people want to throw out there how they see the stories going, I wouldn't mind seeing them. Just don't expect to see much in terms of creative endeavors from me for the foreseeable future.
I'm sorry if this comes across as boring or worrying, but that's just the state of things right now. I'll get through it, but I'm just so tired and drained right now.
Spit-balling Twitch Ideas.
Posted 4 years agoI managed to get in a few Twitch streams this week. Hell near the end of today's stream, I even got a bot that posted a link in the chat "to help me grow my channel analytics." Had to give them the boot. Honestly, it was pretty fun, and not nearly as intimidating as I thought it would be. I guess all those years of awkwardly talking to myself is finally starting to be useful. But, my channel looks pretty barren. It's literally just a schedule and a latest follower panel. I figured I throw out a few ideas on the visual direction I was thinking of taking my channel, and see what people thought of those ideas.
Firstly, I'm planning on having a channel mascot. Essentially, I got the term "The Ultrajesters" from an alien race generator back around the 2009/2010 timeframe. So, I figured I'd take an Invader Zim or GWAR type of route. An alien that came to earth mostly to observe humans see if it's worth it to work with us or kill us(still a bit fuzzy on the why.) Of course being lazy they just decide to go with whatever disguise looked cool, instead of using one that actually looked like us. So, the inevitable internal furry debate of which animal to choose begins. I was thinking tiger, because they look cool, or gorilla because they look badass, and are close enough to humans, right? Honestly I'm leaning more towards gorilla. Of course to drive home an "Ultrajester" type of aesthetic, maybe having them wear some sort of Harlequin suit and cap would be in order. Maybe even have them be able to remove their face as if it was a mask, and have there be nothing but an empty void beneath. As for the theme of the banner, panel headers and scenes, I was thinking of going with a circus or carnival that feels 'off and wrong.' Like you're not quite sure why, but something about the angles and colors of certain things feel off-putting and unnerving. As for subscriber icons, maybe simple jester caps. Of course I would probably go with uwu, owo, pog, lul and couple other emotes of our new Ultrajester friend.
That's all I really have for now. I'm sure there's more I was thinking of, but this will do for now. What are your thoughts? Do you think these are good ideas for a twitch channel? Is there anything you would change, and why? Is there anything that would need more clarity? Let me know. I really am planning sending out commissions soon, and would like some feedback on whether or not these ideas are even cohesive enough to work.
Edit: As a quirky side thought, diapers could possibly be incorporated to the character idea. Maybe as a misunderstanding or misinterpretation of things. "You know I thought these were a part of some sort of induction to the species type of thing. I always see the new members of your society wear them, so I thought as a fledgling member of the group I would wear them as a sign of solidarity. At first, at least. Now that I realized that it's like wearing a pillow for this form, I can't see myself going without one." Or, something along those lines anyways.
Firstly, I'm planning on having a channel mascot. Essentially, I got the term "The Ultrajesters" from an alien race generator back around the 2009/2010 timeframe. So, I figured I'd take an Invader Zim or GWAR type of route. An alien that came to earth mostly to observe humans see if it's worth it to work with us or kill us(still a bit fuzzy on the why.) Of course being lazy they just decide to go with whatever disguise looked cool, instead of using one that actually looked like us. So, the inevitable internal furry debate of which animal to choose begins. I was thinking tiger, because they look cool, or gorilla because they look badass, and are close enough to humans, right? Honestly I'm leaning more towards gorilla. Of course to drive home an "Ultrajester" type of aesthetic, maybe having them wear some sort of Harlequin suit and cap would be in order. Maybe even have them be able to remove their face as if it was a mask, and have there be nothing but an empty void beneath. As for the theme of the banner, panel headers and scenes, I was thinking of going with a circus or carnival that feels 'off and wrong.' Like you're not quite sure why, but something about the angles and colors of certain things feel off-putting and unnerving. As for subscriber icons, maybe simple jester caps. Of course I would probably go with uwu, owo, pog, lul and couple other emotes of our new Ultrajester friend.
That's all I really have for now. I'm sure there's more I was thinking of, but this will do for now. What are your thoughts? Do you think these are good ideas for a twitch channel? Is there anything you would change, and why? Is there anything that would need more clarity? Let me know. I really am planning sending out commissions soon, and would like some feedback on whether or not these ideas are even cohesive enough to work.
Edit: As a quirky side thought, diapers could possibly be incorporated to the character idea. Maybe as a misunderstanding or misinterpretation of things. "You know I thought these were a part of some sort of induction to the species type of thing. I always see the new members of your society wear them, so I thought as a fledgling member of the group I would wear them as a sign of solidarity. At first, at least. Now that I realized that it's like wearing a pillow for this form, I can't see myself going without one." Or, something along those lines anyways.
Streaming soon!
Posted 4 years agoAs in, my first official stream is going to be in about an hour. I say "official," because I accidentally went live a few weeks ago. I don't even know how I went live because I didn't hit 'go live' on Streamlabs, and don't remember hitting any of the hot keys while it was open.
In any case, I'm gonna be nervous as all hell for the first hour or 2, or you know, the entire 4 hours or so I'm planning to stream. If you want to see me go over my pc for the first little bit, and fumble my way through either Borderlands 3 and/or Risk of Rain 2 for a few hours, feel free to stop by.
https://www.twitch.tv/sampson_the_ultrajester
In any case, I'm gonna be nervous as all hell for the first hour or 2, or you know, the entire 4 hours or so I'm planning to stream. If you want to see me go over my pc for the first little bit, and fumble my way through either Borderlands 3 and/or Risk of Rain 2 for a few hours, feel free to stop by.
https://www.twitch.tv/sampson_the_ultrajester
Twitch and Life Update
Posted 4 years agoI figured I'd hop on and give a quick update on everything, and Twitch streaming specifically. In terms of general updates, my mental state is definitely on the upswing since my last journal. Work is still a physical and emotional grind, though(and the current American political climate isn't helping matters.) My writing is starting to come back to me in little short bursts. Although I would like it to be going a bit better, and coming back a bit faster, but I'll take what few scraps I can get right now.
As for Twitch streaming, I'm still in the process of getting the ball rolling on everything. But, I'm getting really close. All I need in terms of physical equipment is a mic, maybe a bigger desk and maybe a second monitor. After that, it's just a matter of getting the things going on back end OBS stuff. Specifically, commissioning overlays, emotes, subscription badges and profile ID stuff. I'm going to be tracking down and getting in contact with some artists for that pretty soon here. If anyone that reads this thinks they might be interested, or knows someone who is, you could probably leave a comment or shoot me a note.
Other than that, I really hope everyone is doing alright, considering the current state of things.
As for Twitch streaming, I'm still in the process of getting the ball rolling on everything. But, I'm getting really close. All I need in terms of physical equipment is a mic, maybe a bigger desk and maybe a second monitor. After that, it's just a matter of getting the things going on back end OBS stuff. Specifically, commissioning overlays, emotes, subscription badges and profile ID stuff. I'm going to be tracking down and getting in contact with some artists for that pretty soon here. If anyone that reads this thinks they might be interested, or knows someone who is, you could probably leave a comment or shoot me a note.
Other than that, I really hope everyone is doing alright, considering the current state of things.
Eugh! This has not been a particularly good year.
Posted 5 years agoThere's really no other way to put it. Pretty much in every way other than financially, It's been a struggle the last few months. My writing has pretty much gound to a standstill, and I have a page left on the next section of Reverse of Roles. I don't know that I want to even look at any of my other stories right now. My brain just isn't in a creative writing mood, and hasn't been almost all year.
My mental and emotional states have been on the down slope pretty much all year. I'm at a loss for where all the time went, and where I want to go from here. I feel like I'm in a rut that I can't get out of at the moment. The only things that have been numbing the pain, and slowing the spiral have been beer on the weekends, and excersize during the week. I know the beer probably isn't helping matters, but it's the only thing I have to lean on. No friends, no social life, no one I feel like I can genuinely talk to, nowhere I feel like I can genuinely let go of the stress, feel like myself and just cub out.
All of that isn't even getting into the fact that I work in the food service industry, and I have to constantly be on edge about getting and potentially transmitting the Rona. The fact that political discourse has further devolved, and you can't utter two sentances without feeling like you're going to upset someone's sensabilities on either side of the divide. Having to wade through the quagmire of social media during another election cycle. Although, I really did like the fact that AOC and Ilhan Omar played Among Us on Twitch to get out the vote, that was a highlight for sure!
I'm thinking about starting to get lotto tickets a few times a week. That way, if I win, I can buy a house in the Adirondacks and just get the fuck away from everything! Maybe even start an "Incontinence Supplies" store. Mostly to serve the legitimate incontinence needs of the community, but I would also have a side room for my fellow babs and cubs. Gotta have those ABU's, Crinklez and Tykables handy for the little ones! One can dream, right? Well, I hope everyone is doing alright. Don't worry about me, I've come out the other side of darker times than these, I'll muddle through and manage. Life's just gotta give me a little light to look forward to, so I can see where I'm going.
Thank you to everyone who has liked my stories and the images I've bought and posted. Also, thanks for reading my ramblings of journals. Sometimes you gotta vent to the void, and hope the void is listening. Good luck on whatever it is you're trying to accompish, and I hope to see you around while I lurk in the poorly lit corners of FA and the internet at large.
My mental and emotional states have been on the down slope pretty much all year. I'm at a loss for where all the time went, and where I want to go from here. I feel like I'm in a rut that I can't get out of at the moment. The only things that have been numbing the pain, and slowing the spiral have been beer on the weekends, and excersize during the week. I know the beer probably isn't helping matters, but it's the only thing I have to lean on. No friends, no social life, no one I feel like I can genuinely talk to, nowhere I feel like I can genuinely let go of the stress, feel like myself and just cub out.
All of that isn't even getting into the fact that I work in the food service industry, and I have to constantly be on edge about getting and potentially transmitting the Rona. The fact that political discourse has further devolved, and you can't utter two sentances without feeling like you're going to upset someone's sensabilities on either side of the divide. Having to wade through the quagmire of social media during another election cycle. Although, I really did like the fact that AOC and Ilhan Omar played Among Us on Twitch to get out the vote, that was a highlight for sure!
I'm thinking about starting to get lotto tickets a few times a week. That way, if I win, I can buy a house in the Adirondacks and just get the fuck away from everything! Maybe even start an "Incontinence Supplies" store. Mostly to serve the legitimate incontinence needs of the community, but I would also have a side room for my fellow babs and cubs. Gotta have those ABU's, Crinklez and Tykables handy for the little ones! One can dream, right? Well, I hope everyone is doing alright. Don't worry about me, I've come out the other side of darker times than these, I'll muddle through and manage. Life's just gotta give me a little light to look forward to, so I can see where I'm going.
Thank you to everyone who has liked my stories and the images I've bought and posted. Also, thanks for reading my ramblings of journals. Sometimes you gotta vent to the void, and hope the void is listening. Good luck on whatever it is you're trying to accompish, and I hope to see you around while I lurk in the poorly lit corners of FA and the internet at large.
Updates, and seeking out possible Ref Sheets.
Posted 5 years agoWell first off, I hope everyone's healthy and sane amidst everything that's going on nowadays. As for me, everything is going as well as can be expected aside from a few non-health related irl things giving me a headache.
Sorry for the prolonged silence on all fronts from me, I'm no good at socializing even in the most basic of terms. I really want to finish the stories that I've started, but my brain has already stalled out and/or lost interest in those and moved on to newer, shinier projects as of late. I think in the coming months I'm going to try to power through and finish the 'Reverse of Roles' story. I'm about 3/4 of the way done with part 3 and about 1/3 of the way done with part 4. Now that I've basically been given 2 weeks paid leave from my job because of the pandemic stuff, I'll try my best to motor through and at least finish part 3, possibly even part 4 if I get struck by inspiration.
With the story updates out of the way, I'm thinking about getting some Ref Sheets. There are 2 to 4 I might be looking to get depending on what my financials are looking like. I'm going to be getting more official ones for Ike and Kevin for sure. It's nothing against Fliskets or her art style, I'm just looking to get something easier for artists to work with if/when I get commissions of the two little scamps. I might also try to seek out something for my main fursona, Sampson. It would be really tough though, because of how complicated of a character he is design wise(in my head anyways.) Imagine trying to blend elements of a tiger and a gorilla together and have the resulting character not seem completely outrageous, or fall into some uncanny valley. I'm also thinking about getting one for Alex, but that going to be way down the line, if I even get around to it. I guess it's just a matter of finding AB/DL Cubfur/Littlefur friendly artists who are open for commissions, and able to take on a few ref sheets.
Alright, I suppose that should be all of my thoughts on everything. Just remember, even if I've gone silent for a while, I won't be grumpy if someone else decides to initiate a conversation with me.
Well, see you around. Stay as safe and healthy as possible everybody!
Sorry for the prolonged silence on all fronts from me, I'm no good at socializing even in the most basic of terms. I really want to finish the stories that I've started, but my brain has already stalled out and/or lost interest in those and moved on to newer, shinier projects as of late. I think in the coming months I'm going to try to power through and finish the 'Reverse of Roles' story. I'm about 3/4 of the way done with part 3 and about 1/3 of the way done with part 4. Now that I've basically been given 2 weeks paid leave from my job because of the pandemic stuff, I'll try my best to motor through and at least finish part 3, possibly even part 4 if I get struck by inspiration.
With the story updates out of the way, I'm thinking about getting some Ref Sheets. There are 2 to 4 I might be looking to get depending on what my financials are looking like. I'm going to be getting more official ones for Ike and Kevin for sure. It's nothing against Fliskets or her art style, I'm just looking to get something easier for artists to work with if/when I get commissions of the two little scamps. I might also try to seek out something for my main fursona, Sampson. It would be really tough though, because of how complicated of a character he is design wise(in my head anyways.) Imagine trying to blend elements of a tiger and a gorilla together and have the resulting character not seem completely outrageous, or fall into some uncanny valley. I'm also thinking about getting one for Alex, but that going to be way down the line, if I even get around to it. I guess it's just a matter of finding AB/DL Cubfur/Littlefur friendly artists who are open for commissions, and able to take on a few ref sheets.
Alright, I suppose that should be all of my thoughts on everything. Just remember, even if I've gone silent for a while, I won't be grumpy if someone else decides to initiate a conversation with me.
Well, see you around. Stay as safe and healthy as possible everybody!
My writing is still glacially slow. Also, Hi!
Posted 6 years agoYeah, my writing is still incredibly slow. I keep thinking I'll be able to actually make reasonable progress on stories in a reasonable time frame. It just never really seems to work out that way. Between motivation to actually write being extremely bi-polar, and when it is there, writer's block dashes that motivation to pieces sooner or later.
I just recently got a burst of motivation, and I'm FINALLY almost done with part 3 of 'A Reverse of Roles.' I realized I got it to just over 15 pages and 10,000 words, after checking the word count just before writing this journal. After putting in a few more pages and a couple thousand more words, it should be ready to proof read and edit.
Let's just say that John finally hits his stride, and becomes very comfortable being the part time baby. He'll even get his first 'big boy time' in a diaper when Jake heads out to pick up something at the store, as well as get to find out what it's like to wear a super thick diaper for the first time. The silly goof had no experience with boosters, and didn't realize just how much they added to his poof butt.
Now that that's out of the way, how's everybody doing? How was everybody's holidays and New Years. I hope there were plenty of opportunities to get in some 'Baby New Year' jokes.
I just recently got a burst of motivation, and I'm FINALLY almost done with part 3 of 'A Reverse of Roles.' I realized I got it to just over 15 pages and 10,000 words, after checking the word count just before writing this journal. After putting in a few more pages and a couple thousand more words, it should be ready to proof read and edit.
Let's just say that John finally hits his stride, and becomes very comfortable being the part time baby. He'll even get his first 'big boy time' in a diaper when Jake heads out to pick up something at the store, as well as get to find out what it's like to wear a super thick diaper for the first time. The silly goof had no experience with boosters, and didn't realize just how much they added to his poof butt.
Now that that's out of the way, how's everybody doing? How was everybody's holidays and New Years. I hope there were plenty of opportunities to get in some 'Baby New Year' jokes.
Pokemon stuff.
Posted 7 years agoI figured I might as well post my Pokemon Go trainer code here and expand the pool of fellow trainers in my friends list.
My trainer code: 4529 4174 8026
P.S. I am still working on my stories, I've just lost a bit of drive recently and my writing days have become even rarer than usual.
My trainer code: 4529 4174 8026
P.S. I am still working on my stories, I've just lost a bit of drive recently and my writing days have become even rarer than usual.
Another life and writing update.
Posted 7 years agoYeah, it's that time of year for another update on things. I guess I'll start with the fact that I'm another year older. I turned 34 this past Tuesday. One of those meh things. I only really ended up going to a local bar for a few beers to celebrate, but other than that it was pretty uneventful and just another day. I'm not a big fan of birthdays anyways, because I always feel like I'm a 30 something going on 65. It's been like that since I was in my late teens, and I never really quite understood why. I've just always felt decades older than I was, and birthdays always remind me of my progression towards the age I feel.
In just general life news, I got the ball rolling on a few things. I ended up finishing an internship program at a college, which allowed me to snag a part time job at said college. I also got the ball rolling on trying to get into a welding course to brush up on my skills, and try to get something going in terms of a welding career from there. Hopefully, within the next two years or so, I should be able to enter a really good career field with awesome advancement opportunities.
As for the writing end of things, the second half of John's second day cubbing out is about three quarters of the way done. Let's just say that I've gotten to a part where 'when big bros' are away, the "cubs" will play.' He's also gotten to a point where Jake has done such a good job slowly easing him into his cub mindset, that John is far more comfortable exploring this cubby mindset. The end of part four is gonna be sad, because John will get to the point that he might want to stay in the cub dynamic so shortly after being so hesitant about it. But, he knows he can't, because he knows Helen's current feelings on the matter.
Well, that's all I've got for now. Thanks for the favs and comments on the commissions by Fliskets I posted, and for reading my ramblings. Hopefully, now that my mind can focus a bit more on writing, it won't take me too long to finish up part 3 of 'A Reverse of Roles' in the next month or two. But if the past is any indication, I can't make any guarantees. I'll definitely try my best. though. See you guys around, here's some music while you wait.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GRXKMXV2m2A
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8eTgU-yOS60
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HCdn0zg6NDM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I7Tps0M-l64
In just general life news, I got the ball rolling on a few things. I ended up finishing an internship program at a college, which allowed me to snag a part time job at said college. I also got the ball rolling on trying to get into a welding course to brush up on my skills, and try to get something going in terms of a welding career from there. Hopefully, within the next two years or so, I should be able to enter a really good career field with awesome advancement opportunities.
As for the writing end of things, the second half of John's second day cubbing out is about three quarters of the way done. Let's just say that I've gotten to a part where 'when big bros' are away, the "cubs" will play.' He's also gotten to a point where Jake has done such a good job slowly easing him into his cub mindset, that John is far more comfortable exploring this cubby mindset. The end of part four is gonna be sad, because John will get to the point that he might want to stay in the cub dynamic so shortly after being so hesitant about it. But, he knows he can't, because he knows Helen's current feelings on the matter.
Well, that's all I've got for now. Thanks for the favs and comments on the commissions by Fliskets I posted, and for reading my ramblings. Hopefully, now that my mind can focus a bit more on writing, it won't take me too long to finish up part 3 of 'A Reverse of Roles' in the next month or two. But if the past is any indication, I can't make any guarantees. I'll definitely try my best. though. See you guys around, here's some music while you wait.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GRXKMXV2m2A
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8eTgU-yOS60
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HCdn0zg6NDM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I7Tps0M-l64
Writing update.
Posted 7 years agoI ended up deciding to break up John's first full day as the part time cub of the house into 2 parts. I'll be breaking it up at his nap time. Seeing as I'm well past the nap time part of the story and I already broke it up into the now 4 parts, all I have left to do is proof read the second part before posting it. So keep an eye out over the next few days for that to come out. That way, I can show some level of progress, and my appreciation for everyone being so patient with me.
On another writing note, I've been writing other stories along side the John and Jake series. I now have two other series' of stories started. As for one series, it is another role reversal series with a younger brother blackmailing the older brother into being the cub of the house. Eventually, it will lead to the younger brother just straight up hypnotizing the older brother and their mother over summer break. But, because both of the main characters are under aged, and there will be mild nudity for the diaper changes, I will most likely be posting this series exclusively to Ink Bunny. Even though there won't be any explicitly sexual content, I'd rather air on the side of caution with regards to Fur Affinity's AUP and the moderation team's rather liberal application of it.
The second series I've started is loosely based on an image by Poofy Dragon(it's not too hard to figure out which one.) Basically, two fox criminals are using a similar parent/kit type setup to the one used by Nick and Finnick to steal from a grocery store. A tigress figures out the gimmick, and decides to blackmail the one in the kit role to let her treat him like a kit for a few months, in an attempt to try to get her own cub potty trained. Thinking that the extra responsibility will give him the push he needs.
Well, that's all I've got for now. Thanks again everyone for being so patient with my glacial writing pace. Here's some awesome bass music for you guys and gals. See you soon. =^.^=
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PF6zKbX0HoM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=736q7M1sX48
On another writing note, I've been writing other stories along side the John and Jake series. I now have two other series' of stories started. As for one series, it is another role reversal series with a younger brother blackmailing the older brother into being the cub of the house. Eventually, it will lead to the younger brother just straight up hypnotizing the older brother and their mother over summer break. But, because both of the main characters are under aged, and there will be mild nudity for the diaper changes, I will most likely be posting this series exclusively to Ink Bunny. Even though there won't be any explicitly sexual content, I'd rather air on the side of caution with regards to Fur Affinity's AUP and the moderation team's rather liberal application of it.
The second series I've started is loosely based on an image by Poofy Dragon(it's not too hard to figure out which one.) Basically, two fox criminals are using a similar parent/kit type setup to the one used by Nick and Finnick to steal from a grocery store. A tigress figures out the gimmick, and decides to blackmail the one in the kit role to let her treat him like a kit for a few months, in an attempt to try to get her own cub potty trained. Thinking that the extra responsibility will give him the push he needs.
Well, that's all I've got for now. Thanks again everyone for being so patient with my glacial writing pace. Here's some awesome bass music for you guys and gals. See you soon. =^.^=
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PF6zKbX0HoM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=736q7M1sX48
Random furry infantilism thought.
Posted 8 years agoThis is just an interesting thought that I've been kicking around for a little while now. In some variations of furry designs/concepts, the animals are scaled to be closer to their respective size when being anthropomorphized, instead of being scaled to standard human sizes. The biggest and most well known that comes to mind, is Zootopia. It got me thinking that this application of things like height and weight, on top of the general animal aesthetics would carry over to the children of these types of universes as well. By extension it would also apply to other things, such as clothing, accessories, and well diapers.
To go into things a bit more, I wonder if say something like an adult fox fur would be similar in height and general body type to say a young tiger fur. Not necessarily an infant tiger, but more along the lines of a toddler(somewhere in the 2 to 5 age range.) This lead me down the rabbit hole that is my mind, and I started to imagine that a youth diaper for young cubs of larger fur species would be able to fit fully grown adults of smaller fur species, as well as the application of said diapers to said furs.
I don't know, it was just something that interested me. Seeing as you could have some smaller furs wearing actual baby diapers designed for babies/toddlers of larger fur species, or maybe put in them by someone of the fur species they're actually intended for, if that suits your fancy. I'm not really sure that I've seen all that much art or many stories that incorporate this kind of idea. Seeing as most people have furries scaled to standard human heights and weights instead of being scaled to the animal's proportions(with the exception of some very large species like elephants, rhinos, hippos, dragons and some macro/micro furs, of course.)
Well I guess I'll leave that odd(but not unusual coming from my mind)tangent there for now. I guess I should make a couple of additions to the end of this little insight into the unusual nature of my mind. First, I will most likely be adding some stuff to my profile page pretty soon here. Nothing huge or over the top, just some better insight into me right now, given that I haven't touched the main part of my profile page in years. Secondly, I am still writing the story, I've made a some progress recently. In fact, though it's not done, I've figured out the ending to the second part, and typed out the first few paragraphs of the third part. I'm sorry for the extreme wait, my brain works in fits and spurts, and isn't the most consistent in terms of writing.
Before you ask; yes, the main body of this journal is, in fact, canonical to the universe that John, Jake and Helen live in. But, seeing as they are gorillas I don't think I would be able to effectively apply these thoughts to their stories specifically. Maybe if I branch out and away from them, I could utilize some characters that could fit in line with these ideas. Here's some music for reading through this mini essay.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VVg1u6KqqqE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1zM860EQ7XY
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w08Dk9EGUDc
To go into things a bit more, I wonder if say something like an adult fox fur would be similar in height and general body type to say a young tiger fur. Not necessarily an infant tiger, but more along the lines of a toddler(somewhere in the 2 to 5 age range.) This lead me down the rabbit hole that is my mind, and I started to imagine that a youth diaper for young cubs of larger fur species would be able to fit fully grown adults of smaller fur species, as well as the application of said diapers to said furs.
I don't know, it was just something that interested me. Seeing as you could have some smaller furs wearing actual baby diapers designed for babies/toddlers of larger fur species, or maybe put in them by someone of the fur species they're actually intended for, if that suits your fancy. I'm not really sure that I've seen all that much art or many stories that incorporate this kind of idea. Seeing as most people have furries scaled to standard human heights and weights instead of being scaled to the animal's proportions(with the exception of some very large species like elephants, rhinos, hippos, dragons and some macro/micro furs, of course.)
Well I guess I'll leave that odd(but not unusual coming from my mind)tangent there for now. I guess I should make a couple of additions to the end of this little insight into the unusual nature of my mind. First, I will most likely be adding some stuff to my profile page pretty soon here. Nothing huge or over the top, just some better insight into me right now, given that I haven't touched the main part of my profile page in years. Secondly, I am still writing the story, I've made a some progress recently. In fact, though it's not done, I've figured out the ending to the second part, and typed out the first few paragraphs of the third part. I'm sorry for the extreme wait, my brain works in fits and spurts, and isn't the most consistent in terms of writing.
Before you ask; yes, the main body of this journal is, in fact, canonical to the universe that John, Jake and Helen live in. But, seeing as they are gorillas I don't think I would be able to effectively apply these thoughts to their stories specifically. Maybe if I branch out and away from them, I could utilize some characters that could fit in line with these ideas. Here's some music for reading through this mini essay.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VVg1u6KqqqE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1zM860EQ7XY
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w08Dk9EGUDc
Another story update, with a few questions.
Posted 8 years agoWell, I've managed to get the second part up to about 14,150 words. But because I'm not the quickest writer in the world(seriously it takes me two to four times as many words and time to write the same things as other writers it seems,) I've only gotten to a little bit after lunch time. At this point, I'm half tempted to split John's first diapered Saturday into two parts, with his after lunch nap being the splitting point. Then again, I'm not sure how much I'm going to write after his nap. There's also the fact that I'm not 100% sure I'd want to put you guys through a 20,000 some odd word chunk of story. Just a whole bunch of stuff came into my head when I realized I would easily surpass the high end of my original word count goal.
I don't know, should I leave Saturday as one full part, or split it into two? Would people be okay with having it be so lengthy, if I did keep Saturday as only one part? Should I try to condense things down?
All of this isn't even getting into my worries about how well my character progression is coming along, and whether John's growing acceptance of being treated like a giant toddler is paced out properly. As well as whether or not I'm fleshing out Jake enough as a character in this story. Does it matter how well Jake is fleshed out in this story? Considering he's going to get his own story, as a set up to this one. Also, how big of a part should Helen get as the story goes on? She will have much larger rolls in later stories, and I'm going to try to flesh her out more in Jake's story, btw. So many thoughts, questions and concerns so few answers. Oh well, I'm sure I'll source out my feelings on things in time.
Don't worry too much about this stuff if you're not sure how to reply. This journal is mostly just a means of getting thoughts out of my head. Airing out my concerns, stresses and all that. I'm too tired to put in music links right now, I'll put them in tomorrow. I'm going to sleep. Sweet dreams everybody.
I don't know, should I leave Saturday as one full part, or split it into two? Would people be okay with having it be so lengthy, if I did keep Saturday as only one part? Should I try to condense things down?
All of this isn't even getting into my worries about how well my character progression is coming along, and whether John's growing acceptance of being treated like a giant toddler is paced out properly. As well as whether or not I'm fleshing out Jake enough as a character in this story. Does it matter how well Jake is fleshed out in this story? Considering he's going to get his own story, as a set up to this one. Also, how big of a part should Helen get as the story goes on? She will have much larger rolls in later stories, and I'm going to try to flesh her out more in Jake's story, btw. So many thoughts, questions and concerns so few answers. Oh well, I'm sure I'll source out my feelings on things in time.
Don't worry too much about this stuff if you're not sure how to reply. This journal is mostly just a means of getting thoughts out of my head. Airing out my concerns, stresses and all that. I'm too tired to put in music links right now, I'll put them in tomorrow. I'm going to sleep. Sweet dreams everybody.
Feeling a bit old, and story update.
Posted 8 years agoWell, today marks the day I officially turn 33. I never really liked my birthdays past my 21st. They're just reminders of how old I'm getting, and how little I've done with my time. Plus, my body has aged about as well as milk. Joints are getting bad already, and the grey hairs have started to pop up. I can be a bit of a pessimist sometimes, I'm not sure how else to explain it. Oh well, it won't take long for me to get over these negative feelings.
As for the story end of things, yes I'm still writing it out. I just managed to get passed 11,500 words on the second part, and it's shaping up to be around 14,000 to 15,000 words. If I can get out of this funk I've found myself in, it should be done by the end of next month. But, if the past is any indicator on things, I don't know if I'll be able to hold myself to that. My brain is still in a bit of a creative funk. To those out there who are still waiting on it, thanks for your patience. I should hopefully at least finish up the second part soon, and hopefully it won't be another broken expectation from me.
Thanks for taking the time to read this, and for being patient. Have some music as reward.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ikHR0ylWRI
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_kVkNtOdM-Q
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sc3JPuajmss
As for the story end of things, yes I'm still writing it out. I just managed to get passed 11,500 words on the second part, and it's shaping up to be around 14,000 to 15,000 words. If I can get out of this funk I've found myself in, it should be done by the end of next month. But, if the past is any indicator on things, I don't know if I'll be able to hold myself to that. My brain is still in a bit of a creative funk. To those out there who are still waiting on it, thanks for your patience. I should hopefully at least finish up the second part soon, and hopefully it won't be another broken expectation from me.
Thanks for taking the time to read this, and for being patient. Have some music as reward.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ikHR0ylWRI
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_kVkNtOdM-Q
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sc3JPuajmss
I'm not sure how to feel right now.
Posted 8 years agoI very much feel guilty for taking so long to write out the second part of the story. But, at the same time I don't feel like I should. My brain tends to fluctuate wildly between bursts of seemingly inexhaustible imagination and creativity, and periods of little to no creative juices at all.
The start to writing 'A Reverse of Roles' and the resulting story lines and character arcs, was started during one of those creative peaks. Unfortunately, since then, I have retreated into one of those valleys, or low points. I don't really have much control as to when they come and go, so much as observe them as they pass, for the moment anyway. I know some people are getting a little antsy about the next part of the story, but rest assured, I'm writing it out right now. The next part is already at about 9,300 words, and I haven't even gotten to lunch time yet. At the current pacing, it's shaping up to be about 12,000 words, maybe as many as 15,000.
And yes, there will be a third part taking place on Sunday. I will also confirm that there will be messy padding in both parts, and a bath time in the third part. Although, the super secret punishment padding probably won't be used in this story arc. Although, it will be revealed in the Jake prequel, and more than likely used in the next John centered part. But, if anyone would like to know what they are before then, feel free to PM me.
I really do apologize to those who have been waiting for the next part of the story, it's just that my brain doesn't like to cooperate with when it decides to be creative. Please bear with me. I guess I'll just leave these songs here. I suppose liking songs with a bit of a Eurasian/Asian vibe would be an added bonus when listening to them.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8R6lEytvMLo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oCRe9iPpQZI
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wya1meL0Vnk
The start to writing 'A Reverse of Roles' and the resulting story lines and character arcs, was started during one of those creative peaks. Unfortunately, since then, I have retreated into one of those valleys, or low points. I don't really have much control as to when they come and go, so much as observe them as they pass, for the moment anyway. I know some people are getting a little antsy about the next part of the story, but rest assured, I'm writing it out right now. The next part is already at about 9,300 words, and I haven't even gotten to lunch time yet. At the current pacing, it's shaping up to be about 12,000 words, maybe as many as 15,000.
And yes, there will be a third part taking place on Sunday. I will also confirm that there will be messy padding in both parts, and a bath time in the third part. Although, the super secret punishment padding probably won't be used in this story arc. Although, it will be revealed in the Jake prequel, and more than likely used in the next John centered part. But, if anyone would like to know what they are before then, feel free to PM me.
I really do apologize to those who have been waiting for the next part of the story, it's just that my brain doesn't like to cooperate with when it decides to be creative. Please bear with me. I guess I'll just leave these songs here. I suppose liking songs with a bit of a Eurasian/Asian vibe would be an added bonus when listening to them.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8R6lEytvMLo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oCRe9iPpQZI
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wya1meL0Vnk
Delays... Unfortunately
Posted 8 years agoI wanted to try to release part 2 of 'A Reverse of Roles' this month, but some things have come up. First, I've been trying to quit cigarettes this month. As a result my brain and thought processes haven't been the greatest. Nicotine withdrawals are a bitch. Second, the CPU fan on my main computer decided to shit the bed. So, my computer can only be on for at most 20 minutes, before it overheats and turns itself off. If I'm not able to work things out on that, I'll just try to transfer the story to my laptop and type it out from there. Though I'll probably do it anyways in the meantime, just to try to keep up my already slow pace. In any event, it'll probably be about 2 weeks to a month before I'll be able to finish it and get it on here. Weak excuses, I know. But, just the fact that I actually posted anything, let alone having a long term story project like this one to tie over the big novels I'm writing is a big deal to me. I just don't want to let people down, and I want to try to keep people in the loop on things.
As a side note on the story, I wanted to have John be naughty and get put into his "naughty pants" in this story, but as I'm writing things out, it's not looking like it's going to happen in this one. Probably going to have to hold off on it until the next 'fun time.' But, I will be letting people know what they are when I do Jake's side of the story. So they can have a leg up on John when he does finally get punished(they're even more humiliating than normal diapees for such a big manly man.) In any event, here's some music. I hope you guys and gals don't mind classical music. Peace, love, happiness and all that stuff.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nnuq9PXbywA
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YyknBTm_YyM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3hGpjsgquqw
As a side note on the story, I wanted to have John be naughty and get put into his "naughty pants" in this story, but as I'm writing things out, it's not looking like it's going to happen in this one. Probably going to have to hold off on it until the next 'fun time.' But, I will be letting people know what they are when I do Jake's side of the story. So they can have a leg up on John when he does finally get punished(they're even more humiliating than normal diapees for such a big manly man.) In any event, here's some music. I hope you guys and gals don't mind classical music. Peace, love, happiness and all that stuff.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nnuq9PXbywA
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YyknBTm_YyM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3hGpjsgquqw
Well, I guess I'll keep going with it.
Posted 8 years agoWell, the feedback I've gotten so far has been nice. Plus, while I have a bit of motivation and some ideas shining through, I want to put them to good use. So yeah, I'm at the very least going to finish up and post the remaining two parts of the 'A Reverse of Roles' story.
After this story is done, I'll probably try to come up with something different to post, before adding to, and expanding on, John and Jake's new part time activities. The next part, most likely being a Jake perspective prequel/continuation type thing of the current story. I just figured I'd put something different between now and then. Wouldn't want people to get bored of seeing the same characters over and over again.
All in all, thank you to the handful of people that faved the first part of my story(and first actual post) and decided to give me a watch. I guess I'll do what I always do and put some music at the end here for people. If you like it, cool. If not, oh well, not everyone has the same taste in music.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ikHR0ylWRI
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w08Dk9EGUDc
After this story is done, I'll probably try to come up with something different to post, before adding to, and expanding on, John and Jake's new part time activities. The next part, most likely being a Jake perspective prequel/continuation type thing of the current story. I just figured I'd put something different between now and then. Wouldn't want people to get bored of seeing the same characters over and over again.
All in all, thank you to the handful of people that faved the first part of my story(and first actual post) and decided to give me a watch. I guess I'll do what I always do and put some music at the end here for people. If you like it, cool. If not, oh well, not everyone has the same taste in music.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ikHR0ylWRI
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w08Dk9EGUDc
A story has been written.
Posted 8 years agoWell, part of a story anyways. I wasn't necessarily planning on it being as long as it was, 8750 words, but it's written. >.> What? Don't look at me like that, I write like Hemmingway. Character development, and ample descriptions abound. All that's left to do is to go through and do a proof read, and look for errors or anything in general that doesn't quite look right story wise.
As a bit of a setup and heads up on what the story's about, a son finds out about his dad's 'little' secret. Ultimately the son sets up some things with some financial help from the mom/wife to help his father unwind after a streak of stressful days at work. It's the first day of the first weekend of crinkly activities, as told from the perspective of the dad. There's a follow up part that I have outlined in my head that's basically the rest of the weekend. I also have a few loose ideas for follow-up installments for these guys. But, all that will probably come after I see what kind of feedback I get on this initial diapered day in. They are a family of gorillas by the way, mostly because I don't think that there are enough crinkly primates these days. Also, there's more than a few clichés in this story, I couldn't help myself.
Well, that's about it for now. If you want to read it when I post it, please do. Also, some critiques would be helpful, but be respectful, and keep formal critiques to notes only. Please, and thanks.
As a bit of a setup and heads up on what the story's about, a son finds out about his dad's 'little' secret. Ultimately the son sets up some things with some financial help from the mom/wife to help his father unwind after a streak of stressful days at work. It's the first day of the first weekend of crinkly activities, as told from the perspective of the dad. There's a follow up part that I have outlined in my head that's basically the rest of the weekend. I also have a few loose ideas for follow-up installments for these guys. But, all that will probably come after I see what kind of feedback I get on this initial diapered day in. They are a family of gorillas by the way, mostly because I don't think that there are enough crinkly primates these days. Also, there's more than a few clichés in this story, I couldn't help myself.
Well, that's about it for now. If you want to read it when I post it, please do. Also, some critiques would be helpful, but be respectful, and keep formal critiques to notes only. Please, and thanks.
Ech!
Posted 8 years agoWanted to actually post some writings last year. Well, we see how well that turned out. Hopefully this year I'll actually cut down on the procrastination and actually finish something. I'm good at starting things, I just never finish anything. The last time I completed anything in terms of writing, was for my College Lit. class about a decade ago. I've ben siting on so many stories that I've never finished. Some, for over a decade!
This year, I'm actually going to try to get off my lazy ass and actually write, and(hopefully) actually finish something to post here. I think regardless of whether or not I finish anything, I should just say 'fuck it' and just post something, anything. Even if it just ends up being a snippet from one of my longer stories that have been sitting unfinished for years. For no other reason than to just get some feedback. Who knows, it might actually give me the motivation I need to actually finish something.
Here's hoping that I'll actually be productive in 2017, and actually get shit done. I'll probably come back and edit in some links to music later.
This year, I'm actually going to try to get off my lazy ass and actually write, and(hopefully) actually finish something to post here. I think regardless of whether or not I finish anything, I should just say 'fuck it' and just post something, anything. Even if it just ends up being a snippet from one of my longer stories that have been sitting unfinished for years. For no other reason than to just get some feedback. Who knows, it might actually give me the motivation I need to actually finish something.
Here's hoping that I'll actually be productive in 2017, and actually get shit done. I'll probably come back and edit in some links to music later.
Cushy Pen
Posted 9 years agoI'm just going to write out my general feelings and attitudes on the site. Keep in mind, I am not a member of the site, I have never been a member of the site and I more than likely will never become a member of the site. These are just random opinions of some weirdo on the internet, from the outside looking in. Do NOT take them to heart.
I guess the first thing would be, I'm already a member of about a dozen art and furry sites already, so my desire to join yet another one is near nil. I just don't have it in me to join even one more site, not one. Let alone, a site that I have to pay in order to fully access.
Secondly, would be the pay wall. In order to view the entirety of the site you have to pay at least $12 a month. There are two barriers for me to do so. First: I do not have the financial means to do so. Second: it gives the perception of a porn site. Though I'm fairly certain a vast majority of the content is non-pornographic in nature, the fact that the majority of sites I've come across that require you to pay a monthly fee, are porn sites, creates a bit of a stigma in my head. The rest of the pay sites come off a bit like really snobbish art sites more than anything.
The last, and probably the biggest point to me, is that there is little to no incentive for me to join the site, let alone pay the money to access everything. This again, is two fold. First, if I wanted to read stories, and view art of the content that they provide, there's at least a half a dozen sites I can think to go to, that I don't have to pay a cent to be a member(all of which, I'm already a member.) Though the quality may not be on par with what I would hope would available for what I would pay, it's made up for by the simple fact that I don't have to pay a cent to see/read any of it. Secondly, all of the art/stories on the site can be posted to other sites about a year after being published to the site(though I'm almost positive not all that can be posted, is posted.) So the only major incentive become a member, is to see all of the art when it comes out. For me at least, because all of the other stuff that seems to be offered by the site, I more than likely wouldn't participate in or use.
Again, this journal isn't meant to upset anyone. Much like my last journal, it's just a means of jotting down my personal thoughts on things. Here's some classical music, as a thanks for anyone who wasted their time reading the ramblings of some online weirdo.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zGBXA1tBiLw
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LdH1hSWGFGU
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ho9rZjlsyYY
I guess the first thing would be, I'm already a member of about a dozen art and furry sites already, so my desire to join yet another one is near nil. I just don't have it in me to join even one more site, not one. Let alone, a site that I have to pay in order to fully access.
Secondly, would be the pay wall. In order to view the entirety of the site you have to pay at least $12 a month. There are two barriers for me to do so. First: I do not have the financial means to do so. Second: it gives the perception of a porn site. Though I'm fairly certain a vast majority of the content is non-pornographic in nature, the fact that the majority of sites I've come across that require you to pay a monthly fee, are porn sites, creates a bit of a stigma in my head. The rest of the pay sites come off a bit like really snobbish art sites more than anything.
The last, and probably the biggest point to me, is that there is little to no incentive for me to join the site, let alone pay the money to access everything. This again, is two fold. First, if I wanted to read stories, and view art of the content that they provide, there's at least a half a dozen sites I can think to go to, that I don't have to pay a cent to be a member(all of which, I'm already a member.) Though the quality may not be on par with what I would hope would available for what I would pay, it's made up for by the simple fact that I don't have to pay a cent to see/read any of it. Secondly, all of the art/stories on the site can be posted to other sites about a year after being published to the site(though I'm almost positive not all that can be posted, is posted.) So the only major incentive become a member, is to see all of the art when it comes out. For me at least, because all of the other stuff that seems to be offered by the site, I more than likely wouldn't participate in or use.
Again, this journal isn't meant to upset anyone. Much like my last journal, it's just a means of jotting down my personal thoughts on things. Here's some classical music, as a thanks for anyone who wasted their time reading the ramblings of some online weirdo.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zGBXA1tBiLw
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LdH1hSWGFGU
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ho9rZjlsyYY
Not putting tags on art.
Posted 9 years agoIt's just something that I've noticed. There are some artists out there that don't put tags on their art when they upload it. Sometimes they don't even put anything in the description. As a result, it makes finding art difficult. It's probably not as big of a deal as I'm making it out to be. It's just that I know that there are artists who do this, and it makes me wonder how many other artists do it as well. I use the search tool on here and other sites a lot. So, I end up thinking about how much art I'm not able to find, simply because artists aren't taking advantage of the tags, and possibly the descriptions as well.
Sure, if you're a fairly popular artist and have a large number of watchers, followers, subscribers or whatever other terms there are, it probably doesn't effect you nearly as much. It's just that it becomes more of a hassle for people who don't watch you to be able to find you. The only reason I was able to find a few dozen artists that I watch, was by going through the watching and favorites lists of artists I'm already watching. It just seems like it would save me hours of trying to find new art and artists, if the artists would have taken the extra 5 minutes or so it takes to put tags to their art as they're uploading it to whatever site they're using at the time. As well as allowing a much larger audience, to more quickly and easily find them and their art.
That's all I really have to say about it right now. I know it's probably a bit muddled, but oh well. I've never been particularly good at writing out my thoughts. Here, have some meme music to fill the time. And remember, if the ball is too big for your mouth, it's not yours.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NYahD_uT6Lo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kY1kbCDwHIg
Sure, if you're a fairly popular artist and have a large number of watchers, followers, subscribers or whatever other terms there are, it probably doesn't effect you nearly as much. It's just that it becomes more of a hassle for people who don't watch you to be able to find you. The only reason I was able to find a few dozen artists that I watch, was by going through the watching and favorites lists of artists I'm already watching. It just seems like it would save me hours of trying to find new art and artists, if the artists would have taken the extra 5 minutes or so it takes to put tags to their art as they're uploading it to whatever site they're using at the time. As well as allowing a much larger audience, to more quickly and easily find them and their art.
That's all I really have to say about it right now. I know it's probably a bit muddled, but oh well. I've never been particularly good at writing out my thoughts. Here, have some meme music to fill the time. And remember, if the ball is too big for your mouth, it's not yours.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NYahD_uT6Lo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kY1kbCDwHIg
I'm gonna leave this plug here.
Posted 9 years agoI don't really think a whole lot of people are going to read this, but I'll leave it here anyways.
Well, there's an interesting comic being drawn and posted here that I rather like. It's being drawn and written by
You might possibly maybe remember him from his old account 
Here's a link to the journal with all the page links to his comic, and the link to his Patreon. I think it's definitely worth more than the $24/month(as of writing this) he's getting through Patreon. I'm probably gong to start throwing $10/month(possibly more, I'm not sure yet) at him pretty soon. Check it out at least the first chapter or so, and see if you like it. I know I was already emotionally invested in the main 3 character by the end of the first chapter. Just the emotional turmoil, after the initial lust wore off. http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7483466/ https://www.patreon.com/ang3l
*whispers* He's also taking commissions.
Well, there's an interesting comic being drawn and posted here that I rather like. It's being drawn and written by
You might possibly maybe remember him from his old account 
Here's a link to the journal with all the page links to his comic, and the link to his Patreon. I think it's definitely worth more than the $24/month(as of writing this) he's getting through Patreon. I'm probably gong to start throwing $10/month(possibly more, I'm not sure yet) at him pretty soon. Check it out at least the first chapter or so, and see if you like it. I know I was already emotionally invested in the main 3 character by the end of the first chapter. Just the emotional turmoil, after the initial lust wore off. http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7483466/ https://www.patreon.com/ang3l
*whispers* He's also taking commissions.
I could go on a tangent.
Posted 9 years agoBut, I won't. There's too much negativity floating around as it is for me to feel comfortable going on any sort of tangent about myself, or issues that I might feel obligated to talk about, be they social, political or personal. Be positive, and spread that positivity to others. Remember, negativity only begets further negativity. So, I'll just leave this music here for anyone who happens across it to either enjoy, or at the very least pass along to someone they think would enjoy. Peace and love!!!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qYvqDqoYXMY
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kZgX3N1XuPM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=szRouCwiCjg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qYvqDqoYXMY
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kZgX3N1XuPM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=szRouCwiCjg
My mind is slipping again.
Posted 9 years agoFirst of all, this isn't something I really expect any sort of comment on. In fact, I chose to write this here because it is the least likely place that anyone will actually read it, let alone respond to it/comment on it. Hell, I've written just under two dozen journals, none of which have a single comment, as far as I can remember anyways, some of them were written five years ago after all. I'm mostly just putting this here as a sort of vent, to get the things in my head out into the world somewhere(but hey, if you want to leave a comment, I won't stop you.)
Now that I have that out of the way, to the issue at hand. I am an extreme introvert, to the point that I tend to avoid interacting with members of my own family, just because I don't want to talk to anyone. I'm about to turn 32 in about 2 weeks, and I am currently unemployed and receiving benefits from social security disability. I'm on Social Security because my social anxiety prevents me from being able to effectively interact with people in normal conversation, let alone be able to handle even the idea of going to an interview. The extreme isolation that this has placed on me is not fun, and has not been easy.
Next, I have lost a lot of motivation recently. To the point that I have not touched, or even really thought about my stories in about a month. It's not that I don't want to write, it's that I can't focus on actually writing. I barely even leave my room. I'm in my room for about a total of 20 or so hours a day. I don't really exercise. I almost never leave the house, and when I do, it's almost exclusively to buy alcohol on Friday.
Let's just say that having all of that weighing on your mind isn't fun. In fact, it's exhausting at best, and extremely depressing at worst. I guess I just need someone in my life. Someone I can talk to, confide in, and all around spend my life with. But, it's really hard just to meet that person, when you can barely be bothered to interact with people you know, let alone people you've never met. I don't know, the mind is a terrible thing to taste. I just hope my mind will be able to avoid going into a super dark place that I never want to go back to.
In any event, take these almost incoherent ramblings as you will. I guess all I really have left to say is good luck, and I'll see you guys around(even if you don't necessarily see me.) Until then, Here's some Chrono Trigger songs.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AYQoai5jfB0
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q7tZVc8YSDY
Now that I have that out of the way, to the issue at hand. I am an extreme introvert, to the point that I tend to avoid interacting with members of my own family, just because I don't want to talk to anyone. I'm about to turn 32 in about 2 weeks, and I am currently unemployed and receiving benefits from social security disability. I'm on Social Security because my social anxiety prevents me from being able to effectively interact with people in normal conversation, let alone be able to handle even the idea of going to an interview. The extreme isolation that this has placed on me is not fun, and has not been easy.
Next, I have lost a lot of motivation recently. To the point that I have not touched, or even really thought about my stories in about a month. It's not that I don't want to write, it's that I can't focus on actually writing. I barely even leave my room. I'm in my room for about a total of 20 or so hours a day. I don't really exercise. I almost never leave the house, and when I do, it's almost exclusively to buy alcohol on Friday.
Let's just say that having all of that weighing on your mind isn't fun. In fact, it's exhausting at best, and extremely depressing at worst. I guess I just need someone in my life. Someone I can talk to, confide in, and all around spend my life with. But, it's really hard just to meet that person, when you can barely be bothered to interact with people you know, let alone people you've never met. I don't know, the mind is a terrible thing to taste. I just hope my mind will be able to avoid going into a super dark place that I never want to go back to.
In any event, take these almost incoherent ramblings as you will. I guess all I really have left to say is good luck, and I'll see you guys around(even if you don't necessarily see me.) Until then, Here's some Chrono Trigger songs.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AYQoai5jfB0
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q7tZVc8YSDY
Things to expect.
Posted 9 years agoAfter a recent conversation with 
I've decided to start posting bits and pieces of some of the stories I've been writing. I know I haven't really talked all that much about it, but I've kind of been keeping my writings under lock and key. Partially out of secrecy, partially because none of my writings are even remotely done yet, but mostly because I'm scared of the reactions and feedback I'll receive about these stories.
Another big reason why I haven't posted any of these stories is because I haven't really had a computer with any sort of word processing lately. But, that will change once my new computer shows up and I get a word processor installed on it. After that happens, I will have to go through the process of transferring what I have written in my stories from pencil and paper onto that computer. Once that's taken care of, I'll actually start posting here. It'll probably be little bits and pieces at first. Prologues and introductory pieces of exposition, that sort of stuff. That way I can try to tread the waters, and see if it would be worth while to continue posting.
Well, that's about it. Thanks again for pushing me off of my perch on the fence towards actually wanting to post my stories online. You gave me the initiative to get my poofy, padded butt in gear. If it wasn't for you giving me some positive reinforcement recently, I don't know when or even if I would have gotten the nerve to post my stories online. It went from next year at the earliest, to hopefully by the end of this year. Well, here's the full Skull & Shark album in case anyone wants to hear music based on the Dave Rapoza comic of the same name.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qYvqDqoYXMY
I've decided to start posting bits and pieces of some of the stories I've been writing. I know I haven't really talked all that much about it, but I've kind of been keeping my writings under lock and key. Partially out of secrecy, partially because none of my writings are even remotely done yet, but mostly because I'm scared of the reactions and feedback I'll receive about these stories. Another big reason why I haven't posted any of these stories is because I haven't really had a computer with any sort of word processing lately. But, that will change once my new computer shows up and I get a word processor installed on it. After that happens, I will have to go through the process of transferring what I have written in my stories from pencil and paper onto that computer. Once that's taken care of, I'll actually start posting here. It'll probably be little bits and pieces at first. Prologues and introductory pieces of exposition, that sort of stuff. That way I can try to tread the waters, and see if it would be worth while to continue posting.
Well, that's about it. Thanks again
for pushing me off of my perch on the fence towards actually wanting to post my stories online. You gave me the initiative to get my poofy, padded butt in gear. If it wasn't for you giving me some positive reinforcement recently, I don't know when or even if I would have gotten the nerve to post my stories online. It went from next year at the earliest, to hopefully by the end of this year. Well, here's the full Skull & Shark album in case anyone wants to hear music based on the Dave Rapoza comic of the same name. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qYvqDqoYXMY
