Would you lay with me, in a field of stone?
If my needs were strong, would you lay with me?

Should my lips grow dry, would you wet them, dear.
In the midnight hour, if my lips were dry.

Would you go away to another land?
Walk a thousand miles through the burnin' sand?
Wipe the blood away from my dyin' hand,
If I give myself to you?

Will you bathe me, in the stream of life?
When the moon is full, will you bathe me?

Will you still love me, when I'm down and out?
In my time of trial, will you stand by me?

Would you go away to another land?
Walk a thousand miles through the burnin' sand?
Wipe the blood away from my dyin' hand,
If I give myself to you?

Would you lay with me, In a field of stone?
Should my lips grow dry, should you wet them, dear?

Will you bathe me, in the stream of life?
Would you still love me, when I'm down and out?

Would you lay with me, in a field of stone?
Should my lips grow dry, would you wet them, dear?

was a great day, mace and i went to see cads, i had the time of my life just getting to spend time with him. i know that it's not the last, this is just the start to a great friendship.

things here are good, work has me goings nuts, but i am hanging in there, the gym is going great, it's slow and i will say seeing me with a gut is odd, but to build one must first have something to build from ,,, at least that's what the trainer keep saying lol. I'm trying to get the house together, I'm off the next few days and if i can i am trying to work out a trip to go see cads. the more he and i talk, the more i really think he's just the sweetest guy ever. he has a belly that is just yelling to be petted!!!!!!!!! OK, that's about all. be safe and be happy :)

have fun, be safe and blow something up for me !!!!!!!!!!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YsmNY9Dc7Mc&feature=player_embedded

Some say love it is a river
that drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razer
that leaves your soul to bleed

Some say love it is a hunger
an endless aching need
I say love it is a flower
and you it's only seed

It's the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
who cannot seem to give
and the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snows
lies the seed
that with the sun's love
in the spring
becomes the rose

so I'm sitting talking with friends about this, that, and a post get pointed out to me. i have always seen this site as a place where one could voice there thoughts, feeling, even vent when it's needed. i have in my time here done just such, tho not everything i post is something i have been proud of. but nothing i would take shame in. after reading this post i could not help but feel a great sadness and even a bit discussed with what i read. tho i see no need in giving names or posting a link I'd like to share in hopes maybe i can better understand why i felt the way i did. this kid, and i say kid from knowing damn well a real man would never think in such a way. has just joined the armed forces and is getting ready to head out. he's in an office and a man who is very clearly gay comes in to ask about a few things. to cut this short, the guy making this post go's along telling this story about the guy and how the hole place was making fun of him behind his back, he then points he's bi and thinks the guy needs to grow a set of nuts and stop acting so gay. but said guy posting this has tons and tons of furry gay porn on his f a.

I'd like to say this, i have grown up knowing family, friends and even loved ones who went military, made a life of it, gave there all for something bigger than themselves. giving blood, sweat, tears, and at times there life. never once from any of them did i hear that they did it just for the ones who are not gay or who do not seem gay. there jobs where done knowing that what they sacrificed was for the sake of one and all.

in every bunch there seems to be one, self hating small minded shallow person who sees nothing bigger in the world than themselves. but i ask this knowing they got such a great laugh , how would it feel to have someone there see that post and all the gay furry porn that go's along with it and your face pic ?

this is just my thoughts on what i had read. my feelings from it and me using my right to say what i think here if that upsets anyone I'm truly sorry.

We call them cool
Those hearts that have no scars to show
The ones that never do let go
And risk it the tables being turned

We call them fools
Who have to dance within the flame
Who chance the sorrow and the shame
That always come with getting burned

But you got to be tough when consumed by desire
'Cause it's not enough just to stand outside the fire
We call them strong
Those who can face this world alone
Who seem to get by on their own
Those who will never take the fall

We call them weak
Who are unable to resist
The slightest chance love might exist
And for that forsake it all

They're so hell bent on giving, walking a wire
Convinced it's not living if you stand outside the fire


Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried it is merely survived
If you're standing outside the fire

There's this love that is burning
Deep in my soul
Constantly yearning to get out of control
Wanting to fly hiher and higher
I can't abide standing outside the fire

with work, the gym and getting time now and again with friends, not much time for much more. I'm coming along, the trainer says I'm doing great. I'm starting to see some of what i have worked my ass off for but at the same point i feel like i am hitting a brick wall. guess if it where easy then everyone would push to this point. started talking with this really great fur, he's a sweet guy and one who i feel i am becoming good friends with, that's been the highlight of my week. so here go's another :) hope your all doing great :)

things here have been busy, i do have some pics of rcfm i will post soon, with work, home, the gym and trying to get time with kp as i can and spend some time with friends i have stayed busy as all get out, I'm starting show for all my lifting and jogging. I'm happy to say my chest if filling out and my arms are starting to show more growth. at times i wounder what all the work is for but then i look back and see how far i have come in such a short time. I'm really just getting started so it'll be cool to see what will be :) i thank you all for your support and i count myself luck to have such friends. that's about all for now :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OFkeKKszXTw&feature=player_embedded


omg,,, that's all i can say

the con rocked, i had more fun this year than i really should have. made tons of new friends, got to hang with some friends and all in all the weekend was great. there was very little drama and everyone of the new furs who came all said they hated leaving and would be back next year. it's odd at time looking back 8 cons ago and thinking this is what we are growing into. but it's weekend like this that make me proud to be a fur and i feel so damn lucky to have such a core group of friends that care and love me. I'm worn out and sore and heading into work today but i can say this is one happy Wolfy.

last day at work, I'll be taking the next few days off for r c f m and getting things here in order, we're talking about having a small cookout here that Saturday, nothing big, just something to do and chill. burgers, dogs, and such. can't wait to see some of you there at the con. this year should be a blast and much less drama ridden..... to any of you that will be driving, be safe on your trip and we'll see you when you get here.

here we are the last week before r c f m, works been slow, the gym has been slow, my workouts are going along i was kinda unsure about me making the con, iv been so busy with this hole rebuilding me thing , that i have not gave myself much crash time to just chill and have fun. plum talked me into going , i have the days off and all mu stuff is set. i think it will be a cool weekend. hope to see as many of you there as i can :)

here you guys go, tell me what you think

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=atBg9zLI2bA

OK so golds gym called me, there taking members in for 15 bucks down and 15 bucks a month...like HOLY SHIT!!!!!! but here is the thing, there all the way across town, and I'm never over there, i don't have anyone who would join with me and go together and work out there. but i have been in the guy. it's damn nice. chris was a member there. so shit shit shit shit shit,,,,,,, that's all I'll rant about for now.

They called them crazy when they started out
Said seventeen's too young to know what loves about
They've been together fifty-eight years now
That’s crazy

He brought home sixty-seven bucks a week
He bought a little 2 bedroom house on Maple Street
Where she blessed him with six more mouths to feed
Yea that’s crazy

Just ask him how he did it; he'll say pull up a seat
It'll only take a minute, to tell you everything
Be a best friend, tell the truth, and overuse I Love You
Go to work, do your best, don't outsmart your common since
Never let your prayin' knees get lazy
And love like crazy

They called him crazy when he quit his job
Said them home computers, boy they'll never take off
He sold his one man shop to Microsoft
They paid like crazy

Just ask him how he made it
He'll tell you faith and sweat
And the heart of a faithful woman,
Who never let him forget

Be a best friend, tell the truth, and overuse I Love You
Go to work, do your best, don't outsmart your common since
Never let your prayin knees get lazy
And love like crazy

Always treat your woman like a lady
Never get to old to call her baby
Never let your prayin knees get lazy
And love like crazy

They called him crazy when they started out
They've been together fifty-eight years now

Aint that crazy?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o9YvxH3d8LU&feature=PlayList&p=36E3DFE1398C1450&playnext_from=PL&playnext=1&index=9

things here have been very busy, my wight training and lifting are going GREAT . i have hit my first goal of 140 and i have till the end of this summer to go for 180, I'm now a 32 waist and my pants still fit a snug but that just means i need to do more swats and setups , my chest and arms are taking a bit more to fill out but the change is still something i am working for . i set out two months ago with goals that i have stuck to and with a lot of help from a great pack of friends, broth furry and in the gym , I've come a long way even, if i have a lot further to go. i want to thank all of you who have been by my side and helped me keep my goals so clear. at some point I'll post some pics up, sometime when i am a bit more happy with my arms and chest, tho i have been told by more than a few my ass looks great lol... trust me. for as skinny as i was. being told that by a guy or a gal will never get old :) i hope that you are all doing great and i hope that you are all safe. take care and my thoughts are with you all :)

p. s. thanks t j, i love the new nickname.
he was calling sandy and i had told him that just did not fit, that my name meant{ true wolf } so he started calling me tru :)

plum and night have a new baby, little girl. i can't wait to see her :)

Last night I slept in a bed of tears
But I woke up a better man
There's a space in between
Who you want and who I am
And some day baby we'll both understand
Now I could tell you that you'll be all right
And I could hold you and keep lying

One way is holding on
One way is being strong
There's two ways to say goodbye
Your tears are made of pride
My tears have all been cried
There's two ways to say goodbye

Today I decided to take the long way home
I figured that the drive would do me good
I finally feel awake for the first time
I better get home to do what's right, That's right

Cause one way is holding on
One way is being strong
There's two ways to say goodbye
Your tears are made of pride
My tears have all been cried
There's two ways to say goodbye

Now I wont tell you that you'll be alright
So please don't ask me to spend the night
Cause I don't want to hold you and keep lying

One way is holding on
Oh but I got to be strong
Either way it's goodbye, It's just a matter of time
Your tears are made of pride
My tears have all been cried
There's two ways to say goodbye

Wherever you go
Want you to know
There's two ways to say goodbye

i hope that you have a great birthday hun :)

got back tonight, the con rocked, i did not want to come home but i needed to. i want to thank tiger and all his staff for this weekend along with all my friends, you guys made this one of the best yet. i was a very bad wolfy this weekend, i drank { some } and i smoked {some} and i had a damn blast doing so and spending time just being silly and having the ones who care about me near.
night and plum where great roommates. and they watched after me to make sure i did not go to far with having fun, i got to see yoken and tons of others, spent time at the dance with KP. walked around with mace and got to talk with Cerise and his mate and hang with them just a bit. got to see sinabuin his new suit. { holey mother of all the is furry } it's got to be one of the best looking and best made i have seen in a long long time.......all in all it was a real blast and i can't wait for next year . okes time for bed. nite all

I'm packed and all ready for the weekend. KP, mace and mark are all already there, I'll be heading that way early Friday with nightwolf and plum dragon. i hope the rest of you have a safe trip getting there. I'll be back around mid day Monday or so. i wish all going a great weekend.

peace out :)

not much had been going on, Ive been working and staying busy and taking what time i can to just get out and hang with friends. the biggest news i have is that as of yesterday i am now wearing a 31 waist in pants. i have been keeping up with a mild workout along with vitamins and a protein drink 3 times a day as my nutritionist has me on. i have put 3 more pounds on in about 3 weeks, it's a bit slower but the wight seems to be staying on and lack of stress has me resting better. so all in all i am taking step by step to get in a better state, body wish, health wise and mind wise. it may not seem like much to many but seeing my old self starting to come back as i look into the mirror has been a lot of what keeps me going. after seeing how much chris had spent on gyms, trainers supplements, vitamins, and the talk of wanting to go so far as start taking steroids to get bigger i had all but got burned out on anything close to working out, but i am back and more set to what i want and who i am going to come about being more healthy. i saw that by stopping smoking that i had the will and power to change and that setting my mind would not be easy but was in my reach.and it was something i could do at my own pace. I've been lucky to have friends and coworkers that keep me on track and keep me going, thank you. here is to what will come. this is not the end. is it not that beginning of the end it is only the end of the beginning. :)