But hey here's to hopin' for the best I guess. I've had the opportunity to work a lot on my art, but that leaves my life short in other departments. it's all good though.

Hope ya'll are doin' the best that you can.

And be all "YO I'M STILL ALIVE" and then I go back into hiding after I see my shadow.

Maybe I'll be more active? Maybe I won't? WHO KNOWS. Just know I still love all of ya'll. I don't draw much furry stuff these days so I don't feel terribly welcome in the space any more, but I got fond memories!

It's no surprise that I've kinda fell out of the fandom with how inactive I am here.

I miss a lot of you and I miss the comradery that it used to bring me, but unfortunately I don't feel like I fit the fandom much any more. I use my lil' Goat sona occasionally but I've really just not been online a ton in years. I had a bad relationship that tainted my experience with the fandom and made it feel unsafe to be here.

I am actually drawing more than I have in probably 10 years. Most of it is for TTRPG stuff or stories, or video games. Not a ton of furry work, I don't really feel like I've got a place I can upload art to these days. I throw a few things up here but most of what I do has been for a very small audience of folk I know in person.

If there's interest I might start uploading my backlog here.

How is everyone?

Just wanted to clear some space.

Alright folks. I know I'm still not as active as I used to be and I'd love to be more active and I am trying. But damn if last year wasn't rough.

I hope everyone is hanging in there. These are some very uncertain times. Let's just hold out that science and good will get us through, cause this has been some utter bullshit.

But I'm not here to talk about that stuff. Not that it isn't important, but this is not what I'm here for today.

So. I'm sure my gallery looks a lot different now than it has in years. and I feel I ought to address a few things because some questions have been asked, and it's been a thing that's been brought up.

Firstly, I have split from my partner as of mid 2019. We'd grown apart as people and into different people. It happens. I'm glad that we have had the maturity to settle our shit and split. I'm a lot happier for it and feel I can throw myself back into whatever fandoms I like. Since we've split I have deleted nearly all of the art of our characters together. Sorry if anyone enjoyed particular pieces. I just can't be around them any more. They were emotionally charged pieces and it is not something I can keep around for myself.

Secondly, and this is kind of because the first. I am at this time retiring "Sarcy the donkey" from my personal representation. Not that I don't still feel a very strong connection to the character. I don't know that I could ever be totally rid of her. She was with me for nearly half my life. But times change, people grow. And If I said I was the same person I was when I was 15 or 16 I'd be a liar. I have archived most of my art featuring The Donk. I will not delete it and I may still draw her from time to time. Who knows I may even go back to her in the future. But right now I need a change.

I'm currently trying out my little Goat'sona for a spin. I fully expect her to change and grow and become more refined as I go. I was torn on creating a whole new account. New name. New 'Sona. Just starting fresh. But that's not really who I am either. Hell I still use some of the same accounts I've had since I got on the internet as a wee 13 year old.

So. That said. I hope I've answered some questions about the change in my gallery and it's content.

I hope everyone is staying safe, smart, and compassionate in these times.

I'm mostly all settled in! It's great! Nice quiet. The neighbor's got a grouchy dog, but we'll work on that.

Once I can quit being a couch potato on new, comfy furniture I will start doin' some more art! Or something.

Hope everybody is holding up well during this bizarre bit of history!

So begins the unboxing!

I've got 99% of my items moved in, so begins unpacking. Something im not particularly fond of, but making house is kind of fun.

The cats are adjusting well enough. Lots of new smells that need smelled.

Hopefully I'll be able to get some furniture soon.

I think the dust will finally settle in late April/ May. I may not be completely into the furry thing in the future, but I still want to do the art thing. Who knows.

I'll definitely have the freedom to be around though. The last ten years have seemed like one crazy bad fever dream. So I'm glad to see them come to a close and get to rediscover myself.

Man it's been a crazy ride, let me tell you!

I've got some major life changes coming up but hopefully by the new year I'll be all sorted.

Hey guys! It's my birthday soon. I've been trying to throw together one of those Amazern lists because it was requested. I don't expect any gifts but I wouldn't be opposed if I received any!

https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/.....?ref_=wl_share

I'm a cake decorator IRL, and my bakery is hella swamped and completely understaffed. I've racked up nearly 60 hours this week. Fuck my life.

Alright guys, I dunno who all  river and I share in followers these days but she had some big bad bumps in the road during her move to Texas.

She's started a pool for funds to replace her stolen equipment. It's located here with a bit more info. https://paypal.me/pools/c/8dzR5hfF6o Please if you can't give, at least share.

So all this weekend I'm gonna stream as much as I can. I'll be offering in stream Sketch commissions. Prices will vary on what is asked for. All proceeds are going to go to River's fund.

So if you can, stop in, donate, request, or just keep me company. Between work I'm likely to be working on some of my own fun stuff coming up.


https://picarto.tv/Sarcy

I may go for Saturday since it is local. Would it be worth my time?

It's been 4 years and a lot of really shitty things have happened.

Total mental and financial break downs.

That being said without a lot of details. Would there be any interest out there in seeing a return?

Sorry for the lack of heads up folks.

I've been AFK for a bit due to drama and a terrible reaction to it.

I'll be getting in touch with folks this week and hammering everything out.

FML

So, something "interesting" happened today to me. Not so much I guess that it bothered me, but where I've been doing a lot of "YAY I'M A FATTY AND I'M PRETTY AND AWESOME AND ALL DAT BIG BOOTY BODY LOVE" lately it struck me as...well...if it were some one else could be problematic.

So I ran to the smoke shop today to grab some things. Nothing we really NEEDED but, Eh whatever. So I get out of the car after I park it. Now I have this weird little thing where instead of wrestling to put my keys in my pocket while sitting in the car, I just take my leather key chain in my mouth, get out of the car, and as I walk to where ever I'm going in at I straighten my shirt/pants/jacket before I put my keys in my pocket. It's just efficient use of my hands or whatever. Okay, So you've got that mental image. I was also wearing a well worn out jean jacket, some brown ass t-shirt and some faded blue jeans that were so elegantly half tucked into my untied camouflage boots, oh! and hair in pigtails. I mean I'm dressed, I'm not a total slob but it's pretty clear I'm just roughin' it today.

Alright you've got that image, so I've got my keys in my mouth and almost get run over by these two young 20 something men who're laughing and running to their truck from the laundrymat next door. One runs just infront of me and turns so he's sure not to hit me and says "What'sup sexy?" or "Heya sexy" or something of that nature. Either way he referred to me as "sexy". Now he continues on his way, laughing with his buddy and I continue on mine I don't react because I took it as a derogatory jab at me, which whatever I know I'm not much of a looker to most folk so moving on with life I have things I'm buying and am headed home.

But afterward I got to thinking. "Sexy" is supposed to be a compliment. Now I'm not going to get into the whole woman objectification thing because that's irrelevant right now. But Yanno we tell one another that we're sexy or awesome to boost confidence or show appreciation or just in general it's supposed to be a positive term. That's cool. But something about how he said it, the laughter, the situation, my appearance makes it a negative thing. Said in Sarcasm. Because through my eyes, to him I'm not sexy. He can't be serious. Only certain people can wish to call me sexy....etc....

And then I get to thinking about how things like that have happened in the past...is this why I, myself, and other people who aren't perfect 10's don't take compliments well? Are ashamed to be themselves? Yanno, if some one calls me sexy they're being ironic unless it's this short list of approved people who can call me sexy.

And what does that say about me? He was of average build, likely played sports in highschool and has put on a few pounds since graduating. Goatee, ball cap, layered jackets, regular jeans and boots, but he can't think I'm sexy. He's not the TYPE that thinks I'm sexy. Wow, now I just put him in a little box, so what does that say about me? He's not on my approved list of people that can say that so he has to mean it negatively.

Like I said it's not so much that it bothered me, as it just got me to thinking. I really could care less if it was meant sarcastically or in ill-will or whatever. Sadly to say I'm used to it, it doesn't sting any more.

It's a lot more frightening to think he may have been serious....

But again, I felt the situation was food for thought more so than anything that really bothered me.

So tax return is coming back and tehre's a decent bit of it. Planning on building my large tower...likely getting parts this weekend or next! Which means a ton more art is gonna happen!

I'd like to get some folks on my skype to talk to during my work day. Hands free voice chatting is great for motivation. It also is just in general a good thing. I've also noticed my ability to talk intelligently has gone down hill quite a bit so I need the interaction.

Maybe this way I can stay on task and have some entertainment and be less apt to just veg and Netflix binge.

Sooo...there you are.

sarcy.weiler

EDIT:
Since someone brought it up. If you're worried about a lot of folks seeing your handle on skype if I'm streaming, never fear. I actually skype on a separate computer than where I draw/stream to keep the load off of my desktop since it limps....and also I tend to do somethings I don't want my viewers to see too, so no worries!

OKAY FOLKS!

I'm staying open for commissions. I'm going to start running it like a legitimate means of work for myself. I'll be devoting 4 days a week to art. I'll be working ~8am-3pm EST Monday through Thursday. This gives me time to get work done etc. I run errands on Friday but am likely to work occasionally a few hours on the weekend but often spend that time with family and friends.

A lot of that time will be spent streaming. Because I like to be close to my customers and have company.

I'll have more information about commission stuff coming...

But I do want to make a bit of a statement on where I'm posting my art.

Since right now my viewers are likely split between FA and Weasyl at this time I'll be posting to both sites from now and in the foreseeable future. I have my reservations about both sites and I'll explain that further in my journal posted to Weasyl.

Also I want to invite you all to watch me over there!

https://www.weasyl.com/~sarcy

There's a lot of dust overthere while I'm figuring it out.

I also uploaded quite a bit of my FA gallery there. I want people to feel at home there with me and my art and it be familiar.

Stay Tuned!

What made you choose the species of your main fursona?
Well it sort of happened when we had an assignment in art class to draw an animal we felt would represent us. I was a jackass in highschool, so it made sense.


Is your fursona just like you, or how you want to be?
She's pretty close in both aspects.


Does your fursona have the same personality you have?
She's a lot friendlier and has a lot less of the anxiety issues.


Does your fursona have the same dislikes and likes as you do?
For the most part but I've not given it that much, she's more of an avatar than an actual character.


Does your fursona look like you at all?
I'm totes legit a gray donk


Is your fursona the same gender as you, if not why?
Yeah I guess. Gender is more how you percieve yourself and I feel my 'sona percieves herself as a bit more feminine than I do myself


Do you have more then one main fursona?
Naw, I never could really do the whole dual representation.

Do you have a back story for your fursona, if so does it have anything to do with your own history?Not really.

Is your fursona mated, if so is it to your real life significant other?
I'm wedded, as is Sarcy.

If not are they looking for a mate, or are they a swinger so to speak?
Sometimes gratuitous pictures are fun.

Is there something special about your fursona that you think sets them apart from others?
Uhm....?

Do you have much art of your main fursona/s?
How ever much I've drawn plus gifts from other artists.

Would you ever consider parting with your main fursona, if so why?
I would see trading it out for something else but never give her to anyone else.

If you suit, do you have a suit of your main fursona?
Nope, but I've been tempted to make some things...

Have you ever roleplayed with your main fursona, or do you prefer not to?
Not really...

Do you consider your main fursona to be a part of you in any way?
Well like I said she's an avatar that represents me.

Our electricity started to flicker and I didn't loose any thing but I'm not going to bring it all back up again till the power seems to stabilize (yay for phones)

Til next time!

Okay guys, I want to really assess what I'm doing with my commissions so I'd like to take a range of commissions and time myself on them. Between today and Tuesday I'll be streaming periodically where you can snag a commission!

Why should you be grabbing one up?

Well starting January 1st I'll be raising my prices accordingly. I set my price list over a year ago and it needs to be adjusted like any other pay rate.

So While you can come grab a picture!

Sketches: $10
Lineart: $20
FlatColors: $30


I'll be streaming 8:00am EST Tomorrow(Sunday)

So stop on in!

The holidays are always hard on everyone who isn't super well off. Days off means cut pay, long trips to visit family means more spent on gas money...It's always rough. But you always hear these stories of people being incredibly nice for no reason other than it's the season etc...But it never seems to happen to you.

Well today I absolutely needed to buy atleast one tire. I honestly needed all four but figured I'll get two this week and two in a couple weeks. Well I showed up at the tire shop and bought my tires and took my seat to wait.

It ended up that the way they run their shop is that they have to rotate the old tires to the front and put the new ones on the back. Supposedly that's safer and keeps you from loosing control and rolling your vehicle. I don't know that I believe that...but whatever. Well it turns out that my rear tires were so bad he wasnt comfortable putting them on the front. Frankly I wasn't comfortable with that either, because if they were to blow or whatever that's a steer tire I'd loose but whatever.

So he comes to me and asks me when I planned on buying the other two tires and I told him in two weeks. He thought for a moment and told me he was going to put all four tires on for me if I promised to come pay him in two weeks. He held his hand out and we shook on it.

He had no real good reason other than concern for my safety to be doing that but I'm so very grateful. I don't like oweing people so I'm going to see if I can swing paying him next week....

It's good to know there are nice folk out there still. I do beleive for as long as I live in Indianapolis I won't be buying tires any where else, and will happily recomend the shop to anyone who's in need of rubber.

That being said I'm ready to dive back into finsihing up the few things I've got to do and handling more. With the holidays over I'll have more time.

I've also had a pretty shitty migraine for like a week and a half. It's finally subsided but it ranged anywhere from mild discomfort and sleepiness to full blown searing pain and nausea...

So yeah, I'm totally ready for more work, and I hope I can pay it forward as it comes to the fella who threw the tires on my car.

Donk has found a desk, Salvation Army pulled through this week. For the low low price of $25.

It's not exactly a computer desk...

Infact it's a heavy ass old office desk...still has a buzzer for something on it. A few drawers...but I think it will suit my needs nicely.

Also found a large as fuck shelf...I think it used to be an entertainment center...

But I'm going to use it to store all of my crafty stuff on because it's radass like that....and I have a lot of crafty stuff.

Sooo.....

Tomorrow I'm going to see about setting up my computer, seeing if I can get ALL THE DRIVERS to update...and see if my tablet still works...

And then...THEN ....

I might start monday off with a stream!

Or perhaps stream Saturday night...

I dunno....

I'M SO FUCKING EXCITE I WILL GET TO DRAW AGAIN...

Oh gods I'm going to be so rusty...

Halp....

oil can....

oil....can....

Finally feeling good and settled in. I need to start procuring some furniture. Number one on my list right now is a desk. Something I can make in to a work space.

I want to start drawing again and I need to get my computer set up for coloring etc...

I think that will help a lot with my recent depression (which is improving the more things I do that are "home-maker"ie.