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Here I Go Again, With COVID
Posted 3 years agoWell, somehow, I contracted COVID again or rather my workplace is taking precaution to be safe.
I have the starting symptoms of a cold/allergies but when I was tested twice, both showed a faint pink secondary line to indicate positivity.
So, I'm home for 5 days for quarantine...yay.
I have the starting symptoms of a cold/allergies but when I was tested twice, both showed a faint pink secondary line to indicate positivity.
So, I'm home for 5 days for quarantine...yay.
Another Crossed The Rainbow Bridge
Posted 3 years agoAs the title says, we lost our 10-year-old Rottweiler Shepard Mix yesterday morning sometime. His name was Bruin and he died at home.
The veterinarian told us that his full blood work-up came back to report that Bruin had become anemic, as large dogs like him are prone to do when they get old. He had also developed a massive tumor on his spleen, and he was bleeding a little bit into his stomach as well, it is sad that he did not go in peace as he basically was choked to death from his blood cells being attacked.
Had we known Friday when he was examined that he had a tumor that was going to kill him in such a way, we would have put him down then.
I wish that I had noticed sooner he'd lost weight, I petted or hugged him every day and yet, by the time I had noticed I felt his backbone as well as hips...it was too late. As soon as I had noticed it, I told mom and dad because I knew that they would have to be the ones to take him due to me having to work the day shift, 7am to 3pm.
I am certain he knew that we deeply loved him until the end, and I take comfort in knowing he isn't suffering anymore, that he is with his 'mom' Zayleena that we lost a few years ago due to cancer.
The veterinarian told us that his full blood work-up came back to report that Bruin had become anemic, as large dogs like him are prone to do when they get old. He had also developed a massive tumor on his spleen, and he was bleeding a little bit into his stomach as well, it is sad that he did not go in peace as he basically was choked to death from his blood cells being attacked.
Had we known Friday when he was examined that he had a tumor that was going to kill him in such a way, we would have put him down then.
I wish that I had noticed sooner he'd lost weight, I petted or hugged him every day and yet, by the time I had noticed I felt his backbone as well as hips...it was too late. As soon as I had noticed it, I told mom and dad because I knew that they would have to be the ones to take him due to me having to work the day shift, 7am to 3pm.
I am certain he knew that we deeply loved him until the end, and I take comfort in knowing he isn't suffering anymore, that he is with his 'mom' Zayleena that we lost a few years ago due to cancer.
Firework Stupidity Day
Posted 3 years agoNah, seriously, Happy 4th of July to those that celebrate it and for those don't then I hope you had fun with friends/family over the weekend. :)
Begin Anew
Posted 3 years agoI know it is late but still going to wish you all a Happy New Year, may it be better than the last.
So, I fell off the wagon...hard...in losing my sister and the holidays to follow up with that event.
I weighed in at 204 lbs this morning, that's the heaviest I have been in a while though it was completely expected.
Today, I am going to restart my diet and I do not expect this to be an easy journey.
I hope you all were able to ring in the new year with loved ones and or friends at least, maybe a few drinks if you're into that kind of thing...with some tasty snacks at least.
So, I fell off the wagon...hard...in losing my sister and the holidays to follow up with that event.
I weighed in at 204 lbs this morning, that's the heaviest I have been in a while though it was completely expected.
Today, I am going to restart my diet and I do not expect this to be an easy journey.
I hope you all were able to ring in the new year with loved ones and or friends at least, maybe a few drinks if you're into that kind of thing...with some tasty snacks at least.
Merry Christmas & An Update
Posted 3 years agoI just wanted to wish you all a Merry Christmas.
Also, I did see a counselor last Tuesday and he turned out to be a pastor from Hospice.
Honestly though, I think it was for the better because he was able to explain where my sense of guilt was coming from and helped me understand that it was okay to not be 'okay'.
He also told me that it was normal for what my family is feeling and that I just need to be patient with myself in healing.
Among these things, he said that it was okay that I don't feel pleasure or enjoy the things I used to while I am grieving and that it was okay to feel good...it was just going to take more of that feeling to overpower my sorrow for a while.
Lastly, he said that if I still felt the way I was...when grief comes over me...when it's been 6 months past losing my sissy, then it is time to seek professional help.
So, until that point in time...I'm just going to hug and cuddle the plush unicorn from my sister, hug my mom and talk to my family, and friends, if I need to.
Also, I did see a counselor last Tuesday and he turned out to be a pastor from Hospice.
Honestly though, I think it was for the better because he was able to explain where my sense of guilt was coming from and helped me understand that it was okay to not be 'okay'.
He also told me that it was normal for what my family is feeling and that I just need to be patient with myself in healing.
Among these things, he said that it was okay that I don't feel pleasure or enjoy the things I used to while I am grieving and that it was okay to feel good...it was just going to take more of that feeling to overpower my sorrow for a while.
Lastly, he said that if I still felt the way I was...when grief comes over me...when it's been 6 months past losing my sissy, then it is time to seek professional help.
So, until that point in time...I'm just going to hug and cuddle the plush unicorn from my sister, hug my mom and talk to my family, and friends, if I need to.
One Day At A Time
Posted 4 years agoIt is time to move forward, as hard as that is going to be.
I want to share my grieving with you all, as you've all been here giving support when I have needed it most.
Saturday morning, about 2am, my grief/reality hit its peak...I had just finished my alcoholic drink - Kinky: Aloha - and felt a rollercoaster of emotions all at once. Anger, sadness/despair/sorrow, confusion and lost with thoughts of wanting to go driving...nowhere in particular, just wanted to go driving.
Fortunately, I made a wiser decision and went to mom...I told her what I wanted to do, to which she flat-out said, "No...no, no you are not driving." She held me for I don't know how long and I just sobbed against her, bellowing in anguish of how life was not fair and how I wanted my sissy back. It was in this moment that I re-learned the power of soothing that comes to a child in just listening to their mom's heartbeat.
"I wondered when you would break, you've been so strong for everyone else, holding on.", she said while rubbing my back and kissing my head. I couldn't help but just nuzzle against her and just let myself cry...to finally completely and utterly let go.
It was like being a child again, she made sure I put my pajamas on and she covered me up after I had lain down, rubbing my back and petting my head until I had relaxed enough that I would sleep.
Mom wisely took my key fob with her to protect me from myself.
I want to share my grieving with you all, as you've all been here giving support when I have needed it most.
Saturday morning, about 2am, my grief/reality hit its peak...I had just finished my alcoholic drink - Kinky: Aloha - and felt a rollercoaster of emotions all at once. Anger, sadness/despair/sorrow, confusion and lost with thoughts of wanting to go driving...nowhere in particular, just wanted to go driving.
Fortunately, I made a wiser decision and went to mom...I told her what I wanted to do, to which she flat-out said, "No...no, no you are not driving." She held me for I don't know how long and I just sobbed against her, bellowing in anguish of how life was not fair and how I wanted my sissy back. It was in this moment that I re-learned the power of soothing that comes to a child in just listening to their mom's heartbeat.
"I wondered when you would break, you've been so strong for everyone else, holding on.", she said while rubbing my back and kissing my head. I couldn't help but just nuzzle against her and just let myself cry...to finally completely and utterly let go.
It was like being a child again, she made sure I put my pajamas on and she covered me up after I had lain down, rubbing my back and petting my head until I had relaxed enough that I would sleep.
Mom wisely took my key fob with her to protect me from myself.
In Mourning
Posted 4 years agoMy sister died this morning at some point, I don't know how or when exactly.
The worst part for me is I heard someone/something gasping for air or doing a lot of sneezing, I couldn't really tell as I wasn't fully awake and had been woken up in the night.
I can't help but to feel guilty of not getting up and investigating, I could have called 911 or woken my parents...something...and I did nothing, NOTHING!
I can't help but to blame myself for her death, because I am the one that brought COVID into our house...to which her boyfriend/fiancee - Carl - caught it from me and he shared a room with her...she never got vaccinated, despite us trying to urge her to do so.
The worst part for me is I heard someone/something gasping for air or doing a lot of sneezing, I couldn't really tell as I wasn't fully awake and had been woken up in the night.
I can't help but to feel guilty of not getting up and investigating, I could have called 911 or woken my parents...something...and I did nothing, NOTHING!
I can't help but to blame myself for her death, because I am the one that brought COVID into our house...to which her boyfriend/fiancee - Carl - caught it from me and he shared a room with her...she never got vaccinated, despite us trying to urge her to do so.
'Rona Got Me
Posted 4 years agoEvery year, there is a 'Girls' Night Out' thing that is held in a city nearby to me, used to be where I lived and the past two years I have gone to this event with my best friend since elementary school.
Well, this year I felt safe to go without a mask because I got the Moderna vaccine, turned out to be a big mistake because someone had the virus and I caught it since it is an airborne thing.
I tested positive today as my administrator requested of me to get tested, just to be safe since she could tell I wasn't feeling good and was 'under the weather'.
So, now I have to stay out of my work place for the next 10 days, next Friday I get re-tested and if I am negative then I can go back to work the following Monday...if I'm positive again, god I hope not...then it's another 10 days out of work for me.
Unfortunately, because my mom has been exposed to it the virus from me...she has to take the next 5 days off before going back to be tested and possibly going back to work.
Thankfully both mom and dad are fully vaccinated, my sister's boyfriend/fiancée is as well...the only that has not been vaccinated because of a childish fear of needles...is my older sister.
As of this journal, my experience with COVID has been just what feels like a severe head cold and occasional chills down my back, sore/scratchy throat.
UPDATE - 10/13/2021
Now I am going through periods of being comfortable to hot and sweaty, needing to remove my housecoat until I get cold again.
Well, this year I felt safe to go without a mask because I got the Moderna vaccine, turned out to be a big mistake because someone had the virus and I caught it since it is an airborne thing.
I tested positive today as my administrator requested of me to get tested, just to be safe since she could tell I wasn't feeling good and was 'under the weather'.
So, now I have to stay out of my work place for the next 10 days, next Friday I get re-tested and if I am negative then I can go back to work the following Monday...if I'm positive again, god I hope not...then it's another 10 days out of work for me.
Unfortunately, because my mom has been exposed to it the virus from me...she has to take the next 5 days off before going back to be tested and possibly going back to work.
Thankfully both mom and dad are fully vaccinated, my sister's boyfriend/fiancée is as well...the only that has not been vaccinated because of a childish fear of needles...is my older sister.
As of this journal, my experience with COVID has been just what feels like a severe head cold and occasional chills down my back, sore/scratchy throat.
UPDATE - 10/13/2021
Now I am going through periods of being comfortable to hot and sweaty, needing to remove my housecoat until I get cold again.
Update of My Life
Posted 4 years agoI'm still working full-time at the assisted living facility, so there's a plus.
I got to see my family that lives up north this summer like I wanted and to see Tahquamanon Falls again.
As of March this year I sold my 2004 Jeep Grand Cherokee to my best friend's mother-in-law and bought a 2018 Jeep Grand Cherokee, named Chroma.
My sister's dog, Sam - aka "Sam-Sam", "Sammy" - passed away yesterday morning and unfortunately not in a peaceful way.
I only pray that his convulsions/seizures were happening with him being unconscious and thus unaware to anything. The last time I saw him was before I left for work and his eyes were closed, his convulsions were light.
Also, my last weigh in was 184.4 pounds.
That's all for now.
I got to see my family that lives up north this summer like I wanted and to see Tahquamanon Falls again.
As of March this year I sold my 2004 Jeep Grand Cherokee to my best friend's mother-in-law and bought a 2018 Jeep Grand Cherokee, named Chroma.
My sister's dog, Sam - aka "Sam-Sam", "Sammy" - passed away yesterday morning and unfortunately not in a peaceful way.
I only pray that his convulsions/seizures were happening with him being unconscious and thus unaware to anything. The last time I saw him was before I left for work and his eyes were closed, his convulsions were light.
Also, my last weigh in was 184.4 pounds.
That's all for now.
Feast Day
Posted 5 years agoOf course, Happy Thanksgiving to those who celebrate it and those who don't, eat lots of goodies that make you happy. :)
Update from the Dragoness' Lair
Posted 5 years agoSo, it's been a while from my last journal and wanted to give you all an update of my life.
I've moved from the old crappy house into a modular home, that has its imperfections but I'm still happy with getting out of someone else's house that the owner could kick us out any time he wanted.
My last weigh in was 183 pounds, getting closer to my 140 goal.
I've gotten a pay raise at my workplace.
I still have my Jeep but the last two months it has been costing me some serious money for repairs, to be fair that are ones that are to be expected with age, currently being 16 years old.
I haven't been uploading anything as of late due to having no drive to make anything but that doesn't mean that I don't want to, the mood just has to hit me right.
I've moved from the old crappy house into a modular home, that has its imperfections but I'm still happy with getting out of someone else's house that the owner could kick us out any time he wanted.
My last weigh in was 183 pounds, getting closer to my 140 goal.
I've gotten a pay raise at my workplace.
I still have my Jeep but the last two months it has been costing me some serious money for repairs, to be fair that are ones that are to be expected with age, currently being 16 years old.
I haven't been uploading anything as of late due to having no drive to make anything but that doesn't mean that I don't want to, the mood just has to hit me right.
Goodbye Zayleena
Posted 6 years agoThis morning mom, dad and I took Zayleena; a gorgeous red husky and shepard mix - my mom's dog - to the vet as to send her to Doggy Heaven.
Zayleena was suffering from thyroid cancer, when she was diagnosed with it the vet had given her 2 weeks and we didn't want to wait that long. For the past three days we had tried to get her to eat but she couldn't hold any of it down, the last day she had thrown up water and before dad had gone to bed, Zayleena throw up yellow fluid.
It was so hard to not only get her out of the house, when she knew that something was up, but to also load her into my jeep as the sky was cloudy so we didn't know if it'd rain or not...didn't want to risk getting caught with the top down in the mustang and on our way out to the vet.
She went in peace, I never felt her actually stop breathing...I'd only realized she'd passed as to when mom motioned to me to stop petting Zayleena, along with feeling that she was cold and the vet said that Zay was gone. I couldn't help but to give Zayleena a final kiss and tell her that she was a good girl, of course saying that last goodbye before leaving the room.
Rest in peace baby girl, by the heavens I am going to miss you so much.Summer is here!
Posted 6 years agoSo, back in January I had surprised myself with unknowingly having started the journey to a healthier me and well, it's time to report in to how well I have done. :)
May 1st is when I had truly committed to becoming healthier for not only now but for the future, back then I was at 245 lbs.
As of this morning, I am super proud to inform you all that I am 214.6 lbs, little over 37 lbs have been taken off since the first of this year.
May 1st is when I had truly committed to becoming healthier for not only now but for the future, back then I was at 245 lbs.
As of this morning, I am super proud to inform you all that I am 214.6 lbs, little over 37 lbs have been taken off since the first of this year.
An Awesome Start
Posted 6 years agoI weighed myself this morning just for fun and came in at 252 lbs, while this sounds quite a lot, this is a great improvement from being over 300 lbs in 2016. While I am not as light as I really want to be, the average weight for someone of my height, I am still happy to have lost that much weight. I cannot completely give credit to my job, although that is majority to the reason of my weight loss, some credit has to be given to the prescriptions that I'm on. The medicines I take help to balance out my hormones, which is the main cause of my issues, so given enough time and making healthier choices in food...I'm looking forward to the summer. :)
Annual Merry Wishings
Posted 6 years agoMerry Christmas to all and there is nothing different that I want to wish to everyone than I had last time.
However, I do want to share some good news for myself!
I have been undergoing treatment for my PCOS - Poly-cystic Ovarian Syndrome - as of July this summer and there have been very positive results.
1. My menstrual cycles have become regular and more manageable than before.
2. My sugar/chocolate cravings have been cut in half, even when on my monthly, the cravings are far easier to control with willpower.
3. I don't feel the self-hate and depression/sadness like before and find myself loving who I am, not what or who I wanted to be.
I have also been doing an at home laser hair treatment and my facial hair's visibility has been cut drastically down to half or even an impressive 75%. Although I still have to keep doing the treatment, it is possible that in time...the laser will kill the hair completely and I will never have to worry of it becoming an issue again.
Tomorrow morning I go for an eye exam, my first one in over twenty years, hoping for good news.
However, I do want to share some good news for myself!
I have been undergoing treatment for my PCOS - Poly-cystic Ovarian Syndrome - as of July this summer and there have been very positive results.
1. My menstrual cycles have become regular and more manageable than before.
2. My sugar/chocolate cravings have been cut in half, even when on my monthly, the cravings are far easier to control with willpower.
3. I don't feel the self-hate and depression/sadness like before and find myself loving who I am, not what or who I wanted to be.
I have also been doing an at home laser hair treatment and my facial hair's visibility has been cut drastically down to half or even an impressive 75%. Although I still have to keep doing the treatment, it is possible that in time...the laser will kill the hair completely and I will never have to worry of it becoming an issue again.
Tomorrow morning I go for an eye exam, my first one in over twenty years, hoping for good news.
25th of December
Posted 7 years agoMerry Christmas to you all and I hope that your day is filled with joy.
I hope that you are surrounded by family and reminisce about times of good with those that are with you, and those that have passed.
If you don't get something that you really wanted for this Christmas but did get something anyway, be grateful for it is the thought that counts far more than the gift itself.
And, lastly, stuff yourselves silly with whatever festive feast that you have with your family and or friends! :DHolidays Should Not Be Stressful
Posted 8 years agoThis is a signal boosting for a fabulous artist - 
Jellybeanlies-Studios - anything you can offer would help her out greatly.
Rent is number one priority now.
Currently she is offering an anthro only YCH Snowglobe and may offer a feral version, if there is enough interest.
This lovely feline drew myself as a hatchling in her Chibi style, her prices are fantastic!
Jellybeanlies-Studios - anything you can offer would help her out greatly.Rent is number one priority now.
Currently she is offering an anthro only YCH Snowglobe and may offer a feral version, if there is enough interest.
This lovely feline drew myself as a hatchling in her Chibi style, her prices are fantastic!
Happy Thanksgiving!
Posted 8 years agoWell, to all that celebrate it that is and if you don't then I hope your day was wonderful! :)
I'm feeling pretty proud as I cooked my first Thanksgiving dinner all by myself and everything was hot, done at the same time!
Later tonight I'm going to have some Pumpkin or Cherry Pie A La Mode!
'A La Mode' is how we say 'with ice cream' sometimes. :D
I'm feeling pretty proud as I cooked my first Thanksgiving dinner all by myself and everything was hot, done at the same time!
Later tonight I'm going to have some Pumpkin or Cherry Pie A La Mode!
'A La Mode' is how we say 'with ice cream' sometimes. :D
Does Anyone Know...
Posted 8 years ago...someone on Skype with a username of aaron.rowell27...?
Currently, I have not done anything with the request, not yet.
Honestly, the first name sounds like a scammer I heard a while ago about and I have never reached out to this individual.
I have no idea who he is nor how he got my Skype as it is not publicly listed and with good reason.
Currently, I have not done anything with the request, not yet.
Honestly, the first name sounds like a scammer I heard a while ago about and I have never reached out to this individual.
I have no idea who he is nor how he got my Skype as it is not publicly listed and with good reason.
A Week(ish) Late for A Hatchday Gift, But I Accept
Posted 8 years agoToday, my boss asked me to cover a day shift on Friday and I agreed to it since I could use the hours anyway.
Less than ten minutes later, my boss calls me again and tells me to come in earlier than I normally do...there is only a couple of reasons to why I could think of her wanting me to come in earlier than usual and I know one of them is not to fire me.
The administrative lady; one of the bosses of my boss, brings it to my attention that I have worked over 32 hours per week, for the last 8 weeks in a row...meaning, by labor law, they have to make me full-time.
At first, I was stunned to this news as I honestly did not foresee me becoming a full-timer until one of the current ladies quit and that was maybe at 5 years, at the earliest. However, it quickly sunk in that all the times I covered for people and came in to when my boss asked of me, when she needed me the most, it had finally paid off. My devotion and joy of what I do every day at work, has finally shown through to prove that I want to be there...that I am worth being invested in, to keep for good.
Now, unfortunately, the benefits of being officially full-time don't start until about August 1st, but that's not too far away now is it? I can wait a few more days, that's going to fly by compared to the over a year's worth of proving I am dependable and if I'm not coming into work, there's a damn good reason for it.
The administrative lady also mentions that there haven't been complaints against me, but more so she has heard me say things that come off as "abrasive" or "sassy", I guess there things that the residents don't particularly care for.
I try not to be either of these things or rude even, I have been more consciously aware to what I say to the residents and how I say them, which I did mention this to the administrative lady. Yet, I cannot think of any direct moments that she might have been referring to...I explained that it is hard for me to switch my brain from, "Talking with the boss so whatever, as long as it's not against company policy." to "Oh, wait, I probably shouldn't say this or that."...and going back and forth.
I suppose that this means I am going to have to just be even more consciously aware and be more careful, restricting my responses to maybe just, "No ma'am/sir", "Yes ma'am/sir" or "You'll have to talk to my manager about that." I have fought so hard and long, almost begged to become a full-timer, I DO NOT want to take ANY risk in screwing this opportunity up.
Less than ten minutes later, my boss calls me again and tells me to come in earlier than I normally do...there is only a couple of reasons to why I could think of her wanting me to come in earlier than usual and I know one of them is not to fire me.
The administrative lady; one of the bosses of my boss, brings it to my attention that I have worked over 32 hours per week, for the last 8 weeks in a row...meaning, by labor law, they have to make me full-time.
At first, I was stunned to this news as I honestly did not foresee me becoming a full-timer until one of the current ladies quit and that was maybe at 5 years, at the earliest. However, it quickly sunk in that all the times I covered for people and came in to when my boss asked of me, when she needed me the most, it had finally paid off. My devotion and joy of what I do every day at work, has finally shown through to prove that I want to be there...that I am worth being invested in, to keep for good.
Now, unfortunately, the benefits of being officially full-time don't start until about August 1st, but that's not too far away now is it? I can wait a few more days, that's going to fly by compared to the over a year's worth of proving I am dependable and if I'm not coming into work, there's a damn good reason for it.
The administrative lady also mentions that there haven't been complaints against me, but more so she has heard me say things that come off as "abrasive" or "sassy", I guess there things that the residents don't particularly care for.
I try not to be either of these things or rude even, I have been more consciously aware to what I say to the residents and how I say them, which I did mention this to the administrative lady. Yet, I cannot think of any direct moments that she might have been referring to...I explained that it is hard for me to switch my brain from, "Talking with the boss so whatever, as long as it's not against company policy." to "Oh, wait, I probably shouldn't say this or that."...and going back and forth.
I suppose that this means I am going to have to just be even more consciously aware and be more careful, restricting my responses to maybe just, "No ma'am/sir", "Yes ma'am/sir" or "You'll have to talk to my manager about that." I have fought so hard and long, almost begged to become a full-timer, I DO NOT want to take ANY risk in screwing this opportunity up.
32 Today
Posted 8 years agoIt's my hatchday and I honestly have no plans for myself, but I am going to go out for breakfast with parents as a small celebration. I may even get myself a little cake with some ice cream, just a small treat for making it through another year. XD
Jeep Update
Posted 8 years agoI figured it was time to let all you know, those that don't anyway, how things are coming along with repairs.
DONE
* Cruise Control fixed - this is possibly the thing I was most excited to have done, it's hard to keep your foot steady on the gas when you've worked a long shift or are just tired.
* Exhaust leak fixed - "Pearl", the name of my jeep, was getting a bit noisy, turned out she had a dime sized hole in the Y joint of the exhaust system.
* Header panel repaired and headlight adjustments done - my headlights point outward again, instead of one pointing down at the road!
* Heater control leak fixed - meaning I can warm my toes in the winter and my air conditioner works like it's supposed to!
* Driver side foglight fixed - turned out it was just the bulb and not the wire being corroded like I figured.
* Driver side door seal fixed - damn thing kept falling down, turned out it just needed to be pushed back to where it belonged.
* Rear wiper motor replaced - I can see out my rear window when it's raining hard or snowing in the winter again!
* Driver side wheel bearing replacement
* Brakes - pads and rotors, been a few years so it's time.
* Driver side window - won't roll up or down, motor sounds like it's still working though...just may be off track or the suction/plastic bar thing is broke. Turns out the motor was shot and I just decided to have the motor and regulator replaced, made more sense than doing half of the job.
* Passenger side mirror - just the glass part.
FUTURE REPAIRS
* Oil change, every 5000 miles
* Driver side/all speakers replaced - just the driver side doesn't work all the time, but if I'm going in for one speaker then why not a whole set for everything to match, right?
* Center console replacement/fix - my sister's dog somehow managed to make a hole in it and she's never going to have the money to fix it so I have to take matters into my own hands.
* Re-upholstering the seats - mainly the driver side as I was stupidly smoking at the time, a hot butt and not the good kind, got sent flying behind me. The still lit ashes landed in the upper back of the seat...as well as my own, fortunately I only got a first degree burn but it was a bit of a 'wake up' call to how dumb smoking was.
* Gas tank cover replacement - not necessary but just nice to have.
* Hitch receiver installed - so I can have a hitch on the back of my jeep, seems to be effective in stopping jerks from tailgating.
* Underbody repair - this is going to be next to the last thing, as long as I can help it...as it is going to be expensive and be time consuming.
ULTIMATE END GOAL
* Paint Job - I have no doubt that this is going to be the most expensive thing and will take the most time to complete, I don't know if I will ever be able to do it but it is a final goal for obvious reasons. When the time eventually comes, I do not know...as of now...whether I am going to just have her repainted to her stock coloring or get something more personal, to mark her officially as my own. Or, if I will simply have her repainted to something true to her name, or even something just to tribute to the aforementioned labeling.More Tracking - Gifts Received - THANK YOU ALL!
Posted 8 years agoI've come to realize that I have gotten a lot of gifts from people and so want to keep track of it all!
2013
Jan. 24th Gagged, bound and plowed in a warehouse somewhere!
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Jan. 20th First time trying out pony gear, well...being seen in it anyway, with other caught critters.
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Mar. 14th Close-up of a pendant on a special necklace.
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Mar. 24th Kimera teasing that she wants to be mounted.
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Apr.1st Gagged, bound and ridden by a yellow lizard named Casa.
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Jun. 2nd Modeling for the folfess, having a big grin underneath my muzzle!
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Jun. 4th The BEST present I could have ever asked for!
by - as of this day, my official Mistress.
Jun. 11th Coral, my Torpedo, hanging out with some of her sisters/friends.
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Jun. 24th A profile picture of Coral.
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Jun. 29th The eggs of Casa and I's kinky fun.
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Jul. 4th Me taking a nice nap.
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Jul. 5th Mistress and I cuddling together.
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Jul. 15th (my actual Hatchday is the 14th) The debut of my annual Hatchday Sack, a full twenty-four hours I am kept inside and sustained with goodies.
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Jul. 15th Performing tests for Mistress' company.
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Jul. 17th Here I am modeling the Cuddle Suit for a partnership between LatexCorp and Folf Inc.
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Jul. 21st My dragonesses getting themselves into trouble with spider silk!
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Jul. 27tht I was recruited by a soldier to model a set of Drakean armor.
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Sep. 21st The first picture of the hatchlings with their mom and dad.
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2014
Aug.4th Master Ele about to mount me, like a good girl.
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Dec. 14th Somehow I ended up being caught in a carousal trap and now I'm part of it!
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2015
Jul. 18th Aku answering my first meme. THANK YOU!
2016
Feb. 9th Oh no, I've fallen into a latex pit trap!
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Apr. 3rd A prize from MistressMissingno's contest, myself - the human me - becoming an old Pokemon character of mine.
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May 26th Another prize from MistressMissingno's contest, this time a human becoming an Arbok!
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Sep. 1st A new pony suit with fresh tack equipped and my fellow pony-play loving pet-mate, Bel, with me.
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Dec. 9th A sweet picture of myself and my friend in pastel onesies, curled upon a plush cushion for a nice nap.
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2017
May 27th This isn't so much as a direct gift but it counts as it features my yellow Chimeric having been fully converted into a royal guard.
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Dec. 7th A gifted headshot for boosting a friend's journal.
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2013
Jan. 24th Gagged, bound and plowed in a warehouse somewhere!
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Jan. 20th First time trying out pony gear, well...being seen in it anyway, with other caught critters.
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Mar. 14th Close-up of a pendant on a special necklace.
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Mar. 24th Kimera teasing that she wants to be mounted.
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Apr.1st Gagged, bound and ridden by a yellow lizard named Casa.
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Jun. 2nd Modeling for the folfess, having a big grin underneath my muzzle!
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Jun. 4th The BEST present I could have ever asked for!
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- as of this day, my official Mistress.Jun. 11th Coral, my Torpedo, hanging out with some of her sisters/friends.
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Jun. 24th A profile picture of Coral.
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Jun. 29th The eggs of Casa and I's kinky fun.
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Jul. 4th Me taking a nice nap.
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Jul. 5th Mistress and I cuddling together.
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Jul. 15th (my actual Hatchday is the 14th) The debut of my annual Hatchday Sack, a full twenty-four hours I am kept inside and sustained with goodies.
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Jul. 15th Performing tests for Mistress' company.
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Jul. 17th Here I am modeling the Cuddle Suit for a partnership between LatexCorp and Folf Inc.
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Jul. 21st My dragonesses getting themselves into trouble with spider silk!
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Jul. 27tht I was recruited by a soldier to model a set of Drakean armor.
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Sep. 21st The first picture of the hatchlings with their mom and dad.
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2014
Aug.4th Master Ele about to mount me, like a good girl.
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Dec. 14th Somehow I ended up being caught in a carousal trap and now I'm part of it!
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2015
Jul. 18th Aku answering my first meme. THANK YOU!
2016
Feb. 9th Oh no, I've fallen into a latex pit trap!
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Apr. 3rd A prize from MistressMissingno's contest, myself - the human me - becoming an old Pokemon character of mine.
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May 26th Another prize from MistressMissingno's contest, this time a human becoming an Arbok!
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Sep. 1st A new pony suit with fresh tack equipped and my fellow pony-play loving pet-mate, Bel, with me.
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Dec. 9th A sweet picture of myself and my friend in pastel onesies, curled upon a plush cushion for a nice nap.
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2017
May 27th This isn't so much as a direct gift but it counts as it features my yellow Chimeric having been fully converted into a royal guard.
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Dec. 7th A gifted headshot for boosting a friend's journal.
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One Year Later...
Posted 8 years ago...well, it's actually later than that but, oh well! XD
I received my yearly review today, my first work day was 04/20/2016.
Not only has my manager said that I have come a long way from where I had started with most marks being average, with a few above average...some below average, so I need to work on those...I am going to be given a raise!
When I see her again, I'm going to ask her for a copy of my review, just something to look at and remind myself of what my goal is, to become more consistent. Some days I get ahead of work schedule, in what I'm supposed to do...while some days I'm right on the mark, but some days I'm behind of where I should be.
She also said that I am a bit negative, sometimes too hard on myself when things "don't go right", but I thought of it as just my nature in having hard work ethics and wanting to do my best. And, sometimes I come off as "abrasive", although I obviously don't mean to and I didn't even realize that I was! I guess that's something I'm going to have to be more conscious of, when interacting with the residents.
Finally, she mentioned that I needed to have more confidence in my abilities and that was another thing that I had thought I was doing fine on, I see something that needs to be done...then I do it. Or, if I'm not sure on something then I ask before I do whatever it is that I want to do and I just perceived that as making sure I wasn't using something that was needed/intended for something else.
I received my yearly review today, my first work day was 04/20/2016.
Not only has my manager said that I have come a long way from where I had started with most marks being average, with a few above average...some below average, so I need to work on those...I am going to be given a raise!
When I see her again, I'm going to ask her for a copy of my review, just something to look at and remind myself of what my goal is, to become more consistent. Some days I get ahead of work schedule, in what I'm supposed to do...while some days I'm right on the mark, but some days I'm behind of where I should be.
She also said that I am a bit negative, sometimes too hard on myself when things "don't go right", but I thought of it as just my nature in having hard work ethics and wanting to do my best. And, sometimes I come off as "abrasive", although I obviously don't mean to and I didn't even realize that I was! I guess that's something I'm going to have to be more conscious of, when interacting with the residents.
Finally, she mentioned that I needed to have more confidence in my abilities and that was another thing that I had thought I was doing fine on, I see something that needs to be done...then I do it. Or, if I'm not sure on something then I ask before I do whatever it is that I want to do and I just perceived that as making sure I wasn't using something that was needed/intended for something else.
Senpai, Has Noticed Me
Posted 8 years agoOkay, technically my manager at work but busting my ass off and doing my job, has rewarded me.
I received a call from my manager with possibly the best news I could ever hope for in being a part-timer (short of becoming a full-timer), starting the 30th my hours are going to be guaranteed at 28 a week.
I shed tears of absolute joy, even now my eyes well with the disbelief of not having to worry about my hours anymore, and relief in knowing that my hard work ethics have given me the reward I so sought for.
Even so, I am going to continue to work hard and remain dependable to cover shifts, the very thing that has gotten me to this point.
I received a call from my manager with possibly the best news I could ever hope for in being a part-timer (short of becoming a full-timer), starting the 30th my hours are going to be guaranteed at 28 a week.
I shed tears of absolute joy, even now my eyes well with the disbelief of not having to worry about my hours anymore, and relief in knowing that my hard work ethics have given me the reward I so sought for.
Even so, I am going to continue to work hard and remain dependable to cover shifts, the very thing that has gotten me to this point.
