I have the worst luck ever!

So my computer was acting up towards the end of the year. For the most part, it wasn’t a problem, I would just have to wait for the thing to boot up and then I could work on all my work. It would only take about 2 hours so I would turn the thing on and then walk away for a bit. That was going on for a while and it didn’t really bother me until it started getting worse. After a while, the computer would take 3 hours to warm up, then 4, and then it got all the way up to at least 5 hours. It was crazy, it would lag and then I would try to work on art and the programs would just lag so badly that it would freeze everything. So unless I waited for it warm up completely, then it would just freak out and nothing would come out right. I would turn it on before work and then come home to it and everything would be great. But then it got worse.

I went to go work on my art work and I couldn’t even get my programs to load. I would open up Sai and then it would freak out and shut down the program. Other times it would load and then after a period of time it would freak out again and crash. I was losing all my progress on my sketches and line work and it was awful. I was even trying it in Photoshop and the same thing was happening. I couldn’t get any of my work done and I was losing all my progress. It got to the point where I couldn’t work on anything but I didn’t have enough for a new computer. Then my cousin approached me, he’s an I.T man at offices and works on building computer for a living. He told me he would fix it up for me and get it back to me as soon as possible. Said he would have it back to me in a few days. That was in December……..So I waited for it but shortly after a week was up, HE TOOK OFF TO HAWAII AND DIDN’T TELL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!

When I contacted him, he told me that I would get it as soon as he got back from visiting his family. Told me it wouldn’t be long. So I waited and waited and waited and nothing! It got to the point where I was getting so angry and I didn’t know how to contact people that ordered pieces from me. I put all my contact info and orders in my computer and threw out the paper form (I know, that was really stupid of me, learned my lesson). So then I went to log on to my websites by my phone because I didn’t have access to a computer but every time I did that, my phone would just crash and shut itself off. IT WAS SO FRUSTRATING!!!!

So I finally just got my computer back yesterday. He had to wipe the hard completely clean so that he could get it to work. He saved all the files that I had on a backup drive so I didn’t lose a lot of things but some stuff didn’t transfer over right. I spent the last day working on getting my programs up and running so that I could get back to working on my artwork. For those of you waiting on things, I am truly sorry and I’m working on getting those to you right away.

I’M SO SORRY EVERYONE!

Hey everyone, just shooting a message to let you know that classes are finishing up and that I won't be tied down with school anymore.

What I didn't know was that my classes were ending right after MFF (my teachers really such an informing us about that until last min >.> ) so I had to scramble a bit to get my work done. Because of that, I wasn't able to get to my orders and I'm really sorry about that.

But...

Now that I don't have any projects to worry about and I somehow got next week off from work (not the weekend but the days) I have all this time to buckle down and get orders done. So everyone that bought a commission from me, you'll be getting notes and progress shots from me in the next couple of days.

I just want to thank you all for being so patient, you all rock!

This took a bit longer than I thought but I'm finally set up and back to working on art after the wonderful weekend of MFF.

Let me just say that I was completely blown away by this con. I never expected it to be this crazy and wonderful and a whole bunch of other things. I got to meet so many new people and some familiar faces and it was a pleasure the whole time! To anyone that stopped by and took a card or even just asked questions, you really made the con for me and it was amazing. And to everyone that ordered something, it's a pleasure and an honor to be given the chance to make all this art for you. I hope to not keep you waiting long and I hope you all know that this really means a lot to me.

I'm back to work now so look forward to lots of posting from me in the near future *^-^*


ALSO, COMMISSIONS ARE CLOSED SO THAT I CAN CATCH UP ON ORDERS FROM MFF!!!!

I will post again when I will be open but I won't take anymore until all these wonderful peps get their stuff first.

I JUST WANT TO SAY THANK YOU TO EVERYONE THAT'S FAVED ANYTHING OF MINE IN THE LAST COUPLE OF WEEKS. IT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME AND IF I COULD I WOULD THANK YOU ALL PERSONALLY LIKE I ALWAYS DO BUT TIME HATES ME RIGHT NOW SO JUST KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!

So when it comes to the world, it seems like I've fallen off the face of the planet sometimes. Work and school have really been eating up my time along with trying to better my life (been working out like crazy). Shit has been bouncing off the walls and I haven't been able to do much outside any of those things. But this weekend is different.

This weekend is MFF and I've put the rest of my stuff on hold (actually no but I've worked it out so I made time for everything) and I'm going to be there. I'm gonna be in artist alley again so it won't be hard to find me, I'll be in one place for most of the days lol.

So come on by and say hi or order a piece or two. Get me back into the spirit of drawing because I miss it and I would love to meet all of you!

Can't wait to see you all. *^-^*

So if any of you have been wondering where I've been at, I just finished up my finals for school for this quarter. I'm still waiting on a grade but I passed my other classes with A's. I worked really hard and I did what I could to do well in the class (I could have always done better but time @.@). Had a story boarding class and for the final we had to do an animatic. If anyone is interested in seeing it, you can go here. It's not my best work but I did what I could for the time.

http://youtu.be/qK4Ezk4xZH4

Oh, and FYI, I do the voice work for the female role (a friend of mine helped me out for the guy part).

I'm off this week so I'll be working on art. Got a commission I'm finishing up with and a kiriban on the way. So look forward to more things from me *^-^*

During the time when FA is down, you can either contact me through email or my other sites.

Deviantart: http://sarieu.deviantart.com
Tumblr: http://sarieu.tumblr.com
Email: sarieu45459[at]gmail.com (use this for commission purposes only)

Also, on September 12th, it's my 23 birthday. It kind of came up on me fast and yeah. Wish the site would be up but I guess since I'll be in class all day, not much to do anyway. Back to arting, finishing my final and then back on to working on other things.

Hey everyone, I guess with me not being on here everyone forgot about my Kiriban. I apologize for that. I always want everyone to have a chance to win a free sketch so I'm moving the number up to 16,100. That way everyone has a chance to catch it. So look out for it and the first note with a screencast gets it! *^-^*

So I finally caught up on my commissions from past due and even though I finally found a job, I still have a bit in bill pile up. So it'd be nice to get some business in and stuff to work on.

My birthday is also coming up and I was thinking of doing something nice (but only if people wanted me to) so I was thinking of having a commissions sale. Maybe offering deals on prices or offer head shots or something for a low cost. Only for a short period of time (like a week or so), but I'm not sure.

I'd liked some feed back on everyone's opinion. Would that be something you guys are interested in? Is it worth me doing?

And you guys are awesome, if you could keep spreading the word, this artist needs business and it would really be appreciative!

Most of you are probably wondering why I haven't posted stuff up yet, well, it's because I'm at my midterm point in classes. I forgot how much these suck but I'm doing my best. So far I'm doing a pretty good job on everything and I'm keep up with my grades and my assignments. I'm actually doing really well and my classmates love my work. My teachers also love what I can do and what I bring to the class. School may be hard, but it's always been rewarding for me.

But in regards to posting, I'm working on getting some pictures done. Gonna be spending a lot of time working on stuff for conventions but I'm doing my best to post a lot on here too. Really trying to get better with my animals so you'll see lots of that from me. That and commission pieces lol.

I've also gotten back into watching anime. I forgot how taxing it is on my soul to be emotionally involved with a show that comes out once a week. My heart can't take it and it's so hard not to hunt down spoilers. All the feels! But it's really been pushing me to progress with my story. So I'm planning on working out stuff for that. This is something that I eventually hope to create and share with the world. We all have something we want to be and I want to be a manga artist.....even if I'm a white girl from Illinois XD

In other news, so after hunting around, I finally got a job at the casino near my house. It has a lot to do with customer service and that's something that I've had plenty of experience with. The thing you have to remember is that no one is perfect and you're always going to have problem guests but nothing is personal and in the end you can just walk away from it. Because you don't know these people and you're better than that, so there's your life lesson for the day. But even though I just got a job, I still have bills and commissions would be great. I am open so if there's that something you want, why not place an order. I'm not that expensive.....am I? Either way, help and artist out or promote me cause I need the monies XD

As always, if you have questions, please send me a note or whatever. I know I haven't responded to my messages yet, but I shall be doing so this week. Gotta clear them out and such. Stuff really piles up when you work on homework lol.

Hey everyone, been away for a bit but I'm back. Been working on getting back into school (which I am now) and other things. But while all that happened, I no longer have a job. I'm still looking but in the mean time, I have no form of income and my bills are getting pretty high. So I've caught up on my work and I can open again. ( I'm working on yours right now and I'll have the sketch for you really soon, so sorry for the long wait).

So if you're interested, you can find all the information here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1296266/

If you're not looking to get right now but you know someone else is, then pass it along. Thanks again for you time everyone, you're all so great >w<

Back arting. The other journal was too long so this is shorter. Working on commissions, be done soon, only two left.

As many of you have noticed, I have been extremely inactive as of lately on this site. I would just like sincerely apologize for my absent for such a long period of time. I did not intent to be away for so long, I actually had no intentions of being away period. Though things tend to always try to work me it would seem. But as I was saying, I just want you all to know that I offer my most earnest apology. I know many of you are waiting on me and I have kept you waiting for so long with no words of when I would show up next. I am so sorry for this! I know how angry you must be and I do not blame you for such, I understand what it is like to be waiting to hear from someone and they just seem to disappear. I never intended to do so but I did and I am so ashamed for my recent actions. I did not intend for this to happen but it did and I take full responsibility for this cause.

For those of you in particular that are waiting for commissions pieces, I will be contacting you shortly in regards to your orders. I have not forgotten them and I have them all document. If things need to be fixed up or however they need to be altered, we will talk about them through notes.

For anyone who is wondering as to why I have been so inactive as of lately and why I have not been drawing, this is the part you should read.

As soon as I came home for my trip from MFF, I closed all of my commissions so that I could focus on all the orders that I received there. I was not going to take on any more pieces because it would not be fair to work on other orders until I finished what I have to do. I started working on them but shortly after, I fell ill with the flu and was unable to continue with my work for a longer period of time than expected. I was eventually able to recover and I started getting back to work but that is when things started to hit the fan over here.

My family has always been an interesting one, full of love but at the same time it is hard for us to get along sometimes. But shortly after I got back from MFF, things started to get serious around here. I’m going to sort of be vague here but I’ll share a little.

We all began fighting……a lot. The fighting got to the point where I could not even stand to be in the house anymore. But the only place I was able to escape to was either work or to be with my boyfriend. Work has become a soul crushing place and sometimes I just felt I was not welcomed at my boyfriend’s place because of reasons. Everywhere I went, things just crumbled around me and I was unable to keep the cheerful outlook that I normally have when it comes to life. I tried my best but it was a chore just to get up in the morning. Then it came to the point where my father told my sisters and me that things did not look good and that if they were not fixed, my father was going to sell the house and kick us all out. He told us to be ready to leave.

I felt like I was being abandoned by my family. I know that unfortunately, it happens to people, but I grew up with lots of love and surrounded by family. But it felt was though it was all disappearing. I did not know what to do, so I tried to turn to the people but I felt that no one wanted to be bothered with my trivial life.

I could not figure out what to do, so I panicked, I freaked, and I broke down.

I lost my ability to draw, I was unable to even pick up a pencil, and I was unable to do anything. All I could muster up was pulling myself out of bed and going to work so that I could make enough money and my minimal paying job so I could pay the bills so I would not be kicked out sooner. I cried myself asleep a lot in the beginning and I just sat there staring at my tablet or paper and I tried, I really did, but I was unable to draw anything. It hurt so much because that was what I felt could save me in some way. But I just could not do anything.

This went on for the last few months.

I was looking for anything to get me draw. I was looking through images to become inspired, I tried bettering my life to bring up my spirits. I tried drawing but I could not bring myself to like anything past a few stroke lines. I felt so ashamed of myself for not even being able to sketch, I COULDN’T SKETCH! I felt so humiliated, especially around the people that I was looking for motivation from. An artist who could not even sketch a few lines, it was a joke and it hurt.

But I was not going to give up, I could not give up on myself. And the thing is I didn’t.

I am not sure how I did it, but I am drawing again and I cannot explain how happy I am. I kept doing everything I could to try to fix myself and I somehow found a way. Though I feel that the support and push from my boyfriend is really what helped in the long run. It feels that some days, he’s the only one that really seems to care. I know many others do, but it is funny how strangers tend to be more supportive of me lately than the people I things are close to me. It has been so long and I feel complete again.

Things are starting to get better but there are always going to be wars fought and wounds that need to heal. But it takes time and I’m working on that too. Right now, I am well and I am taking care of myself. I cannot let this happen again because I really felt that part of me died when this happened. Long story short, depression is a bitch and it will do a number on you.

Sorry for the long read. I am better now and I am back stronger. So sorry for the wait, I am working to catch up on all my late work. And as I stated before, I have not taken on any other commission work so that I can be fair to those of you who are waiting. I am sorry for the wait and I can hope you forgive me. Though it will be much easier for you to forgive me when I finish up your commission pieces. It will not be long now, I am working hard to get them done.

Once again, I am truly sorry for all of this but I am back and here to make amends and make sure everything goes right.

So I had a kiriban on here but because I forgot to mention it, I guess everyone missed it XD

But since I have so much to catch up on orders, I'm not going to do a second go at it like I normally would. So you will all have to wait for the next one to come up.

NEXT ONE IS 16,000 SO DON'T MISS IT!!!!

Hey everyone, I'm back from MFF and and I had a blast! It was wonderful meeting all of you that stopped by to say hi and I'm glad we got to chat it up a bit. If I talked your ear off, I'm so sorry, I just tend to be chatty.

As for how the con went, we did so much better than I thought we were going to do. But also with that, I have taken quite a few pieces of work that need to be done now. So because of that, I will be closing commissions until I have caught up on the workload. I don't feel it's right to take on any more orders until I have finished all the work that everyone is waiting for. So for those of you wishing to order something from me, sorry but you'll have to wait a bit while I take care of everyone else. No worries, I'm doing what I can to get a least 1 piece done a day. I don't want anyone to wait too long for their stuff. Because waiting sucks XD

So I will be contacting everyone and making sure that I have your orders down and exactly how you want them. I also forgot to ask a few questions for some of you so I will be clearing that up as I note you all. So that might be a bit but I'm working hard to get them all done. But if you have any questions or changes, please feel free to speak up and I'll take care of you.

I would also like to mention that I'll do my best to work in the order that you all ordered them but I can't guarantee that only because sometimes I am presented with better opportunities of working with one media than another. But I'll do my best for all of you!

Had a blast and I hope that I can make you all happy in the end! Thanks so much for everything!

Hey everyone, just a last minute journal to let you all know that I'll be at MFF again this year. Been working on last minute things to get my table ready again for this year. Just like last year, I'll be working with my baby and we'll be promoting our collaborative commissions along with our own works. So come by and check us out and say hi. Maybe buy something from us, but either way, hope to see you all there and meet many new faces *^-^*

I thought it was a funny title seeing as how it's almost Halloween. Get it, get it *poke*.............ah, I'm sorry, I've got some lame jokes. At least I can laugh at em XD

So I've gotten a few watchers since I've posted my last journal and I just want to say thank you so much for enjoying my work. I know my stuff isn't world class amazing, but all I'm aiming for is for me to make something that you enjoy wholeheartedly. I just want to make art that you all enjoy looking at. So thank you all for the support and I'll do my best to keep making what you all love.

Now, as for where I've been and why there hasn't been art lately, it's because I've been buried under work. I know it's only a movie theater job but it's not that simple. A lot of my coworkers are either in school or they have other things to do and aren't around. That being said, I've been getting a ton of hours as of lately. I know it's not a classy job but it's draining in a way. I'm sorry, but some people are just awful when they go out in public. And being the girl that sells them tickets, cleans up after them, and handles all their stuff at guest services, sometimes it's hard to hold your barrings. Seriously, for every nicer person you meet, there's a few COLORFUL characters.

But enough of that, this is just an update to say that I'm going to work hard to make stuff you guys like.

So all in all, I'm sorry for the wait, I'm back to work, and I'm ready to make what you all have come to enjoy. Thank you all so very much

BIG REMINDER!!!!!!!! I will be at MFF! I am looking to have an artist table again this year. So look for me (along with my mate ) and stop by and say hi. Maybe by a sketch or a badge. I love drawing so keep me working on things that I love to create for you all!

Hey everyone, sorry for the lack of updates. Life's been interesting lately. I won't say it's been bad but it hasn't been super amazing either. I take each day with the good and the bad XD

Anyway, I was sick for a bit and for some reason I was having problems concentrating on my work so I wasn't able to draw for like a week......which is really bothersome for me. It's weird not being able to pick up a pencil/pen/tablet pen and not create anything. Either way, I've become tired of always being sick and I picked up working out again. Hopefully I can stick with it this time. I really have something in mind that I would like to do, and I need to be in great shape for it. So here's hoping.

It's also making me feel better about art so don't worry, I'm back to working on it. Thanks again for everyone waiting for stuff from me. You guys are amazing and I can't express how awesome you all are! I hope that I can just give you everything you hope for from me. I'll do my best!

Also, heads up, I'm hoping to have a table at MFF again this year with (we'll be sitting next to each other and stuff). So if you're going, try to look for us. I had so much fun last year and I hope to see you all and new peps as well >w<

is having a free raffle. Go check em out for your chance to win some awesome artwork >w<

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3843658/

Oh man, the one time I actually come back to be active on this site, the whole thing is down XD ah, I love how the world works.

Anyway, just a quick note, I have opened up commissions again ( I am working on your pieces right now so I should be done with those sometime soon.). Sorry it took so long to do so, plans kept changing and things were busy for a bit but now I'm able to start taking them again. If you're interested in purchasing one, you can find all the information here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1296266/ . I would also like to point out that I have changed some of the rules that I have in regards to placing an order with me. Please look them over so you understand what I will do in regards to images as well as how I go about executing them. If you have issues with how I deal with things, then I guess that I'm not the artist you're looking for. But they're not to bad so I hope I don't scare you guys off in the process *^-^*

Side note, one of my dearest friends, and one of her friends have opened up for collaborative commissions. is in charge of the coloring and I must say that it's some fine work indeed. So go check out her information about their project here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3825966/ .

Alright, lastly, I have my update on life. My birthday was 2 days ago and I turned 22, not yet old but not so young anymore. And that's really all I can't think about XD. Besides working on my art and trying to improve. Oh, and I'm also looking to set up a table at MFF with my boyfriend (or we'll be sitting next to each other). Hopefully we can and I can't wait to meet more of you guys *^-^*

Wow, I am so sorry that I have been away for so long. I really got caught up with life and things have been pretty busy the last few months. I just want to thank everyone for waiting for me (if you haven't then that's cool too, I know I've been a butt lol) and I just want to let you all know that I've been working on my to do list. All of those will be done before I do any other art and I will remain close until I am able to complete all of those. I want to be fair to all of those who have been patient and I just want to thank every single one of you. I'll be in touch with everyone shortly and I'm working hard to get you all things you wanna see *^-^*

On the other hand, I've also been working hard on making fanart for conventions (I've been trying to become a better business woman) and I need knew ideas. So I'm holding a fanart raffle for another 5 days, but it's only on DA cause that's where I post it. I won't draw the image until all prizes and commissions that I have already are completed but it's just something for fun. So if you like fanart and you have a da, then read this over and have fun http://sarieu.deviantart.com/journa.....FFLE-313958926

So I finally jumped on the bandwagon and got myself a Tumblr. I'm still getting use to it but I'm really starting to like it and I'm getting use to updating it. If ya feel like following, then you can go here.

http://sarieu.tumblr.com/

Other than that, life's been pretty crazy. I've been working hard on all of my projects but because there's so many of them, I feel that I'm not getting very far. Homework comes first, it's my last semester before my first degree and I'm not messing that up now. I may not be the smartest person out there but that doesn't mean that I don't work hard at what I do.

I also hit a snag in my workout. After spending most of my life being overweight, I took up finally doing something about it. In four months, I have lost 32 lbs and I feel I hit that rough patch. I'm not gonna give up, just have to keep on pushing through but it's just gonna take some time. This is finally something that is going right for me and after years of just talking about it, I'm finally gonna accomplish this goal.

Still working on getting the rest of my commissions done and I'm sorry for all of those that have to wait for them but I'm also working on my prints for Acen. This will be my first table there (I'll be sharing one with ) and I'm both excited and scared at the same time. I just hope I can make enough stuff that everyone will like. Don't have much time left but I'm giving it my all, even though I will only be selling prints. If all goes well, I'll try again for a table next year and try to get buttons and such *^-^*

Also, been on a huge foreign techno kick so if anyone has music they would like to recommend, then I am all for it >w<

Ah, I can honestly say that last week was one of the worst weeks I have ever had to go through. Lots of things happened and 95% of everything was bad. Don't want to get into it to much but that's where I've been.

Anyway, as I said before, commissions are now temporarily closed. If you're not on my list then your work is not one that I'll be working on. I'll notify when I'm back up again. As for everyone waiting on art, sorry for the wait, I'm working on it now and it should be done shortly. Thank you for your patients and sorry I'm such a slow artist.

Hey everyone, sorry I haven't been around so much, I've had a bit on my plate for a bit. I've been slowly working on commissions (have a ton of art work to do for school and all) but I just want everyone to know that I haven't forgotten about that.

So what I will be doing is I will close commissions temporarily in about a week from today. It won't be for long, I just want to get everyone finished on my list before I take anything more on. I also have a con to prepare for so I need to be working on things for that but commission/prize work will be done first. So if you're on my list then I'm working on your things.

With that said, if anyone wants something from me soon then you have a week to sign up for it. If not, you'll have to wait a bit until I can catch up on all my work. Thanks for understanding everyone <3

Artwork has been put on hold momentarily. Finals are here at school and they're coming down hard. Be done with them by next week and commissions will be back on. Thank you for the wait again!

Hey, sorry for the disappearance lol. Week's been pretty crazy so here's the quick run through.

Went to MFF where and I presented our collaborative commissions in the artist alley. To everyone I met, it was extremely nice to meet you and I'm sorry if I talked your ears off lol. I am working on the rest of the pieces that I was unable to finish at the con so thanks for your patient. We also have a collaborative account established so check us out

Went back to school, finals are coming up so my homework is really killing me right now. Almost break time so all I'll be doing is commission work.

Then it was holidays and the movie theater where I work got slammed, crazy hours and shifts and my feet are killing me. Super sore!

That's it in a nut shell, back to arting and gonna get this work turned out. Thank you all for your patients