https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10927721

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10927721

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10927721

Please help Surrii if you can, don't need to tell you folks the US healthcare system is monstrous.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56645965/

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56645965/

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56645965/

Check it out if you're interested

Casual stream, just doodling and chilling


Join me:
https://picarto.tv/SarukStreams
https://picarto.tv/SarukStreams

Gonna try streaming for an hour or two, working on various different pieces. (First time streaming, so bear with me on technical stuff)

Aiming to start soonish.

Come and hang out here:

https://picarto.tv/SarukStreams
https://picarto.tv/SarukStreams
https://picarto.tv/SarukStreams

Sorry for the delays

Had a lovely holiday away to recharge my batteries and had planned to be uploading stuff and working on various bits and pieces when i got back.

However, work is very chaotic at the moment and i simply havent had the time or energy since i returned. We got two long time staff members quitting and half of the rota already taking holidays so my hours have essentially doubled for the time being.

Summer is our busiest time of the year and as you can imagine, working nights in a hotel during the smothering heat and humidity in full shirt uniform is about as fun as you'd expect.

Oof.

Hoping things will calm down soon.

Hey guys,

Sorry it's been a while, life has been really rough for me these last 6 or so months. I was just finally starting to get a hold on my depression when I returned to work in the summer. However it turned out those two following months between lockdowns was one of those most stressful and anxiety inducing periods of my life. I work alone on night shifts in a hotel and due to various pandemic restrictions on pubs, clubs and bars, guests were frequently using their hotel rooms to drink themselves into oblivion. Guests were bickering and fighting constantly, rooms were getting trashed with bottles of booze and take-aways left strewn behind on departure, people were often smoking in rooms and putting socks over the smoke detectors. Several of em frequently refused to socially distance, wear a mask or sanitize their hands. And unsuprisingly, my evictions and incident reports skyrocketed and my stress levels hit the ceiling. I became increasingly physically unwell, my stomach started to cramp and i began having panic attacks.

Fortunately I got furloughed again as the winter spike arrived and I had some room to breathe again, time to slowly recover with the help of my therapist and let myself rest. I am so fucking gutted i haven't been able to make much out of being off work, my headspace has just been a total mess, and only now am I back to where I was last summer. I am returning to work again soon, but this time i have a plan to see myself out of that toxic workplace and somewhere that doesn't grossly overwork me for a joke of a wage, as well as leave me constantly stressed.

Thankfully, I'm feeling more resilient now and I finally have the strength to get out of the rut i've been stuck in, gain some positive emotional momentum and start living again without depression hanging over me.

I have some sketches and wips that i hope to post soon and if i'm feeling more productive, hopefully begin working on some newer stuff.

Thanks for sticking with me folks,

-Saruk.

Hey guys,

feeling a little bit better, covid and furlough from work has been a welcome break from a norm that has been keeping miserable. Appreciate you guys sticking with me, i got some backlog to follow but hoping to post some new art for you folks as i get a better handle on my depression.

Cheers,

-Saruk.

Hey folks,

I am still trying to reclaim my brain from this acute depression, albeit slowly. I am making some progress with therapy but it's hard as fuck some days when I'm just treading roiling emotional waters. I know I'm just a random guy who posts tf smut so maybe all this fanfare is a waste of time and I should just stfu and post my work, Idk.

On that note, I've been working on loads of sketches and wips, small stories and fiction since about last year or so, but was never very satisfied with them. I'm debating whether or not to bite the bullet and post them unfinished. Obviously people want 'moar arts' and im constantly aspiring to a higher standard but I'm just tired of plugging away at something that doesn't get much better so this is perhaps a foregone conclusion.

My low mood and procrastination are issues that I struggle with a lot, and I am livid with myself that I can't be a stronger, more resolute person; that my mind is mostly mental fog, poor focus and chronic fatigue. Not being able to create and finish a project only seems to feed into that vicious cycle.

Being stuck at home with this Covid-19 situation means I have more time to draw and write, and I'm getting my therapy via phonecall now so I am really hoping I can spend more time making good art and stories you folks can enjoy.

I started this page with the best of intentions and plans for the future and I've got fuck all to show for it, so I'm sorry guys. Don't want to make this post into a self-pity party, I'm just explaining rather than excusing myself.

Hopefully 2020 will be a more productive and happier year for me.

Hey folks,

i'm still alive, apologies for the absence, been dealing with an awful persistent depression that has wrecked my concentration and ability to work on art projects. Currently seeing a therapist and i hope to be more productive in the future. but I cant make any promises when i'll be in a better place. At the moment the UK is engaging in a socially regressive backslide into a ugly, hateful place and my mood has turned for the worse, especially as bisexual man who works for minimum wage in a society that is increasingly socially conservative and hostile towards the poor/vulnerable, i am afraid this hateful animus will eventually turn on folks like me and it fuels my existing PTSD from dealing with the kafkaesque cruelty of the DWP several years ago.

I hope you guys understand,

Saruk.

https://www.dailydot.com/irl/patreo.....ification-ban/

What kind of moron looks at Tumblr's traffic tanking after their puritanical purge and says "Hold my beer", seriously.

Looks like TF is getting banned on Patreon.

Just a quick post to say I was blown away by all the faves and new watchers yesterday

As a fledgling artist who's still finding his feet it really energises me to keep going during rough times and pushes me to strive harder.

Thank you for your patience and I hope you guys will stick with me for the future.

Cheers,

-Saruk.

Hey guys, just an update to say i'm still working on brooklyn (been learning a lot about drawing fundamentals and getting better, downside is, it keeps me revising the sketches so apologies if it's taking forever). I've been preocuppied with a lot of irl stuff and trying to improve my mental wellness and as a result i've kinda left the gallery to wither on the vine.

So on that topic I've got a backlog of WIPs and half finished sketches of varying degrees of quality, smaller projects and ideas as well as the current incomplete brooklyn tf WIPS, would you guys want to see that stuff or prefer i hold off until my artwork is more refined/finished?

Sorry folks, my job put me through the ringer again last month and my workplace went through another round of people quitting/scrambling to hire and retrain staffing shortfall. I've had to put everything on the backburner because of this and when i ever had any free time, i'm too exhausted to pick up where i've left off. Apologies for no stuff from me since last month, january was a real kick in the balls that came out of nowhere.

Hoping to put it behind me now that I have finished training new hires and we're settling into a normal non-firefighting routine, will try to put out more content soon.

-Saruk.

Hey Everybody,

I'm floored with all of your likes and faves, and would like to thank all of you folks for your encouragement. However, I am reaching the stage where I can't really individually thank everyone like I used to, so I'd thought I would make a journal post instead as a way to reach all of you who liked and faved my stuff

Cheers!

-Saruk.

Hey guys,

Sorry it's been a while but for the last couple months my job has been so very exhausting; where I work has had a chronic shortfall in staffing due to folks moving on. I have been put in charge of training up replacements since summer began but they've all either quit or bailed after first couple shifts. Suffice to say, constantly training staff that come and go like the place is a revolving door is a soul crushing endeavour and when the end of my shift comes, I'm feeling so drained with all my motivation and productivity totally empty in the tank for doing creative work.

I have some holiday time coming up which will give me the break I desperately need and will hopefully let me recharge my batteries and give me back my creative drive.

Thanks for hanging in there,

-Saruk.

Hey there everybody, It's been a while since I did a journal update so here it goes.

As per the title, I am looking back at from where I began at the beginning of the year up until now, about 6 months later and where this journey will take me going forwards. It's been a quite a ride plunging headfirst into drawing and writing again, and my mood has improved significantly. I feel a great burden has been lifted off me by embracing my interest in furry and transformation stuff, it was as if there was a part of me that was afraid to be true to myself and what i'm into, warts and all.

Since I have started my own FA account I've been (perhaps foolishly) trying to be a renaissance man; juggling improving my artistic abilities alongside my writing skills. As you guys have probably noticed, I have hit a snag with writing, and frustratingly, what I've been coming up with just hasn't been up to par with the quality of what I'm happy putting on my gallery. My Weregargoyle sequel is in the pipeline but has been waylaid by my writer's block so please be patient, I will try to make this one even better but right now it's a cobbled together mess in Google Docs.

Fortunately I have been able to get into sketching again and it feels like exercising an old muscle, getting back into the swing of things and I feel like I have been making great strides in the quality of my art lately, experimenting with a comic book style like with my most recent piece 'Sa'kalla!' (Alien from Rogue One TF)

And this is where you guys come in, what kind of content are you guys interested in seeing or have enjoyed the most so far (commissions included)? More stories, or more art; comic/sequences vs one-shots (keep in mind, the latter takes far longer to put out), perhaps there's a character you'd like to see as a TF subject or fictional species? Keep in mind this isn't a call for requests so much as gauging interest/bouncing off suggestions with each other.

Aliens, Furries, Robots (r34 and OC) and of course Gargoyle TF are all things I will be doing more of regardless, so watch this space if you guys like that.

Taking into account all of the above, please remember guys this is something I currently do in my spare time and as such will inevitably take a back seat to any busy periods like my hellish time at work in May. I have considered the possibility of opening myself up for commissions (both art and writing) later down the line, on a limited basis and as a trial run. This will be something that will require setting up various commission material and paypal business accounts etc so I cannot give anything beyond a vague headwind when I'll be open to create stuff for money on the side, but i can say it will not be at least a few months before I would consider opening for business.

Work has been shuffling my night shifts around like a deck of cards the last fortnight due to various dumb reasons (miscommunication about who was working when etc) and I'm supposed to be sitting my driving test early next week. So i'm afraid I haven't had more than two evenings to work on Ratchet since, I want to do it justice so please be patient, I had a cynical prediction that my work might pull something like this but i'm really pissed off at how bad the timing was.

Sorry Guys.

https://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.....82%BF%E3%83%BC

Check out this guy's pixiv gallery if you really like yautjas/predators (I know I do). They're really damn good ;) if you catch my drift... [Cue sweating towel guy meme]

Unfortunately, all of his gallery is in Japanese so i cannot tell you his name (google page translate gives 'Licking Male', i dunno) so I've linked directly to his yautja folder.

I found this artist originally through a tumblr post I've totally blanked on now, (mist something?) then I clicked on their favourites and managed to stumble on his artwork. No idea if everybody has seen his stuff or not but thought a signal boost couldn't hurt.

-Saruk.

Finally getting back on the horse and drawing again, using my cintiq 13 HD tablet for something i'm working on for the future, and yes it is tf related

Don't worry, the writing hasn't stopped, i'm just doing it in addition to digital work.

-Saruk.

Laughing my ass off on Reddit at the Star Wars meme war, every sub is getting dragged into it. r/BikiniBottomTwitter has overthrown their mod when he pledged allegiance to the sequels, haha.

See title.

I have a few old tf sketches of Brooklyn that were drawn years ago, I cringe a little at them but you aren't growing as an artist if you can't cringe at your old work, so my perspective is a bit biased.

I used to sketch all the time until about 2013 when I fell into a dark pit of clinical depression, since then my awful mood almost totally killed my desire and stamina to do any art (not just the pr0ns) and I've had an unbearable creativity block; Anhedonia is depression's way of poisoning all the things that make you happy. This is whole account is partially me trying to shake of the rust and also say to 'fuck it', I'll post my weird fetish stuff online' , Carpe Diem i guess.

I warn you guys though, if I do post them, that they are pretty rough.

Also be gentle...

Thoughts?

I'd just like to say thanks to everyone for all the favourites and watches I've gotten since I first created this account, it's a little surreal how many of you, including some big names in the community have supported my work. it's really a thrill that how much of you guys enjoy my writing and that the reception has been really positive; honestly I was just content with putting out my writing and only a handful of folks reading so long as somebody got to indulge me.

I was wondering what you guys seem to prefer in terms of format when reading a story, I was a little curious if there was lean towards a specific style of writing that you guys like more than others:


1.) Do you prefer stories written in:

i. First Person

ii. Second Person (i.e. 'you are...', like a hypnosis script)

iii. Third Person

iv. Don't care/Any

https://strawpoll.com/1fcbgagf


2.)Do you generally like transformation sequences (in writing) to be:

i. Gradual/Slow

ii. Fast/'Hulk out'

iii. Both

iv. Don't care/Any

https://strawpoll.com/d2aebgsb


3.) How much story do you like in a tf:

i. Transformation only/No setup

ii. Narrative Setup w/ tf ('one shot')

iii. Multi-part stories in same Universe (like The Weregargoyle)

iv. Don't care/Any

https://strawpoll.com/sgspgp35


4.) What type of future tf content would you like see:

i. Rule 34s/fictional character tfs

ii. OC

iii. Don't care/Any

https://strawpoll.com/2c3pap5h


5.) Are you:

i. A Furry

ii. A Scaley

iii. Exotic/Other

iv. Furry Trash ;)

https://strawpoll.com/xe5by1y3





Could have done this with Strawpoll i know but I'll see how much feedback i get from people first.

Hi there,

I wanted to ask anybody who would know guidelines regarding strictly non-furry content; i have a tf fiction piece I think you guys might like but it's not furry themed ( [m]race/cultural tf). Is that something that is not content relevant on this site and would just be diluting the site's focus, not against ToA per se but 'unsuitable'. The site has elf as a tf category which is pretty close to human so I guess it's probably ok to post. I only have one non-furry/rule 34 piece of fiction so I wondered if it mattered much.

I also wanted to ask you guys which rule34 character you would be interested in seeing next, I have got three ideas at the minute and a rough outline what I am going to do for each one but wanted to gauge people's interest, this doesn't mean it's a zero sum answer and my decision of which one to write first might be influenced by a sudden good idea for one of them. Please keep in mind this is not a request for commissions or suggestions, my decision is final, this is just something I do for fun, I was wanting to see if there was reader interest.

Anyways, they are:

Ratchet (2002 version)
Zenyatta (Overwatch)
Yautja (The Predator)


I am currently working on another Weregargoyle story featuring Brooklyn (and poor Henry) and am making progress, hope to post that in the future. i have a little teaser to tide you until then:

...Henry didn't want to stop himself changing, but as much as he wanted to let go, it was imperative he not transform here at work.

His thoughts were distracted when he felt his ass getting tight as a drumskin. He gritted his teeth as he felt the changes move to his hips, filling out his cheap trousers, compacting them with muscle and firming his ass into an enviable shape. Henry quietly rocked in his chair as he instinctively groped his own taut ass, the chair creaked under the weight of his gargoyle body. He then heard a slow rip from the side seam of his trousers, he pulled his hands off his rump and quickly started a fake coughing fit trying to drown out the sound of his athletic physique straining against his clothes. He overdid the performance, and Karen, a colleague and friend in the seat adjacent fumbled in the dark to offer a pack of tissues which Henry gingerly snapped up to maintain the ruse, hoping she didn't notice his leathery clawed hand take the opened pocket pack...