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Posted 2 years agoIf I am kicked from a server and my messages posts are hidden on me, I can no longer access the original posts right?
Then would it be easy for another to copy/paste/edit said entries to say whatever they want?
Then would it be easy for another to copy/paste/edit said entries to say whatever they want?
Personal Furpocalypse Review
Posted 8 years agoFinally went to my first furry convention!
Payed $40 entrance fee happily
Got my con entry badge
Attended Opening Ceremony
Attended the First Furry Convention Panel
Met
Hypr
Checked out and wanted to faint the dealers area
Payed $8 for lunch at concession stand
Spent much time in tabletop game room with a fur I know
Went to a pie party
Went back to dealers area, payed $30 for my first headshot badge from
FayV!
Discussed getting a commission from
Tegan
Payed $8 for lunch at concession stand
Went to tabletop game room
Met my furend
Deliciousfish
Met
Tajiri85
Went to the Sergal panel by
Bandrik
met
SpikestheSergal cause of it
Met finally
Rowedahelicon
Played a Exploding Kittens tournament, lost, but it felt right and was fun
Went to leftovers pie party
Met
coopertom
Went back to dealers den
Payed $100 for what is going to be an awesome artwork for both me and the artist! Tegan
Payed $10 for a nice soft Siamese plushie for my mom, because I just had to! X3
Went around collection business cards from all other artists for future commissions
Went back to FayV for my badge and was surprised at what a mind reader she was! Badge has perfect looks and an expression that defines me all too well!
Then went back to tabletop game room fur awhile
At some point got lunch from concession stand for $8
Met
InuOkami
Went to Closing Ceremony
Stayed awhile longer and met
fatalglory128
Left and went back home for the third time, back to boring loneliness, but I'll try to not make it in vain, try to talk to whom I've met! :3
Payed $40 entrance fee happily
Got my con entry badge
Attended Opening Ceremony
Attended the First Furry Convention Panel
Met
HyprChecked out and wanted to faint the dealers area
Payed $8 for lunch at concession stand
Spent much time in tabletop game room with a fur I know
Went to a pie party
Went back to dealers area, payed $30 for my first headshot badge from
FayV!Discussed getting a commission from
TeganPayed $8 for lunch at concession stand
Went to tabletop game room
Met my furend
DeliciousfishMet
Tajiri85Went to the Sergal panel by
Bandrikmet
SpikestheSergal cause of itMet finally
RowedaheliconPlayed a Exploding Kittens tournament, lost, but it felt right and was fun
Went to leftovers pie party
Met
coopertomWent back to dealers den
Payed $100 for what is going to be an awesome artwork for both me and the artist!
TeganPayed $10 for a nice soft Siamese plushie for my mom, because I just had to! X3
Went around collection business cards from all other artists for future commissions
Went back to
FayV for my badge and was surprised at what a mind reader she was! Badge has perfect looks and an expression that defines me all too well!Then went back to tabletop game room fur awhile
At some point got lunch from concession stand for $8
Met
InuOkamiWent to Closing Ceremony
Stayed awhile longer and met
fatalglory128Left and went back home for the third time, back to boring loneliness, but I'll try to not make it in vain, try to talk to whom I've met! :3
*sssniiiifffff* :/
Posted 8 years agodah... third depressional loneliness dip in a month span, so strong as to over power my anti-depressants...
On one side I could exerting societal pressure on myself... on other is just longing to fit in somewhere, at least for awhile
the problem is that my philosophy I seek to achieve is to have a heart as pure gold as possible, but its always been eclipsed by the shadow of having always lived a shut-in and sheltered lifestyle... complied with fact that I try to be a concrete and sensible thinker, as to not do anything rash... which has broken me to always seeking approval of my actions.. which only furthers this cycle...
I don't know if I'll ever be able to be serious/fully committed about a relationship, but have the desire to have as many relationships as possible, while respecting those of others who already have someone
I seek to spread joy and happiness, so that in turn I can be too, but its always been overshadowed by the limitations and concepts of real life
My head might be too into the idea of fantasy utopia..., but what place to better have to get along or not so much, and yet at the end of the day sitll end up embracing each other?
The sad part this answer is only exist now and then in small bursts, each convention, where a huge group of us gather..., but it onyl lasts fora few days.... oh how we all wish it could last forever...
In fantasy we can have all the time in the world to do anything anytime..., yet in reality I just sit here in front of computer screen pawwing likea canine tryingto grab someone's attention
No matter what though, I always cling onto that glimmer of hope, that I may eventually manage to climb out his hole with someone for at least a while...
How I long to be able to just ravel freely to go from meeting one of you to the next and circling back as I complete the loop
Yes I desire a state of Ourbous, to let time be meaningless as well as age, to love all and be loved by all
At least I'm finally going to Furpocalypse this year, and still looking for those who still have room openings
Its just the "Bittersweet Symphony" that's life... for better or worse
On one side I could exerting societal pressure on myself... on other is just longing to fit in somewhere, at least for awhile
the problem is that my philosophy I seek to achieve is to have a heart as pure gold as possible, but its always been eclipsed by the shadow of having always lived a shut-in and sheltered lifestyle... complied with fact that I try to be a concrete and sensible thinker, as to not do anything rash... which has broken me to always seeking approval of my actions.. which only furthers this cycle...
I don't know if I'll ever be able to be serious/fully committed about a relationship, but have the desire to have as many relationships as possible, while respecting those of others who already have someone
I seek to spread joy and happiness, so that in turn I can be too, but its always been overshadowed by the limitations and concepts of real life
My head might be too into the idea of fantasy utopia..., but what place to better have to get along or not so much, and yet at the end of the day sitll end up embracing each other?
The sad part this answer is only exist now and then in small bursts, each convention, where a huge group of us gather..., but it onyl lasts fora few days.... oh how we all wish it could last forever...
In fantasy we can have all the time in the world to do anything anytime..., yet in reality I just sit here in front of computer screen pawwing likea canine tryingto grab someone's attention
No matter what though, I always cling onto that glimmer of hope, that I may eventually manage to climb out his hole with someone for at least a while...
How I long to be able to just ravel freely to go from meeting one of you to the next and circling back as I complete the loop
Yes I desire a state of Ourbous, to let time be meaningless as well as age, to love all and be loved by all
At least I'm finally going to Furpocalypse this year, and still looking for those who still have room openings
Its just the "Bittersweet Symphony" that's life... for better or worse
grr...
Posted 8 years agoA God has died
He committed suicide
Why could have just been a shell
Now he'll never tell
He committed suicide
Why could have just been a shell
Now he'll never tell
Commisionering Curiosity
Posted 9 years agoI am having trouble making up my mind as to whom I should choose... so I was hoping to try narrowing down the selection, because there are just so many wonderful and talented artists/writers out there!
If you are an Artist or Writer, whether as a Commission or Request, I'd like to know if you would be interested in drawing/involving my Sona.
The details will be provided separately, as fur Artists there are 2 Notepad Files to send you to better describe my Sona, and I am looking fur up to 6 in total from any given artist (not necessarily all 6 at once! ^^;)
For writers it could be possibly tricky as well, so you would need to discuss with me as you go along, so long as my sona is involved.
If you are a Watcher/Commissioner I would be looking fur whomefur you feel you would like see Draw/Write my sona.
This isn't an urgent or important issue so feel free to take your time, I'm planning on deciding by end of January.
If you are an Artist or Writer, whether as a Commission or Request, I'd like to know if you would be interested in drawing/involving my Sona.
The details will be provided separately, as fur Artists there are 2 Notepad Files to send you to better describe my Sona, and I am looking fur up to 6 in total from any given artist (not necessarily all 6 at once! ^^;)
For writers it could be possibly tricky as well, so you would need to discuss with me as you go along, so long as my sona is involved.
If you are a Watcher/Commissioner I would be looking fur whomefur you feel you would like see Draw/Write my sona.
This isn't an urgent or important issue so feel free to take your time, I'm planning on deciding by end of January.
Zootopia
Posted 9 years agoWell its now over two months since it went into movie theaters, I finally got off my lazy ass to go see it!
One Word
Priceless
There is no point in elaborating, everyone by now knows what I mean, or at least 90% *wink *wink*
Its was so beautifully done, I'm trying not o cry... after it was over I wanted to kiss someone, but course was alone with no one, its alright for now.
SoIHadToComeHomeAndGiveMyCatsAKissOnTheHead
I sincerely hope they make another one, hell they could get away with a whole new cast! To fit purrfectly around a new plot!
Pure heartlessness every scene, pure realism applied to anthropomorphism!
*sniff* Sorry... Just so.... Lovely!
One Word
Priceless
There is no point in elaborating, everyone by now knows what I mean, or at least 90% *wink *wink*
Its was so beautifully done, I'm trying not o cry... after it was over I wanted to kiss someone, but course was alone with no one, its alright for now.
SoIHadToComeHomeAndGiveMyCatsAKissOnTheHead
I sincerely hope they make another one, hell they could get away with a whole new cast! To fit purrfectly around a new plot!
Pure heartlessness every scene, pure realism applied to anthropomorphism!
*sniff* Sorry... Just so.... Lovely!
Need Modding Help e2
Posted 10 years agoSubject to change if I manage to figure out any of this on my own.
I am currently looking for someone who knows about working with:
LUA for Dota 2 40%
Re-Coloring Built in Models for Dota 2
Maybe building a custom map (not sure if I want to make a custom map) for Dota 2
Of lesser Importance:
Working with Wings3D to make simple, low-res/poly designs
There are some questions I have on what to use to get desired results
I am currently looking for someone who knows about working with:
LUA for Dota 2 40%
Re-Coloring Built in Models for Dota 2
Maybe building a custom map (not sure if I want to make a custom map) for Dota 2
Of lesser Importance:
Working with Wings3D to make simple, low-res/poly designs
There are some questions I have on what to use to get desired results
Semi-Religeous Thought
Posted 11 years agoIf Hell freezes over, then there will be hell on Earth.
If Heaven Falls, there will be Heaven on Earth.
Does this make sense?
If Heaven Falls, there will be Heaven on Earth.
Does this make sense?
Heh... Lame but Worthwhile
Posted 12 years agoSSSOOO Lame XD, as I;m nto an artist, but go to my scraps section for it!
Surpise!!!
After 3.5 damn years of being a lazy ass... on my lazy ass... >.<
I have no means, in which to commision anyone at any time in near furture, but artist beware your gonna get a good haul off of me, nto to mention its only one of two!!! :P
Next will be my sona's feral dragon (/wolf) form...
Even further there willa bonus as I will be asking that at each major step, i.e.: sketch/lineart, flat, shading, etc. I will be wanting them sent to me, as it would intruge me to havea record of you progressivly making my sona come to life.
The details atm are a bit skecthy, but for those who put a LOT and I mean A lot of effort into making detailed works of art that be upwards of $1-$2 per step I'd be offering!!!
I lov you all!! D:D X3
Surpise!!!
After 3.5 damn years of being a lazy ass... on my lazy ass... >.<
I have no means, in which to commision anyone at any time in near furture, but artist beware your gonna get a good haul off of me, nto to mention its only one of two!!! :P
Next will be my sona's feral dragon (/wolf) form...
Even further there willa bonus as I will be asking that at each major step, i.e.: sketch/lineart, flat, shading, etc. I will be wanting them sent to me, as it would intruge me to havea record of you progressivly making my sona come to life.
The details atm are a bit skecthy, but for those who put a LOT and I mean A lot of effort into making detailed works of art that be upwards of $1-$2 per step I'd be offering!!!
I lov you all!! D:D X3
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Posted 13 years agoThis is getting tougher and tougher as the days go by, but I am so steadfast and resilient. My desperation is rising as it has always but my sadness from it is spiking continually more often...
I need to get a life...
I need to get social..
I need others I can hug and hold...
An odd desire for at least getting naked to hug soemone...
I love you all so much, your work... its namely what makes me sad...
I want soemone to hold...
I want people too hold...
I want to meet and hug and snuggle and love (maybe not making it ^^;) the real counter parts to our online pressence...
I don;t care abotu status of realtionships... if your a two then I will settle for hugging you both at he same time...
I wan to have the feeling like being part of a pack or litter...
I'm scared, I'm shy.. I just need someone to be my guiding light to others...
i am nto very out going...
Ilack proper socila interaction behavior...
I hate to feel needy, but I jsut need soemone or others who can enjoy me and I can enjoy them... and their company (regaurdless of implications)
I want physical proof as to that there can be someone I can physically see and care about as much as I desire tere to be soemone to do the same with me...
Do I want? or do I need? all I know is that I'm always feeling lonely..., I am jsut oo isolated... and always feel aleinated though feeling that I alienate others -.-
I need some happiness and joy... somehtign that my endless hours of video gaming can;t bring... role playing...
i need a purpose and reason to live... one higher than simply the idea of living and sponging off of others...
I'd gladly video chat wiht anyone if I ge the chance when my parents arn;t aorund... but wht good does htat do when I just want o hug you... and cry in disbelief that I am doing so?
I don;t knwo who or what I am.... all I know is that I desire male companionship, even if not sole courtship... My life is just so bittersweet right now... it technically always has been... I never know how to something myself... and always afaird everytime the slightest light appeers to fade...
I don;t know... I cna't ever commit suicide, I don;t have what it takes... I but every day is jsut he same angusihing feeling even if not aparrent...
I need to get a life...
I need to get social..
I need others I can hug and hold...
An odd desire for at least getting naked to hug soemone...
I love you all so much, your work... its namely what makes me sad...
I want soemone to hold...
I want people too hold...
I want to meet and hug and snuggle and love (maybe not making it ^^;) the real counter parts to our online pressence...
I don;t care abotu status of realtionships... if your a two then I will settle for hugging you both at he same time...
I wan to have the feeling like being part of a pack or litter...
I'm scared, I'm shy.. I just need someone to be my guiding light to others...
i am nto very out going...
Ilack proper socila interaction behavior...
I hate to feel needy, but I jsut need soemone or others who can enjoy me and I can enjoy them... and their company (regaurdless of implications)
I want physical proof as to that there can be someone I can physically see and care about as much as I desire tere to be soemone to do the same with me...
Do I want? or do I need? all I know is that I'm always feeling lonely..., I am jsut oo isolated... and always feel aleinated though feeling that I alienate others -.-
I need some happiness and joy... somehtign that my endless hours of video gaming can;t bring... role playing...
i need a purpose and reason to live... one higher than simply the idea of living and sponging off of others...
I'd gladly video chat wiht anyone if I ge the chance when my parents arn;t aorund... but wht good does htat do when I just want o hug you... and cry in disbelief that I am doing so?
I don;t knwo who or what I am.... all I know is that I desire male companionship, even if not sole courtship... My life is just so bittersweet right now... it technically always has been... I never know how to something myself... and always afaird everytime the slightest light appeers to fade...
I don;t know... I cna't ever commit suicide, I don;t have what it takes... I but every day is jsut he same angusihing feeling even if not aparrent...
Retelling What I Doing
Posted 13 years agoTo all those artists who I'm gradually faving and watching, there is no need to thank me till I hit that watch button, ok?! ^^
And if I fave your work but don't watch you, you probably wouldn't even happen to notice, because you'd be one of them who has left. D:
But all can say is... MURR~!
And if I fave your work but don't watch you, you probably wouldn't even happen to notice, because you'd be one of them who has left. D:
But all can say is... MURR~!
...un/re cont
Posted 13 years agoLast still stand...
But I cannot completly desert...
For it was art that brought me furry...
I just wish not fury...
Over my own self...
I will continue as 2-3 prior...
However...
I'm shall stop IM reaching...
It was a cuase for some of my anguish...
Thus I leave it unto whomever...
To make it THEIR descision to contact me...
Fur those I had already, this is inform you of your descison to re-add me...
But I cannot completly desert...
For it was art that brought me furry...
I just wish not fury...
Over my own self...
I will continue as 2-3 prior...
However...
I'm shall stop IM reaching...
It was a cuase for some of my anguish...
Thus I leave it unto whomever...
To make it THEIR descision to contact me...
Fur those I had already, this is inform you of your descison to re-add me...
...
Posted 13 years agoI can't continue anymore, I'm not quite leaving..., but I need something big before I come back.
Somehting huge...
Today has been an extra stressful day...
Everday is stressful...
But..
My life has no meaning...,
I need to find that meaning...
Unfortuantly I'm not sure if I shall ever come back...
I'm gonna miss you all...
But that is stupid..
Stupid when I want to love you all..
To do things that are which are imposible in the society we live in...
If god(s) existed, they will eventually show me the way...
Somehow...
*crys*...
Somehting huge...
Today has been an extra stressful day...
Everday is stressful...
But..
My life has no meaning...,
I need to find that meaning...
Unfortuantly I'm not sure if I shall ever come back...
I'm gonna miss you all...
But that is stupid..
Stupid when I want to love you all..
To do things that are which are imposible in the society we live in...
If god(s) existed, they will eventually show me the way...
Somehow...
*crys*...
Reporting Status
Posted 13 years agoI am still here-
Faving progress is slow-
Tending to do it when I'm in want of arousal-
Everyone I have on my master list,
Will be faved in due course of time.
Please also refer to my last journal for more info on giving me feedbakc to give you feedback, if you happen to look at my page here.
Faving progress is slow-
Tending to do it when I'm in want of arousal-
Everyone I have on my master list,
Will be faved in due course of time.
Please also refer to my last journal for more info on giving me feedbakc to give you feedback, if you happen to look at my page here.
Its About *beep* *beep* TIME!
Posted 13 years agoFyi to all who shall set eyes on this journal, I hvave recently ben in the process of stopping loking for artists out there, and have been categorizing them, it will take a bit to look though everyone, there will be patern, but that is not important!
WHAT IS IMPORTANT! I WILL FINALLY BE GOING THROUGH GALLERIES ENXT WEEK! and... faving eveything that apeeals to me! ^^
If anyhting I fav you wish to have acomment left on about, please send me a note on which ones, this is inclusive of any prior favs I already have. Also inculde in the note if you wish any other artists you may be wanting to advertise.
Thi sis th eelast I can do until I can commision some of you out here, which is still likely a year or two away..., but for now I will support as a simple watcher however I can.
And P.S. this includes scraps too! ^^ :3
WHAT IS IMPORTANT! I WILL FINALLY BE GOING THROUGH GALLERIES ENXT WEEK! and... faving eveything that apeeals to me! ^^
If anyhting I fav you wish to have acomment left on about, please send me a note on which ones, this is inclusive of any prior favs I already have. Also inculde in the note if you wish any other artists you may be wanting to advertise.
Thi sis th eelast I can do until I can commision some of you out here, which is still likely a year or two away..., but for now I will support as a simple watcher however I can.
And P.S. this includes scraps too! ^^ :3
whan! of fantasicle joy...
Posted 14 years agoI just watched The Cronicles of Narnia: The Voyage of the Dawn Treader
I can't help but back down in mindless and senseless tears...
All for a sole reason that is more or less pointless, but as equal as dreams...
This happened 6 years ago when I read the book...
Now again...
I WANNA BE A DRAGON!
WWWWWWWWWWWHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNN..................................
This is about the most childest deepest thing in the world and depths of my mind and heart, that tears me to shredds beyond that of my current state of reality...
Forget anyhting else that deals with dragons
This is byond inexplicable
Oh its possible alright, thats hwy it is what it is....
*sob**sniffle**cry*
I hope I have good dreams tonight *rain of tears*
I can't help but back down in mindless and senseless tears...
All for a sole reason that is more or less pointless, but as equal as dreams...
This happened 6 years ago when I read the book...
Now again...
I WANNA BE A DRAGON!
WWWWWWWWWWWHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNN..................................
This is about the most childest deepest thing in the world and depths of my mind and heart, that tears me to shredds beyond that of my current state of reality...
Forget anyhting else that deals with dragons
This is byond inexplicable
Oh its possible alright, thats hwy it is what it is....
*sob**sniffle**cry*
I hope I have good dreams tonight *rain of tears*
Random Info.... maybe...
Posted 14 years ago*WARNING!*
*DANGER!*
When I turn 18 I will more or less become turly active on FA, as the bar that is place on pictures that I consider Iffy/Indirect Implication/Etc. Boarderlines reasons, which is placed by the great staff of FA here, will be lifted.
My only issue with the inplace system, is that its eathier mature or not mature, yet there are pics I can say could be inbetween. Reguardless I don't say its a bad system at all, just only if they were up to it, tweak it in this minor way...
As a result of this many out there will fave spammed, I have several targets pre-marked, and then countless others who will marked just because of those origonally marked had your worked faved.
WITH THAT SAID I WILL BE BLAZING A TRAIL THORUGH A LOT OF GALLERIES! ICE WALLING OFF THE ONES WHICH I FAVE! THEN TAKING THEM TO MY FAVE SECTION!
YOU SHALL FEEL THE WRATH OF APPRECIATION!
oh and... PEACE! ^^
*DANGER!*
When I turn 18 I will more or less become turly active on FA, as the bar that is place on pictures that I consider Iffy/Indirect Implication/Etc. Boarderlines reasons, which is placed by the great staff of FA here, will be lifted.
My only issue with the inplace system, is that its eathier mature or not mature, yet there are pics I can say could be inbetween. Reguardless I don't say its a bad system at all, just only if they were up to it, tweak it in this minor way...
As a result of this many out there will fave spammed, I have several targets pre-marked, and then countless others who will marked just because of those origonally marked had your worked faved.
WITH THAT SAID I WILL BE BLAZING A TRAIL THORUGH A LOT OF GALLERIES! ICE WALLING OFF THE ONES WHICH I FAVE! THEN TAKING THEM TO MY FAVE SECTION!
YOU SHALL FEEL THE WRATH OF APPRECIATION!
oh and... PEACE! ^^
Interesting but not Important
Posted 15 years agoI just got home from the mall, forced to go by my parents *grumble* *grumble*, and we stopped by the pet store at the mall there.
We saw all of what we had expected to see, but I saw something quite peculiar and different. They had two dacshunds. One was a regular black and brown color, but this was how the other one looked, I wish I had a camera to take a picture of it...
It had a smoke grey coat, with black dalmation like spots all over that fur, and it had (I SWEAR!) strawberry pink paws and underbelly...
Can't blame anyone if they don't believe me, for I have no proof, and it is most certianly unheard of... It had to be one the rearest sights I have ever seen with my own two eyes, and not a machines!
And with that, I think a part of me just fainted... :/
We saw all of what we had expected to see, but I saw something quite peculiar and different. They had two dacshunds. One was a regular black and brown color, but this was how the other one looked, I wish I had a camera to take a picture of it...
It had a smoke grey coat, with black dalmation like spots all over that fur, and it had (I SWEAR!) strawberry pink paws and underbelly...
Can't blame anyone if they don't believe me, for I have no proof, and it is most certianly unheard of... It had to be one the rearest sights I have ever seen with my own two eyes, and not a machines!
And with that, I think a part of me just fainted... :/
HERE! I am here!.......
Posted 15 years agoHello all!, I have decided that I have spent long enough away, and I'm thinking it is because my DA page.... or well the whole site, has gone inexplicabilitly unloadable... *crys a little*...
I would wish I couldof had a grander entrance to FA, but alas... I am horrible at sticking to plans... most specifically long term plans...
A select few on FA will recognize who I am, as I have on DA been major sideline supporter, always offering encouragment of a sort or two.
But now that am here everyone must prepare that I will be taking by storm, but not artistry, as I am not an artist :( , rather though it will by the people I know and many browsing sessions I have done that I am going on a faving spike n' hunt. Unfortunatly I will not be leaving any comments, as I tend to give out praise and only praise, as well as I prefer to make my comments a little more than mere sentence fragment.
Prepare, as I am going to start it now! :D
I would wish I couldof had a grander entrance to FA, but alas... I am horrible at sticking to plans... most specifically long term plans...
A select few on FA will recognize who I am, as I have on DA been major sideline supporter, always offering encouragment of a sort or two.
But now that am here everyone must prepare that I will be taking by storm, but not artistry, as I am not an artist :( , rather though it will by the people I know and many browsing sessions I have done that I am going on a faving spike n' hunt. Unfortunatly I will not be leaving any comments, as I tend to give out praise and only praise, as well as I prefer to make my comments a little more than mere sentence fragment.
Prepare, as I am going to start it now! :D
