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Cory Doctorow's Reverse Centaur
General | Posted 5 days agoThis is pretty interesting and I think worth reading, Cory Doctorow's presentation on how to criticize AI.
https://pluralistic.net/2025/12/05/...../#u-washington
Edit: This may also be of interest to some, although I'm really not one to be linking to it. I feel I am at least falling on the 'taur and not the reverse-taur side in how I use it. https://slopfree.club/
https://pluralistic.net/2025/12/05/...../#u-washington
Edit: This may also be of interest to some, although I'm really not one to be linking to it. I feel I am at least falling on the 'taur and not the reverse-taur side in how I use it. https://slopfree.club/
Terrie Smith needs help
General | Posted 3 weeks agoShe's heading into some difficult and expensive surgery and long recovery time. Details here.
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/11258083
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/11258083
Sanny needs help
General | Posted 4 months agoSanny is a great artist who needs some financial assistance.
The details are in this journal:
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/11184422/
The details are in this journal:
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/11184422/
Artist Boost Art Raffle
General | Posted 5 months agoSo here's an artist that does cute work. I noticed her on dA, and there was a link back here.
She's doing a raffle for a free pic.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61377965/
I'm Shameless, I know, but her stuff is cool have a look. Maybe enter and lower my chances!
She's doing a raffle for a free pic.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61377965/
I'm Shameless, I know, but her stuff is cool have a look. Maybe enter and lower my chances!
Dzhani in Detail
General | Posted 9 months agoI have a lot of characters, which is a little surprising as it takes me ages to come up with them.
This is a long companion piece to these rough sketches. Assume every link in this is NSFW even if a couple aren't:
- https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60237665/
- https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60238503/
- https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60238937/
I'll circle back to them in a bit.
Dzhani artwork goes back to 2009. Inspiration, a lot further. I have a picture by Mike Higgs, inspired by his Tiffany, of a busty cat-taur from 1996. Macroophile made a couple busty foxtaur pics in 2007, and possibly earlier. Of course, the major influence and blame must be laid on Shaterri, the first foxtaur I ever encountered when I got on Furrymuck in 1990. As he was the one that introduced me to the concept and the possibility that centaurs came in other forms, I think of him as their originator, even though I'm aware Mike Higgs and Roy D Pounds were doing things prior to our meetings. Mr. Pound's KlickKlax has also been a longtime favourite of mine. The real history is here: https://en.wikifur.com/wiki/Foxtaur
Higgs - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60280041/
Macroophile 1 - https://e621.net/posts/67070
Macroophile 2 - https://e621.net/posts/67071
Sample - http://web.archive.org/web/20000118.....aterri-krs.gif
- http://web.archive.org/web/20000118.....e/shaterri.gif
Roy D Pounds - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/1049758/
My first picture of Dzhani has her wearing one of Dr. Steel's Toy soldiers. I ran into a Toy Soldier at the Abney Park concert at Metrocon 2009. All of these dates and associations are meant to illustrate that it feels like she's been around a lot longer than I can definitely prove. She was made as a character on FurryMuck in July, 2009. She's always been a foxtaur on FurryMuck, but that's not the only version of her.
She was also a RPG character in Vicki and Bard Bloom's Worldtree setting. A game without humans; one of the adventuring races are the Cani. Cani are essentially dogs which are naturally Poly-amorous and get married into small packs. In Dzhani's case, she had 3 husbands and two sister-wives. As an adventurer, she was fairly balanced with charisma and talking skills, magic and fighting. She has all the attractive, alluring voice, type advantages one can buy, and a pure-breed, which allowed her to look like a specific canine-type, in her case a fox. Culturally, the cani-family females all have puppies at the same time, so Dzhani's 'call to adventure' was the need to go out and see the world before she got tied down for several years with puppies. Get in shape, use up all the wanderlust, and actual lust. She had a Monster Fucker License before such things were a thing, and that was one way they got out of, or into, some encounters. I have a couple pics of her in this form, as an adventuring Airship Captain.
Worldtree pics:
Mine - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/2923997/
Mine - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/2981055/
Jaeh - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/6192412/
DCRabbit - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48407509/
Despite how it sounds, the game was not especially lewd. The RP was in text and covered by fade to black moments. Our GM seemed if anything, amused by it all, and we would joke about situations where it wouldn't work for Dzhani. Such as, no matter how many times and how hard she seduced her husbands and wives, sexing them up might not solve their family dynamic problems and she might be forced to try an alternative, like talking it out. The game ran from 2009 -2012, and I haven't revisited.
Foxes and fox personality traits were one of the amusing discussion topics among my Florida friend group. I had wanted a fox character, and while Sunset was close she was a maned wolf that thought she was a grey wolf. I wanted to indulge some of the PFT and vixen bimbo sterotypes that were floating around at the time. If you have used 'Yiff' and wondered where that came from, well, Yiff means something different than you think it does from the accepted usage, and there was a lot of dom/sub wolf/fox stuff floating around the early days. PFT popped up a little later, and you can have that as some research homework if you want to prove me wrong. So she was incarnated on FurryMuck and has been off-and-on active to this day as fox-taur/vixen-taur there to this day.
--- Current FM Description ----
Vixens are big, bouncy, busty bimbos. Typically...
Dzhani is no exception, besides being a fox-taur. With ridiculous hourglass proportions of a zaftig hourglass that went back for more hours. The top of her head is two meters up, her eartips adding 30 cm, and her big hair halfway between those points and all the way down to her forequarters. A long lower body follows, rising to a callipygian rump. She finishes in a long cascade of fur, her tail which doesn't stop moving. Her legs go on and on, amazingly reaching the ground, and evidencing a few too many runs to the chicken coop. She has black boots too, and gloves, and black lips.
Above her chesty plateau she has an open, welcoming face. Nice eyes, a vacuous expression, thick eyebrowns and fluffy cheeks. Overall her face is white, as are her belly and breasts, underbelly and breasts, rimmed with dusky grey that colours the rest of her deceptively granite.
Dzhani is wearing a shirt that clearly would rather be somewhere else, stretched and straining, each button one deep breath away from becoming a deadly projectile. A limbless bodysuit clings to her lower body, her ventral curves disguised by skirts around her foreshoulders and hindquarters.
She also has a Toy Soldier and Halloween-Dalek appearance, from some other overlapping fandoms.
My favourite and what I consider the best picture of her foxtaur form is by Deonwolf. The two close seconds are by Macroophile.
Deonwolf - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/16625077/
Macroophile - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/18424197/
Macroophile - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/45963956/
Mine, always feel like failures in comparison. I'm not happy with her upper and lower body proportions, her many breasts are difficult to make work, I bounce around a lot on how heavy and how feral her lower body should be, how long her legs are. The difficulty of getting a good silhouette for her. WMDiscovery93's Haley has a lovely build, and I also like what Rabid, Squeakie and DrakonST, but their designs are not exactly compatible and Dzhani's canon milk-tanker form doesn't lend itself to stories and comic situations beyond 'immobilized by her breasts'. One of my friends was very large chested and not overweight, and ended up opting for breast reduction surgery (what her husband termed 'the most selfish surgery every'). She lamented on several occasions before that they simply were causing problems for her and it wasn't that her back hurt. She couldn't find a lot of appealing clothes, her female coworkers were mean to her, the male ones distracted and her pupils didn't take her seriously. She was made fun of in Japan, she understood enough Japanese to know the jokes they were making about her. These aren't exactly fun things to tell, and it's her to tell, I'm not sure she'd want to be embodied in Dzhani.
Rabid Examples: https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....umping-Profits
Squeakie Examples: https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....Breasted-Taurs
DrakonST Example: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59723113/
Which is to say I'm over-thinking this. I could probably just hand-wave and say compression fabric/portal technology/magical illusions/dimensional pocket-spaces and be done. Have a SFW version for whatever she'd be fun doing, and those in the know would be aware that when she turns off the de-lewder she doubles in size in a NSFW way. The sketches are me trying to work out something that works and finalize on it. Alternating between exact measurements with heads (4 for upper torso, 6 for lower long and 2 high, 4 for legs, 6 for tail); shapes (mostly circles); going smaller and smaller to see what main themes and shapes emerge; exploring my stylized-realistic range, and so on.
If you had thoughts on what worked, what didn't, please feel free to comment on the roughs.
[Editing paused, will resume later]
This is a long companion piece to these rough sketches. Assume every link in this is NSFW even if a couple aren't:
- https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60237665/
- https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60238503/
- https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60238937/
I'll circle back to them in a bit.
Dzhani artwork goes back to 2009. Inspiration, a lot further. I have a picture by Mike Higgs, inspired by his Tiffany, of a busty cat-taur from 1996. Macroophile made a couple busty foxtaur pics in 2007, and possibly earlier. Of course, the major influence and blame must be laid on Shaterri, the first foxtaur I ever encountered when I got on Furrymuck in 1990. As he was the one that introduced me to the concept and the possibility that centaurs came in other forms, I think of him as their originator, even though I'm aware Mike Higgs and Roy D Pounds were doing things prior to our meetings. Mr. Pound's KlickKlax has also been a longtime favourite of mine. The real history is here: https://en.wikifur.com/wiki/Foxtaur
Higgs - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60280041/
Macroophile 1 - https://e621.net/posts/67070
Macroophile 2 - https://e621.net/posts/67071
Sample - http://web.archive.org/web/20000118.....aterri-krs.gif
- http://web.archive.org/web/20000118.....e/shaterri.gif
Roy D Pounds - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/1049758/
My first picture of Dzhani has her wearing one of Dr. Steel's Toy soldiers. I ran into a Toy Soldier at the Abney Park concert at Metrocon 2009. All of these dates and associations are meant to illustrate that it feels like she's been around a lot longer than I can definitely prove. She was made as a character on FurryMuck in July, 2009. She's always been a foxtaur on FurryMuck, but that's not the only version of her.
She was also a RPG character in Vicki and Bard Bloom's Worldtree setting. A game without humans; one of the adventuring races are the Cani. Cani are essentially dogs which are naturally Poly-amorous and get married into small packs. In Dzhani's case, she had 3 husbands and two sister-wives. As an adventurer, she was fairly balanced with charisma and talking skills, magic and fighting. She has all the attractive, alluring voice, type advantages one can buy, and a pure-breed, which allowed her to look like a specific canine-type, in her case a fox. Culturally, the cani-family females all have puppies at the same time, so Dzhani's 'call to adventure' was the need to go out and see the world before she got tied down for several years with puppies. Get in shape, use up all the wanderlust, and actual lust. She had a Monster Fucker License before such things were a thing, and that was one way they got out of, or into, some encounters. I have a couple pics of her in this form, as an adventuring Airship Captain.
Worldtree pics:
Mine - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/2923997/
Mine - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/2981055/
Jaeh - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/6192412/
DCRabbit - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48407509/
Despite how it sounds, the game was not especially lewd. The RP was in text and covered by fade to black moments. Our GM seemed if anything, amused by it all, and we would joke about situations where it wouldn't work for Dzhani. Such as, no matter how many times and how hard she seduced her husbands and wives, sexing them up might not solve their family dynamic problems and she might be forced to try an alternative, like talking it out. The game ran from 2009 -2012, and I haven't revisited.
Foxes and fox personality traits were one of the amusing discussion topics among my Florida friend group. I had wanted a fox character, and while Sunset was close she was a maned wolf that thought she was a grey wolf. I wanted to indulge some of the PFT and vixen bimbo sterotypes that were floating around at the time. If you have used 'Yiff' and wondered where that came from, well, Yiff means something different than you think it does from the accepted usage, and there was a lot of dom/sub wolf/fox stuff floating around the early days. PFT popped up a little later, and you can have that as some research homework if you want to prove me wrong. So she was incarnated on FurryMuck and has been off-and-on active to this day as fox-taur/vixen-taur there to this day.
--- Current FM Description ----
Vixens are big, bouncy, busty bimbos. Typically...
Dzhani is no exception, besides being a fox-taur. With ridiculous hourglass proportions of a zaftig hourglass that went back for more hours. The top of her head is two meters up, her eartips adding 30 cm, and her big hair halfway between those points and all the way down to her forequarters. A long lower body follows, rising to a callipygian rump. She finishes in a long cascade of fur, her tail which doesn't stop moving. Her legs go on and on, amazingly reaching the ground, and evidencing a few too many runs to the chicken coop. She has black boots too, and gloves, and black lips.
Above her chesty plateau she has an open, welcoming face. Nice eyes, a vacuous expression, thick eyebrowns and fluffy cheeks. Overall her face is white, as are her belly and breasts, underbelly and breasts, rimmed with dusky grey that colours the rest of her deceptively granite.
Dzhani is wearing a shirt that clearly would rather be somewhere else, stretched and straining, each button one deep breath away from becoming a deadly projectile. A limbless bodysuit clings to her lower body, her ventral curves disguised by skirts around her foreshoulders and hindquarters.
She also has a Toy Soldier and Halloween-Dalek appearance, from some other overlapping fandoms.
My favourite and what I consider the best picture of her foxtaur form is by Deonwolf. The two close seconds are by Macroophile.
Deonwolf - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/16625077/
Macroophile - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/18424197/
Macroophile - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/45963956/
Mine, always feel like failures in comparison. I'm not happy with her upper and lower body proportions, her many breasts are difficult to make work, I bounce around a lot on how heavy and how feral her lower body should be, how long her legs are. The difficulty of getting a good silhouette for her. WMDiscovery93's Haley has a lovely build, and I also like what Rabid, Squeakie and DrakonST, but their designs are not exactly compatible and Dzhani's canon milk-tanker form doesn't lend itself to stories and comic situations beyond 'immobilized by her breasts'. One of my friends was very large chested and not overweight, and ended up opting for breast reduction surgery (what her husband termed 'the most selfish surgery every'). She lamented on several occasions before that they simply were causing problems for her and it wasn't that her back hurt. She couldn't find a lot of appealing clothes, her female coworkers were mean to her, the male ones distracted and her pupils didn't take her seriously. She was made fun of in Japan, she understood enough Japanese to know the jokes they were making about her. These aren't exactly fun things to tell, and it's her to tell, I'm not sure she'd want to be embodied in Dzhani.
Rabid Examples: https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....umping-Profits
Squeakie Examples: https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....Breasted-Taurs
DrakonST Example: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59723113/
Which is to say I'm over-thinking this. I could probably just hand-wave and say compression fabric/portal technology/magical illusions/dimensional pocket-spaces and be done. Have a SFW version for whatever she'd be fun doing, and those in the know would be aware that when she turns off the de-lewder she doubles in size in a NSFW way. The sketches are me trying to work out something that works and finalize on it. Alternating between exact measurements with heads (4 for upper torso, 6 for lower long and 2 high, 4 for legs, 6 for tail); shapes (mostly circles); going smaller and smaller to see what main themes and shapes emerge; exploring my stylized-realistic range, and so on.
If you had thoughts on what worked, what didn't, please feel free to comment on the roughs.
[Editing paused, will resume later]
Go Check This out!
General | Posted 10 months agoIt's so much easier to link than to upload.
Awesome gift-pic from
antar-dragon
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59820305/
Awesome gift-pic from
antar-dragonhttps://www.furaffinity.net/view/59820305/
Hot Body Pillows Near You!
General | Posted 12 months agoSo...
Largely I haven't felt like updating how things are going because people complain I complain too much, and even though I've largely gone radio silent it's like they have zombie memories from 2 decades ago and just assume I am still acting the same. Stuff is better but not great, I'm not sure what my problem with addressing the issues are, it seems like some kind of executive dysfunction or elaborate procrastination. Anyhow, people occasionally ask how they can help and I reply I don't have any ideas.
Although now I have one, which is kind of stupid but as it has been persistent I'll elaborate. I have a body pillow which appeared at some point, sans cover. I would like something to cover it, because regular pillow cases keep falling off. I would enjoy a dakimakura but don't know a good source. Something female and sexy, I don't care if it's lewd. A dragon, a succubi, a cougar, a fox would be fine. Something similar to Noben's or Chochi's style would be great. Even RML's Dragon with the Bardiche on the other side was kind of cool.
So, I would appreciate any links suggesting something I could pick up, since I'm kind of terrible at searching.
Largely I haven't felt like updating how things are going because people complain I complain too much, and even though I've largely gone radio silent it's like they have zombie memories from 2 decades ago and just assume I am still acting the same. Stuff is better but not great, I'm not sure what my problem with addressing the issues are, it seems like some kind of executive dysfunction or elaborate procrastination. Anyhow, people occasionally ask how they can help and I reply I don't have any ideas.
Although now I have one, which is kind of stupid but as it has been persistent I'll elaborate. I have a body pillow which appeared at some point, sans cover. I would like something to cover it, because regular pillow cases keep falling off. I would enjoy a dakimakura but don't know a good source. Something female and sexy, I don't care if it's lewd. A dragon, a succubi, a cougar, a fox would be fine. Something similar to Noben's or Chochi's style would be great. Even RML's Dragon with the Bardiche on the other side was kind of cool.
So, I would appreciate any links suggesting something I could pick up, since I'm kind of terrible at searching.
Bluesky
General | Posted a year agoI'm on Bluesky, here: https://bsky.app/profile/sasta.bsky.social
I'm in some other places if anyone cares. Don't expect much, I use it less than Twitter.
I'm in some other places if anyone cares. Don't expect much, I use it less than Twitter.
Wasps
General | Posted a year agoThis was a reply to another journal, but seemed interesting enough to put up here.
So...
Last night I opened a door which ripped a wasp's nest in half, because it was built across the door and frame. Instantly ran back towards the house, got stung twice before I made it inside. Two wasps chased me in, died to bug spray. The rest of the hive covered the windows like something out of a Killer Bees movie. They kept it up, crawling all around into the darkness and way past midnight. It was surreal. Went o bed.
In the morning, discovered that the hive had been further torn apart. Apparently, a local raccoon was investigating the a bait station nearby, got stung and went on a rampage. So, surprise midnight ally.
Today, the wasps are still pissed and swarming. I've decided to go all Lenninger vs the Wasps, and try spraying them down with the strong nest chemicals.
So far, no anaphylactic shock from the stings, and only mild lingering discomfort, however the stings from a few days ago are infected so I'm hoping that's not a trend.
I am imagining it all as a short manga-style comic, but doubt I'll draw it.
So...
Last night I opened a door which ripped a wasp's nest in half, because it was built across the door and frame. Instantly ran back towards the house, got stung twice before I made it inside. Two wasps chased me in, died to bug spray. The rest of the hive covered the windows like something out of a Killer Bees movie. They kept it up, crawling all around into the darkness and way past midnight. It was surreal. Went o bed.
In the morning, discovered that the hive had been further torn apart. Apparently, a local raccoon was investigating the a bait station nearby, got stung and went on a rampage. So, surprise midnight ally.
Today, the wasps are still pissed and swarming. I've decided to go all Lenninger vs the Wasps, and try spraying them down with the strong nest chemicals.
So far, no anaphylactic shock from the stings, and only mild lingering discomfort, however the stings from a few days ago are infected so I'm hoping that's not a trend.
I am imagining it all as a short manga-style comic, but doubt I'll draw it.
Free Churro
General | Posted a year agoI enjoyed Bojack Horseman a lot. I liked Tukka and Bertie too, Bojack's theme's were more relevant to me. In particular, his mother's Dementia and how it was portrayed. The episode where he dropped her off at a Nursing Home, and then the one that followed really struck home.
My mother was in a LTC since 2011 and she had a nice view, a nice room, and I was there a lot.
Free Churro, referenced a line in his eulogy monologue where Bojack told a drive-thru server his mother had passed, and she gave him a free Churro. It's become shorthand for me. Leilani at the Roti shop I go to was finding odd Caribbean things, like Mauby and Sorrel, for me to use to try and get my mother to eat. When I went into tell her it wasn't necessary anymore she gave me my usual order at no charge.
My free churro.
I forgot to pay property tax and my bank suggested I go ask Town Hall for interest forgiveness due to bereavement. It wasn't in a George Castanza way, it hadn't even occurred to me. So I went and asked: no free churro there.
It sounds irreverent, but well, things still aren't great but in new and different ways. The depressive thoughts have coalesced and refined to new, intense versions. I've got good friends, local and on Discord that are helping. I've wanted to post something, but I've drawn and written nothing, and have nothing I can imagine worth talking about.
Even writing this has been unexpectedly emotional.
My mother was in a LTC since 2011 and she had a nice view, a nice room, and I was there a lot.
Free Churro, referenced a line in his eulogy monologue where Bojack told a drive-thru server his mother had passed, and she gave him a free Churro. It's become shorthand for me. Leilani at the Roti shop I go to was finding odd Caribbean things, like Mauby and Sorrel, for me to use to try and get my mother to eat. When I went into tell her it wasn't necessary anymore she gave me my usual order at no charge.
My free churro.
I forgot to pay property tax and my bank suggested I go ask Town Hall for interest forgiveness due to bereavement. It wasn't in a George Castanza way, it hadn't even occurred to me. So I went and asked: no free churro there.
It sounds irreverent, but well, things still aren't great but in new and different ways. The depressive thoughts have coalesced and refined to new, intense versions. I've got good friends, local and on Discord that are helping. I've wanted to post something, but I've drawn and written nothing, and have nothing I can imagine worth talking about.
Even writing this has been unexpectedly emotional.
She's gone.
General | Posted a year agoMy mother passed away at 11:29PM on Thursday.
My sister and I were there with her, and it was peaceful in the end, despite a long day of struggling to breathe.
I'll provide more details later, like a link to her obit, to anyone interested that I know well. Can't just broadcast to all'y'all.
My sister and I were there with her, and it was peaceful in the end, despite a long day of struggling to breathe.
I'll provide more details later, like a link to her obit, to anyone interested that I know well. Can't just broadcast to all'y'all.
My mother isn't doing well.
General | Posted a year agoThings aren't looking great. I'll be around even less.
Sophia isn't doing well.
General | Posted 2 years agoMy 19 yr old Siamese girl isn't doing well.
She's down to 4.9 lbs from her excessively corpulent weight of 6.8 lbs when she was rescued 6 years ago. Unsettlingly, she's bleeding frequently from her mouth.
The vet offered the options of a $2100 dental surgery, where the anesthetics might kill her, and the post-op medication might kill her, if she didn't simply expire from being so frail, or some antibiotics and painkillers that will hopefully resolve the issue and get her through her teeth falling out naturally or whatever is in her mouth healing up on its own.
Although it could be a developing tumorous cancer, which will become obvious in about a month. When I first adopted Sophia, the Xrays showed a lot of cloudiness in her lungs, which was interpreted as possibly lung cancer (what killed my cat, Bombay), and I was told she likely had only a month. If it was cancer though, it's the slowest moving kind ever observed, as it's coming up on 7 years since that first diagnosis, so I'm not entirely sure what to think about whatever is going on with her mouth.
Still. Not good. Thanks for your thoughts.
She's down to 4.9 lbs from her excessively corpulent weight of 6.8 lbs when she was rescued 6 years ago. Unsettlingly, she's bleeding frequently from her mouth.
The vet offered the options of a $2100 dental surgery, where the anesthetics might kill her, and the post-op medication might kill her, if she didn't simply expire from being so frail, or some antibiotics and painkillers that will hopefully resolve the issue and get her through her teeth falling out naturally or whatever is in her mouth healing up on its own.
Although it could be a developing tumorous cancer, which will become obvious in about a month. When I first adopted Sophia, the Xrays showed a lot of cloudiness in her lungs, which was interpreted as possibly lung cancer (what killed my cat, Bombay), and I was told she likely had only a month. If it was cancer though, it's the slowest moving kind ever observed, as it's coming up on 7 years since that first diagnosis, so I'm not entirely sure what to think about whatever is going on with her mouth.
Still. Not good. Thanks for your thoughts.
Her Name is Red
General | Posted 2 years agoA short little fiction for my werewolf character.
Her name is Red.
There are no wolves in the British Isles. The last sighting of a wolf in Scotland was 1888. The last wolf in Ireland was killed in 1786, and the last traces in Wales was 1680. The Isle of Man hasn't had wolves even that far back, but in 1182 Giraldus Cambrensis met the Ossory wolf who told him of their curse by Saint Natalis of Kilkenny, to be a Man for seven years, then a wolf for seven, and how his wife needed last rites.
So there are no wolves in the British Isles, but there were wolves, and there are werewolves. Urbanized, hidden, in the streets and the deep glens, hanging onto the Wyld where they can. Their bloodlines stretch back millennia, before the Romans, and recessive strains at times manifest in the strangest of places.
Her parents were dogs. She was born to a breeder, a litter of five and the strongest of the bunch. If the Fianna had seen her, they would have claimed her, so large was she, so brightly russet was her fur. A vibrant red-orange like a fox's. If the Red Talons had seen her, they would have claimed her, for a blood-red shock of fur rose from her forehead and down her spine like a razorback. Even the Children of Gaia might have claimed her, such a carefree spirit she had, gamboling with the other puppies.
Their eyes aren't everywhere and she was overlooked, bought by a recent divorcee to replace her husband and went to live with her, her adult son, and his girlfriend in a little village. She was called Sangria, and as they worked from home she was never starved for attention. She also couldn't get enough and the neighbour's children were often tasked to play with her to burn up her seemingly endless energy.
Red's story might have ended here as she lived out a happy life in her fur-ever home. It was not meant to be. The Son was a good son but his friends were not. Jealous of his success and drunken boasting, one of them griped to another that he needed to be taken down a peg. That seed sown took root, and grew, and one night friends of that friend broke in to smash and grab whatever they could of the Son's blissful life. Red was a happy, loving dog who never showed any signs of aggression. She was also a big dog who always jumped up on people. These men didn't have the scent of the Son on her. They were entering her territory in the middle of the night. She approached without fear and confronted them with a confused growl. A large dog can still be no match for a well placed knife to the neck.
She was not a dog, a surprise to both her and the home invaders. She exploded into her Crinos form, throwing the knifer through the wall into the yard and chasing the other thieves out into the darkness. They scattered. She tracked down each one and took a bite of flesh or left a gouge of claws. None were slain, because she was a Good Dog. They were hospitalized and left with permanent scars, because they were Bad Men and needed a reminder to not do that again.
Her rage spent, she wandered the streets marveling at all the new places and scents she'd never seen. It was wonderful, enchanting. Unexpectedly, she turned into a human. This was different! This was interesting! Finding her way home was tricky because her nose stopped working. She found her favourite hydrant, then her favourite telephone pole. She was close! Seeing her home lit up, hearing her Pet-Mom's voice, the Son, she eagerly ran home. I'm here! It's okay! I made the Bads go away!
A home invasion is a disturbing event that splashes out a wave of change. The police, an ambulance were there. Her whole family awake, confused by the ruined wall, the injured thief, the blood and fur of their dog in the hallway. A cacophony of light and questions. A naked, blood covered, teenage girl bouncing into the scene overcharged it. Her Mom recoiled, the Son shoved her away when she tried to jump up on him and lick his face. The Girlfriend went into a jealous rage and accused him of cheating. She couldn't speak, she couldn't understand. She recognized them! Why couldn't they recognize her!
The cat, Dr. Seuss, did, but he was a cat and thus an asshole and didn't tell anyone.
She was taken to hospital, examined for sexual assault and evaluated for brain damage. She couldn't explain, her limited vocabulary, mostly 'no', 'don't' and 'bad', got her no where. She had to be restrained as her habit of ripping off her clothes and attempting to go home wasn't recuperative. She was good at escaping, did so twice and almost made it out the door the second time, much to the entertainment of others. She was an enigma, but not an isolated one.
Victim services heard, social workers heard, and the Church heard. A nun came to visit. Once the Black Fury had seen her, they claimed her. She was beautiful and unbroken. She was taken to Ireland, to the convent of Our Merciful Mother, to learn 'not sniffing butts hello', 'not jumping up on people' and other esoteric things about God and Man's world. An existence which she had been adjacent to but never had the higher faculties of consciousness to fully appreciate.
She stayed in human form. She prayed, studied, learned to speak and read, received an education. An outdated one, but still an education. She reverted to lupus form, tore up furniture, escaped, caused mischief, came back pregnant. A problem, but not the first time a cloistered woman got in a delicate way, werewolf or otherwise. Her pup was a metis male, a double whammy for violating the Litany, but the Black Furies were patient, were kind. She was special, not in the head. Her son was special, mostly in the head and he was kept and raised too.
With her pure blood and transformation came some indications in hominid form that she was a werewolf. Pentagrams would appear on her palms on the nights of her moon. This was incredibly distressing, one of the reasons she would get frantic and finally transform to a wolf to run away. She was marked by Satan, the Wyrm, when she so desperately wanted to be a Good Girl. Man's world did not bring her happiness. It was not a world for Stray Dogs or wolves and she was brought back to the convent. The sisters told her to pray. God works in mysterious ways. God brought her bloodline back through chance recombinations. God has a reason. She prayed. Mother, Mother, why have you forsaken me? Forgive me, I'm just a dog.
And one moon the pentagrams didn't come and instead the Stigmata did. She was elated. The stigmata came every moon thereafter. It was a sign. She became a True Believer, an initiate, and then entered the orders as Sister Kaillie the Penitant. She learned and obeyed the teachings, the Order's corrected teachings of the Roman Catholic church. She was pious, mostly. Backsliding and running off into the wild, when not. Yet, she was called and a good dog comes when it is called, even if she's too distracted to hear sometimes.
The Roman Catholic Church needed some sisterly support in New Orleans, so the Convent of Our Merciful Mother sent her to the Church of Our Merciful Mother along with her son. She was ready to stand on her two hind legs. She would make new friends! She would bite bad people. She would lead the congregation in a spiritual resurgence, unite the disparate werewolves, and find the lost Cairn. She would be the bestest girl!
Her name is Red.
Her name is Red.
There are no wolves in the British Isles. The last sighting of a wolf in Scotland was 1888. The last wolf in Ireland was killed in 1786, and the last traces in Wales was 1680. The Isle of Man hasn't had wolves even that far back, but in 1182 Giraldus Cambrensis met the Ossory wolf who told him of their curse by Saint Natalis of Kilkenny, to be a Man for seven years, then a wolf for seven, and how his wife needed last rites.
So there are no wolves in the British Isles, but there were wolves, and there are werewolves. Urbanized, hidden, in the streets and the deep glens, hanging onto the Wyld where they can. Their bloodlines stretch back millennia, before the Romans, and recessive strains at times manifest in the strangest of places.
Her parents were dogs. She was born to a breeder, a litter of five and the strongest of the bunch. If the Fianna had seen her, they would have claimed her, so large was she, so brightly russet was her fur. A vibrant red-orange like a fox's. If the Red Talons had seen her, they would have claimed her, for a blood-red shock of fur rose from her forehead and down her spine like a razorback. Even the Children of Gaia might have claimed her, such a carefree spirit she had, gamboling with the other puppies.
Their eyes aren't everywhere and she was overlooked, bought by a recent divorcee to replace her husband and went to live with her, her adult son, and his girlfriend in a little village. She was called Sangria, and as they worked from home she was never starved for attention. She also couldn't get enough and the neighbour's children were often tasked to play with her to burn up her seemingly endless energy.
Red's story might have ended here as she lived out a happy life in her fur-ever home. It was not meant to be. The Son was a good son but his friends were not. Jealous of his success and drunken boasting, one of them griped to another that he needed to be taken down a peg. That seed sown took root, and grew, and one night friends of that friend broke in to smash and grab whatever they could of the Son's blissful life. Red was a happy, loving dog who never showed any signs of aggression. She was also a big dog who always jumped up on people. These men didn't have the scent of the Son on her. They were entering her territory in the middle of the night. She approached without fear and confronted them with a confused growl. A large dog can still be no match for a well placed knife to the neck.
She was not a dog, a surprise to both her and the home invaders. She exploded into her Crinos form, throwing the knifer through the wall into the yard and chasing the other thieves out into the darkness. They scattered. She tracked down each one and took a bite of flesh or left a gouge of claws. None were slain, because she was a Good Dog. They were hospitalized and left with permanent scars, because they were Bad Men and needed a reminder to not do that again.
Her rage spent, she wandered the streets marveling at all the new places and scents she'd never seen. It was wonderful, enchanting. Unexpectedly, she turned into a human. This was different! This was interesting! Finding her way home was tricky because her nose stopped working. She found her favourite hydrant, then her favourite telephone pole. She was close! Seeing her home lit up, hearing her Pet-Mom's voice, the Son, she eagerly ran home. I'm here! It's okay! I made the Bads go away!
A home invasion is a disturbing event that splashes out a wave of change. The police, an ambulance were there. Her whole family awake, confused by the ruined wall, the injured thief, the blood and fur of their dog in the hallway. A cacophony of light and questions. A naked, blood covered, teenage girl bouncing into the scene overcharged it. Her Mom recoiled, the Son shoved her away when she tried to jump up on him and lick his face. The Girlfriend went into a jealous rage and accused him of cheating. She couldn't speak, she couldn't understand. She recognized them! Why couldn't they recognize her!
The cat, Dr. Seuss, did, but he was a cat and thus an asshole and didn't tell anyone.
She was taken to hospital, examined for sexual assault and evaluated for brain damage. She couldn't explain, her limited vocabulary, mostly 'no', 'don't' and 'bad', got her no where. She had to be restrained as her habit of ripping off her clothes and attempting to go home wasn't recuperative. She was good at escaping, did so twice and almost made it out the door the second time, much to the entertainment of others. She was an enigma, but not an isolated one.
Victim services heard, social workers heard, and the Church heard. A nun came to visit. Once the Black Fury had seen her, they claimed her. She was beautiful and unbroken. She was taken to Ireland, to the convent of Our Merciful Mother, to learn 'not sniffing butts hello', 'not jumping up on people' and other esoteric things about God and Man's world. An existence which she had been adjacent to but never had the higher faculties of consciousness to fully appreciate.
She stayed in human form. She prayed, studied, learned to speak and read, received an education. An outdated one, but still an education. She reverted to lupus form, tore up furniture, escaped, caused mischief, came back pregnant. A problem, but not the first time a cloistered woman got in a delicate way, werewolf or otherwise. Her pup was a metis male, a double whammy for violating the Litany, but the Black Furies were patient, were kind. She was special, not in the head. Her son was special, mostly in the head and he was kept and raised too.
With her pure blood and transformation came some indications in hominid form that she was a werewolf. Pentagrams would appear on her palms on the nights of her moon. This was incredibly distressing, one of the reasons she would get frantic and finally transform to a wolf to run away. She was marked by Satan, the Wyrm, when she so desperately wanted to be a Good Girl. Man's world did not bring her happiness. It was not a world for Stray Dogs or wolves and she was brought back to the convent. The sisters told her to pray. God works in mysterious ways. God brought her bloodline back through chance recombinations. God has a reason. She prayed. Mother, Mother, why have you forsaken me? Forgive me, I'm just a dog.
And one moon the pentagrams didn't come and instead the Stigmata did. She was elated. The stigmata came every moon thereafter. It was a sign. She became a True Believer, an initiate, and then entered the orders as Sister Kaillie the Penitant. She learned and obeyed the teachings, the Order's corrected teachings of the Roman Catholic church. She was pious, mostly. Backsliding and running off into the wild, when not. Yet, she was called and a good dog comes when it is called, even if she's too distracted to hear sometimes.
The Roman Catholic Church needed some sisterly support in New Orleans, so the Convent of Our Merciful Mother sent her to the Church of Our Merciful Mother along with her son. She was ready to stand on her two hind legs. She would make new friends! She would bite bad people. She would lead the congregation in a spiritual resurgence, unite the disparate werewolves, and find the lost Cairn. She would be the bestest girl!
Her name is Red.
FanExpo 2023
General | Posted 2 years agoI went to FanExpo
I've had visitors all week,
DCRabbit, 
MaxBlackrabbit and 
Henbe. It's been fun, a lot of video games and a break from my regular routine which is dull and depressing. We got out to Dave & Busters, checked some shops, and got downtown.
I forgot how much fun cons were, even one where it was largely not furry related. A lot of really decent cosplay, and a bunch of things in the artist's alley I wish I'd bought more of, and a few things I with I'd bought less of. Got to see some names. Was looking for my namesake, but he wasn't there this year. Picked up an Egyptian scroll, on Papyrus, of Sekhmet, but she's coloured as if she's Tefnut, so it's even better.
Intriguing highlight was some Pickle Rick Fudge, which tastes a lot better than one would expect.
DCRabbit was kind enough to do a sketch of my shark girl. Max brought his Xbox X/S and I got deeply lost in Forza Horizon 5 and Hogwart's Legacy, levels 24 and 11 respectively. Picked up a game controller so we could 3-player some old Xbox 360 games, and that was fantastic. We finished the D&D Tomb and Shadows over Mysteria, as well as Castle Crushers. Very fun watching Max's characters in Phantasy Star Online, he's collected some great costumes for them.
We stayed up late playing these games and chatting. Although one night we promised not to, turned off the game and talked until 5am about our Caribbean Woes and things that would make good Superman Stories. (Hint: Largely anything he can't punch his way out of). Caught up on some fan-friends' events, so para-social!
Finished up with a BBQ yesterday where nothing was burned. Too many wasps showed up, and three local friends so it was quite the party. Showed off my plants. Apparently I'm a Druid Class, what with the ancient animal companion and all the plants. My backyard is 5' tall Queen Ann's Lace and there's an 8' tall sunflower I planted at the foot of my driveway which opened up just for their visit. It has permanent bees and wasps.
Overall fun and a great time. I need to have people over more often.
I've had visitors all week,
DCRabbit, 
MaxBlackrabbit and 
Henbe. It's been fun, a lot of video games and a break from my regular routine which is dull and depressing. We got out to Dave & Busters, checked some shops, and got downtown.I forgot how much fun cons were, even one where it was largely not furry related. A lot of really decent cosplay, and a bunch of things in the artist's alley I wish I'd bought more of, and a few things I with I'd bought less of. Got to see some names. Was looking for my namesake, but he wasn't there this year. Picked up an Egyptian scroll, on Papyrus, of Sekhmet, but she's coloured as if she's Tefnut, so it's even better.
Intriguing highlight was some Pickle Rick Fudge, which tastes a lot better than one would expect.
DCRabbit was kind enough to do a sketch of my shark girl. Max brought his Xbox X/S and I got deeply lost in Forza Horizon 5 and Hogwart's Legacy, levels 24 and 11 respectively. Picked up a game controller so we could 3-player some old Xbox 360 games, and that was fantastic. We finished the D&D Tomb and Shadows over Mysteria, as well as Castle Crushers. Very fun watching Max's characters in Phantasy Star Online, he's collected some great costumes for them.
We stayed up late playing these games and chatting. Although one night we promised not to, turned off the game and talked until 5am about our Caribbean Woes and things that would make good Superman Stories. (Hint: Largely anything he can't punch his way out of). Caught up on some fan-friends' events, so para-social!
Finished up with a BBQ yesterday where nothing was burned. Too many wasps showed up, and three local friends so it was quite the party. Showed off my plants. Apparently I'm a Druid Class, what with the ancient animal companion and all the plants. My backyard is 5' tall Queen Ann's Lace and there's an 8' tall sunflower I planted at the foot of my driveway which opened up just for their visit. It has permanent bees and wasps.
Overall fun and a great time. I need to have people over more often.
Russian Artist in need of aid.
General | Posted 2 years ago
Bananitryi's situation is very bad, their journal details are here. https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10581244/I wish I could help, am still having trouble with my own issues. Signal boosting is about all I can manage. My apologies that it makes for depressing journals.
Anyone want a comm? Actually, receiving the money then sending it on seems like a needless step; tell me you've sent them some funds and I'll spend a couple hours doing something.
Thanks for the attention.
Gideon Injured and in need of aid.
General | Posted 2 years ago
Gideon has broken his arm and needs financial assistance.
astor's journal on the topic, https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10556883/
geemo's journal on the topic: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10556342/A GoFundMe has been started here:
https://www.gofundme.com/f/gravity-.....va-boss-battle
gideon's post, xray and some more details, https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52244073/Free female fmirsokp funzie
General | Posted 2 years ago
fmirsokp is offering free female sketches. Check the posting here. https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51957016/Fmirsokp's style is really interesting, quite vibrant and energetic. Frenic, even.
Woot! Thank you Paizo
General | Posted 3 years agoOkay, some good news for this year. Paizo is going to create an Open RPG Creative License, or ORC License, to open source rulesets. I'm really pleased to see Chaosium involved, as Runequest and Call of Cthulhu are two of my favourite games. Also, Kobold Press is a part of it. Which is awesome, because Kobolds!
Send more Kobolds!
Seriously I'm not having a great time and don't want to talk about why.
Send more Kobolds!
Seriously I'm not having a great time and don't want to talk about why.
A Transhuman RPG
General | Posted 3 years agoI've backed this kickstarter project: https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....ring-role-play
It's by good people. I've playtested and played Ironclaw, which is another Sanguine production, and
egypturnash, 
mamabliss, 
rafferty, and 
xinjinmeng are involved and pretty fantastic. So I expect weirness, lots of excellent weirdness.
So check it out, 4 days left.
It's by good people. I've playtested and played Ironclaw, which is another Sanguine production, and
egypturnash, 
mamabliss, 
rafferty, and 
xinjinmeng are involved and pretty fantastic. So I expect weirness, lots of excellent weirdness.So check it out, 4 days left.
Depression and Spoons
General | Posted 3 years agoThe main problem with depression is once you start getting your act together and begin to climb out of it, all the things which put you there come back and beat you down once more.
And people say I'm in a terrible mood all the time. That's why.
And people say I'm in a terrible mood all the time. That's why.
Cryosanthia's Colours
General | Posted 3 years agoSo, this was originally commentary I intended to post on the Comic, Resolution, by the late Vicky Wyman.
Page 3 - Colour: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/23450644/
Page 3 - B&W: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/22291122/
Cryosanthia was original a FurryMuck character, and every year I'd update her description and make her larger. She stared off the size of a dog and eventually grew to macro size. Initially, she was copper and silvery coloured, and also radioactive. As she got older and grew, the copper turned to verdigris, and the silver (technically gallium) tarshened to a matte black.
Vicky captured this perfectly with both the young/old designs, and the colour shifting.
On Tenebrae Mush, I remade her as a lizard folk, and wanted to lean into the 'Cryo' aspect of her name, so I made her have a white dragon heritage. As a nod to her FM days, she had scarification tattoos on her, which were black and would glow with a baleful green light.
As roleplay progressed, she got these aspects repaired and acquired other markings, essentially what and pale glacial blues. Her eyes are often described as sapphire gems.
For her Aeromorph version, I considered changes to make her look more draconic, or to request a colour change, and finally decided to let it stand. Her eyes were already blue, so that works as a nod to her earlier colour schemes, as well as her predominantly white design.
Page 3 - Colour: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/23450644/
Page 3 - B&W: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/22291122/
Cryosanthia was original a FurryMuck character, and every year I'd update her description and make her larger. She stared off the size of a dog and eventually grew to macro size. Initially, she was copper and silvery coloured, and also radioactive. As she got older and grew, the copper turned to verdigris, and the silver (technically gallium) tarshened to a matte black.
Vicky captured this perfectly with both the young/old designs, and the colour shifting.
On Tenebrae Mush, I remade her as a lizard folk, and wanted to lean into the 'Cryo' aspect of her name, so I made her have a white dragon heritage. As a nod to her FM days, she had scarification tattoos on her, which were black and would glow with a baleful green light.
As roleplay progressed, she got these aspects repaired and acquired other markings, essentially what and pale glacial blues. Her eyes are often described as sapphire gems.
For her Aeromorph version, I considered changes to make her look more draconic, or to request a colour change, and finally decided to let it stand. Her eyes were already blue, so that works as a nod to her earlier colour schemes, as well as her predominantly white design.
Taken by Gypsies
General | Posted 3 years agoJust want to remind everyone that contractor scams are still a thing, and not obvious.
They aren't Snidley Whiplash, mustache twirling 'nyaah ha haa', types. No, they seem straight up, honest, go-getting guys that would be fun to hang out with socially and the conversation drags you along.
It's only later when the sand washes out after the first rainstorm, and the steps have 1" gaps that they didn't before, and you remember that they kind of had the same accent as Brad Pitt did when he played a Pikey in Snatch, that it all clicks.
So hey, least I got fucked this year.
They aren't Snidley Whiplash, mustache twirling 'nyaah ha haa', types. No, they seem straight up, honest, go-getting guys that would be fun to hang out with socially and the conversation drags you along.
It's only later when the sand washes out after the first rainstorm, and the steps have 1" gaps that they didn't before, and you remember that they kind of had the same accent as Brad Pitt did when he played a Pikey in Snatch, that it all clicks.
So hey, least I got fucked this year.
Allo-what?
General | Posted 3 years agoSo it's been a little over a week since I learned of a hair condition I never knew of in over forty years. The significance is, my family has lots of baldness on the male and female sides, and I have Trichotillomania, so, y'know. I thought I was aware of everything hair-loss related. The expectation that it's common knowledge, recognizeable at a glance and so much worse than clubbing baby seals to make it the subject of a joke that instant violent response is necessary is kind of ludicrous.
I had another thought, which is based on my initial reaction to the GI Jane joke. It might not be about the hair.
Just prior to roasting the Smiths, Rock is joking about another married couple both being nominated for Oscars, and how Will needs to win if the other guy's wife loses. He then pivots to saying he's looking forward to seeing Jada in a sequel to a movie that's not being made, is over twenty years old, and was kind of controversial and disliked when it did come out.
Show me how you say someone is irrelevant without saying they're irrelevant.
Especially when the 2016 joke about not being invited to the Oscars is considered, I wonder if the issue was the joke was layered, with a deeper sting underneath a relatively excusable one.
Anyhow, still no excuse for slapping someone.
Anyhow-anyhow: at least the Ukraine seems to be winning right now.
I had another thought, which is based on my initial reaction to the GI Jane joke. It might not be about the hair.
Just prior to roasting the Smiths, Rock is joking about another married couple both being nominated for Oscars, and how Will needs to win if the other guy's wife loses. He then pivots to saying he's looking forward to seeing Jada in a sequel to a movie that's not being made, is over twenty years old, and was kind of controversial and disliked when it did come out.
Show me how you say someone is irrelevant without saying they're irrelevant.
Especially when the 2016 joke about not being invited to the Oscars is considered, I wonder if the issue was the joke was layered, with a deeper sting underneath a relatively excusable one.
Anyhow, still no excuse for slapping someone.
Anyhow-anyhow: at least the Ukraine seems to be winning right now.
Coda
General | Posted 4 years agoIf you haven't, read this. If you get the chance, buy it.
It's fantastic, absolutely fantastic.
https://viewcomics.me/coda/issue-1
It's fantastic, absolutely fantastic.
https://viewcomics.me/coda/issue-1
