Warning: Personal drama ahead, hard hat recommended.

Ok, so this one chick I know, well, knew now is threatening to knock my teeth out Monday when we exchange the items we have lent/given to each other. Why?

Well it all started just a few days ago. Another friend of mine is moving just a few blocks over, and needed some one with a truck to drive over 3 larger pieces of furniture, so just one trip. So I asked this friend who recently got a truck if she could do it. She said she would if I finished the commission I told her I would do as a gift 3 months ago. # months ago when I said I would be happy to do the pic she wanted for her and her mate, my que was high so I told her it was gonna be a while, paying customers come first, I need the money. I agreed to push the paying customers aside to have her picture done first. (last month she offered me 20$ to hurry me up, but never did give me any money)

That was the day we took the first load over, which was the most of it sense the couches fit in the SUV, sometime during that day, hauling around boxes and couches I managed to tear my right rotator cuff, so the next day I sent her a message letting her know doing any serious painting was quite impossible for at least the next 2 weeks.
She then asked "how far are we moving the stuff".
I said "Just one load two blocks over, its just 3 pieces".
She responded, " so Either you finish my commission before any other work "Before end of December" or gimme 30.00 :3
Then you guys have me for the day
The 30.00 is to pay my other friend to do the commission for me"

Maybe I am being overly sensitive, but this commission was supposed to be done as a gift, I was unable to finish it, and for the pic I was doing I would have charged any one else 60$ - 70$... Any ways, I was HURT, I felt like I was going to cry.
So I said, "what?
ummm...
wow
never mind
I mean I was charging you 20$ which is less then half of what I charge other people cause we were friends... I cant afford 30$
I am hurt"
(Which I was not charging her 20$, she offered me 20$, I was upset and not thinking.)

She said, "Im hurt that you said youd do thie commision and never did
its been months
I want this for Mitch and i for xmas"
(It was about 3 months ago she asked for it... And she was told my que was high and paying customers come first. She asked if I would do a painting of her and her mate after I did this free sketch for her ~Sketch removed by said shitty friend after seeing this journal~)

After that we argued about it for a bit, then argued about the clothing I lent her that I wanted back cause at that point I just wanted nothing to do with her anymore. We agreed she would come to my place around 1pm Monday to exchange my clothing and bike lock I lent her, for a old purple hoodie with a broken zipper she gave to me, cause I am poor, and hoodies are expensive. I even said she could keep the jewelry I gave her to remember me by.

Then she went on to say that I fucked her around many times in the past as well. Which, I was gonna help her fix a vacuum at a car wash place, she was gonna start a contracting company and said she wanted to try me out so I would come in and help her with it for no pay. The night before my boss called and offered a full day shift, which I could just not pass up, the fall is the slow season, I can't afford to miss one shift sense I only get up to 5 a month this time of year. So I told her right away I had to cancel. Then there was a few time we where supposed to hang out but I got distracted or something had come up. Horrible person arn't I?

So at this point tempers where high and you could smell the cattyness from the computer screen.

She then asked for the purple sweater she gave me back, saying "i gave it to my friend...
Seeing as your pulling this shit it makes me question that " I responded "You wanting me to give tyou 30$ to move one truck load of alicas stuff 2 block so you could pay some oen else to finish the commission I started for you?
That has me questioning our friendship
that is why I asked for mystuff back"

She never did really respond to that, the next thing she said was "If youd simply finish it for me id do it for free" Of course I then said "I could simply finihs it if my arm was not in a sling >:C"

THEN, that very night she texts the fur who introduced me to both her and the girl who was in need of help moving, asking when to be there. Then tells me today over MSN she was going to help her move regardless...

I also remembered to ask for the bike lock I lent her back on MSN this am, she responded with "get a life :p" So at that point I went full bitch and said "if you want to sink to insults, I can too. I sold the line work for the picture I was doing for her to some one else as a 'your character here' kinda deal for 50$, then I said something else that was insulting, I forget what now. Then she just said I was being a bitch, IDK about you guys, but in my experience when you are shitty person, people are shitty towards you(bitch begets bitch).

Then I brought up how she pulled all that crap on me and destroyed our friendship, because of the favor I asked.
"Yeah, she mentioned you texted kris... Kinda fucked up...
you have some serious mental issues, you REALLY pull that bull shit on me, loose me as a friend, yet you are gonna help out any ways?
what the fuck kind of sense does that make"

Then she blocked me, but I was not done. I was pissed and was still hoping she would see who was really being the cunt here and apologies. I went about it poorly, but, I do allot of things poorly when I am pissed.
So I texted her "Seriously? LOLOLOL and you said I need to get a life. What I said after that has been removed as 'suggested' by police" (Yeah, she ACTUALLY called the cops on me, about an FA journal, even though she threatened violence against me. *facepalm*)
She responded; "Ok I'm gonna knock your teeth out cunt, hope you are ready"

(She lost ALL her friends. She was originally a he, married to a well paid man with a luxurious lifestyle. Then decided too pull a Mr.Garison and pop a sex change on her homosexual husband, who like Mr.Slave was not ok with that. Even most of her family wont talk to her after the shit she pulled when that drama was happening. She didn't talk to me much back then. It was not until she was kicked out of her husbands house that she bothered to even befriend me, which, as some of you know I'll be friends with just about any one. I am an easy going person.


I texted her back "Hey. you where the one who wanted to start tossing around insults, don't threaten me cause you know I'm right." Then after a while of no response I texted her again "Just remember, you can apologize for being such a cunt to me any time today and I will forgive you for asking such a thing of me. Up to you"

I should also mention this is the person my 'Perfection" rant is about.

Yes the quotes are all copy +pasted from the convo, you can tell where I lost my temper by how shitty my typing gets.



I have decided, I will 'NEVER' offer free art to 'ANY' friend 'EVER' again. It just leave me open to bull shit like this making a repeat. I really hate being so cynical, but I am a sensitive person.
:'C


Thoughts and comments are appreciated. I am pretty sure I was in the right to be so hurt, upset, and angry with her. I could be wrong.





*EDIT*

Yeah, I deleted this Journal. The dumb cunt finally apologized for the shit she did, and promised to leave me alone and let the fight go. Only to turn around and lie. Apparently I am slandering her making a group I admin 'unsafe' for her.

*Face Palm*

This is has gone beyond getting old to straight up zombied.


*EDIT EDIT*

(Rumor removed due to it causing problems for people not involved in this beef)
I posted that in the comments of the original journal that it blew up my front yard planter.
(Check out he pics of the Damage to the planter here) http://ontariofurs.com/board/index.......html#msg73213

Today I was reminded of one of my adventures in Sarnia, it made me sad, happy and fuzzy feeling all at the same time.
I know vigilantyism is often frowned upon, but morally some times you just gotta take it upon yourself to do something about a bad situation.

This is poorly written out, maybe Ill make a simple comic about it in the future, its definatly my favorite and proudest moment in the past decade. So please, enjoy some copy pasta from the OF forum.

We lived with this crazy bitch, my best friend and I for 3 months while her hubby was in jail so we could help pay the bills so they could keep the house. She kept taking in animals from the pound and of kijiji and would not feed or take care of the dogs.

She had a small dog that was with her sense her late child hood and actually managed to a least share her food with it as she was to lazy/ stupid/ broke to get dog food.
So one day a pit bull she got from a fighting ring accross the boarder. He was used as a bait dog and was in terrible shape and needed vet care despratly.

So after she stole a bunch of our stuff and casued the death of one of the kittens she took in, and trying to take the pit bull to the humain society to be put down for snapping at her loved little dog over the food, we decided that was enough. This pitty was nothing but sweet, never bit nipped growled and got along great with all the dogs. But of course as any animal when starved, its survival over all. So we moved out, my friend and I hatched a plan to save the animals in the house. (When she took him to the cops they actually did take them to the humane society to lock the dog up, but the cops kye broke in the door. If there is a higher power, that was your sign to intervine)

My friend went and got some oxys, witch the bitch we lived with was hooked on, and we went over. I ducked by the back fence out of sight while my friend knocked on the door, presented the pills and was quickly whisked upstairs so that bitch could get her fix. When she got up there as planned my friend showed her some new music so there was some noise cover. As soon as I saw the shadows up stairs I creeped in threw he kitchen to the basement door witch woulden't shut, so she had placed a book shelf infront of it to bar him down there. It had a bucnh of crap o it and I was in a hursh with the adrenalin flowing for fear of being caught. I tried to move it quitely and fast with no luck and quickly gave up and just tossed the book shelf over. Samson ( the pitty) flew out the door with me right behind him. I was to freaked to leash him up so we both just bolted out the same door by the kitchen. He was such a good dog he even ran by my side for 4 blocks and didnt fuss or whine when we ducked into another of our friends places.

Samson is now happily living on the Sarnia reserve called Cettle Point with a kind old native lady and 4 other rescued dogs, luckily she had the space heart and money that was needed to give that old broken pitty a happy ending. *tear*

The small dog shes had sense chld hood we left sense he was at least loved and taken care of decently. The remaining kitty sadly had to be left behind, it was in her room at the time of the break in. A mixed mediumn sided dog part lab part.. something had slipped out when I first opened the door and was picked up by some one we had waiting outside just incase.

^.-.^ Fond memories of dark times.

I will be back Feb 1st.

Much love Fa.

Alright, I'm pissed off now, as I was drawing and listening to the Colbert report. They were talking about the whole thing with corporations being considered the same as any other person.
(Witch of course as we all know as people we all have the same rights, but if one of thous people are so rich it cost them pocket change to tie up any wrong doing in the courts)
The problems of this act are more then obvious, look at Wal-mart it holds more wealth and power the Denmark, (Gah! Bashes her head into the desk) Now before congress there is talk of giving corporations more power such as the power to back Presidential candidacies and what not. Am I the only person who sees a HUGE problem with this? This shit, at least to me, is pretty scary.

Before I changed the Chanel Colbert said "So wouldn't corporations be considered more of a person then the people" and that is a world I DO NOT wanna live in. If my kids have to read about Mc anything in school I'm gonna have to make some brain smoothies.




I'm so mad I could kick a kitten, and smack a baby. Fuck it I'm so pissed off I'd just smack the baby WITH the kitten!

Fuck 09!!

Just straight up FUCK IT!

This year as most of you know this year is starting off to be crap-fucking-tastic. Just when I think I'm in the clear here's a whole new nutritious helping of BULLSHIT crammed into my face hole!! I'm not going to go into it because I have a lot of shit to do, if your waiting on me for some thing. I am sincerely sorry. I will be back up and running normally once I clean the crud out of my life.

Gah!!!

Recently my sister has gotten in touch with another one of our neaces from Newfoundland. I havent gotan a chance to talk to her myself, but my sister told me our neace said our father gets really upset when hes sees an Ontario area code on his phone and its not us he crys and gets realy mopy for a while.

Its bin 9 years scince I last spoke with him. He had stoped calling even though out phone number remained the same. It hurts so much but I know it must have ben at the cause of my mother. She was always an unstable woman befor metapause hit. I'v wanted to see him for so long. That is untill I found out some very disturbing news about his past. I wont get into it but I can't forgive him, but the guilt for not trying to contact him and the what should have bin obvious trickary of my mother is killing me.

It is time for the tides to turn in my life. As exiting as a new chapter to life is, I find my self mourning the change.
I'm more then ready for it. I really need some damn excitement in my life, but I'm also leaving some one behind that I love very deeply (for three years). That I don't think I'll ever be ready for ( like pulling a super sticky band aid off your pubes)

I'm not going to get into any kind of serious relationship for a good while. I know its gonna take me a long long time to get over this one... I wont go into detail's but it is time for me and him to part ways, weather I like it, or not.


Damn man, I need a hug :(

Enter my contest or you will be subject to body cancers!
(Thanx for the line lil'chainy)


So I thought maybe I could trick some of you good peoples to doingan avatar for me. I Will do Yiffy or clean stuff in return. ;)




The prizes are:

1st- 3 Full color pictures, all in one picture with a background or 3 different character pics with a simple background

2nd- 2 Full color pictures, all in one picture with a simple background or 2 character pics with a simple background

3ed- 1 Full color pictures, all in one picture with a simple background

4th & 5th- full color 100x100 avatar

6th-10th one character sketch your choice of traditional pen, pencil or digital.




Sateva refrences... (I'll draw a decent one in the next few days...)

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1763206/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1771365/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1308224/

Any version of Sateva is cool, doing it in your own style is also highly encouraged. 100 X100 is good.









Please alow 1-3 months for prize artz.

End's sometime after more people are intrested.

Well, for a week any ways so there will me little or no activity from me for a week. After this week I won't be able to come back my home town to visit for another year.

The first week end was freakin awsome, we boggeyed down.

God I missed haveing a life.

Well probably not all that intelligent, but for a while I was starting to think maybe I am a bit dumb. What I wouldn't give for a second stab at high school. My spelling grammar and a lot of other things are severely lacking, and I work on it a bit, but there's never time to go back to school. :(

Yesterday I went for a ton of job testing, and interview... They never said anything about a test though, and I haven't study a thing in nearly 4 years. When she led me to the computers and said 'test' my brain did a face palm.

So there I was, rusty, no confidence in my brain meats, and a timer ticking in my ear. The typing test was simple copy the odd list of words in the test program in the box. I got finished before the time was up and miraculously past(lets face it Key boards, and my muscular little sausages, don't get along(ATHF quote)
I forget the score, nothing wonderful though.

Then I had 10 minutes to do another multiple choice test(with 6 answers per question:) with Math, sales, and random questions, Any one care to guess my score out of 25?

Common guess, :D

I'll post the answer at lunch (4 hours)

I got fired last week. They woulden't give me a real reason, but I heard from a few diffrent girls that it was because 2 girls wrote a letter full of BS about me to the boss. So, that kinda blows. At least I got a nice week off to catch up on every thing around the house. I even had enough time to draw every day.

Tomarrow I'll hit the job market, both guns blazzin. Probally at some old folks homes. Something diffrent, plus there is not much else to do in this little city.

P.S First 3 responces gets a free full colored pic.

Huzzah

Well I'll give you all the short version. I made a hard choice tonight. I'm not sure if its the right one or not. I left my boy friend Danny, thing have just bin so ruff, and I for one am missrable as hell here, he seems pretty missrable himself...

So I thought the best move might to be just end it now befor the push the shit pile so far it ends up all over our faces. I REALLY son't want to leave him but in alot of ways I think its for the best...

I don't wanna hear any I'm so sorrys or anything... I just needed a place to vent this out befor work.

I need some hugs, or drugs.

Well Lately I haven't bin around much...
To be honest my relationshipof 3 years with my current bao,seems to be comeing to an end. Nothing bad happend or anything. Things just arnt the same, theres no passion or spark any more. My work scedual has me on 3-11pm so I never have time to call vent with a friend. I hope it works out but I feel impending doom maybe be just around the corner:(

It it dose then its gonna suck cuz I'v made so many friends here and odly enough with some female (I'm usually friends with males). Then theirs the matter of moveing, were to? somewhere in this new city, or back home with all my real friends. Mind you theres a career oportunity for me in tattoo's...

Sorrys to bitch about stuff in public like the emos do... I just need to vent to somewere.

I havent felt this alone in alone time. I wish I wasen't so upset over it but... I guess one can't help how they feel.

Shit...

This sucks.

A - Available?: what for?
A - Age: 20
A - Annoyance: My mate half the time...

B - Best Friends?: Chad, I only have one best friend.
B - Bar: Dancing and dringking!
B - Birthday?: 01/05/87

C - Crush: Honestly.. No one
C - Car: out of stock
C - Cat(s): Im allergic

D - Dead Pets Name(s): Romeo, Buttercup, Dolly, Jazz
D - Dad's Name: Roebie (its Irish)
D - Dog(s): Yorkie named Rambo

E - Easiest person to talk to: Chad
E - Eggs: With bacon onion mushroom bacon on a bun
E - Email: dragon9822[at]msn.com

F - Favorite color?: emrald green
F - Food: Im a food addict *NOM NOM NOM*
F - Foreign Slang: Baismana etuilyah

G - Gummy Bears or Worms: Gummie worms, there bigger
G - God: Corruption
G - Good Times: Anything involving booze and drugs

H - Hair Color: Brown/Caramelle
H - Height: 5,8ft
H - Happy: 80% of the time

I - Ice Cream: Chocolate :D
I - Instrument: fluit-
I - Idol: Johnen Vasquez

J - Jewelry: Strappy, Spikes, Leathery, PVC, Rib cage ring(always), sparkally
J - Job: I work at Tim Hortons, pouring your coffee
J - Jokes: No nice ones

K - Kids: Hell fuckin no, I hate kids
K - Karate: Red belt when I was 15
K - Kung Fu: Nothing, unless the magic of kung-foo movies works in real life

L - Love: (IN love)is a state of being. (TO love)is an unconditional bond between 2 people(friends familly for example)
L - Longest Car Ride: Oshawa Ontario to Hallifax NovaScotia
L - Lipstick or Chapstick: Chapstick and lip gloss in the winter (keeps them conditioned, kissableand un-cracked)
Lipstick in the summer it breaths more and lasts longer

M - Milk Flavor: You*sucks ona a cow*
M - Mother's Name: Joan
M - Movie Last Watched: Hell Raiser

N - Number of Siblings: 7 sisters in total. 3 full blood sisters, the other 4 were half sisters from my fathers side, 3 half brothers one dead both from my fathers side
N - Northern or Southern: I like northren better, yeah winter sucks, cold sucks. but it beats the fuck out of liveing in america
N - Name: Samantha Beazley

O -
One Wish: Money

O - One Phobia?: Loseing my mother...
O - Otter Pop: Wha? *NOM*

P - Parents, are they married or divorced:Divorced befor I was born.
P - Part of your appearance you like best: Hummm... My face or my boobs... or my bum... No my legs... Yes legs and feets.
P - Part of your personality you like best: My sense of humor, Party mood Sam :D

Q - Quick or Slow?:In the middle
Q - Queer or Straight?: Straight
Q - Queen or King?: King, Bitch

R - Reason to smile: My mate, my stash, myslef, my friends
R - Reality TV Show: I was on one of them. (There not that 'real')
R - Right or Left: Right.

S - Song Last Heard: Kill your self - Timbaland. awsome song as far as hip hop/rap goes
S - Season: Spring
S - Series: Boondocks, Venture Brothers, Invader Zim, Drawn togather, Robot Chicken, South park, Aqua Teen Hunger Force, Futurama

T - Time you woke up: 11.30
T - Time Now:12:50
T - Time for bed: When I'm sleepy or have to work ion the morning.

U - Unknown: The fiddler crab :o
U - Unicorns: Yay! Lets have fun adventures togather!
U - You are?: Sitting here smokeing pot

V - Vegetable you hate: Turnips
V - Vegetable you love: Brocolie
V - View on Politics: "God Damn it America" OMFG! STFU! GTFO-O-O(out of office)FUCK me man... Were all Doomed...

W- Worst Habit: Procrastination
W- Where are you going to travel next: Back home to Oshawa/Peterborough/Toronto
W- What's up?: Not much, organizing my photos.

X - X-Rays: teeth, chest and back legs Arms, full body
X - X-Rated: *ears perk up*
X - XYZ: Lego Mainia

Y - Year you were born: 1987:D
Y - Year it is now: 2007
Y - Yellow?: Its an ok color

Z - Zoo Animal: Tiger
Z - Zodiac: Torous
Z - Zoolander?: Funny movie

It is futile moo haw haw...

Any ways... I'm looking for people to trade with... I can't color...
well I can kind, do it, not so good like... There are a few examples in my gallery... If you'd like I could do multiple pictures.. I am asking quite a little here:S

(I will provide real life pics for reference for every thing:D)

I have a few specific ideas one is a human lady with 4 Bouvires de Flandres dogs. The one right beside here will be the biggest and have wing and a halo or something... He has past on he was like a son to her, shes a tough cookie and it put to to bed for a week:(. She would also have a gorgeous little blond long haired Mexican chiwawa in her arms... (non-furry)

Another is a belly dancing Bouvires de Flandres or long haired Mexican chiwawa. No real specifics on that one except I'd like it to look like Mooey or Co co(the chiwawas) :p(furry styles)

I also need one of a male long haired Mexican chiwawa in his harem of chiwawa-lady's. Lounging one holding a plate of grapes one or 2 fanning him with leaves, and one or 2 belly dancers.

I would be immensely grateful to any one willing to trade with me... I also plan to get a tablet by halloween, so I might be able to make something better in return then...

Thanks for reading^.=.^

Well I' ll start off short and boooring.
I couldent log on for a while, so I just stoped comeing to the site. Today I tryed to log in again, and it worked, yay, here is me:D

And in the Sexy News

I was in Toronto, just for the trip, my boy friend was going back home after a week down here with me. Sorta a half way point. When I go to meet him, Im always very gothic looking. After some very very nice purchases we went to the Eatons center to grab some food, it was beeefy good. After stuffing our faces full of yumm, we headed up the escolators when all os a sudden at the top some younger lady grabed my arm. At first me and my gye asumed it to se a sales person. Then she said "were lookingfor people for a make over show, this wont take long.." she smiled. Confused I asked her "what is it? like one of thoughs 10 minuit makes overs in a mall? thats alright, Im good", I then turned to walk away. She grabed my arm again... and blurted out "its like about 30 grand". Then I agreed quite willingly to come back down the escolators with her:p... There I meet the lady who manages the girls reciving make overs. She then asked me to smile so I did. After she looked down on her paper wighting someing and said yeah there kinda bad.. I stood insulted. She looked up from her paper and said I needa picture of you do you have any make up... I did but me and Danny my mate were in a hurry, so I lied and said no. She picked up an envalope and pulled out a 20$ and asked me if she gave me it if I would run to the shoppers 4 stores downfrom were they were set up and buy some make up.. I said ok. After she took teh pics and Filled ou some papers I got a interview with the producers, They called back befor i even made it home telling me to come in for a on camera Interview...
I hadent seen the show befor so I watched it and found out theres a bunch of people plus camras, but I thought fuck it... I might not even get this, and had a chat with bruce did the little interview thing. The jurry dident say anything to bad, I had come backs lined up for other things... But they dident say anything too too bad.. sept they said I couldent be a stripper an looked like I was trying to be one. Then after I got the part i totally stabed the host with my coller.. I was trying to huggle him:p
I guess ALL of that is all that I can really thingk of, or bore you with... Thanx for reading my gooble-dy-glook night sexual furry beans!

sAm

Well this is my first journal entry ever, so please be gentile on me. Ill keep this short. This week end was the Christina Aguilera concert, it was sunday night. I had come down to hang out with my best frined that week end scince friday the week end was the usual, hanging out saw a few old friends, got smashed friday and spent all saterday braiding extentions into my hair (its to the botom of my but) looks really kewl, maybe ill post the pic sometime. Any ways to the intresting part of this journal. The concert was pritty good, not exactly in my tasts but my best friend loves her like she a goddess. We got on our train to head back outa toronto that night at one in the morning. We made it to Ajax when I noticed a bit of a thump, I thought nothing ov it trains do it alot, but this thump was no ordinary train noise, some one had comited scuicid by jumping infront of the train. Alot of people were very sickend some of the girls even started to cry. It dident effect me or my best best emtionally, but it was styll such a strange ocourance, on a night he had byn waiting months for. I wonder what the odds are...