a friend of mine is in serious need of help. he never asks for financial aid but is in a position where he's been left with no other choice. do what you can. i have a gofundme of his linked down below. i wouldn't post this unless it was urgent. please click HERE if you want to contribute and keep him and his pet dog off the streets.

This isn't exactly Tasimo(the name says Sativu but it can't be changed). I'm one of his parts, Lucas.

We got the diagnosis in April 22nd. He was able to last for half of the Psychiatrist appointment but the second half he petered out, had to have someone else take over and they told us the diagnosis. The one who took over had someone else pick up the medication and now we're on Risperidone.

This might be the last journal unless we decide to post more but we're okay. We're actually doing better than we have in a while now that most of the walls are lowered and we're able to communicate and coordinate. Notes and a journal helps but... yeah. Anyway, he's been talking about writing a new journal about it but never got around to it. I decided to do it for him. See you around.

i scheduled an appointment with a psychiatrist and just found out about a therapist appointment that i didn't know anything about. hopefully the psychiatrist can get me on something that'll help... it took over half a year since our last appointment with them to warm up to the idea of medication. not for the dissociation but for the stress and anxiety that i feel.

Had a psychiatrist appointment today. From what I was told I have PTSD with Dissociative Splits, been going to a therapist since July for it and honestly have been trying to cope. Things are getting easier in some ways and harder in others but all in all I'm hoping to learn how to deal with all this crap at some point and not have so much of my past missing.

After working for only a year at Costco part time I somehow got landed with a full time position at the Front End! WHOO HOO!!

7 months since my last journal entry. Things have changed, I've changed and I'm still around but that doesn't really mean I'm the same guy. I'll be flat out honest. I'm cold, I only care about a specific few people and even if a friend asks me to signal boost another friend I'm not going to. There are 2 specific reasons. 1.) This rarely does any good and unless a popular user is the one to do it then it wouldn't do any good. 2.) It comes back to me being a cold person. It's more of a defensive mechanism, I try to stay out of the business of others if it doesn't concern me and only focus on myself. I've focused on others for too long. That doesn't mean I don't care, that just means it'll take a long, long while to get close enough for me to care to any level that most people would consider "acceptable".

Anyways, I'll probably post another journal in a couple months. Maybe next time it'll be an actual life update.... Oh, I did get a new electric razor and it does an amazing job compared to my old one. My head and face are now completely bare!

i've noticed something over the last several years. parents are taking less and less responsibility when it comes to raising their children and instead shoving that responsibility on people who should not be left with it. they're neglecting them, letting them on the internet and on video sites unmonitored. that leaves the responsibility of raising them and teaching them to people who should not be obligated to doing so and it makes it so that people who should not be held accountable are made to pay for the mistakes of the parents and guardians of said children. it's really depressing. i know this kind of thing has been happening for a long while but with the internet becoming such a huge part of society parents really aren't stepping up to the degree that they need to. not all of them anyway.

Any people who actually still check my page probably noticed that I'm not around much. Well... I am, I'm just not very active on my own page be it journals or other things. I do still look at things though. I am... okay. I'm better than I was and in some ways not so much. But that's life. If you guys wanna keep in contact send me a note and I can add your Discord if I don't have you on there already.

mom's not getting any better and it's gotten so bad that a tracheostomy would kill her so there's nothing they can do for her anymore... they're gonna lower the oxygen and let her go but they say we're gonna be allowed at her bedside for it. i can't process this....

thank you for the well wishes and prayers.

Things have been going back and forth with her but there's a little bit of improvement. That's a good sign... here's hoping things keep going in an upward direction. Until then I'm gonna keep trying to moving forward instead of just sitting stuck.

Any prayers'll be appreciated... I don't know what else anyone on here could do, we've got money enough but she's got pneumonia on top of covid and uh... yeah, I'm feeling kind of helpless at the moment. I'm not asking for donations, just letting you guys know what's been going on. I'll update if anything big changes but her condition isn't improving or getting worse at the moment.

Please, don't treat this virus like a joke. Stay safe. I love you all, watches and friends both new and old. <3

Haven't been that active on here. Somewhat big news. Finally got another job interview, this one's at Target next week. Wish me all the luck! You can also wish me happy birthday if you want but that's not necessary. Another year older, another year alive.

Hope my watchers and my friends have been doing well, I'm not really around enough. If you want to get in contact with me I'm on Discord. Just add me.

#bucketfan4life7665

More info in her journal here. Her family's in such a bad way and she needs to get home. Even if you can't donate a signal boost will help.

Another year, another... something and so on. Today I turn 32. Don't know what I'm going to do with myself today, guess I'll just treat it like any other day until the evening comes. I'm thankful for the family and friends that I have though. You awesome people. <3

There's a bar that's literally around the block. For where I live that's a big deal, I'm definitely happy about that. Was there tonight... they've got awesome flatbreads!

Artist AyaVale is open for new commissions. Information is in her journal here. She really is a fantastic artist so go check her out.

Someone I consider a good acquaintance, AyaVale could use some serious assistance. Please check this journal entry and do what you can even if it's a couple kind words of support.

Just thought I'd use this Journal thing for once... I'm not an artist by any stretch of the imagination but just thought I'd tell those of you on here more about myself. Um... well, I have an annoying cockatiel. Well, he's not mine. He's my mother's. I also have a boxer dog and she's the cutest thing, 7 years old and soon to turn 8. She loves chasing laser lights. WAIT! Isn't this supposed to be about me? Wellll... I like playing guitar, I like watching other people play video games more than play them myself anymore. Kinda weird I know, but it's just how I've gotten. And I love watching movies and listening to music. Well I guess that wraps up my first journal! :D

P.S. I might actually start doing some guitar stuff on here. That'd be awesome.