Living out of my parents' house now.
In a house with... a fish, gerbil, 2 guinea pigs, a dog, and a cat.... and my sibling.
I have 2-3 jobs... kinda... lol. :)

Gosh! Life is so strange!
One day you've got SO MUCH PLANNED, and the next... not so much, at all. Nothing, even, and the world is knocking down your door, the earth is shattering, and there you happen to be, growing.
Growing up, growing older, growing in love.


I'm doing alright. I'm not living, but I'm alive, and I'm getting there.


When you hit rock bottom, when you know you can't get any lower, sometimes it takes awhile to stand up and fly out of that hole.
I can't WAIT to go on road trips, to see this amazing country that I live in.

So, strangers, this is my last journal for awhile, maybe forever.
Not really sure just yet.

I know I'm not leaving anyone heartbroken that I won't be on this website for awhile.

Take care, strangers!

I wrote a long (LONG) multi-paragraph report about how my friend got lost in a town and called me up later to tell me about how much she wished I'd been with her so she wouldn't have gotten lost and how I'd been in her heart throughout the whole ordeal.

Then I realized that its funnier when its a personal experience and not told to others.

Moral of the story: I'm loved. :)

The end.

1. Its too short to wait for others.

You can love someone from the day you met them till forever, but wasting yourself away waiting on them is wrong. If they loved you, you wouldn't be waiting at all.

That said, don't make someone else wait for you. For sooner or later they, too, will tire of waiting.

Really, what's the worst that could happen?
And this isn't just about love, either.

If someone is holding you back, remove yourself from them and leap forward. (Unless you're holding their arm as you help them across a busy street...) Go after your dreams and ambitions.

My the odds be forever in your favor.

shower, crap, and shave can do to a person!

I felt terrible, dirty, grungy, wooly.... All those damn feelings I hate to feel.
And after that crap, shave, and shower... HOLY FUCK WHO AM I? I'M A HELL OF A NEW PERSON!!!
<3
That is all.

Looking at all my photos, I've noticed an unconcious habbit of mine.

When I'm sketching to be sketching based purely on an urge to sketch, most of my furasonas are facing towards the right.
When I'm sketching based on a raw pain in my chest, on my mind, when I'm rediculously upset and am having trouble within my own mind and heart, my furasonas are facing left (and are normally alone, except one photo with a dragon.)

I believe I'm on to something here!!!! O:

So, my challenge:

Look at your own art, whichever/whatever medium it may be through, and pic at it. Try to see if there are similarities of your art and feelings.

o3o
Challenge accepted?

I love suddenly finding out that I DO have a computer at the tip of my fingers that CAN make me an icon fairly easily! YEY!!! <3

That is all...

Post Script,
Rawr.

I miss those little guys.
Not too many years ago, it feels, I was outside chasing them, catching them, and then setting them free.

Yeah, I miss the beauty they brought into the night.

My favorite memory of them: Going on a walk at night on the edge of a nature preserve, looking up, and seeing the trees lined with lights up in the high branches. It was truly a wonderful sight to behold.

Amazing how things change in a year.
Sometimes for the worst,
but, luckily, sometimes for the better.
I'm an aunt this Christmas, an aunt who never plans to leave her niece for any person in this whole wide world. It was stupid to ever think I would, could, leave her baby cheeks behind.
I've got jobs!!! Yes, JOBS! Last year I could barely afford to buy myself lunch whenever I wanted it. THIS year, I'm happy. I have a stable job for my summers and an average job for the other seasons.
I am now inked.
Yeah, I said it. I have a f-ing tattoo. Love it. One of the greatest decisions I've ever made.
I also finally bought myself an annoying frustrating addicting phone. Last year I wanted one for someone else. This year I wanted it for ME, for myself, to make me more professional. And I got the one I wanted. :)

So much has changed!
Looking back on last year TODAY especially, the 23rd of December... Last year, at this time, I was on my first airplane flight, scared half to death. This year I'm home, I know I'm safe, I don't have to face people I don't know every day...
Looking back, I see what I was missing. What I had. And wish what I had and what I have wouldn't have been an either or situation.

Merry Christmas, people. Hope this year is better for you than it was last year! :D

I feel like I'm just going through the steps of living.
And other times I feel like I'm living it to the fullest that I can and life is awesome and amazing and worth every second of agony.
But its those times of agony that bring me down, and its hard to remember those good times, and feel what I felt then.

However, I love to watch sad movies. I love to get a good cry off of my chest and ease my mind by crying. But I need a reason to cry, and that's where the movies come in at.
An Affair to Remember is my fallback movie. If I want to cry, I turn to that movie to set myself back on track.

...since I know most of my watchers are into the kinky-fuckery I used to sketch.

That part of my life is over.

No more fucking of any kind.

Moving on with a life of my own.

Ever have a friend online who you know their name and are used to calling them by their name, so when you say something on a website, say FA or DA, you completely blow it, say their name, and have NO WAY to get rid of it?!

DAMN MY IDIOCY!

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Yeah, I haven't submitted anything for awhile. Haven't really felt like sketching too much. WAAAY too much of other things to do. Well... yup.

- Sketcher Out.

Well, now that I've decided on a price, I'm ready to start commissions anytime.

I'm a cheap sketcher. Considering the price of pens, pencils, sketchbooks...and everything, it really isn't that much to get a sketch.

$3 for a line art sketch, $6 for colored $9 for colored with background. First character free, additional characters $1.

Since I don't use credit cards or know how to use pay-pal, I'll have to figure that out soon, so more info on that in the coming future!

I've been debating on awhile now whether or not to put up a pic of me for my profile ID.
Part of me wonders if it even matters, but then again, I know that with the people I watch, I'd like to know the artist behind the sketches.

So my question is...should I put up of profile picture? I ask my watchers this because its up to all you people if I remain a masked artist or if I let you all know the panther kitten in the pictures.. ;)

Yes or No?

So... Spent days at my grandma's, then went out to watch a movie on Monday with my brother's GirlFriend & sis, lost my unborn niece/nephew since my brother's GF had a miscarriage, went to the doctor's, had my body examined (which was uncomfortable) and today I actually got to work!

Big week...

Hopefully tonight I'll be able to sketch something smexy. ;)

Apparently I submitted the Strip Card Game twice on accident. This was more than likely caused by the fact I had lots to upload and was doing it quickly without paying attention.
I can't delete either one because each of them are favorited 3 times.

Course of action to fix it: No idea. Probably just going to leave both of them there.

I've gotten used to FA now... It seems pretty easy once you know where to go. =]

Totally new to FA, but I've had a deviantart.com account for years. Now I'm so new to a different account I have no idea what so ever how to work this space.

Hopefully I can figure things out!