Just tossing out a heads up I'm at MFF this year! Nudge me on here or blusky if you want to meet up (or my TG if you know it).

https://bsky.app/profile/vaylute.bsky.social

Just tossing up a few places where I'm going to start being active, now that I'm posting again. I've got a backlog a mile long, so there's a loooot of content to catch up on. Trying not to overwhelm myself as I get back in the swing of things.

Blusky (SFW & NSFW) - https://bsky.app/profile/vaylute.bsky.social
Twitter (Main/SFW) - https://x.com/VayShox
Twitter (NSFW) - https://x.com/Vaylewd
Telegram Art Channel (SFW & NSFW) - https://t.me/+yQelH3uK7hZjMjEx
Weird NSFW Art Channel (Weird NSFW, the stuff I post on my alt. You have been warned) - https://t.me/+waYIWBe_KSRiM2Mx

Might update this further soon! Hope you all are well <3

Just tossing a quick (and late) update out there that  leilasnowpaw and I are at MFF this year! Send me a note or leave a comment if you want to say hi at some point.

I'm staying until Monday morning, so don't be a stranger~ Trying to make this a bit of a lower stress con with how much has been going on lately.

Headin' out to AC! Figure I'd toss one of these up before I head out of town. Leave a comment or hit me up on TG if you want to say hi~

Where are you staying?
Drury!

What day are you getting there?
Heading out super early tomorrow (Thursday), then heading back Monday afternoon.

How are you traveling?
Flying Alaska bby

Who will you be rooming with?
These three lovelies:  leilasnowpaw  rithzarian and  fossilbrand

How is the best way to find you?
My telegram for those who have it (note me if you wanna say hi there)

Are there any panels you might be attending?
Dunno yet, but likely going to Whose Lion again, maybe some of the late night comedy panels. Probably going to focus more on hanging out with friends.

What do you look like?
Got long hair, glasses, and more than likely will have my orange fox hat I usually wear, since apparently it's helpful for people to find me.

Will you be suiting?
Not this time around

Do you do free art?
Nope

Do you do trades?
Nah

What is your gender?
Fluid, but like I mentioned in my last journal... female.

How tall are you?
5'8.5"ish

Can I talk to you?
Sure but I'll probably be intoxicated or oblivious

How can I find you?
Telegram or notes! Or commenting on here, I think.

Can I buy you drinks?
Ask first please!

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Hugs with permission.

Do you have an artist table?
Nupe

Will you be going to parties?
More than likely at least one

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Loudly say the words 'shark' or 'transformation' as you walk around the convention center and you will inevitably get my attention. I won't be held liable for the weird looks you get until I hear

Can I take your picture?
I'm fine with that, just ask first.

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Having a good time, and making husky smile~

TL;DR at the bottom for those who don’t want to read a text wall. Just life updates!

Been a hot minute, hmm?

It probably goes without saying that a lot has happened in the last five years. I’ve hopped between three jobs, moved across the country right before the start of the pandemic, escaped a toxic relationship, changed houses three times, caught covid, stuck a ring on my canine partner-in-crime, and officially began my transition (which was probably easy to see coming for a lot of you). It’s a lot to unpack in a sentence, let alone a journal, but I’ve been saying for a while now that I wanted to put it to words. There’s just been a ton of volatility in the last decade of my life, and now that it seems to be settling into a relative sense of normalcy, I feel like I’m in a good enough place to more openly reflect on it all.

My first draft of this journal is something I decided to keep private, but even that took a while. It was fueled by a bitterly-concluded relationship that pulled my life across the country, and wound up reinforcing a lot of existing insecurities, reclusive tendencies, and unhealthy habits. While I want to open up about the entirety of what went on there, I also can’t ignore the fact that some of the things I want to say might provoke a reaction, either from them, or people who might want to retaliate on my behalf. I don’t want that. I’ve finally reached a point again where I feel like I can comfortably express myself without looming anxiety tempting me to silence. I’m not overwhelmed by unjustly accrued debt anymore, I’m not putting out drama-fires every other night or constantly spiraling in a cycle of personal neglect and burn out. The family and partners I have constantly love and encourage me; I’m not being gaslit on a regular basis by a person I thought I knew and looked up to. I’ve started going to therapy again, and I’m getting back into the swing of managing productivity and time on myself, though that’s not been without its challenges. While my current job has recently been taxing on my personal time, I’ve come to expect my industry is just the kind where long hours and stressful crunches every so often are just par for the course. That aside, I’m in a place where I feel like I can get back to casually engaging with the community again. I don’t want to jeopardize any of that just to air my dirty laundry in public.

So, yeah. I’m going to be purposefully vague in a few spots in my overview of what’s been going on. I don’t mind opening up to friends on the matter, but I’m not looking to start shit. I just want to move on with my life, and this journal is kind of my way of turning the page.

One other thing to clarify before I give a rundown of what I’ve been up to, it’s worth reminding something that I would frequently mention back in the day. I know I have not been great about keeping up with friends. I have a tendency to bite off more than I can chew with my time, and I over-estimate how much I can take on before I burn out and simply can’t engage. I have fairly unreliable memory, and I lose track of time easily, which makes it that much harder to follow-up with folks I promise to. My memory’s like a dart-board in terms of what sticks and what doesn’t. To compensate for all this, I have historically used notes and personal organization apps to help fill in the gaps with reminders and tools to help me follow through with plans, but the problem with that strategy is that it relies on constant maintenance. When that falls apart, so too does my ability to keep up with people. Those crises create a cycle of perpetual anxiety which exacerbates the difficulty of maintaining my relationships as it is, and the stress makes even less stick to memory as a consequence. I’ve had people time and time again presume my lack of initiation or attentive response is an indication of disinterest or indifference. It’s usually a sign my dumb shox brain got distracted by whatever hypnotic spirals were being swept in front of me at any given moment.

I’m not going to be upset if you prod to remind me about something. I don’t get annoyed when someone prompts me again for something I promised. It helps when folks give me patience and reminders to work around that personal short-coming. If there’s something that’s important to you that you believe I’ve forgotten, I promise I won’t be angry in the slightest if you bring it up again.

With all that out of the way, here’s a brief run-down of what’s been happening since the last time I posted a journal, back in 2018.

The Rundown

Back then, Leila and I were living together in the US mid-west, both working tech jobs for local companies. I was juggling a lot of stress with work along with the aforementioned toxic relationship, which had until that point been long-distance. Husky and I saved up for a while on the premise we would eventually move out to live out on the west coast together with this other individual, along with a few others, and while there were some indications at the time that making such a move wouldn’t be a wise decision, the biggest inhibitor was finances (and our jobs) preventing us from investing in it as an option. Around late 2019 however, I managed to land a position as a software developer for a well-known shopping/logistics company based out west, and that’s where the opportunity to move seemed to come at the perfect time. A former manager who joined with the org recommended me, and the offer they gave would cover the cost of moving most of our stuff. It seemed like an amazing opportunity, and we snagged it, with Leila accompanying me at the end of that year searching for a place for our new, intimate household to live together.

After we moved all our things across the country, to a fairly cozy and spacious home for rent, problems began to surface between multiple members of the household, and not the kind that were easily solved with a group chat —and there were plenty of those. Like I mentioned, I won’t go into detail about the interpersonal and financial issues that began to add up, but the circumstances lead to several violations of trust that only worsened as time went on. At the same time, I was working for a company infamous for shipping packages across the world, on a system underlaying their e-commerce platform, a couple months before the pandemic started…

I was working. A lot.

My social life ground to a complete stop. Unlike before, where I kind of pumped the brakes on being public to spend what personal time I had on friends and family, at this point, I was splitting my time between three things: burning the midnight oil to keep up with workload expectations, putting out the growing fires of drama going on at home, and squeezing what time was left into self-soothing, reclusive habits to offset the stress. I lost two grandparents during the pandemic as well, and the factors at home wound up driving me into depression, which completely fucked my ability to keep organized. It wasn’t until early 2021 that I left that hell-job, and instead joined on with a much smaller company through a good friend of mine in the furry community. While my time at that position was relatively short, I can’t emphasize enough how much it helped to have a lifeline out of the miserable position I was in. I’m grateful for the opportunity they afforded me by taking me on, and loved my time there while it lasted. If any of my former coworkers happen to be reading this, much love to you all!

With the worst source of stress being handled, attention soon turned toward the systemic problems that were deepening the divide between members of the household, and that came to a head on two separate occasions over the course of 2021. The first was the event that drove Leila from the household, after the abusive, manipulative behavior perpetrated against her reached a tipping point, and she moved out. The second came a few months later, where my privacy in the household was violated in an attempt to ascertain my partners’ new address, and I no longer felt safe or comfortable living in my own home.

Again, a lot happened here that I wish I could describe without consequence.

When I moved in to live with my current roommates, it was in a home that wasn’t big enough to fit everyone comfortable, and I wound up partitioning half of the living room as a temporary living situation for the better part of a year. As stressful as it was to split my life between the two houses on a dime, the fact I was now working from home on a permanent basis gave me more flexibility when it came to starting to catch up. At this point, I was less focused on engaging with a social life as I was stabilizing emotionally. Picking up the pieces was all I could really handle, but there were a lot of matters with the former household that wound up taking months on end to finally conclude. We moved again in 2022 to a my current home, with relatively enough space to relatively fit everyone’s needs —though the house definitely shows its age.

I’m sure a couple folks noticed mid-way last year that I picked up on some activity, getting the occasional commission, popping into chat rooms and VR, and showing up at AC. There have been periods of ramp-up where I thought I could handle getting back into being more social again, and I was dipping my feet in the water to see what I could reasonably handle without shutting down. I had a few jabs in quick succession that set me back: one, the water heater spilled all over the carpet in my room at the new place we all moved to, requiring much of my stuff to be taken apart and moved to let the floor dry without mold; second, I wound up getting laid off fairly late last year, and spent a while emotionally rebounding after that. It wasn’t until the end of November that I picked up my current position, and since then, I’ve been building up slowly to getting my shit together in earnest.

It was also during this time that I married the gal I mentioned to several of you I proposed to ages ago,  leilasnowpaw. It was a bit of a kneejerk response to some of the judicial fuckery going on in the US right now, and we wanted to make sure we had our foot in the door before the possibility was taken away from us altogether. Regardless, she’s a hell of a dame who’ll always have a piece of my heart.

There's a little more I want to mention on the note of my personal relationships, but I'd rather save that discussion for its own journal, not sandwiched between a ton of other updates.

My transition subheading

I also want to set aside a little section to bring up the point on my transition. I officially started HRT a few months back, but it’s been a decision that had its roots from way beforehand, since long before I even wound up in the Midwest. While I still think calling myself ‘genderfluid’ is pretty accurate, I’ve found with time that through the vast majority of my interactions, I usually default to a more effeminate presentation, and the windows where my desire to be presented in a masculine fashion are usually followed by periods where I deeply fetishize the shift from male to female. Hell, most people I know were calling me Scarlett before I was even seriously considering hopping on the medication. Being in an environment where I feel like I can freely express myself has opened a lot of doors that I thought would have to remained closed due to societal pressures.

I won’t get upset with whichever pronoun you use with me, since there is still a bit of flux in how I identify, and I don’t expect others to keep pace with that. I do, however, think I’ve reached a point where it’s safe to say I’d prefer folks defaulted to feminine pronouns (she/her).

Other platforms and moving forward

In the coming months I’m going to start spreading out to other platforms and back-posting the metric fuck-ton of art that has been sitting in queue, waiting for me to toss it up. There are so many concepts I wish I could devote time and energy into building up, but I’m not sure how realistic it is to expect that kind of churn-out from me, after how slow I’ve been historically. That being said, I do anticipate at least a few stories making their way accompanying pictures, and down the line, I'm building up a website to follow some of the writing I hope to produce.

For now, I intend on primarily returning to posting on this platform, and I’ll make an announcement when I’ve made a few new accounts. There’ll likely be a few Telegram channels where I’ll post things, but there are other social media platforms I haven’t kept up with that I'm curious to try.

TL;DR

The last half decade has been busy as fuck and tainted by a toxic relationship, which wound up crumbling a couple years back and worsening very reclusive habits. I moved between a few houses and jobs while trying to pick up the pieces, and now feel like I am in a better place to actually re-engage with the community on a more regular basis. In the meantime, I got married and started my transition relatively recently, too. There will be more to come in the coming months about where I’m spreading out to beyond just FA and other personal news in my life (and of course, a ton of backlogged art).


Anyway, thanks for attending my TED talk lol

See some of you all at Anthrocon real soon!

Forgot to post about this! I'll be at AC until Monday. Hit me up on TG Vaylute if you want to say hi.

Heyyyy... Been a while, hmm?

Got a lot I want to talk about, but I can't just yet. I'll be posting a journal in the near future (along with Leila) about what's been up since before the pandemic, why I vanished, all that jazz. A lot went down, and I'd like to explain what happened once the last few issues are no longer up in the air, something I expect to come in the next couple months. Suffice to say, I moved twice over the span of a year, and I'm finally (mostly) unpacked in a place of improving, positive mental health. There's still plenty for me to catch up on, but it no longer feels like an anxiety-ridden slog.

That's not the point of this journal, though. I had a couple announcements before I head out to Reno~

1. I'm going to BLFC (and then AC)! Hit me up on Telegram if you wanted to say hi, Vaylute is still my handle. Not doing Discord just yet, but I'm hoping to get active on there again.
2. I changed my Twitter handle, for some of the reasons above. My former handle was @lutalapup, it's now @Vayshox. My NSFW posting account will be @Vaylewd, when I get to posting there.

With that out of the way, I hope to see some of you soon!

Heading to another con, then using a little time off to get my life together. I've been way too neglectful of my FA and my art lately, but work has once again been wearing me down. Our front end dev on a recent project just ended up walking out on the spot a week or so ago, and our tech lead just resigned... But anyway, that's a conversation for another time. Sorry to folks who've been waiting on me so much over the past year. :< Trying to use my time off to get things back in order.

At any rate, here's some info about about my plans for AC this year. Wasn't expecting to go at first, but plans change~

Where are you staying?
The Westin this year~

What day are you getting there?
Arriving mid-day on Thursday (today), leaving Monday.

How are you traveling?
Car with my con roomies.

Who will you be rooming with?
 lateinshowing,  rithzarian, and  shogunfox

How is the best way to find you?
My telegram for those who have it, or tweet at me, @ lutalapup

Are there any panels you might be attending?
This year I'm probably going to be light on panels, to be more flexible and stress free. Things I'm considering: poker tourney, smash tourney, TF panels, and Whose Lion.

What do you look like?
Long hair, glasses, orange fox hat, male. Also. A bunch of badges too.

Will you be suiting?
Didn't bring my fursuit this time around, given travel and weather likely making that a bitch.

Do you do free art?
Nope

Do you do trades?
Nah

What is your gender?
Male

How tall are you?
5'8.5"ish

Can I talk to you?
Sure but I'll probably be intoxicated or oblivious

How can I find you?
Go to the panels mentioned above, or nudge me on twitter/telegram. Potentially try noting me as a last resort, because I'm sure I'll be browsing FA while I'm there.

Can I buy you drinks?
Ask first please!

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Hugs with permission~

Are you nice?
No, I'm gonna rob ya!

Do you have an artist table?
No, none of my tables are artists. What an odd question to ask.

Will you be going to parties?
Maybe, I don't want to invite myself though.

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Just walk up and say hi. Also saying 'that's a hot shark' will get my attention pretty quick.

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Potentially, but no promises! Plans are still up in the air and I don't like dragging a group around if I can help it.

Can I look in your sketchbook?
Not bringin' one.

Can I draw in your sketchbook?
See previous answer.

Can I take your picture?
Prefer not but eh what are ya gonna do

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Booze, fun, and relaxation.

Hey guys!  leilasnowpaw and I are heading out to Reno, staying through most of Monday. I'm going to try my best to relax this con because of how cruddy net connection is, so I'm keeping details and plans light.

If ya want to say hi, drop be a comment here or nudge me on Twitter, lutalapup. I'm hoping to have more free time this con, maybe enjoy myself after being worked to the bone for the better part of half a year. ><

Another bout of silence leading up to a con... Kind of par for the course huh? Well at any rate, here's a last minute announcement that I'm going to be at MFF this year. Several answers will look familiar.

Where are you staying?
No such luck getting a suite this year. We're at the Crowne Plaza, because of how ungodly fast rooms sold out this year.

What day are you getting there?
Arriving mid-day on Thursday (today), leaving Monday.

How are you traveling?
By car~

Who will you be rooming with?
 leilasnowpaw and  ringtail ^^

How is the best way to find you?
My telegram for those who have it, or tweet at me, @ lutalapup

Are there any panels you might be attending?
(Shamelessly stealing last year's answer) A few things this year, but the big ones I'm likely going to attend are the Fuzzy Logic 'Escape the Room' puzzle, the Poker tourney, and a few of the gaming-themed panels. If there's a TF panel, I'll doubtlessly be there too.

What do you look like?
Long hair, glasses, fox hat, male. If you see anyone who's wearing a shark fins and has a shark tail but has fox colorations/muzzle in suit? That's probably me. Also, I've got plenty of badges to identify me.

Will you be suiting?
In this weather, with how much walking is involved? Probably, but no promises.

Do you do free art?
Nope

Do you do trades?
Nah

What is your gender?
Male

How tall are you?
5'8.5"ish

Can I talk to you?
Sure but I'll probably be intoxicated or oblivious

How can I find you?
Go to the panels mentioned above, or nudge me on twitter/telegram. Potentially try noting me as a last resort, because I'm sure I'll be browsing FA constantly while I'm there.

Can I buy you drinks?
Ask first, trying to plan my partying a bit more surgically this year.

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Hugs with permission~

Are you nice?
No, I'm gonna rob ya!

Do you have an artist table?
No, none of my tables are artists. What an odd question to ask.

Will you be going to parties?
Maybe, I don't want to invite myself though

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Just walk up and say hi. Also saying 'holy shit, look at that shark transformation' will get my attention pretty quick.

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Potentially, but I do get a bit awkward around strangers when I've got stuff planned.

Can I look in your sketchbook?
Not bringin' one.

Can I draw in your sketchbook?
See previous answer.

Can I take your picture?
Prefer not but eh what are ya gonna do

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Booze, fun, and relaxation.

>>>> mei5683.com <<<<
>>>> mei5683.com <<<<
>>>> mei5683.com <<<<

Hey guys! Signal boosting for a friend who does some kick-ass art, and he's open for commissions. Johnny's churned out some fantastic pieces for me, and right now, he's willing to draw pretty much anything, NSFW included. If you want to see some of his stuff, check him out at mei5683.com, or check over on his FA,  mei5683!

<3 you all, thanks for sticking around in my absence lately. Fingers crossed I get some time to myself again soon to catch up with people.

Soooooo I realize I've basically disappeared for two months, but everything is fine, so folks are aware. Immediately after BLFC, I ended up transitioning jobs, and I went from hastily wrapping up a bunch of work at my old place to hastily starting up a bunch of work at my new one. It hasn't exactly left me in the most relaxed state, which, when combined with low sleep and general tenseness, has kicked up my anti-social tendencies again. :/

While I work through that, AC is just around the corner, so I might as well post that info again before it gets too close to the con date.


Where are you staying?
Went straight for Drury this time around.

What day are you getting there?
Arriving the 5th, leavin' the 9th. Thursday through Monday is pretty typical for me.

How are you traveling?
Alongside my partner in crime,  leilasnowpaw

Who will you be rooming with?
 lunarsfox and  featherbutt. We had more planned, but plans change on a dime with conventions. ><

How is the best way to find you?
My Telegram is probably the best way to get a hold of me, since Skype likes to crap out. @ Vaylute if you're interested, or @ lutalapup on twitter!

Are there any panels you might be attending?
The poker tourney, the Smash brothers tournaments, a number of Werewolf/Tabula games, Whose Lion, the supersponsor lunch... and I'm sure a ton of other things! (Literally copy-pasted from last year)

What do you look like?
Long hair, glasses, fox hat, male. If you see anyone who's wearing a shark fins and has a shark tail but has fox colorations/muzzle in suit? That's probably me. Also, I've got plenty of badges to identify me. (Again, copy-paste).

Will you be suiting?
More than likely, but if I do, it won't be for long. It's hot as balls this year and we don't have as short a walk as we did before.

Do you do free art?
Nope

Do you do trades?
Nnnnnnnope

What is your gender?
Male

How tall are you?
5'8.5" according to my last medical.

Can I talk to you?
Please do!

Can I touch you?
If you're asking this question, then probably no.

How can I find you?
Go to the panels mentioned above, or tweet at my friends. Potentially try noting me as a last resort, because I'm sure I'll be browsing FA constantly while I'm there.

Can I buy you drinks?
Maybe. Depends on how I'm feeling.

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Hugs but only in a non-awkward way

Are you nice?
No, I'm a mobster and I'll steal yer money. >:3

Do you have an artist table?
No, none of my tables are artists. What an odd question to ask.

Will you be going to parties?
If someone asks? Probably. We'll see!

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Just walk up and say hi. Also saying 'holy shit, look at that shark transformation' will get my attention pretty quick.

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Potentially, but I do get a bit awkward around strangers when I've got stuff planned.

Can I look in your sketchbook?
Not bringin' one.

Can I draw in your sketchbook?
At that point you would be breaking into my house because I'm leaving it at home. Get out of my house. What are you doing here? How did you get in

Can I take your picture?
Fffff.... Only for friends. I hate seeing my face or spreading my face for others to see. Every time I see it I go ECH

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Meeting up with buddies and trying not to get cooked alive. At the very least hoping to accomplish the first one.

Lots of similar answers as last year, I know!

This time with Leila too! We'll be heading out Thursday and leaving Monday (so I'll actually be able to enjoy myself Sunday), staying at the main hotel. Toss me a line here or on twitter if you want to say hi or something~

You know, the one where I said I was going to catch up on everything? Yeahhh...

I have made some strides on the list I made, but the fact my workplace is looking increasingly more grim has shifted my focus from 'catch-up on furry life' to 'find a new job NOW'. We're losing 4 people this week, and at least one more next week, so I'm starting to feel like the organization is on the threshold of folding. Sooooo that's why I've been silent, a combination of searching for a new job while also struggling with my dainty muse under stress.

That being said, I'm also trying to finish a story I'd promised for a few pics AGES ago, so those should be coming up soon. "Should" being the operative word. I want to take the story in a good direction, but I keep ending up at a cliched ending. Hopefully some idea will strike me so I can overcome that hurdle, but the fact it's been in the works so long has made me want to finish it that much more.

28 now, insert obvious 'getting old' joke.

No robberies planned for today, gonna be as lazy as I can~

Hey guysssss

So yeah, after a month of just being overwhelmed with shit to do (a convention, a couple weeks of recovering from surgery, going to my parent's place out in Cali), I find myself yet again in the same spot that I always do.

Behind. Way, way behind. Behind in posting schedule, behind in keeping up with people, behind in promises, behind across the board. Just looking at my recent journals, this has happened liiiiike... 5 or 6 times the past couple years. Getting close to being caught up, then either something hits me back a few feet, or I end up just getting burnt out and falling behind again.

Something clearly needs to change. I don't want to kick people out of my life, neglect folks, drop promises or cut out things that I enjoy, but I've got to start pacing myself. If I keep repeating this grueling process of putting everything on the weekend and then failing at those expectations, I'll never get anything done. I'll just stress myself out again and again, each time silently recognizing that next weekend won't -really- be the weekend I catch myself up in stuff, even if that's what I say.

Seeing this is a new year, maybe it's time to take a new approach. This weekend, I'm going to commit to getting the to-do list in order -- not necessarily acting on it, but getting things lined up. Even if the list is enormous, I've got to keep it all in one place. After that, I think I'm going to divide my week up and take on a more 'agile' approach to digging through it. Yes, -that- kind of agile, for all the computer scientists out there. If it works for my job, might as well try it in my personal life. Whatever I've tried before clearly isn't working, so fuck it!

Anyway, just wanted to give you guys a heads up on what's happening. Will try to kick back into posting, on my alt account as well. Might post a sequence tomorrow, so keep an eye open~

Hey guys! Just a quick update for ya.

First off, got surgery on my foot tomorrow, so I can't say how I'll feel this weekend. I'm hoping they don't give me oxycodone because apparently I'm an ass when I take it, but I may be forcefully keeping myself away from folks depending on how I feel.

However, I know I mentioned to people that I'm going to pick up my posting schedule, and depending on how I feel, I'm going to start this weekend. I have... I think close to 175 images I need to post? Not to mention a dozen stories. Yeah, I'm THAT far behind, and it keeps getting worse because so many of the pics I get feel like they deserve a story or an explanation, and that takes muse I've just struggled to find lately. I'm going to be a bit more loose in terms of the order I post stuff in now, so please, DO NOT hesitate to note me if you want me to post sooner rather than later. I'm going to be basing it more on what I feel is appropriate for the moment, so you guys don't get a flood of the same old premise and so if I have a number of pics that have pending stories, I'm not frozen in posting for a month like I have been.

Lastly! MFF was awesome, so glad I got to meet the people I did. You could definitely feel how much bigger the con got though, it's definitely becoming the new line con.

Anyway! Off to get stuff done before I'm knocked out tomorrow and put under the knife. Have a good one~

Three weeks of radio silence on FA following my promise to be more active, I'M SORRY I'M THE WORST ;_; The burnout is so real. I'm really gonna push to post more after I finish a couple stories when I'm back from MFF, but until then, here are some deets for my trip!


Where are you staying?
Main hotel, the Hyatt Regency. I can't believe we actually got a suite. D:

What day are you getting there?
Arriving mid-day on Thursday the 30th, leaving Monday the 4th.

How are you traveling?
By car with my hoosky,  leilasnowpaw

Who will you be rooming with?
A lot of the usual suspects:  lunarsfox  featherbutt  ryusukekurayami  lucafoxy and of course  leilasnowpaw

How is the best way to find you?
My telegram for those who have it, or tweet at me, @ lutalapup

Are there any panels you might be attending?
A few things this year, but the big ones I'm likely going to attend are the Fuzzy Logic 'Escape the Room' puzzle, the Poker tourney, and a few of the gaming-themed panels. If there's a TF panel, I'll doubtlessly be there too.

What do you look like?
Long hair, glasses, fox hat, male. If you see anyone who's wearing a shark fins and has a shark tail but has fox colorations/muzzle in suit? That's probably me. Also, I've got plenty of badges to identify me.

Will you be suiting?
I think so! This is the con to do it, with the cold as balls weather.

Do you do free art?
Hahahahah

Do you do trades?
Nah

What is your gender?
Male

How tall are you?
5'8.5" and PROUD OF IT

Can I talk to you?
I mean if you want

How can I find you?
Go to the panels mentioned above, or nudge me on twitter/telegram. Potentially try noting me as a last resort, because I'm sure I'll be browsing FA constantly while I'm there.

Can I buy you drinks?
It's a free country, I sure as hell won't complain if you wanna waste your money!

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Hugs but only in a non-awkward way

Are you nice?
No, I'm gonna rob ya!

Do you have an artist table?
No, none of my tables are artists. What an odd question to ask.

Will you be going to parties?
Maybe, I don't want to invite myself though

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Just walk up and say hi. Also saying 'holy shit, look at that shark transformation' will get my attention pretty quick.

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Potentially, but I do get a bit awkward around strangers when I've got stuff planned.

Can I look in your sketchbook?
Not bringin' one.

Can I draw in your sketchbook?
See previous answer.

Can I take your picture?
I'D RATHER YA DIDN'T! At least ask, depends on my mood. This ugly mug make cameras light on fire >:C

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Booze, fun, and relaxation. I neeeeeeed it.

Hey guys! Wanted to boost a friend of mine who opened up recently,  ruggy. You can find more details here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8445505/

She's a pleasure to work with, and I've got plans to get more from her soon. Definitely give her a look!

This journal is just to clear the air a bit. Work just put me on a really shitty project lately that requires me to be social for my entire work day, and this garbage schedule is going to continue on well into December. Any developers out there who know the whole 'TDD only pair-program only' life will probably understand why an awkward furry weirdo fuckin' hates it. Because of this, I've been in a pissy mood quite a bit lately, meaning I recluse, so I don't subject folks to my behavior and snap at people. Now that I'm steadily getting used to this schedule, I'm getting better about it, but that also means that I (yet again) have a pretty hefty backlog of things to post, people to talk to, artists to nudge, things to do at home, etc.

I'm taking a day off in the near future to write out stories I promised for 2 people, pertaining to pics I got from/with them. Much as I enjoy writing, I've gotta stop making these promises, because I feel like lately I just don't own my own time. As soon as I say "I will do this," there's an expectation there that it won't take me anywhere near as long as it has. I enjoy writing for writing's sake, but once it's for a person or by a deadline, the pressure is on.

Anyway, gonna try to pick up my posting speed again... Super sorry to folks who've been waiting for a while. I care a lot about the art I get and split with people, and each one I post feels like it deserves at least a clever few sentences and some thought put in, ya know?

Got a couple things I want to get off my chest for folks. Hope no one takes this personally but I'd like to turn around this CONSTANT stress.

1. I have reached the point of max capacity in terms of... well, just about everything. Time, anxiety, stress, social management, all that jazz. So in an effort to reach the point where I won't stress as much, I'm going to stop tearing my hair out trying to remember and manage everything. Gonna try to achieve a few bullet points a day and work from there. As such, if you have something you're waiting on from me, be it splitting a commission, gaming, stories, etc, I am more than likely going to need reminders or help. Just please be understanding, ffs. Got nudged by someone who was annoyed that I was taking a while finding an artist for an idea we have, and while I get that I said I was going to search, I have next to no window to freely hunt for artists. I'm going to try, but knowing how I am lately? That's not scoring high on the priority unless I get help.

2. I'm not actively taking commissions at the moment, story or art or otherwise. I lack both the confidence and the time at the moment to produce something consistent for you to get your money's worth, though I really am flattered people have been asking. I hope soon that I'll be able to get on a consistent schedule so I can practice again, but knowing how behind I am? Errr... Just going to set my sights on catching up for now.

Thanks peeps. Disabling comments 'cuz I don't want to stir up public drama, and this isn't a big deal, just need to have folks to toss me a rope so I can actually start fixing the problem.

Heyyyyy so I'm sorry I've gone silent! AC was a blast but it took so much out of me. Been trying to recover for a week now, but the laze was strong with me.

Met and hung out with so many awesome folks, I was thrilled I got a chance to. Listing a few off the top of my head...  angrboda,  carissa,  xiesin,  firefoxinc,  kellervo,  afevis,  pathia,  artica,  anuv,  rainhyena,  kirisha,  lateinshowing, iko,  pocketwolverine... Gah there's so many more. Think I spent more time at this con hanging out with people than any before, so it was nice to be social for once. Consequentially I missed like 80% of the panels I was curious about, but whatevs. Scheduling this year was balls. I mean c'mon, really? Whose Lion at like 8PM? Not going to be NEARLY drunk enough to enjoy it the way it's meant to be enjoyed.

Anyway! New objective at the moment is to catch up with people, get back on posting arts and writing some stories to go along with 'em. Got so many that I feel deserve a book of their own, but I have to break out of this damn hiatus somehow.

Hey all! I know I've been a bit scarce again, but three cons in the period of a month or so has, uh... It's been tough on my free time. But! I'm in the midst of writing a couple stories for pics I got, and I've got quite a few things in the works to show you all. So look forward to that. :3

Anyway, here are the details for those who wanna say hi~

Where are you staying?
Managed to snag a room at the Courtyard this year! Awww yis

What day are you getting there?
Arriving mid-day on Thursday the 29th, leaving early-ish Monday the 3rd.

How are you traveling?
Same as last year, with my partner in crime  leilasnowpaw

Who will you be rooming with?
Quite a few peeps this year:
 featherbutt,  kurayamiryu888,  lunarsfox,  leilasnowpaw, and two of lunar's roommates who I don't have FA's for, Bailey and Kazy

How is the best way to find you?
My Telegram is probably the best way to get a hold of me, since Skype likes to crap out. @ Vaylute if you're interested, or @ lutalapup on twitter!

Are there any panels you might be attending?
The poker tourney, the Smash brothers tournaments, a number of Werewolf/Tabula games, Whose Lion, the supersponsor lunch... and I'm sure a ton of other things! (Literally copy-pasted from last year)

What do you look like?
Long hair, glasses, fox hat, male. If you see anyone who's wearing a shark fins and has a shark tail but has fox colorations/muzzle in suit? That's probably me. Also, I've got plenty of badges to identify me.

Will you be suiting?
I hope to, but we'll see if we have room.

Do you do free art?
Nope

Do you do trades?
Nnnnnnnope

What is your gender?
Male

How tall are you?
5'8.5" according to my last medical.

Can I talk to you?
Please do!

Can I touch you?
If you're asking this question, then probably no.

How can I find you?
Go to the panels mentioned above, or tweet at my friends. Potentially try noting me as a last resort, because I'm sure I'll be browsing FA constantly while I'm there.

Can I buy you drinks?
If you feel like wasting money sure.

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Hugs but only in a non-awkward way

Are you nice?
No, I'm a mobster and I'll steal yer money. >:3

Do you have an artist table?
No, none of my tables are artists. What an odd question to ask.

Will you be going to parties?
If someone asks? Probably. We'll see!

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Just walk up and say hi. Also saying 'holy shit, look at that shark transformation' will get my attention pretty quick.

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Potentially, but I do get a bit awkward around strangers when I've got stuff planned.

Can I look in your sketchbook?
Not bringin' one.

Can I draw in your sketchbook?
At that point you would be breaking into my house because I'm leaving it at home. Get out of my house. What are you doing here? How did you get in

Can I take your picture?
Fffff.... Only for friends. I hate seeing my face or spreading my face for others to see. Every time I see it I go ECH

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Have a TON of fun with good friends. Potentially getting drunk for a night or two as well.


Lots of similar answers as last year, I know!

Heyyyyy so I'm bad at this posting stuff, sorry about that. :Y

Bunch of things to report on, so I'm just gonna split this into stupid little sections and pin it up on my profile.

Art updates!

This is probably going to be the part people will care about the most so I might as well get it over with.

I have been slowly catching up on my list of art to post, but I'm still pretty far behind. If there's something that we split or that you've gifted me before November of last year and you've been waiting on me to post it, feel free to send me a note. It's not anything personal, honestly. I know I'm taking ages but I feel like so many of these pics deserve at least a paragraph or two of context, and given my free time being stretched thin lately, it's been tough to churn out.

As for the line of people I have to split art with, it's still open and active, with info listed here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7376560/ I've been going through the list a lot slower lately thanks in large part to just the lack of time I have had to search for artists and think of compelling ideas. That being said, if you have an artist or an idea off-hand, don't be afraid to note me! The list is just a good way for me to keep track of folks who'd like something at some point.

Also, the second Shark Tooth Fever comic is still in hiatus, but Shark Tooth Fever as a whole is still going strong! I've got a stack of pics about it I still need to post. I've got other comic ideas in mind and I'm still very open to splitting/discussing it with others.

Finally, I'm planning on posting some of my own personal drawings here soon. Not many, but a few of them I feel at least a little proud of despite their age. Hopefully inspiration will kick my butt enough to draw again. ^^

AO Post-con

Anthrohio, or Morphicon as I remember it, was the first furry con I ever went to. Sadly, this year was the last it'll be in that same con space, as they're demolishing the hotel. It's a real shame, but the place was starting to fall apart and I knew it'd happen some day. Its new location is still pretty close to where I live, but we'll see how my schedule looks next year... Kind of hard to convince myself to go to so many cons again with such rapid fire frequency, but we'll see. Glad I met some of the folks I did, for one last hoo-rah before they tear it all down and purge the furry-tainted ashes of the hotel.

BLFC Post-con

This was my first year going, and I had a pretty good time! Met so many awesome people I know online, there was just too much to do for just one weekend. On top of having a blast with my roommates jalen and flynn, I got a chance to hang out with grafttikidog, ruggy, kirydos, furian, shibiru, zhag, echoen, afevis, pathia, helioshusky, xurnami... Goddamn. In retrospect, I hung out with a lot of people. Not to mention, got a chance to do mini-golf, try go-karting, participate in the Smash 4 tourney, drink my body's weight in booze, and peruse the fantastic dealer's room. I'm actually a little pissed I left so early Sunday, sounds like I missed a good time that evening. I'm hoping to convince Leila to go with me next year, but those tickets man... so expensive.

I didn't play poker like I wanted, but I DID beat a slot machine called "Scarlett Thief". 20 dollars in, 21.80 out. Proof for the dirty non-believers: https://twitter.com/lutalapup/statu.....52447640993792

Anthrocon Pre-con

More info on this soon, but me and a number of my friends managed to snag a room in the Courtyard this year! Hope to see a lot of you~

Aaaaaaand lastly!

Just wanna thank folks for all the watches and favs despite my inactivity. I've got so much to post here soon - a couple new characters, some fantastic stories, and art across all of my characters (though Scarlett's list is by far the biggest). Even a few animated pieces I think you guys will enjoy! And as always, there's a lot of weird stuff that'll be coming soon to my alternative profile, vaylute. If you like Weird or strange TF, plenty of that to come over there~

Hey guys! Just letting folks know (kind of last minute) that I'll be going to BLFC this year. ^^

I'm staying at the main hotel Thursday through early Sunday, when I'm leaving early afternoon. As such, I'm going to be a bit hard to reach in the interim, so if you want to get a hold of me, your best bet is going to be to either note me here, or send a message to my twitter, lutalapup. You're also welcome to put a comment here if you wanted to say hi~

Hope you guys have a good week! <3