So I'm moving to Michigan. Arizona ain't cutting it.

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I'm walking away from McDonalds with a yummy McGriddle in one paw, and a large soda in the other. The food is unwrapped and reaty to be nommed. I slowly raise it to my lips, anticipating deliciousness filling my palette. The next thing I know, I'm on the ground, McGriddle five feet away, soda spilt and cup destroyed.

My ankle has struck again.

It adds injury to insuly by hurting. It still hurts as I sit here now, lamenting my lost meal. I say lost because I did not have the money to replace it.

I bet that McGriddle was delicious beyond belief. I hope the ants are happy.

I... I really don't know what's been up lately. I've been neglecting my inner wolf. Harshly. I don't know why or what for. Seriously. I have no idea what spell I've been under. That's what I feel like I'm waking up from... I don't know... anything. I don't even know why I feel this way.


Am I crazy?

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My laptop got stolen from the library while I was in the batheoom. Some punkass hispanic just walked up n took it and my backpack and all of my worldly posessions. Everything I owned was in there.

I.m homless. Not a lot of my friends know that. I'm ashamed to admit that I'm one of the many that can't cut it in todays world. And now... I just feel like killing myself. Only three people would miss me if I did... god why does life have to suck so much? I tried to make it. I tried so hard... and now... Fuck ... I hate life and everything aboit it right now.



Shit. Just... Just shit.

I'm done. I'm done passing myself off as a writer. I'm done trying to be an artist. And the faint idea that I could possibly be a voice actor? Pft. Silly dream of a childish mind.

None of it works. No one reads my stories, or if they do, don't feel they're worth commenting on unless to say its crap. (didn't happen here, don't go looking for it)

Maybe my dad was right. Maybe you do have to stop doing the things you love sometimes because they no longer matter. but dad, how does that work when they never mattered in the first place? Eh? Solve that one. Can you? Oh wait, you're dead. Silly me.

... sorry. Today was just one gigantic letdown. I mean what I said above though. I'm done writing. I'm done drawing. Not that I'm able to do much drawing. I'm done recording my voice and sending it in to voice talent agencies. I'm tired of rejection and indifference, more indifference than rejection. I'm just one person in billions, there's nothing special about me. I need to accept that.

Part 1: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p9zX52wgss8
Part 2: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FFofUqpMCIw

Is it just me or does anyone else get images of a nuclear attack and the aftermath from listening to those two pieces?

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
Crotch.

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
Dont have a hoodie

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
I'm gonna say yes, but that would be a goodbye kiss

4. Do you plan outfits?
no

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Meh. Need noms.

6. What's the closest thing to you that's red
Fire Extinguisher

7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
Uh.... pass.

8. Did you meet anybody new today?
Too early in the morning.

9. What are you craving right now?
Moar chocolate.

10. Do you floss?
No.

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
Sourkraut

12. Are you emotional?
yeah I am. but I'm not EMO.

13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
Only when counting pennies

14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
Lick until it's more melted.

15. Do you like your hair?
Its not long, so yes

16. Do you like yourself?
No. I'm an idiot.

17. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
Maybe once.

18. What are you listening to right now?
Bronyville podcast.

19. Are your parents strict?
no.

20. Would you go sky diving?
why would I want to jump out of a perfectly good airplane. Have the bitch break in midair, THEN I'll go skydiving.

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
no

22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
Does James Doohan count? I was 5 but I still met him.

23. Do you rent movies often?
no. I'm a pirate.

24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
nope

25. How many countries have you visited?
none. I haven't even visited THIS one.

26. Have you made a prank phone call?
a few

27. Ever been on a train?
Yes

28. Brown or white eggs?
Ieither.

29. Do you have a cell-phone?
I have an Android I know very little about. I don't have its charger and I was given it by a friend.

30. Do you use chap stick?
no

31. Do you own a gun?
not yet

32. Can you use chop sticks?
yes

33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
no one. lonely wolf.

34. Are you too forgiving?
yea..

35. Ever been in love?
yes.

36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow (or the next soonest week day)?
something fun that I can't join in on

37. Ever have cream puffs?
yep. they're great.

38. Last time you cried?
few days ago.

39. What was the last question you asked?
Why are you fucking with me, Karma?

40. Favorite time of the year?
none

41. Do you have any tattoos?
yes

42. Are you sarcastic?
NO!!!!

43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
nah.

44. Ever walked into a wall?
YES

45. Favorite color?
Orange and blue

46. Have you ever slapped someone?
yes

47. Is your hair curly?
only when long, and I try to keep it from going long.

48. What was the last CD you bought?
Bitch no one buys CDs anymore.

49. Do looks matter?
Yes they do. Now.

50. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
Depends on what they cheated at.

51. Is your phone bill sky high?
Dont have one

52. Do you like your life right now?
No. Nononononononono. I hate it. Hate hate HATE it!

53. Do you sleep with the TV on?
Sometimes

54. Can you handle the truth?
about what?

55. Do you have good vision?
pretty good

56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
no

57. How often do you talk on the phone?
not often enough

58. The last person you held hands with?
Kakani.

59. What are you wearing?
NYPD shirt and black swim trunks

60.What is your favorite animal?
There are way too many cool animals out there to pick one favorite. I do really like snow leopards though...

61. Where was your favorite picture taken at?
I dont have a favorite picture. anymore...

62. Can you hula hoop?
never tried

63. Do you have a job?
No...

64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
uhm... IDK...

65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Yes

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When? When am I gonna catch a break? Eh? I'm homeless again, stuck in Mesa AZ because I thought I would have work and a home. I was brought out here on promises not kept and have no way out. The person who brought me here has since abandoned me, and the only joy I get are the hours when the damn library's open.

I know what some of you are gonna say. Gotta make your own breaks. Life's not gonna give you a chance, you gotta get your own. Well, taking a chance is what got me here. So fuck you. I've been pretty much fucked over by life ever since 16 years when my mom left my dad, leaving me to take care of his fat, uncaring ass. Not that he didn't care for me or my sis. He just didn't care about himself. The man was... well, lets just say they had to do some really funky shifting to get him out of the bedroom when he was found dead.

From there, i took a chance (before he died) and moved to Washington to be with a girl. Was with her for 4 years. Had only odd jobs and under-the-counter stuff mostly, only two official jobs. Me n her mom fought hard. Her mom was stuck in the '60s. Moved to New Mex with them, and a year after was dumped for a coworker.

Went back to L.A. and stayed with my mom and her hubby (dad dead two years now) for a few months till they almost kicked me out. Couldn't find stable work. I got fired from Walmart because I had to commute a long distance from my home store to the one they wanted me to work at. Then i worked for Sears, making home improvement appointments, till they let me go due to budget cuts. Then I was with Ralphs till I had a disagreement about my schedule. One week they didn't have me listed at all. When I called to ask why (on my birthday I might add), they said, "Oh well... We feel you're just not working out." Happy birthday, you're fired.

The begining of 2009 promised big things. I was going to Tulsa, OK to attend a college, at a friend's insistance (who blames herself for everything that's happened since). I'm not gonna say that was the WORST place I've ever been, but it ranks highly. I couldn't find ANY kind of work that didn't involve me having or needing my own car, be it for the job or to get to it. I resorted to stealing from Walmart to survive, which worked for most of the time there till they caught me. Was the same day I heard my grandma died of Alzheimer's. so yeah, I was a bit distraught, and made a mistake.

From there I walked (YES WALKED MOTHERFUCKERS) to Las Vegas, where I stayed six months with my best friend of then 10 years. No jobs, one interview and that's it. I don't blame him for kicking me out. I stayed another 6 months there, 3 of those out of a Salvation Army post where I was trained in culinary arts. Cut to just over a month ago.

Another friend whom I won't name (she's a fur and on FA) tells me you should come here. There's work and I have a place for you. I got the money, took the chance and came here. The first two weeks were ok. We were good together. No work, and no place to live permanently, we bounced from friend to friend's house. Sometimes her mom would kick for a Hotel room, my own mom sent $300 for that, which we got about 5 days out of in a good hotel.

Now when I got here, I knew she had mental problems, but she'd never told me how serious they were. On top of that it was going to be an open relationship, which I was good with so long as I OK'd the people she was with. I think THAT was our major breaking point. I veto'd one guy and you'd have thought I murdered her puppy. I'll not go into details, but things got progressively worse.

Last week she went to phoenix without telling ANYONE. I haven't seen her since. Last I heard she's in Chandler, which is just south of Mesa. She'd made it clear she didn't want to be with me anymore (because I'm rational I think), but that doesn't mean she can just abandon me like that does it? Well, I'm pretty much done with her.

As of the current moment, I have a friend in Kentucky who's working to get me out to be with him. Ironically, the Mesa girl was the one who introduced us. Now, i have no idea why this guy wants me. He's never met me, he barely knows me, and he's putting himself way out if he does come thru.

I don't like sitting tight, especially if I'm in a bad situation like I am. It's unnerving. At least I have someplace I can go every morning to get breakfast, but that only consists of cereal and milk, and some doughnuts, occasionally they have oversalted ham, but I stear clear of that, as it gave me a bad stomach ache last time I ate it.

Now, who says I'm just a whiner? Anyone? Anyone? I'll gladly trade places with you and see how much you have to say about it.

[media] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CFuyE_VBeO8 [/media]

Read by Samuel Jackson. Epic lols, and if you're a parent you know where he's coming from.

So I'm mateless again. I don't even know how it happened. She has mental problems, we had an argument because she woke me up to do something non-sexual at 2am. She stormed off and I didn't hear from her for a while. Next I hear she's checked into a mental hospital and with a new guy. TT.=.TT

Why?? Why won't anyone stay with me? I'm not a bad guy am I? I'm not tainted or evil. I just have some bad luck is all. Why won't anyone stay with me...

I want to die.

I think I've been abandoned by my mate. She's not tried to contact me but once all day. She knows where I go during the day. and she knows I wanted her to meet me there. I can't find her anywhere...


So scared...

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Yeah I know I said I wouldn't do these anymore. Blaah.

I only have 2 pokemon in the 40-50 range. I kinda focused on the story more than leveling.

number is 0776 5137 0601.

Let me know if you add me ^.=.^

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four spots! I'm diving on one!

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DOO EEET!

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Sorry ladies.

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Thefted from my mate  Kakani

[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee.
[x] You keep track of dates using a calendar.
[ ] You own a credit card. (i have a moneycard thing from walmart)
[x] You know how to change the oil in a car.
[x] You've done your own laundry.
[x] You can vote in an election.
[x] You can cook for yourself.
[ ] You think politics are interesting

TOTAL SO FAR: 6

[ ] You show(ed) up for school late a lot.
[x] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket.
[ ] You've never gotten a detention.
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday.
[x] You like to take walks by yourself.
[x] You know what credibility means, without looking it up.
[xxx] You drink caffeine at least once a week. (I know it doesn't count as 3 but still!)

TOTAL SO FAR: 10

[x] You know how to do the dishes.
[x] You can count to 10 in another language.
[x] When you say you're going to do something you USUALLY do it.
[x] You can mow the lawn.
[ ] You study even when you don't have to.
[x] You have hand washed a car before.

TOTAL SO FAR: 15

[x] You can spell experience, without looking it up.
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name.
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is take out.
[ ] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need.
[x] You understand political jokes the first time they are said.
[x] You can type pretty quick.

TOTAL SO FAR: 18

[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment.
[x] You have been to a Tupperware party.
[x] You have realised that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay.
[x] You have been to the beach.
[x] You use the internet every day.
[ ] You have been outside of your home country 3 or more times.
[/] You make your bed in the morning. (Maybe.)

TOTAL SO FAR: 22.5

[x] You have filed a tax return
[x] You have used a pay phone
[x] You have been served alcohol without being ID'd
[x] You have purchased stamps at the grocery store
[x] You have purchased a lottery ticket
[ ] You still have and use a VCR

Total: 27.5
age: 28 Eh. close enough.