NimRoderick

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 NimRoderick

http://www.poorlydrawnpuppy.com/p/live.html

YAY POKEMON!

if you want to add me here is my friend code 0447-6466-7984
please add and if you know tell me your friend safari type, i think mine is Ground

-Scruff

Well i am back from RF and i had a FANTASTIC time, lots of arts and people to see, i got a new tail, got to see old friends.
It was a great time all around, there where some things that i was disapointed with....like missing the pokefurs panle! but all in all it was awsome.









See you next year RF
Scruff

well last night i had a panic attack, i broke down and could not stop crying and being afraid, i dont know what triggered,

all the time i feel like i could be so so strong and just shrug off everything that i hear at the hospital
i wanted to be strong so i could be there for others, so i could show no matter how many times i am told i could be at risk for any thing i can stay positive...but i cant..i just cant. when i broke down into this panic attack i just felt like i could not take it, it was like everything all my doctors have told me have just hit me, i just want to be a strong person so i can be there for my friends...but mabey its the oposit, mabey im not6 strong and i want my friends to be there to make me strong.


whatever it is i needed to type this up, i want to try and be stronger but mabey i just need alittle help with that.

you know when you see somthing so amazing that you cant eve let out a word escape from you, all you can do is watch while you get s strange fealing in your chest?

well all i can say is watch this http://www.youtube.com/watch?featur.....;v=QxfdC7U_mgQ beacuse if i tell you what happened that oment would be gone for you, you need to see it yourself.









Scruff

So me and  mixnmatch Went to this slightly on theater to see the artist ( for those who dont know the movie, its about a actor in the rise of the silent film popularity and who he deals with the upcoming talkies) and i have to say, being able to see a silent movie in black and white in a theater! That is an experionce that started making me tear up, but was the movie good? Well the emotion of the mute charecters were so strong amd so balevable i was hooked, all the actors did a superb job and i was tearing up at time ( not showing mix :p ) but the setting was so sureal in a.... well real kind of way, and seeing the "hollywoodland" sign was awsome. my words are not good enough to describ this film, this is a must see for anyone that likes silent film, classic B/W films, art films or just films in geniral. Ignore my spelling mistakes here and take these words to heart, i love this film and wish for all of you to see this experionce and hopefully live it to.


Scruff

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WJIuYgIvKsc






my god...i just...just wow.
please send this into other journals, spread this video.

Today is the day i was left on this big ass rock we know as earth, i am happy to now i am turning 22!
i hope this year will be the best yet, i decided to ask for money so i can give a mass donation to children hospital.
on the 17th i had a party with my friends and we went to the AFK tavern.


Im hoping the there wont be a wind storm this yea

A teacher in New York was teaching her class about bullying and gave them the following exercise to perform. She had the children take out a piece of paper and told them to crumple it up, stomp on it and really mess it up, not to rip it.
Then she had them unfold the paper, smooth it out and look at how scarred and dirty it was. She then told them to tell it they're sorry. Now, even though they said they were sorry and tried to fix the paper, she pointed out all the scars they left behind. And that those scars will never go away no matter how hard they tried to fix it.
That is what happens when a child bullies another child, they may say they're sorry, but the scars are there forever. The looks on the faces of the children in the classroom told her the message hit home. Copy and paste this if you are against bullying.

They bother be so much, and know that this "rant" is not ment to piss people off or create drama....anyway!
Character Auctions bother me mainly because I don't get why people sell off there old characters its like "here you can pay to have my character who is a purple lepord with grey spots with a name you most likely wont like" or you can just make a character like that, its not like a colour sceam for a anthro fox or tiger or armadillo are copyrighted same with names if people bitch becuse they have the same names, well people can be born and have the same names and there are so many furs that have the same names and bitch about it.

So the wole point of this is, if you like a characters colour sceam then make your own character like that, its not like someone is going to throw a bitch fit about it....and if they do then that is just sad.

So RP was a blast, 4 days of pure awsome! i got a room in advance and was rooming with  kushaba  mixnmatch  Schro_Prince_of_Cats  VoiceOfTheBlue but  Schro_Prince_of_Cats ragequit at the hotel so it was just me  kushaba  mixnmatch and  VoiceOfTheBlue, hell it was a great time! me and  mixnmatch got to use are fursuits at a convention for the first time and ill tell you i almost passedout @_@. i got to meet alot of awsome people and got to see some old friends at that!

i also found out you can order pizza to hotel rooms, how awsome is that!!!! i even went to an art jam where you draw in other peoples scetch books
so i ended up just drawing Me gusta faces in them (im sorry) but i cant draw so they looked kinda shity. but all in all it was the best con ever.




i cant wait for next year and i cant wait to see all my friends again, cheers to an awsome year at rainfurest!

today is september 11th,a day that some people say is the "worst tragady to happen in this country" witch i thik is BS
now i know that what happened was a treribal thing and im not CALM THE FUCK DOWN!
i mean really, there are worse things to happen in this country and the fact people are saying it effected the whole world or the whole world stoped.
NO! no it did not, do you actally think that some kid in china wa effected by this. and people saying the world stoped is just ludicris!
well whatever...

Scruff.

1. Will you be attending?
are charmander a fire type pokemon :D

2. Staying at:
con hotel room i paid for

3. Arrival and Departure:
idk first day

4. Mode of transportation
a driving contraption

5. Rooming with:
mixnmatchkushabavoiceofthebluechaosfonja and MAYBE schroprinceofcats

6. Con Plans:
hopefully fursuiting and stuffs

7: How can I find you?
how the hell should i know? just call out scruff i guess

8. Do you do free art?
i dont know if i will have any clay with my so probily not

9. Do you have prints/Cds?
no

10. Will you be fursuiting? if so: What suit(s)?
hopefully, the suit is being made by razzylee

11. Will you be going to parties?
no shiz

12. Will you be performing?
ill try

13. Smoke?
no's

14. Drink
probily

15. Gender
Male

16. Can I hug you?
sure ^^

17. Can I talk to you?
if i get it before the con then yes

18. Will you be at any panels?
dont know, proly not

19. Can I touch you?
o.o umm....depens what you meen by touch...

20. Can I buy you drinks?
sure

21. How old are you?
old enough to buy booze

22. Can I snuggle with you?
mabey

23. If you're pissed off, should I approach you?
yes, talking helps me calm down

24. Are you nice?
i think i am ^_^

25. Cliquey?
my roommmates
mixnmatchkushabavoiceofthebluechaosfonja

26. How tall?
5'11"

27. Can I Take pictures of you?
why not

28. Will you get anything commissioned?
ummm DUH!

29. How can I get your attention?
say my name

30. Can I ask you to dance at the raves?
i guess if its just a friendly dance

yo dawg i herd you like ar sales :P



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so E3 was pretty good there was alot of good games shown and awsome tech.
First up was mircosoft and... well they... they sucked they really sucked all they showed was kinect games and other crap.
Sony was second and they did really well showing great games and tech, my favorate being the announcement of Sly 4 and the price of the playstation vita witch is $249.99 for wi-fi and $299.99 for 3G.
and my favorate as Nintendo, they started off with a orcistra playing zelda and then showed some awsome 3DS game's, and they then unveiled the new console the (and i know it is not the best name but bare with it) the Wii U witch has a controler with a touch screen on it and is a 1080P HDMI graphic console with great 3rd party support from ubisoft, EA, Ken Lavine (dont know if i spelled it right but he's the creator of Bioshock) and people at E3 has said the controler work's well and is comfurtibull.
but all in all Nintendo and Sony fans got a great E3 but for microsoft fans.....well yea.

so the rapture happend and appernetly i got raptured, aperently they onlt got 1 computor here so yea, i have a new adress in heven and all that jazz, yhave fun on earth

So today me,  mixnmatch and my friend brian went to the pokemon championships in seattle and it was fun.
they only aloud 5th gen pokemon so everyone can get acustom to them needless to say i was already acustom to gen 5.
but alas my ass was handed to me on a silver fucking platter on the first round ;_;
but it was fun! there was a king of the hill thing they where doing for people to see how long they can last and i was lasting for a good long while.... ok 2 rounds.. but still! also there where some guys that had a team of cheated shinys and one of them was a cocky son of a bitch and the other was actaly really nice. but that was it, and hey if anyone ever wants to battle just send me a privet message, over and out!

so i watched summer wars tonight and i can sumup the whole thing in 2 words "Fucking Sweet"

it was good :P

There are only 3 games that hold a deep personal meaning to me, the first is earthbound and the meaning it holds is how no mater how old one may be, there never to old to have an adventure with your friend's, the second is yoshi's island and it has a deep meaning to show that no matter what happen's you can always find good in the most darkest situation's, and the last one is the legend of zelda the wind waker, This game has something that britens my soul when i play it, i show's how beautiful and harsh the world can be and how the only way to truly find out who you are is to go out there and be one with the elements of life and the world. Thank you for listening to these word's i say and for careing about what make's me...well me, i have had verry depressing journal's before or even angry one's but sometimes i just need to show my true self, the me who can find a spiritual meaning in small plastic cartreges of our childhood, goodbye my friends i will see you some other time, but for now i need some sleep....just don't forget what i said, it might even brighten your day and if so...then it would brighten mine.

-Scruff The Sage

i have not been fealing up to par lately, in otherwords im depressed as hell. i fear i have lost my muse for sculpting witch is my favrate type of art, also i feal nothing when i sculpt. no love, no insperation and no happyness.

also i just feal horable i feal like i dont belong in this world and thats its all fake. idk why i feal this way i just do.
i guess this is my only outlet to show my saddness but whatever.

sorry to bother everyone with my downerness...

So tonight i kinda had a thing, i wasent fealing good and dont want to get into detail's but first thi's



I am biologicly very difrent from most people, i have half of a heart, i have hypersensitive scence's, a shit load of other medical crap and neralogical shit, torret syndrum that cause pysical ticks( i was made fun of alot in Jr high for my neck tick's)

i have always thought i was a imperfect mess, basicly being keepted alive by all the operations that was done to me, hell i even died once for like 2 min's.
so when i was having the Emotional Breakdown my mate  Kushaba looking straight at me said "your Perfect"...

i burst into tear's again! but this time out of sheer joy, for the first time in my like i did not feel like a medical mess of a person, i felt like all medical shit was gone, i cant stop smileing :'3



Finally...i feel alive

It snowed today and all i could think about when i looked at it was Fog. Odd i know but after i thought that all i wanted to do was writing a story, luckly i came up with a bunch of idea's but all of them where really depressing. I don't wana only write depressing stuff but i can never think of anything good. Every non sad story i think of is "cleché" and it pisses me off. Not only that i cant even think of anything to sculpt, i have been in a sculpting block for AGES!!!!

I also have this odd fealing, like some really bad event is about to happen and i cant do anything about it. Not that i don't feal it everyday but today i just feal it more presentable. Hopefully someone knows what the hell i am talking about if not then *shrugs*

Well that's all i had on my mind i guess.

so get this, my new laptop is a gaming laptop an Alienware M17X and i can run Crysis and Metro 2033 without any lag or slowdown at all. ok BUT! i just downloaded the Benchmark for the one Game i have been waiting for all year, Final Fantasy XIV witch has almost as good graphics (or the same i dont 100% know) as Crysis... and it gave me a score of 357!!!! WHAT THE HELL!!!!!! i should beable to run the fucker but it says i cant!!!. all in all im pissed off, upset and HOPING that i can run it when i pick it up on the 22nd of this month. if anyone has any advice BESIDES "get a new computor" or "dont get the game" i would appreciate it verry much.