https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60909218/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60909218/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60909218/

Not that it matters or anything, I recently turned 36 as of today...so...happy birthday to me I guess.

Great…just fucking Great…my grandmother has been coughing a lot more lately and has been having trouble breathing due to the bronchitis, and she’s refusing to go to the emergency room…it’s only a matter of time now, and I’ve known it would be coming eventually but…two days…two days before my birthday and…*tears up while pounding the table*fuck…😭😢

(Edit:…well today just keeps getting fucking ‘better’…my mom was recently in a car accident. The police drove her home but…god fucking damn it what sin did I do to piss you off god?! Because this feels like a really shitty birthday gift you gave me!)

Hey its been a while since I posted one of these. So....bad news, my portable harddrive for my laptop is no longer working, so i had to redownload a LOT of stuff for sfm...but it will be limited to the KM models, Warfaremachine's Renamon model, and Petruz' lizard model(hopefully I don't need to download the cats in order to get the textures to work), so sadly....no more krystal pics, lopunny and punnyveons, gardevoir, zeraora(meaning no lora pics aside from comms and stuff)...and limited to certain maps until I can get a new portable hard drive to plug into my laptop

Update: Was able to redownload warfaremachine's rouge and gardevori models..but that's it. I don't wanna push myself any further without overloading my laptop

Welp...Christmas is almost upon us and next month after the new year...I hit the big 35...mid-life....god I'm old. Also sorry I don't often post as much anymore guys. Just....a lot of mental issues in my head...mostly from depression and stuff thanks to a certain someone I won't mention, but...ugh. I feel as if I haven't achieved anything in life...no job still, no girlfriend(really...who'd want someone like me?)...I live by myself(technically with my sister and I stay above the garage but still), and...I honestly can't enjoy any good things or any accomplishments I've done. I got 2 stories on fanfic and a03 that have their own TV Trope pages, I got a Let's Play channel...I haven't' touched in a long while due to my ps4 overheating(gonna try and get a new one next month), I have my pics here on FA and DA...and got a lot of watches admittedly, but...I don't feel proud of any of that sadly.

I don't mean to ramble on and waste your time with me, but...I'm about to hit mid-life and I've done nothing of value or to contribute to society...and I easily get depressed and can't enjoy anything anymore...and despite all the love I get from my friends and family...I still feel like a disappointment and will never earn the approval of a certain someone.

I just hope next year...things will turn around for me, otherwise...I'm just gonna be a sad man who's wasted his life on things he enjoys and has a self-esteem that's been shattered to atoms, and feels I will never earn the approval of that person...

I'm sorry I ended up taking down my one shot lemon on here. Just i went to go cehck the file and the gifs weren't working on it properly...so I apologize

Heya. Just here to promote a new art raffle held by this gentlemen here.

https://www.furaffinity.net/user/heraconcordia/

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48066303/

Be sure to follow the rules to assure you get a slot in the raffle.

Well...so far July has been a 'great' month for me...first was the issues with my ps4, and now my TV won't even turn on anymore. I tried changing out the batteries in my remote...nothing. I tried unplugging my tv from both the wall and from the back...nothing. Again...this turned into a 'great' month for me...

.....I knew this day would fucking come. My ps4 is starting to die out...no matter what I do, I keep getting the overheat warning, and i have a fan trying to blow on it to keep it cool and multiple fans to keep my room cool. I...I really fucking didn't need this shit today...I've already had an emotional fucking day thanks to my fucking uncle's toxic mentality and what's worse, he forbad me from ever getting another ps4...or even getting a ps5. After I got my ps4 and switch...that's it. Those were gonna be my last systems...EVER. Even fi I no longer live with him...he made me promise myself to NEVER ever buy another system again....just...I...I really didn't need this day...just...fuck today.

First off..happy new years people, and farewell 2021! Also...got 13 days left until I hit 34 years old....god I'm getting old...

Hey guys. Been a while since I made a new journal, but...well here to promote a free art raffle held by  melonpuff

https://twitter.com/kajinman_art/st.....726419/photo/1

And with that I say...good luck to you all.

*sighs*to those who know of  meteoramaxwell...I am sad to say he has passed on. He was a good person, and one of the first people I’ve gotten pics from of my ocs. He’s been having a lot of health issues lately, but at least he won’t have to suffer anymore pain and is in a better place now...rest in peace maxwell. You’ll be surely missed

Hey. Merry Christmas...and a depressing new year...

Hy. my and  alphalyons 's Project X project is back on track, but here's a little something. to those who watch both our accounts and likes our project, feel free to join in on it by having your OCs in similar situations ala one shots in Project X. If you happen to join n the fun, let us know and share you you guys did for your part of the project x project. And if you have any suggestions for it, let us know.

Hey. So you’re probably wondering about the mass pic upload and it involves the famous Project X adult sonic fan game. Well me and Alphalyons are doing a bit of a fun project based on it using my oc Miyuki, and on occasion there will be one shots for it made either by him, or by fellow artist via comms. We have more pics in the works, so stay tuned for more of Miyuki’s sex based adventures.

Anyone looking for free stuff? Then stop by here and get a free bust shot form a good friend of mine

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9297444/

Hey. just...ugh. I really hate writing these depression journals, but...ugh. I have to leave my aunt and uncle's house because I pissed off my aunt(I tried to remind her mom had texted her, and she already knew..and I got my head bitten off because i got in the way of the two and i should've 'backed the fuck off'), and my uncle is gonna call me to talk most likely about it...ugh...so that's 4 things I've learned since living with my aunt and uncle. Good intentions are bad and get you in trouble, trying is another word for giving up, Sorry doesn't mend anything, and never loan money to family...even if its an emergency...and i learned one thing...there's no such thing as happiness or love...it's all a lie. I try and be happy and put up a brave face...but...I feel deep down i don't deserve any of it...no one will hire me because I'm Autistic...I constantly walk on eggshells around my aunt and uncle where if I say the wrong thing...kicked out or forcing me to destroy one of my consoles or laptop...or worse, taking away my bank account because I got under 1000$. I don't know what's ever right or wrong anymore....there is no happiness or love...I don't deserve any of that...

Is discord working for anyone? It’s not loading up on my end

Hey guys. Just wanna throw this out here, but I do have a Let's Play channel you guys can check out. Fair warning..the videos are a bit long, but still a bit fun to enjoy.

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCF....._as=subscriber

Also another topic...anyone know a good video editor? I need soem help to trim my videos down so they're not so long...because no one is gonna wanna see 3-4 hour long videos just to find the part they need help with in the game I'm LPing. If you can find a good person who's really good at editing videos, let me know

Hey. If anyone is interested in an rp or two, I got a channel for it...well originally had it with someone ,but tey left and now it's only jsut me. If anyone isinterested in joining, feel free to click the link while you can.

https://discord.gg/2Wf7xY

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27335525/

Pic explains it all, so for the next month or two...feel free to use my currently horny ninetailed vixen(mostly draw her with one tail to make things easier) in whatever pic you guys make or request/commish from someone.

Hey guys. so....a few days ago(before my depression attack), I set up a new NSFW RP blog on Tumblr.

https://www.tumblr.com/blog/isleoferos

"If you have a tumblr account and have a need to RP...just either reblog the post of the current RPs I'm doing, or send me a PM on Tumblr. But if ya don't have a Tumblr account, hit me up on Discord, or send me a PM on here or Inkbunny

Hey...ugh...listen. None of you may need to hear this, but...you people need to realize all the things I...no. WE like....it's all stuff meant for little kids. Pokemon: meant for kids. Sonic: meant for kids. Any video game in general(minus M rated games): meant for kids. Anime: meant for kids. Plus...when you do get money...don't spend it on useless stuff like drawings and stuff meant for little kids. Save it up and spend it on something more important, such as office supplies, tools, or better yet...not spend a single dime at all. You see...there's a thing called buyers weakness, which makes you spend money on stuff you don't even need. Ugh...what I'm trying to say is...after I disappointing my uncle after he found out I spent 1000$ this month alone....I realized....I wasted my life on all the things I've mentioned. You should all take notes from this, because you don't wanna end up as pathetic as me, someone who wasted his life playing video games, writing stories that won't pass up as official things(surprised I haven't been sued yet), I watch cartoons(most of which are only meant for little kids and/or girls)...I don't even have a job and girlfriend. I cant even write a story without someone helping me...I've wasted my life, and it took my uncle to make me realize that...if you guys suddenly see my art and/or fanfics vanish from this site and fanfiction.net...it means I've discarded them, because they're just a part of my old childish self, because if those stay...it just shows I refuse to grow up, choosing to remain a man child....ugh...this is Seanzilla9999/115, and...please. Take this advice to heart, get rid of everything that's deemed childish, and grow up

Well...tomorrow, I officially turn 30....god I'm old...