I'm still tossing about the idea if I want to go or not this year. On one hand I want to get a chance to suit, but the last two years have been bad for me. Everyone I try to make plans with initially say they want to do stuff, but when it comes down to it, I'm just forgotten about. I don't like feeling put of place more than I already do, and I'm just afraid this year will be more of the same. I don't know.... I just wish I didn't feel like this

I just don't get how people can be in social situations. I don't get how people can just instantly be buddy buddy. I have tried and failed. I have tried to talk only to be ignored. I just don't get how it works. I never feel right posting in group chats cause I know I'll be ignored cause I'm not popular or a somebody. I don't like going to parties cause I know I'll just be the odd man out and a number. Fuck this will probably effect me going to cons cause I know I'll just be ditched again. I just can't do social interactions cause I know I'm a walking fuck up.

How do you do it? What do I have to do to be better? What can I do to stop being an idiot, and what do I have to do to not be a looser to many?

Since the stroke of midnight, I have turned 26. While not a large mile stone year like one's 18, 21, or hell even 25th in my opinion, it's still another year I have been on this little blue speck in our wide wide galaxy. Not going to lie, this year has honestly started off pretty damn shittly. My movement to Guest Services has been horrible for me. I thought I would enjoy it, but I honestly don't. Each day has brought my mood lower and lower. I am thankful I am getting a switch back to attractions, and I have hopes things will slowly improve.

However, this day should not be focusing on the negative. I had a great get together at a video game bar with my friends on the third, and later today I have a reading of a script in which I got a part in. I am looking forward to that. I also will be planning on streaming soon, and I am looking forward to that too. I am thankful for having good friends as well as an amazing boyfriend who has been with me through both good and bad times. There are so many things I am thankful for, and I look forward to see what the rest of my life will give me. So I am thankful I have turned 26. More chances to be a fun silly and rather insane fox, and more time to be padded and enjoying the things I love!

I just woke up and am sleepy as hell. So this is the best time to ask me anything!!

So I want to do a video in which I answer question from folks on a recording. In order to do this, I need people to ask stuff! So, if you have a question, please make sure it it SFW, then ask on here! I hope to have the video shot by Thursday!

So if anyone is going out to Halloween Horror Nights in Orlando this year, I will be running around Guiding guests through all of the haunted houses again! I am so excited to be doing this event, and hopefully it can lead to me getting my foot into guest services to allow me to day tours!

With the recent news of the horrible mass shooting in Orlando last night, I wanted to let people know that I am alright. Thankfully I am not a person who goes out to clubs, but I do know a few that do. I'm happy that my friends are alright, but this whole event has just shocked me. You never really think that these things could happen in your city till they do. I'm just honestly startled. My thoughts and prayers go out to anyone who was there last night and to the people who might have lost loved ones.

There is nothing happening today, so this just seems to be the best time to do a TMI Tuesday thingy

I rather enjoyed the last one, so if y'all have any questions for me shoot! Also I have a question for y'all: If you could only have one outfit to wear, what would that outfit be?

So, I just made an FN account, but to be honest I am not gonna use it much if at all. I hate the cluttered layout, I hate that it is trying to mix an art site and twitter, I just hate it..... But hey I'm feeling forced to make one soo... meh....

To be somewhat silly *Gives everyone big canvas hugs till they are tied back up*

Cause I want to smile today! Please ask away!

What do y'all do whenever you just fall into a pit, and just can't find a way out? When you just feel like you aren't meant to do anything in life, and that you are utterly alone in the universe? What are some things that y'all do to get yourselves up and just become positive? I just want to try to figure out how to feel like I honestly do belong where I live, and how to be happy of my life up to this point.

Because I won't be there this year. ; _ ; I hope that everyone has a fantastic time at the con, and that y'all come back with good memories!

Hey everyone, go ahead and ask me anything! It can be about padding, straitjackets, bondage, or just silly shit!

Yup, today is my birthday today!! I turn 25, and it should be a fun day! Maybe the doctors will let me out of my cell today!

Please ask anything y'all want!

Well 2015 has come and gone, and the dawn will rise on the first day of 2016! *cue clock town theme*

Hehe, well I had a great year last year! More awesome days with my mate, I got my fullsuit from  alphasuits , I actually got a chance to participate in the FWA Dance Comp, got a chance to meet up with some awesome furs, and I moved to a new venue at universal as well as getting my lead spot back! I hope everyone else had a great year, and I know that 2016 will be fun as well! Hope everyone stays safe, and I will continue to stay poofy and insane!

Happy New Year to all from the insane fox!

I've been feeling like shit more and more. I'm still working at the theme park, I'm honestly trying to accept that the majority of the folks that I know just don't give a shit about my happyness or life, and I'm trying not to be shallow and be happy with the few genuine friends I have. But I honestly feel broken. There has to be something wrong with me because I don't like over drinking or even drinking for fun. A drink every now and then is ok, but I don't see the fun in getting shit faced. That goes for cons as well.

But I feel like just being me is wrong. I can't connect at all with most folks out here, and I have no idea why I just feel like an outcast. Hell, I feel more comfortable outside my city. I am gonna be moving into my own place in the next 10 months, but I'm sure once I move out, I'll be completely isolated. No one is gonna want to visit, and I'll continue to just be forgotten. I wish I could move out and attempt to fail again in the movie industry, but I will never have the funds.

Sorry for bitching up a storm, this will be gone in a day or two. I just needed to vent.

Shoot away all of y'all!

So I am trying to find someone who would be able to make a custom plush Freya Crescent hat from Final Fantasy IX. This would be so much fun to just wear around, but I really don't know of anyone. Can anyone help?

Comment below and I'll tell you things about you... or, if I don't know you I'll just make something up.

I will:

1. Tell you what animal/creature you remind me of.
2. Tell you what color I think fits you.
3. Tell you how I feel about you.
4. Insult you.
5. Tell you my favorite OC of yours. (If you have one...)
6. Tell you what season you remind me of.
7. Tell you what food you smell like in my head.
8. Think of a random nickname for you.
9. Tell you what element you remind me of.
10. Ask you to put this in your journal without using the word 'tag'

Got this from  diodki666

Yeah... I had to steal this from  happy-the-husky


A- Age:
24

B- Biggest fear:
Spiders... I hate those creepy crawlies ><

C- Cold weather or Warm weather?:
Cold!!! I love the cold weather! Sucks that I am trapped in Florida THE STATE OF UNGODLY HOT!!!

D- Drink you last had:
Blueberry Lemonade!!

E- Extraterrestrials (Aliens), are they real?:
Big yes! There is no way that we are alone in this universe, I firmly believe that there are others out there, and eventually when we get to the tech level of Star Ocean, they will help us get beyond what we are capable of!

F- First thing you do when you woke up:
Got up too damn early, but I fed my boyfriend's Cat!

G- Ghosts, are they real?:
I believe that they are, but there are only a few that can sense their presence

H- How tall are you?:
I'm average.... I guess. My friends all call me small! 5'7"

I- In love with someone:
My awesome boyfriend Lynox! (Miles AM

J- Jealous of someone (Just answer Yes or No):
Yes, many folks.

K- Killed Someone?:
A lot of bad guys in games and the few voices in my mind from time to time!

L- Last time you cried?:
About a few days ago

M- Music genre you hate the most:
Not a big fan of modern Rap or R&B

N- Newest acquisition:
Outside of Metal Gear Solid V, noting much!

O- One Wish:
To be Happy with my life and Future

P- Pie, wich flavor you like the most?:
Key Lime Pie!!! I can't get enough of this amazing pie!!!

Q- Question you usually ask:
"Kupo?"

R- Reason to smile:
Great love, my family, and my good friends

S- Song you like the most:
Geeze... tooo many to count. I guess the Song that I identify with the most is "Show Me" by Yes

T- Time you woke up:
First Time 9am Second Time Noon

U- Underwear Color:
White and Crinkly, with prints!

V- VideoGame you like the most:
Megaman, Metal Gear, and Sonic the Hedgehog! However, there are many other game series that I love!

W- Worst Habit:
I place others before me. I just don't like seeing myself be selfish or too happy, rather make other happy.

X- X-Rays you've had:
Chest, Teeth, and my head.

Y- Your favorite food:
Sushi! Mostly Unagi or something spicy!

Z- Zodiac Sign:
Aquarius!

So  myoti is doing an raffle for free art, but there is a catch. You need to be alright with him babifying your character. He wants a none babyfur character to make look cute as all hell. If you are interested go to his journal here:

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6950689/

Yup! I nailed the interview and the audition, and I will be a tour guide for one of the most well known Halloween events in the country! I'm super excited to get this awesome job, and I can not wait to get started!!

Yup Megaplex 2015 was a fun time for sure! I got a chance to eat well, go to a fantastic cub and kidfur meet and greet, and was invited to participate on stage for the Who's Line is it anyway panel! I loved going around with Sef 2.0, and I am loving my new Full Suit! I had a fantastic time, but I just hope that next year there might be more events and panels to attend. There were times at which I had no idea what to do because I was waiting for my underarmor to dry off as well as no panels that I was interested in. Honestly, if you weren't partying 24/7 then there wasn't a whole lot to do. However, I still had a fantastic time, and I was quite happy to finally meet  poofy-shark and  zeta-neubourn Both of them were super chill folks, and it was fun to share my love of Sonic and Blade Runner with them!

I am looking forward to Megaplex 2016! The new hotel is gonna be sick, and I am going to really love the theme for next year. Now I will need to get a Top Gear related badge for it!