Tmi tuesday
Posted 10 years agoI haven't done one in a while, so Ask me anything you want to!
Megaplex roomspace
Posted 10 years agoHey all
I'm looking for roomspace for two people at Megaplex. If anyone knows of folks who are going and need people to fill the room, please please please let me know!!! I'm really looking for space so I don't have to comute to the con....
I'm looking for roomspace for two people at Megaplex. If anyone knows of folks who are going and need people to fill the room, please please please let me know!!! I'm really looking for space so I don't have to comute to the con....
To anyone who watches me from Austin, TX
Posted 10 years agoSo, I am looking to potentially make a move back to my home state of Texas. However, instead of returning to Dallas, I am looking into Austin. I want to make another attempt in the film industry, and I know that Austin is the film capital of Texas. To those who live there, how is the rent market for apartments or homes, and how is the job market so I can have a side job to financially sustain me while I look and acquire film gigs?
Tagged by that OC Meme thingy
Posted 10 years agotagged by
shades1220
RULES :
1. Pick one of your OCs.
2. Fill in the questions/statements as if you were your OC.
3. Tag four people to do this meme!
4. Tell people that they been tagged with a link from your journal.
OC picked: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7300466/
1. What is your name?
Sef Highwind!
2. Do you know why you were named that?
Ummmm, I know that my creator was really really damn lazy about my last name. I mean it's cool and all, but come on!
3. Single or taken?
Taken, dating a really really awesome Lynox right now! What never heard of a lynox? Well it has nothing to do with lynix OS!
4. Have any abilities or powers?
Nope, just normal and average! Wait... does hearing voices count as a power?
5. Stop being a Mary Sue!
I am not one! I take hits and die like everyone else!
6. What's your eye color?
Brown
7. How about hair color?
White like my fur! It blends in well!
8. Have you any family members?
Well of course I do.... who wouldn't?
9. Oh? How about pets?
Um... yah... that would be interesting. A fox owning a pet.... next question please!
10. That's cool, I guess. Now tell me something you don't like.
Spiders, I absolutely hate em! If I see one, I'll either go into a blind rage and kill it, or I'll just be scared stiff. I don't think the doctors like the blind rage thingy.
11. Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do?
I like to play video games, I love editing pictures I take as well as movies! Ummm, I guess I like some form of BDSM stuff....
12. Have you ever hurt anyone in any way before?
Maybe on accident... never mean to hurt people!
13. Ever… killed anyone before?
No.... never.... I mean I used to be a freelance spy in one life....
14. What kind of animal are you?
Arctic fox! Most folks confuse me for a wolf.
15. Name your worst habits.
Ohs... I'm really, really hard on myself. Also I tend to get down really easily
16. Do you look up to anyone at all?
My mate! He's strong and awesome. Someone I want to be!
17. Are you gay, straight, or bisexual?
Gay as the flag of rainbowness!
18. Do you go to school?
Yup, all the way to collage!
19. Ever want to marry and have kids one day?
I would like to marry one day. As far as kids go.... not sure on that.
20. Do you have fangirls/fanboys?
I have no idea.... I mean the voices are my fan club
21. What are you most afraid of?
I already said that... spiders.
22. What do you usually wear?
I usually wear black pants and a red button down shirt. I always wear my red wristbands where I go! Only time my outfit changes is when I'm staying at the local hospital... my outfit is then a straitjacket and usually a thick diaper. I really hope to not have to go back anytime soon... though the doctors never can make up their minds.
23. What's one food that tempts you?
Sushi! I love any and all fish!
24. Am I annoying you?
Just slightly. I mean there are others who have annoyed me before, and they no longer do...
25. Well, it's still not over!
Great..... give me a drink or a jacket.... I might want to hurt ya.
26. What class are you (low class, middle class, high)
Low class... I work as a freelance photographer.
27. How many friends do you have?
I have many friends!
28. What are your thoughts on pie?
I love it!! Key Lime Pie is awesome!
30. Favorite drink?
Crystal Pepsi! My favorite mixed drink is a Mojito!
31. What's your favorite place?
My favorite place has yet to be determined. However, anything is better than the hospital..
32. Are you interested in anyone?
Yup, I am mated.....
33. That was a stupid question.
Yah, it was. I do not like repeating myself
34. Would you rather swim in a lake or the ocean?
Ocean! It's calm and relaxing to me!
35. What's your type?
Geek cute and around my size
36. Any fetishes?
Yup. Diapers, hypnosis, bdsm (huge focus on restraints)
37. Seme or uke?
Uke
38. Camping or indoors?
Both!
39. Tag People!
blackwolf12tails
raizstarwind

RULES :
1. Pick one of your OCs.
2. Fill in the questions/statements as if you were your OC.
3. Tag four people to do this meme!
4. Tell people that they been tagged with a link from your journal.
OC picked: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7300466/
1. What is your name?
Sef Highwind!
2. Do you know why you were named that?
Ummmm, I know that my creator was really really damn lazy about my last name. I mean it's cool and all, but come on!
3. Single or taken?
Taken, dating a really really awesome Lynox right now! What never heard of a lynox? Well it has nothing to do with lynix OS!
4. Have any abilities or powers?
Nope, just normal and average! Wait... does hearing voices count as a power?
5. Stop being a Mary Sue!
I am not one! I take hits and die like everyone else!
6. What's your eye color?
Brown
7. How about hair color?
White like my fur! It blends in well!
8. Have you any family members?
Well of course I do.... who wouldn't?
9. Oh? How about pets?
Um... yah... that would be interesting. A fox owning a pet.... next question please!
10. That's cool, I guess. Now tell me something you don't like.
Spiders, I absolutely hate em! If I see one, I'll either go into a blind rage and kill it, or I'll just be scared stiff. I don't think the doctors like the blind rage thingy.
11. Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do?
I like to play video games, I love editing pictures I take as well as movies! Ummm, I guess I like some form of BDSM stuff....
12. Have you ever hurt anyone in any way before?
Maybe on accident... never mean to hurt people!
13. Ever… killed anyone before?
No.... never.... I mean I used to be a freelance spy in one life....
14. What kind of animal are you?
Arctic fox! Most folks confuse me for a wolf.
15. Name your worst habits.
Ohs... I'm really, really hard on myself. Also I tend to get down really easily
16. Do you look up to anyone at all?
My mate! He's strong and awesome. Someone I want to be!
17. Are you gay, straight, or bisexual?
Gay as the flag of rainbowness!
18. Do you go to school?
Yup, all the way to collage!
19. Ever want to marry and have kids one day?
I would like to marry one day. As far as kids go.... not sure on that.
20. Do you have fangirls/fanboys?
I have no idea.... I mean the voices are my fan club
21. What are you most afraid of?
I already said that... spiders.
22. What do you usually wear?
I usually wear black pants and a red button down shirt. I always wear my red wristbands where I go! Only time my outfit changes is when I'm staying at the local hospital... my outfit is then a straitjacket and usually a thick diaper. I really hope to not have to go back anytime soon... though the doctors never can make up their minds.
23. What's one food that tempts you?
Sushi! I love any and all fish!
24. Am I annoying you?
Just slightly. I mean there are others who have annoyed me before, and they no longer do...
25. Well, it's still not over!
Great..... give me a drink or a jacket.... I might want to hurt ya.
26. What class are you (low class, middle class, high)
Low class... I work as a freelance photographer.
27. How many friends do you have?
I have many friends!
28. What are your thoughts on pie?
I love it!! Key Lime Pie is awesome!
30. Favorite drink?
Crystal Pepsi! My favorite mixed drink is a Mojito!
31. What's your favorite place?
My favorite place has yet to be determined. However, anything is better than the hospital..
32. Are you interested in anyone?
Yup, I am mated.....
33. That was a stupid question.
Yah, it was. I do not like repeating myself
34. Would you rather swim in a lake or the ocean?
Ocean! It's calm and relaxing to me!
35. What's your type?
Geek cute and around my size
36. Any fetishes?
Yup. Diapers, hypnosis, bdsm (huge focus on restraints)
37. Seme or uke?
Uke
38. Camping or indoors?
Both!
39. Tag People!


I will be at FC!
Posted 10 years agoI don't have a meme thingy yet, but I was wondering if anyone will also be going to FC this year
Computer is fucked up.... Again
Posted 11 years agoYah, Apple can honestly go to hell at this point. In a span of three weeks, my computer has gone back to not booting up. All I did was switch OS's and the thing had a heart attack. So the fucking thing will not start up, and if it does it wont boot up or crash on any video program. I'm taking it back in, and I expect Apple to do nothing again. ><
Been awhile so TMI Tuesday!
Posted 11 years agoHey! Sorry for not being as active as I would have liked, but this last month has been hectic with me moving to a new place as well as my mate moving in from cali! So I feel like a TMI Tuesday would be a good day to start things off!
Out of a computer
Posted 11 years agoLast Thursday my laptop crashed on me. After booting up into the apple logo, my screen would go grey then the system would shut down. No matter what I tried, it wouldn't boot. After booting into safe mode, I found out that my graphics driver was corrupted. After trying everything under the sun to fix the issue, the only way was to uninstall the drivers. That did the trick, however AMD did not have the drivers on their site anymore. Further more, their customer service didn't help either.
Took my laptop into apple yesterday, and after telling them everything that I did (impressing them and getting a job offer in the process) they agreed with me on my assumption of a failed Logic board. So now it is being sent off to a shop to be fixed, and I am out of a computer for a week. This incredibly bites, hard. At least I have my Ipad, and it is allowing me to even post this journal as we speak. Oh well, shit happens. Can't let it get me down!
Took my laptop into apple yesterday, and after telling them everything that I did (impressing them and getting a job offer in the process) they agreed with me on my assumption of a failed Logic board. So now it is being sent off to a shop to be fixed, and I am out of a computer for a week. This incredibly bites, hard. At least I have my Ipad, and it is allowing me to even post this journal as we speak. Oh well, shit happens. Can't let it get me down!
Anyone want some Myst Art?
Posted 11 years agoSo last year I did some Myst Related art (http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11304714/) (http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11140346/) (http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11140558/) (http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11163156/) and I have been thinking of doing some more.
Now this time I am opening it up to a little bit more. I can now write d'ni numbers past 25, and at the same time I have some new symbols at my disposal. The symbols in question are based on the last puzzle in Myst 3 Exile. There are 60 Narayan symbols for folks to choose from if wanted: http://jerle.bahro.com/language/nar.....yCreativ82.swf
Bottom line
If you want Myst related art please give me:
1. name wanted to be translated to D'ni
2. A background color or theme (you can even leave it to my choice if you want)
3. Any number that your heart desires OR One of the sixty Symbols of Narayan (http://jerle.bahro.com/language/nar.....yCreativ82.swf)
4. Any other detail that you think I can handle (I am not a jaw dropping artist let alone a competent one... so we will see :P )
Now this time I am opening it up to a little bit more. I can now write d'ni numbers past 25, and at the same time I have some new symbols at my disposal. The symbols in question are based on the last puzzle in Myst 3 Exile. There are 60 Narayan symbols for folks to choose from if wanted: http://jerle.bahro.com/language/nar.....yCreativ82.swf
Bottom line
If you want Myst related art please give me:
1. name wanted to be translated to D'ni
2. A background color or theme (you can even leave it to my choice if you want)
3. Any number that your heart desires OR One of the sixty Symbols of Narayan (http://jerle.bahro.com/language/nar.....yCreativ82.swf)
4. Any other detail that you think I can handle (I am not a jaw dropping artist let alone a competent one... so we will see :P )
Jumping on the Assumption Meme Train! Toot Toot!
Posted 11 years agoYah... why the hell not... comment with an assumption about me... and I will tell you if it is true or not!
Pretty cool raffle!
Posted 11 years agoOh Bambino.... why? (babyfur rant)
Posted 11 years agoSo apparently Bambino is out of stock on all of their AB/DL padding. This really sucks because I was looking to get either a case of teddies or two bags of Bellisimos because I have been wanting to get more diapers due to having none at all. I was hoping that my memorial day paycheck would allow some leeway for this. I will not resort to ABU, and while I know that I could easily get M4's again, I just want a cub type diaper. Oh well.... I guess I can continue to go with out padding longer.... ><
Updates and stuffs!
Posted 11 years agoHello one and all to a journal that some of you will look into and some will just pass on by! I honestly do not care which way y'all slide, but I digress.
So good news! The asylum story that folks asked to be in is finished! Bad news... I am unsure if it is good enough to post in it's current state. So.... for this to be posted I would like to have someone go over it to ensure that it is of good quality! I have placed a good amount of time and effort into this, and I want to make sure it is fantastic for those who have their character in it! Among other interesting tidbits, I plan on making this a multi-part story! How many parts..... that is a good question! I honestly have no idea.
Other than that, I've been busy with work at universal. Not only have I made trainer, but they've also given me a full time slot! So I have arts that I would like to upload, but I need to have a day to do so. Otherwise, I've been working, gaming, socializing, and still being a complete insane fox who should never be let out of his jacket. Hope everyone's lives have been going great!
So good news! The asylum story that folks asked to be in is finished! Bad news... I am unsure if it is good enough to post in it's current state. So.... for this to be posted I would like to have someone go over it to ensure that it is of good quality! I have placed a good amount of time and effort into this, and I want to make sure it is fantastic for those who have their character in it! Among other interesting tidbits, I plan on making this a multi-part story! How many parts..... that is a good question! I honestly have no idea.
Other than that, I've been busy with work at universal. Not only have I made trainer, but they've also given me a full time slot! So I have arts that I would like to upload, but I need to have a day to do so. Otherwise, I've been working, gaming, socializing, and still being a complete insane fox who should never be let out of his jacket. Hope everyone's lives have been going great!
TMI Tuesday, ask away!
Posted 11 years agoYup! Please ask anything y'all want!
Does anyone know of a good transformation artist?
Posted 11 years agoI'm looking into getting a pic of Sef turning into a Crux. Does anyone know of a good affordable transformation artist who is open?
An update on the Asylum Story!
Posted 11 years agoAs of today, I have began work on the story that some of you will be in! I do not have an exact date of when it will be complete, however, I am going to do my best to write a bit each day till I get to a nice finishing point. If things go the way I want, this will have multiple parts! Also I'm using this a chance to properly flesh out both the back story for insane Sef and just the proper job of normal Sef! I do hope everyone can wait patiently as I get this story written!
Results for the Asylum Story
Posted 11 years agoAnd here they are! I honestly can't believe that I had to do this ^^
Patients:
e-wolf
rusty-draco
uro
Orderly:
otterakajamie
Dr:
paperdragon300
Janitor:
babbignes
Thank you to everyone who showed interest! If I continue with this story, I will definitely add more folks! If I could please have everyone note me with basic character refs, personalities, and what you would be willing and unwilling to do.
Patients:



Orderly:

Dr:

Janitor:

Thank you to everyone who showed interest! If I continue with this story, I will definitely add more folks! If I could please have everyone note me with basic character refs, personalities, and what you would be willing and unwilling to do.
Anyone want to be in a story (Edit, now a random drawing)
Posted 11 years agoSo I am going to be writing an asylum story, because if y'all can't tell that is where my account seems to be heading, and I am wondering if anyone wants in on it. If you do, let me know if you want to be a fellow patient, an orderly, or a doctor. I'm looking for about three characters, and I would also like to know if you would be ok with an adult situation (like forced sex or heavy bondage situations). Pleas let me know!
Edit: Holy Hell guys. Way more than I expected... So because I have a lot requesting to be patients, I'll be doing a number game to see who will be locked up. As much as I would love to fill this with a lot of crazies, I feel like I wouldn't get a chance to cover everyone. So at most I would like to have 3 other patients. If you are requesting as staff, I'll do a seperate drawing as well if more show up. I will do the at midnight tomorrow.
Edit: Holy Hell guys. Way more than I expected... So because I have a lot requesting to be patients, I'll be doing a number game to see who will be locked up. As much as I would love to fill this with a lot of crazies, I feel like I wouldn't get a chance to cover everyone. So at most I would like to have 3 other patients. If you are requesting as staff, I'll do a seperate drawing as well if more show up. I will do the at midnight tomorrow.
FWA Meme!
Posted 11 years agoYup I shall be there! So obligatory meme time!
Personal Info!
Q: What can I call you?
A. You may call me Sef. For some reason I also respond to Swarly, Mcglocklin, Fuck Weather, or my real name XD
Q: Are you over 18?
A:Yes I am! I am the age of 23 which means.... give me a cold one!
Q: What is your gender?
A: Male
Q: Bi/Straight/gay/etc?
A: Gay
Q: What do you look like?
A: Here is a good pic of me! (https://pbs.twimg.com/media/Bet325qCAAEoMQN.jpg) I'm a dork. I will be running around in suit as well (pics on my FA), and I will be dressing up as an Ouran High School Host Club Member!
Q: Are you single/taken/etc?
A: Single as of now
Q: Yiffy?
A: At times... though not looking for that at the con.
Con Info!
Q: What hotel are you staying in?
A: The con hotel! Though i am unsure what floor we are on! XD
Q: Who are you rooming with?
A: I'm with my good friends
djkaiza
izzywolfram and our friend Jay!
Q: Are you attending any panels or hosting?
A: None as of now. However, I will be auditioning for the dance competition!
Q: Are you volunteering?
A: Nope
Q: Will you be attending any room parties?
A: I was invited to one, I hope to hit more but that all depends on if folks invite me.
Q: Who will you be hanging out with?
A: Anyone I know, and I hope I do get to hang out with folks!
Q: What is your goal this year?
A: Meet new people, re-meet folks I haven't seen in forever (I'm looking at you Tavi!) and just have fun!
Can I...?
Q: Can I hug you?
A: Yes you may.
Q: Can I buy you drinks?
A: Of course you can! Get me one, and I'll get you one back
Q: Flirt with you?
A: Hehe, I'd allow it!
Q: Yiff you?
A: Once again... not looking in that field for the con. maybe if I find someone I really like.
Personal Info!
Q: What can I call you?
A. You may call me Sef. For some reason I also respond to Swarly, Mcglocklin, Fuck Weather, or my real name XD
Q: Are you over 18?
A:Yes I am! I am the age of 23 which means.... give me a cold one!
Q: What is your gender?
A: Male
Q: Bi/Straight/gay/etc?
A: Gay
Q: What do you look like?
A: Here is a good pic of me! (https://pbs.twimg.com/media/Bet325qCAAEoMQN.jpg) I'm a dork. I will be running around in suit as well (pics on my FA), and I will be dressing up as an Ouran High School Host Club Member!
Q: Are you single/taken/etc?
A: Single as of now
Q: Yiffy?
A: At times... though not looking for that at the con.
Con Info!
Q: What hotel are you staying in?
A: The con hotel! Though i am unsure what floor we are on! XD
Q: Who are you rooming with?
A: I'm with my good friends


Q: Are you attending any panels or hosting?
A: None as of now. However, I will be auditioning for the dance competition!
Q: Are you volunteering?
A: Nope
Q: Will you be attending any room parties?
A: I was invited to one, I hope to hit more but that all depends on if folks invite me.
Q: Who will you be hanging out with?
A: Anyone I know, and I hope I do get to hang out with folks!
Q: What is your goal this year?
A: Meet new people, re-meet folks I haven't seen in forever (I'm looking at you Tavi!) and just have fun!
Can I...?
Q: Can I hug you?
A: Yes you may.
Q: Can I buy you drinks?
A: Of course you can! Get me one, and I'll get you one back
Q: Flirt with you?
A: Hehe, I'd allow it!
Q: Yiff you?
A: Once again... not looking in that field for the con. maybe if I find someone I really like.
TMI Tuesday!!
Posted 11 years agoHey, ask me anything y'all want! Random, padding, bondage, any questions!! Also use my ask.fm account if y'all want! http://ask.fm/Sef_highwind
My husky died today
Posted 11 years agoMy pet Husky, Sasha, passed away today. I'm torn up emotionally, and I really wish I had someone here to hold and hug. I watched that dog grow up from a puppy, and knowing that my baby is gone..... I just don't know. Rest In Peace, Sasha, I know you're in a better place with Lucky.
Turn 23 today!
Posted 11 years agoYup, today is the fourth, and it is my Birthday! Wooo! 23!!! Or I guess 2.3 in cub terms X3
That AB/DL meme
Posted 11 years agoSo I've seen this pop up quite a bit, so I thought I'd do it too!
Have you ever done any of these things as an AB/DL?
Wear a diaper – Yup!
Wear a diaper to work – I have done it before, and I will do it again!
Wear just a diaper outside – I've done it once. Made me blush like crazy! I really want to do it again.
Wear just a diaper in front of someone – Yes, I have done it before with close friends
Wear a diaper in front of a family member – NO, hell no!
Told a family member you wear diapers – No, I never plan on doing this.
Told your spouse or S/O that you wear diapers – I don't have a spouse, but I do tell everyone I have dated
Told a close friend ¬you wear/like diapers - Yes, I have close friends who know, and they encourage that I wear. Makes me feel great
Have your diaper changed by someone of opposite sex – Yes at a party
Have your diaper changed by someone of the same sex – Yes at parties at at home.
Shaved your pubic area – Yup
Shaved someone else’s pubic area – Nope
Have infant print diapers/plastic pants – I do not right now, but I want to pick up Teddies!
Gone to a party wearing diapers – Yup! Been to normal parties and ABDL parties
Gone to a party wearing just a diaper or baby clothes – Yes, at some of the ABDL parties
Wear disposables – All the time
Wear a cloth diaper – Tried it once, not really my cup of tea
Own a pair or pairs of plastic pants – Not yet, but it on my list
Own and wear infant/toddler clothes (ie. onesies, rompers, shortalls) - I have a sleeper and plan on picking up an Umbreon Sleeper
Own a pacifier – Yup, I own one
Own a baby bottle – Yes, but I can not seem to find it.
Met with other diaper lovers for an afternoon/evening – Yup
Spent a weekend/overnight with other diaper lovers – Yup!
Had a diaper leak in a public setting, that was noticeable – Oh god yes, too many times to count. I hate it ><
Messed in your diapers – Nope, and I never plan to
Messed your diapers in public – Yaaaa nooo
Had a picture taken taken of you in just diapers – Yes I have!
Had a picture taken outside in just your diapers – Not yet, but I'm sure someone wants to
Desire to stay in diapers forever – I would like that, but to be honest unless it was forced upon me by someone, it just isn't feasible
Last question! What is your mental age while wearing diapers? I've never regressed, so I am unsure what my age is.
Have you ever done any of these things as an AB/DL?
Wear a diaper – Yup!
Wear a diaper to work – I have done it before, and I will do it again!
Wear just a diaper outside – I've done it once. Made me blush like crazy! I really want to do it again.
Wear just a diaper in front of someone – Yes, I have done it before with close friends
Wear a diaper in front of a family member – NO, hell no!
Told a family member you wear diapers – No, I never plan on doing this.
Told your spouse or S/O that you wear diapers – I don't have a spouse, but I do tell everyone I have dated
Told a close friend ¬you wear/like diapers - Yes, I have close friends who know, and they encourage that I wear. Makes me feel great
Have your diaper changed by someone of opposite sex – Yes at a party
Have your diaper changed by someone of the same sex – Yes at parties at at home.
Shaved your pubic area – Yup
Shaved someone else’s pubic area – Nope
Have infant print diapers/plastic pants – I do not right now, but I want to pick up Teddies!
Gone to a party wearing diapers – Yup! Been to normal parties and ABDL parties
Gone to a party wearing just a diaper or baby clothes – Yes, at some of the ABDL parties
Wear disposables – All the time
Wear a cloth diaper – Tried it once, not really my cup of tea
Own a pair or pairs of plastic pants – Not yet, but it on my list
Own and wear infant/toddler clothes (ie. onesies, rompers, shortalls) - I have a sleeper and plan on picking up an Umbreon Sleeper
Own a pacifier – Yup, I own one
Own a baby bottle – Yes, but I can not seem to find it.
Met with other diaper lovers for an afternoon/evening – Yup
Spent a weekend/overnight with other diaper lovers – Yup!
Had a diaper leak in a public setting, that was noticeable – Oh god yes, too many times to count. I hate it ><
Messed in your diapers – Nope, and I never plan to
Messed your diapers in public – Yaaaa nooo
Had a picture taken taken of you in just diapers – Yes I have!
Had a picture taken outside in just your diapers – Not yet, but I'm sure someone wants to
Desire to stay in diapers forever – I would like that, but to be honest unless it was forced upon me by someone, it just isn't feasible
Last question! What is your mental age while wearing diapers? I've never regressed, so I am unsure what my age is.
TMI Tuesday
Posted 11 years agoHey let us brighten the mood! Ask me anything!
My thought process
Posted 11 years agoWhy the fuck do people like me? I'm not popular, I'm not topical, I'm a nobody. I waste my time thinking about what others think about me, and when that happens I break down. No matter what people tell me, I never really believe them. There are better people out there. There are people who have a better social standard then me. Why the fuck does someone want to be with a waste of space like me. I can't even talk about how I feel to my "friends" because I feel like a poison to them. No one wants to hear my misery. People are better off not being dragged to the ground. It's because of this I'll never date again, and who the fuck would ever date a guy like me? I'm pathetic, a failure, and a guy who cares about the past. I'm in a job that won't take me anywhere. And there are a shit load of people who are better than me. Why waste your time on me, when there are better people out there who aren't depressed and horrible like me.