I'm sick of lots of situations in my life right now. Please message me for a full refund of whatever I owe you. If you can, please give me a screenshot of what you originally paid. If not, please tell me the amount you remember or think and we can go from there. Sorry.

Okay, so I'm working off of data almost entirely. The few people we know with wifi that are willing to let me use it are hours away. And we financially cannot afford to drive there. There are also no fast food places with wifi within a reasonable distance (downside of living in the boonies).

So many things keep breaking here and we recently had a lot of necessary and fairly expensive things stolen from us that we never could afford insurance on so we're having to replace those as we can. We also had to sell our cattle to pay our taxes. That's how deep in we are guys. I'm not opening any gofundme's or the like. I'm just trying to find a regular paying job. I won't be taking commissions for awhile either.

I apologize to those who have waited so long. My plan now is to upload every piece owed to my phone from my computer as I've now figured out how not to screw that up. Then scrape and try to do odd jobs for neighbors (one neighbor is redoing her kitchen and needs help) for gas money to ride to someplace with wifi and load everything to dropbox and send out links as that will be the fastest method since uploading here will take too long.

If we've discussed final details, you should receive finished products. If we've only discussed the basics you'll likely get lineart and I'll change what's necessary and reasonable (meaning nothing totally different from original discussion).

I'm trying to get everything completed and out to everyone as soon as possible. Thank you.

My mom has been trying to get a seizure dog for years and finally found a program that train one of our dogs to fit the role. This is a good thing right? Yep. Except my dog, Maggie, is the best fit for the training. She has the perfect temperament, obeys commands promptly, and she's very empathetic with plenty of love and respect for my mom.

I know it's selfish to feel this way, but she's been my snuggle buddy and given me a great sense of security when living alone. I told my mom to use her but it still is yanking on my heart strings.

I'll still have Monster but he's not a particularly large dog and has the protective instincts of a gnat so far. He's a great companion, but he's my other furbaby and in no way able to take her place just like if it were reversed, she couldn't take his.

Has anyone else been in a similar situation where your pet, your furbaby had to live with someone else for said person's benefit? How long did it take you to accept it fully and not feel that empty spot in your heart? Any suggestions?

I'm covered in thorns and bits of a briar patch. After all these storms, it's not surprising some branches fell on the fence line. Our cows were in a neighbor's pasture, and she was really nice about it, but she didn't know anything about fencing.

After getting most of the cows back on our side, two elderly (but definitely able bodied and capable) brothers came up and totally took over. They were so sweet and helpful and I'm so grateful.

I want to bake them something as a thank you but they wouldn't tell me what they liked just that they don't have food allergies. lol

So any suggestions? I've thought of typical favorites like pecan pie or apple pie.

What would you feed two older, southern gentlemen?

Excuse me while I go pluck briar bits from my butt. I'll check responses later lol

(Also, Jake the dog is fine. He's his old self again)

Okay since I know there will be skeptics:

Screenshot of Site and Check-out:
https://www.dropbox.com/s/umr50cuqx.....53-59.png?dl=0

Pic of Dog's injury (GRAPHIC/GOREY WARNING):
https://www.dropbox.com/s/zg9xsakej.....239-1.jpg?dl=0
https://www.dropbox.com/s/9st88x1do.....38794.jpg?dl=0

Also, please don't make negative remarks about buying animal medications online or the like. It's this or nothing. We're out of options.

If you'd like I can show proof that this website accepts PayPal too.

As the screenshot shows, I need to make probably $35+ to cover PayPal fees and taxes that I'm sure will be applied.

I don't see me being officially open for awhile, but here's your chance to get whatever you want minus a handful of fetishes (cub, pee/poo, or vomit, I just don't have the stomach for it). Seriously, no matter how gorey or bloody you want the pic, if you want a kidnapping or nearly any fantasy, I'll do it this time. Just throw it at me and I'll throw back a price I feel is fair though I rarely charge $15 a piece.

Thank you in advance guys. I have to give this one last desperate shot.

I'm okay. Better than okay according to the results of the blood work:

A1C(blood sugar): Perfect
Blood Count: Ideal
Kidney Function: Perfect
Liver Function: Perfect
Potassium: Ideal
T3 (thyroid): Healthy 2.2
Thyroxine (thyroid): Lower end of normal, but not low enough to worry about treatment
White Blood Cell Count: normal

Me: feeling insane and wanting to know why I feel like crap most days and get headaches constantly.

Some nights, guys, I feel so hopeless (going on 6 years with these health issues) I question living. I won't do anything, but I wish I knew how to feel better. No bizarre joint swelling, no headaches, no palpitations, just normal health.

My mom blames depression, but that's a hard thought to accept. I tried so many antidepressants and even though I'm mostly functional on Zoloft, I'm far from living without depression. If it's depression, how do I cope? I'm tired of all the chemicals, but I've went the homeopathic route and let's just say that was a bad idea. Yet I'm full of chemicals trying to combat debilitating headaches and nausea just so I can get out of bed and eat. I don't take anything but allergy and antidepressants daily and a sleep aid as necessary, but I'm not sleeping properly. So I'm trying to figure out my next step. I'll take any suggestions.

Also question for others with frequent headaches: do you ever feel like hot or icy water is running in your skull? If so, how do you handle it or what did your doctor say?


And for my Announcement:

I'm opening another account soon. It will be my gore/violence/content that may make some squeamish account. I have a brain child brewing to act as my violent 'sona/mascot for that account. I haven't thought of a name yet, but once I do and the account is open, I'll let you all know.

Once caught up or almost there, I'll likely post some things with themes similar to Goretober that I unfortunately had to sit out this year.

Thanks for reading. Have a great weekend all.

Okay, so some of the issues I've had that my doctor is running blood work for involves extreme anxiety with no triggers.

Seriously, I've logged my panic attacks and its crazy. Life has actually started settling down and soon I should be able to toss out finished art like crazy. I should not be feeling worse but I am.

I've had sudden anxiety attacks when eating ice cream and watching a favorite TV show. No negative thoughts, nothing to trigger anything, I'm relaxed, then all of a sudden: boom! Anxiety floods me, I have a sense of impending doom, heart palpitations, nausea, sometimes even crying. My doctor is checking my thyroid since it can effect virtually everything including mental illnesses.

But the blood work is late. And I can't sleep because if it's not my thyroid, then what the hell is it? So now I'm legitimately panicking and everything I'm trying to calm myself simply isn't working. I'm just a mess.

Not to mention I got a call that my doctor referred me for an echo cardiogram. What? Why? She's says it's a precaution because of family history, but it's still a bit scary with its what ifs. Not to mention I am possibly going to have to take commissions to cover the price of that and the lab work. My insurance is decent, but it only covers so much unfortunately. So I'll have to push through what I have on my plate or add even more to it and struggle through.

It's late and I'm probably thinking too much lol

I'll let you guys know as soon as I know something.

Have a great week, guys!

I'm only doing one guaranteed Halloween piece since I have so much to do and I'm really nervous waiting for blood test results.

My focus is shot so I'm just experimenting to calm myself.

The piece will feature were's or werewolves, werecats, werebears, etc.

My toxic dog (species belonging to poisoned ) Titan will be featured but thought I'd let you guys pitch your characters to be turned into were's!

Titan: https://www.dropbox.com/s/b4jfwisy3.....anvas.png?dl=0

Feel free to give me something unusual like a horse or bird to interpret into a were form.

Glowy things are fine and even a little encouraged!

Feel free to post refs of more than one character just identify that the links lead to different characters (IE: X's ref; Y's ref; Z's ref) and please don't go too crazy linking a ton of different characters lol

My rules:
This is free, there will be no WIP, and it will be my interpretation. If you're not okay with this, don't apply.
Your character could be front and center or a silhouette in the background with glowy eyes. I can't guarantee positioning and the like.
I WILL confirm if your character is included once I've sketched them in, but I WON'T show anyone the piece until October 31st.
Please don't give me human faced characters or the like, I'm not good with them or wolfman style things.
Post your refs here with any details. No descriptions in place of a ref though. Throw in your favorite Halloween treat too to show you've read the rules.
Have fun and be respectful!

I hate to do this since I still owe so much, but I can't put this off any more...

Does anyone want something I can do quickly like base adopts/refs or chibis?

I'll do a gorey or Halloween-y YCH if necessary though that's a last resort.

Any thoughts guys...?

I'm working on some art tonight while my family is at church.

Thanks in advance for any interest. I'll go as cheap as possible on these things.

I'm still working on commissions little by little, but nearly everyone in my household is under the weather and there's doctor's appointments galore. My mom's still having seizure/hormone issues, my step dad is having to get treatment for his out of control psoriasis when home, my sister was just diagnosed with a chronic pain disorder and going through physical therapy, and my step brother has been battling respiratory junk and an ulcer in his stomach. So, time has been tight.

Now here's the kicker: I may need to see my doctor too. She's not the best in the world and has completely ignored some deficiencies I have in previous blood work. But she's what I have for now. Last year my thyroid was checked because both hypo and hyper thyroidism run strongly in both sides of my family and I was starting to show minor signs. Well, with my sudden weight gain (15 lbs I'm ashamed to say) with no change in activity or diet, the rampant ringing in my ears not related to hearing loss, severe depression, heart palpitations that steal my breath, and all the other things worsening far from what they were last year (I had a slightly underactive thyroid "nothing to worry about yet") so now I'm worried that I'm going to have to undergo treatment for my thyroid and it really didn't look fun for my mom.

A lot of the family has such highly disfunctional thyroids that surgery or radiation was the only option and then medication to replace their thyroid for the rest of their life. That is really scary. I'm a coward, I'll admit. And it sounds awfully depressing.

I guess I just need a figurative kick in the butt to get me to make an appointment and go get it tested.

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Everything from the background to the expression give a perfect sense of mood and atmosphere!

Check out the adorable style of Akari. too!
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And KuroNijiKoneko has such creative ideas!
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It started the very day after my dad was at the hospital(Friday I believe, my days are confused at the moment). I woke up tired and passed out in the afternoon not waking once that I know of for roughly 24 hours. Then I woke up in a pool of sweat. I managed a shower and meal but nothing more and passed out again (Saturday). I woke up earlier the next day and ate a meal, bathed the sweat off, and went to sleep for a few hours and repeated the same process (Sunday). Today I was better, slightly feverish but hacking up my lungs. And I have made sure to chug water like a camel when awake. Even the brief time awake on Saturday I drank almost a gallon as I woke up thirsty from obvious fluid loss through sweating.

I still am coughing violently and probably need a doctor but I simply can't afford it. I just got through paying surgery bills including the portion my insurance didn't pay of the $2000 "recovery room" I didn't spend half an hour in. And I won't get too specific but let's say I'm suspicious of my insurance after how they avoided covering very much of totally necessary parts of the surgery (things I couldn't have opted out of like a recovery room; trust me, I would've been okay with them wheeling my unconscious self into the waiting room at this point).

I'm not looking for handouts and I won't take any more commissions. Just letting you guys know about yet another stall in my life. I'll figure something out.

Also, camping cot mattress is ripping at the seams. I'm having trouble finding reasonably priced replacements for JUST a cot mattress. 30 in by 80 in to be precise, but slightly smaller by a couple of inches shouldn't bother me. If anyone has any leads to such a thing, please comment or post a link. I'm totally lost in my life as a whole and don't know where to find just this one item.

Sorry again, guys...

Have a great week.

I'm not sure if stress is overriding my sleeping pill or what, but I'm just not sleeping. If this becomes a thing I may start doodling in my hardly used sketch book since my doctor has made it clear that computer light (and even phone and tablet light so writing this probably isn't helping) is bad for a brain needing to shut down for sleep.

Also, my dad is okay. It's a severe respiratory infection and while he's not out of the woods just yet, his prognosis in the long run is good. As an active man, having to rest will likely be his most difficult obstacle by the end of the week.

And as for the MILF/DILF thing, I'm wanting to draw obvious or semi obvious hot moms and dads. Age is a difficult thing to capture furry wise and unless it says "MILF" or the like, you can't tell the difference between 20 year olds and 40-50 year olds (30's can be included but they still typically look fairly young and it can be hard to tell even IRL). So crows feet, butt dimples, child bearing hips with post baby pudge, graying muzzles, dad-bods, etc. Being a MILF or DILF has more to do with confidence than looking younger than usual with a tight body (Take the Original "Mrs. Robinson" for example).

So I'm taking refs for hot Moms and Dads! I'd love and even kind of prefer to see their children's refs if possible. These will be a warm up for the days I've "scheduled" to have working on commissions.

Anyway, hoping to sleep. Have a great night and day everyone!

Okay, I know I had things all figured out and a plan for finishing everything. Life had to interrupt in some of the most scary fashions I've experienced.

My mom's seizures have suddenly worsened. To the point she was and still is on partial bed rest. I have been doing house and farm work and over seeing my siblings. I haven't had nearly as much time at the computer. I'm feeling crushed by stress and I feel like I'm failing my mom and siblings because one is failing history horribly and the other English. So I've tried helping to tutor them more the past few days.

Not to mention a horrible person from my family's past hurt my sister this past weekend after having been so good to her over the years. I had hoped he would never emotionally or mentally hurt her like he did my mom and myself, but he proved that some people don't change.

I've also been harassed on kik by friends of an ex that apparently ended up in jail and since I MUST be why (haven't talked to him in nearly a year) they kept making accounts to harass me to get around being blocked. Kik admins must have finally blocked the numbers or devices because it finally stopped. But I apologize to anyone I've lost contact with on kik. I just couldn't deal with my phone blowing up.

And I just got a call that my dad is being sent to the hospital with chest pains and numbness in his arms and his EKG doesn't look good but no one will tell me why or how. I'm seriously about to break as I type this from my phone. I'm tired and I'm afraid that my dad is in deep trouble.

I'm not looking for pity or anything. I'm just updating on my life. I feel like I keep handing you guys excuses. I'm tired of it. I just want a nontorrential life where I can do what I plan and when I plan. A life with healthy parents and siblings.

I'm terribly sorry for everything. I apologize to you watchers. I apologize to my commissioners. I apologize to everyone my absence and delayed work has effected.

Internet is down in my area for at least another 18-24 hours. It's been down most of the day apparently. We're not entirely sure what happened except someone was dumb nearby and damaged wires and such that bring us in BFE interwebz.

I do have some interesting doodles completed. A couple to few may even become YCH's later! Others are dumb and silly or just dumb lol

These will be up whenever internet is back up. Sorry for the delay to you guys laughing at me :p

Have a great weekend!

I have no clue what my problem is tonight. Everything is set correctly so it's not the tablet or program. It's just my hand not cooperating with my brain xC

I'm not giving up though, I'm trying to stay up a ridiculously long time to change my sleeping schedule since I'm not sleeping over 50% of the time now lol Meaning, I'm drawing tonight one way or another while I stay up.

So... I'm going to take this moment to doodle or whatever until I'm back on track, then focus on commissions. I can't stand giving someone a below par piece. I'm hoping doodling will bring my hand back in synch.

Also... As most know, my drawing self esteem is low, so no matter how terrible my doodles/sketches are, I'm posting them. And I WANT comments so long as they're not unnecessarily mean.

Positive criticism: X is good, but Y could be improved by Z.
Unnecessary Meanness: It's all crap, but especially X.

So I should have stuff to post tomorrow, or if I pass out way sooner than I expect, the next day. Nothing totally finished, but the doodles and such.

Well, hope you guys have a good night.

Okay, over decided that since I still have a ton to do, any sketches and line art (for those who have already approved sketches) will be done and once everyone's commission is at a finished sketch or lined piece, I'll send out notes.

Sorry if this seems unfair, but I want to get EVERYONE'S stuff done ASAP whether they've only waited since right before the tonsillectomy it long before that. I just want the stress to go away and this is how I believe I can accomplish it.

Once notes are sent out or whatever way I'm contacting you, please respond with approval or ALL corrections needed in one message. If you missed something and have to send a note for that correction, that's fine, I understand, I just don't want 5 or 6 separate notes where I correct something then I'm told to correct an area I didn't change, hence something that I could have been told to fix initially. That backs things up and makes it difficult for me to complete your piece. So please don't do it.

Also, if you have been waiting a long time, but you message me back a long time afterwards, please do not be angry or upset if someone's piece is finished and posted before yours.

Also, I'm still having complications, but letting you know what I'm doing and why it may seem long. Between this way of doing things and fighting to sit up and handle my health, I'm doing my best.


Thank you all for your patience and understanding!
Have a great week!

I'm not sure how many of you know that I live in a house with four dogs. Two are my mom's, two are mine. All but Tank (my mom's bloodhound-lab) sleep in crates to prevent fighting because while they can behave during the day, at night, it never fails that a dog fight breaks out. It's never been super damaging, clumps of fur pulled out is the worst it's ever gotten, but the crates eliminate the possibility of a bad one breaking out. No idea why these happen and only at night, but they do.

Anyway... On to individual dog obsessions.


Tank (bloodhound mix as mentioned above); my mom's dog:
He's only three but acts old and grumpy and lazy. He also whines and gripes verbally over the "wait" command even though I usually only make him wait 10-15 seconds. He also has 0 tolerance for rough play, especially when theres a distinct size difference or one person is at a disadvantage. But his obsession, likely linked to his bloodhound heritage, is smells. He especially likes smelling burps. Eggroll burps must be his favorite because after I eat them, he tries to stay close to my face should I burp. This is especially annoying when I lay down before he has his eggroll burp fix. As the only dog without a crate, he is free to crowd my face all. night. long. He's so weird. Jake out does him though.

Jake (Bluetick Hound); my mom's dog:
Roughly 2 years old, he's finally slowing down some energy wise. But his baying has not. He has 3 obsessions: lights, his butt being lightly spanked, and staring at you adoringly for hours.
The first is insane because when he finds out that something lights up, he will stare for hours. He recently figured out that phones do and tries to occasionally crawl in our laps to stare at our phone screens with us. But he'll settle for staring at the light on the smoke detectors. Do not use a laser pointer though. That's just... bad. He whines and keeps searching for it days after the initial game.
The spanking is pretty weird though. He will back up to you, butt in your face even, expecting attention. Accommodating guests will pet or scratch his butt, but will soon learn that this just makes him back up further and more aggressively. He's only satisfied with firm pats/light spanks on his butt. No one knows why. I've accepted that Jake is just a mystery.
And the staring at people is the second most common complaint, first being his baying. Unlike other dogs, the staring has not been connected with begging for food or needing out as he'll continue to stare and refuse to go out or move his bowl so he can eat and stare at the same time. Again, he's a mystery.

Maggie (Great Pyrenees-Lab); my furbaby:
Maggie is a cuddle monster and an attention hog. She especially liked stealing the attention of male guests for whatever reason. She adores Rhiannon's boyfriend. She cuddles any time someone is open for them even though she weighs more than most ten year old children. Maggie is also a dog that is VERY sensitive to illness and injury and stays close to anyone injured and has been known to pick up that someone is getting sick before even they know. She obsessively sniffs injuries and shows slight aggression to other dogs when they get too close to the injured body part that she is guarding (this is mainly with me, but recently did so with Rhiannon's bf as well when he was over and she realized his wrist was hurt). She's a sweet dog that I love so much. <3

Monster (Catahoula mix); my furbaby as well:
He's still young and hasn't developed any clear obsessions other than acting as the annoying kid brother to the other dogs. Scooting or wiggling across the floor on his back is a thing he does though. He also likes to use his paws a lot, but even more so, he likes to use objects in place of his paws. He'll prop a toy up against the couch or squeeze it under the couch cushion to keep it in place while he chews on it. Fascinating little canine brain there. I love my unusual little Monster <3


Anyway, random tired musings over.


I'm healing but my equilibrium is off, which happens to some while healing from a tonsillectomy apparently (something to do with swelling near the inner ear). I've kinda bruised myself a little (a lot) from losing my balance lately. This sucks, but it's temporary. I'll be fine. I'm managing to sit up for only half hour sessions before feeling so tired I have slight trouble breathing. I'm making the most I can of those sessions, but I can't exactly accomplish much yet. The doctor has prescribed brief outings, (1-2 hours) just getting out of the house so I have to push myself a little, every couple of days, taking a day to rest in between so I don't bring my immune system down by tiring myself out completely. I should feel better energy wise within a week I'm told.


I'm also going to try a new anxiety medication or something so I can sleep at night properly. I have issues with sleeping pills since I'm allergic to half the available types and the others I'd have to overdose on to sleep through the night. I've tried every herbal and cycle oriented method I've found and no luck. I have issues falling asleep, going back to sleep, and the like because of anxiety filled thoughts of worry and depression so that's why I feel an anxiety medication may help. If anyone has had a similar issue and found an anxiety medication to work, I'm open to solutions as my primary doctor prefers to be told what to prescribe apparently... She likes the prescribe what's asked and see how that works method of medicine... I'm open to holistic things but I've tried nearly 3 dozen types at this point. New age medication may be my only choice.


Anyway... I'm done babbling. lol Please excuse any typos or the like. I'm posting from my phone and tired.

Have a great night and week, all!

Okay, my sister is throwing an absolute fit over her boyfriend getting grounded for a day. She's crying so loud I can hear her at the opposite end of the house. Parents aren't home and telling her to quit will just start a fight. Soooo headphones initiated.

Any music or funny video suggestions? I'm not picky, I just like lyrics to sound at least halfway intelligent (not the N word dominating a majority of the song or even part of it really). And my sense of humor varies from immature to sick, so it's hard to go wrong there xD

As for the tattoo. I want to get a bunch of specific awareness ribbons in a particular shape and in an order that aesthetically agrees so someone who could do this digitally and has a good concept of color theory/ordering/positioning is what I'm looking for. I'd need two versions of the same tattoo: just the lines for the stencil, and colored for the tattoo artist to reference the order. Someone willing to make tiny changes is a must because if something is going on my body, the spacing, shape, and any other details have to be to my liking. I may be picky with this.

I could also use a confirmed awareness ribbon guide because on some colors, different guides say totally different things.

Thanks for everything guys! Have a great week!

(PS: pretty drained today but doing alright)

So I'm healing like I'm supposed to according to the doctor. It will take 2 weeks more at least for me to be 100%, but I should still be better most days. I'm not right now because I stopped the codeine cold turkey because it was reeking havoc on my anxiety. So I'm sore without the codeine and going through withdrawal too. Not fun, but I'll live lol

And I started a trend of surgery apparently. My step brother had his wisdoms pulled (also had some new thing done so from day one his chance of a dry socket was next to none, lucky), my uncle contracted an external infection that caused a cyst that ruptured internally and went systemic. His torso was filled with infection around his ribcage and they had to do surgery. He's stable and recovering. My youngest sister's boyfriend works on boathouses and had an accident that caused him to spear his wrist on a carpenter's nail. His surgery went well and he's thriving.

My step brother, Trenton, is home and things are not going well... He's friends with my sister's boyfriend, has for a long time. He's trying to hog Danny's (sister's boyfriend's) attention and it's causing all sorts of in house drama. My sister is emotional and paranoid about Trenton trying to break them up. Danny is still making some time for Rhiannon, but he's also trying not to be a bad friend. So lots of bad vibes going on. Hopefully they'll clear out and everything will be okay.

Also, Trenton has an obnoxious app that sounds like a typewriter when he types on his phone.... I'm not sure if that or the rooster alarm is worse... Both wake me up, the typewriter is hell on my anxiety for some reason, and the rooster alarm doesn't even wake him up, so I have to pound on his locked door until he turns it off. Imma kill 'im.

Thank you for your continued patience guys. Still exhausted after just a couple of minutes of sitting up, but I'm trying.

Have a great week all!

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Each slot has an AB of only $50!!! Dude that's a bargain! If nothing else, watch the artist! You won't be disappointed :D

I wish I could buy every slot x3

So, someone got angry at me because my icon was not made by me and therefore "misleading." Okay, I'll put up a disclaimer, but tons of artists use icons made by other artists they admire and commission. No need to throw a fit because you're expecting an artist to draw the same as their icon. Just browse the artist's gallery. Geeze.

Sorry if I seem snippy, I'm just a little sore and tired and this rubbed me the wrong way. And two separate friends I was venting to mentioned that they've had unnecessary comments on their icons as well. 1 for having alcohol and tobacco products shown in their icon (cigarette and bottle marked XXX). They were reamed for "pushing" alcohol and tobacco use "down watchers' throats".... I'm not going to publicly say what I think about that. Just watch old cartoons people. That's argument enough for me. And the other was having issues over my friend having a promiscuous icon but stating that they don't do full nude art or adult roleplay with others. Really?? They're far from the first person I've seen that don't like the idea of adult stuff with their characters and someone else's, whether in art or roleplay. The only difference is she has a promiscuous looking icon of her character. Pretty similar to the whole "she's dressed sexy, sure, but that doesn't mean she wants to have sex with you" argument in my mind.


What's with this obsession of being unhappy with other people's icons? They should worry about their stuff. End of story.

Goodnight all. Sorry about the ranty thingy lol

Okay I'm at a gross stage of recovery so lots of gross everywhere. Don't read if that stuff bothers you.

I'm now pretty much without a voice. I think my throat has scabbed over (it's supposed to) and I'm coughing up the massive chunks of protective phlegm that coats the throat when it's still exposed. Fun. Choking on mucus is seriously in my top 10 from experience worst ways to wake up.

Yesterday was pretty good pain wise, but the pain is back today. Codeine has some sucky side effects I think they should stress more. Like I dunno... Constipation that when relieved will make you feel like a chicken that laid an ostrich egg. If anyone has any suggestions like a tea or something, I'm definitely open to that. I'm not a fan of medical laxatives because my stomach feels off for weeks.


Overall though, despite feeling gross and a little more sore than yesterday, I'm improving slowly. :) I hope everyone's weekend is going well!

Okay, this could be kind of scrambled but hopefully you guys will understand what I'm trying to say. lol

My tonsillectomy was Monday, August 3rd, at 10:00 am Central US time. I scared the crap out of my nurse because I thought something she said was meant for me. She told my neighbor that after he/she/they got dressed they could sign the paperwork and leave. I thought she was speaking to me so I got up and got entirely dressed (with my IV still attached, I just threaded it through arm holes). She jumped when she saw me dressed and standing because it was 11:15 and they had barely been finished with surgery half an hour. Sooo, I still have a high metabolism for anesthesia. xD

My metabolism is also a bit too high for my pain meds as they wear off at hour 4, not 6 like they're supposed to. But I'm so afraid of opioid dependency that I won't dare ask for a higher dose.

I'm okay though. They did say that it will likely take me 2 weeks rather than 7-10 days for me to recover because of how large my tonsils were and how large the incisions had to be in turn.

It's day 4 (I think lol) so I'll try to update every couple of days. At this point, I'm mainly sleeping though, so not much to say really.

Sore, but okay, and trying to stay super hydrated because that's apparently the key to healing quickly after a tonsillectomy (well, anything really) lol

Have a great week, guys!

So I finally got in to see the specialist. He immediately agreed that my tonsils NEED to come out. I'm not imagining feeling my tonsils when I swallow. They're so large that if any larger, they would actually be an almost full obstruction. They're considered a 3.5 on a scale of 1-4 (1 being normal, 4 being obstructive).

I'm scheduled to have my tonsils and adenoids removed on Monday, August the 3rd. I know it's sudden, but otherwise there would be a roughly 2 month long wait.

The doctor was honest and told me that he believes my recovery will be rough because of my age and issues with antibiotics. I likely won't be able to do much for the minimum 7-10 day recovery period, so I'm just going to declare that time a temporary hiatus.

I'm working on every sketch I can, trying to block out that little voice telling me I suck. I'm also fighting through the antibiotics and my mom keeps kicking me off the desk(I AM living in her office/previous dining room, so no hating on her please). I haven't found another suitable surface to work on without my computer overheating. I'm scrambling every minute, but please note me if you'd like a refund. I totally understand. Just realize that I won't be able to get the refund to you until sometime AFTER the hiatus when I can take on more work and get paid to pay you back.

I apologize again. I never expected this to come so soon. Have a good week all.