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Posted 9 months agoMy fren's cat ist missing , n I dont rly what do, but I hope this helps, JUST PLEASE HELP ANY WAY YOU CAN!! Her name is Cake, n we misss her so much, she's a fairly small beige n grey tabby tortie, a bit skittish but responds well to treats, she won't bit, the meanest she gets to is hissing faking, n I've only ever seen her hiss to other cats.
Prowl n various other adopts UFT
Posted a year agoEsprit n Nudibranc Rosale UFT
Posted a year agohttps://toyhou.se/340870.diya
https://toyhou.se/985824.tbn
mostly looking for an MYO Dreamy slot, but I'll consider art.
https://toyhou.se/985824.tbn
mostly looking for an MYO Dreamy slot, but I'll consider art.
Glider Honeypot UFT
Posted a year agohttps://toyhou.se/551271.honeypot-uft
mostly hoping for a Dreamy MYO slot, I also have others I can add
mostly hoping for a Dreamy MYO slot, I also have others I can add
I crave an unusual pet so bad
Posted a year agoI've been looking up tarantulas n there are so many sweet n cute ones, I've also looked up beardies n Tegu/Caiman lizards. Tarantula are way more expensive than I thought they'd be, plus my bf hates em, so safe to say those are out. I've also been wanting a big snake for forever, but again expensive. If I somehow get one I'll share pics. lol
I've been gone a while
Posted a year agoGone since Jul 10th, be back the 25th, then I'll finally start posting again. Orz.
Sorry for the absence
Posted a year agoI'm not used to going on here anymore, so it's been hard to work on being frequent on here again. I've also been p negligent on the drawing, my depressive ep has been rough, hope all ya lovelies have been doin well tho! But ye I'll try harder to be more present.
Sorry I haven't been posting in awhile
Posted a year agoAll I've done after my tablet broke are sketches n I don't feel they're worth posting
I got a new kitten!!
Posted 2 years agoI got a new son, n I made him a catstagram as purrcutio! Come say hi! https://www.instagram.com/purrcutiro
Contest-O~!
Posted 2 years agoThis contest can be drawn, painted, or written, digital or traditional, scanned or cam/phone photo, doesn't matter to me what so ever, so please feel free to join in on the fun no matter what~!
I'm holding a contest for best new outfit designs for these charas, 1st prize will get 1st pick 2 adopts from the list below n a digital remake of said adopts, 2nd will get 2nd pick n 2 adopts , n 3rd will get last pick of 1 adopt.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53764527/
https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachme.....45058a339f460ba& (the blue one, only condition is he must always have the bells on his mantle n tail, doesn't have to have mantle so long in same area)
Prizes will be picks from these lovely adopts, yes ya can try/win for multiple/all if you like tho unlikely.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53947879/
A good design for a certain one will give ya picks from these, but it's a secret til the end which one it is tho~
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53310309/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52533783/ (the one that's taken is still taken tho)
Since I don't hve much of an audience I'll have it last bout a month til now, Nov 10th, hopefully enough time to gather participants n entiries, tho if enough need more time I'm more than willing to extend the time some.
I dont get much attention, so please spread the word if ya can, I might gift ya a lil doodle if I can in return, kay thanks I love ya bai~! Q aQ
I'm holding a contest for best new outfit designs for these charas, 1st prize will get 1st pick 2 adopts from the list below n a digital remake of said adopts, 2nd will get 2nd pick n 2 adopts , n 3rd will get last pick of 1 adopt.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53764527/
https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachme.....45058a339f460b
Prizes will be picks from these lovely adopts, yes ya can try/win for multiple/all if you like tho unlikely.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53947879/
A good design for a certain one will give ya picks from these, but it's a secret til the end which one it is tho~
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53310309/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52533783/ (the one that's taken is still taken tho)
Since I don't hve much of an audience I'll have it last bout a month til now, Nov 10th, hopefully enough time to gather participants n entiries, tho if enough need more time I'm more than willing to extend the time some.
I dont get much attention, so please spread the word if ya can, I might gift ya a lil doodle if I can in return, kay thanks I love ya bai~! Q aQ
Sorry
Posted 2 years agoStill in my depressive episode n not posting anything. I have a backlog of art to post n I'm just not posting it, my back hurts so fucking bad that I can't really do anything but lay down n read, n even then it still hurts, gods I just wanna die. Man I wish my meds were working....
Sry I haven't posted in a long while....
Posted 2 years agoSry I've been silent so long, I've been at Burning Man the past 2 weeks, n before that I was busy getting rdy for it. Imma trya post extra for a while, after I get home Mon/Tue, so hopefully that'll make up for it.
Any of y'all go to the Burn too, if so how was it for ya? :3c
Also I'm thinking of putting up my recent traditional designs up for trade for art, tho Idk how to go bout that just yet, so just a heads up n feel free to express interest now if ya have any in mind ya might wanna offer on, it might help me organize things. lol
Anywho, just updating y'all on things, hope yall been doin well, stay awesome~!
Any of y'all go to the Burn too, if so how was it for ya? :3c
Also I'm thinking of putting up my recent traditional designs up for trade for art, tho Idk how to go bout that just yet, so just a heads up n feel free to express interest now if ya have any in mind ya might wanna offer on, it might help me organize things. lol
Anywho, just updating y'all on things, hope yall been doin well, stay awesome~!
Earwormmmm
Posted 2 years agoSWEET LIL BUMBLE BEE I KNOW WHAT YOU WANT FROM ME
DOOP AH DOOP AH DOO LA LAA
DOOP AH DOOP AH DOO LA LAA
SWEET LIL BUMBLE BEE MORE THAN JUST A FANTASY
DOOP AH DOOP AH DOO LA LAA
DOOP AH DOOP AH DOO LA LAA
WOOAAOOOOAAOOHH
DOOP AH DOOP AH DOO LA LAA
DOOP AH DOOP AH DOO LA LAA
WOOAAOOOOAAOOHH
DOOP AH DOOP AH DOO LA LAA
DOOP AH DOOP AH DOO LA LAAUm why are all my posts suddenly sideways??
Posted 2 years agoMy recent 2 posts have gone sideways on me, Ive checked to make sure before n theyre always upright photos, but no matter what I do, even making a completely new upright photo, resetting the file afterwards, nothing, nothing works. I just don't know what to do to fix it n it's rly upsetting....
Hi
Posted 3 years agoI probs shoulda done this my 1st day back, but hello there I'm tryna post again, hope ya'll're havin a good time n all! o vo/"
Imma tryta post as much as I can, but I probs won't have a schedule or anything, I only draw when I'm feelin well enough n I'll only be drawin for myself for now, but I might do more in the future, just depends on how I'm doin plus like how much ppl want other stuff. But ye for now just casual drawin n stuff, free for now, n mebe giveaways n $ adopts/coms later! o7
I missed drawin n sharin my art too much so I hadta come back n try again, thanks in advance for tolerating my slow comeback~! u wu <33
Imma tryta post as much as I can, but I probs won't have a schedule or anything, I only draw when I'm feelin well enough n I'll only be drawin for myself for now, but I might do more in the future, just depends on how I'm doin plus like how much ppl want other stuff. But ye for now just casual drawin n stuff, free for now, n mebe giveaways n $ adopts/coms later! o7
I missed drawin n sharin my art too much so I hadta come back n try again, thanks in advance for tolerating my slow comeback~! u wu <33
Update! + Taking offers on almost all my characters!
Posted 7 years ago
Sooo my mental state plummeted on and off p badly for a long long time, I spent alot of my spiral down into it on here, DA, n TH, I didn't say much bout it n played it off even when I did say something, which probs didn't help me get better tbh. I'm a p honest person, but I have a habit of keeping to myself outta fear of others, which is a thing PTSD victims have apparently, I knew I had it, but I thought I just had severe social anxiety, but my therapist is p sure my PTSD is the reason my paranoia is so bad. I'm on some meds now; Bupropion FOR my MDD n Anxiety, Prazosin for my PTSD nightmares (I already have low blood pressure so I have to have a super salty diet), Gabapenton for Anxiety, n most recently I started taking Lithium for my MDD. I used to take Abilify, but it made me too restless even when doing things, n it kept me from sleep, so the Lithium was the alt for it. My psych told me that the whole reason my side effects w Effexor were so bad was cause it was giving me Serotonin Storms, which can be lethal, so was shocked my old psych just kept upping the dose when I voiced concerns n wanted to change to something else. Because of my reaction to Effexor, my current psych wants to stay away from drugs that work the same way, like Prozac, which limits my options, but hopefully either Lithium or the last option, Lamigdal, will work w out bad side effects. I love my new psych n therapist, they're both rlly sweet n caring, it's rlly great to have ones that care n listen for once~! ; w; <33
Also, I'm parting w most of my chars since I have too many n I haven't drawn in years cuz of my mental state! Feel free to message me here or on TH, details n alot of my chars are here: https://toyhou.se/~bulletins/60304......my-characters-
I still have a bunch I haven't uploaded yet, but I'm hoping to get them all on there soon.
inactivity + HUGE APOLOGY PLEASE READ
Posted 8 years ago((TLDR for first half bellow))
Sorry for the inactivity, I've been struggling trying to get anything off my old laptop onto my new comp, it's just way too slow and crashes constantly, so I've spent forever trying to figure out what to do, especially since I can't afford re-buying my art programs, and starting all my coms and trades from scratch again would drive me friggin NUTS for the ones I've gotten past the multiple sketch redos stage and gotten rather far into. My sis helped me get the hybrid HDD out of my laptop and put it in a device that can plug it into my comp via USB, so when I get the chance to see my dad or my BFF that knows comps, I'll have them transfer the files to my comp so I can finally get back to digital and work on my owed work again after so friggin long, which will hopefully super soon. If I try to just transfer the normal way through USB it'll take FOREVER to get everything off of it, my dad wanted me to just hook it up to my comp as an extra HDD so it can access it at normal speeds and run the programs off of it, but idk what cords to plug in where for that, so it'll have to wait till he can visit to do, tho I do like that idea better than transferring, because my other HDD is a 3TB and it's slow at accessing anything in it because of it's huge size. lmao
SO YEAH THAT'S WHERE I'VE BEEN ARTISTICALLY, arting has been super hard with my art block going super strong as of late, but getting back on Adderall has really helped because a lot of it stems from my anxiety and depression, which both run fucking rampant with my ADHD out of check because they have 1239045283509328 trillion directions at once to take problems from or dwell on and also get paranoid over, and ofcourse the lack of true focus and such a vastly divided mind is incredibly frustrating which again adds to the anxiety. lol
My old doc who prescribed me Effexor was also the doc that said putting me back on ADHD meds had too much of a risk of sending me back into a life-threatening panic attack like the one I had before that almost stopped my heart, but along with Effexor being such a bad idea for a doc to have because of all the nasty side effects it gave me and is known for causing often, keeping me off Adderall was also a shitty plan too lmao, so I went back to my leftover ADHD meds while I wait for a chance to see a new psych doc to give me something better for my anxiety. My depression is almost completely gone, but my anxiety is still effecting my physical and mental health quite a bit even with the ADHD under control, so I know I have to get help for it again instead of just trying to avoid something like Effexor happening again, tho I will def make sure to get a doc that actually listens and considers my thought and opinions and experience, no ifs ands or buts.
TLDR; serious technical difficulties and mental health struggles made me super silent and unable to draw digitally this entire time, but I have solutions for both that will be solving everything very soon, especially the tech issues, so please hold tight!!
((APOLOGY BELOW PLEASE READ ALL OF IT IF YOU CAN))
My anxiety and depression also affect my confidence, and although I know it's no excuse and was still wrong for me to just go p much AWOL, all three of these kept me fleeing from trying to say any kind of update out of fear of backlash and just shame for not being able to do better for those I still owe things to. So I wanna apologize for that right now, I don't expect anyone to truly understand or forgive me, but I still have to own up to things and treat you all the respect you deserve and I am honestly so sorry with all of my heart that I couldn't do better for you guys. These mental issues running rampant are also largely to blame for why I've taken so long in the first place, aside from all the technical and irl difficulties I've had throughout the past year (even 2 years or so for some I promise I haven't forgotten!), between feeling I'm not doing well enough, and feeling I'm too slow, and then fearing reactions if I say anything or turning in things late, and even just that I'm not good enough to finish a piece well enough for it to be worth the wait, I've stalled so much, and what's even worse than that I can't afford to refund anyone of these amazingly awesome and patient customers, is that I never even apologized for it and let them know I understood and how I felt about it all and gave a full/honest explanation to anyone about it. Again from the bottom of my heart, with all these shame and regret filled tears none of you can physically see, I am so truly sorry that I not only took or am taking so long, but that I also never said any of this to any of you and kept it to myself out of all these stupid mental issues and wasn't good enough for you guys to be able to get past any of it for you all.
((Sorry I'm not putting a TLDR for this apology, I just don't feel it's something that should be shortened or summarized, it just wouldn't be right.))
fuck
Posted 8 years agoI can't stop crying...
It looks to be that my cat's worse off than I thought. Imean I knew she was really old and prob getting close, but we recently found out that her sudden dip in health was prob a STROKE, and ontop of her deafness and arthritis, she can barely see now too. She can still walk, but like, I doubt she's really doing much LIVING right now, all she can really do is eat, sleep and poop/pee... She's got a month or so tops.
Please excuse me if I'm all over he place in mood and activity and sociability for a while. I just heard about this and talked with my dad about it just now...
UPDATE!
Posted 8 years agoBeen taking things easy because my heart issues have been getting more intense, and for those who don't know (aka mostly everyone aside from a few), I've always had pretty unusually painful, long, and often heart palpitations on a daily basis. I used to think they were just normal after they got worse and my friends noticed and pointed how unusual and worrying it was, and were shocked I never saw a doctor about them. I have really obnoxious nerve issues too, but I've learned to live with them and don't find it as impending as the heart thing and have long given up on getting a doc to actually hear me about it. I've seen different doctor multiple times about both issues, only to be shooed out the door shortly after showing up and paying the $20 visit fee and waiting in their room for atleast 15 mins each time, so I've honestly given up on getting help for my conditions. I've often feared others wouldn't take me seriously aswell, which is why I've rarely ever brought up that these were even actual issues for me, especially publicly like this. I've already settled with just working around them somehow, tho it really does make things a lot more difficult to keep work, even just art wise like it is now.
I MAY see a doc about my heart issue now that it's getting as severe as it is, these palpitations are starting to affect my right side when they go off now, and it's giving me flashbacks to when that panic attack that put me in the ER almost stopped my heart, so I am getting pretty worried about it. Excitement has always exacerbated them and their likeliness to happen, which makes since because of how it effects blood flow and the level of effort the heart is working in. So basically I'm staying as chill as possible, even happy feelings are bad if they're not mellow, I should be fine keeping this in mind for now, but I'll prob try seeking medical help for it again when I've gotten my driver's permit test out of the way, and fixed whatever's wrong with my foot. It hurts really bad when I walk, whenever my left big toe is bent, and it's been like this for a good few months now, severity seems to be based on the level of pressure applied to it.
So yeah, with all this going on it's effecting how much I can draw, but I'm still pushing to get as much as I can done, so no worries I'm still working, I'm just worried it may be slowing me down, so I felt you guys were deserving of knowing what's going on with me. Hope you guys are going okay, and that you'll stay as patient and understanding with me as you all have been with me so in recent years~! u wu <3333
MGL139's Art Contest + Raffle
Posted 8 years agoSuper awesome art Contest+Raffle on DA by MGL139, come join the fun~!
http://mgl139.deviantart.com/journa.....izes-671928163
Oh btw, I made an FN for RPing n stuff~
Posted 8 years agohttps://beta.furrynetwork.com/nobu/
I put up commish stuff in case I take commishes there in the future, tho for right now I'm booked as it is. lol
Anyway, I've been kinda wanting to RP my lil sona Nobu, presh lil bakeneko boi~ Sooo feel free to PM me about RP ideas you wanna have with him, if I'm interested, I'll totally RP with ya! At this point I haven't RP'd in YEARS so I'm most likely really rusty, so I doubt I'll be picky right now so long as you don't mind me being like beginner lvl RPer. lmao <3
If you haven't already, please check MeiLynn out!!
Posted 8 years agoHer art is AMAZING! I've loved their work for years now, and I haven't really properly promoted them this entire time somehow?? Even tho I've bought a lot from them over the years?!? I somehow just realized this today, so Imma say it now; GO CHECK OUT HER PAGE/GALLERY, YOU WON'T REGRET IT, EVER~~~ I love her art and her species are way too cute, too! (tbh I prob have a hoarding prob with them lmao) <333333333333333333333
MeiLynn MeiLynn MeiLynn MeiLynn MeiLynn MeiLynnRaffle~
Posted 8 years agoSorry I'm still fairly inactive until I finish up with coms (still checking atleast once daily or so just barely anything to say or post for now) , please bear with me, but have a raffle, their art is amazing, glad I found it when I did~!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22357788/
I'm drowning
Posted 9 years agoin this squall of emotions
. . .
please just go on without me
tfw
Posted 9 years ago...you fear no one will ever understand you.
...you fear everyone--or at least the majority of everyone--online will never believe or understand your excuses for taking so long on things, whether it be for be a naturally slow artist, having too much work piling up, having clients you have to finish for before them, or your own mental disorders getting in the way of things.
...you fear everyone believes you're just hiding behind your own issues to be lazy.
...you fear that everyone you love and/or respect secretly dislikes you and is just putting up with you to keep up their image or not hurt your feelings.
...you fear that you might actually be delusional and insane and just convinced that these mental and physical issues are there, and that they're not real, and that there's nothing you can do to fight past them because your delusion feels THAT REAL.
I know this is all just in my head, I know these aren't true, but I can't stop them from overwhelming me! The worst part of having these paranoid thoughts is knowing that that's EXACTLY what they are, nothing more, BUT STILL CAN'T ESCAPE THEM. It's like living in a lucid dream... I know it's not real, but I can't out of it, it just keeps happening without my conscious approval, and still feels so real that it's really convincing and terrifying...
