where can I find Sai brushes?
I'm so bored.

I haven't been on FA much, so I don't know how well this is going around. And I need to vent.

I came across a GIF (a full, unedited gif)... I wish I had never seen it.. But I was literally paralyzed with horror and grief as I realized what was happening.. And to a child no less!!

http://www.cnn.com/2011/10/17/world/asia/china-toddler-hit-and-run/index.html?hpt=wo_c2
Hours later I found the source, hoping for an explanation. I was stunned to learn the tragedy had just happened THAT day.. And it offered no closure of KNOWING, I was more disgusted when learning the full story. It just breaks my heart to know that people can leave an innocent baby, a toddler to lay suffering on a road in her own blood.. Left exposed for more cars (WHICH fucking puzzles me to no end) to run over her AGAIN... If you saw a child laying in the road, quivering and groaning and rolling about in pain... Could you just keep going and feel okay with the 'BUMP BUMP' as your wheels rolled over her? How do those people live with themselves? Bless the woman who had a heart that day and had enough decency to pull the infant to safety, even if the poor girl's legs were already mush.

I am not racist and I know it's not the entire population in China that this type of apathy reflects.. But I am completely disgusted with their lack of respect for human life, or simple (possibly life saving)courtesy.
I thought about blaming her parents for letting the child wander off, but as a Mom myself.. I know one second a child can be with you and then the next, he or she is off darting down the hall or disappearing into the clothing hangers at a store (my boys love doing this to me).

It just saddens me deeply and gave me quite a deal of anxiety thinking about her the last few days.. I prayed for poor YueYue, even knowing that she wouldn't make it in this world of cruelness.
It's just a shame. There are no words. I am also bothered by are those who passed by without giving the 2 yr old a glance, as if she were a dying stray dog. I realize girls are not as valued in China as boys, but still? It makes me wonder how often things like this happen there and is not caught by the media eye... (also, I know no country/province/state/city whathaveyou- is perfect)

RIP Wang Yue (YueYue)... May you rest in paradise.
http://edition.cnn.com/2011/10/20/world/asia/china-toddler-dead/?hpt=ias_c2


EDIT EDIT EDIT
Another child accident!!!!!
http://shanghaiist.com/2011/10/22/yueyue-child-death-sichuan.php

WOW, ANOTHER x2
http://shanghaiist.com/2011/10/26/two-kids-guangdong-yueyue.php

I trusted you. But your words mean nothing to me because your actions spoke the truth.

This is what you wanted.

BUT, I can't be the only one who thinks the customer appreciation list of free games from PSN is very very... sucky? All the B.S and these are the only games we can choose from? Ugh.
Already have Infamous, already have Little Big Planet.

You would think that would make my choice a lot easier.. But no.
I'll probably go with Dead Nation, but I don't think the other two (wipeout and stardust) are not worth all crap PSN fucked up on.


Siiiiigh

So that was a crazy B-day. :D

I am fairly busy these days.
I am starting up a business and it's fairly time consuming. College as well, for business and accounting.
I finally got myself settled in a new place, a three story, three bedroom apartment.. So nice, my other place was so cramped.

I'm free now, and that is now one of my biggest blessings. My ex... If I had known what a hurtful person he could be, I never would have got involved.. But if we could know these things about people, we would probably have a lot less hurt/suffering to begin with.. Right? Only in a perfect world I suppose..

Anyway, when I do find myself with free time.. I come on here, browse and feel the urge to draw.. And.. I just can't! Nothing is coming from me.. I have never felt so uninspired (in such an inspiring time in my life) ever.
Ive been through so much, you would think that would translate into my art.. But I am getting noooooothing.

Anyway, I would like to ad old friends to my msn (they know who they are) people that were on my old msn.
My ex removed everyone from my old one and then changed the password a looooong time ago, so that's why I just disappeared. I have a new one tho... So yeah, send me an addy if ya want. I will only add people ive had before tho!

My babygirl Isabella passed away this morning at 9:13 am, she took her last breaths.
I am so going to miss my tiny white baby, she and her sister kept me strong through a controlling and abusive relationship where my life was laid out on eggshells..I had been alienated from my family and nearly my own boys... I had been beaten and bruised and held at gunpoint.. But holding my two puppies were a great sense of security in my miserable life.

RIP Isabell, my darling white angel.. You left me too soon, you helped me get through so much.. You will be greatly missed.


She had a swollen liver and pancreas, which resulted in peritonitis.. She didn't exhibited any serious symptoms until a couple days ago and I suspected she had an upset stomach, which due to her size isn't unusual... $2000 vet bill and nothing to show for it, it's like throwing salt on the wounds..
I will miss her deeply.

and hide your husbands, cause everybody is gettin' raped out here.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vZKXAFqdlC4

You are so dumb, you are really dumb. Fo'real.




Looove this. Yes, just seen it the other day.

I have been gone for ages.

When you're struggling through life, trying to be happy and yet you ignore the people around you. In my case, I ignored a lot of my friends and I probably missed and lost out on a lot of fun opportunities. Nothing ever went so far as a night out for a sapless time at the club, or a trip to see a movie.. I never really focused on these kinda outings, it was like I was afraid id get attached to these people.. My friends of years! Some of them had been my friends even before high school.. I've just always had that fear and doubt.. I don't trust very often and I'm a bit startled by true commitment.. I sometimes panic, just because I know I'm putting my own well-being (heart) at risk and that can really freak me out! I'll make bad choices and rarely, if I'm not thinking properly- I can sabotage my own happiness... I don't mean to, I'm not thinking "I'm going to do this.." But it ALWAYS happens.
At any rate, it's been a recurring thing.. But I'm glad to say that I think and truly believe I have met my right match :)
A good guy he was, there talking to me forever and bringing up my confidence but I never took him too seriously (like stated before, it made me uneasy to get close).
We went out a few times harmlessly during the summer to see Inglorious Bastards, Law Abiding Citizen.. It was fun.. It wasn't until a month or so after that he confessed to me how he really felt, and like usual I wanted to dodge it because I was scared..
I dunno how he did it, blind sided me really.. All I know is that I did fall for him too, but not until a few months later. Sure I started FEELING him and started liking him a lot, but I have never felt myself fall so hard for a guy in my LIFE.
Now we're nearly inseparable, we know all about what each other does.. (Yeah, he was kinda skeptical about the camming job, but he got over it- since it's a temporary thing and brings in nice $ to go towards a new apartment) And he's even talking about getting engagement rings! *Big gasp* Scary step, but I love the guy enough to take that plunge, I swear.
Although we didn't officially get together until Nov really... I like to say our anniversary is in September.. Just for the fact he had me in his sight, we were talking.. And he never gave up on me.

It's just funny sometimes, people shouldn't always look so far for love.. Sometimes it's right beside you. :)

End rant/or whatever this is.