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Posted 12 years agoShe doesn't have a FA but here's her tumbler with some samples!
http://homurugh.tumblr.com/post/662.....8/art-examples
http://homurugh.tumblr.com/post/662.....8/art-examples
What's been going on with me lately.
Posted 12 years agoAnyone know of any GOOD ones? Some WITHOUT Clara?
Maybe I could write my own... But there's no way I could do it justice. No way at all. Doctor Who should be fanfic taboo.
On a side note, been getting a lot of garbage pail kids cards. Got a series 3 Gross Stickers box for 12. I know a guy lol. And let me tell you Scratch and STINK cards smell god awful!
Got two new Pokemon decks. Genesect, Kangaskhan, Blastoise, Porygon2, Golurk and those are just a few beast modes in them! Once I modify them they'll be unstoppable. I don't think I could ever top the Zekrom deck. THREE of them in one deck. Man, I hated going up against that deck. Last time I build one for someone else lol.
On a serious note though, there has been a recent tragedy. A few weeks ago my mom's boyfriend's dad passed away. Plus the drama that ensued after it. Mark's mother stole his ashes, made off with all three life insurance policies totaling at several hundred thousand dollars, stealing documents from his office the day after he passed (she hid them in boxes and had me and my sister take them out to her car for her.) Then like two days after, she called the person who runs the family reunion on her side of the family and told them to take her three children (Mark and his two sisters) off the mailing list because they were no longer her family. Thankfully, Mark got the ashes back. So lately, I've just been helping out with my mom and them.
You see Mark and I got off on the wrong foot and it wasn't until this last year that we started getting along. But we've moved past that and I told him that I've accepted him as a stepdad and the best one I could ask for.
Through all of Mark's mother's craziness, I think I shall document it and write a book about it all. Of course I shall do it in a way that IF it gets published she won't get a single cent for likeness rights or whatever. She's already made enough money off of a poor helpless man and their children.
Maybe I could write my own... But there's no way I could do it justice. No way at all. Doctor Who should be fanfic taboo.
On a side note, been getting a lot of garbage pail kids cards. Got a series 3 Gross Stickers box for 12. I know a guy lol. And let me tell you Scratch and STINK cards smell god awful!
Got two new Pokemon decks. Genesect, Kangaskhan, Blastoise, Porygon2, Golurk and those are just a few beast modes in them! Once I modify them they'll be unstoppable. I don't think I could ever top the Zekrom deck. THREE of them in one deck. Man, I hated going up against that deck. Last time I build one for someone else lol.
On a serious note though, there has been a recent tragedy. A few weeks ago my mom's boyfriend's dad passed away. Plus the drama that ensued after it. Mark's mother stole his ashes, made off with all three life insurance policies totaling at several hundred thousand dollars, stealing documents from his office the day after he passed (she hid them in boxes and had me and my sister take them out to her car for her.) Then like two days after, she called the person who runs the family reunion on her side of the family and told them to take her three children (Mark and his two sisters) off the mailing list because they were no longer her family. Thankfully, Mark got the ashes back. So lately, I've just been helping out with my mom and them.
You see Mark and I got off on the wrong foot and it wasn't until this last year that we started getting along. But we've moved past that and I told him that I've accepted him as a stepdad and the best one I could ask for.
Through all of Mark's mother's craziness, I think I shall document it and write a book about it all. Of course I shall do it in a way that IF it gets published she won't get a single cent for likeness rights or whatever. She's already made enough money off of a poor helpless man and their children.
Figured out the problem.
Posted 12 years agoThe problem is this. My needs aren't being met psychologically or physically in some way shape or form. And the reason for this is because I'm looking for people like YOU on here to fill them. When I should fill them myself. It's nice to get validation from others, but I no longer require your's or anyone else's :)
List o' Songs - Pick One
Posted 12 years agoSheltered by Ghost Machine
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rh9b7Nw8tBQ
God Forbid by Ghost Machine
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sQ9Po0AauVA
Wicked Ways by Five Finger Death Punch
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aeGTSYmUQIM
Remember Everything by Five Finger Death Punch
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7G8QItjTSDA
Coming Down by Five Finger Death Punch
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ptzzU7jFQwo
Down by Motograter
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QNO7fSqbBXE
Gehenna by Slipknot
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wHVKfMZXrQ8
Sulfur by Slipknot
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PAAvNmoqDq0
Love, Hate, Sex, Pain by Godsmack
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NU41o6Z-UlY
Releasing the Demons by Godsmack
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oP7ozpBQIqo
Bother by Stone Sour
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q-pXD0FXLQ8
Love Her by Seether
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lx-CNX0VK4M
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rh9b7Nw8tBQ
God Forbid by Ghost Machine
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sQ9Po0AauVA
Wicked Ways by Five Finger Death Punch
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aeGTSYmUQIM
Remember Everything by Five Finger Death Punch
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7G8QItjTSDA
Coming Down by Five Finger Death Punch
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ptzzU7jFQwo
Down by Motograter
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QNO7fSqbBXE
Gehenna by Slipknot
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wHVKfMZXrQ8
Sulfur by Slipknot
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PAAvNmoqDq0
Love, Hate, Sex, Pain by Godsmack
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NU41o6Z-UlY
Releasing the Demons by Godsmack
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oP7ozpBQIqo
Bother by Stone Sour
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q-pXD0FXLQ8
Love Her by Seether
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lx-CNX0VK4M
*sigh*
Posted 12 years agoI've been forced to deal with some harsh truths lately. And one of them being, that I have absolutely zero peer support and zero friendship. The ones I was friends with I got rid of because they were always making fun of me for being fat or ugly, or being a slut and lying about it. Well I had enough. I wasn't going to let anyone make me feel worse than I already did. So now that those people are gone... I have no one. I don't even really have online friends either. Now more than ever, I feel like I'm alone, and no one gets me, and like I'm a freak. I don't fit in anywhere, even online. That's pretty pathetic when you think about it. I try to get out there, I try to make new friends, I try to be normal and it's not working. I'm too different. So much different, that I only found one person on this planet that can even comprehend who I am and how I function. Honestly, if it weren't for him, I'd be completely lost and alone, with no one and nothing.
I haven't really put a lot of my writing up here, well, because I'm ashamed of it and I don't think it's good enough. And the doubts are only amplified by the fact that I get little to no feedback at all and what I do have up there. I feel as if, if it's not furry related, no one here cares. And while yes, I am on a furry site, I thought I made good enough friends with you all that I could let you glimpse the one thing that no one else sees irl. My writing. I'm tired of opening myself up. Really, no feedback is worse than bad feedback.
Which brings this all to the clusterfuck that it is right now. I have no one. My best friend is a whore. My other best friend made fun of me for being a whore. One friend who'd rather think with his dick than stop his little baby mama from fucking with me. My family thinks I'm weird.
I really only had the three friends.... I don't talk to the one who makes fun of me anymore. I rarely talk to the one with decreasing moral values, and I haven't talked to the idiot guy since he told me that he was having sex with his baby mama again, when he said he wasn't. And since then I had to call the cops on her for harrassing me all the time. It had been going on for a year already.
I try to hang out with other people, and while I understand people do have lives and well, simply I don't. You can only get blown off so many times before you start wonder if they just don't want to be around you... I'm so hurt right now, I can't even comprehend it fully at the moment. I'm sure it'll all sink in when I go to bed and I'm the only one awake and the depression kicks in.
Why, when I try to change my life for the better, that the better people don't want to be around me? I've hurt people yes, but only a handful. What is everyone else's excuse?
I don't even know why I'm even typing this all out. Maybe cuz it makes me feel better just putting it all down. I don't know. No one's gonna read it. Nothing's gonna change. And I shall be here. Doing whatever I do.
Long story short. I'm not posting a single bit of my writings anymore. I always knew it was a pipe dream.
I haven't really put a lot of my writing up here, well, because I'm ashamed of it and I don't think it's good enough. And the doubts are only amplified by the fact that I get little to no feedback at all and what I do have up there. I feel as if, if it's not furry related, no one here cares. And while yes, I am on a furry site, I thought I made good enough friends with you all that I could let you glimpse the one thing that no one else sees irl. My writing. I'm tired of opening myself up. Really, no feedback is worse than bad feedback.
Which brings this all to the clusterfuck that it is right now. I have no one. My best friend is a whore. My other best friend made fun of me for being a whore. One friend who'd rather think with his dick than stop his little baby mama from fucking with me. My family thinks I'm weird.
I really only had the three friends.... I don't talk to the one who makes fun of me anymore. I rarely talk to the one with decreasing moral values, and I haven't talked to the idiot guy since he told me that he was having sex with his baby mama again, when he said he wasn't. And since then I had to call the cops on her for harrassing me all the time. It had been going on for a year already.
I try to hang out with other people, and while I understand people do have lives and well, simply I don't. You can only get blown off so many times before you start wonder if they just don't want to be around you... I'm so hurt right now, I can't even comprehend it fully at the moment. I'm sure it'll all sink in when I go to bed and I'm the only one awake and the depression kicks in.
Why, when I try to change my life for the better, that the better people don't want to be around me? I've hurt people yes, but only a handful. What is everyone else's excuse?
I don't even know why I'm even typing this all out. Maybe cuz it makes me feel better just putting it all down. I don't know. No one's gonna read it. Nothing's gonna change. And I shall be here. Doing whatever I do.
Long story short. I'm not posting a single bit of my writings anymore. I always knew it was a pipe dream.
