this account is extremely fucking outdated WHOOPS so ill just yknow move somewhere else
im gonna make a new acc in a bit

when people draw girls with big ass nipples but when they draw men they have no sign of a single nipple

tfw people call trans people futa or herm
tfw people call lesbian couples yuri
tfw people callgay couples yaoi
tfw people would draw futa or herm and wouldnt date a single trans or intersex person
tfw straight dudes only draw yuri and not yaoi
tfw any of these actions are defended

forgot to link it here u go

its gonna be separate from this one
all the lewd is gonna be on there i guess. but on this account i will have Some nudity. (like if its on a reference sheet or smthn)
i'm gonna set it up really quick and i'll post a link

hey hey i thought i would do an update because i felt like i need to do one

so i have a few commissions to do (three of them, two for someone here and one for a school friend) and i have already scheduled some work days for them. (wednesday, saturday and sunday.)
thats fine and dandy but i also made this journal for a little more uh? personal shit

anyways

i'm going through a lot of stress right now because I'm doing what I can to just... cope with my bpd. I'm getting there, and I can tell, so i'm proud of that. I've already learned to cope well with my ptsd so thats also good. but my main concern now is... depression. plain ol simple as fuck depression.
i'm so unmotivated to work on anything for school or for myself. Hell, I even lack caring for myself at this point as I just sit on my computer all day and just rot.
I'm taking a lot of sick days (im allowed to bc of mental illness thank fuck) and i? idk

i'm just so stressed out and one of the Biggest reasons why I am is because of not talking to my best friend in what, about a month? i'm so stressed abt that because its just that I miss them. not only that but i just feel so terrible about all my missing assignments because i never do anything anymore. i just get home and start fuckin' drawing or i just talk to my boyfriend and... that's literally all i have the energy to do.
my depression lately has just been skyrocketing, and hopefully when i'm talking to my bff again AND im on winter break, i'll feel better.
but for now i just am gonna mope


sigh

i just wish i could do something good for myself for once

followers who aren't dead
ive had 28 followers for like what??? months??? theyre all inactive
theFuck

i got telegram just now and im really curious to see if any of my dead followers would wanna chat

HEY WHATS UP ITS BEEN FOREVER!!!!
Sorry i havent been on! my computer broke and they took months to send it in for repairs and came back saying it was unfixable
so i got a new computer and here i am
i'll be making art on the 20th bc that day ill get my tablet pen
anyways whats up my really inactive followers

I dont get commissions (lmao) and ychs seem to get a lot so?
maybe i might do an auction, whatddya think guys?

is anyone interested in doing art trades?? im willing to draw almost anything t b h (I won't draw scat/pedophilia/rape/incest/fart fetish shit)

if you know anyone who'd also be interested that'd be mc fuckin stellar

My art is reaaally bad and its not getting me anywhere here so... I'm planning on deactivating? I don't know.
>inb4 "sorry i dont do much!!!!"

Are my followers inactive or?,,,, I haven't been getting any notifications at all from followers and i'm wondering is it bc my art is bad or

sorry for all the vent art
I'm just
in an extremely dark place right now
but my fp and bf are helping me slowly
just wanted to say this
ill be okay too
i won't kill myself / hurt myself either

Hey guys
or gals or whatever
Summer break is FINALLY coming up next week! So that means i'll be able to draw more stuff and maybe even get some commissions done. (But i don't worry too much about that because the chances of me getting commissioned is extremely low lmao)
but yea
just wanted to update and say I ain't dead
i'll make a to do list for y'all to see what i'm working on n shit

so i'm back on furaffinity finally
woop

heres a song rec of the week
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EfK-WX2pa8c

so that thing i posted that i was real proud of and for some buttfuck reason it was taken off for??? literally no reason??
lmao thanks fA for that

Hey guess what! I'm gonna be moving in what, three years? But the thing is, my family plans on moving to an area that they know damn well I absolutely loathe. But... I have plans with my best friend to move to San Francisco to be roomies with them and maybe have my boyfriend come with me. The thing is... I don't have the money at all. Like... its nearly impossible. And sitting around doing nothing while waiting for commissions is not gonna work because I need to get out there, y'know? I'm a very like... unknown artist. Barely anyone knows me or if they watch/follow me they don't do shit and just forget I exist all because my art is so bad and yadda yadda...But... I should be taking this a lot more seriously because I'm going to be saving up for when I can move out of here and live in San Francisco with my bestie. The thing is, I have 3 years to get the money for it or else I move to some redneck backwards ass country fuck place down south. :/ I go there every year and honestly I hate it more than the ghetto in Chicago where I unfortunately have to live.
I've already been to San Fran once and all I gotta say is... it makes me feel like I'm at home. Like I truly feel safe and accepted there. The people there are really nice and everything is just so pretty. I love the houses and the way of life there, I don't see how my parents would rather live in some cabin in Kentucky that has trash all over the place with trailer trash everywhere. NOT TO MENTION THE AMOUNT OF RACIST CUCKS THAT LIVE THERE TOO..............THERES A LOT OF THAT SHIT THERE. BUT ANYWAYS
TL;DR
I NEED COMMISSIONS BADLY IF I'M GONNA HAVE TO MOVE WITH MY BEST FRIEND AND GO TO ART/ANIMATION COLLEGE WITH THEM

On top of all that, i'm running out of ideas on what I should be drawing. PLUS the school years almost over...so that means I can open commissions n shit. Even though they've literally been open for a few months with no luck but whatever
here's the comm info:
http://sergeantjasper.tumblr.com/commission
I mean I guess i'm at an okay price but w/e.
Its VERY uncommon that i get commissions so I would really appreciate it if i got some!...or at least have the word spread in case you don't have the money.
LIKE SERIOUSLY PLS HELP I'M LITERALLY POOR AND CANT GET A JOB
I DONT LIKE BEGGING FOR ANYTHING AT ALL BUT HONESTLY I'M REALLY DESPERATE
Like i'll literally draw some fetish I don't even have like... the foot fetish or the inflation fetish for fucks sake
like I need this money to not only get away from my shit tier family who's abused me in the past, but to just be there for my best friend

I know i'm not the best artist but please
i really need your help

So I really wanted to draw today and it turns out my tablet's fucked. Like I tried resetting my laptop to fix the pen pressure to see if that was the case, but nope! It didn't work. On top of that, my computer keeps crashing and is getting incredibly slow...and it's running out of memory. So this...truly sucks ass because I was planning on working on quite a few things. If anyone can help me on the memory garbage, i'd be willing to share my skype with you so you can help me fix this issue.
Other than that, I just need the disk for my tablet in order to draw again, because I decided uninstalling and reinstalling the wacom shit all over again would work, so I just need the disk. I'll try to look for it but if I don't find it... then oh well. :/ RIP my art career
BUT ON A BRIGHTER NOTE
I have done some really fuckin' sick traditional artwork, and would yall like if I posted it?

http://sergeantjasperart.tumblr.com/commission
here's the info
oop

I'M GONNA POST THINGS I AIN'T DEAD