Going to hide from FA for awhile. Don't expect to see me on AIM either. ;P

I have personal reasons, has nothing to do with anyone/anything other than a severe lack of... care, I guess? Care for my art. My art needs TLC and I need to not give a damn if the people on FA will fav/comment on it.

So.

I'll be back n' stuff.

See ya~

I have some seriously strange dreams.

BI I can't even blame it on medication or anything, because I take, like, aspirin, and only once avery six months or so.

Anyway, I had this dream last night that my mom came to visit. And it was like, everything was realistic about the dream, including my mom and grandmother talking in the kitchen and stuff, except for y'know...

The fact that my mom would never visit. Because she probably doesn't give enough of a damn.

And then she like, held up a piece of paper that looked like some sort of test results, with a graph with a strange shape on it, and she was like "Oh, yeah, and they said I'm Autistic."

And then, I respond. "Oh yeah, me too. I'm Autistic."

And then it was awkward.

Probably as awkward as that conversation would have been IRL.

Also I'm pretty sure I'm not Autistic. Well, not pretty sure(not tests), but still. B( There are so many other things I already am. That would be awkward in a conversation. Oh dream, why did you pick that one? You coulda been like "Well I'm gonna get a sex change." Or "Well I have a transgendered significant other." Or "I'm going to be a tattoo artist."

All of which would have resulted in the same awkwardness.

Stupid dreams. B(

The catch is...

Only one person gets it. There is always a catch.

I wanna draw something... vaguely sexual. Well, a bit more than vague, but it's still MY kind of subdued, erotic, artistic sexualization rather than the porn most people are used to.

I have an image in my head, and I want to use a character that isn't some generic one I made up for the occasion, nor any of Val's usual 'menu'. To put it shortly, Valerie will be having an encounter with someone he has yet to do so with, artistically or in literature(roleplay being considered literature here).

It's going to be a yet-to-be-determined degree of non-consensual, and end up with the guest star's head in Val's lap. Still attached to the body, of course, neither I nor Val are THAT morbid. (Vitya might be though.)

In case you aren't a watcher of mine, or you ARE but you have been living under a rock, here are some pics of the perpetrator:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7351737/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7156457/

Anyway, now that you've made it this far into my IDEA LAND, you can trek a few steps further to find the REQUIREMENTS.

-Post here to 'enter'.
-Must have a visual ref, no text.
-The character must be visually male. Clothes will be on, so what is under them won't bother me, or Val.
-Human-shaped faces. They can have crazy ears or horns or anything, but no muzzles. I'm already shitty enough at sexy times involving mouths, don't throw in animal anatomy, dear LORD.
-No huge characters. Human sized, please. And not large human either, since Val likes his victims to be smaller and easy enough to overpower. Their strength need not be a factor, though.(like if you got a magical guy that can destroy WORLDS, but you want to subject him, that's all you. ;D) This is mostly an aesthetic rule.

Things to NOTE for APPLICANTS:
-You get to choose some stuff, since the picture is only like, half sketched. Degree of 'rebellion' is up to you, and anything like wanting cuts, scrapes, bruises, or even wanting them to look like they gave up before getting hurt is fine.
-The picture will feature suits and guns. Because I love them.
-This will be mostly like a free headshot. Because of the positioning. I already drew some of it. SORRY D:
-This is for FUNSIES. And while I will enjoy it, it takes no priority. None. If I get my muse to agree to doing paid work, it gets done before this. If my muse won't allow me to work before doing this, then that is what will happen.

GO GO GO.

D:

https://join.me/415-178-914

I'm gonna have dinner, then I'll edit this journal and try some shit out, how's that sound, guys?

EDIT: LET'S DO THIS THANG

EDIT: UGH WHY SO SLOW COMPUTER. I did draw one thing though, thanks to those who showed up~

http://in5ovietrussia.tumblr.com/

I gave it to the y! gallery crowd, since I left that site, but you guys can have it too I guess. There will be photos and drawings that won't be around on FA, so I guess if you care, go on and check it out, otherwise, my activity here will still be just as steady as always.

I'm not doing anything illegal anymore!!

GO ME. I'm on the right track towards being a fully functioning member of society.

I'm trying to drink enough so that I'm numb enough not to care so that maybe I can do something today.

But I'll probably end up falling asleep instead. OH WELL. At least I won't hurt :D Until tomorrow, that is. My boss knew very well that today was St. Pat's when scheduling me for work tomorrow.

It involved stabbing a serial killer repeatedly in the back with a piece of broken glass.

I dunno if I want to talk about it, really, but it kind of messed me up more than it should have. X( Any good cures for nightmares?

My grandma didn't pay the internet bill, then issues were had.

Back now though @_@

Confession 1: Your biggest fear.
"Legit? Immaculate conception. I've never slept with a guy, and if I get pregnant, I couldn't even abort cuz it might be JESUS. I'd hate that shit. But I'd be an awful mother of Jesus. God would defs pick a better one. But still, that'd be a lot of responsibility.

Confession 2: Worst Nightmare.
I have a lot of awful nightmares. I suppose the WORST one was when I was in my house... but my house was raised up on stilts like legs and the ground beneath it was on fire and the house was on fire and it split in half and I was trying to save my cat and then the house split in two and I tried to jump to the other side, then my brother(who was a baby at the time), his head rolled onto the floor in a puddle of blood and it started doing that awful scream-crying that babies do.

Confession 3: Something you wish you could forget.
That nightmare I just described x.x

Confession 4: Best dream.
UHM. Hmmm. I just want to have a house where I can do what I want and a career where I can look and act how I want.

Confession 5: Favorite memory.
Any time in Savannah with Kyle, or the week I spent with Stell.

Confession 6: Worst experience.
Living with my family.

Confession 7: Biggest pet peeve.
People who say "I need" when they come through the fast food drive-through. What you NEED is to talk a walk and eat some veggies, asshole BI

Confession 8: Something you're paranoid about.
Most anything that seems ridiculous. I'm afraid of being crazy more than anything though, because I know that I probably won't be able to tell if I am crazy. I guess I'm most afraid of myself because I might do something to myself. I don't get frightened by other people hurting me so much as I worry about one day stabbing myself in the face.

Confession 9: What you thought of your current best friend when you met them.
Uhm. I guess I thought "She's pretty cool. Too bad I'll never see her again." And then I did and it was great.

Confession 10: Your strongest principle/belief.
Live and let live. I believe that anyone should have the right to do anything so long as it doesn't infringe on other people's rights or well-being. And honestly, I think that we should all help each other and that no one should have to be homeless while rich fucking assholes sit around with six houses. We have places for everyone, but the people that have too much money and too much power and shit take things they don't need.

Confession 11: What annoys you the most.
People. B(

Confession 12: Something you want to do before you die.
Backpack across Europe.

Confession 13: Biggest regret.
Leaving Savannah.

Confession 14: Hidden talent.
Singing. I don't like bragging, but you know, I really do have a lovely singing voice. I just never get to use it.

Confession 15: Favorite thing about yourself.
My glittering personality. No joke though, I think I'm pretty cool.

Confession 16: One thing you would change about yourself if you could.
Uhm. I guess my lack of motivation.

Confession 15: Worst habit.
WORST? Mmmm the habit of not doing things to improve my life.

Confession 16: Most important person in your life at the moment.
Stell, hands down.

Confession 19: A skill you wish you had.
Free-running B( I wish I could be an Assassin.

Confession 20: Biggest compliment you've ever received.
Mmmmmmmmmm... Well, I get a few good ones, but I can't like, rate them. Because any compliment boosts my self-esteem and makes me happy.

Confession 21: What you hate most about society.
Society

Confession 22: Something that makes you cry.
Dead kittens. And live kittens, because they remind me of the dead ones. Fuck. Here I go again. >.<

Confession 23: Something that makes you laugh.
JOOOOOHHHHNNNN FREEEEEMMMMAAAAAAN

Confession 24: Most treasured possession.
Uh. I dunno? I like my electronics.

Confession 25: Something no-one expected you to like.
I don't think anyone expects anything from me. D:

Confession 26: Strangest hobby.
Construction. I like building stuff. I am just bad at it.

Confession 27: Biggest ambition.
Opening a tattoo parlor in Portland, Oregon

Confession 28: Something stupid you used to believe in when you were younger.
That I had little imaginary critters following me just cuz I believed in them. I couldn't see them, but I pretended they were there and they were my bestest friends.

Confession 29: A random confession.
I have confessed about everything D: I am awful at these.

Confession 30: A few words to, honestly, describe yourself.
Self-defeating, but sometimes optimistic.

I got a desk. A really big desk. It is in pieces in my room. My bed is buried under all of the shit that must be tranferred to it, including all video games and my art stuff.

I have effectively made it nigh impossible to sleep, play video games, draw, or get online(other than on my ipod like now) until I have completed my desk. Going on minor hiatus, I guess?

You are both very fast and awesome. Thanks~

It's gonna be a main account lololol

 Mavu here! Thinking about making this my official commissions account, since I'm all up at doing that now~ <3