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Project Diva Future Tone?
Posted 8 years agoWanna put a journal out there to bump a year-old one down the chain, so I'll mention I've deep into Project Diva Future Tone on the PS4 since the end of last year. I'm trying to get better at it, at least enough to clear all the songs on Extreme/Extra Extreme, and would love to have more folks to talk to about Vocaloid songs and PVs, finer points of PJD gameplay and charts, and stuff like that. Anyone also trying to get better at the game, I'd love to talk tips and stuff, I've prolly got a few helpful insights here and there =3
My MCFC, what happened, and what it means for the future
Posted 9 years agoBEFORE I GET INTO THIS, THIS IS NOT ABOUT ANYTHING THAT HAPPENED TO ANYONE ELSE AT MOTOR CITY FURRY CON, THIS IS PURELY A PERSONAL ACCOUNT.
Gosh it's been ages since I made a journal, hasn't it? Well, it's become necessary to take some time and address a few things, and Twitter is a little too brief to hold the bulk of it. I considered Tumblr, but since this is more an update for the furry crowd than anyone else, I figured it would be more appropriate to leave it here.
Some of you may know that this was my third year being a part of the MCFC staff. My experience this year however was, to be perfectly honest, the first time I've ever come away from a con feeling more negative than positive about it. Let me be perfectly clear: the terrible parts of my weekend had absolutely nothing to do with convention itself or anyone present there. MCFC is always such an amazing atmosphere, there's so many people I love there and I always meet even more, and I adore working with the staff. Even working seven hours of reg a day, outside of the occasional frustration spot here and there, when things were going smoothly I was actually enjoying myself. There were also several other points of the weekend at which I was feeling good and having a good time, so don't think for a second that my entire weekend was awful throughout.
That being said, let try and explain what happened to me at MCFC this year:
For reasons I won't go into, my arrival to the con was -massively- delayed until very very late Thursday night. This left me unable to help reg at all, very tired, and with little buffer time to try and pick the night up a little before inevitably passing the fuck out. I then got up at 8:00am to be at reg by 9, where I worked for seven straight hours without really being relieved or getting a break until about 4pm. After that I actually had to leave the con, because I still had errands to run in preparation for the weekend that I had not had a chance to run due to my delayed departure. This killed another 2 hours driving around Novi. After finally getting showered, changed, freshened up, in relaxation mode, I bopped around the con and sponsor lounge for a little while. When it came around time when I wanted to start having a drink or two, I had a couple sips of some very nice top-shelf tequila, which immediately made me throw up. That ended pretty much any drinking I would attempt for the night until it was basically over. Because I then felt sick, I had to go lay down for a while, so that took away another hour. My night did eventually pick up and hold to a good quality for the rest of the night, but it was nearly done by then.
Friday, woke up at 8:30 to make reg at 10. Still pulled seven hours, actually got a break for an hourish in between when I wanted it though, and overall I was having a good time working that day. After I'd finished working, I got showered, changed, ate, and brought all my glowsticks and lights to the sponsor's lounge to crack them and put them, and also be social while doing so. I was there for maybe an hour and a half, drinking, cracking glowsticks, making new friends, talking about Bloodborne and Dark Souls 3, having a blast. After I was all decked out, I dropped off the stuff I had on me, went to the dance, danced for maybe five minutes before I then had to scramble off to the backstage area to throw up again. The problem then though is that I'd had quite a bit more than half a shot at this point, and even though I had felt totally fine the entire time I'd been drinking in the sponsor's lounge, simply laying down for a while didn't clear it up. I was very, very ill for the rest of the night. The very sudden decline also had me worried quite a bit, and I was at least fairly intoxicated, so I started to really freak out. I made the decision then that I just couldn't be there anymore, that I had to leave. After a very rocky trip back to my room, punctuated by several points at which I had to stop and find a chair and try and hold what little was left in my stomach in, I slept off the remainder of the alcohol in my system. As soon as I was sober, I hastily threw my stuff in my car (leaving several things that were in other parts of the convention center in the process), and made the five-or-so-hour drive back to Chicago.
Oh, have I mentioned I'm in the middle of moving to Chicago right now? I guess that's kind of important. I'll have officially relocated as of the end of this month.
The trip to Chicago was further out, but I felt better returning to an apartment with friendly faces rather than one that is empty and half-packed.
TL;DR: I got very rapidly sick both Friday and Saturday nights and decided it was necessary for my health and well-being to cut the whole weekend short and return home.
On the way home, I took a lot of time to reflect on why the weekend had been so terrible, on what exactly it was that had happened in relation to other things going on in my life, and why all those terrible things overrode all the good parts of the experience. Basically what it comes down to is that for the last seven years or so, conventions (furry ones in particular) have become prominent fixtures in life. They've been my only vacations since I was seventeen, they tend to provide a lot of reprieve from the things going on in my day-to-day, and they just reliably tend to be some of the most fun experiences I have. They act as gathering points for good friends I don't get to see very often, and provide unique experiences you just can't get anywhere else. I love conventions so much that I wanted to get involved in making them fun for other people, and I have fun doing that too. Bring all that up to now, having had a very very stressful last few months, a good convention weekend was something I really needed.
But here's the problem: over the last two years or so, I've been dealing with increasingly worse and worse health issues that have made the convention process very taxing on me. In the last year and a half, of four cons I attended (not counting this weekend), two of them have seen me in the hospital the following Monday. It's now reached the point where it doesn't seem like I can even make it through a whole weekend. Of course, the natural solution seems to be try and take things easier (if you know me at all, you know I tend to party pretty damn hard at these things) and slow down a little bit. I mean, I've tried doing that, still could definitely take it down a few more notches, but at that point I'm not really having fun anymore. I've gotten such a good handle on what makes cons fun for me, that doing anything but that leaves me frustrated and unfulfilled. Of course, there's also the issue that all the traveling I've been doing over the last year or so outside of just conventions has really started to take it's toll on me, and the more I find myself driving around the midwest and beyond more frequently, the harder those trips are on me each time. So this brings me to the other solution:
I could stop going to cons.
I really really don't want to.
But I might have to.
The more I think about it, the more that it seems like for the sake of my health, I just cannot continue to push myself well out of town for weekends of activities I just can't seem to handle anymore. It sucks, but that genuinely appears to be the reality of the situation. For my own well-being, I may just need to take sabbatical from conventions and traveling in general while I give myself some time to take it easy and keep trying to recover my health. Maybe after a year of taking things as easy as possible, I'll feel up to returning to a convention and will finally be able to enjoy them like I used to again, but as it is right now, I just don't think I can do conventions like I used to, and in light of that it may be better not to do them at all.
This is honestly a really hard thing to consider. A year without a single convention at all is one of the most upsetting prospects to enter my future in a while (and that's saying something), but I may just have to.
Nothing is decided yet, I'm still talking to a few people and trying to come to a more solid decision. If I end up deciding to take time off, I will probably still try to make it to Anthrocon this year as it is very important to me to see a few folks I know will be there. I will also likely still be present at MFF this year because I'll be living in Chicago, so the travel is less of an issue, and I've agreed to staff it this time around. What it will probably amount to is that I just won't add any more cons to my schedule at all for the rest of year, and then not do any in 2017.
Of course, one of the hardest things about this decision is it would mean that I would have to leave the Motor City staff, which is something I very very much do not want to do. MCFC means a lot to me, getting to be a part of putting it on has been an incredibly special experience, and having to step away from that would be difficult.
Anyway, I'm kind of rambling and talking in circles at this point. Like I said, no decisions made just yet, but these are the prospects I'm currently looking at. The fact that I'm only 24 and yet health concerns are facilitating such massive shifts in my lifestyle is really upsetting, and it's not put me in a great place, but it is what it is.
Gosh it's been ages since I made a journal, hasn't it? Well, it's become necessary to take some time and address a few things, and Twitter is a little too brief to hold the bulk of it. I considered Tumblr, but since this is more an update for the furry crowd than anyone else, I figured it would be more appropriate to leave it here.
Some of you may know that this was my third year being a part of the MCFC staff. My experience this year however was, to be perfectly honest, the first time I've ever come away from a con feeling more negative than positive about it. Let me be perfectly clear: the terrible parts of my weekend had absolutely nothing to do with convention itself or anyone present there. MCFC is always such an amazing atmosphere, there's so many people I love there and I always meet even more, and I adore working with the staff. Even working seven hours of reg a day, outside of the occasional frustration spot here and there, when things were going smoothly I was actually enjoying myself. There were also several other points of the weekend at which I was feeling good and having a good time, so don't think for a second that my entire weekend was awful throughout.
That being said, let try and explain what happened to me at MCFC this year:
For reasons I won't go into, my arrival to the con was -massively- delayed until very very late Thursday night. This left me unable to help reg at all, very tired, and with little buffer time to try and pick the night up a little before inevitably passing the fuck out. I then got up at 8:00am to be at reg by 9, where I worked for seven straight hours without really being relieved or getting a break until about 4pm. After that I actually had to leave the con, because I still had errands to run in preparation for the weekend that I had not had a chance to run due to my delayed departure. This killed another 2 hours driving around Novi. After finally getting showered, changed, freshened up, in relaxation mode, I bopped around the con and sponsor lounge for a little while. When it came around time when I wanted to start having a drink or two, I had a couple sips of some very nice top-shelf tequila, which immediately made me throw up. That ended pretty much any drinking I would attempt for the night until it was basically over. Because I then felt sick, I had to go lay down for a while, so that took away another hour. My night did eventually pick up and hold to a good quality for the rest of the night, but it was nearly done by then.
Friday, woke up at 8:30 to make reg at 10. Still pulled seven hours, actually got a break for an hourish in between when I wanted it though, and overall I was having a good time working that day. After I'd finished working, I got showered, changed, ate, and brought all my glowsticks and lights to the sponsor's lounge to crack them and put them, and also be social while doing so. I was there for maybe an hour and a half, drinking, cracking glowsticks, making new friends, talking about Bloodborne and Dark Souls 3, having a blast. After I was all decked out, I dropped off the stuff I had on me, went to the dance, danced for maybe five minutes before I then had to scramble off to the backstage area to throw up again. The problem then though is that I'd had quite a bit more than half a shot at this point, and even though I had felt totally fine the entire time I'd been drinking in the sponsor's lounge, simply laying down for a while didn't clear it up. I was very, very ill for the rest of the night. The very sudden decline also had me worried quite a bit, and I was at least fairly intoxicated, so I started to really freak out. I made the decision then that I just couldn't be there anymore, that I had to leave. After a very rocky trip back to my room, punctuated by several points at which I had to stop and find a chair and try and hold what little was left in my stomach in, I slept off the remainder of the alcohol in my system. As soon as I was sober, I hastily threw my stuff in my car (leaving several things that were in other parts of the convention center in the process), and made the five-or-so-hour drive back to Chicago.
Oh, have I mentioned I'm in the middle of moving to Chicago right now? I guess that's kind of important. I'll have officially relocated as of the end of this month.
The trip to Chicago was further out, but I felt better returning to an apartment with friendly faces rather than one that is empty and half-packed.
TL;DR: I got very rapidly sick both Friday and Saturday nights and decided it was necessary for my health and well-being to cut the whole weekend short and return home.
On the way home, I took a lot of time to reflect on why the weekend had been so terrible, on what exactly it was that had happened in relation to other things going on in my life, and why all those terrible things overrode all the good parts of the experience. Basically what it comes down to is that for the last seven years or so, conventions (furry ones in particular) have become prominent fixtures in life. They've been my only vacations since I was seventeen, they tend to provide a lot of reprieve from the things going on in my day-to-day, and they just reliably tend to be some of the most fun experiences I have. They act as gathering points for good friends I don't get to see very often, and provide unique experiences you just can't get anywhere else. I love conventions so much that I wanted to get involved in making them fun for other people, and I have fun doing that too. Bring all that up to now, having had a very very stressful last few months, a good convention weekend was something I really needed.
But here's the problem: over the last two years or so, I've been dealing with increasingly worse and worse health issues that have made the convention process very taxing on me. In the last year and a half, of four cons I attended (not counting this weekend), two of them have seen me in the hospital the following Monday. It's now reached the point where it doesn't seem like I can even make it through a whole weekend. Of course, the natural solution seems to be try and take things easier (if you know me at all, you know I tend to party pretty damn hard at these things) and slow down a little bit. I mean, I've tried doing that, still could definitely take it down a few more notches, but at that point I'm not really having fun anymore. I've gotten such a good handle on what makes cons fun for me, that doing anything but that leaves me frustrated and unfulfilled. Of course, there's also the issue that all the traveling I've been doing over the last year or so outside of just conventions has really started to take it's toll on me, and the more I find myself driving around the midwest and beyond more frequently, the harder those trips are on me each time. So this brings me to the other solution:
I could stop going to cons.
I really really don't want to.
But I might have to.
The more I think about it, the more that it seems like for the sake of my health, I just cannot continue to push myself well out of town for weekends of activities I just can't seem to handle anymore. It sucks, but that genuinely appears to be the reality of the situation. For my own well-being, I may just need to take sabbatical from conventions and traveling in general while I give myself some time to take it easy and keep trying to recover my health. Maybe after a year of taking things as easy as possible, I'll feel up to returning to a convention and will finally be able to enjoy them like I used to again, but as it is right now, I just don't think I can do conventions like I used to, and in light of that it may be better not to do them at all.
This is honestly a really hard thing to consider. A year without a single convention at all is one of the most upsetting prospects to enter my future in a while (and that's saying something), but I may just have to.
Nothing is decided yet, I'm still talking to a few people and trying to come to a more solid decision. If I end up deciding to take time off, I will probably still try to make it to Anthrocon this year as it is very important to me to see a few folks I know will be there. I will also likely still be present at MFF this year because I'll be living in Chicago, so the travel is less of an issue, and I've agreed to staff it this time around. What it will probably amount to is that I just won't add any more cons to my schedule at all for the rest of year, and then not do any in 2017.
Of course, one of the hardest things about this decision is it would mean that I would have to leave the Motor City staff, which is something I very very much do not want to do. MCFC means a lot to me, getting to be a part of putting it on has been an incredibly special experience, and having to step away from that would be difficult.
Anyway, I'm kind of rambling and talking in circles at this point. Like I said, no decisions made just yet, but these are the prospects I'm currently looking at. The fact that I'm only 24 and yet health concerns are facilitating such massive shifts in my lifestyle is really upsetting, and it's not put me in a great place, but it is what it is.
New 3DS Friend Code!
Posted 10 years agoIf you already had a code registered for me, delete it, it's now obsolete. My new code is 2681 2331 8954
Shoot me a response or a note with your code and I'll register it!
Shoot me a response or a note with your code and I'll register it!
Sudden Influx of Traffic
Posted 10 years agoHoly cow, I've gotten so many watches and favourites seemingly out of nowhere in the last couple days. Not that I don't appreciate it (and I do, thanks a lot <3) but I never get this kind of sudden attention unless I post art or someone else posts art of me, and as far as I know neither have occurred since I posted that pinup about two weeks ago, so if you don't mind my askin', what lead all you new folks here? =O
IMPORTANT: New Phone Number
Posted 10 years agoI recently switched services and got a new phone number!
Take note that if you have my Google Voice number (978 area code), that still functions the same. EG I still can send/receive texts on my phone using that number, so if you have that number, feel free to keep using it the same as before.
If you want my new proper number however, feel free to message me and ask! =D
Take note that if you have my Google Voice number (978 area code), that still functions the same. EG I still can send/receive texts on my phone using that number, so if you have that number, feel free to keep using it the same as before.
If you want my new proper number however, feel free to message me and ask! =D
Stream Done!
Posted 11 years agothanks for everyone who came <3
Stream Done!
Posted 11 years agothanks for everyone who came <3
Birthday Stream: Five Nights at Freddy's 2 is LIVE!
Posted 11 years agoI really appreciate anyone comin' on in to watch! =3
Channel is here: http://www.livestream.com/radioactivetiger
Channel is here: http://www.livestream.com/radioactivetiger
Birthday Stream: Five Nights at Freddy's 2! 8PM EST!
Posted 11 years agoHeya folks! Today is my birthday, and I got pretty much nothin' goin' on, so I figured it'd be fun to do a stream! FNAF2 came out recently, and I was a big fan of the first one, so why not that? I haven't played any of it at all, nor seen any playthroughs or footage, so it should be fuuuuuuuuun
Gonna start the stream at 8:00 PM Eastern time, which is in just over an hour from now. I'd super appreciate it if you came and joined! Scary shenanigans will abound.
Stream channel is here: http://www.livestream.com/radioactivetiger
Gonna start the stream at 8:00 PM Eastern time, which is in just over an hour from now. I'd super appreciate it if you came and joined! Scary shenanigans will abound.
Stream channel is here: http://www.livestream.com/radioactivetiger
Gonna be a guest on GVSU's student radio tomorrow night!
Posted 11 years ago6-8PM EST, you can listen here: http://whaleradio.org/ =D
Some furry friends of mine who still go there have a two-hour spot on Friday nights, and invited me to come join!
We're attempting to get enough listeners that we crash the servers, so we'd super appreciate it if you tuned in! Whether we make it or not, we'll be answering calls and taking requests for music. The phone number is on the website, so feel free to call in!
So if you're around then, come on in and listen! And if you feel so inclined, let your friends know. It'll be a good time <3
Some furry friends of mine who still go there have a two-hour spot on Friday nights, and invited me to come join!
We're attempting to get enough listeners that we crash the servers, so we'd super appreciate it if you tuned in! Whether we make it or not, we'll be answering calls and taking requests for music. The phone number is on the website, so feel free to call in!
So if you're around then, come on in and listen! And if you feel so inclined, let your friends know. It'll be a good time <3
Stream: The Binding of Isaac drinking game
Posted 11 years agoI’m streaming games again, this time getting up to some drunken shenanigans in The Binding of Isaac! The rule is simple: take a shot every time you die. I’ve got some powerful liquor at the ready, so come watch me flail increasingly terribly at the game!
http://www.livestream.com/radioactivetiger
http://www.livestream.com/radioactivetiger
Late-Night Stream: Dead Space
Posted 11 years agoStreaming Dead Space! I've never played it before, so it should be fun! Come join <3 livestream.com/radioactivetiger
Late-Night Dead Space stream!
Posted 11 years agoHey everyone, bored on a Sunday night? Tonight at 10:30pm (EST), I'm gonna stream Dead Space, which I've never played before! I'll post a journal with a link when it's up! =D
MFF - Read if you're gonna be there!
Posted 12 years agoHey all, if I haven't hit you guys over the head enough with it already, MFF falls pretty smack dab in the neighborhood of my Birthday. Last year I had a small dinner with a few friends on Friday night, but this year I wanna make it something kinda big. Right now there's no solid plans, but we're thinking Thursday night so it doesn't interfere with any major con stuff anyone's got going on. Probably some time in the evening, around dinner time. If you can't make it, that's okay! I know not everyone gets in Thursdays and some of y'all may be busy. If you're there and free though, come on and join! We're gonna try and get somewhere very close to the con (I'd like to avoid trying to organize a carpool if possible X3) and affordable so it'll work for everyone. I've been extending invites to a lot of people I know, as of now I can't really guarantee anyone to be there beyond myself and 
Ghimno, but I CAN guarantee it'll be an awesome crowd and will be an excellent time =3
Since we're trying to make it a big thing, I dunno how successful I'm gonna be at giving out info on an individual level, aside from a few close friends who have asked me to text them when I know more, but for status and updates and info, I'll probably be posting them to my Twitter during the week before the con weekend and Thursday afternoon.
OKAY so now that that wall of text is through, here's the meme thing. I removed all the questions about art because I can't draw for shit =P
Where are you staying?
Main hotel
What day are you getting there?
Thursday, probably early afternoon
Who will you be rooming with?
As of now looks like it'll be two joined rooms with, 
, 
, 
, 
, 
, and 
What is the best way to find you?
Look for lots of light-up things or glowsticks or both. Failing that, a Coldplay shirt and/or hat. If all else fails, I almost ALWAYS have my red shades on, the only times I don't are when I'm dressed for raves (and I'll be all lit up and easy to find by then)
What do you look like?
Like this, but with less Anthrocon and more Midwest Furfest:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10984693 (in fact I will probably be wearing this exact outfit on Friday)
Will you be suiting?
ugh, if I actually finish mine >_>
Otherwise, probably a little at some point in a friend's.
Do you do free art?
I will draw you the best stick figure I can
Do you do trades?
I've been known to trade food for sexual favours, though I reserve the right to refuse the deal~ (if it's seafood though, your chances are good =P)
What is your gender?
Meow
How tall are you?
Just a hair shy of 6"
Can I talk to you?
I encourage it!
Can I touch you?
Some furries are the village bicycle, I'm the Country Club~
Can I visit your room?
If you ask and/or are invited ^^
Can I buy you drinks?
Absolutely.
Can I give you stuff?
I guess? Dunno what kinda stuff you'd want to give me X3
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
I'm absolutely good for some hugs'n'snugs
Are you nice?
I like to think so! Those around me seem to think so too =3
How long are you going?
I'll be there from Thursday afternoon to Monday morning
Will you be going to parties?
I'll be hosting some pretty awesome ones =P
Due to financial issues, I don't know if I'll be able to set up the legendary FCN bar again, but I'll definitely be mixing drinks for people every night. My bartending skills come highly recommended! =D
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
If you yell TRAAAAAAAAAAX super loud that'll probably work.
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Again, if you ask and/or are invited =3
Can I take your picture?
Please do! There's always a huge shortage of pictures of me at cons X3
What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Not to spend too much money X3
Also to give the best performance I've done to date when I sing in the variety show =3
Ghimno, but I CAN guarantee it'll be an awesome crowd and will be an excellent time =3Since we're trying to make it a big thing, I dunno how successful I'm gonna be at giving out info on an individual level, aside from a few close friends who have asked me to text them when I know more, but for status and updates and info, I'll probably be posting them to my Twitter during the week before the con weekend and Thursday afternoon.
OKAY so now that that wall of text is through, here's the meme thing. I removed all the questions about art because I can't draw for shit =P
Where are you staying?
Main hotel
What day are you getting there?
Thursday, probably early afternoon
Who will you be rooming with?
As of now looks like it'll be two joined rooms with
, 
, 
, 
, 
, 
, and 
What is the best way to find you?
Look for lots of light-up things or glowsticks or both. Failing that, a Coldplay shirt and/or hat. If all else fails, I almost ALWAYS have my red shades on, the only times I don't are when I'm dressed for raves (and I'll be all lit up and easy to find by then)
What do you look like?
Like this, but with less Anthrocon and more Midwest Furfest:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10984693 (in fact I will probably be wearing this exact outfit on Friday)
Will you be suiting?
ugh, if I actually finish mine >_>
Otherwise, probably a little at some point in a friend's.
Do you do free art?
I will draw you the best stick figure I can
Do you do trades?
I've been known to trade food for sexual favours, though I reserve the right to refuse the deal~ (if it's seafood though, your chances are good =P)
What is your gender?
Meow
How tall are you?
Just a hair shy of 6"
Can I talk to you?
I encourage it!
Can I touch you?
Some furries are the village bicycle, I'm the Country Club~
Can I visit your room?
If you ask and/or are invited ^^
Can I buy you drinks?
Absolutely.
Can I give you stuff?
I guess? Dunno what kinda stuff you'd want to give me X3
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
I'm absolutely good for some hugs'n'snugs
Are you nice?
I like to think so! Those around me seem to think so too =3
How long are you going?
I'll be there from Thursday afternoon to Monday morning
Will you be going to parties?
I'll be hosting some pretty awesome ones =P
Due to financial issues, I don't know if I'll be able to set up the legendary FCN bar again, but I'll definitely be mixing drinks for people every night. My bartending skills come highly recommended! =D
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
If you yell TRAAAAAAAAAAX super loud that'll probably work.
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Again, if you ask and/or are invited =3
Can I take your picture?
Please do! There's always a huge shortage of pictures of me at cons X3
What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Not to spend too much money X3
Also to give the best performance I've done to date when I sing in the variety show =3
Important! Update about health
Posted 12 years agoSo those of you who know me (or follow my Twitter) probably have seen bits and pieces of the issues I've been dealing with over the summer, all of which have been a huge drain on finances and a big source of stress, and while I try to keep everyone in the loop, it's hard to keep up with. Especially between all this other stuff. So while there's been lots of shit going on, I'm gonna cut right to the important thing and just give you guys a very general idea of what the deal is.
So at the heart of it, I have a lot of problems with my GI tract, notably I tend to get ulcers in my stomach. I get them pretty frequently and when there's one, more tend to pop up faster. So far the only trace of a cause any doctor has come up with is "CLOSELY LINKED TO STRESS." Thank you, modern medicine.
The first time I knew I had an ulcer for sure was over three years ago. By the end of that year, I was having five of the fuckers surgically removed. Following discovering that they developed rather quickly, doubly so when there was already one, they had me taking a medication whenever I developed new one that would wipe it out. Over the last couple years, it worked really well about three or four times, then ceased treating them around the start of this year. Unfortunately, this means I have to have surgery. Furthermore, since the medication doesn't seem to work anymore, surgery is pretty much the only treatment option. It's a very very expensive option for the uninsured, like yours truly.
There was a clinical trial for a preventative drug that my doctor was looking into, but it came with high risk, and I guess early results weren't promising. Now I can't say for sure what things will be like in a few years. Under all this health care reform I may have insurance next year. Maybe the drugs will be better. I dunno.
Here's what I do know though: as things are right now, I'm effectively going to be having surgery so frequently that I don't think I'll have finished paying off the first before I need another one, and that's... I'll be honest here, a pretty grim prospect. I'm trying to keep my head out of unknowns though, at least for now.
So stick with me here, I'll do my best to keep y'all in the loop but it's hard to keep up with making sure everyone's up-to-date. I don't like doing these, I find them impersonal, but I may need to in the future just to make sure everything's out there.
OH, AND ONE LAST IMPORTANT THING: I go in to prep for my surgery 23rd September. I'll probably be in for roughly a week.
So at the heart of it, I have a lot of problems with my GI tract, notably I tend to get ulcers in my stomach. I get them pretty frequently and when there's one, more tend to pop up faster. So far the only trace of a cause any doctor has come up with is "CLOSELY LINKED TO STRESS." Thank you, modern medicine.
The first time I knew I had an ulcer for sure was over three years ago. By the end of that year, I was having five of the fuckers surgically removed. Following discovering that they developed rather quickly, doubly so when there was already one, they had me taking a medication whenever I developed new one that would wipe it out. Over the last couple years, it worked really well about three or four times, then ceased treating them around the start of this year. Unfortunately, this means I have to have surgery. Furthermore, since the medication doesn't seem to work anymore, surgery is pretty much the only treatment option. It's a very very expensive option for the uninsured, like yours truly.
There was a clinical trial for a preventative drug that my doctor was looking into, but it came with high risk, and I guess early results weren't promising. Now I can't say for sure what things will be like in a few years. Under all this health care reform I may have insurance next year. Maybe the drugs will be better. I dunno.
Here's what I do know though: as things are right now, I'm effectively going to be having surgery so frequently that I don't think I'll have finished paying off the first before I need another one, and that's... I'll be honest here, a pretty grim prospect. I'm trying to keep my head out of unknowns though, at least for now.
So stick with me here, I'll do my best to keep y'all in the loop but it's hard to keep up with making sure everyone's up-to-date. I don't like doing these, I find them impersonal, but I may need to in the future just to make sure everything's out there.
OH, AND ONE LAST IMPORTANT THING: I go in to prep for my surgery 23rd September. I'll probably be in for roughly a week.
Warning: I'm about to blitz your submission box
Posted 12 years agoI've got a ton of art I've been procrastinating uploading, so I'm about to rush through them now, apologies in advance!
I've moved!
Posted 12 years agoNot accounts, I actually moved to a new place of residence X3
Nowhere terribly far, about 20 minutes south of where I used to live in to Grand Rapids proper. I do have a new address though, so if any y'all think you need it, drop me a message.
Nowhere terribly far, about 20 minutes south of where I used to live in to Grand Rapids proper. I do have a new address though, so if any y'all think you need it, drop me a message.
Can anyone help find me an artist?
Posted 13 years agoA friend and I came up with an idea for some art that he wants to fund, but I guess I've lost my touch when it comes to searching for artists, or at least for something this specific. I need an artist who is open that can make a good fake movie poster, something that's not too toony, it's based on a real poster (with ourselves replacing the people in the poster and the title and subtitle and stuff changed). Anyone have any ideas? I appreciate it <3
Another MFF journal, and birthday tiger!
Posted 13 years agoYup, bogging down your journals with one more about MFF! I had a really awesome night on Thursday, nothing too exciting, but I met up with a lot of cool people and generally had a good time. Really psyched for today, which is my birthday! (a fact which I've only hit you guys over the head with a million times X3) Come hang with me, send me a message on twitter (@CloudyObsession) if you wanna find me! <3
Midwest Furfest!
Posted 13 years agoI'mma be there! Headin' out there shortly, actually. Friday (tomorrow) is my birthday, so any of you guys who will be there should totally come hang! An easy way to get a hold of me is Twitter, since it goes right to my phone. I'm CloudyObsession on Twitter. Hope to see you guys there!
Hey, I'm doin' a Let's Play!
Posted 13 years agoor did, rather, but I'm putting it up in parts so it's easier to watch X3
It's the indie horror game Home, and it's here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PCJB.....=youtube_gdata
It's the indie horror game Home, and it's here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PCJB.....=youtube_gdata
incoming emo journal
Posted 13 years agoBluh, I've just been so depressed the last week or so. So much BS building up, other BS being dredged back up, I kind of just want the world to leave me alone for a little while, but at the same time I desperately don't want to be alone, and the more I try to talk to people, the more alone I feel.
I need some heavy distractions.
I'm really hoping time sort of speeds forward to November, I'm gonna be heading to MFF for the first time, and the Friday of the convention is actually my birthday. I usually don't do anything or make any kind of thing out of my birthday, and for the most part I've been pretty okay with that, but I want to try and make it something special this year. Anyone else who is gonna be there should totally hit me up, it'll be a pretty fun time. I'll post another journal with more on that closer to the convention, one that's not all bogged down by emo stuff.
It just gets so tiring waiting for stuff to blow over and for things to get better, and feeling so utterly helpless to influence it. I'm by no means giving up or anything, I've always liked to think that as tough as life gets, I can always be tougher. Still, I just wish I could pull myself out of this.
I need some heavy distractions.
I'm really hoping time sort of speeds forward to November, I'm gonna be heading to MFF for the first time, and the Friday of the convention is actually my birthday. I usually don't do anything or make any kind of thing out of my birthday, and for the most part I've been pretty okay with that, but I want to try and make it something special this year. Anyone else who is gonna be there should totally hit me up, it'll be a pretty fun time. I'll post another journal with more on that closer to the convention, one that's not all bogged down by emo stuff.
It just gets so tiring waiting for stuff to blow over and for things to get better, and feeling so utterly helpless to influence it. I'm by no means giving up or anything, I've always liked to think that as tough as life gets, I can always be tougher. Still, I just wish I could pull myself out of this.
Apparently I'm obligated to enter this contest:
Posted 13 years ago
Gojithefox told me so. He's having this picture contest thing, here's a journal: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3635925/Happy Fireworks, everybody!
Posted 13 years ago...yeah, I guess that's pretty much it
=D
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It's the incredible four-year anniversary of...
Posted 13 years agoFA's month-long (give or take) site crash, AKA The Day the Boners Died!
I was just kinda thinking I should do a journal or something that wasn't an ad for an artist, and then I realized that that was four years ago this month, and that kinda threw me off. I mean, four years isn't that long, but it's still a substantial amount of time X3
That was the first year I had my FA account, too...
...holy shit, I've had this FA account for over four years o.o
So! Who else remembers that? People were going nuts after like, 3 days X3
I was just kinda thinking I should do a journal or something that wasn't an ad for an artist, and then I realized that that was four years ago this month, and that kinda threw me off. I mean, four years isn't that long, but it's still a substantial amount of time X3
That was the first year I had my FA account, too...
...holy shit, I've had this FA account for over four years o.o
So! Who else remembers that? People were going nuts after like, 3 days X3
