I'm still around, just trying to get on by as usual.

Have I ever mentioned how much I hate insurance? Might make a campfire story on why. Long story short, The mother fuckers sapped out what left I had and I do not have much of a thing left. I bet the reasoning why a little more got charged over is because of late fees. THAT WAS NOT MY FAULT BECAUSE OF THEIR OWN CARD SYSTEM BREAKING SINCE LAST WEEK!!!

While I have a job, it is a security job. One that us being very scummy by paying me literal minimum wage. Which is $7.25 an hour. Now Shade, why is it that bad? You are getting paid. Right? RIGHT?

Every two weeks I am. If I work that is. I have to be scheduled. And the main problem is sometimes they want me to waste two hours of driving a day to do a twelve hour shift. I put my foot down after being thrown into a dangerous place with zero instruction, despite being told that I was going to get instructions. So most of what I get per week hour wise is, at the moment 23 hours. Originally it was 14 hours, but one of the other guards broke their hip during the wintery escapades mother nature threw at us. Regardless, in total, and we may as well take that 25 cents out because that barely matters because taxes and whatnot, it tallies out to $322. If I am lucky, I can pay stuff off and still have some left over just to lose it the next month.

I have been trying to get a new job. It is not working because they do not care. They say they are hiring, but don't hire.

Streaming is off the table now as I cannot be bothered anymore with whatever the hell twitch has to offer. Not like they were paying me to begin with since I am not affiliated at all.

Ask me about commissions please and we can work something out. Just be reasonable with the requests. And even if you don't want a written story by me, maybe you know someone who does?

Copied and pasted from my other journal.

So. I may have screwed up my taxes. Longstory short, the entire time for last year, I had my pay exempted and I have to pay the federal tax deduction, which is around $3354.

While I have some money on me currently, it is sadly not enough to cover it all at once and I still have monthly bills to tackle head on.

I am willing to take commissions to write stories for you guys that you want that is okay for me to write. Heck, if you know someone who wants stories written, feel free to spread word that I am available.

It will be a slow process of writting the stories due to work and such, but this is dire and I need assistance please.

Prices vary a little bit because usually when I write, I have a hard time putting my phone down to stop.

Given how my writting is, I feel like between $50-200 seems reasonable due to how unhinged I let some stories go.

Again, any and all support will work.


Furthermore, I have been writting stories but I have not been posting them here. I have been posting my stories over here https://inkbunny.net/Shade69Nightwing

Left my job. Not being responsible for having to work 250% and on days that I do not get informed about. So now I am back at my old job. Great times it is.

Aside from writing now, I went into last ditch effort and spawned a new YouTube channel. Going to be doing some let's plays there and maybe in the future be a vtuber. If that is still possible for me that is.

Okay. Trying to get back in the flow of things.

Commissions, they are open and prices are now adjusted. Gotta keep bills paid one way or another so please don't be distraught on the decision.

Artwork, I am slowly working on posting as shown of some I have had for a while and some recent ones too. This is gonna bite me in the butt heavily as I have a lot that needs posted. I do have artists named on my computer for when I need to use postybirb for the bigger ones like the animations.

Now, work. Work for me irl is not going so hot as I am currently on Level 2 watchlist. Gotta love knowing my actual workflow is bad. 85-95% range sure is bad that it is not 100%. (Send help. Please.)

Other than that I am thinking on voice reading some things I have written, like the logs of the chancellor and bishop. But that's just me. Let me know what you guys think on the idea.

I hope you all have a wonderful day, stay safe and happy out there and do your best~

Edit: Got stung by a bee today, in the head. Painful yes, but thing is. Since we started raising bees a few years ago we found out my dad is allergic to bees. So this is a deadly gamble. I'm feeling fine for now, I got stung seven hours from this update. Which is around 13:40 Eastern Standard Time on September 16th, 2022.

I am adding this in just in case should the reactions for me be very delayed as my body works a bit differently. But all in all I feel okay.

Okay. Yes I know I have not said anything. Main reason, I quit my old job and got a new one. New job has me moving quickly and unable for a good portion of the day.

Computer issues have been resolved but incertain if it does it again. Happened twice so I am unsure what will happen in the future.

Stories. I am working on it again through another writers block. I do have another segment in the Terraria series done up but have not found time to remember to post. Another story is complete but I found it cringe the more I kept writting it... so if you all want to see it, please leave a comment below. The story theme is about my twin gem kobold kids getting hunted and I genderbend and transform the hunter into a kobold and teach them not to screw with kobolds. Again, I found it cringe worthy so unsure what to say.

Another story I have is more of a document. Remember when Kitsuno and I had Mal0 in our house? Yeah... the foundation found out. It is currently complete as far as I know but missing an incident report. I'll post later when on lunch at work. If I remember that is.

Now. Artwork. I have to get up on this as I got a lot of artists to credit and show the wonderful art I have gotten. I just need to use PostyBirb to get it all posted here since I am unable to do so by mobile.

Other than that things have been okay. And I hope you all are doing well.

So. I have all my artwork ready to be uploaded. At least the ones I have ready and raring to go. Up until my computer literally said to go fuck myself.

I don't know what the heck happened but my GPU is starting to go on the fritz. 90% of my stuff does not want to work or runs at extremely low framerate.

I really can't have one normal day now can I?

Trying to resolve this however I can before having to collapse for work. What grand timing it is for technical difficulties.

Well, late update. I be better. Not sure what I had in December. Either covid, and a very mild version I might add. Or this new virus I am hearing about. Omnicorn or whatever it is called.

Regardless, I am better and with my new work schedule of going back to 13 hour shifts starts next week, I am gonna attempt getting a lot of stuff handled. From getting vaxxed to attempting to manage bills. I'm not that bright when it comes to money.

Now. Other things to mention. Stories. I have once again hit a slump in writing and have had a severe lack of motivation. Getting sick made me a bit absent in the head when thinking. I will get to it slowly but no promises.

Art. I have a lot of art in the works and already done as of notice in my favorites that show either Kitsuno or me. I do plan on posting all artwork that I have here, I just don't remeber is all. That and also the 10 megabyte posting limit. What's up with that?

Anyhow, as I slowly get back into things, I do hope you all have a wonderful time and stay safe out there. The last couple years have been like my insides, hopefully there will be some salvation.

Ah great. The legendary chance of me getting sick. Horray...

Given the way that I am feeling, I may have to call off work the rest of the week possibly.

Basic rundown, I am here mentally, but slowly slipping into sicker stages. My body however, does not want to fully cooperate. Aches, cold chills, hot flashes, and a sore throat. My head is slowly getting stuffed up too.

Given that I was at a family thing on Saturday and there were one too many people, thanks for crowding us all in a room for photos. Hated that.

Not saying who exactly but you know who you are if you see this.

With the whole new covid varient out, yadah yadah yadah, I am more than likely gonna try getting swabbed at some point soon.

Do not hate me for this. Seriously. Don't.

I'm not vaxxed. I keep telling myself to get vaccinated. But I work basically every day cause nobody else in the factory will. I am forgetful. And my mental state has not been at all the greatest this year. But whatever, I am working on reprimanding that as best as I can.

Now in regards of this should it end up getting worse. Those that I have contacted for artwork that are still being made and or in a queue, if by some chance I end up in a much more horrible situation and pass away, please by all means put your heart into the artwork and or animation. It will mean a lot to me that I left off with some impression.

I'm stubborn and refuse to go down so easily. But even illnesses can bring down the most bullheaded people. I'll do what I can to be active when I am able to.

Stay safe out there and much love to you all cause you are all awesome.

UPDATE

There is a strong possibility that I have covid. Thanks a fucking lot Josh and Bethany. I'm calling it here. No more family gatherings. Cause this is twice their kids got people sick.

Follow the golden rule. If you are sick or have been sick and are recently getting over it. STAY THE FUCK HOME!!!

I may be in a bit of an art craving craze. I have no idea why but this just excites me. That and possibly because I have been expanding my kink list due to the past couples years, I may be more thrilled than expected.

So anyone who I pop in asking questions for commissions and YCH stuff I apologize if I go on too much or come off too excited with wild ideas for commissions.

Edit as my list of ideas of things I wanted to do is shrinking finally.

For any artists that happen to look over on this, if you wanna try out some of the things listed below feel free to let me know.

Ghost sex, where Shade penetrates a spirit of some sort and impregnates? her.
Latex creature that gets a nice filling from the kitsune.
Virgin Bride Harriet Broodle
Thanking the chef with a nice thick creampie, starring Peri from Fire Emblem
Noncon with a feral anthro nun who defies her morals of god to break her barrier to satiate her primal instincts.
Somnophilia with two crazy girls drugging Shade and Kitsuno to have their babies
Somnophilia where Shade and Kitsuno both have fun with a friend and play daddy roulette
Cream filled candy morphs done by Shade and tests ran by Kitsuno
Shade ending up inside a macro females womb while she is in heat and ends up getting stuck for kncoking her up while inside
Data combining with Renamon to make a Renamon clone that is high in arcane abilities. (Basically impregnating her but creating power data. Idk, still working on the idea)
Kitsuno and Shade in the Dragonvale universe on their park, Shade in the dragon breeding caves testing new positions and teaching the dragons proper breeding techniques on proper fertilization of eggs.

Aside from that, I really should focus on actual reference sheets for these characters.
Shade Nightwing
Kitsuni Nightwing
Ellizabeth Nightwing
Laurduca Goldenrod (design will be based off of Lady Laurduca from bigsexyplush)
Madame Aria Crestfield (design done, just need to place on a sheet for better explanation stuff in commissions)

And with that I finish this edit for now.

I am gonna be helpful and post some of the lovely art I have gotten from some lovely people. Gonna be a slow case as I am forgetful and since it is now snowing, the signal is gonna be even more slower.

Artists I have credit for the lovely art.

Sprrigs
xSkullStomperx
Crossman
ArcticKitsunewaffles-chan2021
Darth Escar

Potential ones that I should ask.
Shirokoma
PATA
And two pieces that I commed Sherri Mayim for.


And with that, I am off to find all the pieces that I can remember of. And if there is more I will update this should I find pieces I have more than likely forgotten.

Oh, and a new story is coming soon. Slow burns do wonders when writing.

Out of the lab and back on the floor. No longer will I have to cover an entire factory by myself. I now only cover just the machine I am tasked to now. Thank fucking god.

Gonna be using my small breaks at work to get started on making stories again, so look forward to Chapter 2 Part 2 soon.

Furthermore, I have some art pieces that I am gonna be posting here soon and each artist will be mentioned for such wonderful pieces. Aside from one as I had recently found it but sadly cannot remember the kind person who made it.

Tha invigoration is thrilling and I am happy to get started on stuff again.

Watch and about a week later I break again.

Not even sure if people even look at my page. But I am still alive and around. Somehow.

While I am still struggling against the incident followed by several things within the family, I am still here. Figuring out what to even do now.

I am still open for commissions, willing to write what I can while still searching for a new job. The factory has gotten worse and destroyed my mental stability a bit. But nonetheless I still owe some their stories the way they want it.

Furthermore of what I have recently done was a voice audition. Something new to my playing field and am curious if anyone needs a voice actor for say... voice of reason, random npc, evil antagonist, dad voice, whatever fits the part I guess.

Gonna keep this short for now and will try (probably gonna forget) to remember to check up here again.

Welp. Guess I should begin somewhere.

Back in November I met someone. I know I should know a hell of a lot better to not trust a complete stranger online. But I am a stupid idiot who is lonely. Now because of me being too nice and stupid I am in more trouble than I asked for.

Financial issues popping up more and more to where even me doing coms and working on my own writing while suffering in the factory will still equal to bankruptcy or close to it to where the government will be hounding my ass.

At several points do I ask for it all to be over to where I am silently begging for death in my sleep. To which at this rate of bullshit, I still am. It has gotten to that point to where I want to be happy and live life normally but I know that even if I did have that I would screw it up somehow.

Nothing is ever easy I know. But you think it would be hard just to function normally? That is all I ask.

I am considering myself on a short timespan now due to bankruptcy and other issues knocking on my door. Doubt I can dig myself out of this one this time.

Remember to do your best everyone and don't make mistakes you have a feeling you would regret. Be smart and don't take gambles that do not favor you without proof.

Edit: I lost all access to my bank. I lost everything.

No miracle can help me now.

Well I am a big dumb. I am now just noticing that there is a tab here in big letters labeled COMMISSIONS. And here I am putting my prices in my journals.

My eyes are either the worst at noticing some things, or the factory I work at has driven my intelligence down into the ground with these ridiculous hours and overwhelming amount of work. Really am starting to regret agreeing to these 13 hour shifts.

~~After my shift today or tomorrow I should have my commission prices setup.~~
Edit: I have the commissions made but my phone is being a butt trying to re edit what I made. Medium Stories has 10 slots open at the moment.

All stories are made on my phone via notes and around 20 pages is close to the 10 megabyte upload limit for me.

Oh, and I should let people know my schedule at least. I work during the night from 6pm to 6:30am Eastern Standard Time. (Yes I know it is 12 1/2 hours but I round it out to 13 or more cause I very rarely leave on time) and it is a twenty to thirty minute drive to the plant and to home. So I am more available possibly around 7:30am to 9am on work days. On my days off I am available from arpund 11pm to 10am.

Have a wonderful day everyone and stay safe~

Hello all~

While I slowly work on The Origins of the Void as I have both parts of Chapter 2 planned out and just ready to write. A new character will be joining Sheridan in his journey along with the merchant also appearing. Traveling Merchants are on their way and positions are open for those deals.

On a note for that, yes there will be sex, it ain't all going to be just crafting and surviving great battles. Sheridan is up for a lot on his journey and this next chapter is only going to be a taste of it.

Also as an update. I am a clueless moron who forgot all about Adventures in the Sea. That was back in July. How did I forget all about that?

So I have a chapter planned out for that as well. Plain simple story of me in the ocean, stark naked aside from diving gear on my head, and a raging boner that the strange ocean below will help calm that down.

And now for the poll that you all are itching for.

I have three one offs in mind and planted down on the quill and paper and I want to know which do you all want to see first.

We have everyone's favorite SCP Mal0, who ends up residing in the twins house through unknown events.

And we have a certain A.I. Kitsuno installed, who loves to be snarky and lewd. A.V.I.A.N.

Update. Third option based on a comic.
A mysterious book that is a portal to a goblin realm that a female goblin and I escape from after I go missing for a few days, worrying my sweet little sis.

All three stories will be made but I want know which one you guys want to see first.

Comment below and we shall see in the next 48 hours~

Have a wonderful day and do your best~

I feel like things are going slower due to hard to find motivation, yet things are still coming along.

Job wise... not so much. Gotta love that when you apply and am able to work yet are declined.

Anyways, to update on things, Chapter 1 of the Void Origins is nearing completion and Chapter 2 is within the drawing board.

To add things up to make it interesting to how difficult the story is, Master Mode with more realistic physics. And I have decided the class for Sheridan as well of what his main weapon focus will be.

I also plan on having the Merchant appear in the next chapter or so. Which means the Traveling Merchant will appear as well. Which means I will need to find ways for any of you lucky viewers to volunteer coming to Terraria to sell me whatever you've got.

Hope you all have a fantastic day~

Welp. It has been a good while since I last poked around in here. Work in the factory has been quite a fresh hell with the amount of stupidity they do. From getting a basically 13 hour shift to expecting me to do everything flawlessly on more than what I should be doing.

In all of that, my mental health is basically drained because of the factory, to where I wish I was fired to not deal with their crap anymore. Some commend me for being this strong to keep going with this. It could be that, or I am just that stubborn to not leave because jobs are not easy to find at all these days due to covid and whatnot still.

I have started writing again because drawing hasn't been going well aside from a simple small banner that I still need to work on for someone. When I will find time to work on that even more to make the actual banner from the little doodle is gonna be who knows when if the factory keeps me at a point to where waking up has me at my wits end.

I will be posting my stories here again as I will have more time writing at work when I bear and grit through it.

I have two stories coming out. One involving the story of The Void and it's origins from where it all started, leading into lore with Shade's and Kitsuno's father and mother. The other story is a little fun story Shade on the farm in Stardew Valley.

After I get the prologue for both stories written and up, I will open up some choices here and there for you all to help me continue the story.

Hope you all have a wonderful day and I do wish to help bring something to you all to help out during these trying times.

I am now deciding to open commissions. My body can’t take much more from the factory so I hope writing can surpass for now.

Drawing is an option but I will keep that one limited til I get the hang of drawing again. Most likely you will get a bad sketch from me in my opinion...

$3 for a short story. Probably around seven or ten long paragraphs.
$5 for a twelve to twenty paragraph story.
$10 for a long story between 22 to 30 paragraphs.

Rough sketching I will charge
$2 for a line sketch
$3 for a detailed line sketch
$5 for a shaded sketch

Sketches will be limited for the time being as I have no computer still so it will all be done by hand. Please refine these commissions with enough detail to help make what you wanna see. No heavy lewd requests please.

Five slots for drawing.
Four slots for short stories.
Four slots for normal length stories.
Two slots for long stories.

Let me know what you are interested in through notes and I will respond when I can.

I am now just realizing this, that I have been calling myself a mercenary for a completely different reason.

Any suggestions to what I should be?

Been a long while since I even set eyes on here. I am hoping to change that however I can.

Got a job close by but let’s just say things have been a bit out if hand. Pay is good, expectations from me.... worse than when I was working at Walmart.

I may start writing and drawing again just to get my flow of an artist back. Whether I will stay true to this is unknown.

Also as I am seeing commissions for emergency funding going around, I am willing to help as long as it is negotiatable. Feel free to send me a note about it and I will respond as soon as I can.

Much luck and love to all of you~

Shade Nightwing

Hi guys, I know I've been silent for a while.

Job searches aren't going so well and the one I'm at I'm not very fond of here anymore. Pay is great and all, but having to drive in bad conditions around the middle of the night is not a pleasant feeling.

If I don't get a closer job soon, my decisions for next year are going to have a dramatic change as I am thinking of joining the military.

Anyone out there who have been or are in the military have any advice? The thought is very much appreciated if you do, if not then support and hugs are fine as well.

Hope you guys are having fun out there~

Quit my job the bad way yesterday. Don’t walk out without giving your two weeks notice unless you really don’t have a choice. However, I have the possibility of getting a new job here soon, so yay for me!

If anything, if I get this job it’ll get my folks off my back for doing the stupid thing. But if I don’t get it, I’ve applied for others that I hope will call at some point.

Aside from that I also got a Bluetooth keyboard to test out on my phone. I plan on doing some role play in the future, thought if you find me please note that I have not done anything like this before so I may mess up a lot for a while.

You can find me on f-list under the same name.

Also, anyone out there know some good artists for some characters? Besides my twin kitsune sisters, I dug around and found some old characters/alter egos of mine and I think that they deserve a better home/life than stay with me and collect dust, so I will auction them off at some point.

Edit: Shade and Kitsuno Nightwing will not be up for auction.

Anywho, hope all you furs out there are having fun!

Shade

Ever had one of those moments where you feel like something bad is about to happen? Like really bad. I may have those moments where I can tell something is wrong and might happen, but that’s usually something normal such as incoming collapse of freight, or the sound of damaged material that will break when not attended to or replaced.

But this feeling I’m getting... it’s not right.

Not is it a feeling that sends shivers up your spine, but also makes your blood feel cold and everything gives off a sense of dread.

Life is weird. It has its ups and downs, the good times and the bad times. You never know what the outcome is. It’s always a gamble and whatever happens is what happens. It can be good, or it can be bad.

And yet... why does it not seem right?

Maybe the lack of sleep/irregular sleep hours is getting to me, alongside that I’m quitting my real job here pretty soon due to forewarned circumstances that I have held my tongue for too long over reasons best not explained.

Or is it something else?

I have no idea what I am doing at the moment so bear with me please.

I am willing to beta/alpha test any furry games anyone is making. Mainly within adult category, but child friendly games work as well. Please note that I have certain restrictions listed on my description and there are some that aren’t listed that you may have to ask.

On another note, I would like to make a reference sheet of myself (Shade) at some point and if anyone is interested in helping that would be very much appreciated. I’m still trying to get some backstory written down for my dual (fursonas?) so that may be a while.

I will say this now that payment will be an issue until I transfer banks as the one I am currently banking at (not listing name to not start something) are a bunch of communist pricks and don’t like me banking outside of the country, which effectively pisses me off due to my shopping habits.

PayPal is a way if that’s ok, but money can be a tight thing to hold onto. Don’t go giving or taking money if you/they can’t afford to.

Have fun out there and stay happy!